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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Icehead14 on March 13, 2014, 12:00:00 AM
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Hey guys. A little about me. Im 24 years old will be 25 before my 100 days, I've been dipping since my 17th birthday. Ive played hockey my whole life and saw everyone dipping so I guess it was bound to happen, and pissed that I ever started.
Ive tried quitting a few times(girlfriends, family, decided on my one a couple time). I even joined this site a while back but never posted or got into it, and as like most, my quits were just periods of time where I didn't dip.
I sit here tonight, after taking out my last dip and flushing down the remaining cans, Ready To Quit.
I will start Roll Call tomorrow when I wake up as it will be my first day. I do NOT look forward to this journey but it must be done.
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Start now. Start while you're committed. Don't wait until tomorrow when your resolve could weaken. Take advantage of this moment of clarity.
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Start now. Start while you're committed. Don't wait until tomorrow when your resolve could weaken. Take advantage of this moment of clarity.
I did. I posted it as soon as my last dip was out and the rest was flushed. At this point im 1.5 hours in.
Your definitely right tho. many times i said tomorrow. and tomorrow never came.
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I do NOT look forward to this journey but it must be done.
Well... That needs turned around bro. You gotta love your quit! You gotta own your quit! Embrace how much this is gonna suck for a li'l while. It's a small drop in the bucket compared to all the days you fed your addiction.
Quitting is fun dude! Not everyone can/will do it but you came here. You found us. We know how to quit. We've blazed this trail, man... Follow it.
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Glad you here! Hey, just take things one day at a time and remember that we're all in this together. We all got your back bro. If you need anything, get in contact with someone on here.
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Welcome. AJ is correct grab your nuts and feel them grow as you win each battle. The suck will remind you of how intense your addiction is and why you don't want to repeat the process.
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Welcome aboard, we're all here to quit together every day. Glad to have you with us.
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Whatsup bro,
I am around your age and had been dipping around the same amount of time as you. I'm on day 25 and to be honest its still a REAL struggle but I'm getting through it one day at a time.
Here's some advice, this is what I do when I have a bad craving. You said that you had tried to quit for your family and girlfriends, believe me I did as well, it doesn't work. I've read on this site that you have to quit for you and only you. Well I'm not sure if I entirely agree with that. When I have a bad craving I imagine my future family, my future wife and my future kids, and I imagine having to sneak off every hour or two to throw a lip in, which is not the type of husband/father I want to be. Wherever I am whenever a craving hits I visualize my future wife and kids around me, and think about how much I don't want that around them.
That has been working so far.
Stay strong
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I just turned 25 in December. I'm 12 days in and I can tell you, this isn't an easy course you've set out on. But, it's completely worth it. The people on this forum are the best support system you're going to find to quit dip and nicotine. Post roll every day and make the promise to yourself that you won't use nicotine. It's the best way to quit One Day At A Time.
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Start now. Start while you're committed. Don't wait until tomorrow when your resolve could weaken. Take advantage of this moment of clarity.
I did. I posted it as soon as my last dip was out and the rest was flushed. At this point im 1.5 hours in.
Your definitely right tho. many times i said tomorrow. and tomorrow never came.
I think you misunderstand roll. You've made 2 posts both here. Go to the welcome center above and read why and how we post roll. I hope you're serious about quitting.
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Thanks guys. It's nice to know I have support. I'm definitley in it for good this time no matter what. No morning dip and to be honest I disint even notice. Now to keep going.
Applejack your completely right. Time to nut up or shit up
Wt57 I'm not sure I understand what you are saying? You post roll every morning as accountability and to say you will not use nicotine that day? As I did this morning.
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Thanks guys. It's nice to know I have support. I'm definitley in it for good this time no matter what. No morning dip and to be honest I disint even notice. Now to keep going.
Applejack your completely right. Time to nut up or shit up
Wt57 I'm not sure I understand what you are saying? You post roll every morning as accountability and to say you will not use nicotine that day? As I did this morning.
I don't see you posted in June 2014.....get in the game and post roll....are you a quitter or pretender?
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Thanks guys. It's nice to know I have support. I'm definitley in it for good this time no matter what. No morning dip and to be honest I disint even notice. Now to keep going.
Applejack your completely right. Time to nut up or shit up
Wt57 I'm not sure I understand what you are saying? You post roll every morning as accountability and to say you will not use nicotine that day? As I did this morning.
I don't see you posted in June 2014.....get in the game and post roll....are you a quitter or pretender?
I did post. Hmm if you go back a few it's there. Looks like I need to repost
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Thanks guys. It's nice to know I have support. I'm definitley in it for good this time no matter what. No morning dip and to be honest I disint even notice. Now to keep going.
Applejack your completely right. Time to nut up or shit up
Wt57 I'm not sure I understand what you are saying? You post roll every morning as accountability and to say you will not use nicotine that day? As I did this morning.
I don't see you posted in June 2014.....get in the game and post roll....are you a quitter or pretender?
I did post. Hmm if you go back a few it's there. Looks like I need to repost
Nice job posting roll Icehead! Well done and great decision. Focus on staying quit for today only! Do whatever it takes in order to get thru this 1 day. You can do this. I'm quit with you all day long!
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Thanks guys. It's nice to know I have support. I'm definitley in it for good this time no matter what. No morning dip and to be honest I disint even notice. Now to keep going.
Applejack your completely right. Time to nut up or shit up
Wt57 I'm not sure I understand what you are saying? You post roll every morning as accountability and to say you will not use nicotine that day? As I did this morning.
I don't see you posted in June 2014.....get in the game and post roll....are you a quitter or pretender?
I did post. Hmm if you go back a few it's there. Looks like I need to repost
Nice job posting roll Icehead! Well done and great decision. Focus on staying quit for today only! Do whatever it takes in order to get thru this 1 day. You can do this. I'm quit with you all day long!
Thanks bud! Day one is starting to be a struggle. I realize how manny triggers there actually are. Lucky for me the guys I work with are cool and don't mind the extra anger today.
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You may have not noticed this morning, but another day you can't shake it off your mind. Either way you can always come here and tell us what you are feeling. I played ice hockey as well, Dipped getting ready and as soon as I got off the ice so I know what that was like. Keep on posting and reading and then do some more reading and read a little more on here. PM me if you ever need anything.
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Thanks guys. It's nice to know I have support. I'm definitley in it for good this time no matter what. No morning dip and to be honest I disint even notice. Now to keep going.
Applejack your completely right. Time to nut up or shit up
Wt57 I'm not sure I understand what you are saying? You post roll every morning as accountability and to say you will not use nicotine that day? As I did this morning.
I don't see you posted in June 2014.....get in the game and post roll....are you a quitter or pretender?
I did post. Hmm if you go back a few it's there. Looks like I need to repost
Nice job posting roll Icehead! Well done and great decision. Focus on staying quit for today only! Do whatever it takes in order to get thru this 1 day. You can do this. I'm quit with you all day long!
Thanks bud! Day one is starting to be a struggle. I realize how manny triggers there actually are. Lucky for me the guys I work with are cool and don't mind the extra anger today.
Atta boy.
Truth?... this will suck. It will suck HARD. You need to know that.
But... it WILL get better. I wish I could tell you when but I can't. Everyone has a different time frame. Keep this site close, educate yourself by reading everything on this site, get to know some brothers and sisters, follow our advice... it's not easy but it DOES work. 3 days and the poison of nicotine is out of your system. It's a matter of mettle after that. Rock this, dude...
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Thanks guys. It's nice to know I have support. I'm definitley in it for good this time no matter what. No morning dip and to be honest I disint even notice. Now to keep going.
Applejack your completely right. Time to nut up or shit up
Wt57 I'm not sure I understand what you are saying? You post roll every morning as accountability and to say you will not use nicotine that day? As I did this morning.
I don't see you posted in June 2014.....get in the game and post roll....are you a quitter or pretender?
I did post. Hmm if you go back a few it's there. Looks like I need to repost
Nice job posting roll Icehead! Well done and great decision. Focus on staying quit for today only! Do whatever it takes in order to get thru this 1 day. You can do this. I'm quit with you all day long!
Thanks bud! Day one is starting to be a struggle. I realize how manny triggers there actually are. Lucky for me the guys I work with are cool and don't mind the extra anger today.
Atta boy.
Truth?... this will suck. It will suck HARD. You need to know that.
But... it WILL get better. I wish I could tell you when but I can't. Everyone has a different time frame. Keep this site close, educate yourself by reading everything on this site, get to know some brothers and sisters, follow our advice... it's not easy but it DOES work. 3 days and the poison of nicotine is out of your system. It's a matter of mettle after that. Rock this, dude...
x2. Just bring the quit and everything will work out.
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Thanks guys. It's nice to know I have support. I'm definitley in it for good this time no matter what. No morning dip and to be honest I disint even notice. Now to keep going.
Applejack your completely right. Time to nut up or shit up
Wt57 I'm not sure I understand what you are saying? You post roll every morning as accountability and to say you will not use nicotine that day? As I did this morning.
I don't see you posted in June 2014.....get in the game and post roll....are you a quitter or pretender?
I did post. Hmm if you go back a few it's there. Looks like I need to repost
Nice job posting roll Icehead! Well done and great decision. Focus on staying quit for today only! Do whatever it takes in order to get thru this 1 day. You can do this. I'm quit with you all day long!
Thanks bud! Day one is starting to be a struggle. I realize how manny triggers there actually are. Lucky for me the guys I work with are cool and don't mind the extra anger today.
Atta boy.
Truth?... this will suck. It will suck HARD. You need to know that.
But... it WILL get better. I wish I could tell you when but I can't. Everyone has a different time frame. Keep this site close, educate yourself by reading everything on this site, get to know some brothers and sisters, follow our advice... it's not easy but it DOES work. 3 days and the poison of nicotine is out of your system. It's a matter of mettle after that. Rock this, dude...
x2. Just bring the quit and everything will work out.
Awesome guys I love it! This site is definitely worth it. Get a craving come on read a little. Maybe post something and everything is a little better.
Dunlap I appreciate it. I might have to skip playing for a couple days. I think that might be harder haha 'crackup'
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Way to post that day 1!! Let's see you there every day ! Take it one day at a time. I'll quit with you today!!
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So day one for me was a cake walk. Had some rough patches as I deliver pizza and have to drive behind idiots all day. It did get a little rough at the end of working a 12 hour shift with triggers left and right but I still managed.
I dont understand and maybe someone can explain this to me but I was unusually happy today. My theory is that I got out a lot of anger while driving and letting out some road rage that I was able to enjoy the other parts of my day. Has my rage been pent up and not getting my fix is allowing me to finally get it out full force? Or is my mind in full agreeance with my quit and allowing me to enjoy it.
All I know is I hope that every single one of my next 99 days is like today. Although I realize it most likely wont happen, its nice to dream right?
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So day one for me was a cake walk. Had some rough patches as I deliver pizza and have to drive behind idiots all day. It did get a little rough at the end of working a 12 hour shift with triggers left and right but I still managed.
I dont understand and maybe someone can explain this to me but I was unusually happy today. My theory is that I got out a lot of anger while driving and letting out some road rage that I was able to enjoy the other parts of my day. Has my rage been pent up and not getting my fix is allowing me to finally get it out full force? Or is my mind in full agreeance with my quit and allowing me to enjoy it.
All I know is I hope that every single one of my next 99 days is like today. Although I realize it most likely wont happen, its nice to dream right?
That is great that its going smoothly so far for you! Can't explain why, but I can tell you that its only 1 of about 15 different emotions you'll experience over the next few days, maybe weeks. Just remember that your body is healing with each different emotion that comes along, whether its anger, depression, or happiness.
Everyone is different - but my day 1 was easier than my day 3 and 4. Those were some of the tougher ones. I also had a few tough days in the mid-20's too (with depression), so don't let your guard down.
Quit with you today, bro.
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So day one for me was a cake walk. Had some rough patches as I deliver pizza and have to drive behind idiots all day. It did get a little rough at the end of working a 12 hour shift with triggers left and right but I still managed.
I dont understand and maybe someone can explain this to me but I was unusually happy today. My theory is that I got out a lot of anger while driving and letting out some road rage that I was able to enjoy the other parts of my day. Has my rage been pent up and not getting my fix is allowing me to finally get it out full force? Or is my mind in full agreeance with my quit and allowing me to enjoy it.
All I know is I hope that every single one of my next 99 days is like today. Although I realize it most likely wont happen, its nice to dream right?
That is great that its going smoothly so far for you! Can't explain why, but I can tell you that its only 1 of about 15 different emotions you'll experience over the next few days, maybe weeks. Just remember that your body is healing with each different emotion that comes along, whether its anger, depression, or happiness.
Everyone is different - but my day 1 was easier than my day 3 and 4. Those were some of the tougher ones. I also had a few tough days in the mid-20's too (with depression), so don't let your guard down.
Quit with you today, bro.
Never letting my guard down brother. Another good day so far. A little foggy but nothing to serious. no major cravings yet. But i can definitely feel it going downhill from here.
Appreciate the quit, I know i will need it in these next few day.
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Can't think well, just going to type and see what happens.
Here I am, 27 years old and 18 hours in. After a can a day habit for the past 10 years. Which has gone up recently to about a can and a half. It has really gotten to much, the past few weeks ive been disgusted with myself at how much ive been dipping. All the dip bottles/cans/cups around. The empty cans just stacked on my desk, because i forget to throw them out. Well I went through, cleaned out all of the shit. Will be cleaning my car tomorrow and my work truck on wednesday the next day I work. Not sure if it was a good idea to leave all the empty cans and spitters in my car but I feel like if i can clean that shit out tomorrow and not go to the store and buy a can Im good.
Ive only have a couple cravings today, but right now I feel pretty good. Other than this nasty fog. I am out there right now, almost feel high. And my fucking xbox controller broke so I cant play games to distract myself, which is probably good because after i make a couple mistakes I'd end up angry and hating everyone and everything. But i spent 2 hours taking it apart and trying to fix it, so i guess that was some distraction.
The funny thing is this started because my cousin has been pushing me to quit for the last couple years, and I just kept pushing it off. I told him January first for good, not really meaning it, but for some reason stuck with it. I agreed to his bet of me paying him $5 for every can he finds because he wont find any. I wont have any.
Past quits ive tried, I almost expected to fail but this time im confident. No fucking around, this is for me and no one else.
EDIT: Just wanted to add this isnt some new years resolution. It just worked out to be today. I dont believe in that shit, you can change whatever you want, any day you want.
I dont know why I hate the New Years Resolutions but for some reason it irks me.
Going to be honest, Ive been here before and ghosted after a couple days, But this time im in it for real. I have support from a few family members, and my roomate, add you guys and Ill make it.
Thats enough rambling from me for now.
Glad to be here, And I promise to stick through until the end this time.
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Welcome to KTC! I hope to read more about your journey and quit. Follow the vets and members of this fine community, and you will be successful. Go against the rules and try and do it your way, you will cave. I will see you in the chat and on the forums! Happy New Year and congrats on making the best decision of your life!
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Can't think well, just going to type and see what happens.
Here I am, 27 years old and 18 hours in. After a can a day habit for the past 10 years. Which has gone up recently to about a can and a half. It has really gotten to much, the past few weeks ive been disgusted with myself at how much ive been dipping. All the dip bottles/cans/cups around. The empty cans just stacked on my desk, because i forget to throw them out. Well I went through, cleaned out all of the shit. Will be cleaning my car tomorrow and my work truck on wednesday the next day I work. Not sure if it was a good idea to leave all the empty cans and spitters in my car but I feel like if i can clean that shit out tomorrow and not go to the store and buy a can Im good.
Ive only have a couple cravings today, but right now I feel pretty good. Other than this nasty fog. I am out there right now, almost feel high. And my fucking xbox controller broke so I cant play games to distract myself, which is probably good because after i make a couple mistakes I'd end up angry and hating everyone and everything. But i spent 2 hours taking it apart and trying to fix it, so i guess that was some distraction.
The funny thing is this started because my cousin has been pushing me to quit for the last couple years, and I just kept pushing it off. I told him January first for good, not really meaning it, but for some reason stuck with it. I agreed to his bet of me paying him $5 for every can he finds because he wont find any. I wont have any.
Past quits ive tried, I almost expected to fail but this time im confident. No fucking around, this is for me and no one else.
EDIT: Just wanted to add this isnt some new years resolution. It just worked out to be today. I dont believe in that shit, you can change whatever you want, any day you want.
I dont know why I hate the New Years Resolutions but for some reason it irks me.
Going to be honest, Ive been here before and ghosted after a couple days, But this time im in it for real. I have support from a few family members, and my roomate, add you guys and Ill make it.
Thats enough rambling from me for now.
Glad to be here, And I promise to stick through until the end this time.
Ok Ice welcome to KTC. You should read as much as you can on here. It will get you familiar with how things work and it will occupy your mind and take your mind off dipping. You will be in the pre-HOF April 2017 quit group. Go there and post roll. That is a promise not to use nicotine of any kind for that day.
The two main principle of KTC are support and accountability. As you get to know others here be open to sharing your phone number with some of them. That is how we support each other and hold each other accountable.
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Good luck on your quit with us in April!!
I have been quit for 10 days and relate to a lot of what you are posting (the bottles, self loathing, etc.). I hope to see you interact with us on the forum, it really is a great form of accountability. People can be dicks, but don't sweat it, it's just the internet.
Quitting chew is one of the hardest things that you (and all of us) will have to do in our lives, but it does get easier after the first few days. Just make sure to stay on here regularly in case nicotine tries to sneak up on you again.
Look forward to seeing you around!
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After a can a day habit
This isn't a habit. It's a full blown psychological and chemical addiction. You need to be thinking of this way, because you need this mindset for the battle that lies ahead.
Glad you're quit. Post roll early and every day, and be a man of your word. Get involved.
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Can't think well, just going to type and see what happens.
Here I am, 27 years old and 18 hours in. After a can a day habit for the past 10 years. Which has gone up recently to about a can and a half. It has really gotten to much, the past few weeks ive been disgusted with myself at how much ive been dipping. All the dip bottles/cans/cups around. The empty cans just stacked on my desk, because i forget to throw them out. Well I went through, cleaned out all of the shit. Will be cleaning my car tomorrow and my work truck on wednesday the next day I work. Not sure if it was a good idea to leave all the empty cans and spitters in my car but I feel like if i can clean that shit out tomorrow and not go to the store and buy a can Im good.
Ive only have a couple cravings today, but right now I feel pretty good. Other than this nasty fog. I am out there right now, almost feel high. And my fucking xbox controller broke so I cant play games to distract myself, which is probably good because after i make a couple mistakes I'd end up angry and hating everyone and everything. But i spent 2 hours taking it apart and trying to fix it, so i guess that was some distraction.
The funny thing is this started because my cousin has been pushing me to quit for the last couple years, and I just kept pushing it off. I told him January first for good, not really meaning it, but for some reason stuck with it. I agreed to his bet of me paying him $5 for every can he finds because he wont find any. I wont have any.
Past quits ive tried, I almost expected to fail but this time im confident. No fucking around, this is for me and no one else.
EDIT: Just wanted to add this isnt some new years resolution. It just worked out to be today. I dont believe in that shit, you can change whatever you want, any day you want.
I dont know why I hate the New Years Resolutions but for some reason it irks me.
Going to be honest, Ive been here before and ghosted after a couple days, But this time im in it for real. I have support from a few family members, and my roomate, add you guys and Ill make it.
Thats enough rambling from me for now.
Glad to be here, And I promise to stick through until the end this time.
You signed up in 2012 and have 20 posts, care to tell everyone what happened? You know the drill, you need to go back to your original group and let them know what happened.
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Thanks for the words guys. Definitely look forward to seeing you around and happy to be a part of April.
You signed up in 2012 and have 20 posts, care to tell everyone what happened? You know the drill, you need to go back to your original group and let them know what happened.
I was weak, lasted how ever many days I posted and couldn't show back up after caving. I will head on over right now and take my beating like a man. Where am I supposed to post to them?
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Thanks for the words guys. Definitely look forward to seeing you around and happy to be a part of April.
You signed up in 2012 and have 20 posts, care to tell everyone what happened? You know the drill, you need to go back to your original group and let them know what happened.
I was weak, lasted how ever many days I posted and couldn't show back up after caving. I will head on over right now and take my beating like a man. Where am I supposed to post to them?
Glad you are honest with yourself. The only way to control this addiction is to be honest.
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Thanks for the words guys. Definitely look forward to seeing you around and happy to be a part of April.
You signed up in 2012 and have 20 posts, care to tell everyone what happened? You know the drill, you need to go back to your original group and let them know what happened.
I was weak, lasted how ever many days I posted and couldn't show back up after caving. I will head on over right now and take my beating like a man. Where am I supposed to post to them?
Go to whatever group you started with. If you are serious about this, send me a PM and I will be glad to share my digits with you.
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After a can a day habit
This isn't a habit. It's a full blown psychological and chemical addiction. You need to be thinking of this way, because you need this mindset for the battle that lies ahead.
Glad you're quit. Post roll early and every day, and be a man of your word. Get involved.
What he said. ;o)
Like it or not, we are drug addicts, fullstop. There is nothing we can do to change this.
I suspect that a lot of people don't like the word 'addict' because of the 'junkie in the gutter' archetype. Granted, very few people have knocked over a liquor store or mugged a little old lady to buy a can. That said, we are still addicts in the sense that we have a chemical dependency which is destructive in nature, cannot be cured, and can only be treated through abrupt cessation followed by lifetime abstinence.
We are here to help you with this abstinence. I hope you will come on board. Post roll in your group every morning, as early as possible, ideally within 15 minutes of waking up. That will help more than you may think.
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After a can a day habit
This isn't a habit. It's a full blown psychological and chemical addiction. You need to be thinking of this way, because you need this mindset for the battle that lies ahead.
Glad you're quit. Post roll early and every day, and be a man of your word. Get involved.
What he said. ;o)
Like it or not, we are drug addicts, fullstop. There is nothing we can do to change this.
I suspect that a lot of people don't like the word 'addict' because of the 'junkie in the gutter' archetype. Granted, very few people have knocked over a liquor store or mugged a little old lady to buy a can. That said, we are still addicts in the sense that we have a chemical dependency which is destructive in nature, cannot be cured, and can only be treated through abrupt cessation followed by lifetime abstinence.
We are here to help you with this abstinence. I hope you will come on board. Post roll in your group every morning, as early as possible, ideally within 15 minutes of waking up. That will help more than you may think.
I am an addict. No reason to not be afraid of the word. Dip is a drug that has taken over my life, and now its time to change that.
Its kind of weird the way it fucks with your mind tho. Sometimes I'll be sitting there saying, well if I only have one its not like I'm back at a can a day. And then Realize how dumb I sound and thats all it takes to pull you back in.
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Go to whatever group you started with. If you are serious about this, send me a PM and I will be glad to share my digits with you.
Went back and posted. Thanks, I will definitely keep that in mind.
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own it this time
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Think of it this way..... Nobody with half a brain has been proud to tell people around them that they dipped. Once you get yourself squared away, committed to yourself and your quit group this process will be something that you can take pride in. You're building accountability to your quit group but more importantly you'll accomplish something that you can be proud of. No hiding the truth from yourself!!!!
Reach out if you're all in and I"ll send over my digits!
Outd00rs