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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Fyrguy33 on March 27, 2014, 05:55:00 PM
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Hey everyone, my name is Tim. I quit on Tuesday the 25th but caved this morning. I actually dug the can I threw away out of a nasty trash bag in the trash can outside my house this morning. I felt like a transient searching for cans. It didn't dawn on me until I got to work, just how ridiculous my addiction was. I am ashamed that I am willing to dig through trash to get my fix. I'm done. I spit it out at 9am and I am now nicotine free. (I spread the rest of the can in the parking lot behind my station). I'm doing ok so far. Seeds and mints are pretty steady. I have a wife and 2 kids that I love very much. I've chewed for 19 years about a can a day. First 6 was Kodiak, then switched to Cope long cut. Never went back. Like so many others here, I can associate just about all 19 years of memory to having a dip. That's pretty insane. Maybe I should've quit when my then 2 year old son accidentally drank from an old spitter (thought that would've been instant divorce), but I kept going. He's 5 now, and the other is 13. Last night, after 36 hours without a dip, I was struggling and my wife told me she had zero sympathy for my withdrawals. She said that she has already come to terms with the act that I am going to die young, it will be my own fault, and there is nothing she can do about it because I will never stop. Thought that might have sealed my quit? Nope, dug my can out of the trash 12 hours later. So here I am. Not because of anyone but myself. You are now my only support. I am scared to death that I won't see my kids grow up. I am scared to death that I will leave my wife alone and on her own. I am scared to die. I see death almost every day. I'm not ready for that. I hope it's not too late. I pledge to quit nicotine starting today March 27, 2014. I will win.
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Hey everyone, my name is Tim. I quit on Tuesday the 25th but caved this morning. I actually dug the can I threw away out of a nasty trash bag in the trash can outside my house this morning. I felt like a transient searching for cans. It didn't dawn on me until I got to work, just how ridiculous my addiction was. I am ashamed that I am willing to dig through trash to get my fix. I'm done. I spit it out at 9am and I am now nicotine free. (I spread the rest of the can in the parking lot behind my station). I'm doing ok so far. Seeds and mints are pretty steady. I have a wife and 2 kids that I love very much. I've chewed for 19 years about a can a day. First 6 was Kodiak, then switched to Cope long cut. Never went back. Like so many others here, I can associate just about all 19 years of memory to having a dip. That's pretty insane. Maybe I should've quit when my then 2 year old son accidentally drank from an old spitter (thought that would've been instant divorce), but I kept going. He's 5 now, and the other is 13. Last night, after 36 hours without a dip, I was struggling and my wife told me she had zero sympathy for my withdrawals. She said that she has already come to terms with the act that I am going to die young, it will be my own fault, and there is nothing she can do about it because I will never stop. Thought that might have sealed my quit? Nope, dug my can out of the trash 12 hours later. So here I am. Not because of anyone but myself. You are now my only support. I am scared to death that I won't see my kids grow up. I am scared to death that I will leave my wife alone and on her own. I am scared to die. I see death almost every day. I'm not ready for that. I hope it's not too late. I pledge to quit nicotine starting today March 27, 2014. I will win.
you did not quit Tuesday and as for "I hope it's not too late" - if that's the best you've got it IS too late. dig deep and get ready to grow a big boy sack and a pair of balls to fill it because that's what this takes. read the welcome center if you haven't then post roll - any questions post em here. someone will take the time to answer.
EDIT - nice roll post - looks like you can't use today, you just gave me your word, you also gave it to yourself and everyone else here - you're a man of your word right?
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Well sounds to me like your spouse doesn't have any faith in you that you can do this. Also sounds like you need to fucking prove her wrong! Reach down deep.........grow a bigger ball bag and just fucking do it. Dipping with the nic bitch doesn't take balls at all.......quitting DOES! Post roll.......get ready for a shitty fucking week.......once you get through the first week it gets.....better.......notice I didn't say easier.....but it does get better. Hang tough dude!
If you truly spit out your last lip turd this morning I can say I'm proud to be quit with you today!
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Thanks for the help fellas. I meant I hope it's not too late in terms of this shit killing me. Pure luck I'm alive now. My big boy sack is filled. I'm done with that shit. I know what posting roll is, and my name is there. I will be nicotine free until I put my name there tomorrow. That I can promise. I'll deal with tomorrow when I get there.
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Good choice. I'm a multi-decade former user who never could quit before finding KTC- like most here. The methods here work, and the support and integrity are key to me. If I can quit you can too- I and many others here have done the dumpster
Dive of desparation. We get it. Time for you to quit. It's hard but it's worth it!
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Thanks for the help fellas. I meant I hope it's not too late in terms of this shit killing me. Pure luck I'm alive now. My big boy sack is filled. I'm done with that shit. I know what posting roll is, and my name is there. I will be nicotine free until I put my name there tomorrow. That I can promise. I'll deal with tomorrow when I get there.
My big boy sack is filled. I'm done with that shit
See that there! That's what I'm fucking taking about! You need to get pissed at that can.....you need to learn to hate that can of shit that had you by the balls for so long! Good job brother!
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Good choice. I'm a multi-decade former user who never could quit before finding KTC- like most here. The methods here work, and the support and integrity are key to me. If I can quit you can too- I and many others here have done the dumpster
Dive of desparation. We get it. Time for you to quit. It's hard but it's worth it!
Yup! Former ninja dipper and dumpster diver here......bet you've all "recycled" a dip or ten in your days too when you were running low! God what were we thinking!
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Good choice. I'm a multi-decade former user who never could quit before finding KTC- like most here. The methods here work, and the support and integrity are key to me. If I can quit you can too- I and many others here have done the dumpster
Dive of desparation. We get it. Time for you to quit. It's hard but it's worth it!
Good to hear about the quit. Like they said the first 72 hours and week are prtty freaky and usually different for everyone. DO NOT DESPAIR. when shit hits the fan, be it craves , rage, family what ever... GET YOUR ASS TO THE FORUM. collect numbers to text and PM you have plenty of tools here , read everything. then read about your quit brothers, you will find we are like you. ....... but tolerate little shit because this nick bitch is nothing to be taken lightly. You will probably curse more here and in life....just because it happens. You have been finger fucking a nasty bitch that has given you a nasty disease of addiction. Get the chemicals out of your body...exercise and drink water then we begin to learn how to live with the disease.
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She said that she has already come to terms with the act that I am going to die young, it will be my own fault, and there is nothing she can do about it because I will never stop.
WowÂ…I just felt like I read a page out of my own life story. My wife had given up on me quitting. She just learned to accept that I was not going to quit on her accord and held onto the fear that I was going to kill myself with nicotine. I knew this and I also knew that I had to prove that this quit was just not another failed attempt and empty promise. So on my 14th day of quit I showed her how I post roll every morning and told her about my quit. I engaged her in my quit and we've been counting the days together ever since. She still holds some resentment, and is adjusting to a life of having a husband who spends time with the family, goes to bed with her, and is no longer a slave. You see, our lives as addicts have changed the lives of those around us. When we quit and take back control of the life we abandoned, the same is happening to those around us. You've known addiction for the last 19 years and your wife has known only how to live with an addicted addict for the last 19 years. Patience and persistence in your quit will open up a world that has been foreign to you for so long.
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She said that she has already come to terms with the act that I am going to die young, it will be my own fault, and there is nothing she can do about it because I will never stop.
WowÂ…I just felt like I read a page out of my own life story. My wife had given up on me quitting. She just learned to accept that I was not going to quit on her accord and held onto the fear that I was going to kill myself with nicotine. I knew this and I also knew that I had to prove that this quit was just not another failed attempt and empty promise. So on my 14th day of quit I showed her how I post roll every morning and told her about my quit. I engaged her in my quit and we've been counting the days together ever since. She still holds some resentment, and is adjusting to a life of having a husband who spends time with the family, goes to bed with her, and is no longer a slave. You see, our lives as addicts have changed the lives of those around us. When we quit and take back control of the life we abandoned, the same is happening to those around us. You've known addiction for the last 19 years and your wife has known only how to live with an addicted addict for the last 19 years. Patience and persistence in your quit will open up a world that has been foreign to you for so long.
Amen^^^^^^^Steak is wise beyond his years. Head his wisdom and QLF!
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You guys are all awesome. Thanks for the words of encouragement. So far so good. It's almost bedtime and tomorrow is a new day. I can't wait to add my name to the list tomorrow....
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You guys are all awesome. Thanks for the words of encouragement. So far so good. It's almost bedtime and tomorrow is a new day. I can't wait to add my name to the list tomorrow....
Every day brotha, every damn day. We don't give up and we don't give in.
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When you talked about spreading the can out in the parking lot brought two stories to mind:
1. Numerous times I opened cans upside down and had to scrape up my poison of the pickup floor and try to clean the dirt and dog hair out.
2. My first dip dream was picking up someone else's discarded dip in a parking lot and putting it in my mouth! :blink:
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Hey everyone, my name is Tim. I quit on Tuesday the 25th but caved this morning. I actually dug the can I threw away out of a nasty trash bag in the trash can outside my house this morning. I felt like a transient searching for cans. It didn't dawn on me until I got to work, just how ridiculous my addiction was. I am ashamed that I am willing to dig through trash to get my fix. I'm done. I spit it out at 9am and I am now nicotine free. (I spread the rest of the can in the parking lot behind my station). I'm doing ok so far. Seeds and mints are pretty steady. I have a wife and 2 kids that I love very much. I've chewed for 19 years about a can a day. First 6 was Kodiak, then switched to Cope long cut. Never went back. Like so many others here, I can associate just about all 19 years of memory to having a dip. That's pretty insane. Maybe I should've quit when my then 2 year old son accidentally drank from an old spitter (thought that would've been instant divorce), but I kept going. He's 5 now, and the other is 13. Last night, after 36 hours without a dip, I was struggling and my wife told me she had zero sympathy for my withdrawals. She said that she has already come to terms with the act that I am going to die young, it will be my own fault, and there is nothing she can do about it because I will never stop. Thought that might have sealed my quit? Nope, dug my can out of the trash 12 hours later. So here I am. Not because of anyone but myself. You are now my only support. I am scared to death that I won't see my kids grow up. I am scared to death that I will leave my wife alone and on her own. I am scared to die. I see death almost every day. I'm not ready for that. I hope it's not too late. I pledge to quit nicotine starting today March 27, 2014. I will win.
Hello Tim. I started my quit today as well. Good luck brother. I am here for you. Let's do this!
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You guys are all awesome. Thanks for the words of encouragement. So far so good. It's almost bedtime and tomorrow is a new day. I can't wait to add my name to the list tomorrow....
Holy fucking fuck! The quit is strong with this one!!!!! With an attitude like that I have all the faith in the world in you!
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here's a link i share a lot because it helped me understand what I was fighting, and it got me mad as hell about how evil the addiction really is. Nicotine Addiction 101 (http://whyquit.com/whyquit/linksaaddiction.html) There's a lot of material at the Welcome Center here, upper left, too. Get this quit on today!
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Me and you must share some of the same genes fry, I did some dupster diving for dip many times when I quit in the past... This time, I followed the advice on this website and FLUSHED THE SHIT DOWN!!! It's gone, never to come back... Dont give in, take your lumps and join the journey that the july nic misfits are on right now... Read your inbox and keep up with your quitmates... As soon as you sign roll, you don't ever have my permission to dig around for dip in yours or anyone else trash... It's a contract I will hold you to!
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Tim, great choice to quit. The next little bit is the toughest, but the fight is so worth it! Read everything on KTC and get educated about nicotine addiction, and the KTC method of quit. Before you know it you will find yourself in a much better place if you follow the path. You don't need the poison, and never have. I will QLF with you all day. PM me if you need anything.