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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: baflow7 on March 18, 2014, 07:37:00 PM
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Hello all my name is Bryan and i have just kicked the can on sunday. I am three days into the quit so far and it sucks! But here is a little about me first,
I am 21 years old and a current senior in college. I play division one lacrosse and am graduating this year. I am from Long Island new york and i have been dipping for around 4-5 years in total so far. I took my first pinch when i was a junior in highschool. I wouldnt say that i came dependant on it until after my freshman year in college. So many people and my friends in college are dippers and close friends of mine. Being on a lacrosse team also brought me around the can a lot as well. I would say over 50% of my friends at college are dippers. My sophomore year i had some troubles with anxiety and depression which was brought on by my torn acl i had coming into college in 2010. my sophomore year 2011-12 was just a rough year. I was on anti depressants and i was just a mess. The ACL injury i had was the first time i had ever been hurt and it didnt really hit me until i wasnt playing in practice and such and i saw decline in my speed and such. Along with some dumb decisions you can see a dumb underclassman in college make, and my knee injury, thats what put me into a rut for that year. I would say this is the time that my chewing habit had really grown and become an addiction.
From then until now things have gotten much better. I am still a somewhat anxious person and I do tend to worry and overthink things sometimes when i shouldnt but overall things are going well. I am graduating this year and i am still playing lacrosse in my senior year having fun and hoping to win another conference championship in my final year. Lately i have just had the anxiety that i am going to get the C word if i keep dipping. Every little sore, dryness, scratch, anything, i was thinking was something deadly and I have just reached the point where i've had it. Nicotine has just made my body in worse of a shape then it should be. My heart rate is higher, my energy levels are inconsistent and it is just so bad for me. I am sick of planning my day around when i am going to put a chew in. I am done planning my day around the can, im done spending $2000 a year on chew, and wasting my money on something that can kill me.
I started dipping Skoal mint longcut for about a year, then moved to skoal mint pouches. From freshman year of college til now, i have been using grizzly wintergreen pouches. I would get a longcut tin of grizzly or skoal straight every now and then as well. I was doing somewhere between 1-1.5 cans a day. If a day was busy i would maybe do just less than one tin a day.
I learned about this site from a family member who was helping me out and came across this site and I think what everyone does on here is just great and god bless everyone for it.
I am graduating college this year and i am going to be going into the real world, with a real job, and eventually having a family. I dont want to put myself in a situation that i dont want by not dipping.
I am almost done with day 3 right now. The first day was horrible, i literally didnt sleep one minute that day. Last night i took tylenol pm and slept for about 7 hours. I was all anxious and freaking a bit today and feeling the fog for sure but, after lacrosse practice i had felt a bit better.
Well guys, that is my story so far and i would love to answer and questions if anyone has any. Also I would just like to thank you for the help, you are all amazing. Any advice that will help with insomnia and irritation would be greatly appreciated too! :D
-One last thing is I am confused with the whole posting roll and the quit groups, how do i go about this?
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First of all, welcome. If you're serious about quitting, you've come to the right place. Go to the welcome center and read all that you can. There should be instructions (and even a tutorial video) on how to post roll. Do it every day; preferably in the morning. It's our daily commitment to ourselves and each other that we'll stay nicotine free today.
We quit one day at a time here. Reach out to people and exchange phone numbers so that you have someone to text when cravings get bad. It helps to have someone who understands what you're going through to talk to.
Proud to be quitting with you today.
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Hello all my name is Bryan and i have just kicked the can on sunday. I am three days into the quit so far and it sucks! But here is a little about me first,
I am 21 years old and a current senior in college. I play division one lacrosse and am graduating this year. I am from Long Island new york and i have been dipping for around 4-5 years in total so far. I took my first pinch when i was a junior in highschool. I wouldnt say that i came dependant on it until after my freshman year in college. So many people and my friends in college are dippers and close friends of mine. Being on a lacrosse team also brought me around the can a lot as well. I would say over 50% of my friends at college are dippers. My sophomore year i had some troubles with anxiety and depression which was brought on by my torn acl i had coming into college in 2010. my sophomore year 2011-12 was just a rough year. I was on anti depressants and i was just a mess. The ACL injury i had was the first time i had ever been hurt and it didnt really hit me until i wasnt playing in practice and such and i saw decline in my speed and such. Along with some dumb decisions you can see a dumb underclassman in college make, and my knee injury, thats what put me into a rut for that year. I would say this is the time that my chewing habit had really grown and become an addiction.
From then until now things have gotten much better. I am still a somewhat anxious person and I do tend to worry and overthink things sometimes when i shouldnt but overall things are going well. I am graduating this year and i am still playing lacrosse in my senior year having fun and hoping to win another conference championship in my final year. Lately i have just had the anxiety that i am going to get the C word if i keep dipping. Every little sore, dryness, scratch, anything, i was thinking was something deadly and I have just reached the point where i've had it. Nicotine has just made my body in worse of a shape then it should be. My heart rate is higher, my energy levels are inconsistent and it is just so bad for me. I am sick of planning my day around when i am going to put a chew in. I am done planning my day around the can, im done spending $2000 a year on chew, and wasting my money on something that can kill me.
I started dipping Skoal mint longcut for about a year, then moved to skoal mint pouches. From freshman year of college til now, i have been using grizzly wintergreen pouches. I would get a longcut tin of grizzly or skoal straight every now and then as well. I was doing somewhere between 1-1.5 cans a day. If a day was busy i would maybe do just less than one tin a day.
I learned about this site from a family member who was helping me out and came across this site and I think what everyone does on here is just great and god bless everyone for it.
I am graduating college this year and i am going to be going into the real world, with a real job, and eventually having a family. I dont want to put myself in a situation that i dont want by not dipping.
I am almost done with day 3 right now. The first day was horrible, i literally didnt sleep one minute that day. Last night i took tylenol pm and slept for about 7 hours. I was all anxious and freaking a bit today and feeling the fog for sure but, after lacrosse practice i had felt a bit better.
Well guys, that is my story so far and i would love to answer and questions if anyone has any. Also I would just like to thank you for the help, you are all amazing. Any advice that will help with insomnia and irritation would be greatly appreciated too! :D
-One last thing is I am confused with the whole posting roll and the quit groups, how do i go about this?
Here's how to post roll
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
You're in June 2014 Group. Congratulations on taking your life back!
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Welcome Bryan,
You and me have a lot in common, were the same age, both gonna be graduating college soon, both like lacrosse, and both decided to kick the can before going out into the real world. Let me be the first to tell you you've made a great decision to quit and come to this site. My advice to you, jump in with both feet, don't half ass your quit, and take advantage of everything this site has to offer.
If you need anything, feel free to send me a PM.
MCO aka Mike
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Hello all my name is Bryan and i have just kicked the can on sunday. I am three days into the quit so far and it sucks! But here is a little about me first,
I am 21 years old and a current senior in college. I play division one lacrosse and am graduating this year. I am from Long Island new york and i have been dipping for around 4-5 years in total so far. I took my first pinch when i was a junior in highschool. I wouldnt say that i came dependant on it until after my freshman year in college. So many people and my friends in college are dippers and close friends of mine. Being on a lacrosse team also brought me around the can a lot as well. I would say over 50% of my friends at college are dippers. My sophomore year i had some troubles with anxiety and depression which was brought on by my torn acl i had coming into college in 2010. my sophomore year 2011-12 was just a rough year. I was on anti depressants and i was just a mess. The ACL injury i had was the first time i had ever been hurt and it didnt really hit me until i wasnt playing in practice and such and i saw decline in my speed and such. Along with some dumb decisions you can see a dumb underclassman in college make, and my knee injury, thats what put me into a rut for that year. I would say this is the time that my chewing habit had really grown and become an addiction.
From then until now things have gotten much better. I am still a somewhat anxious person and I do tend to worry and overthink things sometimes when i shouldnt but overall things are going well. I am graduating this year and i am still playing lacrosse in my senior year having fun and hoping to win another conference championship in my final year. Lately i have just had the anxiety that i am going to get the C word if i keep dipping. Every little sore, dryness, scratch, anything, i was thinking was something deadly and I have just reached the point where i've had it. Nicotine has just made my body in worse of a shape then it should be. My heart rate is higher, my energy levels are inconsistent and it is just so bad for me. I am sick of planning my day around when i am going to put a chew in. I am done planning my day around the can, im done spending $2000 a year on chew, and wasting my money on something that can kill me.
I started dipping Skoal mint longcut for about a year, then moved to skoal mint pouches. From freshman year of college til now, i have been using grizzly wintergreen pouches. I would get a longcut tin of grizzly or skoal straight every now and then as well. I was doing somewhere between 1-1.5 cans a day. If a day was busy i would maybe do just less than one tin a day.
I learned about this site from a family member who was helping me out and came across this site and I think what everyone does on here is just great and god bless everyone for it.
I am graduating college this year and i am going to be going into the real world, with a real job, and eventually having a family. I dont want to put myself in a situation that i dont want by not dipping.
I am almost done with day 3 right now. The first day was horrible, i literally didnt sleep one minute that day. Last night i took tylenol pm and slept for about 7 hours. I was all anxious and freaking a bit today and feeling the fog for sure but, after lacrosse practice i had felt a bit better.
Well guys, that is my story so far and i would love to answer and questions if anyone has any. Also I would just like to thank you for the help, you are all amazing. Any advice that will help with insomnia and irritation would be greatly appreciated too! :D
-One last thing is I am confused with the whole posting roll and the quit groups, how do i go about this?
Here's how to post roll
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
You're in June 2014 Group. Congratulations on taking your life back!
Baflow - welcome to the site. As these guys have said, post roll every damn day. Embrace the suck, you never have to feel it again. Pound water and hit the gym. Stay away from the booze for a few weeks. Quitting is hard, it takes a lot of energy, but it is so worth it. Glad to quit with you today.
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Hey, glad you're here man. I assure you this is the best place to be. We're all in this together, so we all got your back. If you need anything man, don't hesitate to get a hold of me.
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Hello all my name is Bryan and i have just kicked the can on sunday. I am three days into the quit so far and it sucks! But here is a little about me first,
I am 21 years old and a current senior in college. I play division one lacrosse and am graduating this year. I am from Long Island new york and i have been dipping for around 4-5 years in total so far. I took my first pinch when i was a junior in highschool. I wouldnt say that i came dependant on it until after my freshman year in college. So many people and my friends in college are dippers and close friends of mine. Being on a lacrosse team also brought me around the can a lot as well. I would say over 50% of my friends at college are dippers. My sophomore year i had some troubles with anxiety and depression which was brought on by my torn acl i had coming into college in 2010. my sophomore year 2011-12 was just a rough year. I was on anti depressants and i was just a mess. The ACL injury i had was the first time i had ever been hurt and it didnt really hit me until i wasnt playing in practice and such and i saw decline in my speed and such. Along with some dumb decisions you can see a dumb underclassman in college make, and my knee injury, thats what put me into a rut for that year. I would say this is the time that my chewing habit had really grown and become an addiction.
From then until now things have gotten much better. I am still a somewhat anxious person and I do tend to worry and overthink things sometimes when i shouldnt but overall things are going well. I am graduating this year and i am still playing lacrosse in my senior year having fun and hoping to win another conference championship in my final year. Lately i have just had the anxiety that i am going to get the C word if i keep dipping. Every little sore, dryness, scratch, anything, i was thinking was something deadly and I have just reached the point where i've had it. Nicotine has just made my body in worse of a shape then it should be. My heart rate is higher, my energy levels are inconsistent and it is just so bad for me. I am sick of planning my day around when i am going to put a chew in. I am done planning my day around the can, im done spending $2000 a year on chew, and wasting my money on something that can kill me.
I started dipping Skoal mint longcut for about a year, then moved to skoal mint pouches. From freshman year of college til now, i have been using grizzly wintergreen pouches. I would get a longcut tin of grizzly or skoal straight every now and then as well. I was doing somewhere between 1-1.5 cans a day. If a day was busy i would maybe do just less than one tin a day.
I learned about this site from a family member who was helping me out and came across this site and I think what everyone does on here is just great and god bless everyone for it.
I am graduating college this year and i am going to be going into the real world, with a real job, and eventually having a family. I dont want to put myself in a situation that i dont want by not dipping.
I am almost done with day 3 right now. The first day was horrible, i literally didnt sleep one minute that day. Last night i took tylenol pm and slept for about 7 hours. I was all anxious and freaking a bit today and feeling the fog for sure but, after lacrosse practice i had felt a bit better.
Well guys, that is my story so far and i would love to answer and questions if anyone has any. Also I would just like to thank you for the help, you are all amazing. Any advice that will help with insomnia and irritation would be greatly appreciated too! :D
-One last thing is I am confused with the whole posting roll and the quit groups, how do i go about this?
Here's how to post roll
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
You're in June 2014 Group. Congratulations on taking your life back!
Baflow - welcome to the site. As these guys have said, post roll every damn day. Embrace the suck, you never have to feel it again. Pound water and hit the gym. Stay away from the booze for a few weeks. Quitting is hard, it takes a lot of energy, but it is so worth it. Glad to quit with you today.
Wish I was smart enough to quit at 21.
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Welcome baflow. You're off to a good start and definitely in the right place. Post roll every morning and read as much as you can here. We all quit together every morning. If you need anything, feel free to ask.
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thank you all for your kind words so far. i am excited to take this journey with people who care. I've read a lot on the site so far, i was just wondering when you all first quit, when did all the fog and craziness stop and what did you do to divert it. Im just frustrated with a little anxiety is all. Been getting real agitated over the dumbest things!
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thank you all for your kind words so far. i am excited to take this journey with people who care. I've read a lot on the site so far, i was just wondering when you all first quit, when did all the fog and craziness stop and what did you do to divert it. Im just frustrated with a little anxiety is all. Been getting real agitated over the dumbest things!
Exercise, loads of water and some fruit. You're going through detox, it's going to suck for a while until it doesn't...then it won't. Surely you can gut out just one day! We've all been there and we all survived, you will too.
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Embrace the pain. You are getting better. It will get better slowly. Power through with all your might. Read KTC as much as you can. Read it all.
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Embrace the pain. You are getting better. It will get better slowly. Power through with all your might. Read KTC as much as you can. Read it all.
I'm at 19 days and I still don't sleep as well as I used to. I'm not going to lie to you, it sucks. A lot. But, this IS worth it and it WILL get better. Hang in there!
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Just wait til real restful sleep sets in. It will be the best you have had since you started dipping. Wake up like you had a wet dream
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Just wait til real restful sleep sets in. It will be the best you have had since you started dipping. Wake up like you had a wet dream
Welcome to this little glimpse of hell that all of us have gone through or are going through with you. I really don't have much to add to the advise you've been given except don't be surprised if some anxiety and depression don't emerge as the nicotine leaves you. Many of us masked the symptoms thinking we were self medicating. In the wildcard section there is a anxiety and depression forum. Don't worry about when you'll feel better just concentrate on getting through today and before you know it time will be flying by.
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Embrace the pain. You are getting better. It will get better slowly. Power through with all your might. Read KTC as much as you can. Read it all.
I'm at 19 days and I still don't sleep as well as I used to. I'm not going to lie to you, it sucks. A lot. But, this IS worth it and it WILL get better. Hang in there!
It takes a while for you to start sleeping better. I woke up every half hour for a couple weeks. Now I sleep until 4:30 every morning. I don't have to get up until 6:00 so it is still a little frustrating, but I"m also going to bed a little earlier. It gets better. Just hang in there. Your freedom is worth a little sleep trouble :)
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Get yourself some liquid Zzzquil. Be careful though, it will knock your ass out. It did mine. Just remember what you are going through now and promise to yourself that you will never have to go through it again.
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Embrace the pain. You are getting better. It will get better slowly. Power through with all your might. Read KTC as much as you can. Read it all.
I'm at 19 days and I still don't sleep as well as I used to. I'm not going to lie to you, it sucks. A lot. But, this IS worth it and it WILL get better. Hang in there!
It takes a while for you to start sleeping better. I woke up every half hour for a couple weeks. Now I sleep until 4:30 every morning. I don't have to get up until 6:00 so it is still a little frustrating, but I"m also going to bed a little earlier. It gets better. Just hang in there. Your freedom is worth a little sleep trouble :)
The worst of it is just about over, Dude. Hang in there. Quitting with you today.
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Embrace the pain. You are getting better. It will get better slowly. Power through with all your might. Read KTC as much as you can. Read it all.
I'm at 19 days and I still don't sleep as well as I used to. I'm not going to lie to you, it sucks. A lot. But, this IS worth it and it WILL get better. Hang in there!
It takes a while for you to start sleeping better. I woke up every half hour for a couple weeks. Now I sleep until 4:30 every morning. I don't have to get up until 6:00 so it is still a little frustrating, but I"m also going to bed a little earlier. It gets better. Just hang in there. Your freedom is worth a little sleep trouble :)
The worst of it is just about over, Dude. Hang in there. Quitting with you today.
Everyone is telling you it gets better because it does. It will take a little time but it is so worth it. 5 days of freedom is 5 days too many to piss away over feeling shitty. What helped me was reading KTC, loud music and exercise, getting laid seemed to help a bit with sleep too. The biggest thing was knowing that failure would mean I just went through x number of days for nothing. I came here to quit not to give quitting a shot.
You have this, it's going to take work but it can be done. Everyone who has posted a number larger than 5 today has been where you are right now. No one will tell you it was fun but I think we would all tell you it was so worth it.
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Embrace the pain. You are getting better. It will get better slowly. Power through with all your might. Read KTC as much as you can. Read it all.
I'm at 19 days and I still don't sleep as well as I used to. I'm not going to lie to you, it sucks. A lot. But, this IS worth it and it WILL get better. Hang in there!
It takes a while for you to start sleeping better. I woke up every half hour for a couple weeks. Now I sleep until 4:30 every morning. I don't have to get up until 6:00 so it is still a little frustrating, but I"m also going to bed a little earlier. It gets better. Just hang in there. Your freedom is worth a little sleep trouble :)
The worst of it is just about over, Dude. Hang in there. Quitting with you today.
Everyone is telling you it gets better because it does. It will take a little time but it is so worth it. 5 days of freedom is 5 days too many to piss away over feeling shitty. What helped me was reading KTC, loud music and exercise, getting laid seemed to help a bit with sleep too. The biggest thing was knowing that failure would mean I just went through x number of days for nothing. I came here to quit not to give quitting a shot.
You have this, it's going to take work but it can be done. Everyone who has posted a number larger than 5 today has been where you are right now. No one will tell you it was fun but I think we would all tell you it was so worth it.
Not much to add but more encouragement.
A wound doesn't heal overnight and you've wounded your body and mind for years with nicotine. Celebrate every day because... it's freedom and... it's pretty damn cool.
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Embrace the pain. You are getting better. It will get better slowly. Power through with all your might. Read KTC as much as you can. Read it all.
I'm at 19 days and I still don't sleep as well as I used to. I'm not going to lie to you, it sucks. A lot. But, this IS worth it and it WILL get better. Hang in there!
It takes a while for you to start sleeping better. I woke up every half hour for a couple weeks. Now I sleep until 4:30 every morning. I don't have to get up until 6:00 so it is still a little frustrating, but I"m also going to bed a little earlier. It gets better. Just hang in there. Your freedom is worth a little sleep trouble :)
The worst of it is just about over, Dude. Hang in there. Quitting with you today.
Everyone is telling you it gets better because it does. It will take a little time but it is so worth it. 5 days of freedom is 5 days too many to piss away over feeling shitty. What helped me was reading KTC, loud music and exercise, getting laid seemed to help a bit with sleep too. The biggest thing was knowing that failure would mean I just went through x number of days for nothing. I came here to quit not to give quitting a shot.
You have this, it's going to take work but it can be done. Everyone who has posted a number larger than 5 today has been where you are right now. No one will tell you it was fun but I think we would all tell you it was so worth it.
Not much to add but more encouragement.
A wound doesn't heal overnight and you've wounded your body and mind for years with nicotine. Celebrate every day because... it's freedom and... it's pretty damn cool.
Ask yourself this question. AM i WORTH IT? Am I worth a few nights without as much sleep as I think I need. Am I worth the craves that come daily. Am I worth all the crap I will go through initially during this quit. Ask your family the same question. Am I worth it?
The answer is YES my friend. Your worth it. It get's better quick. Believe it. It may not feel like it, but days drag for a while. This has been one of the best decision in my life and it is yours too. Stick with the plan. YOUR WORTH IT!! Glad to be quit with you.
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Hey guys I'm on day 5 now and I'm just super frustrated. I didn't sleep at all last night and I took some Advil pm and melatonin. I feel like shit today now and I'm just pretty upset about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you!
Embrace the pain. You are getting better. It will get better slowly. Power through with all your might. Read KTC as much as you can. Read it all.
I'm at 19 days and I still don't sleep as well as I used to. I'm not going to lie to you, it sucks. A lot. But, this IS worth it and it WILL get better. Hang in there!
It takes a while for you to start sleeping better. I woke up every half hour for a couple weeks. Now I sleep until 4:30 every morning. I don't have to get up until 6:00 so it is still a little frustrating, but I"m also going to bed a little earlier. It gets better. Just hang in there. Your freedom is worth a little sleep trouble :)
The worst of it is just about over, Dude. Hang in there. Quitting with you today.
Everyone is telling you it gets better because it does. It will take a little time but it is so worth it. 5 days of freedom is 5 days too many to piss away over feeling shitty. What helped me was reading KTC, loud music and exercise, getting laid seemed to help a bit with sleep too. The biggest thing was knowing that failure would mean I just went through x number of days for nothing. I came here to quit not to give quitting a shot.
You have this, it's going to take work but it can be done. Everyone who has posted a number larger than 5 today has been where you are right now. No one will tell you it was fun but I think we would all tell you it was so worth it.
Not much to add but more encouragement.
A wound doesn't heal overnight and you've wounded your body and mind for years with nicotine. Celebrate every day because... it's freedom and... it's pretty damn cool.
Ask yourself this question. AM i WORTH IT? Am I worth a few nights without as much sleep as I think I need. Am I worth the craves that come daily. Am I worth all the crap I will go through initially during this quit. Ask your family the same question. Am I worth it?
The answer is YES my friend. Your worth it. It get's better quick. Believe it. It may not feel like it, but days drag for a while. This has been one of the best decision in my life and it is yours too. Stick with the plan. YOUR WORTH IT!! Glad to be quit with you.
Thank you all so much for all of your input and words of encouragement. I had dealt with anxiety and depression in the past and have been on anti-depressants but wouldnt want to ever take those again. Today is day 6, the past 48 hours i have gotten little to no sleep. But overall craving wise i feel so much better. Today i barely have been craving at all, and despite the negative of me not getting any sleep, that is one positive that puts a smile on my face. Anxiety is my issue, i keep thinking that i am not going to get to bed and just worrying all this dumb crap and that actually makes me not sleep, even with benadryl. Laying there thinking wow i want to go to sleep but i cant isnt getting anything accomplished. It is hard but, i need to change the way i think! My body is relaxed, im relaxed, now i just need to get my mind to shut down at night. I am happy to be quitting with all of you, i understand i am an addict, and im ready to move past the suck of getting no sleep, and enter the world of freedom whenever that comes. Thank you friends.
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Okay guys it is day 6 today. Tomorrow will be the official week 1 of quit over. Last night I am happy to say that I slept! Thank you to Mich34 Lipizzaner applejack bronc and others for the advice on the sleeping anxiety and stuff. Today I am still in a bit of a fog, anxiety is rather on the higher side today but I am happy I got some sleep last night. Today I just feel kinda out if it and in the fog. But I feel like I'm slowly moving forward!
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Okay guys it is day 6 today. Tomorrow will be the official week 1 of quit over. Last night I am happy to say that I slept! Thank you to Mich34 Lipizzaner applejack bronc and others for the advice on the sleeping anxiety and stuff. Today I am still in a bit of a fog, anxiety is rather on the higher side today but I am happy I got some sleep last night. Today I just feel kinda out if it and in the fog. But I feel like I'm slowly moving forward!
Keep writing in your intro about how shitty you feel. Believe me . You're going to feel so good sometime soon and you DO NOT want to forget how crappy it is now. Keep going. Post roll EVERYDAY. Keep your vow. Keep trudging forward! There is nothing good behind you, and there is freedom ahead. You are on a righteous path brother!
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Alright I have officially reached the 1 week mark and I am happy to say so. Unfortunately my sleeping habits haven't gotten much better. Slightly yes but I am still having anxiety upon bedtime. I just saw the doctor and I have some temazepam prescribed to help me out with the sleep and anxiety. I am hoping this will help me get into a better sleep pattern. As for today it's 3:00 now I am bout to go study for about and hour then maybe ride the bike or elliptical or run a mile. Then gonna come back and clear my mind and relax. I feel like once I start getting more sleep and my mind calms down into a sleeping pattern that this fog will clear up and I won't feel like a zombie! Being that I hit the day 7 mark I want to thank all of you so far for all the encouragement and support. I just have to stay calm and get past this frustration of sleeping and the anxiety part. Then big things will come. If anyone also has any experience with tamazepam please let me know!
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Alright I have officially reached the 1 week mark and I am happy to say so. Unfortunately my sleeping habits haven't gotten much better. Slightly yes but I am still having anxiety upon bedtime. I just saw the doctor and I have some temazepam prescribed to help me out with the sleep and anxiety. I am hoping this will help me get into a better sleep pattern. As for today it's 3:00 now I am bout to go study for about and hour then maybe ride the bike or elliptical or run a mile. Then gonna come back and clear my mind and relax. I feel like once I start getting more sleep and my mind calms down into a sleeping pattern that this fog will clear up and I won't feel like a zombie! Being that I hit the day 7 mark I want to thank all of you so far for all the encouragement and support. I just have to stay calm and get past this frustration of sleeping and the anxiety part. Then big things will come. If anyone also has any experience with tamazepam please let me know!
Ensure you have enough sleeping hours when you take it. You will wake in a hangover state if not. It will kick in quickly and then you are out for the count....need more info? PM me....
Happy sleeping....and congrats on 7 days of bad ass quitting
G
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Alright I have officially reached the 1 week mark and I am happy to say so. Unfortunately my sleeping habits haven't gotten much better. Slightly yes but I am still having anxiety upon bedtime. I just saw the doctor and I have some temazepam prescribed to help me out with the sleep and anxiety. I am hoping this will help me get into a better sleep pattern. As for today it's 3:00 now I am bout to go study for about and hour then maybe ride the bike or elliptical or run a mile. Then gonna come back and clear my mind and relax. I feel like once I start getting more sleep and my mind calms down into a sleeping pattern that this fog will clear up and I won't feel like a zombie! Being that I hit the day 7 mark I want to thank all of you so far for all the encouragement and support. I just have to stay calm and get past this frustration of sleeping and the anxiety part. Then big things will come. If anyone also has any experience with tamazepam please let me know!
Resident pharmacist here. Temazepam is an older benzodiazepine that causes more sedation and is relatively long-acting compared to others. It would be similar to diazepam (Valium) or flurazepam (Dalmane) along those lines. Ginet is right, there is a hangover effect, especially if you're not used to taking the drug so be sure to allow for a full 8 hours of sleep and see how you feel in the morning. It's relatively safe and has been used as a sleep aid for years. If it still isn't helping, talk to your doctor about zolpidem (Ambien) and drugs similar to that. These are short-acting drugs with much less hangover effect.
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Update: Day 8
Today is a lot better than yesterday. I used the temazepam last night and i got a full nights sleep, woke up at 4am to piss but fell back asleep til my alarm at 0730. Today i still am a little edgy. For me the worst part of this whole thing has been the anxiety and the tight chest feeling that drives me crazy. I think that the foggy feeling is what freaks me out the most and it gives me anxiety. I understand its from the nicotine withdrawal and the quit. I give MYSELF anxiety over it and i am just overthinking ever damn thing, making myself all crazy. I am trying to push past it all and not be afraid to do things cause im anxious. I dont really remember how i felt before i chewed, i want to know what it feels like again though. I do know i was a hell of a lot more productive and motivated before i chewed, ill tell you that. Just really want to get to that point again and stop making myself crazy. I am my own worst enemy sometimes and i realize that. I am grateful to have you all to talk to about all this. I know this recent increase in anxiety and slight depression has to do with the withdrawal and the quit because it wasnt really there before the quit, i just need to learn to cope with it better. Day 8, moving forward. Almost double digits.
I also had forgot to mention that i actually got in my lacrosse game this weekend! I am a senior and havent been playing much, even though we were up by 7 in the 4th quarter it was nice to get in and see some burn. Last year of college so i am grateful for that. One picture of me in that portion of the game was actually one of the pics they use in our article on Inside Lacrosse. Positive thoughts right?!
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Update: Day 8
Today is a lot better than yesterday. I used the temazepam last night and i got a full nights sleep, woke up at 4am to piss but fell back asleep til my alarm at 0730. Today i still am a little edgy. For me the worst part of this whole thing has been the anxiety and the tight chest feeling that drives me crazy. I think that the foggy feeling is what freaks me out the most and it gives me anxiety. I understand its from the nicotine withdrawal and the quit. I give MYSELF anxiety over it and i am just overthinking ever damn thing, making myself all crazy. I am trying to push past it all and not be afraid to do things cause im anxious. I dont really remember how i felt before i chewed, i want to know what it feels like again though. I do know i was a hell of a lot more productive and motivated before i chewed, ill tell you that. Just really want to get to that point again and stop making myself crazy. I am my own worst enemy sometimes and i realize that. I am grateful to have you all to talk to about all this. I know this recent increase in anxiety and slight depression has to do with the withdrawal and the quit because it wasnt really there before the quit, i just need to learn to cope with it better. Day 8, moving forward. Almost double digits.
I also had forgot to mention that i actually got in my lacrosse game this weekend! I am a senior and havent been playing much, even though we were up by 7 in the 4th quarter it was nice to get in and see some burn. Last year of college so i am grateful for that. One picture of me in that portion of the game was actually one of the pics they use in our article on Inside Lacrosse. Positive thoughts right?!
Hang in there bro. I sent you a lengthy PM. Reading that should put you to sleep. LOL
Seriously, it's easy to tell you not to think about stuff so much, but it's extremely hard to do. I know from experience...
I too would get anxious about anxiety. Eventually you just have to say fuck it and embrace the montra, "I do not fear anxiety", "I DO NOT FEAR ANXIETY".
Let the thoughts come, accept and even laugh at them, and move on. It's not worth the wasted energy.
Again, I know it's easier said than done, but as soon as you learn not to fear anxiety the more comfortable you will become.
Try to embrace the journey of finding the real you again. Fuck, you're only 21 years old. You got your whole damn life in front of you, yet.
Very wise move to quit now. Don't fuck it up and don't let a few sleepless nights get to you too much. It's a small price to pay for freedom, trust me.
You got this shit. You fuck it up and I will find you and huck a lacrosse ball at your dick.
Quit on...
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hey guys thank you so much for all the support so far..I just talked with my therapist this morning and yesterday along with my athletic trainer and coach and parents.
I am going to be taking a break from this site, my anxiety is through the roof and i am overthinking everything. I tend to look at what happens to everyone on the site and immediately think it is going to happen to me even when it is not true. I have been battling anxiety for a long time and this is just something that i need to do for myself to make this quit as easy for me as possible.
I know that a lot of you guys wouldnt reccommend doing this but it is something i have to try in order to try and better myself. I am going back on meds for my anxiety and everything and i am hoping to get better soon. I appreciate everything you guys have done so far, this is just something i need to do for myself. i love all you guys that i have met on here so far and appreciate everything so much.
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I want you to look at me...Jake Frawley, and a few others before you make that decision. I was past HOF....left the site....now i'm on day 9
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hey guys thank you so much for all the support so far..I just talked with my therapist this morning and yesterday along with my athletic trainer and coach and parents.
I am going to be taking a break from this site, my anxiety is through the roof and i am overthinking everything. I tend to look at what happens to everyone on the site and immediately think it is going to happen to me even when it is not true. I have been battling anxiety for a long time and this is just something that i need to do for myself to make this quit as easy for me as possible.
I know that a lot of you guys wouldnt reccommend doing this but it is something i have to try in order to try and better myself. I am going back on meds for my anxiety and everything and i am hoping to get better soon. I appreciate everything you guys have done so far, this is just something i need to do for myself. i love all you guys that i have met on here so far and appreciate everything so much.
You will do this one day at at a time. You screwed your brain for years,, I say again YEARS!! I'll let you add the days up on your own. You'll probably need a calculator. I say that to say this,,, 11 days is just the beginning. I didn't begin feeling better until about 40 days in. Maybe you will be different though,, you never no. In time you will start to feel better and begin feeling somewhat normal. What is normal exactly!?!? Your guess is as good as mine.
There is a door you need to get to. This door is hard to get to and open. Sharpen your tools, settle in and make your way to the door. I can't tell you how far the door is or how long it will be before you get to this door. You WILL get there one day at a time. I make you one promise and you can take it to the bank. You stay the course, and live by this rule (nafar) you will love where this quit takes you. Life is so much better without the poison.
I would like to end this with one important question. Has your therapist, trainer, coach or parents ever had this addiction and quit. I bet not! You will not find help like this anywhere. Don't walk away from this site! At least give it the 100 days. 11 days isn't long enough my friend. You have a ways to go.
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hey guys thank you so much for all the support so far..I just talked with my therapist this morning and yesterday along with my athletic trainer and coach and parents.
I am going to be taking a break from this site, my anxiety is through the roof and i am overthinking everything. I tend to look at what happens to everyone on the site and immediately think it is going to happen to me even when it is not true. I have been battling anxiety for a long time and this is just something that i need to do for myself to make this quit as easy for me as possible.
I know that a lot of you guys wouldnt reccommend doing this but it is something i have to try in order to try and better myself. I am going back on meds for my anxiety and everything and i am hoping to get better soon. I appreciate everything you guys have done so far, this is just something i need to do for myself. i love all you guys that i have met on here so far and appreciate everything so much.
Dammit! Not yet dude... don't give in. Freedom is just around the corner and you're getting closer. Stay on the path. We're here too...
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hey guys thank you so much for all the support so far..I just talked with my therapist this morning and yesterday along with my athletic trainer and coach and parents.
I am going to be taking a break from this site, my anxiety is through the roof and i am overthinking everything. I tend to look at what happens to everyone on the site and immediately think it is going to happen to me even when it is not true. I have been battling anxiety for a long time and this is just something that i need to do for myself to make this quit as easy for me as possible.
I know that a lot of you guys wouldnt reccommend doing this but it is something i have to try in order to try and better myself. I am going back on meds for my anxiety and everything and i am hoping to get better soon. I appreciate everything you guys have done so far, this is just something i need to do for myself. i love all you guys that i have met on here so far and appreciate everything so much.
Dammit! Not yet dude... don't give in. Freedom is just around the corner and you're getting closer. Stay on the path. We're here too...
Baflow
Why not Therapist, Trainer, Parents, Coach AND KTC?
You leaving here is not going to help. Whatever help you find for your anxiety will not be diminished by staying with us. There are a lot of guys here that are standing behind you and some very experienced in what you are going through. Don't Go!
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hey guys thank you so much for all the support so far..I just talked with my therapist this morning and yesterday along with my athletic trainer and coach and parents.
I am going to be taking a break from this site, my anxiety is through the roof and i am overthinking everything. I tend to look at what happens to everyone on the site and immediately think it is going to happen to me even when it is not true. I have been battling anxiety for a long time and this is just something that i need to do for myself to make this quit as easy for me as possible.
I know that a lot of you guys wouldnt reccommend doing this but it is something i have to try in order to try and better myself. I am going back on meds for my anxiety and everything and i am hoping to get better soon. I appreciate everything you guys have done so far, this is just something i need to do for myself. i love all you guys that i have met on here so far and appreciate everything so much.
I'm going to take a different approach, since this same exact thing happened to me. Others may disagree, and that's fine.
Do what you have to do to get yourself right and your anxiety under control. But you must remain quit.
Once you get stable again, you will be back. I guarantee it.
Let the doctors and therapists do their job. Anxiety is a mother fucker. It gets you thinking stuff you have no business thinking and its scary. Good news is you can reverse it and you have taken steps to do so. Shows me you really want this.
Once you get feeling better again you will realize that as great as the doctors/therapists are, they cannot relate to the daily struggles of beating nicotine addiction. That's when you will come back. Things will be less scary and you will be able to handle things better because you wont be riddled with anxiety and you won't be having irrational thoughts.
Get right, stay quit, and come back. I'll still be here.
Take care.
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hey guys thank you so much for all the support so far..I just talked with my therapist this morning and yesterday along with my athletic trainer and coach and parents.
I am going to be taking a break from this site, my anxiety is through the roof and i am overthinking everything. I tend to look at what happens to everyone on the site and immediately think it is going to happen to me even when it is not true. I have been battling anxiety for a long time and this is just something that i need to do for myself to make this quit as easy for me as possible.
I know that a lot of you guys wouldnt reccommend doing this but it is something i have to try in order to try and better myself. I am going back on meds for my anxiety and everything and i am hoping to get better soon. I appreciate everything you guys have done so far, this is just something i need to do for myself. i love all you guys that i have met on here so far and appreciate everything so much.
I'm going to take a different approach, since this same exact thing happened to me. Others may disagree, and that's fine.
Do what you have to do to get yourself right and your anxiety under control. But you must remain quit.
Once you get stable again, you will be back. I guarantee it.
Let the doctors and therapists do their job. Anxiety is a mother fucker. It gets you thinking stuff you have no business thinking and its scary. Good news is you can reverse it and you have taken steps to do so. Shows me you really want this.
Once you get feeling better again you will realize that as great as the doctors/therapists are, they cannot relate to the daily struggles of beating nicotine addiction. That's when you will come back. Things will be less scary and you will be able to handle things better because you wont be riddled with anxiety and you won't be having irrational thoughts.
Get right, stay quit, and come back. I'll still be here.
Take care.
Bump for July 14 peeps.