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I just recently resigned from a 20 year career to get my shit back in order. I've been dipping a can a day and drinking a 6 pack of beer everyday for nearly 20 years. I thought about quitting a few times here and there but by 5pm I always gave myself an excuse to keep the tradition going. But I'm ready and fully committed to make a promise to myself and everyone on this site that I'm done with this shit. Just looking back on why I ever started or thought that I needed a pinch of dip to get me through the next 20 minutes is just flat out embarrassing. Nicotine and alcohol flat out kicked my ass and now I'm bringing the fight to them. I WILL WIN this fucking battle. My brother told me about this site and also said that it is impossible to quit (He made it 5 days before he caved). Time to do battle and prove him wrong!
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I just recently resigned from a 20 year career to get my shit back in order. I've been dipping a can a day and drinking a 6 pack of beer everyday for nearly 20 years. I thought about quitting a few times here and there but by 5pm I always gave myself an excuse to keep the tradition going. But I'm ready and fully committed to make a promise to myself and everyone on this site that I'm done with this shit. Just looking back on why I ever started or thought that I needed a pinch of dip to get me through the next 20 minutes is just flat out embarrassing. Nicotine and alcohol flat out kicked my ass and now I'm bringing the fight to them. I WILL WIN this fucking battle. My brother told me about this site and also said that it is impossible to quit (He made it 5 days before he caved). Time to do battle and prove him wrong!
You are the one that quits...
What's your plan, Mr. White?
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To Pay At the Pump! How did you know I was Mr. White?
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To Pay At the Pump! How did you know I was Mr. White?
Call me Hank.
Paying at the pump is a great plan, and don't you worry about 5 days out. Worry about being quit now. Drink tons of water, and exercise is great to kill craves. Read everything here, and get involved with your group (November 2014).
Most importantly, don't give in to nicotine's lies. She might seem all busty and alluring sometimes, but she'll give you ho hum handjobs while reading a magazine and fool around behind your back. The juice is not worth the squeeze.
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To Pay At the Pump! How did you know I was Mr. White?
Call me Hank.
Paying at the pump is a great plan, and don't you worry about 5 days out. Worry about being quit now. Drink tons of water, and exercise is great to kill craves. Read everything here, and get involved with your group (November 2014).
Most importantly, don't give in to nicotine's lies. She might seem all busty and alluring sometimes, but she'll give you ho hum handjobs while reading a magazine and fool around behind your back. The juice is not worth the squeeze.
Listen to waste panel. He knows quit. Read everything on KTC. The plan works.
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Thanks bud. I just joined a gym this morning and got myself on a workout program. I also cancelled on a couple hunting trips coming up in the next few weeks to keep a distance from all my friends who are also addicts. I imagine an entire change in what I do and who I do them with is going to have to take place. I've been thinking a lot about this for quite some time. It's not as simple as saying I quit...An entire change in my daily routine will also have to be put in place. As lame as it may sound I've written out a TO DO list with 20 items I'm not accustomed to doing. Starting with waking up at 5am and ending with going to bed by 9pm.
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Thanks bud. I just joined a gym this morning and got myself on a workout program. I also cancelled on a couple hunting trips coming up in the next few weeks to keep a distance from all my friends who are also addicts. I imagine an entire change in what I do and who I do them with is going to have to take place. I've been thinking a lot about this for quite some time. It's not as simple as saying I quit...An entire change in my daily routine will also have to be put in place. As lame as it may sound I've written out a TO DO list with 20 items I'm not accustomed to doing. Starting with waking up at 5am and ending with going to bed by 9pm.
As mentioned. Start reading. Another way to build your quit is to help others build their quit. I can't explain it but it is true, the more you give the more you get. Start posting with your group and really get involved.
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I just recently resigned from a 20 year career to get my shit back in order. I've been dipping a can a day and drinking a 6 pack of beer everyday for nearly 20 years. I thought about quitting a few times here and there but by 5pm I always gave myself an excuse to keep the tradition going. But I'm ready and fully committed to make a promise to myself and everyone on this site that I'm done with this shit. Just looking back on why I ever started or thought that I needed a pinch of dip to get me through the next 20 minutes is just flat out embarrassing. Nicotine and alcohol flat out kicked my ass and now I'm bringing the fight to them. I WILL WIN this fucking battle. My brother told me about this site and also said that it is impossible to quit (He made it 5 days before he caved). Time to do battle and prove him wrong!
First off, great decision to finally quit. That's the first step. The next step is to let your body heal and reprogram itself. You put that poison in your body for 20 years. Just like your body had to learn how to adapt to being poisoned everyday, it now has to learn how to live without nic.
Just keep in mind that everyone on here has been thru the same shit you have and will be going thru. Reach out and ask for help if you need it. Read other peoples posts for inspiration and get involved. Make the investment of your time into helping yourself and others. That investment will begin to pay dividends quickly. But just like any other investment, it takes time. One day at a time.
Quit hard!
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I just recently resigned from a 20 year career to get my shit back in order. I've been dipping a can a day and drinking a 6 pack of beer everyday for nearly 20 years. I thought about quitting a few times here and there but by 5pm I always gave myself an excuse to keep the tradition going. But I'm ready and fully committed to make a promise to myself and everyone on this site that I'm done with this shit. Just looking back on why I ever started or thought that I needed a pinch of dip to get me through the next 20 minutes is just flat out embarrassing. Nicotine and alcohol flat out kicked my ass and now I'm bringing the fight to them. I WILL WIN this fucking battle. My brother told me about this site and also said that it is impossible to quit (He made it 5 days before he caved). Time to do battle and prove him wrong!
First off, great decision to finally quit. That's the first step. The next step is to let your body heal and reprogram itself. You put that poison in your body for 20 years. Just like your body had to learn how to adapt to being poisoned everyday, it now has to learn how to live without nic.
Just keep in mind that everyone on here has been thru the same shit you have and will be going thru. Reach out and ask for help if you need it. Read other peoples posts for inspiration and get involved. Make the investment of your time into helping yourself and others. That investment will begin to pay dividends quickly. But just like any other investment, it takes time. One day at a time.
Quit hard!
^^^great advice here. One day at a time brother. Each day is a victory, another battle with the nic bitch. It gets way easier as time passes. So just worry about today and know that it will get better, way better.
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After reading through quite a few posts from other addicts I have to ask....Do you guys really have strong cravings after 30-40 even 100 days or are people just fucking with us newbies? That's fairly discouraging to people on day one.
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After reading through quite a few posts from other addicts I have to ask....Do you guys really have strong cravings after 30-40 even 100 days or are people just fucking with us newbies? That's fairly discouraging to people on day one.
Don't be discourage by anything. The only thing you should think about is I quit today. You need to add to your 'to do list' right after waking up POST ROLL! As a 40+ Year addict that has been quit for 857 days I still have occasional Craves but they are weak and I have tools to deal with them. The main thing is I remember the suck of withdrawal and quitting, I never want to have to repeat any of that.
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After reading through quite a few posts from other addicts I have to ask....Do you guys really have strong cravings after 30-40 even 100 days or are people just fucking with us newbies? That's fairly discouraging to people on day one.
Don't be discourage by anything. The only thing you should think about is I quit today. You need to add to your 'to do list' right after waking up POST ROLL! As a 40+ Year addict that has been quit for 857 days I still have occasional Craves but they are weak and I have tools to deal with them. The main thing is I remember the suck of withdrawal and quitting, I never want to have to repeat any of that.
Welcome.
We are addicts in control of our addiction.
ODAAT.
we decide daily. We own the quit.
glad ur here. You r not here by accident.
u really can "be quit." 'bang head'
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After reading through quite a few posts from other addicts I have to ask....Do you guys really have strong cravings after 30-40 even 100 days or are people just fucking with us newbies? That's fairly discouraging to people on day one.
Welcome. I can tell by your username that, like me, you have good taste in tee-vee. The fact that you are here and posting roll tells me that good decision making is prominent on your radar as well.
The short answer to the first part of your question: Yes.
One of the best things you can do in the early hours and days of your quit is to spend lots of time reading as much as you can on this site. Really try to absorb what you learn here and use it to arm yourself over the coming days and weeks ahead. Also, your November quit brothers as well as the seasoned vets are here to lean on when you need it. You can vent at us all you want - we can take it. Just keep posting roll and take it one day at a time. PM me if you need digits, because building a strong support network is one of the huge keys to success.
Now for the tough love part.
You think getting some craves after 100 days quit is discouraging? Really??? You spent the last 20 years packing your lip full of that shit to the tune of a can a day and you expect to be tap dancing through the tulips after a few weeks nic-free? That's the addict in you, trying to make you think it's all hopeless and to just give up. Fuck that noise. You've got to bear down and be the boss. Every day. Yes, you will have craves, and yes they will be gale force at times. As long as you post roll first thing in the morning, stay lined up shoulder to shoulder with your fellow brothers, and are a man of your word, you will stay quit today. For as long as you draw breath, you will have to repeat that promise anew each day. Accept it and embrace it. It will get better, but you need to wear the pants and decide to take ownership of your quit and not the other way around.
I quit with you today.
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By the way, I assume from your intro that you're quitting the booze at the same time. I personally think that's a great idea at least until you get a solid quit going. Some say to abstain completely from alcohol for at least the first 50-100 days. I think it's different for everyone, and largely depends on how much of a trigger beer is for you. Alcohol lowers your inhibitions without question. If you have a tendency to overindulge, taking a break is one of the best things you can do to shore up your resolve.
Good job posting roll for day 2 today. You've got a tough fight ahead of you, but you're getting after it all the same.
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After reading through quite a few posts from other addicts I have to ask....Do you guys really have strong cravings after 30-40 even 100 days or are people just fucking with us newbies? That's fairly discouraging to people on day one.
Cravings will never suck as bad as the first week. Cravings will be like random head aches from time to time and on that note I'll take the chances of a head ache over a lip of cancer in my mouth.
Day-1 now day-2 awesome!!! So u just proved u can do it one day at a time,so day 100000 And 200000 is in your future one day at a time. I quit with u today bud.
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After reading through quite a few posts from other addicts I have to ask....Do you guys really have strong cravings after 30-40 even 100 days or are people just fucking with us newbies? That's fairly discouraging to people on day one.
Cravings will never suck as bad as the first week. Cravings will be like random head aches from time to time and on that note I'll take the chances of a head ache over a lip of cancer in my mouth.
Day-1 now day-2 awesome!!! So u just proved u can do it one day at a time,so day 100000 And 200000 is in your future one day at a time. I quit with u today bud.
Dude, it gets way way way better. Don't get discouraged. Follow the plan and you will feel better and better each day and each week.
Unfortunately, because of what we've done to ourselves, the nic bitch will never leave the back of our minds. That's okay though. The tools to beat that little bitch back are here at KTC. You'll sharpen them over the next few months and be armed for a lifetime of quit and happiness.
Quit on brother!
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Heise -
You've gotten great advice and you're on the right track. Post roll, read and repeat.
As for "fucking with newbies"...I sure as shit hope nobody is doing that on here! Quitting is serious shit. It isn't for the asking. You won't get an invitation. And nobody can do it for you. It is a decision YOU make to save a life...YOURS. We're not just fucking around here. The stakes couldn't be higher.
Future craves? Listen...I quit in Sept 2010 after 20+ years of dipping everyday. Last weekend, I was getting my gear ready for dove season and I still "heard" empty snuff cans in my bird bag. WTF?!! Totally imagined...but still there. Holy shit, right?!!
My point is that nicotine may be out of my system, but it is still part my life. And it will always be. I am an addict. I post roll, I read, I try to stay involved. I do it as much for me as to help others...okay, mostly for me but still...
There is no "finish line" to quitting. Don't look for one. Anticipating how you'll feel on Day 40, Day 100 or whatever is "looking ahead." DON'T DO IT!!! Quitting forever is hard. That's why we don't do it here. We quit ONE DAY AT A TIME. We just post roll and give our word that come hell or high water we will remain quit today. And I can guaran-fuckin-tee you I can stay quit for one day. You can to.
Quitting is a daily battle...easier now than it once was, but a daily battle nonetheless. I welcome the daily opportunity to cunt-punch the Nic Bitch. You should too. Freedom is a great feeling. And it only gets better!!!
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After reading through quite a few posts from other addicts I have to ask....Do you guys really have strong cravings after 30-40 even 100 days or are people just fucking with us newbies? That's fairly discouraging to people on day one.
I'm at day 134 and had a crave that hit me this morning. It lasted 10, maybe 15 seconds before I laughed it off. That's the freedom part of what we are selling here, we will always be addicts, and therefore will subject to craves, but once you get that first really nice day you will know it's all worth it, and you too can laugh a crave off. The freedom is fantastic Walter.
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First time in 20 years I went an entire day without a dip. Yesterday sucked, I won't lie. Maybe the strangest day I've ever had. And when I say strange, I really can't explain the mood I was in or how I was feeling, but I felt as if I were on a drug that put me in a totally different state of mind. I was out of it completely. Sometimes I just found myself pacing down the hallway back and forth. I can't even comprehend the number of times I heard a voice telling me "how are you going to do this task without a dip or that one", and it went on and on and on. At the very most I maybe got an hour of sleep last night. Just a very different experience is the only way I can explain how I felt yesterday. Today however, I feel freakin' fantastic! Not a single beer, not a single dip. No fog, just a clear head and surprisingly some good energy despite the lack of sleep. Dipping is not an option. Drinking is not an option. The voices in my head better get that shit straight right fucking now.
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First time in 20 years I went an entire day without a dip. Yesterday sucked, I won't lie. Maybe the strangest day I've ever had. And when I say strange, I really can't explain the mood I was in or how I was feeling, but I felt as if I were on a drug that put me in a totally different state of mind. I was out of it completely. Sometimes I just found myself pacing down the hallway back and forth. I can't even comprehend the number of times I heard a voice telling me "how are you going to do this task without a dip or that one", and it went on and on and on. At the very most I maybe got an hour of sleep last night. Just a very different experience is the only way I can explain how I felt yesterday. Today however, I feel freakin' fantastic! Not a single beer, not a single dip. No fog, just a clear head and surprisingly some good energy despite the lack of sleep. Dipping is not an option. Drinking is not an option. The voices in my head better get that shit straight right fucking now.
Good post, but buckle up for day 3! Day 3 was by far the worst for me. I hope it is not for you, but I hear a lot of Day 3 and 4 stories. Stay strong, get some digits, drink water, and be close to hear, the worst is almost over!
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First time in 20 years I went an entire day without a dip. Yesterday sucked, I won't lie. Maybe the strangest day I've ever had. And when I say strange, I really can't explain the mood I was in or how I was feeling, but I felt as if I were on a drug that put me in a totally different state of mind. I was out of it completely. Sometimes I just found myself pacing down the hallway back and forth. I can't even comprehend the number of times I heard a voice telling me "how are you going to do this task without a dip or that one", and it went on and on and on. At the very most I maybe got an hour of sleep last night. Just a very different experience is the only way I can explain how I felt yesterday. Today however, I feel freakin' fantastic! Not a single beer, not a single dip. No fog, just a clear head and surprisingly some good energy despite the lack of sleep. Dipping is not an option. Drinking is not an option. The voices in my head better get that shit straight right fucking now.
Good stuff, Heisenberg. Relish these moments of clarity, because they will be rare in the early days of your quit. Try to remind yourself during the rough patches that you have seen glimpses of how good it feels to be dip/booze free. Speaking of being booze-free, good call on shelving the Schrader Brau for a while.
PM me if you need digits. There's no good excuse to quit alone.
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I'm glad I got some support here and some new brothers to guide me in the right direction. When I went to get in my truck this morning to workout my brother left me a brand new can of Copenhagen on the hood of my truck. He thinks this shit is funny. I think he's worried I'm going to accomplish something he can't. What a prick.
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I'm glad I got some support here and some new brothers to guide me in the right direction. When I went to get in my truck this morning to workout my brother left me a brand new can of Copenhagen on the hood of my truck. He thinks this shit is funny. I think he's worried I'm going to accomplish something he can't. What a prick.
That's asinine and deserves a punch in the nuts!
Keep your momentum and don't let his fear of your fortitude derail you. It takes more sac to do this than anything you've ever come across. That... Is truly badass man.
Rock on...
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Enjoyed reading your story Heisenberg. As a fellow November SCQer, welcome to KTC. It sure sounds like you're on the right path. Don't get discouraged over friends/family not taking your quit seriously. You will have some support you and some do just as you mentioned. Let that be more fuel for your quit.
Also, everyone's quit is different. As your fellow brothers have mentioned, do not worry. Take this one day at a time.
You got this! Keep on quittin! If you ever need someone to talk with, don't hesitate to PM me and we can swap digits. Look forward to seeing you on roll brother.
Quit On!
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Enjoyed reading your story Heisenberg. As a fellow November SCQer, welcome to KTC. It sure sounds like you're on the right path. Don't get discouraged over friends/family not taking your quit seriously. You will have some support you and some do just as you mentioned. Let that be more fuel for your quit.
Also, everyone's quit is different. As your fellow brothers have mentioned, do not worry. Take this one day at a time.
You got this! Keep on quittin! If you ever need someone to talk with, don't hesitate to PM me and we can swap digits. Look forward to seeing you on roll brother.
Quit On!
Brothers can be pricks. Addictions suck. Quitting is not for the weak. Once you're quit and have lots of daze under your belt...your poor brother will go fucking nutz! He may or may never come around to reality. The choice is ours alone. I choose to be Quit with YOU Today.
This is YOUR quit.
Noone feels the jaw being removed except the person being operated on.
I don't want an operation. I choose life with YOU Today.
Wake in the a.m. and do it all over again.
Welcome.
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This is YOUR quit.
Noone feels the jaw being removed except the person being operated on.
I don't want an operation. I choose life with YOU Today.
A million x's this ^^
Good stuff 30!
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I'm glad I got some support here and some new brothers to guide me in the right direction. When I went to get in my truck this morning to workout my brother left me a brand new can of Copenhagen on the hood of my truck. He thinks this shit is funny. I think he's worried I'm going to accomplish something he can't. What a prick.
First 3 days suck period. It gets better in a hurry.
There will be those things that turn your particular dip sensors on that will take longer to shake but getting the brutal physical portion out of the way (first few days) makes it much easier to fight these off.
For me it is the smell of diesel fumes from my days in the motorpool or sitting in a golf cart. If I smell diesel fumes I immediately think of shooting big bullets and dip or cigarettes.
The biggest mistake you can make is the one I made about 8 years ago. I had been clean for 5 years and thought I could handle 1 dip. If you take away one and only 1 thing from anyone here, understand this: YOU CAN NOT PUT THAT SHIT IN YOUR MOUTH EVER AGAIN if you want to stay QUIT.
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There is no tomorrow. There is no next week or next year, here at KTC. There is only today. Thinking about forever is too daunting for us. It leads to thinking that you can't do this. That's just her whispering in your ear. Do this today. Be here and be accountable today. That's all we ask. You don't have to quit forever anyway. You're gonna die of something else long before forever gets here.
#comfortingwords
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Note to Self:
Brian, if you've come back to this post your mind is fucking with you right now. You want to cave. That voice inside your head is telling you "just one dip. One more dip and I'll leave you alone. You've proved to yourself you can stop if you want, so what's the harm of just one more dip?" Well guess what mother fucker, one dip is what got you here. One drink is what led to this. 20 years of this shit. 20 years you selfish prick, and why? Because it made you feel better? Because you thought you weren't doing any harm to yourself or the people you love? You fucked up. You fucked up 20 years of your life and now you're reading this thinking about fucking up another 20. Bullshit. You just made it through the toughest 4 days you may ever have to face, and there is no way you'll ever find the motivation to go through that again. If you made it yesterday you can definitely make it today. Tomorrow? Who fucking cares about Tomorrow. You might be dead tomorrow. Get through today, that's all I'm asking of you. Don't ever forget what this shit did to you. You're life revolved around this shit and you were miserable. Don't ever forget that. You made yourself a promise and you're going to stick with it. Day 5 and this is probably the best you have felt since you were a young teenager. The physical withdrawal of alcohol and nicotine has subsided. You feel fantastic right now. Don't fuck this up. Not even once. Once got you here. I plead with you, Do not listen to the voices trying to talk you into a cave. You're in control. You can do this. If you fail you know deep inside you'll never get here again. Be strong. One day at a time.
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Exactly right Brian! You are over the worst. Now its just winning back control of your mind. You got this!
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Note to Self:
Brian, if you've come back to this post your mind is fucking with you right now. You want to cave. That voice inside your head is telling you "just one dip. One more dip and I'll leave you alone. You've proved to yourself you can stop if you want, so what's the harm of just one more dip?" Well guess what mother fucker, one dip is what got you here. One drink is what led to this. 20 years of this shit. 20 years you selfish prick, and why? Because it made you feel better? Because you thought you weren't doing any harm to yourself or the people you love? You fucked up. You fucked up 20 years of your life and now you're reading this thinking about fucking up another 20. Bullshit. You just made it through the toughest 4 days you may ever have to face, and there is no way you'll ever find the motivation to go through that again. If you made it yesterday you can definitely make it today. Tomorrow? Who fucking cares about Tomorrow. You might be dead tomorrow. Get through today, that's all I'm asking of you. Don't ever forget what this shit did to you. You're life revolved around this shit and you were miserable. Don't ever forget that. You made yourself a promise and you're going to stick with it. Day 5 and this is probably the best you have felt since you were a young teenager. The physical withdrawal of alcohol and nicotine has subsided. You feel fantastic right now. Don't fuck this up. Not even once. Once got you here. I plead with you, Do not listen to the voices trying to talk you into a cave. You're in control. You can do this. If you fail you know deep inside you'll never get here again. Be strong. One day at a time.
Goddamn if that didn't just give me a chill. Thanks for that, Heisenberg. The real you is starting to take over and is pummeling the shit out of the addict side.
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Day 7.
I would be lying if I didn't say that the first 6 days felt like six weeks. Minutes can feel like hours and hours like days. But in the midst of this battle I can say without a doubt that I'm feeling a little better everyday. Three things have got me to day 7 and these three things alone. 1). One day at a time. The second I start thinking about a future hunt coming up, a trip, an event ect. My mind starts playing tricks on me..."How are you going to have a good time without a dip" "How you gonna prepare for that without some nicotine". As I begin to regress I just have to stop immediately, remind myself that I'm quitting for today, and carry on with my quit. Don't worry about tomorrow, worry about today. 2). Be alert and ready for the craving to hit you like a ton of bricks. As soon as I start thinking to myself "hey I'm feeling pretty damn good, I can't believe it's taking me so long to quit the shit", out of nowhere and I mean nowhere, a fucking craving bites me like a snake. And if I hadn't read as much as I have preparing for this quit, I can honestly say I would have caved at least six times by now. I knew it would come and I knew I'd have to do battle if I wanted to stay clean another day. 3) KTC. You've saved my life (Newbies and Vets alike). Everyday I find at least one post that has given me the inspiration to carry me through another day. More times than not it's a post from an addict who has caved. As troubling as it is to hear, you can learn a lot about yourself and your quit from a caver, no doubt about it.
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Day 7.
I would be lying if I didn't say that the first 6 days felt like six weeks. Minutes can feel like hours and hours like days. But in the midst of this battle I can say without a doubt that I'm feeling a little better everyday. Three things have got me to day 7 and these three things alone. 1). One day at a time. The second I start thinking about a future hunt coming up, a trip, an event ect. My mind starts playing tricks on me..."How are you going to have a good time without a dip" "How you gonna prepare for that without some nicotine". As I begin to regress I just have to stop immediately, remind myself that I'm quitting for today, and carry on with my quit. Don't worry about tomorrow, worry about today. 2). Be alert and ready for the craving to hit you like a ton of bricks. As soon as I start thinking to myself "hey I'm feeling pretty damn good, I can't believe it's taking me so long to quit the shit", out of nowhere and I mean nowhere, a fucking craving bites me like a snake. And if I hadn't read as much as I have preparing for this quit, I can honestly say I would have caved at least six times by now. I knew it would come and I knew I'd have to do battle if I wanted to stay clean another day. 3) KTC. You've saved my life (Newbies and Vets alike). Everyday I find at least one post that has given me the inspiration to carry me through another day. More times than not it's a post from an addict who has caved. As troubling as it is to hear, you can learn a lot about yourself and your quit from a caver, no doubt about it.
Great to hear Heisenberg! And congratulations on making it one week. I'm sure you're well aware, but it's just a small drop in the bucket. Still, a great accomplishment and I'm very happy for you! Keep going strong and quit on!!
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Day 7.
I would be lying if I didn't say that the first 6 days felt like six weeks. Minutes can feel like hours and hours like days. But in the midst of this battle I can say without a doubt that I'm feeling a little better everyday. Three things have got me to day 7 and these three things alone. 1). One day at a time. The second I start thinking about a future hunt coming up, a trip, an event ect. My mind starts playing tricks on me..."How are you going to have a good time without a dip" "How you gonna prepare for that without some nicotine". As I begin to regress I just have to stop immediately, remind myself that I'm quitting for today, and carry on with my quit. Don't worry about tomorrow, worry about today. 2). Be alert and ready for the craving to hit you like a ton of bricks. As soon as I start thinking to myself "hey I'm feeling pretty damn good, I can't believe it's taking me so long to quit the shit", out of nowhere and I mean nowhere, a fucking craving bites me like a snake. And if I hadn't read as much as I have preparing for this quit, I can honestly say I would have caved at least six times by now. I knew it would come and I knew I'd have to do battle if I wanted to stay clean another day. 3) KTC. You've saved my life (Newbies and Vets alike). Everyday I find at least one post that has given me the inspiration to carry me through another day. More times than not it's a post from an addict who has caved. As troubling as it is to hear, you can learn a lot about yourself and your quit from a caver, no doubt about it.
Great to hear Heisenberg! And congratulations on making it one week. I'm sure you're well aware, but it's just a small drop in the bucket. Still, a great accomplishment and I'm very happy for you! Keep going strong and quit on!!
And I will also add #1 is definitely helpful. I have found myself wondering the same things. Or worried about what will happen at this/that event. I've learned to not worry and take this quit "one day at a time"
I'll cross the bridge when it gets here. Great point!
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Day 7.
I would be lying if I didn't say that the first 6 days felt like six weeks. Minutes can feel like hours and hours like days. But in the midst of this battle I can say without a doubt that I'm feeling a little better everyday. Three things have got me to day 7 and these three things alone. 1). One day at a time. The second I start thinking about a future hunt coming up, a trip, an event ect. My mind starts playing tricks on me..."How are you going to have a good time without a dip" "How you gonna prepare for that without some nicotine". As I begin to regress I just have to stop immediately, remind myself that I'm quitting for today, and carry on with my quit. Don't worry about tomorrow, worry about today. 2). Be alert and ready for the craving to hit you like a ton of bricks. As soon as I start thinking to myself "hey I'm feeling pretty damn good, I can't believe it's taking me so long to quit the shit", out of nowhere and I mean nowhere, a fucking craving bites me like a snake. And if I hadn't read as much as I have preparing for this quit, I can honestly say I would have caved at least six times by now. I knew it would come and I knew I'd have to do battle if I wanted to stay clean another day. 3) KTC. You've saved my life (Newbies and Vets alike). Everyday I find at least one post that has given me the inspiration to carry me through another day. More times than not it's a post from an addict who has caved. As troubling as it is to hear, you can learn a lot about yourself and your quit from a caver, no doubt about it.
I learn as much from you, the one and done caver, or a Comma'ed vet everyday. The fact that we can talk to someone else who is, or has been through a quit is awesome.
Learn from everyone here. We lost a HoF'er in July on Monday. What did I learn? That he did not buy in to the KTC even after 140 days, and that the other July quitters just got a jolt, and for that we are tighter. I also learned I never want to be the guy that disaapears, and leaves 30+ brother hanging out there wondering WTF happened. It sucks, but we learned from it.
Day 7 is bad ass, and I quit with you Mr. White.
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More times than not it's a post from an addict who has caved. As troubling as it is to hear, you can learn a lot about yourself and your quit from a caver, no doubt about it.
Badass, Heisenberg. That's it right there. Fighting nicotine addiction doesn't happen in a vacuum and it isn't a singular event. A huge part of waging this battle every day comes from learning from your own past mistakes as well as the past, present, and ongoing mistakes of others.
You know what brought me here to this site? A cave nearly 9 years ago after I had stopped smoking for 4.5 years prior to that. We're addicts, plain and simple. For us, there is no "out of the woods."
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More times than not it's a post from an addict who has caved. As troubling as it is to hear, you can learn a lot about yourself and your quit from a caver, no doubt about it.
Badass, Heisenberg. That's it right there. Fighting nicotine addiction doesn't happen in a vacuum and it isn't a singular event. A huge part of waging this battle every day comes from learning from your own past mistakes as well as the past, present, and ongoing mistakes of others.
You know what brought me here to this site? A cave nearly 9 years ago after I had stopped smoking for 4.5 years prior to that. We're addicts, plain and simple. For us, there is no "out of the woods."
Nice intro. Nice note to self post that I could hear Walter White saying as I was reading. You're past the toughest days and you should feel top of the mountain proud of getting nic out of your system. From here on it's head games.
1. I do not regret for a second the pain of quitting. The pain tells me I am winning. Daily.
2. It pissed me off to no end early on when vets would say it gets better. I wanted to reach through my computer screen and get them in a strangle hold and knock their teeth out. They were not lying. It's happening slower than I would like but I remain quit ODAAT because I know it will continue to get better. I will not lose this fight.
3. Your brother is a prick. Buy a bottle of vagina cleansing douche and leave in on his car. Maybe a summer jasmine scent.
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More times than not it's a post from an addict who has caved. As troubling as it is to hear, you can learn a lot about yourself and your quit from a caver, no doubt about it.
Badass, Heisenberg. That's it right there. Fighting nicotine addiction doesn't happen in a vacuum and it isn't a singular event. A huge part of waging this battle every day comes from learning from your own past mistakes as well as the past, present, and ongoing mistakes of others.
You know what brought me here to this site? A cave nearly 9 years ago after I had stopped smoking for 4.5 years prior to that. We're addicts, plain and simple. For us, there is no "out of the woods."
Nice intro. Nice note to self post that I could hear Walter White saying as I was reading. You're past the toughest days and you should feel top of the mountain proud of getting nic out of your system. From here on it's head games.
1. I do not regret for a second the pain of quitting. The pain tells me I am winning. Daily.
2. It pissed me off to no end early on when vets would say it gets better. I wanted to reach through my computer screen and get them in a strangle hold and knock their teeth out. They were not lying. It's happening slower than I would like but I remain quit ODAAT because I know it will continue to get better. I will not lose this fight.
3. Your brother is a prick. Buy a bottle of vagina cleansing douche and leave in on his car. Maybe a summer jasmine scent.
Thanks everyone for your support and encouragement. I should of posted this earlier but I forgot...My brother was not the culprit of the can of Copenhagen on the hood of my truck. A good friend of mine was bumming dips off me a few weeks before I quit and he was just giving me a new can as a thank you. He didn't realize that I quit. I told him I used it to fertilize the grapefruit tree.
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The second I start thinking about a future hunt coming up, a trip, an event ect. My mind starts playing tricks on me..."How are you going to have a good time without a dip" "How you gonna prepare for that without some nicotine"
I just got back from my first hunting trip without crap in my mouth. Beforehand I had the same thoughts about not being able to enjoy hunting without a dip until a really simple thought popped into my head that changed everything. "I love to hunt, why do I need poison in my mouth to enjoy it?" I know its a not a mind blowing, earth shattering revelation but its the truth and it worked. I also planned ahead and took plenty of fake dip and let several quit brothers know where I was going to be and stayed in contact with them while I was there. I know the mantra here is ODAAT and I wholeheartedly agree with it but I think there are times that planning ahead is good idea especially when it comes to activities that have been strongly associated with dipping in the past.
hang in there bro! you got a quit going on that Walter White would be proud of!
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I learn something new everyday. Thanks for the advice and the tools to help me win this fight.
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I thought I could log in this morning and post roll like I have for the last 13 days and carry on like I was still quit, still fighting tooth and nail with my addiction to nicotine and alcohol to stay clean....But the truth is I'm nothing but a fraud. A pathetic Caver. I'm not the man I thought I was, the fighter I thought I was. Just a weak ass slave to the addiction. I've read, I've exchanged digits (which I never used), I posted roll everyday, congratulated fellow quit brothers on some milestones, but it wasn't enough for me. I planed this quit for over a week before I felt like I was strong enough to make a daily commitment to a thousand people I never met, to my wife and kids, and most importantly myself. I would apologize to every single one of you in person if I could, but I know you wouldn't give a shit, but my deepest apologies anyway. Yes, you have wasted your time with an addict. Will I be back? Will I beg you all for another chance? No. I'm embarrassed and ashamed of who I am. I've talked a lot of shit pumping myself up for this quit. I joined a gym and worked out everyday. I bought all the recommended vitamins. I consumed over a gallon of water everyday. For the past week I've read the Curt Shilling story, Tony Gwenn story, the kern story over and over again and thought "Wow I can't believe I was doing that to myself and my family", but yet, here I am. I've read the three questions we ask over and over to cavers and now that I'm in their shoes I know deep inside, that I can't answer those questions. I just don't know, don't have a single answer. Why did I cave? I'm an addict who gave in. Did I think I could just have one? NO, but I posted roll anyway hoping someway, somehow a greater power would take over and put me back on track. But you know as well as I do that I have a big fatty in right now as I sit here writing this. Am I looking for sympathy? Fuck no. In fact, I know by informing you of my cave, there will nothing but negativity thrown my way and what a piece of shit I am. My intention was to just log off and never show my face in here again. BUT, I want to help just that one person. I hope this intro will help that one guy, who's thinking about caving, think twice. Don't be a pussy like me. Don't let the addiction control your life. Fight, scrap, claw your way out. My 12 1/2 days were tough, but awesome at the same time. I wish I had more fight in me, but we all know I'm done. I said I'd be done if I caved and I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. If there is just one guy out there willing to pray for me I ask to do so. God is my only hope now. Again, I apologize and wish you all nothing but the best in your quit.
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Takes balls to post this. It is pretty shitty that you are typing this with the cancer dirt in your mouth. I thought you were doing well...disappointed.
Answer the 3 questions...this is a start. Think about your answers. Come back address November/December, and fight for your life.
Read this
single/?p=8509617t=10447702 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=8509617&t=10447702)
It ain't gonna be easy to face the group and supporters you have let down, but you will come out the other side stronger.
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I thought I could log in this morning and post roll like I have for the last 13 days and carry on like I was still quit, still fighting tooth and nail with my addiction to nicotine and alcohol to stay clean....But the truth is I'm nothing but a fraud. A pathetic Caver. I'm not the man I thought I was, the fighter I thought I was. Just a weak ass slave to the addiction. I've read, I've exchanged digits (which I never used), I posted roll everyday, congratulated fellow quit brothers on some milestones, but it wasn't enough for me. I planed this quit for over a week before I felt like I was strong enough to make a daily commitment to a thousand people I never met, to my wife and kids, and most importantly myself. I would apologize to every single one of you in person if I could, but I know you wouldn't give a shit, but my deepest apologies anyway. Yes, you have wasted your time with an addict. Will I be back? Will I beg you all for another chance? No. I'm embarrassed and ashamed of who I am. I've talked a lot of shit pumping myself up for this quit. I joined a gym and worked out everyday. I bought all the recommended vitamins. I consumed over a gallon of water everyday. For the past week I've read the Curt Shilling story, Tony Gwenn story, the kern story over and over again and thought "Wow I can't believe I was doing that to myself and my family", but yet, here I am. I've read the three questions we ask over and over to cavers and now that I'm in their shoes I know deep inside, that I can't answer those questions. I just don't know, don't have a single answer. Why did I cave? I'm an addict who gave in. Did I think I could just have one? NO, but I posted roll anyway hoping someway, somehow a greater power would take over and put me back on track. But you know as well as I do that I have a big fatty in right now as I sit here writing this. Am I looking for sympathy? Fuck no. In fact, I know by informing you of my cave, there will nothing but negativity thrown my way and what a piece of shit I am. My intention was to just log off and never show my face in here again. BUT, I want to help just that one person. I hope this intro will help that one guy, who's thinking about caving, think twice. Don't be a pussy like me. Don't let the addiction control your life. Fight, scrap, claw your way out. My 12 1/2 days were tough, but awesome at the same time. I wish I had more fight in me, but we all know I'm done. I said I'd be done if I caved and I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. If there is just one guy out there willing to pray for me I ask to do so. God is my only hope now. Again, I apologize and wish you all nothing but the best in your quit.
We're all embarrassed and ashamed dude. You fucked up, learn from it, answer the three questions to your group with sincerity and honesty and post day 1 with your new group. Get back on the fucking horse. If you don't then you REALLY have something to be ashamed of
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I thought I could log in this morning and post roll like I have for the last 13 days and carry on like I was still quit, still fighting tooth and nail with my addiction to nicotine and alcohol to stay clean....But the truth is I'm nothing but a fraud. A pathetic Caver. I'm not the man I thought I was, the fighter I thought I was. Just a weak ass slave to the addiction. I've read, I've exchanged digits (which I never used), I posted roll everyday, congratulated fellow quit brothers on some milestones, but it wasn't enough for me. I planed this quit for over a week before I felt like I was strong enough to make a daily commitment to a thousand people I never met, to my wife and kids, and most importantly myself. I would apologize to every single one of you in person if I could, but I know you wouldn't give a shit, but my deepest apologies anyway. Yes, you have wasted your time with an addict. Will I be back? Will I beg you all for another chance? No. I'm embarrassed and ashamed of who I am. I've talked a lot of shit pumping myself up for this quit. I joined a gym and worked out everyday. I bought all the recommended vitamins. I consumed over a gallon of water everyday. For the past week I've read the Curt Shilling story, Tony Gwenn story, the kern story over and over again and thought "Wow I can't believe I was doing that to myself and my family", but yet, here I am. I've read the three questions we ask over and over to cavers and now that I'm in their shoes I know deep inside, that I can't answer those questions. I just don't know, don't have a single answer. Why did I cave? I'm an addict who gave in. Did I think I could just have one? NO, but I posted roll anyway hoping someway, somehow a greater power would take over and put me back on track. But you know as well as I do that I have a big fatty in right now as I sit here writing this. Am I looking for sympathy? Fuck no. In fact, I know by informing you of my cave, there will nothing but negativity thrown my way and what a piece of shit I am. My intention was to just log off and never show my face in here again. BUT, I want to help just that one person. I hope this intro will help that one guy, who's thinking about caving, think twice. Don't be a pussy like me. Don't let the addiction control your life. Fight, scrap, claw your way out. My 12 1/2 days were tough, but awesome at the same time. I wish I had more fight in me, but we all know I'm done. I said I'd be done if I caved and I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. If there is just one guy out there willing to pray for me I ask to do so. God is my only hope now. Again, I apologize and wish you all nothing but the best in your quit.
We're all embarrassed and ashamed dude. You fucked up, learn from it, answer the three questions to your group with sincerity and honesty and post day 1 with your new group. Get back on the fucking horse. If you don't then you REALLY have something to be ashamed of
God is my only hope now. Again, I apologize and wish you all nothing but the best in your quit.
That's bullshit and you know it. God didn't make you come here, and God didn't make you put that poison in your lip this morning.
Pull your head out of your ass, and get into December, take your medicine, and start being a man.
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I thought I could log in this morning and post roll like I have for the last 13 days and carry on like I was still quit, still fighting tooth and nail with my addiction to nicotine and alcohol to stay clean....But the truth is I'm nothing but a fraud. A pathetic Caver. I'm not the man I thought I was, the fighter I thought I was. Just a weak ass slave to the addiction. I've read, I've exchanged digits (which I never used), I posted roll everyday, congratulated fellow quit brothers on some milestones, but it wasn't enough for me. I planed this quit for over a week before I felt like I was strong enough to make a daily commitment to a thousand people I never met, to my wife and kids, and most importantly myself. I would apologize to every single one of you in person if I could, but I know you wouldn't give a shit, but my deepest apologies anyway. Yes, you have wasted your time with an addict. Will I be back? Will I beg you all for another chance? No. I'm embarrassed and ashamed of who I am. I've talked a lot of shit pumping myself up for this quit. I joined a gym and worked out everyday. I bought all the recommended vitamins. I consumed over a gallon of water everyday. For the past week I've read the Curt Shilling story, Tony Gwenn story, the kern story over and over again and thought "Wow I can't believe I was doing that to myself and my family", but yet, here I am. I've read the three questions we ask over and over to cavers and now that I'm in their shoes I know deep inside, that I can't answer those questions. I just don't know, don't have a single answer. Why did I cave? I'm an addict who gave in. Did I think I could just have one? NO, but I posted roll anyway hoping someway, somehow a greater power would take over and put me back on track. But you know as well as I do that I have a big fatty in right now as I sit here writing this. Am I looking for sympathy? Fuck no. In fact, I know by informing you of my cave, there will nothing but negativity thrown my way and what a piece of shit I am. My intention was to just log off and never show my face in here again. BUT, I want to help just that one person. I hope this intro will help that one guy, who's thinking about caving, think twice. Don't be a pussy like me. Don't let the addiction control your life. Fight, scrap, claw your way out. My 12 1/2 days were tough, but awesome at the same time. I wish I had more fight in me, but we all know I'm done. I said I'd be done if I caved and I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. If there is just one guy out there willing to pray for me I ask to do so. God is my only hope now. Again, I apologize and wish you all nothing but the best in your quit.
We're all embarrassed and ashamed dude. You fucked up, learn from it, answer the three questions to your group with sincerity and honesty and post day 1 with your new group. Get back on the fucking horse. If you don't then you REALLY have something to be ashamed of
God is my only hope now. Again, I apologize and wish you all nothing but the best in your quit.
That's bullshit and you know it. God didn't make you come here, and God didn't make you put that poison in your lip this morning.
Pull your head out of your ass, and get into December, take your medicine, and start being a man.
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Pick yourself up. Dust yourself off. Grow a pair.
Feel free to put your faith in God, but God gives us free will. He expects you to use that. He doesn't accept that you "are weak". You are in control of your actions, and we all know that. You know what we can learn from this so far?
We can learn that it's real easy to brandish the tools learned here. It's real easy to talk a big game. But what I learned the most is that you don't have a fucking clue how to use those tools when needed. Did you call? Did you text? Did you post in the emergency thread? Did you go to chat? Did you even have a plan?
Nope. You caved.
Pick yourself up. Dust yourself off. Grow a pair.
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This is the pussyiest post I have ever read. You think you're fucking special? "If this helps just one person...." :vomit.
Grow the Fuck Up. You want to keep packing and scraping your lip every morning, then by all means get after it. Drink your booze too. Fuck anyone who is offering you help. But do not EVER bring this juvenile, attention-seeking, lack of personal responsibility, addict speak in here again.
Quitting has been an will always be about BALLS.
BIG HAIRY FUCKING MOUNTAIN YAK BALLS.
'Finger'
Vadge 957.
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Note to Self:
Brian, if you've come back to this post your mind is fucking with you right now. You want to cave. That voice inside your head is telling you "just one dip. One more dip and I'll leave you alone. You've proved to yourself you can stop if you want, so what's the harm of just one more dip?" Well guess what mother fucker, one dip is what got you here. One drink is what led to this. 20 years of this shit. 20 years you selfish prick, and why? Because it made you feel better? Because you thought you weren't doing any harm to yourself or the people you love? You fucked up. You fucked up 20 years of your life and now you're reading this thinking about fucking up another 20. Bullshit. You just made it through the toughest 4 days you may ever have to face, and there is no way you'll ever find the motivation to go through that again. If you made it yesterday you can definitely make it today. Tomorrow? Who fucking cares about Tomorrow. You might be dead tomorrow. Get through today, that's all I'm asking of you. Don't ever forget what this shit did to you. You're life revolved around this shit and you were miserable. Don't ever forget that. You made yourself a promise and you're going to stick with it. Day 5 and this is probably the best you have felt since you were a young teenager. The physical withdrawal of alcohol and nicotine has subsided. You feel fantastic right now. Don't fuck this up. Not even once. Once got you here. I plead with you, Do not listen to the voices trying to talk you into a cave. You're in control. You can do this. If you fail you know deep inside you'll never get here again. Be strong. One day at a time.
Goddamn if that didn't just give me a chill. Thanks for that, Heisenberg. The real you is starting to take over and is pummeling the shit out of the addict side.
Well, you fucked up.
Spare us the self-immolation bullshit. It's not like we were going to mount your rotting, fetid quit attempt carcass out on a pike to serve as a "warning" to other noobs. You give yourself far too much credit.
In reality, you will be quickly forgotten the moment you walk out that door. A veritable popcorn fart caver in the spacetime fabric of KTC.
You made us a promise and you chose to break it. Plain and simple. You had a fucking goldmine of excellent choices at your disposal, and only one truly bad one. Guess which one you went with.
Maybe you'll luck out and catch lightning in a bottle again someday and come to the same moment of rational clarity that you did 13 days ago. Maybe. Until then, know that you have allowed the addict back in the driver's seat. Allow that to sink in, because that is exactly how I will frame and define you.
Thank you for making my quit stronger today.
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I've exchanged digits (which I never used)
From what I've seen you did everything right but this^^ Quitting CANNOT be done alone.
Noobs take notice: digits don't mean crap if you don't use them! Texting and calling turns accountability partners that you've never met into friends that will save your butt!
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Note to Self:
Brian, if you've come back to this post your mind is fucking with you right now. You want to cave. That voice inside your head is telling you "just one dip. One more dip and I'll leave you alone. You've proved to yourself you can stop if you want, so what's the harm of just one more dip?" Well guess what mother fucker, one dip is what got you here. One drink is what led to this. 20 years of this shit. 20 years you selfish prick, and why? Because it made you feel better? Because you thought you weren't doing any harm to yourself or the people you love? You fucked up. You fucked up 20 years of your life and now you're reading this thinking about fucking up another 20. Bullshit. You just made it through the toughest 4 days you may ever have to face, and there is no way you'll ever find the motivation to go through that again. If you made it yesterday you can definitely make it today. Tomorrow? Who fucking cares about Tomorrow. You might be dead tomorrow. Get through today, that's all I'm asking of you. Don't ever forget what this shit did to you. You're life revolved around this shit and you were miserable. Don't ever forget that. You made yourself a promise and you're going to stick with it. Day 5 and this is probably the best you have felt since you were a young teenager. The physical withdrawal of alcohol and nicotine has subsided. You feel fantastic right now. Don't fuck this up. Not even once. Once got you here. I plead with you, Do not listen to the voices trying to talk you into a cave. You're in control. You can do this. If you fail you know deep inside you'll never get here again. Be strong. One day at a time.
Goddamn if that didn't just give me a chill. Thanks for that, Heisenberg. The real you is starting to take over and is pummeling the shit out of the addict side.
Well, you fucked up.
Spare us the self-immolation bullshit. It's not like we were going to mount your rotting, fetid quit attempt carcass out on a pike to serve as a "warning" to other noobs. You give yourself far too much credit.
In reality, you will be quickly forgotten the moment you walk out that door. A veritable popcorn fart caver in the spacetime fabric of KTC.
You made us a promise and you chose to break it. Plain and simple. You had a fucking goldmine of excellent choices at your disposal, and only one truly bad one. Guess which one you went with.
Maybe you'll luck out and catch lightning in a bottle again someday and come to the same moment of rational clarity that you did 13 days ago. Maybe. Until then, know that you have allowed the addict back in the driver's seat. Allow that to sink in, because that is exactly how I will frame and define you.
Thank you for making my quit stronger today.
Why would ye come back and post that garbage. Ye know damn well ye still want to quit. God won't help ye, prayer won't help ye. Sacking up and understanding where ye went pete tong will help ye. Ye posted this because ye still want to quit. Ye are a fanny flaps that's for sure. Eat y'r cack buttie and get back on the horse. Goat romper.
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Its a shame that you choose to be owned by addiction that can be defeated... you were 12-0 and then threw the game.
I read somewhere that it takes an average of 3 years for someone who failed the quit to try again. Here's to three more years of slavery. 3 more years of playing hide and seek from cancer, 3 more years of feeling like a worthless piece of shit every time you stuff your lip with dogshit.
The saddest part of all? It is completely self-inflicted... completely preventable.
P.S. If you ever post here again, at least have the respect to spit that shit out of your lip first 'Finger'
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Sad, disappointing....a shame.
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Another victim to the nic bitch. Damn frustrating. All the tools and resources a person needs is right here.
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P.S. If you ever post here again, at least have the respect to spit that shit out of your lip first 'Finger'
Oh, and this right here ^^^
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I remember when I.first saw this site in 2012, I was amazed at how many people were able to quit an addiction I didn't think I could live without feeding. On 2/7/14 I believed someone who said "if I can do this, you can too." In quitting, like life, there are good days and bad days. Days 1- 20 are hard, but it gets do much better. Leave or stay, it is just like the decision to be quit, only you can make it.
If only I would have done that in 2012....I could be celebrating 800 days instead of 200...and saved $3,000...
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Too much pride to save your life? Pick up your skirt, answer the 3 questions, and get your ass into December.
Do not come back here ever again with a dip in your mouth though. As long as that is happening, you are not welcome.
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You keep acting like you have no control. Bullshit.
You keep putting faith in someone other than yourself when it comes to physical actions. Bullshit.
You keep talking about helping "just one." How about you make that just one yourself? I am a damn selfish quitter, always looking out for #1 first.
For fucks sake, all you have to do is climb the walls, rant, run, eat, scream, whatever for a bit when it comes to a crave. You chose to make a stop and get a can and feed the addiction; guess what, cancer cant be beat with ranting, raving, running, eating, etc. Chemo / radiation / amputation is a real motherfucker.
In the end, we are all going to quit. I choose to do it on my terms, and I will deal with God's choices when the time comes. You choose to roll the dice and will quit on a doctor's table. Good luck with that. Make sure you hug and kiss your wife and kids while you can. Tick tock.
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I posted this in the November Quit group, but maybe Heisenberg isn't going over there any longer. So here is my rant and hopefully you read it.
I know that piece of shit Heisenberg is probably a 1000 miles away from me, but I feel like I just got kicked in the balls by him. What an asshole and what a ridiculous, pussy post to let us know he caved. Man up you pussy and be a man to your wife and a father to your kids. Maybe get off your ass and back off from your computer, go look at some pictures of your wife and kids and take the fucking fatty out of your mouth and be done with it. Grow a set of balls. I'm not sure you realize how pathetic you sounded, but take the shit out of your mouth and start your quit again. Maybe in 100 days you can look back at this day, at yourself and all of us and say, "You know what, that was the best damn day of my life, because that day saved my life" But until you grow a sack and man up, you are on a straight path to death. I know I don't say much on this site. I read, educate myself, post roll early and every fucking day, and text about 5 brothers daily to see how they are doing. They do the same. Couple vets have taken me under their wings, which I truly appreciate it. But I am in a fucking rotten mood today because of Heisenberg's post. Here is another reason why besides the fact he is a piece of shit with now willpower. I found out about 4 hours ago my buddy, who was in my wedding, his wife has Stage 3 breast cancer. yep, stage 3 out of 4. She is only 40 fucking years old Does she smoke? Nope, she is a dentist and a health freak. 2 little kids. So she got cancer and is in for the battle of her life, and probably has more willpower to beat cancer than Heisenberg does to beat his addictin, even though her odds are probably a 1000 times worse than yours to beat it. So hopefully that will bring you to reality you piece of shit. Man up. My friend might have to raise his kids by himself one day. You want to do that to your wife? ask yourself that the next time you go to put a big fat wad of poison in your mouth.
Flannywho is out and pissed!
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Guys, re-read his initial post. His brother lasted 5 days. He lasted 12. Now he has bragging rights in the family, and we all lost spending time on him. It was all a game from the get go, I am moving on now.
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I wish I had more fight in me, but we all know I'm done. I said I'd be done if I caved and I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel. If there is just one guy out there willing to pray for me I ask to do so. God is my only hope now. Again, I apologize and wish you all nothing but the best in your quit.
Oh give me a break, princess. So, you're just giving up. You failed, we all know that, but now you're just gonna come on here, talk about typing this with shit in your mouth and say you are trying to help people? Haven't you noticed that dudes who don't have shit in their mouths and haven't for over 200 days are trying to help people and they still don't get it? And you and your massive fucking ego thinks you can come and here and make yourself out to be some sort of saving grace because you offer an example to others even at your worst? No, dude, that is not an example, that is a miserable failure trying to find some self effacing redeeming quality in his deplorable actions. If you want to set an example, own this quit. Post a Day 1, show some fucking resolve and quit again, today, right now. Do it. You don't have to decide that you aren't good enough to quit, but in order to do so YOU MUST DECIDE THAT YOU WILL QUIT.
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Guys, re-read his initial post. His brother lasted 5 days. He lasted 12. Now he has bragging rights in the family, and we all lost spending time on him. It was all a game from the get go, I am moving on now.
I tend to agree here. I think it's a waste. That was his final visit. I don't see him coming back to check any of this.
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You keep acting like you have no control. Bullshit.
You keep putting faith in someone other than yourself when it comes to physical actions. Bullshit.
You keep talking about helping "just one." How about you make that just one yourself? I am a damn selfish quitter, always looking out for #1 first.
For fucks sake, all you have to do is climb the walls, rant, run, eat, scream, whatever for a bit when it comes to a crave. You chose to make a stop and get a can and feed the addiction; guess what, cancer cant be beat with ranting, raving, running, eating, etc. Chemo / radiation / amputation is a real motherfucker.
In the end, we are all going to quit. I choose to do it on my terms, and I will deal with God's choices when the time comes. You choose to roll the dice and will quit on a doctor's table. Good luck with that. Make sure you hug and kiss your wife and kids while you can. Tick tock.
Check, Check and Check... God was there with him when he put his first dip in. Not much use praying to him to get him to stop. He has to do this himself....
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Pathetic. Not even worthy of pity.
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Fog rage omitted.
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You keep acting like you have no control. Bullshit.
You keep putting faith in someone other than yourself when it comes to physical actions. Bullshit.
You keep talking about helping "just one." How about you make that just one yourself? I am a damn selfish quitter, always looking out for #1 first.
For fucks sake, all you have to do is climb the walls, rant, run, eat, scream, whatever for a bit when it comes to a crave. You chose to make a stop and get a can and feed the addiction; guess what, cancer cant be beat with ranting, raving, running, eating, etc. Chemo / radiation / amputation is a real motherfucker.
In the end, we are all going to quit. I choose to do it on my terms, and I will deal with God's choices when the time comes. You choose to roll the dice and will quit on a doctor's table. Good luck with that. Make sure you hug and kiss your wife and kids while you can. Tick tock.
That is the cold hard truth. Everyone controls their own destiny with the choices they make. You made your choice. Don't you dare blame God or anyone else while they are removing half of your GOD DAMN face. You selfish pussy.
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This is the pussyiest post I have ever read. You think you're fucking special? "If this helps just one person...." :vomit.
Grow the Fuck Up. You want to keep packing and scraping your lip every morning, then by all means get after it. Drink your booze too. Fuck anyone who is offering you help. But do not EVER bring this juvenile, attention-seeking, lack of personal responsibility, addict speak in here again.
Quitting has been an will always be about BALLS.
BIG HAIRY FUCKING MOUNTAIN YAK BALLS.
'Finger'
Vadge 957.
You will only "be quit" when you've acknowledged the You're an addict and decide to do something about it.
Slavery or Freedom. The choice is ours to make ODAAT.
I choose freedom with all KTC quitters who posted this a.m.
My quit group is still strong after more than 2 years. If we can do it, so can You.
Do or Do Not, There is no Try.
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If any of y'all have Heisenberg's number you need to be blowing up his phone. I doubt he's ever gonna see any of these posts. At least not until he drags his butt back here 2 years and 800 cans later.
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You're not "more addicted" than any of us. I hope you don't have that same defeatist attitude in other aspects of your life. And please don't come back here telling us you're sucking off Nic as you type. What a turd move.
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Man... I had a really rough day 12 too..
Difference is I put on my big boy panties and fucking dealt with it. I may have been in the fetal position in the corner crying, but guess who got to post Day 71 this morning... This guy ;-)
Put on your big boy panties, answer the 3, and post up in Dec... Grow up and stop being a drama queen.
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After reading about the caves today - I am sad.
I know exactly what you are going through. I've been there. What you do right now though will resonate into your future. I know you have shame and you are embarrassed. Great. Get your ass in December 14 and post your day 1. This isn't a license to be a fucking waste of space and keep dipping. How does that work anyways? "Oh, fuck me, I didn't mean to dip. I guess I'll just dip for a few more months? Ha, I'm such a silly bitch!" Fuck that. I was that bitch, but you don't have to be. Be a fucking man and go post day 1.
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pretty pathetic to read this... i'm on Day 12 and feel like dog shit, and the only thing my mind is telling me is "put a big fatty in your mouth and that headache of yours will be long gone"
FUCK that! i'm staying quit TODAY
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pretty pathetic to read this... i'm on Day 12 and feel like dog shit, and the only thing my mind is telling me is "put a big fatty in your mouth and that headache of yours will be long gone"
FUCK that! i'm staying quit TODAY
Indeed, just keep making a the right decision, and live without regret. In a few days those right decisions will pay huge dividends.
Regrettably, Heisenberg may never know what that feels like.
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pretty pathetic to read this... i'm on Day 12 and feel like dog shit, and the only thing my mind is telling me is "put a big fatty in your mouth and that headache of yours will be long gone"
FUCK that! i'm staying quit TODAY
Indeed, just keep making a the right decision, and live without regret. In a few days those right decisions will pay huge dividends.
Regrettably, Heisenberg may never know what that feels like.
Sure don't look like he will. He hasn't logged on for over 24 hours.
Like Jimmy Buffet said :
"The gross dips and snuffs
Put his ambition at bay
And Summers and Winters
Scattered like splinters
And four or five years slipped away."
See ya in 2019 buddy
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After reading about the caves today - I am sad.
I know exactly what you are going through. I've been there. What you do right now though will resonate into your future. I know you have shame and you are embarrassed. Great. Get your ass in December 14 and post your day 1. This isn't a license to be a fucking waste of space and keep dipping. How does that work anyways? "Oh, fuck me, I didn't mean to dip. I guess I'll just dip for a few more months? Ha, I'm such a silly bitch!" Fuck that. I was that bitch, but you don't have to be. Be a fucking man and go post day 1.
Take Longhorns advice. Although, I doubt you will. Get on the horse, man up, and post. Longhorn was a member of June 14 with me. He caved, disappeared into the shadows. We had all forgot him. We moved on. We gained freedom. We saved money. We saved our health. Low and behold, LH came crawling back here. He'd caved. Pissed on all of us and went back to finger banging a can. We were pissed, I was pissed, that he didn't reach out to us. Guess what though....he's earned my respect back by posting EDD and helping with his groups spreadsheet. We have an understanding that this is his FINAL chance. If he's in trouble, he gets a hold of me or any of his November brothers/sisters. If he pisses away the opportunity this time, I'm turning my back and wishing him well in life as a slave to the can. So instead of being in the upper 100's like myself, LH is set to hit 100 sometime in November.
Cancer isn't a fucking game. Quitting isn't a game. You're personally disrespecting me and other people who are fighting for their lives, who aren't nic users. If you feel like knowing why that disrespects me, send me a PM.
You had 12 days quit. I have 187. You lose. I win.
Time to grow a pair and become a man.
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After reading about the caves today - I am sad.
I know exactly what you are going through. I've been there. What you do right now though will resonate into your future. I know you have shame and you are embarrassed. Great. Get your ass in December 14 and post your day 1. This isn't a license to be a fucking waste of space and keep dipping. How does that work anyways? "Oh, fuck me, I didn't mean to dip. I guess I'll just dip for a few more months? Ha, I'm such a silly bitch!" Fuck that. I was that bitch, but you don't have to be. Be a fucking man and go post day 1.
Take Longhorns advice. Although, I doubt you will. Get on the horse, man up, and post. Longhorn was a member of June 14 with me. He caved, disappeared into the shadows. We had all forgot him. We moved on. We gained freedom. We saved money. We saved our health. Low and behold, LH came crawling back here. He'd caved. Pissed on all of us and went back to finger banging a can. We were pissed, I was pissed, that he didn't reach out to us. Guess what though....he's earned my respect back by posting EDD and helping with his groups spreadsheet. We have an understanding that this is his FINAL chance. If he's in trouble, he gets a hold of me or any of his November brothers/sisters. If he pisses away the opportunity this time, I'm turning my back and wishing him well in life as a slave to the can. So instead of being in the upper 100's like myself, LH is set to hit 100 sometime in November.
Cancer isn't a fucking game. Quitting isn't a game. You're personally disrespecting me and other people who are fighting for their lives, who aren't nic users. If you feel like knowing why that disrespects me, send me a PM.
You had 12 days quit. I have 187. You lose. I win.
Time to grow a pair and become a man.
This guy...fuck him. We have fresh quit in the fog in December Â’14, they earned our support.
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Dear fellow kick ass quitters,
The towel has been thrown in. Leave it lay right there on the floor. Use your energy toward your own quit. If that is solid LF then direct that energy into someone else's. However, don't waste your time here. He isn't ready. None of us can change that.
You can't save them all. Solid truth.