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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: drbottux on September 18, 2017, 01:18:00 PM
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Hey everybody. This community might be what I've been missing the whole time... I'm one of those closet dippers (Grizzly Wintergreen Pouches, never just one at a time). Roughly 2 tins a day. Started in my early 30's and it's been about a decade. I never let anyone see me do it, and don't talk to anyone but the gas station workers about it. My wife knows I chew but never in front of her... Our kids have no idea; they just think I need 1/2 hour every time I go to the bathroom.
It's been hard to find info on what to expect when quitting - most sites are just for cigarettes and don't quite get what makes chew unique. I don't know how I missed this site for so long! Now that I've seen so many examples of successful quitters, I've got inspiration and hope. Ready to sign up for my quit group and post roll first thing tomorrow morning! Only thing is - I can't figure out where to sign up. Is that something the mods do, or am I missing it?
Looking forward to putting my chewing days behind me - with the support I see on here, I'm more hopeful than I've been in a LONG TIME.
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Post roll now. Dump your pouches, and flush them. Your Day 1 is the day you decide to stop, and begin your quit.
As for signing up - you are signed up. Now that you have an account, you just post your name and day count in the December group.
Do. It. Now.
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Post roll now. Dump your pouches, and flush them. Your Day 1 is the day you decide to stop, and begin your quit.
As for signing up - you are signed up. Now that you have an account, you just post your name and day count in the December group.
Do. It. Now.
Done and done. Chewing on an Altoid. Looks like foggy weather on the horizon...
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Saw you posted on our December group today -- Good for you! Stay strong -- we will make our 100 days together!
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A lot has happened since the last post.
I caved within a week. Impulse buy at a gas station. I told my December group about it, and they did not pull any punches in letting me know what a colossal mistake I had made. The responses really got in my head. At first, it made me want to hide under a rock, and so I did. Stupidly, I went back to my old friend the can.
Over the next couple of weeks, I thought about it constantly. I hadn't felt that bad in a long time. Guilt, shame, regret, fear... Life sucked. I knew if I came back to KTC I would have to be 100% committed and learn from my mistake. Meanwhile I was getting the HOF speech emails - daily reminders of what it takes to be successful. Did I have that fire?
Finally it was time to face the music. I posted roll in the Feb group. I answered the three questions, both there and in December. Plus a couple bonus questions. I'll add my answers to this thread as reminders to myself and anyone reading.
The most important question, of course, is "What will you do differently this time?" As of Day 8, I've made a point to be in contact with as many people as I can. Texts, PM's, forum chats, whatever. Welcoming new quitters, thanking vets for support, and posting a daily thought about why life is better TODAY without nicotine. Reaching out and getting connected makes all the difference.
I'm going to start using this intro thread as a bit of a journal too. It will be nice to look back and see how far I've come when it's time to write my HOF speech!
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A lot has happened since the last post.
I caved within a week. Impulse buy at a gas station. I told my December group about it, and they did not pull any punches in letting me know what a colossal mistake I had made. The responses really got in my head. At first, it made me want to hide under a rock, and so I did. Stupidly, I went back to my old friend the can.
Over the next couple of weeks, I thought about it constantly. I hadn't felt that bad in a long time. Guilt, shame, regret, fear... Life sucked. I knew if I came back to KTC I would have to be 100% committed and learn from my mistake. Meanwhile I was getting the HOF speech emails - daily reminders of what it takes to be successful. Did I have that fire?
Finally it was time to face the music. I posted roll in the Feb group. I answered the three questions, both there and in December. Plus a couple bonus questions. I'll add my answers to this thread as reminders to myself and anyone reading.
The most important question, of course, is "What will you do differently this time?" As of Day 8, I've made a point to be in contact with as many people as I can. Texts, PM's, forum chats, whatever. Welcoming new quitters, thanking vets for support, and posting a daily thought about why life is better TODAY without nicotine. Reaching out and getting connected makes all the difference.
I'm going to start using this intro thread as a bit of a journal too. It will be nice to look back and see how far I've come when it's time to write my HOF speech!
It's nice to have a dr in the house. It took 11 days for me to realize that involvement is key. The path to freedom is within these pages. Fight every urge and stay quit odaat. It's good to be quit w you.
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A lot has happened since the last post.
I caved within a week. Impulse buy at a gas station. I told my December group about it, and they did not pull any punches in letting me know what a colossal mistake I had made. The responses really got in my head. At first, it made me want to hide under a rock, and so I did. Stupidly, I went back to my old friend the can.
Over the next couple of weeks, I thought about it constantly. I hadn't felt that bad in a long time. Guilt, shame, regret, fear... Life sucked. I knew if I came back to KTC I would have to be 100% committed and learn from my mistake. Meanwhile I was getting the HOF speech emails - daily reminders of what it takes to be successful. Did I have that fire?
Finally it was time to face the music. I posted roll in the Feb group. I answered the three questions, both there and in December. Plus a couple bonus questions. I'll add my answers to this thread as reminders to myself and anyone reading.
The most important question, of course, is "What will you do differently this time?" As of Day 8, I've made a point to be in contact with as many people as I can. Texts, PM's, forum chats, whatever. Welcoming new quitters, thanking vets for support, and posting a daily thought about why life is better TODAY without nicotine. Reaching out and getting connected makes all the difference.
I'm going to start using this intro thread as a bit of a journal too. It will be nice to look back and see how far I've come when it's time to write my HOF speech!
It's nice to have a dr in the house. It took 11 days for me to realize that involvement is key. The path to freedom is within these pages. Fight every urge and stay quit odaat. It's good to be quit w you.
you want some contact people, PM me for digits - I will respond
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A lot has happened since the last post.
I caved within a week. Impulse buy at a gas station. I told my December group about it, and they did not pull any punches in letting me know what a colossal mistake I had made. The responses really got in my head. At first, it made me want to hide under a rock, and so I did. Stupidly, I went back to my old friend the can.
Over the next couple of weeks, I thought about it constantly. I hadn't felt that bad in a long time. Guilt, shame, regret, fear... Life sucked. I knew if I came back to KTC I would have to be 100% committed and learn from my mistake. Meanwhile I was getting the HOF speech emails - daily reminders of what it takes to be successful. Did I have that fire?
Finally it was time to face the music. I posted roll in the Feb group. I answered the three questions, both there and in December. Plus a couple bonus questions. I'll add my answers to this thread as reminders to myself and anyone reading.
The most important question, of course, is "What will you do differently this time?" As of Day 8, I've made a point to be in contact with as many people as I can. Texts, PM's, forum chats, whatever. Welcoming new quitters, thanking vets for support, and posting a daily thought about why life is better TODAY without nicotine. Reaching out and getting connected makes all the difference.
I'm going to start using this intro thread as a bit of a journal too. It will be nice to look back and see how far I've come when it's time to write my HOF speech!
It's nice to have a dr in the house. It took 11 days for me to realize that involvement is key. The path to freedom is within these pages. Fight every urge and stay quit odaat. It's good to be quit w you.
you want some contact people, PM me for digits - I will respond
You can do this doc, but you have to realize that to succeed, you have to want this as badly as you've ever wanted anything in your life. Some days are easy, but most aren't in the beginning. Life gets in the way, kids, wife, work, friends, etc. Quitting has to become a part of who you are, not something you do. Your success will be tied to the relationships you establish here. It works if you work it.
You can do this.
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Thanks everyone! Appreciate the words of encouragement. The Feb group has been great so far. I get and send 10-15 texts every morning in addition to WUPP'ing. Generally chat with people on and off throughout the day.
Regarding the quit itself - wanted to jot this down for future reference:
It's day 14. I had shaky craves early on, but not too bad. Then on and off in the 2nd week I was a little down - kind of like when a friend moves away and you won't get to see them again (except you at least have Facebook in that case). I know we quit one day at a time here, but still there's a sense of loss.
On the flip side, I've been tracking how much money I've saved since quitting, and that makes me both happy and extremely pissed. I have spent a LOT of money on this addiction over the years.
Today (day 14) was a weird one though - I got shaky around 8:30 this morning and it continued until well after noon. I'd thought the physical part was mostly done, but this was as intense (and certainly longer) than any of the shakes I got in the first week. It's probably died down now, but one of my go-to substitutes is coffee so it's hard to tell. 'archer'
Bottom line - I'm glad I came back. And I never want to go through quitting again.