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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: aaron2012 on October 11, 2016, 01:10:00 PM
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Hey everyone,
Not sure how all this works. I've looked at this website a bunch of times over the last few years. Been dipping for 5 stupid years. I never thought I would let it carry on this far, but it did. Always wanting to quit, promising myself I would, picking a "date", trying different substitutes for that grizz green. There is no substitute. I've tried to quit cold turkey a few times and never made it more than a week. I decided last night that I've had enough of that crap. I'm sick of that stupid can controlling me and having power over me. I want need to quit. I need help. I have tried on my own and failed every time. I'm looking forward to communicating with you guys, and watching my quit number grow.
Any tips, encouragement, or anything else I should be doing, please let me know. :-)
--Aaron
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Hey everyone,
Not sure how all this works. I've looked at this website a bunch of times over the last few years. Been dipping for 5 stupid years. I never thought I would let it carry on this far, but it did. Always wanting to quit, promising myself I would, picking a "date", trying different substitutes for that grizz green. There is no substitute. I've tried to quit cold turkey a few times and never made it more than a week. I decided last night that I've had enough of that crap. I'm sick of that stupid can controlling me and having power over me. I want need to quit. I need help. I have tried on my own and failed every time. I'm looking forward to communicating with you guys, and watching my quit number grow.
Any tips, encouragement, or anything else I should be doing, please let me know. :-)
--Aaron
In order to have a quit number to grow, you need to post roll call. Check out the Welcome Center link and get on there. Make some new friends, get some quitters digits, and quit like fuck, one day at a time. The system works.
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Hey everyone,
Not sure how all this works. I've looked at this website a bunch of times over the last few years. Been dipping for 5 stupid years. I never thought I would let it carry on this far, but it did. Always wanting to quit, promising myself I would, picking a "date", trying different substitutes for that grizz green. There is no substitute. I've tried to quit cold turkey a few times and never made it more than a week. I decided last night that I've had enough of that crap. I'm sick of that stupid can controlling me and having power over me. I want need to quit. I need help. I have tried on my own and failed every time. I'm looking forward to communicating with you guys, and watching my quit number grow.
Any tips, encouragement, or anything else I should be doing, please let me know. :-)
--Aaron
Welcome. If you quit last night and haven't dipped since, yesterday is your quit date, and today is your day two. You are in the January '17 Quit Group found here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30025780/83/)The only tip I have is to post roll daily, as soon as you can, and before you leave the house for the day. Instructions for posting roll can be found here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/#new)And the significance of roll here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10391308/1/#new)
Posting roll is your promise to your quit group to not use nicotine in any form for the entire day. We quit one day at a time, and do the same thing tomorrow. By making the promise first thing in the day, we leave no wiggle room for a cave. Make your promise, keep your word. It's that simple.
You don't know any of us right now, but if you get active, you will make connections with complete internet strangers. They become like an extended family, and the last thing in the world you will want to do is let them down. That sounds corny to you right now, but give it some time, and it will become real. This community will become your lifeline to freedom.
Until that happens, you've got to tough it out. Stay committed, read all you can on the site, reach out to others, refuse to cave.
I'm proud to quit with you.
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Hey everyone,
Not sure how all this works. I've looked at this website a bunch of times over the last few years. Been dipping for 5 stupid years. I never thought I would let it carry on this far, but it did. Always wanting to quit, promising myself I would, picking a "date", trying different substitutes for that grizz green. There is no substitute. I've tried to quit cold turkey a few times and never made it more than a week. I decided last night that I've had enough of that crap. I'm sick of that stupid can controlling me and having power over me. I want need to quit. I need help. I have tried on my own and failed every time. I'm looking forward to communicating with you guys, and watching my quit number grow.
Any tips, encouragement, or anything else I should be doing, please let me know. :-)
--Aaron
Welcome. If you quit last night and haven't dipped since, yesterday is your quit date, and today is your day two. You are in the January '17 Quit Group found here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30025780/83/)The only tip I have is to post roll daily, as soon as you can, and before you leave the house for the day. Instructions for posting roll can be found here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/#new)And the significance of roll here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10391308/1/#new)
Posting roll is your promise to your quit group to not use nicotine in any form for the entire day. We quit one day at a time, and do the same thing tomorrow. By making the promise first thing in the day, we leave no wiggle room for a cave. Make your promise, keep your word. It's that simple.
You don't know any of us right now, but if you get active, you will make connections with complete internet strangers. They become like an extended family, and the last thing in the world you will want to do is let them down. That sounds corny to you right now, but give it some time, and it will become real. This community will become your lifeline to freedom.
Until that happens, you've got to tough it out. Stay committed, read all you can on the site, reach out to others, refuse to cave.
I'm proud to quit with you.
Hang in there aaron, I am glad to see you in live chat, that place saved me many times... stay the course, drink a lot of water, stay connected, the connections you make here will definitely save you ....
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FUCKING RAGIN RIGHT NOW. Rounding the corner on day two and its tough as hell. I knew this was gonna be hard, but I didn't imagine it would be this bad. Shaking as I type...
I find myself thinking back to when I had my first dip.
It was around this time of year when I was 17. I never pictured myself using any kind of tobacco. My old man died from cancer (not tobacco related) when I was 12 and told me so many times how bad smoking was and blah blah blah before he checked out. I guess I bought the bullshit about "safer than smoking" but I always knew in the back of my mind that that was horse shit. I could blame a lot of my issues on losing my dad. But it's my fault I made the bone head decision to put that shit in my mouth.
Anyhow, this dude bought me a can of Cherry Skoal. I was so nervous, just smelling it made my head spin. I went over to my brother-in-law's house who chewed red man at the time and timidly threw in a small pinch, maybe the size of the dime. Well holy fuck if I didn't get high as shit. I can still remember the taste of it and my mouth is watering as I type this.
Fast forward a year and I'm taking 12 credit hours at the local community college and working full time at mother fucking DMV. If I wasn't hooked after that first one, I was hooked when I started working there. That place stressed me out so bad I started dipping hard. Switched to cope green, and then grizz green. I've been riding the welfare bear for the last 3 or so years. Lying the whole time, to my poor mother who had to watch her husband die from a disease he wanted no part of. And here I am, a piece of fucking shit giving it to myself. Lying to my girlfriend, getting caught, promising to quit, then just being a better ninja with my dips. Lying to myself. I'm not addicted all the other bullshit addict excuses. I'll quit when I finish school, get a better job, move, get married blah blah blah. I guess I just finally hate myself enough to throw that shit away and not go back. This is hard as hell. but I'm committed to keeping my word every damn day.
I recognize I am an addict. Not a dude with a bad habit, an addict.
All I can do now is take it one day at a time, I guess.
Sorry for the ramble, anyone that reads this.
I pray one day I can look in the mirror and not hate the man looking back at me.
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Ramble all you want brother, you are doing great!! And you are gonna make it.
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FUCKING RAGIN RIGHT NOW. Rounding the corner on day two and its tough as hell. I knew this was gonna be hard, but I didn't imagine it would be this bad. Shaking as I type...
I find myself thinking back to when I had my first dip.
It was around this time of year when I was 17. I never pictured myself using any kind of tobacco. My old man died from cancer (not tobacco related) when I was 12 and told me so many times how bad smoking was and blah blah blah before he checked out. I guess I bought the bullshit about "safer than smoking" but I always knew in the back of my mind that that was horse shit. I could blame a lot of my issues on losing my dad. But it's my fault I made the bone head decision to put that shit in my mouth.
Anyhow, this dude bought me a can of Cherry Skoal. I was so nervous, just smelling it made my head spin. I went over to my brother-in-law's house who chewed red man at the time and timidly threw in a small pinch, maybe the size of the dime. Well holy fuck if I didn't get high as shit. I can still remember the taste of it and my mouth is watering as I type this.
Fast forward a year and I'm taking 12 credit hours at the local community college and working full time at mother fucking DMV. If I wasn't hooked after that first one, I was hooked when I started working there. That place stressed me out so bad I started dipping hard. Switched to cope green, and then grizz green. I've been riding the welfare bear for the last 3 or so years. Lying the whole time, to my poor mother who had to watch her husband die from a disease he wanted no part of. And here I am, a piece of fucking shit giving it to myself. Lying to my girlfriend, getting caught, promising to quit, then just being a better ninja with my dips. Lying to myself. I'm not addicted all the other bullshit addict excuses. I'll quit when I finish school, get a better job, move, get married blah blah blah. I guess I just finally hate myself enough to throw that shit away and not go back. This is hard as hell. but I'm committed to keeping my word every damn day.
I recognize I am an addict. Not a dude with a bad habit, an addict.
All I can do now is take it one day at a time, I guess.
Sorry for the ramble, anyone that reads this.
I pray one day I can look in the mirror and not hate the man looking back at me.
Awesome to see you completely opening up here. That is a great sign.
YOU have control. YOU can quit. WE quit together every damn day (EDD).
I quit with you today! Stranger999 - day 404.
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FUCKING RAGIN RIGHT NOW. Rounding the corner on day two and its tough as hell. I knew this was gonna be hard, but I didn't imagine it would be this bad. Shaking as I type...
I find myself thinking back to when I had my first dip.
It was around this time of year when I was 17. I never pictured myself using any kind of tobacco. My old man died from cancer (not tobacco related) when I was 12 and told me so many times how bad smoking was and blah blah blah before he checked out. I guess I bought the bullshit about "safer than smoking" but I always knew in the back of my mind that that was horse shit. I could blame a lot of my issues on losing my dad. But it's my fault I made the bone head decision to put that shit in my mouth.
Anyhow, this dude bought me a can of Cherry Skoal. I was so nervous, just smelling it made my head spin. I went over to my brother-in-law's house who chewed red man at the time and timidly threw in a small pinch, maybe the size of the dime. Well holy fuck if I didn't get high as shit. I can still remember the taste of it and my mouth is watering as I type this.
Fast forward a year and I'm taking 12 credit hours at the local community college and working full time at mother fucking DMV. If I wasn't hooked after that first one, I was hooked when I started working there. That place stressed me out so bad I started dipping hard. Switched to cope green, and then grizz green. I've been riding the welfare bear for the last 3 or so years. Lying the whole time, to my poor mother who had to watch her husband die from a disease he wanted no part of. And here I am, a piece of fucking shit giving it to myself. Lying to my girlfriend, getting caught, promising to quit, then just being a better ninja with my dips. Lying to myself. I'm not addicted all the other bullshit addict excuses. I'll quit when I finish school, get a better job, move, get married blah blah blah. I guess I just finally hate myself enough to throw that shit away and not go back. This is hard as hell. but I'm committed to keeping my word every damn day.
I recognize I am an addict. Not a dude with a bad habit, an addict.
All I can do now is take it one day at a time, I guess.
Sorry for the ramble, anyone that reads this.
I pray one day I can look in the mirror and not hate the man looking back at me.
Great job posting roll. Most of us planned to quit when we got that job, finished school, got engaged, had that child, on and on and on and on. Most have been through rough stretches in our lives. But you're right, you did this to yourself and YOU can overcome this addiction. I was a dumbass and put that shit in my lip for 27+ years of my life. You are recognizing it early, and attempting to do something about it well, well before me and many others here. Feel proud of that.
I quit with you one day at a time.
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Sitting here typing this in my car on my phone so pardon any typos.
Today was a goddamn roller coaster.
Im still in my car because im scared im gonna go in and blow up on my roommates. Especially if the one mother fucker is in there dipping. I.will.lose.my.shit. i have never been more angry sad happy and lonely all in the same day as i have been today. One minute im laughing, the next i cant picture continuing life without dip. This crap has such a fucking hold on me....everytime i start to let my guard down the nic bitch jumps on my back and reminds me what im fighting for. Then the fog comes back and i cant remember any of it. This shit was rough today.
Looking forward to better days. Thanks for all the support
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Sitting here typing this in my car on my phone so pardon any typos.
Today was a goddamn roller coaster.
Im still in my car because im scared im gonna go in and blow up on my roommates. Especially if the one mother fucker is in there dipping. I.will.lose.my.shit. i have never been more angry sad happy and lonely all in the same day as i have been today. One minute im laughing, the next i cant picture continuing life without dip. This crap has such a fucking hold on me....everytime i start to let my guard down the nic bitch jumps on my back and reminds me what im fighting for. Then the fog comes back and i cant remember any of it. This shit was rough today.
Looking forward to better days. Thanks for all the support
Better days are ahead, but you gotta fight to get there. You dound like a fighter!
Exercise, crazy aggressive exercise until your legs are about to fall off, is a great thing. Exfaustuon will help you out man. You can do this.
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Sitting here typing this in my car on my phone so pardon any typos.
Today was a goddamn roller coaster.
Im still in my car because im scared im gonna go in and blow up on my roommates. Especially if the one mother fucker is in there dipping. I.will.lose.my.shit. i have never been more angry sad happy and lonely all in the same day as i have been today. One minute im laughing, the next i cant picture continuing life without dip. This crap has such a fucking hold on me....everytime i start to let my guard down the nic bitch jumps on my back and reminds me what im fighting for. Then the fog comes back and i cant remember any of it. This shit was rough today.
Looking forward to better days. Thanks for all the support
Better days are ahead, but you gotta fight to get there. You dound like a fighter!
Exercise, crazy aggressive exercise until your legs are about to fall off, is a great thing. Exfaustuon will help you out man. You can do this.
^^^QFT^^^^. Better days are coming, and are worth it. Buckle down, you are almost there!
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Sitting here typing this in my car on my phone so pardon any typos.
Today was a goddamn roller coaster.
Im still in my car because im scared im gonna go in and blow up on my roommates. Especially if the one mother fucker is in there dipping. I.will.lose.my.shit. i have never been more angry sad happy and lonely all in the same day as i have been today. One minute im laughing, the next i cant picture continuing life without dip. This crap has such a fucking hold on me....everytime i start to let my guard down the nic bitch jumps on my back and reminds me what im fighting for. Then the fog comes back and i cant remember any of it. This shit was rough today.
Looking forward to better days. Thanks for all the support
Better days are ahead, but you gotta fight to get there. You dound like a fighter!
Exercise, crazy aggressive exercise until your legs are about to fall off, is a great thing. Exfaustuon will help you out man. You can do this.
^^^QFT^^^^. Better days are coming, and are worth it. Buckle down, you are almost there!
Not much to add but an encouragement to stay on the path. It's well trod and it leads to the right place...
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Really not doing awesome today.
Helped my girlfriend move, all the hardwork kept me doing pretty okay.
now i'm home and ate dinner and i feel like i'm back at square 1.
I found a brand new fucking can in my room this morning. i was feeling strong, so i dumped it in the bushes and kicked it around in the mulch. I'm glad I did it then, cause if i still had that can i think i would cave. the only thing keeping me from going to get one is knowing i'd have to feel like this again eventually. I said good bye to a part of me. I miss dip. I think about dip. But the brown bull shit in the can wants to kill me mother fucker I don't want to die that way. I just want this to be easier. I want to be able to use real dip and have it not kill me. I want a big fat fucking pinch of grizzly fucking wintergreen.
But I won't cave. Not today, hopefully not ever.
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Really not doing awesome today.
Helped my girlfriend move, all the hardwork kept me doing pretty okay.
now i'm home and ate dinner and i feel like i'm back at square 1.
I found a brand new fucking can in my room this morning. i was feeling strong, so i dumped it in the bushes and kicked it around in the mulch. I'm glad I did it then, cause if i still had that can i think i would cave. the only thing keeping me from going to get one is knowing i'd have to feel like this again eventually. I said good bye to a part of me. I miss dip. I think about dip. But the brown bull shit in the can wants to kill me mother fucker I don't want to die that way. I just want this to be easier. I want to be able to use real dip and have it not kill me. I want a big fat fucking pinch of grizzly fucking wintergreen.
But I won't cave. Not today, hopefully not ever.
Hi Aaron.
You're probably gonna get a lot of replies to this, but I wanna kick things off by asking just one question... and before you answer, I really ask that you think really really hard about the answer.
What is it that you miss about dip?
Tell us what positives it brought to you, your life, or your family.
I'm not trying to be an ass, but when you really think about this, not in a pissed off nicotine withdrawal addict way but in a rational and introspective way... you'll find just one answer as to what you miss:
It took away the withdrawal of not using it.
Aaron - you can do this. No one... NO ONE...ever regrets quitting. It will get better.
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Really not doing awesome today.
Helped my girlfriend move, all the hardwork kept me doing pretty okay.
now i'm home and ate dinner and i feel like i'm back at square 1.
I found a brand new fucking can in my room this morning. i was feeling strong, so i dumped it in the bushes and kicked it around in the mulch. I'm glad I did it then, cause if i still had that can i think i would cave. the only thing keeping me from going to get one is knowing i'd have to feel like this again eventually. I said good bye to a part of me. I miss dip. I think about dip. But the brown bull shit in the can wants to kill me mother fucker I don't want to die that way. I just want this to be easier. I want to be able to use real dip and have it not kill me. I want a big fat fucking pinch of grizzly fucking wintergreen.
But I won't cave. Not today, hopefully not ever.
Hi Aaron.
You're probably gonna get a lot of replies to this, but I wanna kick things off by asking just one question... and before you answer, I really ask that you think really really hard about the answer.
What is it that you miss about dip?
Tell us what positives it brought to you, your life, or your family.
I'm not trying to be an ass, but when you really think about this, not in a pissed off nicotine withdrawal addict way but in a rational and introspective way... you'll find just one answer as to what you miss:
It took away the withdrawal of not using it.
Aaron - you can do this. No one... NO ONE...ever regrets quitting. It will get better.
There are lots of replacements for dip out there. Beef jerky, gum, mints, atomic fireballs, toothpicks, cotton balls (yes you can dip cotton). There are companies like Smokey Mountain that make fake dip. Pick one that works for you if you need have something in your mouth.
It does get easier as time passes. :)
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You are in a tough part of the quit but almost through the worst of it. Just keep pushing forward day by day, minute by minute, if necessary, until it eases up. And it will. It most certainly will. Just as long as you stay quit.
A good book to read is Allen Carr's easyway to quit smoking. It is about nicotine though so don't let the smoking bit dissuade you. It does a great job of breaking down the brainwashing that goes on with nicotine addiction, very similar to what worktowin was getting at. Using dip is like wearing really uncomfortable shoes all day just so you can enjoy the relief of taking them off. In any event, read everything you can on this addiction. It really helps to understand your enemy.
Otherwise, keep posting, stay hydrated, keep your blood sugars elevated, use fake, eat everything in site (my favorite tactic), exercise, and stay close to this site.
Proud to be quit with you today.
FLLIP
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Happy Half-A-HOF (http://i.imgur.com/WKwd9SR.jpg?1)
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I'm quit with you Aaron
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I haven't posted in here in awhile.
Sitting here at work on my HoF eve. Can't believe it's been 99 days since I first said "fuck you" to that little green can.
there have been many more times since then. and many more soon to come, I'm sure.
'Finger' grizzly. 'Finger'
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I haven't posted in here in awhile.
Sitting here at work on my HoF eve. Can't believe it's been 99 days since I first said "fuck you" to that little green can.
there have been many more times since then. and many more soon to come, I'm sure.
'Finger' grizzly. 'Finger'
Dude - congratulations on the HOF! I'm on day 16 and that seems like an eternity. What advice would you give someone at my stage to stay committed?
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I haven't posted in here in awhile.
Sitting here at work on my HoF eve. Can't believe it's been 99 days since I first said "fuck you" to that little green can.
there have been many more times since then. and many more soon to come, I'm sure.
'Finger' grizzly. 'Finger'
Dude - congratulations on the HOF! I'm on day 16 and that seems like an eternity. What advice would you give someone at my stage to stay committed?
happy HOF EVE AA. :wub:
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I haven't posted in here in awhile.
Sitting here at work on my HoF eve. Can't believe it's been 99 days since I first said "fuck you" to that little green can.
there have been many more times since then. and many more soon to come, I'm sure.
'Finger' grizzly. 'Finger'
Dude - congratulations on the HOF! I'm on day 16 and that seems like an eternity. What advice would you give someone at my stage to stay committed?
Stay close to the site. check out live chat sometime, that place has saved me countless times. Don't let the "bs" get to you. Lay off the booze for awhile if you're a drinker. ; if you feel like picking up a can text or call someone! it helps worlds. Pm me if you need digits bro.
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Happy HOF day!
Proud of you AA . celebrate and repeat daily.
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Happy HOF day!
Proud of you AA . celebrate and repeat daily.
thank you chick 3
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I haven't posted in here in awhile.
Sitting here at work on my HoF eve. Can't believe it's been 99 days since I first said "fuck you" to that little green can.
there have been many more times since then. and many more soon to come, I'm sure.
'Finger' grizzly. 'Finger'
Dude - congratulations on the HOF! I'm on day 16 and that seems like an eternity. What advice would you give someone at my stage to stay committed?
Stay close to the site. check out live chat sometime, that place has saved me countless times. Don't let the "bs" get to you. Lay off the booze for awhile if you're a drinker. ; if you feel like picking up a can text or call someone! it helps worlds. Pm me if you need digits bro.
hitting the hall and paying it forward
'clap'
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I haven't posted in here in awhile.
Sitting here at work on my HoF eve. Can't believe it's been 99 days since I first said "fuck you" to that little green can.
there have been many more times since then. and many more soon to come, I'm sure.
'Finger' grizzly. 'Finger'
Dude - congratulations on the HOF! I'm on day 16 and that seems like an eternity. What advice would you give someone at my stage to stay committed?
Stay close to the site. check out live chat sometime, that place has saved me countless times. Don't let the "bs" get to you. Lay off the booze for awhile if you're a drinker. ; if you feel like picking up a can text or call someone! it helps worlds. Pm me if you need digits bro.
hitting the hall and paying it forward
'clap'
An awful lot of wisdom here. Congrats Aaron, and keep it up. It keeps getting so much better, and you have all the tools to take full advantage of that.
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I haven't posted in here in awhile.
Sitting here at work on my HoF eve. Can't believe it's been 99 days since I first said "fuck you" to that little green can.
there have been many more times since then. and many more soon to come, I'm sure.
'Finger' grizzly. 'Finger'
Dude - congratulations on the HOF! I'm on day 16 and that seems like an eternity. What advice would you give someone at my stage to stay committed?
Stay close to the site. check out live chat sometime, that place has saved me countless times. Don't let the "bs" get to you. Lay off the booze for awhile if you're a drinker. ; if you feel like picking up a can text or call someone! it helps worlds. Pm me if you need digits bro.
hitting the hall and paying it forward
'clap'
An awful lot of wisdom here. Congrats Aaron, and keep it up. It keeps getting so much better, and you have all the tools to take full advantage of that.
Congrats on hitting Hall of Fame... I liked your speech too.
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Congratulations Bro
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Thanks a bunch everyone. 'winker'
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Just read through your intro for first time..Good lord it reminds me of how I felt those first couple weeks..Glad to quit with you bro!!