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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Medicff on May 17, 2014, 08:06:00 AM
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Well.... today is the day. Did roll call. Hope its right.
I started smoking when in high school. Switched to dip when I was a volunteer firefighter. Stayed with dip because of the stealth.
I am a full time paramedic and firefighter. 'fireman' Full time nursing student also. Married 7 years. One step-daughter and one son. Ages 11 and 4.
Over the years I have used Kodiak, Timberwolf, Grizzly, but most recently Copenhagen Wintergreen. 1/2 to 1 can per day.
Why quit? Well..... I can think of many reasons to quit. I guess I just hit my limit and I'm sick of it.
Sports: Not really into team or professional sports. I ride adventure motorcycles when I can or ride mountain bikes. My current hobbies are homework and house work........ yay.
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You are about to have the cleanest house in the neighborhood. You will need to stay busy and if cleaning is your thing, well, get ready. Start by getting rid of your nasty ass spit cups. You know the ones and also, get rid of the hidden cans in the underwear drawer etc. flush them, don't throw them in the trash. Flush the shit so you are not dumpster diving later today. Have you really made the decision to quit?? Are you quit?? Ask yourself this because we don't have room for some half assed excuses here as to why you went out and bought a can and packed your lip with the bitches poison.
We here at KTC are on your team. You are going to have some awesome quitters here to help. Get involved as much as you can. Get to know the members of your quit group. This will make your quit more enjoyable and much more likely to succeed.
Mogul
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Well.... today is the day. Did roll call. Hope its right.
I started smoking when in high school. Switched to dip when I was a volunteer firefighter. Stayed with dip because of the stealth.
I am a full time paramedic and firefighter. 'fireman' Full time nursing student also. Married 7 years. One step-daughter and one son. Ages 11 and 4.
Over the years I have used Kodiak, Timberwolf, Grizzly, but most recently Copenhagen Wintergreen. 1/2 to 1 can per day.
Why quit? Well..... I can think of many reasons to quit. I guess I just hit my limit and I'm sick of it.
Sports: Not really into team or professional sports. I ride adventure motorcycles when I can or ride mountain bikes. My current hobbies are homework and house work........ yay.
Welcome to the site Med. Getcher mind right and let's kick some ass. Roll Call every day. Keep your word.
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Well.... today is the day. Did roll call. Hope its right.
I started smoking when in high school. Switched to dip when I was a volunteer firefighter. Stayed with dip because of the stealth.
I am a full time paramedic and firefighter. 'fireman' Full time nursing student also. Married 7 years. One step-daughter and one son. Ages 11 and 4.
Over the years I have used Kodiak, Timberwolf, Grizzly, but most recently Copenhagen Wintergreen. 1/2 to 1 can per day.
Why quit? Well..... I can think of many reasons to quit. I guess I just hit my limit and I'm sick of it.
Sports: Not really into team or professional sports. I ride adventure motorcycles when I can or ride mountain bikes. My current hobbies are homework and house work........ yay.
Welcome Medicff,
Sometimes in the frenzy of taking care of others, we forget about ourselves. We don't eat right, don't exercise enough, maybe drink too much and don't get enough sleep. We thought we were exempt, above the laws of nature and poisoned ourselves to help deal with the "stress" all the while creating more by our choices. We do these things knowing full well the result, robbing our families of our time, shortening our lives and stealing our money... lots of it.
Your choice to quit every single day is an all or nothing venture. Don't let us down and we will do the same. There isn't much you can't do once you set your mind to it. Call, text or PM if you have any questions. Get to know the folks in your group. Get some numbers and don't turn your back on them. Put as much effort into your quit as you would anything else worth doing. Welcome to freedom!
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Great choice to quit!
Read everything here! So much knowledge about nicotine addiction on this site, and knowledge is power.
This will be one of the hardest thinks you ever do for a while, but it gets easier, and your health, money, and freedom are worth the fight.
Follow the path that is laid out on KTC. It works.
PM me if you need anything.
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Thanks to all of you guys. I don't feel alone. I had made the choice to quit a while ago but today is the day. I can be real stubborn so I know I will win. I can also be an ass so what condition I'm in when I am done with the rage etc could be interesting.
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You are about to have the cleanest house in the neighborhood. You will need to stay busy and if cleaning is your thing, well, get ready. Start by getting rid of your nasty ass spit cups. You know the ones and also, get rid of the hidden cans in the underwear drawer etc. flush them, don't throw them in the trash. Flush the shit so you are not dumpster diving later today. Have you really made the decision to quit?? Are you quit?? Ask yourself this because we don't have room for some half assed excuses here as to why you went out and bought a can and packed your lip with the bitches poison.
We here at KTC are on your team. You are going to have some awesome quitters here to help. Get involved as much as you can. Get to know the members of your quit group. This will make your quit more enjoyable and much more likely to succeed.
Mogul
This guy, ^^^^, mogul will tell you like it is just like any other quitter on here. He was the first to reach out to me on Feb 28th, 2014. That is my quit date and I can honestly say they have been the best 79 days I have had in a long time.
Listen to these guys and gals. They know what you are going through now and will go through. We have all been there, done that.
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You can do this brother! Stay on the site, and don't be afraid to reach out for help. I am only 53 days into my quit, but I feel a lot better. The cravings will be there for a while, but you will be stronger every day, and you will overcome this addiction. You got this!
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Thanks Mogul and Loot. I had made the choice to quit a while ago but today is the day. I can be real stubborn so I know I will win. I can also be an ass so what condition I'm in when I am done with the rage etc could be interesting.
Rage can be fun in chat, intros, or text messages. Do your best to keep quit rage from the family. We get it, they don't. We can take it.
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I can tell the rage already. I hope simply knowing this will help me stop before I run the family off. I know it will be hard. Kids are already plucking my nerves and I have only been awake for 2.5 hrs.
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You are about to have the cleanest house in the neighborhood.
This is so friggin true. Your neighbors will hate you but your wife will love you for so many reasons. Biggest of all is staying committed one day at a time. The first days it's important to keep your head down and stay busy. No down time at all. It's not the time to take on projects that require thinking or power tools. Thoughts zip in and out so quick you can't keep track. Wierd shit too, things you would never really think about.
Stay busy in the day, read every corner of this site at night. Your wife will get used to it, and she'll be your biggest fan. I quit with you today.
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I can tell the rage already. I hope simply knowing this will help me stop before I run the family off. I know it will be hard. Kids are already plucking my nerves and I have only been awake for 2.5 hrs.
Hey Medic, if you can go find my intro you will see my rage. We all do it. Hell, go read Sappers, I haven't seen rage and whininess mixed together so well in like forever. Just remember, Sapper, me, Loot, AJ, Doc, we all raged but we held tight. We don't take it personally and you shouldn't either. We understand and you need to understand. We just QUIT, no matter what, we quit together and we rage together. Brotherhood at its best here. If you ever leave this site all pissed off at another member, just remember where he or you might be and what might be causing the rage. Fuck the Nic Bitch, right up her dark, loose, hairy ass. And Fuck her owner that distributes her poison to you, me, and our children. Get your quit on brother, get pissed, Never, Never go back, don't let them take your money or your health. Defend your position til the end and you won't regret a moment. You may rage, but it will be worth it. I'm quit with you brother.
Mogul
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This is the place to rage. Say what you want because the nic bitch wants her slave back, but the KTC knows this, whereas other folks may not. So you can tell me to eat a dick and I will still be quit with you, because I promised all of you 8 hours ago I would not use nicotine today.
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This is the place to rage. Say what you want because the nic bitch wants her slave back, but the KTC knows this, whereas other folks may not. So you can tell me to eat a dick and I will still be quit with you, because I promised all of you 8 hours ago I would not use nicotine today.
Thumble, can I tell you to eat a dick? Not offering, just asking.
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Well.... today is the day. Did roll call. Hope its right.
I started smoking when in high school. Switched to dip when I was a volunteer firefighter. Stayed with dip because of the stealth.
I am a full time paramedic and firefighter. 'fireman' Full time nursing student also. Married 7 years. One step-daughter and one son. Ages 11 and 4.
Over the years I have used Kodiak, Timberwolf, Grizzly, but most recently Copenhagen Wintergreen. 1/2 to 1 can per day.
Why quit? Well..... I can think of many reasons to quit. I guess I just hit my limit and I'm sick of it.
Sports: Not really into team or professional sports. I ride adventure motorcycles when I can or ride mountain bikes. My current hobbies are homework and house work........ yay.
Welcome Medicff,
Sometimes in the frenzy of taking care of others, we forget about ourselves. We don't eat right, don't exercise enough, maybe drink too much and don't get enough sleep. We thought we were exempt, above the laws of nature and poisoned ourselves to help deal with the "stress" all the while creating more by our choices. We do these things knowing full well the result, robbing our families of our time, shortening our lives and stealing our money... lots of it.
Your choice to quit every single day is an all or nothing venture. Don't let us down and we will do the same. There isn't much you can't do once you set your mind to it. Call, text or PM if you have any questions. Get to know the folks in your group. Get some numbers and don't turn your back on them. Put as much effort into your quit as you would anything else worth doing. Welcome to freedom!
Thanks cope.... I really think you summed up my delay in quitting. Too busy, too much stress. Working 48-72 hours per week, school full time, trying to take care of the family, church etc I tried to say I had too much to do to prepare myself for success or too much stress. Well.... its time to take care of this little problem in my life.
Little background:
Wife had cancer. Had surgery last year. I am in school because I was faced with "what if...." Well. She is well now but refused many treatments. I don't know how long we will have. Hope till I am old. My kids won't see that with both parents if I can help it.
The first day sucks and so does the fog. I'm ok. Stuffing the stupid peppermints in like crazy.
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THe rage sucks. My son has been very good at disobeying today. Of all days to pluck my nerves. Now he is in bed. As long as he goes to sleep all will be well.
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Hey Medi, glad you found this site.. Drink lots of water... I have gum, seeds, hardcandy, cinnamon toothpicks, and fake shit all at my disposal every day.. Its my nic first aid kit.. Get some stuff together and keep yourself busy,busy... I quit 54 days ago and will never go back to that person I once was. You chose freedom today, but you will have to earn it and its gonna be a tough week.. Lean on your brothers in your quit group and expand your support system... Think only about the current quit day, never more than the present... You will deal with tomorrow as soon as you wake up tomorrow! I QLF with you today!
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Take........Deep.......Breaths.
It's gonna suck for a bit then it won't. I was busier than a beaver building a damn my first week of quit. Hang in there.
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You can do this! For the rage- take some time for yourself. Tell the wife you will need it read about the addiction, here on the site at the welcome center. Read quitters intros too. Exercise. Water water water! I quit with you.
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Ok.... My temper is getting better..... sort of..... it might just be that deep down, under the influence of the nic bitch or not, I'm just an asshole. Could be I am surrounded by them too.... cant be sure yet. These stupid rants of mine will be so embarrassing to read 6 months from now.
I found the fake herbal stuff. Jury is still out. Old fashioned round mints seems to be working best for me.
Having trouble with focus on my school work. This was not a problem when using. Gotta figure this one out and quick. Finals are next week, nursing school is hard and expensive.
Thanks so far for the support. Only 2 days in and already got a text of encouragement.
It is my weakest time of day..... I am still quit.
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Grit your teeth and bear it bro. Your life is gonna such for a while. Be glad it does. Just remember, the boy ain't got shit to do with your issues...and he doesn't deserve to have you taking it out on him. Bring it here...talk shit to LOOT.
Welcome to the site.
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Hey medic, nice to meet you in chat.
You have some badass quitter helping you out. Listen to them.
Dipping will not make you smarter or better at studying. Just slow down, breath and concentrate. Use fake chew if you need to just no nic.
You can do this.
PM me if you need anything
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Just be sure to remember what you are going through now. document it so you can look back on a time that you never want to repeat.
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Medic, sometimes it is WISE to calm down for a minute. Wind a clock and let everything take its appropriate place. Clear some space in the brain for "Common Sense". School, good. Paying your bills, good. Loving your family, good. Funding the CEO of US tobacco's drinking habit with your health and your families money, BAD. Take some time and calm down your life with a workout, not a jog or a walk, a workout. Push yourself to the limits just once and clear your head. See nicotine for what it is, a waste. It's a waste of time, money, health, and pussy. Yes, pussy, because I can bet you for any single swinging dick out there that could get laid, his copenhagen breath has chased the pussy away. Maybe not every time, but most of the time. Still, some fucker somewhere is paying his electric bill with our addiction. (Yes, I'm an addict, but not a user). If you continue to quit using you will be able to pay your electric bill with your old tobacco bill. It wasn't that much?????? Wait til you get the doctors bill, and the radiology bill, and the chemo bill. get my point. Use some common sense here. Step out of your addicted body for a moment and look down upon yourself and see what is going on. Yes, you are an addict and you will crave, you will rage, BUT........you can clearly see what is going on. You and your family don't need this. Trust Mogul, dude, I"m just like you........I just have the big picture now. and so can you.
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Medic, sometimes it is WISE to calm down for a minute. Wind a clock and let everything take its appropriate place. Clear some space in the brain for "Common Sense". School, good. Paying your bills, good. Loving your family, good. Funding the CEO of US tobacco's drinking habit with your health and your families money, BAD. Take some time and calm down your life with a workout, not a jog or a walk, a workout. Push yourself to the limits just once and clear your head. See nicotine for what it is, a waste. It's a waste of time, money, health, and pussy. Yes, pussy, because I can bet you for any single swinging dick out there that could get laid, his copenhagen breath has chased the pussy away. Maybe not every time, but most of the time. Still, some fucker somewhere is paying his electric bill with our addiction. (Yes, I'm an addict, but not a user). If you continue to quit using you will be able to pay your electric bill with your old tobacco bill. It wasn't that much?????? Wait til you get the doctors bill, and the radiology bill, and the chemo bill. get my point. Use some common sense here. Step out of your addicted body for a moment and look down upon yourself and see what is going on. Yes, you are an addict and you will crave, you will rage, BUT........you can clearly see what is going on. You and your family don't need this. Trust Mogul, dude, I"m just like you........I just have the big picture now. and so can you.
that's some good deep shit, brah.
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Medic, sometimes it is WISE to calm down for a minute. Wind a clock and let everything take its appropriate place. Clear some space in the brain for "Common Sense". School, good. Paying your bills, good. Loving your family, good. Funding the CEO of US tobacco's drinking habit with your health and your families money, BAD. Take some time and calm down your life with a workout, not a jog or a walk, a workout. Push yourself to the limits just once and clear your head. See nicotine for what it is, a waste. It's a waste of time, money, health, and pussy. Yes, pussy, because I can bet you for any single swinging dick out there that could get laid, his copenhagen breath has chased the pussy away. Maybe not every time, but most of the time. Still, some fucker somewhere is paying his electric bill with our addiction. (Yes, I'm an addict, but not a user). If you continue to quit using you will be able to pay your electric bill with your old tobacco bill. It wasn't that much?????? Wait til you get the doctors bill, and the radiology bill, and the chemo bill. get my point. Use some common sense here. Step out of your addicted body for a moment and look down upon yourself and see what is going on. Yes, you are an addict and you will crave, you will rage, BUT........you can clearly see what is going on. You and your family don't need this. Trust Mogul, dude, I"m just like you........I just have the big picture now. and so can you.
that's some good deep shit, brah.
Thanks for the wisdom and encouragement guys. Doing well.... no one has gotten it too bad. I realize I am short fused and try to stop before I say something terrible.
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Medic, sometimes it is WISE to calm down for a minute. Wind a clock and let everything take its appropriate place. Clear some space in the brain for "Common Sense". School, good. Paying your bills, good. Loving your family, good. Funding the CEO of US tobacco's drinking habit with your health and your families money, BAD. Take some time and calm down your life with a workout, not a jog or a walk, a workout. Push yourself to the limits just once and clear your head. See nicotine for what it is, a waste. It's a waste of time, money, health, and pussy. Yes, pussy, because I can bet you for any single swinging dick out there that could get laid, his copenhagen breath has chased the pussy away. Maybe not every time, but most of the time. Still, some fucker somewhere is paying his electric bill with our addiction. (Yes, I'm an addict, but not a user). If you continue to quit using you will be able to pay your electric bill with your old tobacco bill. It wasn't that much?????? Wait til you get the doctors bill, and the radiology bill, and the chemo bill. get my point. Use some common sense here. Step out of your addicted body for a moment and look down upon yourself and see what is going on. Yes, you are an addict and you will crave, you will rage, BUT........you can clearly see what is going on. You and your family don't need this. Trust Mogul, dude, I"m just like you........I just have the big picture now. and so can you.
that's some good deep shit, brah.
First off, congrats on making the best decision for you and your family. Haven't read from anyone about LIVE CHAT. Feel like you need to vent or get pissed off and yell at someone? That's the place to do it. That's what it's for. Remember, your family didn't make you put that shit in your mouth so don't take anything out on them. It's your fault you're here, not theirs. Come into chat and let it out!!! 'biggun'
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Well... I am at day 54 and wanted to log in some info.
Had my first dip dream last night. Scared me. Pissed me off. Then I felt something great: resolve, fortitude.
Not gonna lie it did mess up my day and its been rough going all day.
I have found myself not using fake. After about 14 days I found myself wanted to completely divorce myself from the appearance and motions of dipping. Using mints instead.
This brotherhood is second to none. You guys help me every day. Chat is an excellent distractor and place to vent.
If a lurker is reading this: the KTC formula works.
I quit again today.
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Well... I am at day 54 and wanted to log in some info.
Had my first dip dream last night. Scared me. Pissed me off. Then I felt something great: resolve, fortitude.
Not gonna lie it did mess up my day and its been rough going all day.
I have found myself not using fake. After about 14 days I found myself wanted to completely divorce myself from the appearance and motions of dipping. Using mints instead.
This brotherhood is second to none. You guys help me every day. Chat is an excellent distractor and place to vent.
If a lurker is reading this: the KTC formula works.
I quit again today.
You are winning my friend. Keep adding the ones Medic.
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Well... I am at day 54 and wanted to log in some info.
Had my first dip dream last night. Scared me. Pissed me off. Then I felt something great: resolve, fortitude.
Not gonna lie it did mess up my day and its been rough going all day.
I have found myself not using fake. After about 14 days I found myself wanted to completely divorce myself from the appearance and motions of dipping. Using mints instead.
This brotherhood is second to none. You guys help me every day. Chat is an excellent distractor and place to vent.
If a lurker is reading this: the KTC formula works.
I quit again today.
You are winning my friend. Keep adding the ones Medic.
Good job medic.....proud to be quit with you. Stay strong dude.
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Well... I am at day 54 and wanted to log in some info.
Had my first dip dream last night. Scared me. Pissed me off. Then I felt something great: resolve, fortitude.
Not gonna lie it did mess up my day and its been rough going all day.
I have found myself not using fake. After about 14 days I found myself wanted to completely divorce myself from the appearance and motions of dipping. Using mints instead.
This brotherhood is second to none. You guys help me every day. Chat is an excellent distractor and place to vent.
If a lurker is reading this: the KTC formula works.
I quit again today.
You are winning my friend. Keep adding the ones Medic.
Good job medic.....proud to be quit with you. Stay strong dude.
I re-read your May rage posts, and then yesterdays. Look how far you have come man! Awesome being quit with you today. And yes Raider, you can tell me to eat a dick, I just have to find it first.
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Well... I am at day 54 and wanted to log in some info.
Had my first dip dream last night. Scared me. Pissed me off. Then I felt something great: resolve, fortitude.
Not gonna lie it did mess up my day and its been rough going all day.
I have found myself not using fake. After about 14 days I found myself wanted to completely divorce myself from the appearance and motions of dipping. Using mints instead.
This brotherhood is second to none. You guys help me every day. Chat is an excellent distractor and place to vent.
If a lurker is reading this: the KTC formula works.
I quit again today.
You are winning my friend. Keep adding the ones Medic.
Good job medic.....proud to be quit with you. Stay strong dude.
spoken like a true quitter that gets it. nice job medic!
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Well... I am at day 54 and wanted to log in some info.
Had my first dip dream last night. Scared me. Pissed me off. Then I felt something great: resolve, fortitude.
Not gonna lie it did mess up my day and its been rough going all day.
I have found myself not using fake. After about 14 days I found myself wanted to completely divorce myself from the appearance and motions of dipping. Using mints instead.
This brotherhood is second to none. You guys help me every day. Chat is an excellent distractor and place to vent.
If a lurker is reading this: the KTC formula works.
I quit again today.
You are winning my friend. Keep adding the ones Medic.
Good job medic.....proud to be quit with you. Stay strong dude.
spoken like a true quitter that gets it. nice job medic!
There are some things we can't control, brotha. This promise everyday isn't one of them. Proud to quit with you guys!
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
True inspiration, brother. We are all here for you so don't hesitate to reach out.
Enjoy tomorrow and congratulations.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
True inspiration, brother. We are all here for you so don't hesitate to reach out.
Enjoy tomorrow and congratulations.
Prayers.
Thank you for the wise words. You've made my quit stronger.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
True inspiration, brother. We are all here for you so don't hesitate to reach out.
Enjoy tomorrow and congratulations.
Prayers.
Thank you for the wise words. You've made my quit stronger.
Encouraged and strengthened by this post and adding prayers as well
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
True inspiration, brother. We are all here for you so don't hesitate to reach out.
Enjoy tomorrow and congratulations.
Prayers.
Thank you for the wise words. You've made my quit stronger.
Encouraged and strengthened by this post and adding prayers as well
Very.
Cool.
God is good.
Life is good.
Perspective comes from unexpected sources and it's a beautiful thing.
Be encouraged brother.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
True inspiration, brother. We are all here for you so don't hesitate to reach out.
Enjoy tomorrow and congratulations.
Prayers.
Thank you for the wise words. You've made my quit stronger.
Encouraged and strengthened by this post and adding prayers as well
Very.
Cool.
God is good.
Life is good.
Perspective comes from unexpected sources and it's a beautiful thing.
Be encouraged brother.
Had to wipe my eyes after reading that Medic. Love stories like that. Love that your wife was touched by the note. Love that you were told twice that you have a beautiful family. Love that you are in August. Love that you are still quit.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
True inspiration, brother. We are all here for you so don't hesitate to reach out.
Enjoy tomorrow and congratulations.
Prayers.
Thank you for the wise words. You've made my quit stronger.
Encouraged and strengthened by this post and adding prayers as well
Very.
Cool.
God is good.
Life is good.
Perspective comes from unexpected sources and it's a beautiful thing.
Be encouraged brother.
Had to wipe my eyes after reading that Medic. Love stories like that. Love that your wife was touched by the note. Love that you were told twice that you have a beautiful family. Love that you are in August. Love that you are still quit.
Incredible tale, I can see it in my mind.
On the other hand, CONGRATS on HOF!
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
True inspiration, brother. We are all here for you so don't hesitate to reach out.
Enjoy tomorrow and congratulations.
Prayers.
Thank you for the wise words. You've made my quit stronger.
Encouraged and strengthened by this post and adding prayers as well
Very.
Cool.
God is good.
Life is good.
Perspective comes from unexpected sources and it's a beautiful thing.
Be encouraged brother.
Had to wipe my eyes after reading that Medic. Love stories like that. Love that your wife was touched by the note. Love that you were told twice that you have a beautiful family. Love that you are in August. Love that you are still quit.
Incredible tale, I can see it in my mind.
On the other hand, CONGRATS on HOF!
good to see you in chat. I had no idea things were like this for you, but wow are you rocking this world. My prayers are with you and your family. I'm a fixer and when I pound my head against a wall for finding something I cannot fix, it reminds me to pray. I hope you see what Im saying there and take it the right way.
Chris
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Wow. That's quite powerful post. Sending good thoughts to you and your family. I can't begin to imagine the stress and uncertainty, but I will say that your wife sounds incredibly brave and lucky to have you by her side.
Congrats on knocking at the HoF door! Clear eyes and steely resolve all the way.
Agree with TUCO...
thanks for sharing medicff. It's always so very easy to get caught up in our own internal struggles and battles that we often lose sight of the fact that others are struggling with things far worse than our own insignificant problems. It's also always a good thing to be reminded of that fact. Thank you for the reminder. Prayers for your wife's health and for your family.
True inspiration, brother. We are all here for you so don't hesitate to reach out.
Enjoy tomorrow and congratulations.
Prayers.
Thank you for the wise words. You've made my quit stronger.
Encouraged and strengthened by this post and adding prayers as well
Very.
Cool.
God is good.
Life is good.
Perspective comes from unexpected sources and it's a beautiful thing.
Be encouraged brother.
Had to wipe my eyes after reading that Medic. Love stories like that. Love that your wife was touched by the note. Love that you were told twice that you have a beautiful family. Love that you are in August. Love that you are still quit.
Incredible tale, I can see it in my mind.
On the other hand, CONGRATS on HOF!
good to see you in chat. I had no idea things were like this for you, but wow are you rocking this world. My prayers are with you and your family. I'm a fixer and when I pound my head against a wall for finding something I cannot fix, it reminds me to pray. I hope you see what Im saying there and take it the right way.
Chris
I absolutely see what you are saying. Faith and prayer are central to my life. It is there to guide my decisions and my actions. The walls are there to remind us we cannot do it alone. Thanks for you support.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Well here is an update: Scan shows that the cancer has stopped growing. Some of the areas were "resolved". Chemo seems to be kicking this cancer in the teeth.
So the stranger from the restaurant was right. Everything is going to be ok.
Still some ongoing treatments to do but we are winning.
You who prayed for us and with us: Mrs. Medic and I thank you more than you will ever understand.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Well here is an update: Scan shows that the cancer has stopped growing. Some of the areas were "resolved". Chemo seems to be kicking this cancer in the teeth.
So the stranger from the restaurant was right. Everything is going to be ok.
Still some ongoing treatments to do but we are winning.
You who prayed for us and with us: Mrs. Medic and I thank you more than you will ever understand.
I just got caught up reading your intro. You are a good quitter and a better husband. Things will be great for you. I feel stronger from reading this. Thanks for sharing that with us. I am going to quit my ass off for you and Mrs. Medic this weekend.
Jerry
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Well here is an update: Scan shows that the cancer has stopped growing. Some of the areas were "resolved". Chemo seems to be kicking this cancer in the teeth.
So the stranger from the restaurant was right. Everything is going to be ok.
Still some ongoing treatments to do but we are winning.
You who prayed for us and with us: Mrs. Medic and I thank you more than you will ever understand.
I just got caught up reading your intro. You are a good quitter and a better husband. Things will be great for you. I feel stronger from reading this. Thanks for sharing that with us. I am going to quit my ass off for you and Mrs. Medic this weekend.
Jerry
So happy you and your family have finally gotten some good news.
Quit with you EDD.
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Well,
Here I am at day 99. Wow.
Just wanted to log something that happened Thursday night.
As you guys know my wife has cancer and is going thru chemo. Her hair has fallen out but she is the most beautiful bald woman I have ever seen.
At dinner with the family at a local restaurant an older gentleman walked by on his way out and leaned over to whisper to me. He said "You have a beautiful family and I am praying for you." Just random.
Later the waitress from another table came by (different than the guy who spoke to me) and handed my wife a napkin with a note. The note read:
Hello friend, you don't know me but I felt that God wanted me to tell you that you have a beautiful family, that he is proud of you and that things will be ok.
Inside was cash for two times the amount needed for supper.
Wife was in tears. Happy tears. We didn't need the money but did need the words. It had been a rough couple of days.
We will keep the cash and pay that forward to someone who may need it.
Same for the words of encouragement.
KTC is like the note scribbled on the napkin for us addicts. It is words of encouragement when we need it most.
Stay quit brothers.
Well here is an update: Scan shows that the cancer has stopped growing. Some of the areas were "resolved". Chemo seems to be kicking this cancer in the teeth.
So the stranger from the restaurant was right. Everything is going to be ok.
Still some ongoing treatments to do but we are winning.
You who prayed for us and with us: Mrs. Medic and I thank you more than you will ever understand.
I just got caught up reading your intro. You are a good quitter and a better husband. Things will be great for you. I feel stronger from reading this. Thanks for sharing that with us. I am going to quit my ass off for you and Mrs. Medic this weekend.
Jerry
So happy you and your family have finally gotten some good news.
Quit with you EDD.
One day at a time, brother. This is a great read and I pray the good news continues. Keep the faith!
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Disclaimer: This is my log of things so I can keep track of my good and bad days.
Today was full of tests.
Test 1: Son awake at 04:45 vomiting. Yay. Dealt with back to bed. Up at 5:15 for work. Posted roll and began the day.
Test 2: I had a horrible call where a young family lost a 3 month old child today. I was checking on one the the medics when the shock was wearing off and the reality was setting in. I walked around the truck to see him packing a lip. I wanted it. Bad. I didn't ask and he didn't offer. I stayed quit.
Test 3: I take off early from work fresh from dealing with ^^^^ and the wife is sick (see previous posts) and take kids to YMCA for swimming lessons. Well.... the YMCA was like Walmart on black Friday. I dropped off my oldest so she could begin lessons. I made laps in the lot to get a spot to park. Had 2 spots "stolen" from me as I patiently wandered the parking lot for 25 minutes. I stayed quit.
Its day 283 for me. Some days are like day 1 all over.
You get stronger some days and others its like climbing Everest with and ice pick.
You quitters who text each other and hold each other up make a difference on the hard days.
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Disclaimer: This is my log of things so I can keep track of my good and bad days.
Today was full of tests.
Test 1: Son awake at 04:45 vomiting. Yay. Dealt with back to bed. Up at 5:15 for work. Posted roll and began the day.
Test 2: I had a horrible call where a young family lost a 3 month old child today. I was checking on one the the medics when the shock was wearing off and the reality was setting in. I walked around the truck to see him packing a lip. I wanted it. Bad. I didn't ask and he didn't offer. I stayed quit.
Test 3: I take off early from work fresh from dealing with ^^^^ and the wife is sick (see previous posts) and take kids to YMCA for swimming lessons. Well.... the YMCA was like Walmart on black Friday. I dropped off my oldest so she could begin lessons. I made laps in the lot to get a spot to park. Had 2 spots "stolen" from me as I patiently wandered the parking lot for 25 minutes. I stayed quit.
Its day 283 for me. Some days are like day 1 all over.
You get stronger some days and others its like climbing Everest with and ice pick.
You quitters who text each other and hold each other up make a difference on the hard days.
When I think my job is a bitch, I'll remember this post. You have a strong quit going to get through trials like this.
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Disclaimer: This is my log of things so I can keep track of my good and bad days.
Today was full of tests.
Test 1: Son awake at 04:45 vomiting. Yay. Dealt with back to bed. Up at 5:15 for work. Posted roll and began the day.
Test 2: I had a horrible call where a young family lost a 3 month old child today. I was checking on one the the medics when the shock was wearing off and the reality was setting in. I walked around the truck to see him packing a lip. I wanted it. Bad. I didn't ask and he didn't offer. I stayed quit.
Test 3: I take off early from work fresh from dealing with ^^^^ and the wife is sick (see previous posts) and take kids to YMCA for swimming lessons. Well.... the YMCA was like Walmart on black Friday. I dropped off my oldest so she could begin lessons. I made laps in the lot to get a spot to park. Had 2 spots "stolen" from me as I patiently wandered the parking lot for 25 minutes. I stayed quit.
Its day 283 for me. Some days are like day 1 all over.
You get stronger some days and others its like climbing Everest with and ice pick.
You quitters who text each other and hold each other up make a difference on the hard days.
When I think my job is a bitch, I'll remember this post. You have a strong quit going to get through trials like this.
'finger point'
Day 2, 200, or 2000. We're all just a moment away from being that knuckle deep, poison poppin, lyin nitwit, again. That daily post has not failed me yet, though. Proud of ya, brotha.
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Disclaimer: This is my log of things so I can keep track of my good and bad days.
Today was full of tests.
Test 1: Son awake at 04:45 vomiting. Yay. Dealt with back to bed. Up at 5:15 for work. Posted roll and began the day.
Test 2: I had a horrible call where a young family lost a 3 month old child today. I was checking on one the the medics when the shock was wearing off and the reality was setting in. I walked around the truck to see him packing a lip. I wanted it. Bad. I didn't ask and he didn't offer. I stayed quit.
Test 3: I take off early from work fresh from dealing with ^^^^ and the wife is sick (see previous posts) and take kids to YMCA for swimming lessons. Well.... the YMCA was like Walmart on black Friday. I dropped off my oldest so she could begin lessons. I made laps in the lot to get a spot to park. Had 2 spots "stolen" from me as I patiently wandered the parking lot for 25 minutes. I stayed quit.
Its day 283 for me. Some days are like day 1 all over.
You get stronger some days and others its like climbing Everest with and ice pick.
You quitters who text each other and hold each other up make a difference on the hard days.
When I think my job is a bitch, I'll remember this post. You have a strong quit going to get through trials like this.
'finger point'
Day 2, 200, or 2000. We're all just a moment away from being that knuckle deep, poison poppin, lyin nitwit, again. That daily post has not failed me yet, though. Proud of ya, brotha.
Great job Medic!
Closing the door on the poison is a process.
You are proceeding like a Rock Star!
prayers up for you and your family today.
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I'm about 40 minutes early, but I just wanted to drop in and congratulate you on hitting the 3rd floor!! That, my friend, is a huge accomplishment. You're one of the badassest (?) quitters I've met on here and I'm pumped to see you hit another milestone.
I'll see you on floor 3 soon and I will gladly quit 300 more days with you, sir. Enjoy the day and congrats again!
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Starting day one now. Little late at night but they say NOW is the right time. Just dumped my shit down the toilet and never looking back. 26y/o firefighter husband and father. My first son born 3 months ago. I'm doing it for him, my wife, and myself. I'm done.
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I'm about 40 minutes early, but I just wanted to drop in and congratulate you on hitting the 3rd floor!! That, my friend, is a huge accomplishment. You're one of the badassest (?) quitters I've met on here and I'm pumped to see you hit another milestone.
I'll see you on floor 3 soon and I will gladly quit 300 more days with you, sir. Enjoy the day and congrats again!
3rd floor, Congratulations!
BAQ April Ape support
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I'm about 40 minutes early, but I just wanted to drop in and congratulate you on hitting the 3rd floor!! That, my friend, is a huge accomplishment. You're one of the badassest (?) quitters I've met on here and I'm pumped to see you hit another milestone.
I'll see you on floor 3 soon and I will gladly quit 300 more days with you, sir. Enjoy the day and congrats again!
You are 40 minutes early? Is that what your girlfriend always says about you?
Thanks Jub(ella). I quit with you guys too.
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I'm about 40 minutes early, but I just wanted to drop in and congratulate you on hitting the 3rd floor!! That, my friend, is a huge accomplishment. You're one of the badassest (?) quitters I've met on here and I'm pumped to see you hit another milestone.
I'll see you on floor 3 soon and I will gladly quit 300 more days with you, sir. Enjoy the day and congrats again!
You are 40 minutes early? Is that what your girlfriend always says about you?
Thanks Jub(ella). I quit with you guys too.
HAHAHA....funny Medicff! I know I'm a day late, but congrats on the 300! Next one is HUGE!!
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
Prayers man.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
Thinking of you all day. Prayers and thoughts to you, your wife and children all day.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
Thinking of you all day. Prayers and thoughts to you, your wife and children all day.
Damn, Med. Sending good thoughts and strength your way.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
Thinking of you all day. Prayers and thoughts to you, your wife and children all day.
Damn, Med. Sending good thoughts and strength your way.
Prayers for your wife but also for strength for you while you are battling.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
Thinking of you all day. Prayers and thoughts to you, your wife and children all day.
Damn, Med. Sending good thoughts and strength your way.
Prayers for your wife but also for strength for you while you are battling.
Major prayers for you and your family. One thing in this thread that is common:
You have uncommon loyalty to your wife, you family and your quit. That much is clear. Don't feel bad for any of the choices you are making. You are doing a great job of balancing everything that is being thrown at you.
KTC is behind you fully...let us know if there is any way we can help.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
Thinking of you all day. Prayers and thoughts to you, your wife and children all day.
Damn, Med. Sending good thoughts and strength your way.
Prayers for your wife but also for strength for you while you are battling.
Major prayers for you and your family. One thing in this thread that is common:
You have uncommon loyalty to your wife, you family and your quit. That much is clear. Don't feel bad for any of the choices you are making. You are doing a great job of balancing everything that is being thrown at you.
KTC is behind you fully...let us know if there is any way we can help.
May God guide you and give you strength during this difficult time.
Sometimes the hardest thing to do during times like this is finding a way to take care of you as well.
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
Thinking of you all day. Prayers and thoughts to you, your wife and children all day.
Damn, Med. Sending good thoughts and strength your way.
Prayers for your wife but also for strength for you while you are battling.
Major prayers for you and your family. One thing in this thread that is common:
You have uncommon loyalty to your wife, you family and your quit. That much is clear. Don't feel bad for any of the choices you are making. You are doing a great job of balancing everything that is being thrown at you.
KTC is behind you fully...let us know if there is any way we can help.
May God guide you and give you strength during this difficult time.
Sometimes the hardest thing to do during times like this is finding a way to take care of you as well.
my thoughts and prayers to you and yours...
-
Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
Thinking of you all day. Prayers and thoughts to you, your wife and children all day.
Damn, Med. Sending good thoughts and strength your way.
Prayers for your wife but also for strength for you while you are battling.
Major prayers for you and your family. One thing in this thread that is common:
You have uncommon loyalty to your wife, you family and your quit. That much is clear. Don't feel bad for any of the choices you are making. You are doing a great job of balancing everything that is being thrown at you.
KTC is behind you fully...let us know if there is any way we can help.
May God guide you and give you strength during this difficult time.
Sometimes the hardest thing to do during times like this is finding a way to take care of you as well.
my thoughts and prayers to you and yours...
Be strong for your wife and family. Prayers and positive thoughts for you, your wife and family!!!!! May God lend his helping hand during these difficult times!!!
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Ok. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet. I hate long posts.
Mrs. Medic had been doing well but was having some pain where she had her radiation. She ended up with some contracture from the radiation but she was sent for a scan to be sure the cancer didn't come back. Well...... The nodule in her lung had grown. Almost doubled in size in 3 months. Yikes.
So the new plan was to do the cyber knife and get this spot knocked out. Well.... they burned her face a bit doing the mold for the mask for the cyber knife - not physically damaging but emotionally devastating.
I'm gonna just say that scheduling and preregistration is as big an oxymoron as an honest politician.
Yesterday she had a brain MRI because of serious ocular migraines. Results pending.
Today we went to get a lung nodule biopsy and gold markers placed on the tumor. This will allow targeting of the cyber knife. Well.... we came in thinking it would be a 5 hour deal. They collapsed her lung and she has a chest tube for the night. She is ok and resting well but we had some scary moments even for me.
Today is quit day 350.
Today was harder for me emotionally than any previous day so far. I felt guilty because I was angry that I now had to make school and work arrangements because of this. I felt guilty because i was angry I had to change my schedule.
As our kids get older I think more of them and how they are coping.
I made a difficult decision for me tonight. I decided to come home from hospital and be with the kids. Plan is to discharge her in the morning after the chest tube is removed. I have never left her side thru a time like this but I am burned out and needed rest to care for her tomorrow. I needed to talk to my kids about why mommy didn't come home after school today. I needed to hold them.
Today is quit day 350 - there was not thought of nicotine, no scrambling for mints or tea leaves or fake. Today was a quit victory. It was emotional as hell but it was a quit victory.
Damn.. words fail me.
Prayers, Bro.
With you ben. Thoughts with your family.
Ben,
Its never an easy choice, but there is also no wrong choice. I am sure your wife is in good hands, and your kids need you right now. Rest and be strong tomorrow.
Thoughts and prayers for you and yours brother.
Continued positive thoughts and prayers, bro.
Thinking of you all day. Prayers and thoughts to you, your wife and children all day.
Damn, Med. Sending good thoughts and strength your way.
Prayers for your wife but also for strength for you while you are battling.
Major prayers for you and your family. One thing in this thread that is common:
You have uncommon loyalty to your wife, you family and your quit. That much is clear. Don't feel bad for any of the choices you are making. You are doing a great job of balancing everything that is being thrown at you.
KTC is behind you fully...let us know if there is any way we can help.
May God guide you and give you strength during this difficult time.
Sometimes the hardest thing to do during times like this is finding a way to take care of you as well.
my thoughts and prayers to you and yours...
Be strong for your wife and family. Prayers and positive thoughts for you, your wife and family!!!!! May God lend his helping hand during these difficult times!!!
Keeping you in my prayers.
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i'm glad to hear she is feeling better. damn proud to quit with you Ben.
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Very nice 1 year for you Medic, you are a strong man to keep this quit going.
I am proud to be quit with you today and every day.
'party2'
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Very nice 1 year for you Medic, you are a strong man to keep this quit going.
I am proud to be quit with you today and every day.
'party2'
Med you are a much stronger man than myself. I hope all is well. God be with you and your's. Stay strong for your family, they all need Dad now. God bless, your family will be in my prayers tonight.
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I guess I can officially declare this my quit journal. I find it therapeutic. Unfortunately it reads more like a tragedy.
Wife has recovered from her chest tube was sent home on a Sunday. Wednesday evening her grandmother who she was very close to died. She was 97 and a diabetic and it was expected but it was painful emotionally.
Wife was able to do her cyberknife treatments with good success. Her last one was today.
School has been super stressful. I continue to come up just below the mark on exams. Concentration is difficult.
Yesterday my daughter was sick and we took her to the doctor's office. They sent her home but she ended up in the ER last night. Appendicitis. She had it removed today and is doing great. She may be there all weekend because it was infected. So her birthday party may be re-scheduled.
Finals are this week and next. I would like to pass so I don't have to repeat this semester.
We are ready to put the month of May behind us.
Funny story: I missed one of my clinical day and had to reschedule due to wife getting a chest tube. On my make up day I got a patient with a chest tube.
Next clinical day I got a 12 year old who had his appendix out. Today my 12 year old got her appendix out.
Told my instructor next clinical day I'm sitting at desk and answering phones.
Today is quit day 369. I passed one year. I don't think about nicotine much anymore other than to pause and shake my head at the droves of people outside still sucking on smokes. Slaves. The oral fixation still bothers me. When stressed I catch myself biting my lip or looking for mints to suck on.
Nicotine is has less grip but the effect (oral fixation) remains. If a new guy is reading: the struggle remains but it changes forms. Keep your guard up.
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nice job on the half comma! congrats!
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Well its time for an update. Much has happened since my last report at day 369. Today is day 539. Several friends and co-workers continue to struggle with the nic bitch and I try to help and lead them here but none are quite ready to commit.
Mrs. Medic is hanging in there. She had a scan to see if her treatments worked. They found a few areas of concern that they were keeping an eye on. 5 weeks later she was re-scanned. Cancer in her rib, another place in her lung, in her lymph nodes in her chest and in her abdomen - unsure if in her pelvis or lymph nodes.
Her cancer is fed by hormones so yesterday they took out her tubes and ovaries. She is recovering well.
We will have more treatment options now that they have induced menopause. Another round of chemo may be in order but that is only a guess. The immediate concern was to turn off the fuel that was feeding her cancer.
I am didn't make grades at school so I also am waiting to find if I am allowed back into school. Nursing requires Bs not C+ to pass.
I don't struggle with craves too much. I do find myself biting my lip or cheek. I'm not out of danger but I'm way more confident staying clean when around others that dip. Its only a small step of progress to report this round.
Other quitters here continue to be a source of strength and have been some amazing friends despite being a friendship that began online with addiction at its core. I'm thankful for this place and for the other quitters.
Today is 539. I quit again today.
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Good update Medic. Keep the faith and stay focused on the end result. Good thoughts only. Prayers.
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Good update Medic. Keep the faith and stay focused on the end result. Good thoughts only. Prayers.
Quit with you Ben. I hope the cancer will soon wither and die so you guys can move on to more normal times. With you buddy.
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Ktc has helped me to understand that life will still throw a few curves at you and we can't control it all. We can control being quit, being strong and being present. Sometimes that's all we can do. Thanks for being here, never giving up and offering support.
I keep trident gum on hand for those times I'd like to pull what's left of my hair out.
Positive thoughts brudda.
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Hey Medic,
Now that more options have become available, I'm optimistic that you guys and your team can find the one that's best for Mrs. Medic. I'm not much of a medical person myself, but even I can understand that stopping that what is feeding her cancer can only be a good thing when it comes to fighting this.
God bless her for her courage, and God bless you for being there for her. Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
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Prayers with you and your family Medic. Stay strong and keep pushing, no turning back now.
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stay strong medic and we are here for you.
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welcome to the 600 club medic!
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Just getting to the party, stay strong man and your story is a real inspiration to the rest of us.
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2 years to the day! congrats on the quit and keep on keeping on!
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2 years to the day! congrats on the quit and keep on keeping on!
Hey Medic, congrats on your 2 years!
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Congrats on the awesome milestone!
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Its long overdue for an update. Sorry for the long tedious post.
Lots has happened but for simplicity I will just copy and paste my wife's Facebook post:
Hey Everyone! This...will be the longest status ever...beware!
Ok, the last couple weeks have been very exhausting but itÂ’s time to pass along some very important information.
Wednesday, July 20th, at my radiation treatment, I was having trouble catching my breath. I was sent to the VA ER to rule out a blood clot in my lung, a broken rib, or possibly a pulmonary embolism. I didn't have any of the above so they gave me a bunch of fluids through my port and some meds and sent me home.
Thursday, July 21st, I met with my Oncologist and he had noticed that the blood work on my liver was elevated and he decided that we would stop the Afinitor (Everolimus/Oral chemo) and retest the blood in a week. I had already developed a fatty liver due to the previous medication combination (Ibrance/Femara), now these medications were either destroying my liver or my cancer was laughing at the drugs and doing whatever it wanted to (I think my cancer was doing the latter.)
Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday (July 22nd - July 25th) I couldn't keep down food, liquids or any of my medicines. My pain, nausea, and vomiting were not being controlled. My Oncologist again told me to go to the VA ER and they did an ultrasound of my liver and found there were lesions/cancer in my liver ("too numerous to count). The doctors and nurses got the pain and nausea under control, so I went home again.
The next day, Tuesday July 26th, I was super sick again. I had probably thrown up around 30+ times and was not able to move at all due to the most recent pain medication combo, Fentanyl patch (pain med) and Zofran (anti-nausea med) which made me feel like I was on a Tilt-A-Whirl. Very dizzy and nauseous. Ben contacted the VA Oncologist again and we had decided that I needed to get admitted to the VA hospital because I was so sick. When they pulled me out of the van (Ben, my mom, and the valet), I was vomiting foam and was felt deathly ill.
During my 10 day hospital stay, they treated me phenomenally. I had such wonderful, beautiful, people caring for me: Doctors, Home Based Primary Care Team, Palliative, Long-term Care, Psychiatry, RN's, LPN's, CNA's, Chaplins, Dietary, Housekeepers, and any other department that so graciously loved and cared for me during my hospital stay at "Hotel 4J". It took a couple of tries and different medication combos to control the pain, nausea, motion sickness, dehydration and severe constipation all sorted out. I literally could not void or go to the bathroom normally due to all the different pain meds I had been on.
While in the hospital, they also did a CT scan of my abdomen, which, I had a terrible reaction to the contrast. The CT folks handled it very well and they were able to see how much more the cancer had advanced.
Cancer has affected over 90% of my liver. One of the larger tumors is dangerously close to a major blood vessel, my inferior vena cava in my abdomen. This large vein carries blood/products away from the lower body. This has created an issue with swollen legs, which I affectionately call my new cankles (no ankles + no calves = cankles) and my now Vienna sausage toes. I also have a swollen abdomen that looks like I am 6 months pregnant because the liver is so angry and making the stomach angry...making me hangry, LOL!
After talking extensively with family, friends, and the experts in Oncology we have decided that further treatments such as chemotherapy, liver transplant, or other combinations of oral chemo/hormone blocking therapies would only make things worse, and hasten my decline. I am choosing quality of life over quantity of life and according to the experts, I would be suffering more to do anything else at this point. My cancer is too aggressive and the cancer is far too advanced to do anything other than comfort measures at this time.
The cancer is officially on my left breast implant/lymph nodes, right lung (4 places), right rib, L3, L4, S1, and Sacrum (vertebrae), posterior mandibular jaw on my trigeminal nerve creating that lovely pain called Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia (Suicide disease/"worst pain known to mankind").
I was able to complete/graduate with the 10 radiation treatments on the right jaw tumor and the tumors that were on my vertebrae, Wednesday, August 9th. Thank you to all the beautiful Radiation Therapists, Secretaries that helped me through the radiation! I still have the "love burns!"
I am now at home on comfort measures. Lots of pain meds, lots of lovin's, and lots of hugs. Time is short and I will make the most of it with family and friends. I am at peace with these decisions. My soul and my body are tired, but I am so excited, I am going to see you all again and I get to see Jesus! I get to see all my friends and family that have moved on. Most importantly, I will be free of this horrible pain and this cancer. I will be healed and close to God soon, this is why I have peace.
I will try my best to stay in contact with you all. I tire very easily and I have certain food allergies (Gluten, Beans, and any sort of artificial sweeteners, including Stevia Truvia) So if your gift is food, Ben will be trying to coordinate people's love offerings, so that it's spread out more.
In just these past 2 amazing weeks, so many family and friends have touched my heart with their love, gifts and time.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Ben, Aaliyah, Gabriel, Ikey, Daisy, and I love yaÂ’ll so much!
The support, prayers, and love have been super amazing! God has a plan and I am a part of that plan. I am blessed to see recently, how God has been using me to be Contagious Christian.
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Peace. Strength. Love.
Thoughts and prayers to you and yours.
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Medic, you are like Atlas right now, the world (your world) is on your shoulders and you are the rock. Prayers and thoughts for you and your wife.
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What an awesome wife you have Ben! Her resolve and your strength are an inspiration. Prayers for peace in your hearts.
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Prayers for you and you wife Medic!!! All I can say at this point I am so sorry your family is having to go through this at such a young age. I hope you have put her on hospice by now. My wife works in hospice and they are very special caring people. From reading her posts you wife is very strong in her faith and that is a big asset especially now!!!
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Prayers for you and you wife Medic!!! All I can say at this point I am so sorry your family is having to go through this at such a young age. I hope you have put her on hospice by now. My wife works in hospice and they are very special caring people. From reading her posts you wife is very strong in her faith and that is a big asset especially now!!!
WOW. Prayers for you and your wife. I pray her pain and suffering are eased in the next phase. Stay strong my friend!
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Sending positive energy and strength for you and your family.
Your wife's words resonated with love and peace and I know you and your family will cherish every single second you have with her.
Proud to be quit with you, brother.
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Prayers for you and you wife Medic!!! All I can say at this point I am so sorry your family is having to go through this at such a young age. I hope you have put her on hospice by now. My wife works in hospice and they are very special caring people. From reading her posts you wife is very strong in her faith and that is a big asset especially now!!!
WOW. Prayers for you and your wife. I pray her pain and suffering are eased in the next phase. Stay strong my friend!
my god. i pray for you and your family and the suffering you all must be going through.
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Your wife is one hell of an inspiration Medic. I pray for her, for you and your family. I hope you all find a semblance of peace and grace in such a trying time.
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With you always brother. Your wife is incredibly brave and strong. You have been a rock to help her through. I hope your wife, you, and your family find peace. Always here for you, Ben.
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Ben - I know we've been getting updates on our text group, but hearing that directly from your wife was unbelievable. You both are an inspiration for all of us to hug our loved ones tight every day.
Proud to quit with you every day. Hope you guys can enjoy some time in OBX.
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Thinking about you guys today, Ben.
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Positive vibes sent your way bro as you guys deal with this insidious disease. Fuck cancer.
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Positive vibes sent your way bro as you guys deal with this insidious disease. Fuck cancer.
May God be with you and your family.
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Positive vibes sent your way bro as you guys deal with this insidious disease. Fuck cancer.
May God be with you and your family.
Wow! You have an amazing woman. God bless her , you and the family! I cried as I was reading but towards the end a huge smile came across my face because that little woman knows she's going to heaven. Be as strong as you can my friend and your family will be added to my prayer list, thanks for sharing and God bless
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From my facebook post today:
Well friends here is the hardest post I have ever had to make. Jodi left us today to be with The Great Physician. I miss her already. She helped me grow spiritually in ways I never knew I could.
Visitation will be 3:30-5pm this Saturday August 13 at Salem Church of Christ. Service will be at 5 with food after.
Instead of flowers please donate to the Salem Church of Christ worship team fund. She was very active and passionate about this ministry.
Below is the scripture and photo from her cell phone wallpaper and the other was the most recent good day photo I have which is how she wants us to remember her.
Ben Flinchum's photo.
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Sorry to hear of her passing Ben. Heck of a woman to be able to express herself comfortably in a public forum with such honesty and grace. Praying for you to be at peace in the coming days.
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My brother, my heart is very heavily burdened for you and yours tonight. I'm so sorry, please accept my condolences. May God lift your sorrows and let you see that he only lets us borrow his angels here for a short time but we can spend eternity with them in a land that's far better than what we call home. God bless!
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My most sincere thoughts and prayers to you and your family. May you all find some peace.
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Ben, may you find some kind of comfort in good memories and loving friends and family. May God grant you Peace.
My heart goes out to you and sorrows for your loss on this earth. Continued prayers.
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I'm terribly sorry for your loss, brother. My thoughts will be with you and your family in this incredibly difficult time.
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Ben - May the memories of Jodi and the the love of family embrace you and give you strength.
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I am sorry for your loss Ben.
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I'm so sorry for your loss...
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Man, I am so sorry for your loss. She is at peace now.
I pray that you can be at peace as well.
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Prayers man.
Words may not mean much right now but know that we're all thinking of you.
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I am so sorry for your loss.
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Sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family.
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Prayers to you and your family Ben. It sounds like your wife touched an awful lot of lives in her time on earth and that's something to be cherished. May God's grace and comfort be with you in this trying time.
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Prayers for peace and comfort. Sorry to hear about your loss.
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I just read your story brother and I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and the pain you guys went through and continue to face. Your wife sounds like an incredible woman of strength and peace. I'm sure some of that strength will get you and the kids through. Hang in there man, and thanks for sharing your story with us.
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Peace be with you and yours in this time of grief Ben.
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You and your family will be in our prayers. So sad to read this today.
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My deepest condolences to you and your family and my warmest prayers for your wife. I have a ton of respect for you and just as much gratitude for sharing all of this here. My quit is stronger and my resolve is stronger. All I can offer back is this tiny slice of peace knowing that you and your wife had an impact on me. God bless
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Medicff,
Brother you and I have been through it together every step of the way. We are only as strong as those we surround ourselves with. I am always here.
ODAATEDD
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My heart hurts for you and your family. So sorry to hear of your loss. I pray for healing and strength for you and your family.
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My heart hurts for you and your family. So sorry to hear of your loss. I pray for healing and strength for you and your family.
It pains me to have to say the same thing two times in the same day, but right now, words just don't work. I pray you find some peace and comfort in this period of loss. I believe this separation is only temporary, and that you will see her again, in a far better place than any here on this earth. May God bless you and yours.
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This breaks my heart but like I just said on Todd's thread, God also had bigger plans for your wife and he needed her with him right now. You are in our prayers.
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Prayers with you and your family sir.
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May God guide you and give you comfort during this difficult time.
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Well today is day 847.
I cannot thank this group enough for the support over the last couple years. The last month has been hard but also full of what Mrs. Medic called "God moments".
As you can tell by now Mrs. Medic - Jodi is gone. Stolen from me because of cancer. While she is not here with me I know she is in heaven at peace with no pain. We went through so many trials. Many are logged in this very introduction thread. I have learned so much from her.
Here was her legacy:
Passion. Everything she did was with passion. It didn't matter if it was an argument, driving or love she did it with passion. Our priority as a family was to pass on to our children this - Love God with passion. Show God you love him by loving people passionately.
Some follow up since she has gone: Her daughter who lived with us for 9 years is now in California with her biological father. He loves her and I have no doubt he will care for her with all his heart. It still hurts to have had her so long and let her go. Our son, age 7, is doing well. He is coping well and continues to grow me everyday.
This past year a friend from high school was diagnosed with breast cancer. Jodi reached out to her and supported her in the beginning as she had treatments and surgery despite her own treatments and surgery.
A colleague from a fire dept next door has been diagnosed with breast cancer. I have decided to follow Jodi's example by reaching out to her and offer help as someone who has been through it for 3+ years. Its not a giving thing. In fact its a selfish move to help me cope. The experience Jodi and I had should be used to help someone else. That will counter my pain with hope and comfort for someone else.
The months and years ahead will be filled with firsts for me and my son.
There has been no mention of nicotine in this till now. My only thoughts of it now are when I watch friends remain slaves and my heart breaks for them.
Again - thank you all for being there. Remember: love God, love people.
PS: Don't know God? PM me.
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It makes me happy to see you posting roll daily. It would have been easy for you to drift. I can't imagine a better legacy than continuing her passion for God, family and life. You're an inspirational guy Ben, just like your wife.
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It makes me happy to see you posting roll daily. It would have been easy for you to drift. I can't imagine a better legacy than continuing her passion for God, family and life. You're an inspirational guy Ben, just like your wife.
Medcliff - you, sir, are the real deal. I'm very very sorry for your loss. But you are a great man.
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It makes me happy to see you posting roll daily. It would have been easy for you to drift. I can't imagine a better legacy than continuing her passion for God, family and life. You're an inspirational guy Ben, just like your wife.
Medcliff - you, sir, are the real deal. I'm very very sorry for your loss. But you are a great man.
My heart breaks for you and your family.
I'm sure you're a great dad. If you can keep that up, and I'm sure a tough guy like you can, I bet everything will be ok.
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It makes me happy to see you posting roll daily. It would have been easy for you to drift. I can't imagine a better legacy than continuing her passion for God, family and life. You're an inspirational guy Ben, just like your wife.
Medcliff - you, sir, are the real deal. I'm very very sorry for your loss. But you are a great man.
My heart breaks for you and your family.
I'm sure you're a great dad. If you can keep that up, and I'm sure a tough guy like you can, I bet everything will be ok.
Supporting you daily, praying for you and your family's Strength and Peace. Much love to you brother.
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It makes me happy to see you posting roll daily. It would have been easy for you to drift. I can't imagine a better legacy than continuing her passion for God, family and life. You're an inspirational guy Ben, just like your wife.
Medcliff - you, sir, are the real deal. I'm very very sorry for your loss. But you are a great man.
My heart breaks for you and your family.
I'm sure you're a great dad. If you can keep that up, and I'm sure a tough guy like you can, I bet everything will be ok.
Supporting you daily, praying for you and your family's Strength and Peace. Much love to you brother.
Hang in there. We are praying for you and yours.
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It makes me happy to see you posting roll daily. It would have been easy for you to drift. I can't imagine a better legacy than continuing her passion for God, family and life. You're an inspirational guy Ben, just like your wife.
Medcliff - you, sir, are the real deal. I'm very very sorry for your loss. But you are a great man.
My heart breaks for you and your family.
I'm sure you're a great dad. If you can keep that up, and I'm sure a tough guy like you can, I bet everything will be ok.
Supporting you daily, praying for you and your family's Strength and Peace. Much love to you brother.
Hang in there. We are praying for you and yours.
Ben,
Thanks for being an example. I can't begin to imagine the hole left in your life right now, but I applaud your ability to muddle through and overcome. You have made an indelible impression on me; how you're dealing with this and simultaneously helping others is nothing short of amazing. I pray God continue to comfort and bless you as you have blessed so many others. Peace be with you, brother.
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and just like that the 9th floor has arrived!
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Well quitters I guess much has happened and its time for an update.
This past Friday was my last working day at the fire department. 15+ years. When I began I was a 21 year old kid living with his parents. I moved out on my own, got married, had children, went to school, stood by my wife in her battle with cancer and promotions to Lt. and Capt. The firehouse was always my constant.
I'm sure I will miss it but I wanted to move on to a new career. I will be working as an RN in the ER at our local trauma center. The fire department required 56+ hours per week working 24 hour shifts. I won't miss the hours. As a nurse I will only be doing 36 hours a week. This gives me more time at home with my son. I will also be able to focus on some other career goals - short and long term this way.
I have also been seeing someone who I has been a friend from nursing school. She has been there for me thru the new changes I have had to endure.
You guys in my August '14 group have been so great to me. Support for my rants and bitching.
I'm excited for the future but also uncertain. I do know that had I not quit dipping with this group I would be struggling to try to be a RN. There is no tobacco allowed on campus and I would struggle. Now I don't struggle with it. Thanks guys. I quit again today. 1000 is just around the corner.
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Its been a long road for you but the comma has arrived! congrats on a well earned dangle!
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Its been a long road for you but the comma has arrived! congrats on a well earned dangle!
Congrats on the dangle!!
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Its been a long road for you but the comma has arrived! congrats on a well earned dangle!
Congrats on the dangle!!
Proven time and time again, no excuses too great.
Proud to quit with you on your comma day!