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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: BeerBottleSpittoon on February 17, 2011, 08:12:00 PM
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A friend of mine has been going through this process here at Kill the Can and I see that he is on day 131. Congratulations Scooners. Today I join him and begin my first ever Quit in 16 years. It will be a challenge but I will succeed because for the first time ever I want to quit. Until now (and even now) I have loved loved loved chewing. But last night I had my last chew and today I quit.
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We are glad to have you. Post everyday. You will not regret the decision.
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Now that is a screen name, welcome to the site and quit - if you ever need anything you have my number call. Get to know your quit group and read as much as you can. Here we go...............
Lee
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Congrats and welcome to the first day of the rest of your life. Its great to be quit.
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Great decision, ive been trying to get a couple of buddies to quit along with me but there just not ready yet. Ive been trying to get em to at least read the Kern's story or look at some cancer pics but they refuse to, u can only do so much. If you need anything holler at me.
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You really did not love it. You were addicted to it, huge difference.
I sent you some information already. Read all of the stuff I sent you and lets get this done.
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Welcome to the quit Beer Bottle Spitoon!
Post roll every morning, and realize that posting roll means keeping your word not to dip for the day. Read up, and have some alternatives ready for the oral fixation.
Great to be quit with you!
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Welcome, you can do this you have it in you.
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A friend of mine has been going through this process here at Kill the Can and I see that he is on day 131. Congratulations Scooners. Today I join him and begin my first ever Quit in 16 years. It will be a challenge but I will succeed because for the first time ever I want to quit. Until now (and even now) I have loved loved loved chewing. But last night I had my last chew and today I quit.
as of today, you no longer love it. You'll find, perhaps very quickly, that you detest tobacco. Read the site from top to bottom. When you are done, you'll hate tobacco for the rest of your life.
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Way to go BBS.
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Thanks you guys. Still learning the website and understanding what it has to offer but I really do thank everyone for the huge support group that is available here.
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Thanks you guys. Still learning the website and understanding what it has to offer but I really do thank everyone for the huge support group that is available here.
I have loved loved loved chewing. But last night I had my last chew and today I quit.
Hey BBS welcome to the MAY group, keep posting roll and ask for help if you need it..
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Welcome to the quit beerbottlespittoon! This site has a lot of stuff to help you on here. Make sure you check out the chat room as well. There is usually a handful of people in there and they can talk to you when you are having problems. I have talked to scooners, and he is a good one to have in your corner. This is a family here, and we all look out for each other. If you ever need anything, you have plenty of people on here to lean on, so make sure you do so.
Look forward to seeing you on roll call!!!
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A friend of mine has been going through this process here at Kill the Can and I see that he is on day 131. Congratulations Scooners. Today I join him and begin my first ever Quit in 16 years. It will be a challenge but I will succeed because for the first time ever I want to quit. Until now (and even now) I have loved loved loved chewing. But last night I had my last chew and today I quit.
as of today, you no longer love it. You'll find, perhaps very quickly, that you detest tobacco. Read the site from top to bottom. When you are done, you'll hate tobacco for the rest of your life.
Tarpon is correct. The illusion you made up for yourself is that you liked it. You don't. Step back and look at the habit itself and you will decide it is the most digusting fucking thing you have ever done. I will post an article here that may help you understand.
Understanding your enemy.
**Portions taken from an article on Whyquit.com**
As teenagers, what most of us thought would be a brief rebellious experiment was quickly transformed into a powerful lifelong chemical addiction as daily multiple nicotine feedings quickly became mandatory. New studies confirm that for some of us it only took coughing and hacking our way through a few nicotine laden cigarettes, or a few pinches of tobacco before the shackles of slavery began to take control. Five, ten, fifteen nicotine fixes a day became the norm, our way of life- when will enough be enough became the question. "Tomorrow, tomorrow I will quit” or "I love tobacco, it helps me think" “ “It helps me remain calm”, and many other lies we told ourselves daily. Welcome to the realities of true chemical dependency. A world built upon lies; Lies sold to you by big tobacco and lies you told yourself.
Psychologists calls our lies denial. Denial is an unconscious defense mechanism - just below the surface - we use for resolving the emotional conflict and anxieties that naturally arise from living in a permanent state of self-destructive chemical bondage. Three primary areas of denial relied upon by nicotine addicts are dependency denial, cost denial and recovery denial. In each, truth is sacrificed in exchange for peace of mind while remaining hostage in an artificial world of "nicotine normal," or to justify relapse. I know I told my self hundreds of times I could quit whenever I wanted to, I just did not want to quit. Tobacco kept me calm, helped me concentrate, gave me energy.. what horseshit. I know you all used this one too “ I will quit when Skoal reaches XXX per can I will quit.” All forms of denial to help you cope with your addiction.
Most nicotine addicts are completely insulated by a thick blanket of unconscious denial rationalizations, minimizations, fault projections, escapes, intellectualizations and delusions that hide the pain of captivity or create the illusion that lifes problems are somehow being solved by using. The average addict musters the confidence to challenge their addiction about once every three years, at which time roughly 1 in 20 will succeed in breaking free for an entire year. These horrible recovery statistics evenutally result in half of us dying by our own hand, with male users losing an average of 13 years of life expectancy and females losing 14 years. Our senseless self-destruction is undeniable visible evidence of denial's depth, and the power of this addiction. The addiction insulated us from the extreme price being paid with each and every puff or pinch - a little more of life itself taken, all to line the pockets of big tobacco.
Sadly for far too many the three years between recovery attempts will be too long. According to the World Health Organization the next three years will cost 15 million of our brother and sister addicts their lives. If you are here reading this you are at a crossroads. You want to quit but are not sure you can. This is where you need to be. It will be tough, you will have to endure some pain but it can be done. As a former can to can and a half a day user I can attest to the fact that this site and the methods here do work. You have a choice to make today, another try in three years may be too late.
Make no mistakes, this is a battle for your lives. What will your decision be ?
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Thanks Greg. I hear you loud and clear man. These are some of the many reasons that led to the momentus day last wednesday when I finally arrived at the point where I was ready to quit chewing. I write some of the things that I write because I mean them whole heartedly. At day 4 today, I still love chewing. I am pissed off that I can no longer enjoy a chew.
I am not chewing because I don't like chewing. I am not chewing because other things in life have become more important to me for the first time. My can of kodiak that was readily available had been the most important thing for 16 years. No longer is that the case. As I am progressing through this shitty ass mother fucking piece of shit cock sucking detox phase I am bending ever so slightly towards the:
"The illusion you made up for yourself is that you liked it. You don't. Step back and look at the habit itself and you will decide it is the most digusting fucking thing you have ever done."
stage.
I am not having fun and will not pretend to. But I am here and ready. And by Gods good grace I will be here at day 100, 200...500. Enthusiastic about quitting my addiction to nicotine.
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Two things for today.
I feel like I've made a lot of progress since my last post. I am winding down day 6 and feel pretty good in my quit. The first 3-4 days that included a long weekend at home was truly a bitch. The nearly constant flashes of chew ARE (edit) crazy, but...(I'm also in day 2 of my insanity workout and that helps too for me).
Second, I love this website. I spent a lot of time here this past three day weekend reading as much as I can. There is so much here for the new quit person it's crazy. It's just awsome. Period.
If your reading this and haven't read "my page is better than yours" you are truly missing out. What happened to that guy? I hope he's ok.
Thanks to the folks that have been here for some time. Your efforts and dedication are something else.
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Two things for today.
I feel like I've made a lot of progress since my last post. I am winding down day 6 and feel pretty good in my quit. The first 3-4 days that included a long weekend at home was truly a bitch. The nearly constant flashes of chew ARE (edit) crazy, but...(I'm also in day 2 of my insanity workout and that helps too for me).
Second, I love this website. I spent a lot of time here this past three day weekend reading as much as I can. There is so much here for the new quit person it's crazy. It's just awsome. Period.
If your reading this and haven't read "my page is better than yours" you are truly missing out. What happened to that guy? I hope he's ok.
Thanks to the folks that have been here for some time. Your efforts and dedication are something else.
Awesome man. Take in everything you can. Read all the old quit groups too, tons of good shit in there.
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Second Dip dream last night...
Threw in a dip while walking out the door to go somewhere and realized afterwords that I fucked up my quit. I spit the thing out immediatlely and felt the guilt sweep over me. I started to think of how to handle it. Then the thing just drug on and on and on. Kept talking to myself about how easy it happened and how I never even thought about it. I was amazed at how the process of putting the dip in was as automatic as breathing.
I've been contemplating this dream all day, as I'm sure many of you have done with your own dip dreams. Tomorrows my Day 30 and there hasn't been a day gone by yet that I haven't thought about my quit at some level. My dream served as a reminder to me that every day is a battle and that I cannot let my guard down. :angry:
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Second Dip dream last night...
Threw in a dip while walking out the door to go somewhere and realized afterwords that I fucked up my quit. I spit the thing out immediatlely and felt the guilt sweep over me. I started to think of how to handle it. Then the thing just drug on and on and on. Kept talking to myself about how easy it happened and how I never even thought about it. I was amazed at how the process of putting the dip in was as automatic as breathing.
I've been contemplating this dream all day, as I'm sure many of you have done with your own dip dreams. Tomorrows my Day 30 and there hasn't been a day gone by yet that I haven't thought about my quit at some level. My dream served as a reminder to me that every day is a battle and that I cannot let my guard down. :angry:
Keep that thought as your quit progresses and you will be fine. It is a daily battle and the reason we say to post roll EVERY day.
Never let your guard down.
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Weekends. Not my favorite part. I'm one of those guys that gets up early for work and generally puts in a busy problem solving day with little room for distractions. Get home and fluff through the news and get to bed early. Monday through Friday. Then the weekend comes. My dive in full throttle as fast as you can and hope you come out the other side ready to go two days of the week.
I hate weekends right now.
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Weekends. Not my favorite part. I'm one of those guys that gets up early for work and generally puts in a busy problem solving day with little room for distractions. Get home and fluff through the news and get to bed early. Monday through Friday. Then the weekend comes. My dive in full throttle as fast as you can and hope you come out the other side ready to go two days of the week.
I hate weekends right now.
Hang tough brother, you got my number if you need it.
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Weekends. Not my favorite part. I'm one of those guys that gets up early for work and generally puts in a busy problem solving day with little room for distractions. Get home and fluff through the news and get to bed early. Monday through Friday. Then the weekend comes. My dive in full throttle as fast as you can and hope you come out the other side ready to go two days of the week.Â
I hate weekends right now.
Hang tough brother, you got my number if you need it.
Make sure you run some! I suppose you are doing that.
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Weekends. Not my favorite part. I'm one of those guys that gets up early for work and generally puts in a busy problem solving day with little room for distractions. Get home and fluff through the news and get to bed early. Monday through Friday. Then the weekend comes. My dive in full throttle as fast as you can and hope you come out the other side ready to go two days of the week. Â
I hate weekends right now.
Hang tough brother, you got my number if you need it.
Make sure you run some! I suppose you are doing that.
Just stay clean. You will find a whole new world of things to do. I hated the weekends too early on. Keep your mind busy, get some exercise.
My weekends are full now and I look forward to them. Spend time with my family, friends. Life is much better without dip in your face !!
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Weekends. Not my favorite part. I'm one of those guys that gets up early for work and generally puts in a busy problem solving day with little room for distractions. Get home and fluff through the news and get to bed early. Monday through Friday. Then the weekend comes. My dive in full throttle as fast as you can and hope you come out the other side ready to go two days of the week. Â
I hate weekends right now.
Hang tough brother, you got my number if you need it.
Make sure you run some! I suppose you are doing that.
Just stay clean. You will find a whole new world of things to do. I hated the weekends too early on. Keep your mind busy, get some exercise.
My weekends are full now and I look forward to them. Spend time with my family, friends. Life is much better without dip in your face !!
Agreed.
I spent the last hour or so here reading like I usually do on the weekends when I don't have to work and just hanging out. A guy here posted a link that led to another link that had a particular resonance with me today. Part of it said: "The law of physiological addiction states that administration of a drug to an addict will cause reestablishment of the dependence on that substance. (http://whyquit.com/joel/Joel_04_02_law_of_addiction.html)" I know that this is preached throughout the KTC site but in the context of this article it really meant something today. Lately I've not been so much concerned about the day to day, although it continues to be a constant struggle. I stick to the quit and participate and keep moving forward. But the for some reason the long term future is freaking me out.
Thx Bros and here's to a great weekend!
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Sorry to bump the shit that's going on here in the introductions today but I would like to have this shit where I can find it later. Keep quit you fuckers.
If you haven't read up on the funk....... now is the time
Tighten your helmets May
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Quit TONY GWYNN (http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/otl/news/story?id=6257656)
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Sorry to bump the shit that's going on here in the introductions today but I would like to have this shit where I can find it later. Keep quit you fuckers.
If you haven't read up on the funk....... now is the time
Tighten your helmets May
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Quit TONY GWYNN (http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/otl/news/story?id=6257656)
The Tony G story is very hair raising. Putting in a dip before the wound in his mouth was even closed shows just how powerful the Nicotine Grip can be, and how blind addicts can be to the truth. Glad I am quit.
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How many times have you started typing something only to cancel out because your too chicken shit to express your thoughts.
Me: Join 17 Feb 2011
Canceled out: At least 25.
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I am superhuman without nicotine in my system.
The shit I've accomplished in the last 57 days unbelievable to me.
This I post to myself.
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128 days and today my brain tried to screw with me. Heading up to my dads house this afternoon, who lives up in the mountains, to do a little RR. Prime time chew factory. Brain thought WTF. I said FUCK OFF!!! I will win. Brain can go screw itself. No more nic.
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Way to go BBS. Keep kicking that whore in the face.
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Nice, BBS! Your quit inspires me!
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Nice work brother. That's awesome. Way to take control.
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Quick rant for this evening.
Had a great weekend throwing down with the folks I went to college with 10 years ago. It's amazing what little and lot can change in 10 years. Within an hour of our arrival I was already being asked: "are you still chewing?" And I was damn proud to say NO! I'm 156 days quit. Although they were happy for me it was and continues to be a little bit astonishing how isolated in my quit I am. Except for ya'll fuckers here on this site. I'm just saying how individual this is and how much you can't really share with the folks around you the struggles we go through.
This morning was a hangover bliss neatly covered up with a mamosa and a half a glass of hearty stout. Nice and tasty hair of the dog so to speak. Then came the shitty prospect of driving for 4 hours back home (took 6 actually due to road side attractions). This brings me to the point of my rant. I don't have problems partying down and not even thinking of nicotine. What I found interesting today was that the hung the fuck over 4 hour drive tried to tip the scales. I'm resolute in my quit and fight every day but as things get easier and easier it continues to slap me in the face from time to time. I suppose my point is that you can't let your guard down. You gotta have someone on post at all times even if you think it's all good. So a big thanks to KTC today for simply being here for me.
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Quick rant for this evening.
Had a great weekend throwing down with the folks I went to college with 10 years ago. It's amazing what little and lot can change in 10 years. Within an hour of our arrival I was already being asked: "are you still chewing?" And I was damn proud to say NO! I'm 156 days quit. Although they were happy for me it was and continues to be a little bit astonishing how isolated in my quit I am. Except for ya'll fuckers here on this site. I'm just saying how individual this is and how much you can't really share with the folks around you the struggles we go through.
This morning was a hangover bliss neatly covered up with a mamosa and a half a glass of hearty stout. Nice and tasty hair of the dog so to speak. Then came the shitty prospect of driving for 4 hours back home (took 6 actually due to road side attractions). This brings me to the point of my rant. I don't have problems partying down and not even thinking of nicotine. What I found interesting today was that the hung the fuck over 4 hour drive tried to tip the scales. I'm resolute in my quit and fight every day but as things get easier and easier it continues to slap me in the face from time to time. I suppose my point is that you can't let your guard down. You gotta have someone on post at all times even if you think it's all good. So a big thanks to KTC today for simply being here for me.
long Drives are still my biggest struggle as we approach 2hundo. Gotta make sure I have seeds, gum, water, etc. She is a sneaky bitch, aint she?
Proud to be quit with ya brother
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Great post BBS. Proud to call you a May bro!
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Great stuff in here, noobs. Read it. Live it.