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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: EOD 1 on June 12, 2015, 03:16:00 PM
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This is a little late but I needed to share how I started dipping.
Right now I am 14 days clean. So here's my story.
Hello and Thanks for your support and reading this. I have used dip for 32 years now. Ok no age jokes! LOL
So here's my background. I was 14 years EOD in the USAF. My first tour was in Panama. (Operation Just Cause). I was so wound up someone gave me a can of that little fluffy Kodiak bear and that’s where it began for me. After trying to quit off and on for 10 years I just gave up. This year I just started thinking about the good times I had in the Air Force and I got together with some old friends. The subject came up about how wound up I was and they asked if I still dipped. They couldn’t believe I still did. When I told them I tried to quit many times one of them said “your heart must not be in it because you have never let anything control you since I’ve known you.” That rang loud and clear in my brain. Since then I couldn’t get it out of my mind.
So last Saturday I woke up grabbed my little Kodiak Bear tin and stopped, looked at it and told it “YOU WILL NEVER CONTROL ME” and flushed it. I haven’t had any since. I started chewing 4mg gum but then I came across this website and a response to someone about using Nic-Gum. It made so much sense! How can you rid yourself of one evil or drug, when you are still using it just in another form. So I listened and figured if I was going to be successful I first needed to purge my system of what causes the addiction.
IÂ’m doing pretty good. The hardest part is the morning drive to work. I have found if I chew Trident Cinnamon gum it gets me over that morning hump. My wife is so happy right now she seems like a different person. She used to nag about it but then she quit, figuring I would never stop. I guess she felt it was useless. I didnÂ’t tell her I quit until about three days in to it. I guess I was scared I would fail again and fail her but then I got angry and that motivated me more. So things are good for now. I just keep telling myself the cravings will pass. So when they hit I keep thinking, Ok give it five minutes and it will be gone and it does.
If there is any insight you can give me to ensure my success that would be great. Right now the fear of failure is a big motivator. Failing my Wife, kids and myself. I canÂ’t quit thinking of how selfish IÂ’ve been to my family playing Russian roulette with my life every time I opened that can. Thank you for visiting my KTC little slice of home. 'blowup'
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This is a little late but I needed to share how I started dipping.
Right now I am 14 days clean. So here's my story.
Hello and Thanks for your support and reading this. I have used dip for 32 years now. Ok no age jokes! LOL
So here's my background. I was 14 years EOD in the USAF. My first tour was in Panama. (Operation Just Cause). I was so wound up someone gave me a can of that little fluffy Kodiak bear and that’s where it began for me. After trying to quit off and on for 10 years I just gave up. This year I just started thinking about the good times I had in the Air Force and I got together with some old friends. The subject came up about how wound up I was and they asked if I still dipped. They couldn’t believe I still did. When I told them I tried to quit many times one of them said “your heart must not be in it because you have never let anything control you since I’ve known you.” That rang loud and clear in my brain. Since then I couldn’t get it out of my mind.
So last Saturday I woke up grabbed my little Kodiak Bear tin and stopped, looked at it and told it “YOU WILL NEVER CONTROL ME” and flushed it. I haven’t had any since. I started chewing 4mg gum but then I came across this website and a response to someone about using Nic-Gum. It made so much sense! How can you rid yourself of one evil or drug, when you are still using it just in another form. So I listened and figured if I was going to be successful I first needed to purge my system of what causes the addiction.
IÂ’m doing pretty good. The hardest part is the morning drive to work. I have found if I chew Trident Cinnamon gum it gets me over that morning hump. My wife is so happy right now she seems like a different person. She used to nag about it but then she quit, figuring I would never stop. I guess she felt it was useless. I didnÂ’t tell her I quit until about three days in to it. I guess I was scared I would fail again and fail her but then I got angry and that motivated me more. So things are good for now. I just keep telling myself the cravings will pass. So when they hit I keep thinking, Ok give it five minutes and it will be gone and it does.
If there is any insight you can give me to ensure my success that would be great. Right now the fear of failure is a big motivator. Failing my Wife, kids and myself. I canÂ’t quit thinking of how selfish IÂ’ve been to my family playing Russian roulette with my life every time I opened that can. Thank you for visiting my KTC little slice of home. 'blowup'
Congrats on the quit.
You're posting roll I see....that's great. It adds another layer of accountability, which will be a key to your success. Nearly every one of us here has quit for "family" before. And you'd think that quitting for the wife and/or kids would be enough.....but it's not.
For whatever reason, if a man has any moral fiber and integrity at all, posting roll and making that promise to stay quit for today to your brothers and sisters just works.
Involve yourself here as much as you can....ask questions, start conversations, reach out and support fellow quitters, feel free to kick some ass if a quitter is slipping....you get the idea.
Read all that you can......knowledge is power. Read the HOF speeches, WOWisdom, the intro pages, or go to an older group below the line and read it from the beginning. All of this will be a great road map for you in terms of what to expect in the coming days, weeks, months and years.
Hollar if you ever need. Stay strong, you will do this.
Scott
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We've got this shit EOD! You seem a little like me. You don't want someone or something else controlling you. This NIC BITCH has been controlling us and we probably didn't realize it. I never ran completely out without having a back up can. The couple of times I came close to running out really got me to thinking. Wondering how I can go to sleep without it. It owned us for several years, but no longer!
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Hey EOD - 34 year user here. You've made the right decision and have found the right place to help you be quit. One of the guys above me mentioned that you're posting roll. That's good - keep doing it first thing, every single day. It's a promise to this community, to your fellow quitters in your quit group, and most importantly to yourself. That promise is an anchor that you can reach for when all you want to do is have a dip. Do a lot of reading around the site and get some phone numbers (digits) for folks in your quit group and other members here, for a 'lifeline' or just for general support. Hit me with a PM if you would like mine.
If the thought of some surgeon carving your face off isn't enough motivation, I don't know what will be. Hang tough, quit on, and thanks for your service.
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Hey EOD - 34 year user here. You've made the right decision and have found the right place to help you be quit. One of the guys above me mentioned that you're posting roll. That's good - keep doing it first thing, every single day. It's a promise to this community, to your fellow quitters in your quit group, and most importantly to yourself. That promise is an anchor that you can reach for when all you want to do is have a dip. Do a lot of reading around the site and get some phone numbers (digits) for folks in your quit group and other members here, for a 'lifeline' or just for general support. Hit me with a PM if you would like mine.
If the thought of some surgeon carving your face off isn't enough motivation, I don't know what will be. Hang tough, quit on, and thanks for your service.
EOD way to go my brother! It's gonna be a helluva ride for awhile. Get you some gum, seeds, fake dip whatever it takes to stay clean! You think your wife's proud? Wait 3-4 mnths down the road you will be estatic! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!
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I'm Proud to say I'm on Day 15 today and going strong. Attitude is everything in this game. Yet I have a huge support system through KTC and my wife. For the first time in my life I know I am going to do this quit and quit I will forever each and every day.
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I'm Proud to say I'm on Day 15 today and going strong. Attitude is everything in this game. Yet I have a huge support system through KTC and my wife. For the first time in my life I know I am going to do this quit and quit I will forever each and every day.
You are doing this the right way. One day at a time, life gets a lot better from here.
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You post roll daily and we have your back all day long. 15 days is bad ass!
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Day 16 - Happy to be on day 16. I WUPP as always to keep my word and to save my life. I went to church today just like evey Sunday. When I got home I realized I hadn't had any cravings for about 18 hours. I chatted with drewdrew1. I told him I kinda felt sad a little because I have not had the cravings nor withdraws like most of my group. I don't miss the can and I don't have the cravings that most of my group has.
Don't get me wrong I don't want them but at the same time I feel for the ones that do. I know it must be so hard for them. My heart and prayers go out to them. My wife and I pray for my group and everyone on KTC every night before bed. She said this website is God's answer to her prayers to help me stop dipping. I for one believe it and believe in what this site has to offer.
I did some research on this site and other stop dipping programs. I was FLOORED when I found out this website has a 40+% success rate for helping people stop the Nic-Bitch. That is better than any other program or website out there. This website is sited as one of the best program (but it not a program). It is also sited as one of the best resources for information on how to stop tobacco (dipping and smoking). TRUELY AMAZING. And to think I just stumbled onto this site. THANK YOU KTC.
WARNING!!!!!
When you first logon to your groups forum you may think the group is a trainwreck but I suggest you look deeper. Everyone here has a heart of gold and they truely want your QUIT to carry through your life. 'trainwreck'
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Attitude is everything in this game.
Bumping around the intros and I saw where you wrote this. So True Bro! You get this. Keep Going! Words cant describe how much better it gets.
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Day 16 - Happy to be on day 16. I WUPP as always to keep my word and to save my life. I went to church today just like evey Sunday. When I got home I realized I hadn't had any cravings for about 18 hours. I chatted with drewdrew1. I told him I kinda felt sad a little because I have not had the cravings nor withdraws like most of my group. I don't miss the can and I don't have the cravings that most of my group has.
Don't get me wrong I don't want them but at the same time I feel for the ones that do. I know it must be so hard for them. My heart and prayers go out to them. My wife and I pray for my group and everyone on KTC every night before bed. She said this website is God's answer to her prayers to help me stop dipping. I for one believe it and believe in what this site has to offer.
I did some research on this site and other stop dipping programs. I was FLOORED when I found out this website has a 40+% success rate for helping people stop the Nic-Bitch. That is better than any other program or website out there. This website is sited as one of the best program (but it not a program). It is also sited as one of the best resources for information on how to stop tobacco (dipping and smoking). TRUELY AMAZING. And to think I just stumbled onto this site. THANK YOU KTC.
WARNING!!!!!
When you first logon to your groups forum you may think the group is a trainwreck but I suggest you look deeper. Everyone here has a heart of gold and they truely want your QUIT to carry through your life. 'trainwreck'
The strength we find in each other matched by the power of God cannot be beat!! I think it is a blessing that you may have skirted some craves. I think one thing we have to remember is that whatever we do get, we only have ourselves to blame. :/ I knew what I was doing to myself daily and it didn't stop me from doing it. We all knew. There's no one who can attempt to say what they were doing was good for them. But finding the strength to quit isn't easy either! I am glad you have a wife who is that supportive- to even pray for all of us here too! I did a lot of praying yesterday and I could feel Him answer my call.
Quitting with you!
D
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Day 16 - Happy to be on day 16. I WUPP as always to keep my word and to save my life. I went to church today just like evey Sunday. When I got home I realized I hadn't had any cravings for about 18 hours. I chatted with drewdrew1. I told him I kinda felt sad a little because I have not had the cravings nor withdraws like most of my group. I don't miss the can and I don't have the cravings that most of my group has.
Don't get me wrong I don't want them but at the same time I feel for the ones that do. I know it must be so hard for them. My heart and prayers go out to them. My wife and I pray for my group and everyone on KTC every night before bed. She said this website is God's answer to her prayers to help me stop dipping. I for one believe it and believe in what this site has to offer.
I did some research on this site and other stop dipping programs. I was FLOORED when I found out this website has a 40+% success rate for helping people stop the Nic-Bitch. That is better than any other program or website out there. This website is sited as one of the best program (but it not a program). It is also sited as one of the best resources for information on how to stop tobacco (dipping and smoking). TRUELY AMAZING. And to think I just stumbled onto this site. THANK YOU KTC.
WARNING!!!!!
When you first logon to your groups forum you may think the group is a trainwreck but I suggest you look deeper. Everyone here has a heart of gold and they truely want your QUIT to carry through your life. 'trainwreck'
The strength we find in each other matched by the power of God cannot be beat!! I think it is a blessing that you may have skirted some craves. I think one thing we have to remember is that whatever we do get, we only have ourselves to blame. :/ I knew what I was doing to myself daily and it didn't stop me from doing it. We all knew. There's no one who can attempt to say what they were doing was good for them. But finding the strength to quit isn't easy either! I am glad you have a wife who is that supportive- to even pray for all of us here too! I did a lot of praying yesterday and I could feel Him answer my call.
Quitting with you!
D
D,
I QUIT WITH YOU! If you need someone to support you I WILL. My Wife and I will continue to pray for all of my Brother and sister Samurai each and every day. If you need me I will ALWAYS be there for you. ANYTIME, ANYPLACE. The key is to reach out to someone before the craving gets you thinking "its ok". I Quit With You EED.
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Day 16 - Happy to be on day 16. I WUPP as always to keep my word and to save my life. I went to church today just like evey Sunday. When I got home I realized I hadn't had any cravings for about 18 hours. I chatted with drewdrew1. I told him I kinda felt sad a little because I have not had the cravings nor withdraws like most of my group. I don't miss the can and I don't have the cravings that most of my group has.
Don't get me wrong I don't want them but at the same time I feel for the ones that do. I know it must be so hard for them. My heart and prayers go out to them. My wife and I pray for my group and everyone on KTC every night before bed. She said this website is God's answer to her prayers to help me stop dipping. I for one believe it and believe in what this site has to offer.
I did some research on this site and other stop dipping programs. I was FLOORED when I found out this website has a 40+% success rate for helping people stop the Nic-Bitch. That is better than any other program or website out there. This website is sited as one of the best program (but it not a program). It is also sited as one of the best resources for information on how to stop tobacco (dipping and smoking). TRUELY AMAZING. And to think I just stumbled onto this site. THANK YOU KTC.
WARNING!!!!!
When you first logon to your groups forum you may think the group is a trainwreck but I suggest you look deeper. Everyone here has a heart of gold and they truely want your QUIT to carry through your life. 'trainwreck'
The strength we find in each other matched by the power of God cannot be beat!! I think it is a blessing that you may have skirted some craves. I think one thing we have to remember is that whatever we do get, we only have ourselves to blame. :/ I knew what I was doing to myself daily and it didn't stop me from doing it. We all knew. There's no one who can attempt to say what they were doing was good for them. But finding the strength to quit isn't easy either! I am glad you have a wife who is that supportive- to even pray for all of us here too! I did a lot of praying yesterday and I could feel Him answer my call.
Quitting with you!
D
D,
I QUIT WITH YOU! If you need someone to support you I WILL. My Wife and I will continue to pray for all of my Brother and sister Samurai each and every day. If you need me I will ALWAYS be there for you. ANYTIME, ANYPLACE. The key is to reach out to someone before the craving gets you thinking "its ok". I Quit With You EED.
Same to you! I could never successfully complete a quit before because I had no support- I had some family and friends who knew I was trying but they are not nic addicts so they had no clue. My husband doesn't really know how to be supportive... lol... that sounds a little goofy but is true... I told him about how I was annoyed that he asked me to move his shirt things and he left a tin in his pocket- I asked him to leave it in his car. He got frustrated with me and didn't understand why it was a big deal. But at least last night he listened and didn't bring it in the house. He did ask me last night if it was hard... I think he's thinking about quitting. That in itself is a blessing. I know I will complete my quit- I WILL for me... but I also know that if I prove to him it can be done that he will see it and do it too.
Glad to have others in my corner... I'm in yours!
D
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Proud of you EOD. Keep posting roll every day and engaging with your group. You are doing great.
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Proud of you EOD. Keep posting roll every day and engaging with your group. You are doing great.
Thanks Pat, I'm having a lot of fun along the way too. 'clap'
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Day 16 - Happy to be on day 16. I WUPP as always to keep my word and to save my life. I went to church today just like evey Sunday. When I got home I realized I hadn't had any cravings for about 18 hours. I chatted with drewdrew1. I told him I kinda felt sad a little because I have not had the cravings nor withdraws like most of my group. I don't miss the can and I don't have the cravings that most of my group has.
Don't get me wrong I don't want them but at the same time I feel for the ones that do. I know it must be so hard for them. My heart and prayers go out to them. My wife and I pray for my group and everyone on KTC every night before bed. She said this website is God's answer to her prayers to help me stop dipping. I for one believe it and believe in what this site has to offer.
I did some research on this site and other stop dipping programs. I was FLOORED when I found out this website has a 40+% success rate for helping people stop the Nic-Bitch. That is better than any other program or website out there. This website is sited as one of the best program (but it not a program). It is also sited as one of the best resources for information on how to stop tobacco (dipping and smoking). TRUELY AMAZING. And to think I just stumbled onto this site. THANK YOU KTC.
WARNING!!!!!
When you first logon to your groups forum you may think the group is a trainwreck but I suggest you look deeper. Everyone here has a heart of gold and they truely want your QUIT to carry through your life. 'trainwreck'
The strength we find in each other matched by the power of God cannot be beat!! I think it is a blessing that you may have skirted some craves. I think one thing we have to remember is that whatever we do get, we only have ourselves to blame. :/ I knew what I was doing to myself daily and it didn't stop me from doing it. We all knew. There's no one who can attempt to say what they were doing was good for them. But finding the strength to quit isn't easy either! I am glad you have a wife who is that supportive- to even pray for all of us here too! I did a lot of praying yesterday and I could feel Him answer my call.
Quitting with you!
D
D,
I QUIT WITH YOU! If you need someone to support you I WILL. My Wife and I will continue to pray for all of my Brother and sister Samurai each and every day. If you need me I will ALWAYS be there for you. ANYTIME, ANYPLACE. The key is to reach out to someone before the craving gets you thinking "its ok". I Quit With You EED.
Same to you! I could never successfully complete a quit before because I had no support- I had some family and friends who knew I was trying but they are not nic addicts so they had no clue. My husband doesn't really know how to be supportive... lol... that sounds a little goofy but is true... I told him about how I was annoyed that he asked me to move his shirt things and he left a tin in his pocket- I asked him to leave it in his car. He got frustrated with me and didn't understand why it was a big deal. But at least last night he listened and didn't bring it in the house. He did ask me last night if it was hard... I think he's thinking about quitting. That in itself is a blessing. I know I will complete my quit- I WILL for me... but I also know that if I prove to him it can be done that he will see it and do it too.
Glad to have others in my corner... I'm in yours!
D
D,
It seems like he's on the edge of trying. I will send out a special prayer for him and ask God to talk to his heart so your family will be Nicotine free. You are doing so well. I have no doubt you will be in the HOF with the rest of the Samurai. Just keep your spirits high and your attitude in the right place and you will make it.
EOD 1
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Day 16 - Happy to be on day 16. I WUPP as always to keep my word and to save my life. I went to church today just like evey Sunday. When I got home I realized I hadn't had any cravings for about 18 hours. I chatted with drewdrew1. I told him I kinda felt sad a little because I have not had the cravings nor withdraws like most of my group. I don't miss the can and I don't have the cravings that most of my group has.
Don't get me wrong I don't want them but at the same time I feel for the ones that do. I know it must be so hard for them. My heart and prayers go out to them. My wife and I pray for my group and everyone on KTC every night before bed. She said this website is God's answer to her prayers to help me stop dipping. I for one believe it and believe in what this site has to offer.
I did some research on this site and other stop dipping programs. I was FLOORED when I found out this website has a 40+% success rate for helping people stop the Nic-Bitch. That is better than any other program or website out there. This website is sited as one of the best program (but it not a program). It is also sited as one of the best resources for information on how to stop tobacco (dipping and smoking). TRUELY AMAZING. And to think I just stumbled onto this site. THANK YOU KTC.
WARNING!!!!!
When you first logon to your groups forum you may think the group is a trainwreck but I suggest you look deeper. Everyone here has a heart of gold and they truely want your QUIT to carry through your life. 'trainwreck'
The strength we find in each other matched by the power of God cannot be beat!! I think it is a blessing that you may have skirted some craves. I think one thing we have to remember is that whatever we do get, we only have ourselves to blame. :/ I knew what I was doing to myself daily and it didn't stop me from doing it. We all knew. There's no one who can attempt to say what they were doing was good for them. But finding the strength to quit isn't easy either! I am glad you have a wife who is that supportive- to even pray for all of us here too! I did a lot of praying yesterday and I could feel Him answer my call.
Quitting with you!
D
D,
I QUIT WITH YOU! If you need someone to support you I WILL. My Wife and I will continue to pray for all of my Brother and sister Samurai each and every day. If you need me I will ALWAYS be there for you. ANYTIME, ANYPLACE. The key is to reach out to someone before the craving gets you thinking "its ok". I Quit With You EED.
Same to you! I could never successfully complete a quit before because I had no support- I had some family and friends who knew I was trying but they are not nic addicts so they had no clue. My husband doesn't really know how to be supportive... lol... that sounds a little goofy but is true... I told him about how I was annoyed that he asked me to move his shirt things and he left a tin in his pocket- I asked him to leave it in his car. He got frustrated with me and didn't understand why it was a big deal. But at least last night he listened and didn't bring it in the house. He did ask me last night if it was hard... I think he's thinking about quitting. That in itself is a blessing. I know I will complete my quit- I WILL for me... but I also know that if I prove to him it can be done that he will see it and do it too.
Glad to have others in my corner... I'm in yours!
D
D,
It seems like he's on the edge of trying. I will send out a special prayer for him and ask God to talk to his heart so your family will be Nicotine free. You are doing so well. I have no doubt you will be in the HOF with the rest of the Samurai. Just keep your spirits high and your attitude in the right place and you will make it.
EOD 1
Thank you! We can use all the prayer we can get! I want our home to be nicotine free... and that's how it should be not only for us but also for our boys.
D