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Title: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 20, 2010, 09:35:00 PM
I am currently on day 3. I am part of another forum and ran across this one.
I figure 2 support groups are better than 1 to beat this SOB.

A big 'Finger' to the can.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: CoachDoc on May 20, 2010, 09:41:00 PM
Quote from: doc307
I am currently on day 3. I am part of another forum and ran across this one.
I figure 2 support groups are better than 1 to beat this SOB.

A big 'Finger' to the can.
Welcone to the suck...read everything....post everything...stay active in your group...post roll like your life depends upon it (which it really does).

Just so you know, your brothers and sisters on here are gonna want to know a lil more about you than "just droppin by...hope ya have me."
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Greg5280 on May 20, 2010, 10:09:00 PM
Quote from: CoachDoc
Quote from: doc307
I am currently on day 3.  I am part of another forum and ran across this one.
I figure 2 support groups are better than 1 to beat this SOB.

A big  'Finger' to the can.
Welcone to the suck...read everything....post everything...stay active in your group...post roll like your life depends upon it (which it really does).

Just so you know, your brothers and sisters on here are gonna want to know a lil more about you than "just droppin by...hope ya have me."
Damn.. there are Docs all over the place.

Doc is right.. take his advice and follow what he says. Good to have you !!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 20, 2010, 10:38:00 PM
I have been putting that crap in my mouth for more than half of my life.
Tuesday morning I went outside with my dogs put a fatty in, looked at the almost
full can and threw it across the yard. Came back inside got the "spare" can and emptied it in the trash. Got in my jeep to go to work found the last can and dumped it out in the road on the way to work.

I want to quit, I will quit, I will not dip today.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: jdferguson07 on May 21, 2010, 04:11:00 AM
Quote from: doc307
I have been putting that crap in my mouth for more than half of my life.
Tuesday morning I went outside with my dogs put a fatty in, looked at the almost
full can and threw it across the yard. Came back inside got the "spare" can and emptied it in the trash. Got in my jeep to go to work found the last can and dumped it out in the road on the way to work.

I want to quit, I will quit, I will not dip today.
Congratulations on making a great decision man. 3 days is fucking huge!

This shit is beat-able. You just have to truly want it.

Stay close to the site and read EVERYTHING that you can. Read the hall of fame speeches and the words of wisdom. I remember some of my first nights that I read until my eyes got blurry and couldn't see the fuckin screen anymore. For fucks sake, my homepage for the last 100 days has been KillTheCan.org

If you truly want this and you stay close to this site then you can do this
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: RagingJew on May 21, 2010, 08:26:00 AM
You Sir, are hardcore Quit. Awesome.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: redyota on May 21, 2010, 09:22:00 AM
Quote from: doc307

I want to quit, I will quit, I will not dip today.
Repeat tomorrow, and you've got yourself a plan.

You have the best attitude I've seen in a newbie in a while. Please prove me right with your follow through.

Welcome.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: MikeA on May 21, 2010, 09:36:00 AM
Quote from: redyota
Quote from: doc307

I want to quit, I will quit, I will not dip today.
Repeat tomorrow, and you've got yourself a plan.

You have the best attitude I've seen in a newbie in a while. Please prove me right with your follow through.

Welcome.
I love that plan, can I use it?
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 21, 2010, 10:10:00 AM
By the way since this was my introduction, you should know I have changed my name to Jeeper.

It is still me and I am still quit.

Now gotta go work.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: mule on May 21, 2010, 10:22:00 AM
Quote from: MikeA
Quote from: redyota
Quote from: doc307

I want to quit, I will quit, I will not dip today.
Repeat tomorrow, and you've got yourself a plan.

You have the best attitude I've seen in a newbie in a while. Please prove me right with your follow through.

Welcome.
I love that plan, can I use it?
Took me a long time to get smart too......this one day at a time stuff works.

Post roll first thing every morning.....keep your word.

you are definitely on the right track.

ole mule's gonna be watchin you....you got potential.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: GlennFtheKodiak on May 21, 2010, 10:54:00 AM
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: CoachDoc
Quote from: doc307
I am currently on day 3.  I am part of another forum and ran across this one.
I figure 2 support groups are better than 1 to beat this SOB.

A big  'Finger' to the can.
Welcone to the suck...read everything....post everything...stay active in your group...post roll like your life depends upon it (which it really does).

Just so you know, your brothers and sisters on here are gonna want to know a lil more about you than "just droppin by...hope ya have me."
Damn.. there are Docs all over the place.

Doc is right.. take his advice and follow what he says. Good to have you !!
Docs? Shit, what about the 10 million Gregs running around. LOL
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 22, 2010, 12:03:00 AM
I'm not a Greg so I could care less if there are too many of them on here.. 'crackup'



Seriously, nearing the end of Day 4 and I am happy. Another day down,
will be ready for Day 5.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: RAZD611 on May 22, 2010, 01:49:00 PM
Quote from: mule21
Quote from: MikeA
Quote from: redyota
Quote from: doc307

I want to quit, I will quit, I will not dip today.
Repeat tomorrow, and you've got yourself a plan.

You have the best attitude I've seen in a newbie in a while. Please prove me right with your follow through.

Welcome.
I love that plan, can I use it?
Took me a long time to get smart too......this one day at a time stuff works.

Post roll first thing every morning.....keep your word.

you are definitely on the right track.

ole mule's gonna be watchin you....you got potential.
And once ole Mule has his eye on you ------------------------well you'll see.


P.S. and when he says salmon thong don't agree to anything without a prenup.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 22, 2010, 05:22:00 PM
Well, I have looked in every store around here for the fake stuff. None here!! 'bang head'

Guess they don't want people to quit and stop buying CRAP from their stores.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Nolaq on May 22, 2010, 05:30:00 PM
Quote from: Jeeper
Well, I have looked in every store around here for the fake stuff. None here!! 'bang head'

Guess they don't want people to quit and stop buying CRAP from their stores.
Same thing here. I've got to order in bulk on line.

Don't cave waiting for it. Get some seeds or gum, or whatever!

Stay strong brother...
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 22, 2010, 06:11:00 PM
Not gonna cave. A friend found a can for me but I know its not going to last.
She found it at Walmart, I went back there and they have not re-stocked and
of course they have no idea when or if they are getting more.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: mule on May 22, 2010, 11:46:00 PM
Quote from: Jeeper
Not gonna cave. A friend found a can for me but I know its not going to last.
She found it at Walmart, I went back there and they have not re-stocked and
of course they have no idea when or if they are getting more.
be careful of the mindset that you need it to quit......it is an aide at best.

you need this site, your brothers, your roll call and committment to quit today.

get your plan, some numbers and make sure you are ready to battle the nic bitch straight up.

nothing wrong at all with the fakee......just remember it is not a "magic cure".
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 23, 2010, 09:04:00 AM
I know it is no magical cure. I want to have it for the aid that it can be.
I have been on here posting as well as visiting the live chat.

i'm staying strong and still 'Finger' to the can.

Thanks for the advice mule
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Greg5280 on May 23, 2010, 04:07:00 PM
Quote from: mule21
Quote from: Jeeper
Not gonna cave.  A friend found a can for me but I know its not going to last.
She found it at Walmart, I went back there and they have not re-stocked and
of course they have no idea when or if they are getting more.
be careful of the mindset that you need it to quit......it is an aide at best.

you need this site, your brothers, your roll call and committment to quit today.

get your plan, some numbers and make sure you are ready to battle the nic bitch straight up.

nothing wrong at all with the fakee......just remember it is not a "magic cure".
Jeeper,
You can try some C stores also. I know Casey's in my area carries it. I would advise against going into the tobacco outlet this early but I sent my wife in and they had it there.

It helps but it is not necessary to quit. I get the same feeling when I dipped green tea leaves.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 23, 2010, 05:00:00 PM
It is official. No stores around here carry it. I ordered some online last week so I will just have to wait until it arrives.

Today I have had sunflower seeds, gum, beef jerky and continously drank water.
guess I will repeat that tomorrow. The headache is gone, i feel fine except craving the physical act of dipping.

I made it in and out of the only real "tobacco store". Was tough but did it without problems.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Ready on May 23, 2010, 06:40:00 PM
Quote from: Jeeper
It is official. No stores around here carry it. I ordered some online last week so I will just have to wait until it arrives.

Today I have had sunflower seeds, gum, beef jerky and continously drank water.
guess I will repeat that tomorrow. The headache is gone, i feel fine except craving the physical act of dipping.

I made it in and out of the only real "tobacco store". Was tough but did it without problems.
You have to want this.

Fight for it.

Keep your word.

It will get better.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 23, 2010, 06:46:00 PM
I do want this. I am fighting for it.

The NIC bitch can kiss my 'arse'
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Greg5280 on May 23, 2010, 08:28:00 PM
Ready is right. Fight hard for it.

If the shit gets too much you can dip green tea leaves. I did early on waiting for my Hooch to arrive. Boil the tea then dip the leaves after they cool off.

You will be glad to know at day 205 I rarely if ever use fake. I take some with me if I am having a some beers as that is still my biggest trigger but other than that its just around as part of my plan.

Stay quit !!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 23, 2010, 09:54:00 PM
Ok, I now have some fake here. I am not going to use it any more than I have to
but I figured I would use it as an aid to stay quit.

I can't believe how good I feel at this point. I know I will hit some lows but I am ready for it. I will not cave, I will stay quit.

I am so glad I found this website, I don't think I would have made it to Day 6 without many of you, SamCat, Markr, hawkquit in live chat and obviously others with their posts and PM's.

I need to get to know many more on here but it has been a great start. Looking forward to not dipping with you guys for a long time.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Greg5280 on May 23, 2010, 09:57:00 PM
Use it however it helps you. You will naturally cut back on the amount you use. It is funny now there are time I think " I should get a fakie" then I just forget to go get it.

How many times would that ever happen with the real shit ??
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: MikeA on May 23, 2010, 10:15:00 PM
I used a can a day of the fake then one day I noticed I had not used any in a while. Never really thought about it again, the can is still down stairs if I have to have it.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 23, 2010, 10:21:00 PM
That would never happen with the real shit. Man it is hard to believe we all
did the stupid shit we did just to load a fatty in the lip.

I did not hide it from my wife but I did hide it from my son. I did hide it
from other family members but not my friends/coworkers.

When the in-laws were in town or my mom was with us I would have to
ninja dip.

Fuck nicotine.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 28, 2010, 06:56:00 PM
Here I sit on Day 11. I just had one of the biggest test to my quit up until now.
Sunday will be a much bigger fucking test.

I had a family member (in-law - doesn't matter who) need a place to stay until things got a little better a couple of years ago. We offered our place, no money just carry your weight around the place. After moving in, could not find a job and I understand they are hard to find. No help around the house, at least sweep the mother fucking floors, you are living for fucking free. Could not go get my son a gallon of milk--milk cost too much but will try to hide fucking Starbucks cups in the trashcan outside. At 10 months it was basically that person or me. One of us was moving the fuck out of the house. He moved out and moved 5 hours away. I know this is going to be a horrible statement but I don't want to ever see him again.

The wife sent me a text this afternoon. He found a job...it's only been 2.5 years. Guess fucking what. the job is near here and he is coming to spend "a couple" of nights here. Mother fucker, mother fucker, mother fucker. day mother fucking 11
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Greg5280 on May 28, 2010, 07:55:00 PM
That does suck but dipping again will not make it suck less. Keep focused on the task at hand. Each time you slap the NIC bitch back it gets easier.

Fight through this, you can do it. Your quit will be stronger for it.

If you need a number PM me.

STAY QUIT
Greg
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 31, 2010, 09:33:00 PM
Gone already. This was not as bad as I thought. Guess I built it up myself to be worse than it was.

Oh well, still dip free all is good.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on June 09, 2010, 07:09:00 PM
Went offroading in the jeep this past weekend. Had a blast without dipping. I tried not to think about it but when the urge hit me I would grab the fake and put it in.

Spent the weekend in the woods, riding in the mud and drinking lots-o-beer. No cave but I did notice almost everyone around me was either smoking or dipping. Met many new people along the way and on the trails. They started making a big deal out of the "herbal" chew. Hopefully some of them remember it is available when they realize they need to quit.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Aug on June 10, 2010, 11:01:00 AM
Dig this guy. Keep it up Jeeper!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on June 10, 2010, 09:20:00 PM
A couple of pics from the weekend.



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Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on June 15, 2010, 09:36:00 PM
Man WTF! My buddy calls me today to tell me our friend, someone I have known since we were little has put a gun to his own head and committed suicide. Here I am fighting this damn nic bitch to prolong my life for me and my family and he ends his own.

We went to school together, drank beer together, went hunting together, chased women together etc etc.


R.D. I really hope you found the peace you are searching for. You will certainly be missed!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Skoal Monster on June 15, 2010, 11:49:00 PM
Quote from: Jeeper
Man WTF! My buddy calls me today to tell me our friend, someone I have known since we were little has put a gun to his own head and committed suicide. Here I am fighting this damn nic bitch to prolong my life for me and my family and he ends his own.

We went to school together, drank beer together, went hunting together, chased women together etc etc.


R.D. I really hope you found the peace you are searching for. You will certainly be missed!
sorry about your pal Jeeper, Thats some bad shit. Can't imagine . YOu can get thru this without nicotine, it won't change anything, so stay strong and stay quit. Prayers sent for your buddy.

sm
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: teamgreen on June 16, 2010, 09:59:00 AM
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: Jeeper
Man WTF!  My buddy calls me today to tell me our friend, someone I have known since we were little has put a gun to his own head and committed suicide.  Here I am fighting this damn nic bitch to prolong my life for me and my family and he ends his own. 

We went to school together, drank beer together, went hunting together, chased women together etc etc.


R.D. I really hope you found the peace you are searching for.  You will certainly be missed!
sorry about your pal Jeeper, Thats some bad shit. Can't imagine . YOu can get thru this without nicotine, it won't change anything, so stay strong and stay quit. Prayers sent for your buddy.

sm
My condolences as well, Jeeper. Sounds like you already know what Skoalmonster said, that dip won't help one bit. Very sorry to hear about your friend.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Kdip on June 16, 2010, 10:40:00 AM
Quote from: teamgreen
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: Jeeper
Man WTF!  My buddy calls me today to tell me our friend, someone I have known since we were little has put a gun to his own head and committed suicide.  Here I am fighting this damn nic bitch to prolong my life for me and my family and he ends his own. 

We went to school together, drank beer together, went hunting together, chased women together etc etc.


R.D. I really hope you found the peace you are searching for.  You will certainly be missed!
sorry about your pal Jeeper, Thats some bad shit. Can't imagine . YOu can get thru this without nicotine, it won't change anything, so stay strong and stay quit. Prayers sent for your buddy.

sm
My condolences as well, Jeeper. Sounds like you already know what Skoalmonster said, that dip won't help one bit. Very sorry to hear about your friend.
Sorry to hear that. My buddy and Best man in my wedding comitted suicide the slow way by alchohol poisoning and it was really hard when he passed. You can and will get through this DIP FREE!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on June 19, 2010, 12:42:00 PM
Ok , it is over now. He will live on in the memories of friends and family.
That was the second hardest one I have been to (second to my dad).

I am Dip free and was told by another friend that I inspired him to throw down the can. He said he quit as soon as he found out I did. I let him know about the
site but have no idea if he will come over here or not.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Greg5280 on June 19, 2010, 06:15:00 PM
Quote from: Jeeper
Ok , it is over now. He will live on in the memories of friends and family.
That was the second hardest one I have been to (second to my dad).

I am Dip free and was told by another friend that I inspired him to throw down the can. He said he quit as soon as he found out I did. I let him know about the
site but have no idea if he will come over here or not.
Way to commit and honor your word.

Your friend knows how to get here. You did your job.

Great work !!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on August 28, 2010, 10:00:00 PM
I am ready for some more of this


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Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on December 10, 2010, 08:42:00 PM
Ok, I visited this board almost every day until I hit 100 in August. I did miss a few but not too many.

Sometime in September I "forgot" to come by, or I just didn't have the time, or it's no problem I've got this.

WRONG attitude. This place was crucial in my QUIT. I hit some lows during my first 100 days. Your mind really screws with you. I look back and I am very proud I never caved. I saw a good friend in a coffin, caving couldn't help me deal with it. I went on a long car trip, caving wouldn't make the trip faster. I went offroading, caving would have done nothing.

I realize I should be on here to reinforce my quit and help others with theirs.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 13, 2011, 09:19:00 PM
Well here I sit 4 days away from a year thinking about how easy this has really been. We all talk about the suck, cravings, dip dreams etc but when you look back it was really easy.

The hard part for me was deciding to quit. Every day I think about my quit when I look at my son and my wife. I know I have made a decision that will allow me to be with them longer.

I used gum, toothpicks, smokeymountain chew and even beef jerky to get me through the tough times. I still enjoy some beef jerky but
do not even want the nic shit anymore.

My breath smells better, my tastebuds have changed, my temper is longer. All in all I am a better man now that I have quit.

Like I said on one of my first post here ..... 'Finger' nic bitch!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Parputt on May 13, 2011, 09:35:00 PM
Thanks for paving the way! Congrats on your monumental quit!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: 30yraddict on May 14, 2011, 05:45:00 AM
Great job Jeeper! inspiring quit you got there.

Proud to be quit with you,

30
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 17, 2011, 05:49:00 PM
1 freaking year today. I am out celebrating
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Weapon30 on May 18, 2011, 09:09:00 AM
Quote from: Jeeper
1 freaking year today. I am out celebrating
You are an inspiration for someone who is on Day 5.

My one year will be May 13, 2012.

I will fucking making it.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: chewie on May 18, 2011, 09:55:00 AM
Quote from: Weapon30
Quote from: Jeeper
1 freaking year today.  I am out celebrating
You are an inspiration for someone who is on Day 5.

My one year will be May 13, 2012.

I will fucking making it.
With that attitude... yes you will.

Congrats Jeeper a full calendar year of clean!
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Weapon30 on May 18, 2011, 10:12:00 AM
Quote from: iuchewie
Quote from: Weapon30
Quote from: Jeeper
1 freaking year today.  I am out celebrating
You are an inspiration for someone who is on Day 5.

My one year will be May 13, 2012.

I will fucking making it.
With that attitude... yes you will.

Congrats Jeeper a full calendar year of clean!
BTW, is cursing allowed around here?
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: chewie on May 18, 2011, 10:17:00 AM
Quote from: Weapon30
Quote from: iuchewie
Quote from: Weapon30
Quote from: Jeeper
1 freaking year today.  I am out celebrating
You are an inspiration for someone who is on Day 5.

My one year will be May 13, 2012.

I will fucking making it.
With that attitude... yes you will.

Congrats Jeeper a full calendar year of clean!
BTW, is cursing allowed around here?
FUCK yes.
Title: Re: Day 3
Post by: Jeeper on May 18, 2011, 09:33:00 PM
Quote from: iuchewie
Quote from: Weapon30
Quote from: iuchewie
Quote from: Weapon30
Quote from: Jeeper
1 freaking year today.  I am out celebrating
You are an inspiration for someone who is on Day 5.

My one year will be May 13, 2012.

I will fucking making it.
With that attitude... yes you will.

Congrats Jeeper a full calendar year of clean!
BTW, is cursing allowed around here?
FUCK yes.
Thanks weapon and yes you will fucking make it if you stay true to yourself and your word.

Thanks chewie for paving the way for so many.