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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: simonsj on January 29, 2013, 08:19:00 AM
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Hey Everyone...My name is Jordan and I've been chewing cope religiously for twelve years. Today is my first day of the quit. I just finished my hour long morning commute without a dip for the first time in I don't know how many years. It sucked, but it was a small victory. (don't get me wrong...I want to chew my arm off right now) 'bang head' I'm armed with a pocket full of mints and I'm ready to tackle the rest of the day. Talk to you all later.
p.s. great site
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Nice job on the commute and posting roll this morning.
Check out the Welcom Center upper left - your Inbox (1) upper right and make sure you keep your word and post roll every damned day
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Welcome Jordan. Go up to the welcome center and read up on how and where to post roll each day. Use your introduction post as a journal to make notes, comments, rage, whatever, each time. You can do this !!!
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Welcome Jordan...I see you made it to roll posting...thats friggin awesome. Glad to have you on board...buckle up for the next few days. Those there mints will help you, and staying as distracted as you can will also (exercise in the form of walking or doing steps if yer at work help too) drink lots o water. Fake stuff, shredded jerky, sugarless gum....WHATEVER...just stay QUIT. I find reading anything and everything on this site is key also. HoF speeches, Intros, WoW....any of it....PM me if you are still collecting numbers....mine is yours for the taking....
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p.s. great site
It is indeed. Great to have you with us. Use this site as it was intended and you will beat tobacco. I have been here every day for 748 days now. It works. Post roll every day and get involved with other people. Get phone numbers from your quit brothers. Reach out if you need help. We are all here for each other.
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Welcome to the rest if your life. Looks like you have posted a day 1, congrats!
Read, post, read, post and read some more. Get to know your quit brothers and sisters.
Never again, for any reason.
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Thanks for the hello's everybody. As I'm sure you all remember, the first day is pretty rough. Every spare second I've had this morning I find myself thinking about the nic. This is the longest amount of time I've went without a dip for as long as I can remember so it's another hurdle to feel proud about. The fog that I hear people talk about has started to roll in so I thought it might help to throw a little post out here. I find it's easiest to deal with the withdrawal / cravings when I stay in the moment. As soon as I start thinking about how bad it's going to suck later this afternoon or tonight, the more stressed I get. Boy do I feel like a little girly man whining on here but it seems to help. Well, back to work. I guess all you can do is keep on rolling. Have a good one everyone.
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Thanks for the hello's everybody. As I'm sure you all remember, the first day is pretty rough. Every spare second I've had this morning I find myself thinking about the nic. This is the longest amount of time I've went without a dip for as long as I can remember so it's another hurdle to feel proud about. The fog that I hear people talk about has started to roll in so I thought it might help to throw a little post out here. I find it's easiest to deal with the withdrawal / cravings when I stay in the moment. As soon as I start thinking about how bad it's going to suck later this afternoon or tonight, the more stressed I get. Boy do I feel like a little girly man whining on here but it seems to help. Well, back to work. I guess all you can do is keep on rolling. Have a good one everyone.
Nice job simonsj-
Take it minute by minute if you have to. Celebrate each nic-free accomplishment! The first few days really do suck. Remember this feeling, you do not want to be back here again.
It will get better, I promise. Just quit for today. You can do that!
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Jordan it don't matter if you act like a 'little girly man' as long as your balls are growing! Alot of us whined, bitched and moaned as we embraced the suck of quitting. Watch that fog that you don't run into any hidden obstacles.
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Boy....having a rough start to day three. Keep telling myself that the worst part should be over soon but this has been the toughest morning yet. Woke up in a sweat and wanted to beat the hell out of every driver on the road during my commute today. Now I'm sitting at work irritable as hell and trying to avoid people as much as possible. Can't stop thinking about the dip.
*note to self to remember the journey:
Look at you. You piece of shit. Look how miserable you feel. Do you ever want to feel this way again? I don't think so. Stay the quit. Grind it out and the pain will be gone soon.
ahh...strangely feel a little better now. Have a good one fellow quiters.
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Boy....having a rough start to day three. Keep telling myself that the worst part should be over soon but this has been the toughest morning yet. Woke up in a sweat and wanted to beat the hell out of every driver on the road during my commute today. Now I'm sitting at work irritable as hell and trying to avoid people as much as possible. Can't stop thinking about the dip.
*note to self to remember the journey:
Look at you. You piece of shit. Look how miserable you feel. Do you ever want to feel this way again? I don't think so. Stay the quit. Grind it out and the pain will be gone soon.
ahh...strangely feel a little better now. Have a good one fellow quiters.
hey Jordan, You're on the right path, the path to freedom. Drink all the kool aid, read all you can here, exercise, drink lots of water, scream, yell, stomp your feet but don't knock anyone out! LOL Do whatever you have to do to "NOT" put the posion in your mouth, EVER AGAIN. Use the chat room, use toothpicks, candy, any gum without nic in it, peanuts, sunflower seeds. You can do this ONE day at a TIME.
don't worry about tomorrow, it isn't real yet. we don't do the past. We quit just for today.
Post roll
keep your word
wake and repeat.
Welcome to getting your life back!
Cheers! 'bang head'
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I work out to help relieve some of the built up rage plus it helps me sleep better. Keep up the good work. It will get better, I promise.
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Ahhhhh yes, the suck. You can't run from it so embrace it.
A bit of temporary suffering in exchange for lasting freedom. It's worth it.
What's harder, a crave or chemo?
Waves of irritation and anger and no sleep and anxiety will pass.
You will ride out this storm and grow stronger because of it. If we can do it then so can you.
All you have to do is just stay quit TODAY. Your job, your relationships, your vintage Smurf Action figure collection can take a back seat today. The only thing you need to focus on is saving your life. You don't have to worry about tomorrow or forever, just today. Any fool can keep quit for a single day, even you.
Sing out if you need help.
sM
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I'm now in day 6 of the quit. i was just in the middle of typing up an epic Walmart story about my experience when buying a can of smoky mountain today. (we're talking about typing for the past 30 minutes) Then, wouldn't you know it, the website glitches and I just lost all that work. Now, not only do all of you miss the joy of getting a good kick out of my chew withdrawal misery, but I get a bit of rage because a site dedicated to helping me not rage from nic withdrawal just contributed to it. #quittingchewproblems What I'm learning from the last 6 days is that sometimes it's just good to bitch. Thanks for listening. Enjoy the rest of your quit today.
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Keep on bitchin here jordan..me likey a good bitch or rage session...keep it away from your fam and friends and others that do not deserve it. We all did this to ourselves..our fam and friends dont need to be taking the brunt of it. Quit with ya bro...
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Keep on bitchin here jordan..me likey a good bitch or rage session...keep it away from your fam and friends and others that do not deserve it. We all did this to ourselves..our fam and friends dont need to be taking the brunt of it. Quit with ya bro...
the rage will go away as you keep adding +1's to your count, sharsky has got it right, while you have the rage bring it here let it out in your intro or bring it to live chat if you want to (be ready to take a little shit in chat though! It can be workth it though I usually find a good laugh or two.)
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You are at the right place to rage. Please feel free to pm me any crazy rants and rage you have. I will be more than happy to take it. That is how I have made it 42 days. I will get better. Quit Like HELL!!!!!
NICK
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I quit with you bro!! Stay Strong!! Almost one week without that shit!!! Can you belive it??? Food will start tasting better, you have already saved 40.00 bucks. Hell yeah!!! Keep on quitting QUITTER!!!!
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Well it's day 11 now. I thought I'd be cruising through my quit by this point but it's still a daily battle. (based on all of the posts I've read on KTC it sounds like that may be the case for the rest of my days) I still have the nic bitch whispering in my ear any time I'm in a stressful situation but I think I'm learning to deal with that. I've read a lot about the dip dreams on this site but I haven't had one yet....instead, last night I dreamt that I was riding down a busy highway in an open top airplane and the pilot was smoking cigs like crazy. (I haven't smoked in years so I thought this was wierd) I guess the nicotene is trying to lure me in any way possible.
That's all I have for today. I'll keep grinding it out and see you on roll call tomorrow. Happy quitting.
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Well it's day 11 now. I thought I'd be cruising through my quit by this point but it's still a daily battle. (based on all of the posts I've read on KTC it sounds like that may be the case for the rest of my days) I still have the nic bitch whispering in my ear any time I'm in a stressful situation but I think I'm learning to deal with that. I've read a lot about the dip dreams on this site but I haven't had one yet....instead, last night I dreamt that I was riding down a busy highway in an open top airplane and the pilot was smoking cigs like crazy. (I haven't smoked in years so I thought this was wierd) I guess the nicotene is trying to lure me in any way possible.
That's all I have for today. I'll keep grinding it out and see you on roll call tomorrow. Happy quitting.
Diffusing the Nic BitchÂ’s narrative
You will likely hear whispers from the Nic Bitch. The Nic Bitch is ONLY effective if you do not understand HER. Knowledge crushes HER.
Realize the whispers in your head are not “you”. It is your addiction speaking - the nic bitch. She will disguise herself as “you” because she understands “you” are the decision maker, not her. The only way she gets her hit of nicotine is if she can convince “you”, it is a great idea to plan, obtain, and ingest nicotine. She has no choices available to her.
ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE.
The nic bitch must fool you to get nicotine. Therefore, she is cunning. Her whispers will sound like “you”. She will create the illusion that it is your voice speaking. She will exploit. She knows your weaknesses. So, think about your weaknesses and recognize them. She knows if you like to celebrate with nic, drink with nic, drive, mow, relieve stress…whatever. In summary, she is an addiction cloaked as a person.
Next time she whispers, you will understand it is the nic bitch and not you that came up with whatever hair-brained scheme that just floated through your mind. Some stupid internal conversation. Talk back to her and diffuse her narrative. “Yea, bitch, I just heard you. I know it is you and not me that wants nicotine today. I made a promise not to use nicotine today, so fuck you.” Then punch her in the face.
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Well it's day 11 now. I thought I'd be cruising through my quit by this point but it's still a daily battle. (based on all of the posts I've read on KTC it sounds like that may be the case for the rest of my days) I still have the nic bitch whispering in my ear any time I'm in a stressful situation but I think I'm learning to deal with that. I've read a lot about the dip dreams on this site but I haven't had one yet....instead, last night I dreamt that I was riding down a busy highway in an open top airplane and the pilot was smoking cigs like crazy. (I haven't smoked in years so I thought this was wierd) I guess the nicotene is trying to lure me in any way possible.Â
That's all I have for today. I'll keep grinding it out and see you on roll call tomorrow. Happy quitting.
Diffusing the Nic BitchÂ’s narrative
You will likely hear whispers from the Nic Bitch. The Nic Bitch is ONLY effective if you do not understand HER. Knowledge crushes HER.
Realize the whispers in your head are not “you”. It is your addiction speaking - the nic bitch. She will disguise herself as “you” because she understands “you” are the decision maker, not her. The only way she gets her hit of nicotine is if she can convince “you”, it is a great idea to plan, obtain, and ingest nicotine. She has no choices available to her.
ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE.
The nic bitch must fool you to get nicotine. Therefore, she is cunning. Her whispers will sound like “you”. She will create the illusion that it is your voice speaking. She will exploit. She knows your weaknesses. So, think about your weaknesses and recognize them. She knows if you like to celebrate with nic, drink with nic, drive, mow, relieve stress…whatever. In summary, she is an addiction cloaked as a person.
Next time she whispers, you will understand it is the nic bitch and not you that came up with whatever hair-brained scheme that just floated through your mind. Some stupid internal conversation. Talk back to her and diffuse her narrative. “Yea, bitch, I just heard you. I know it is you and not me that wants nicotine today. I made a promise not to use nicotine today, so fuck you.” Then punch her in the face.
(based on all of the posts I've read on KTC it sounds like that may be the case for the rest of my days)
Your at 11 days!!! be patient. I don't have a daily battle anymore. You won't either. 11 days doesn't undue years of abuse. Your going to roll through the 2 week weakness, the 70's funk. Hit the Hof, hit another funk or two, then eventually the battles become so far apart, you can't remember them. Then it is simply a matter of remembering that you are still an addict. A former user, but always an addict.
Stop thinking about the rest of your days. You have one day to worry about and that is TODAY. One day at a time Simon. Rome wasn't built in a day ya know.
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Well it's day 11 now. I thought I'd be cruising through my quit by this point but it's still a daily battle. (based on all of the posts I've read on KTC it sounds like that may be the case for the rest of my days) I still have the nic bitch whispering in my ear any time I'm in a stressful situation but I think I'm learning to deal with that. I've read a lot about the dip dreams on this site but I haven't had one yet....instead, last night I dreamt that I was riding down a busy highway in an open top airplane and the pilot was smoking cigs like crazy. (I haven't smoked in years so I thought this was wierd) I guess the nicotene is trying to lure me in any way possible.Â
That's all I have for today. I'll keep grinding it out and see you on roll call tomorrow. Happy quitting.
Diffusing the Nic BitchÂ’s narrative
You will likely hear whispers from the Nic Bitch. The Nic Bitch is ONLY effective if you do not understand HER. Knowledge crushes HER.
Realize the whispers in your head are not “you”. It is your addiction speaking - the nic bitch. She will disguise herself as “you” because she understands “you” are the decision maker, not her. The only way she gets her hit of nicotine is if she can convince “you”, it is a great idea to plan, obtain, and ingest nicotine. She has no choices available to her.
ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE.
The nic bitch must fool you to get nicotine. Therefore, she is cunning. Her whispers will sound like “you”. She will create the illusion that it is your voice speaking. She will exploit. She knows your weaknesses. So, think about your weaknesses and recognize them. She knows if you like to celebrate with nic, drink with nic, drive, mow, relieve stress…whatever. In summary, she is an addiction cloaked as a person.
Next time she whispers, you will understand it is the nic bitch and not you that came up with whatever hair-brained scheme that just floated through your mind. Some stupid internal conversation. Talk back to her and diffuse her narrative. “Yea, bitch, I just heard you. I know it is you and not me that wants nicotine today. I made a promise not to use nicotine today, so fuck you.” Then punch her in the face.
(based on all of the posts I've read on KTC it sounds like that may be the case for the rest of my days)
Your at 11 days!!! be patient. I don't have a daily battle anymore. You won't either. 11 days doesn't undue years of abuse. Your going to roll through the 2 week weakness, the 70's funk. Hit the Hof, hit another funk or two, then eventually the battles become so far apart, you can't remember them. Then it is simply a matter of remembering that you are still an addict. A former user, but always an addict.
Stop thinking about the rest of your days. You have one day to worry about and that is TODAY. One day at a time Simon. Rome wasn't built in a day ya know.
I understand what you're going through Simon. You're quit 11 days. You probably thought that by a week and a half a lot of this would be behind you. Trust me - I thought the same thing. It happens.
The physical part is behind you. The actual physical addiction is over. What you're dealing with now is the mental part. You need to re-train your mind - your LIFE - to be an existence without nicotine. To do this the rules are simple. Post roll. Repeat.
The rest of the battle will come to you if you follow those rules. I completely get what you're dealing with. It's almost disheartening to think "I've been quit 11 days! When does it stop!!???" And it is disheartening. Because it doesn't stop. It just fades away. Like Skoal Monster said - at some point, you'll be an addict without desire.
What you've done to yourself is open a giant fucking wound that you kept picking at. Eleven days ago, you stopped picking at it. After the first three days, the wound closed. Now you're looking at the scar. Scars fade, but they never go away. Just embrace it. What you definitely DON'T want to do is pick the scab.
You got this. You can do this. YOU HAVE DONE THIS. All you gotta do now is... well... repeat.
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Well it's day 11 now. I thought I'd be cruising through my quit by this point but it's still a daily battle. (based on all of the posts I've read on KTC it sounds like that may be the case for the rest of my days) I still have the nic bitch whispering in my ear any time I'm in a stressful situation but I think I'm learning to deal with that. I've read a lot about the dip dreams on this site but I haven't had one yet....instead, last night I dreamt that I was riding down a busy highway in an open top airplane and the pilot was smoking cigs like crazy. (I haven't smoked in years so I thought this was wierd) I guess the nicotene is trying to lure me in any way possible.Â
That's all I have for today. I'll keep grinding it out and see you on roll call tomorrow. Happy quitting.
Diffusing the Nic BitchÂ’s narrative
You will likely hear whispers from the Nic Bitch. The Nic Bitch is ONLY effective if you do not understand HER. Knowledge crushes HER.
Realize the whispers in your head are not “you”. It is your addiction speaking - the nic bitch. She will disguise herself as “you” because she understands “you” are the decision maker, not her. The only way she gets her hit of nicotine is if she can convince “you”, it is a great idea to plan, obtain, and ingest nicotine. She has no choices available to her.
ONLY YOU HAVE THE POWER OF CHOICE.
The nic bitch must fool you to get nicotine. Therefore, she is cunning. Her whispers will sound like “you”. She will create the illusion that it is your voice speaking. She will exploit. She knows your weaknesses. So, think about your weaknesses and recognize them. She knows if you like to celebrate with nic, drink with nic, drive, mow, relieve stress…whatever. In summary, she is an addiction cloaked as a person.
Next time she whispers, you will understand it is the nic bitch and not you that came up with whatever hair-brained scheme that just floated through your mind. Some stupid internal conversation. Talk back to her and diffuse her narrative. “Yea, bitch, I just heard you. I know it is you and not me that wants nicotine today. I made a promise not to use nicotine today, so fuck you.” Then punch her in the face.
(based on all of the posts I've read on KTC it sounds like that may be the case for the rest of my days)
Your at 11 days!!! be patient. I don't have a daily battle anymore. You won't either. 11 days doesn't undue years of abuse. Your going to roll through the 2 week weakness, the 70's funk. Hit the Hof, hit another funk or two, then eventually the battles become so far apart, you can't remember them. Then it is simply a matter of remembering that you are still an addict. A former user, but always an addict.
Stop thinking about the rest of your days. You have one day to worry about and that is TODAY. One day at a time Simon. Rome wasn't built in a day ya know.
I understand what you're going through Simon. You're quit 11 days. You probably thought that by a week and a half a lot of this would be behind you. Trust me - I thought the same thing. It happens.
The physical part is behind you. The actual physical addiction is over. What you're dealing with now is the mental part. You need to re-train your mind - your LIFE - to be an existence without nicotine. To do this the rules are simple. Post roll. Repeat.
The rest of the battle will come to you if you follow those rules. I completely get what you're dealing with. It's almost disheartening to think "I've been quit 11 days! When does it stop!!???" And it is disheartening. Because it doesn't stop. It just fades away. Like Skoal Monster said - at some point, you'll be an addict without desire.
What you've done to yourself is open a giant fucking wound that you kept picking at. Eleven days ago, you stopped picking at it. After the first three days, the wound closed. Now you're looking at the scar. Scars fade, but they never go away. Just embrace it. What you definitely DON'T want to do is pick the scab.
You got this. You can do this. YOU HAVE DONE THIS. All you gotta do now is... well... repeat.
NOBODY "cruises" after 11 days. Don't worry about "cruising" right now. Just worry about walking or even crawling if you have to. The biatch is gonna be in your ear for awhile yet, but it will get better. It won't be like this for the rest of your days.
I'm on day 250 and I'm not cured by any means, but the bitch doesn't whisper to me too much anymore. When she tries I tell her to shut the fuck up before she can even get a word out, and dismiss her like the cum dumpster slut that she is.
Eventually you will be pimp slappin that hoe too. Just gonna take some time to build strength in your pimp hand. Stick with it. Its very gratifying slapping that cunt around.
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From day 11 to day 1,000... Congratulations Jordan!
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From day 11 to day 1,000... Congratulations Jordan!
Yeah man! Nice job 'oh yeah'