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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Jungleland on May 24, 2013, 05:13:00 PM
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I quit on the May 7th, and have been on this site every day - reading, reading and reading some more. I've been trying to decide whether to join the August group and begin posting roll – which I just did officially a few minutes ago. I have been pretty much on here everyday mentally posting roll anyway!
I realize the need to be committed, to be ALL IN, no half assing this - no leaving myself an out or an open door... I know Nic will be waiting for me if I do.
I started to get the feeling that by lurking I am using the benefit of the group, but not contributing, and it just feels wrong to continue to do so.
There are so many reasons to quit, and I've heard them all before - cost, health, family, you name it. But what I can see now is for me there is only one reason to quit that will stick - I'm quitting for me, not for my wife or kids, even though they deserve it. I've tried, and it didn't work.
Each day, one day at a time, I am going to give myself the gift of a day without nicotine.
If anyone is out there holding back like I was, I challenge you to do the same, and together let's give ourselves the gift of a life without nicotine.
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I quit on the May 7th, and have been on this site every day - reading, reading and reading some more. I've been trying to decide whether to join the August group and begin posting roll – which I just did officially a few minutes ago. I have been pretty much on here everyday mentally posting roll anyway!
I realize the need to be committed, to be ALL IN, no half assing this - no leaving myself an out or an open door... I know Nic will be waiting for me if I do.
I started to get the feeling that by lurking I am using the benefit of the group, but not contributing, and it just feels wrong to continue to do so.
There are so many reasons to quit, and I've heard them all before - cost, health, family, you name it. But what I can see now is for me there is only one reason to quit that will stick - I'm quitting for me, not for my wife or kids, even though they deserve it. I've tried, and it didn't work.
Each day, one day at a time, I am going to give myself the gift of a day without nicotine.
If anyone is out there holding back like I was, I challenge you to do the same, and together let's give ourselves the gift of a life without nicotine.
That was probably one of my favorite introductions I have read. Fantastic! Welcome to KTC... Though I guess you've been here for awhile. Glad you joined my Quit group. Let me know if you need anything...
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I quit on the May 7th, and have been on this site every day - reading, reading and reading some more. I've been trying to decide whether to join the August group and begin posting roll – which I just did officially a few minutes ago. I have been pretty much on here everyday mentally posting roll anyway!
I realize the need to be committed, to be ALL IN, no half assing this - no leaving myself an out or an open door... I know Nic will be waiting for me if I do.
I started to get the feeling that by lurking I am using the benefit of the group, but not contributing, and it just feels wrong to continue to do so.
There are so many reasons to quit, and I've heard them all before - cost, health, family, you name it. But what I can see now is for me there is only one reason to quit that will stick - I'm quitting for me, not for my wife or kids, even though they deserve it. I've tried, and it didn't work.
Each day, one day at a time, I am going to give myself the gift of a day without nicotine.
If anyone is out there holding back like I was, I challenge you to do the same, and together let's give ourselves the gift of a life without nicotine.
That was probably one of my favorite introductions I have read. Fantastic! Welcome to KTC... Though I guess you've been here for awhile. Glad you joined my Quit group. Let me know if you need anything...
Welcome Jungleland to taking your life back.
This may be the hardest thing you've ever done, but 40000 have quit before us to light the way.
You can "be quit". One day at a time....you got this...
Keep reading brother, keep posting roll, the earlier the better for your quit.
get to bed, wake and repeat...
Glad to have you here.
Cheers.
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Awesome post. Welcome, sir. Yell if you need anything.
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I can tell you have been around because you are already using our jargon!!! Quit with you bro!! Let me know if you need anything!!
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There's nothing to it Jungleland. Just look in the mirror everyday and man up. It's as simple as that. Post roll with your August brothers and honor it. Get some phone numbers and make some contacts in your group because they will help you through any rough patches. PM me if you want mine. You're gonna love being quit if you attack it in full force. Be the aggressor. Own it. Read, read, and read some more. This site has every imaginable scenario of quit duration, former tobacco usage time, ages, races, genders, etc. Make some friends and dive in man. Welcome.
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Awesome, bout time you got your balls ready, manned up and posted roll! Now there is no out, you've closed the loop hole. Keep your word, damn it. Jungleland I am glad you are in the group brother. Stay close get to know some of us reach out. I sent you my info in a pm. Let me know if you need me.. I am quiting with you one day at time my man.
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Big splash into the quit for a Memorial Day weekend. Watch the booze (its a quit killer) post first thing every damn day and keep your word. Strap it on cuz it's called the suck for a reason. Lots of water and exercise will help. Reach out for help - you're not an island
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Welcome, You'll be so much happier now that you have others to lean on and help you through every imaginable circumstance. This site helped me to make sure I wasn't going crazy. Jump into the chat, its a life saver when your craving. Just remember one day at a time. PM if you need anything
Murph
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welcome to the jungle, jungle.... like your intro, like your attitude. belly up to the bar, keep drinking the big glass of koolaid, and let me know if you need or want more digits. Quit withya...
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Welcome to ktc and congrats on quitting. I will quit with you any day. If you need a number or anything at all feel free to pm me
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You're a better quitter than me already, and I'm sitting at 130 days. You lurked for, what, a week or two? I lurked for seven fucking months. At least we aren't lurking around the gas station counter anymore, wondering if Jesus or our elementary PE teacher might walk in as we stuff that tin in our pants.
BTW, you quit on a terrible weekend. Long weekend, barbeques, poolside outings, etc. If you crave a dip, go to the store and grab a bag of Milkbones. They are actually quite a bit healthier than dip. They taste like shit, but you could actually live off dog treats if you had to. Lots of crude protein and whatnot.
Remember that every day. If you own a dog, he or she is eating shit far better than you have been. Good intro. Check your PM for my number. If you need it at 4 a.m. EST, I'll talk you off the ledge. If, in fact, I wake up.
Quit now, jungle. Just be a man that doesn't do that anymore. It's actually really invigorating.
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Jungle it really is impressive you've stayed off the nicotine and probably had quite a few crave attacks. Hopefully knowing other folks are trying to accomplish the same thing and there is strength in numbers can give you support. I'm with you and heck I might be calling you trying to get a few pointers if today is any indication. Sunset soon so tomorrow's another day.
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Thanks for the welcome. The first week wasn't great between craves and fog, but it's gotten a lot better the last few days. I don't doubt though that I'm going to need a few numbers to either text or call at some point. I know Nic plans on ambushing me, and as I've learned on this site, I've got to be prepared for it.
Like many here, I have a lot of triggers that are part of my daily routine that I need time to unlearn. Especially the hour long commute (damn) and yard/barn work (double damn). Hunting and fishing too - I am planning on some fishing in June, but I will not go by myself.
My father smoked when I was young and then switched to skoal, quit cold turkey and then later smoked a pipe for a few years and then quit cold turkey again - it's probably been 20 years or more for him now. He did it, and I plan on doing the same.
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This intro is fucking Quit-porn. I have quit-wood right now.
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Stay quit and welcome. Pm for digits.
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......
Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....
While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......
Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....
While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
I take no credit for brushing his hair. I only helped pick out the tie and remind him to tuck in his shirt. The bitch in me PM'd him. He's got my number and knows at least one set of eyes are on him.
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......
Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....
While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
I take no credit for brushing his hair. I only helped pick out the tie and remind him to tuck in his shirt. The bitch in me PM'd him. He's got my number and knows at least one set of eyes are on him.
dlee....outstanding
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......
Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....
While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
Fair enough. I live in MD, and work in IT and am in my mid/late 40's. I'm originally from western PA, as in coal, steel, chewing and alcohol. My father retired from the mines and my father in law did 12 years in the mines until his closed.
Don't think because I waited until after the first week to write an intro that the first several days didn't suck! I spent a lot of time reading a lot of other peoples rants and intro's on this site and in many cases knew exactly what they were saying.
I've chewed a little less than a pack of Red Man a day for years - and I've tried quiting on my own before. Why'd I quit and what will be different this time? First why'd I quit, a couple reasons, one it was affecting my health and blood pressure more than in the past, and it costs more every day it seems and I've been asking myself why am I spending all this money on this, and as odd as it sounds, I've starting getting the sense that it made me a little mean - to myself, the kids and the wife.
What will be different this time is that I will post roll and be a man of my word. I've gotten a few PM's (thanks guys) and will reach out and make a few connections so that I have some support (and can offer some) and be accountable. I do reserve the right to post a crazy rant at some point, because I know I'm feeling pretty good right now - give me some unforeseen stress and things could change.
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Mid to late 40's, haha. I'm early to mid 50's (I'll be 56 in a few weeks). The time comes that we just wake up (figuratively) and realize that we are fricking idiots for allowing a poison to control our lives. I'll quit with you pm me if you need anything.
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Will everyone please indulge me for a moment while I play my role as the contrarian? Jungle...need more info....who are you, what do you do, need some personal G2...while you type that, some things to consider.......
Right now you are operating on pure adrenaline. While I commend you on your outstanding intro, you missed the best part.....your quickening....your foundation....your posts of hate, rage, craziness of the first 3 days.....your most important part.....
While everyone else brushes your hair and tells you how awesome your intro is, I will say this......your fight just started man.....you will be tested like you have no idea.....i am here for you.....PM me if you need a number
Fair enough. I live in MD, and work in IT and am in my mid/late 40's. I'm originally from western PA, as in coal, steel, chewing and alcohol. My father retired from the mines and my father in law did 12 years in the mines until his closed.
Don't think because I waited until after the first week to write an intro that the first several days didn't suck! I spent a lot of time reading a lot of other peoples rants and intro's on this site and in many cases knew exactly what they were saying.
I've chewed a little less than a pack of Red Man a day for years - and I've tried quiting on my own before. Why'd I quit and what will be different this time? First why'd I quit, a couple reasons, one it was affecting my health and blood pressure more than in the past, and it costs more every day it seems and I've been asking myself why am I spending all this money on this, and as odd as it sounds, I've starting getting the sense that it made me a little mean - to myself, the kids and the wife.
What will be different this time is that I will post roll and be a man of my word. I've gotten a few PM's (thanks guys) and will reach out and make a few connections so that I have some support (and can offer some) and be accountable. I do reserve the right to post a crazy rant at some point, because I know I'm feeling pretty good right now - give me some unforeseen stress and things could change.
Jungle, welcome to KTC. You're in MD, I got a few quit brothers in June from MD. YogiBear and EFNKODIAK, look them up.
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28 days in and I'd like to add a couple random thoughts -
Evil Won just posted something in an intro thread that hits home for me -
I'm only 237 days quit and I still think about dip at least a dozen times a day. Yes, the urges to actually go out and buy a can has lessened, but the thought of dipping is just as strong as ever. I don't think the thought of dip will ever disappear and I don't really want it to either. I bet that sounds fucked up, but every time I think about dip I get pissed and realize that I'm an addict. I get pissed that 237 days later this shit still has a slight grab of me. That anger fuels my desire to quit today.
All I have to say is Amen Brother, I know I am very early in my quit - and I think about having a chew multiple times per day too. It is fucked up and it just shows how bad this shit really is... I'm really pissed I let nic have so much control of my day to day life. It's stupid.
It also pisses me off that I like so many started doing this shit before we had a lot of practice making good choices. It's bad enough when someone starts later in life, but it's just plain sad when your 14 or 15 and you are introduced to this by someone who should know better. I'm not absolving myself, it's a choice I made, and I should have known better. I do know better now and have made my choice for today and plan on making the same choice tomorrow.
- It's a good thing this shit has gotten so expensive (and yes I complained about it costing so much).
- I've had a couple dip dreams and yes I was pissed that I had a chew and woke up relieved.
- I'm not going to let this shit define me - I define me.
- The moment I knew I was committed to be quit was when I threw away every spittoon laying around. I had been nic free for several days and I noticed I still had all these potential spittoons saved. There were always soda or water bottles laying around, but now I just pitch em in the recycle bin. No need to have these lying around when you're quit.
I'm just a little pissed today for no real reason.
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28 days in and I'd like to add a couple random thoughts -
Evil Won just posted something in an intro thread that hits home for me -
I'm only 237 days quit and I still think about dip at least a dozen times a day. Yes, the urges to actually go out and buy a can has lessened, but the thought of dipping is just as strong as ever. I don't think the thought of dip will ever disappear and I don't really want it to either. I bet that sounds fucked up, but every time I think about dip I get pissed and realize that I'm an addict. I get pissed that 237 days later this shit still has a slight grab of me. That anger fuels my desire to quit today.
All I have to say is Amen Brother, I know I am very early in my quit - and I think about having a chew multiple times per day too. It is fucked up and it just shows how bad this shit really is... I'm really pissed I let nic have so much control of my day to day life. It's stupid.
It also pisses me off that I like so many started doing this shit before we had a lot of practice making good choices. It's bad enough when someone starts later in life, but it's just plain sad when your 14 or 15 and you are introduced to this by someone who should know better. I'm not absolving myself, it's a choice I made, and I should have known better. I do know better now and have made my choice for today and plan on making the same choice tomorrow.
- It's a good thing this shit has gotten so expensive (and yes I complained about it costing so much).
- I've had a couple dip dreams and yes I was pissed that I had a chew and woke up relieved.
- I'm not going to let this shit define me - I define me.
- The moment I knew I was committed to be quit was when I threw away every spittoon laying around. I had been nic free for several days and I noticed I still had all these potential spittoons saved. There were always soda or water bottles laying around, but now I just pitch em in the recycle bin. No need to have these lying around when you're quit.
I'm just a little pissed today for no real reason.
every day is something new in your quit right now. More than likely this is the longest you've been quit. Keep posting every damn day regardless. You are breaking the routine you (we) let control our lives.
Re-train the body and the brain -
How you react to any given situation is now under your control.
Accept the fact you don't have all the answers (remind myself daily at 521)
Go find a newer noob to help or exchange numbers and promise to be their accountability bud - ( if you don't post they light you up and vice versa)
Take what you need and the leave the rest
Keep you word
repeat tomorrow
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Still going strong at 60+ days. Like a runner, I've really hit my stride recently, it's a good thing too as I consider this a marathon, of which I'm living a tiny piece each day. It's been - Post roll - keep word - repeat. It's funny (in a good way) that Erussell is counting days like a hawk - I just can't remember which one it is without counting since every day is day 1 to me. To each his own though - you are a quit monster Erussell that's for sure.
It is amazing how much calmer I feel these days. The anxiety of the initial quit is all but gone, I'm sure my blood pressure and pulse rate have greatly improved. I am keenly aware though I could be hit by an intense crave at any point - I've read as much here from those you've quit before me.
Also have been reflecting on my wife's uncle who was a long time dipper. He was a good man, he left a wife and three kids - he died over 9 years ago from pancreatic cancer at 51! Who dies of pancreatic cancer at 51?? This really is life or death folks - I've said it before but I'll say it again, to anyone who is thinking about quitting: Quit now on your own terms, or you'll quit on someone else's (the doctor's, or worse). What I've been thinking about most is how incredibly sad it was that I never thought twice about this as I was stuffing my cake-hole with nic every damn day.
I'm quit with you all today.
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Still going strong at 60+ days. Like a runner, I've really hit my stride recently, it's a good thing too as I consider this a marathon, of which I'm living a tiny piece each day. It's been - Post roll - keep word - repeat. It's funny (in a good way) that Erussell is counting days like a hawk - I just can't remember which one it is without counting since every day is day 1 to me. To each his own though - you are a quit monster Erussell that's for sure.
It is amazing how much calmer I feel these days. The anxiety of the initial quit is all but gone, I'm sure my blood pressure and pulse rate have greatly improved. I am keenly aware though I could be hit by an intense crave at any point - I've read as much here from those you've quit before me.
Also have been reflecting on my wife's uncle who was a long time dipper. He was a good man, he left a wife and three kids - he died over 9 years ago from pancreatic cancer at 51! Who dies of pancreatic cancer at 51?? This really is life or death folks - I've said it before but I'll say it again, to anyone who is thinking about quitting: Quit now on your own terms, or you'll quit on someone else's (the doctor's, or worse). What I've been thinking about most is how incredibly sad it was that I never thought twice about this as I was stuffing my cake-hole with nic every damn day.
I'm quit with you all today.
Not out of the woods and a few funks lie ahead. What is great is that you already faced them so you know what to expect and what is required. Only focus on today because tomorrow is too far away.
Nice work and its exciting to read a post where I get a quit boner. Way to punch nicotine in the mouth today!
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Was driving in today, and Springsteen's Darkness on the Edge of Town was on Pandora. Reminded me about being a Ninja Chewer for close to 30 years.
Everybody's got a secret Sonny
Something that they just can't face
Some folks spend their whole lives trying to keep it
They carry it with them every step that they take
Till some day they just cut it loose
Cut it loose or let it drag 'em down
It feels great to not have to hide this addiction and no longer be a slave to the pouch or can. Have carried this shit every day for far too long - I've cut it loose.
Quit with you all today.
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Was driving in today, and Springsteen's Darkness on the Edge of Town was on Pandora. Reminded me about being a Ninja Chewer for close to 30 years.
Everybody's got a secret Sonny
Something that they just can't face
Some folks spend their whole lives trying to keep it
They carry it with them every step that they take
Till some day they just cut it loose
Cut it loose or let it drag 'em down
It feels great to not have to hide this addiction and no longer be a slave to the pouch or can. Have carried this shit every day for far too long - I've cut it loose.
Quit with you all today.
Nice job, my friend! Cut it loose indeed!
Keep pushing forward. There's a lot of freedom to explore.
Thanks for posting in Feb 11 with the old guys.
Keddy
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Tomorrow is your big day Bro. Got you a spot on the train ready just for you. Well done. But don't forget it's still just ODAAT man and sign your ass up for the 200! Quit with you man! Erussell day 106
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Congratulations bro. I saw you posted up for 200, I agree one of your best decisions in life. QLF with you all day ODAAT.
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Congratulations bro. I saw you posted up for 200, I agree one of your best decisions in life. QLF with you all day ODAAT.
What E said. Great job
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Congratulations bro. I saw you posted up for 200, I agree one of your best decisions in life. QLF with you all day ODAAT.
Thanks Guys. Had to sign up for 200, going back to doing this alone just isn't going to work - 100 days just isn't enough time to put the final nail into this addiction.
I want to wake up some day and think to myself, Wow - I haven't thought about having a chew in a long time., and until I can get there - I'll be here.
Taking it ODAAT.