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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: ScrewYouCope on November 19, 2008, 03:45:00 PM
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Hey all,
The names Josh and i live in good 'ol Flagstaff AZ. I'm 27 and have been chewing since about the age of 16. I've quit a couple times for a few months but ended up going back. I've had some minor pain in my neck lately. I'm pretty sure it's nothing but it was enough to make me think, hey what if. I have a finance and 3 year old son. Last night I dumped the can in the toilet and let it rip! My fiance does not know I'm quitting but will find out soon enough. I'm a Sys Admin for a good company and usually chew at work, that's when I decided to surf for a minute and found this place! Wish me luck guys! I do honestly believe with my heart that this is the time to quit! Here goes...
Josh
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Hey man! I Flushed my Griz down the toilet last night too! Good luck! Hopefully we can do this!
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Hey man! I Flushed my Griz down the toilet last night too! Good luck! Hopefully we can do this!
Great decision! One word in your post that bothers me. "Hopefully"? You can do this!
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Hey all,
The names Josh and i live in good 'ol Flagstaff AZ. I'm 27 and have been chewing since about the age of 16. I've quit a couple times for a few months but ended up going back. I've had some minor pain in my neck lately. I'm pretty sure it's nothing but it was enough to make me think, hey what if. I have a finance and 3 year old son. Last night I dumped the can in the toilet and let it rip! My fiance does not know I'm quitting but will find out soon enough. I'm a Sys Admin for a good company and usually chew at work, that's when I decided to surf for a minute and found this place! Wish me luck guys! I do honestly believe with my heart that this is the time to quit! Here goes...
Josh
Josh- You are right. This is the time to quit. Do this for yourself first and foremost. Welcome aboard! Also, there is no "luck" involved in quitting. Now let's get to quitting!
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Hey man! I Flushed my Griz down the toilet last night too! Good luck! Hopefully we can do this!
Great decision! One word in your post that bothers me. "Hopefully"? You can do this!
Ya sorry. I already caught some heat for saying that in the live chat. We're GOING TO quit!
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Thanks for the support guys. Day 1 is going pretty well. The work day is almost done! Then a few hours at home and Day 1 is threw!
Josh
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Great decision about quitting and joining this site. I have only been a member since Monday and everyone I have talked to so far has helped me in some way. This is a great place to be!
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Welcome aboard guys - im at day 103 today and i can honestly say i go days without thinking about dip. It gets longer and longer in between craves each week. Git 'er done boys!
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Hello all,
This is my 2nd introduction. I went through 5 years ago and then caved. I'm now 32 with 2 boys (One 8 and one 2) and am happily married. I am a Web Systems Manager for a well known website. I'm still living in Flagstaff and still rooting for my cowboys.
I'm posting in here the 3 questions that were asked of me when I came back. I have changed these from my original answers based on the feedback I got from my new group. So here goes:
1. what happened?
I have a buddy that can chew whenever he wants. He will chew 1/2 a can one evening while throwing back a few beers. Then he won't chew for a month, then chew once a week. and not do it for 2 months. It doesn't phase him one bit. I thought I could do this after 4+ years. I thought I could control it. Within a month I found out that was not the case and became full blown addicted again.
2. why did it happen?
I'm not going to try to make any excuses as to why it happened. It was a mistake and all I can do is right the mistake.
3. what are you going to do different to make sure it doesn't happen again?
This time around I'm going to continue to post to roll call through my full 100 days. Last time I did 30 and thought it was good enough. I am also going to continue posting after my 100 days as often as I can. I will also provide support for others and continue to stay engaged in the site long after I make the 100 day HOF! I will reach out to more people and try to get to know them better rather than just using the site for my own needs.
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Hello all,
This is my 2nd introduction. I went through 5 years ago and then caved. I'm now 32 with 2 boys (One 8 and one 2) and am happily married. I am a Web Systems Manager for a well known website. I'm still living in Flagstaff and still rooting for my cowboys.
I'm posting in here the 3 questions that were asked of me when I came back. I have changed these from my original answers based on the feedback I got from my new group. So here goes:
1. what happened?
I have a buddy that can chew whenever he wants. He will chew 1/2 a can one evening while throwing back a few beers. Then he won't chew for a month, then chew once a week. and not do it for 2 months. It doesn't phase him one bit. I thought I could do this after 4+ years. I thought I could control it. Within a month I found out that was not the case and became full blown addicted again.
2. why did it happen?
I'm not going to try to make any excuses as to why it happened. It was a mistake and all I can do is right the mistake.
3. what are you going to do different to make sure it doesn't happen again?
This time around I'm going to continue to post to roll call through my full 100 days. Last time I did 30 and thought it was good enough. I am also going to continue posting after my 100 days as often as I can. I will also provide support for others and continue to stay engaged in the site long after I make the 100 day HOF! I will reach out to more people and try to get to know them better rather than just using the site for my own needs.
Well you and I have no history so our sleights are clean. Welcome back to the fight.
You know the drill so not much to advise you on. I am 616 today and still posting. Posting roll has become a routine like brushing my teeth. It is a daily treatment like anti-biotics. It keeps my addiction in remission.
Get used to the daily promise. It doesn't hurt and its so valuable to an addict.
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Hello all,
This is my 2nd introduction. I went through 5 years ago and then caved. I'm now 32 with 2 boys (One 8 and one 2) and am happily married. I am a Web Systems Manager for a well known website. I'm still living in Flagstaff and still rooting for my cowboys.
I'm posting in here the 3 questions that were asked of me when I came back. I have changed these from my original answers based on the feedback I got from my new group. So here goes:
1. what happened?
I have a buddy that can chew whenever he wants. He will chew 1/2 a can one evening while throwing back a few beers. Then he won't chew for a month, then chew once a week. and not do it for 2 months. It doesn't phase him one bit. I thought I could do this after 4+ years. I thought I could control it. Within a month I found out that was not the case and became full blown addicted again.
2. why did it happen?
I'm not going to try to make any excuses as to why it happened. It was a mistake and all I can do is right the mistake.
3. what are you going to do different to make sure it doesn't happen again?
This time around I'm going to continue to post to roll call through my full 100 days. Last time I did 30 and thought it was good enough. I am also going to continue posting after my 100 days as often as I can. I will also provide support for others and continue to stay engaged in the site long after I make the 100 day HOF! I will reach out to more people and try to get to know them better rather than just using the site for my own needs.
I bolded the parts that I have quibbles with. First, more than a mistake, choosing to use nicotine is a dumb/bad/self-destructive choice. Focusing on the choice aspect will help you recognize that your quit is in your control. There are no accidents here. Second, when you get involved here, I think you'll find that you get more back than you put in. That is, you can pay it forward and back for your own selfish reasons, and it's all good.
Finally, is the "well known website" in Arizona Backroom Casting Couch? You have to tell us if it is.
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Hello all,
  This is my 2nd introduction. I went through 5 years ago and then caved. I'm now 32 with 2 boys (One 8 and one 2) and am happily married. I am a Web Systems Manager for a well known website. I'm still living in Flagstaff and still rooting for my cowboys.
  I'm posting in here the 3 questions that were asked of me when I came back. I have changed these from my original answers based on the feedback I got from my new group. So here goes:
1. what happened?
I have a buddy that can chew whenever he wants. He will chew 1/2 a can one evening while throwing back a few beers. Then he won't chew for a month, then chew once a week. and not do it for 2 months. It doesn't phase him one bit. I thought I could do this after 4+ years. I thought I could control it. Within a month I found out that was not the case and became full blown addicted again.
2. why did it happen?
I'm not going to try to make any excuses as to why it happened. It was a mistake and all I can do is right the mistake.
3. what are you going to do different to make sure it doesn't happen again?
This time around I'm going to continue to post to roll call through my full 100 days. Last time I did 30 and thought it was good enough. I am also going to continue posting after my 100 days as often as I can. I will also provide support for others and continue to stay engaged in the site long after I make the 100 day HOF! I will reach out to more people and try to get to know them better rather than just using the site for my own needs.
I bolded the parts that I have quibbles with. First, more than a mistake, choosing to use nicotine is a dumb/bad/self-destructive choice. Focusing on the choice aspect will help you recognize that your quit is in your control. There are no accidents here. Second, when you get involved here, I think you'll find that you get more back than you put in. That is, you can pay it forward and back for your own selfish reasons, and it's all good.
Finally, is the "well known website" in Arizona Backroom Casting Couch? You have to tell us if it is.
Welcome back. I would not deal in absolutes on when you start stop posting roll. Why so firm on just 100. You did 30 last time and that failed. I'd look at this differently. Post roll EDD. Become involved. Exchange numbers with fellow quitters. Give back. Focus on this Quit ODAAT. Don't just pull the rip cord at 100. Stay until you need to stay. This is not a simple equation that you can just say 100 days and I'm cured. If it was... You would not be ringing the front doorbell at KTC for permission to re enter. QLF brother!
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Hello all,
  This is my 2nd introduction. I went through 5 years ago and then caved. I'm now 32 with 2 boys (One 8 and one 2) and am happily married. I am a Web Systems Manager for a well known website. I'm still living in Flagstaff and still rooting for my cowboys.
   I'm posting in here the 3 questions that were asked of me when I came back. I have changed these from my original answers based on the feedback I got from my new group. So here goes:
1. what happened?
I have a buddy that can chew whenever he wants. He will chew 1/2 a can one evening while throwing back a few beers. Then he won't chew for a month, then chew once a week. and not do it for 2 months. It doesn't phase him one bit. I thought I could do this after 4+ years. I thought I could control it. Within a month I found out that was not the case and became full blown addicted again.
2. why did it happen?
I'm not going to try to make any excuses as to why it happened. It was a mistake and all I can do is right the mistake.
3. what are you going to do different to make sure it doesn't happen again?
This time around I'm going to continue to post to roll call through my full 100 days. Last time I did 30 and thought it was good enough. I am also going to continue posting after my 100 days as often as I can. I will also provide support for others and continue to stay engaged in the site long after I make the 100 day HOF! I will reach out to more people and try to get to know them better rather than just using the site for my own needs.
I bolded the parts that I have quibbles with. First, more than a mistake, choosing to use nicotine is a dumb/bad/self-destructive choice. Focusing on the choice aspect will help you recognize that your quit is in your control. There are no accidents here. Second, when you get involved here, I think you'll find that you get more back than you put in. That is, you can pay it forward and back for your own selfish reasons, and it's all good.
Finally, is the "well known website" in Arizona Backroom Casting Couch? You have to tell us if it is.
Welcome back. I would not deal in absolutes on when you start stop posting roll. Why so firm on just 100. You did 30 last time and that failed. I'd look at this differently. Post roll EDD. Become involved. Exchange numbers with fellow quitters. Give back. Focus on this Quit ODAAT. Don't just pull the rip cord at 100. Stay until you need to stay. This is not a simple equation that you can just say 100 days and I'm cured. If it was... You would not be ringing the front doorbell at KTC for permission to re enter. QLF brother!
Thanks for the tips guys. I'm not putting any limit on the number of days I'm going to hit roll call. I'm just gonna keep doing it!
How did you know it was ABCC oneimpressiveball? LOL, I live in AZ and hadn't heard about that website. That's some pretty fucked up shit! Thanks for the encouragement guys.
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Hey screw you... i just wanted to say that. No seriously, you're on the right path. Let me tell you about something I call "quit insurance". I'm at 479 days, which seems like a lot, but really it's not. Five years is a lot. In fact, five years ago, I quit for 1.5 years, on my own. But when things got shitty, I ran to the can. Here at KTC though, I start every day with a promise, to myself and others, that I won't dip. It's my reminder that I have to quit every damn day. And it's also my insurance... I could try to do this on my own, now that I'm almost a year and a half again, but why take the chance? Why not post a promise every day, that takes 5 minutes tops, for some insurance? You're doing the right thing, keep it up.
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Hey screw you... i just wanted to say that. No seriously, you're on the right path. Let me tell you about something I call "quit insurance". I'm at 479 days, which seems like a lot, but really it's not. Five years is a lot. In fact, five years ago, I quit for 1.5 years, on my own. But when things got shitty, I ran to the can. Here at KTC though, I start every day with a promise, to myself and others, that I won't dip. It's my reminder that I have to quit every damn day. And it's also my insurance... I could try to do this on my own, now that I'm almost a year and a half again, but why take the chance? Why not post a promise every day, that takes 5 minutes tops, for some insurance? You're doing the right thing, keep it up.
Thanks Kubiak,
It's good to know I'm not the only asshole that caved at 4+ years. It's also great to know there is a solution to getting past the 4 year mark. I look forward to posting everyday!
Josh
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Glad you found us boys.
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Glad you found us boys.
Welcome Josh to the best of your life. You've got the right attitude, KTC has the right tools. Get your insurance like Kubiak says...it feels sooooooo good to wake every a.m. post roll, keep my word, wake and repeat.
Come on in, the water is fine. The KTC kool-aid is sweet.
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Glad you found us boys.
Welcome Josh to the best of your life. You've got the right attitude, KTC has the right tools. Get your insurance like Kubiak says...it feels sooooooo good to wake every a.m. post roll, keep my word, wake and repeat.
Come on in, the water is fine. The KTC kool-aid is sweet.
Josh, get that insurance and keep it. Swap out that addiction for good. I traded nicotine for KTC and it is one of the best decisions I have ever made. Join us us and stick around.
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Hey screw you... i just wanted to say that. No seriously, you're on the right path. Let me tell you about something I call "quit insurance". I'm at 479 days, which seems like a lot, but really it's not. Five years is a lot. In fact, five years ago, I quit for 1.5 years, on my own. But when things got shitty, I ran to the can. Here at KTC though, I start every day with a promise, to myself and others, that I won't dip. It's my reminder that I have to quit every damn day. And it's also my insurance... I could try to do this on my own, now that I'm almost a year and a half again, but why take the chance? Why not post a promise every day, that takes 5 minutes tops, for some insurance? You're doing the right thing, keep it up.
Thanks Kubiak,
It's good to know I'm not the only asshole that caved at 4+ years. It's also great to know there is a solution to getting past the 4 year mark. I look forward to posting everyday!
Josh
What up? I like where you are going with your name. Your story is hitting home for me. I also caved after years of stopping. I, like you, thought I couldnÂ’t get addicted. I was sooo wrong. We were always addicted and will be forever. That sucks but itÂ’s the truth. Knowing and remembering that truth will keep our quit strong. P.S. Your buddy is addicted also. The fact that he keeps can humping and wonÂ’t quit is the proof. The nic bitch will tell the addict what he wants to hear to get him to continue using. Quit on FFFoQ Brother. PM me if you need another FFFoQ number.
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Hey all,
 The names Josh and i live in good 'ol Flagstaff AZ. I'm 27 and have been chewing since about the age of 16. I've quit a couple times for a few months but ended up going back. I've had some minor pain in my neck lately. I'm pretty sure it's nothing but it was enough to make me think, hey what if. I have a finance and 3 year old son. Last night I dumped the can in the toilet and let it rip! My fiance does not know I'm quitting but will find out soon enough. I'm a Sys Admin for a good company and usually chew at work, that's when I decided to surf for a minute and found this place! Wish me luck guys! I do honestly believe with my heart that this is the time to quit! Here goes...
Josh
Holy shit dude I live in Flagstaff too! I go to NAU! Day 15 here
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Hey all,
 The names Josh and i live in good 'ol Flagstaff AZ. I'm 27 and have been chewing since about the age of 16. I've quit a couple times for a few months but ended up going back. I've had some minor pain in my neck lately. I'm pretty sure it's nothing but it was enough to make me think, hey what if. I have a finance and 3 year old son. Last night I dumped the can in the toilet and let it rip! My fiance does not know I'm quitting but will find out soon enough. I'm a Sys Admin for a good company and usually chew at work, that's when I decided to surf for a minute and found this place! Wish me luck guys! I do honestly believe with my heart that this is the time to quit! Here goes...
Josh
Holy shit dude I live in Flagstaff too! I go to NAU! Day 15 here
You two, need to meet. I can promise it will make your quit stronger. When you look another quitter in the eye and make a promise, it's even better than the brotherhood here. Although this is the most important thing is still roll and KTC, but you get my point.
I quit with you both
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Hey all,
 The names Josh and i live in good 'ol Flagstaff AZ. I'm 27 and have been chewing since about the age of 16. I've quit a couple times for a few months but ended up going back. I've had some minor pain in my neck lately. I'm pretty sure it's nothing but it was enough to make me think, hey what if. I have a finance and 3 year old son. Last night I dumped the can in the toilet and let it rip! My fiance does not know I'm quitting but will find out soon enough. I'm a Sys Admin for a good company and usually chew at work, that's when I decided to surf for a minute and found this place! Wish me luck guys! I do honestly believe with my heart that this is the time to quit! Here goes...
Josh
Holy shit dude I live in Flagstaff too! I go to NAU! Day 15 here
You two, need to meet. I can promise it will make your quit stronger. When you look another quitter in the eye and make a promise, it's even better than the brotherhood here. Although this is the most important thing is still roll and KTC, but you get my point.
I quit with you both
I'm game, I hit ya up via PM CC268! Chat with ya soon!
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Day 25 -
I'm drinking the kool-aid this time. I wanted to drop in and say my quit is going well. I've met lots of new guys and have built up a very good accountability group. I've been more involved in the first 25 days in my quit group than I was in 5 years in my old quit group!
I've learned that I only need to worry about TODAY! Today I will not chew. I want to give a quick thanks to the following MThomas, I hatecope, dave1903, cc268, Mogul, CPoz421, Grizhasclaws, and Jdbubthe2nd for texting with me every day. The group text that we all share are rarely about chewing or cravings (though sometimes it is!) and they don't need to be. Just the fact that I know you guys are all battling addiction with me keeps me strong through the day!
I'm honored to be working our way to the HOF 1 day at a time together! Keep on Quitting you duck fucking quitters! I'm proud to be quit with you all and a member of KTC today!
Yeah yeah I know 'yak', but it's okay to get a bit sentimental once in awhile!
-ScrewYouCope
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Day 25 -
I'm drinking the kool-aid this time. I wanted to drop in and say my quit is going well. I've met lots of new guys and have built up a very good accountability group. I've been more involved in the first 25 days in my quit group than I was in 5 years in my old quit group!
I've learned that I only need to worry about TODAY! Today I will not chew. I want to give a quick thanks to the following MThomas, I hatecope, dave1903, cc268, Mogul, CPoz421, Grizhasclaws, and Jdbubthe2nd for texting with me every day. The group text that we all share are rarely about chewing or cravings (though sometimes it is!) and they don't need to be. Just the fact that I know you guys are all battling addiction with me keeps me strong through the day!
I'm honored to be working our way to the HOF 1 day at a time together! Keep on Quitting you duck fucking quitters! I'm proud to be quit with you all and a member of KTC today!
Yeah yeah I know 'yak', but it's okay to get a bit sentimental once in awhile!
-ScrewYouCope
Hey man anything that works I am glad to be part of the group texting with you and the others keep on quitting brother one day at a time
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Strange thing happened today. I'm 61 days in and I was driving my 2 year old to the sitter this morning and had a craving on the way over. I should mention a few things. First since my cave I was a ninja dipper so my first chew every day was in the morning between dropping my son off and driving to work. 2nd, since my cave I have been petrified of caving again. Because of this fear I have literally carried my can of Smokey Mountain with me every where I go. It has replaced my can of Cope in that pocket morning, noon, and nigh.. In the past 4-6 week I have had roughly used it 4 times. Most of those after a beer or 2.
So there I am craving on the ride over and I figure once I drop the baby off I'll have a Smokey Mountain. So I walk in and do the normal niceties with the sitter and head out to the truck. When I get out there I think to myself, here we go, relief. Then as I start to reach into my pocket several other thoughts go through my head. I don't want to have to clean out my teeth, it's only a 10 minute ride, if I take one I'll drive the long way to work and waste gas. Oh hell, I guess I don't really want one and off I went with no Smokey Mountain.
For me this is another big step, I started to really think about what a choir it is to chew. It really is between finding cans, hiding the shit, trying to focus on traffic while you grasp for a can to spit in, having to find somewhere to spit it out and hope people don't see, then hit the bathroom to make sure you don't have any in your teeth before your first meeting.
I will continue to carry my can of Smokey Mountain until I feel I can leave it, but I really have no desire to chew it either. I wish I could say I was at that point that I despise chew and never ever want one again but I'm not there yet. Someday I know I will hate it and I will get there one day at a time.
I am taking baby steps and am proud of those steps. I wanted to document day 61 so I can look back on it someday!
Quit with all you other great quitters here! Have a great weekend (long weekend for some like myself!), and April if you are reading this, have a plan for this weekend! I do!
ScrewYouCope
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Strange thing happened today. I'm 61 days in and I was driving my 2 year old to the sitter this morning and had a craving on the way over. I should mention a few things. First since my cave I was a ninja dipper so my first chew every day was in the morning between dropping my son off and driving to work. 2nd, since my cave I have been petrified of caving again. Because of this fear I have literally carried my can of Smokey Mountain with me every where I go. It has replaced my can of Cope in that pocket morning, noon, and nigh.. In the past 4-6 week I have had roughly used it 4 times. Most of those after a beer or 2.
So there I am craving on the ride over and I figure once I drop the baby off I'll have a Smokey Mountain. So I walk in and do the normal niceties with the sitter and head out to the truck. When I get out there I think to myself, here we go, relief. Then as I start to reach into my pocket several other thoughts go through my head. I don't want to have to clean out my teeth, it's only a 10 minute ride, if I take one I'll drive the long way to work and waste gas. Oh hell, I guess I don't really want one and off I went with no Smokey Mountain.
For me this is another big step, I started to really think about what a choir it is to chew. It really is between finding cans, hiding the shit, trying to focus on traffic while you grasp for a can to spit in, having to find somewhere to spit it out and hope people don't see, then hit the bathroom to make sure you don't have any in your teeth before your first meeting.
I will continue to carry my can of Smokey Mountain until I feel I can leave it, but I really have no desire to chew it either. I wish I could say I was at that point that I despise chew and never ever want one again but I'm not there yet. Someday I know I will hate it and I will get there one day at a time.
I am taking baby steps and am proud of those steps. I wanted to document day 61 so I can look back on it someday!
Quit with all you other great quitters here! Have a great weekend (long weekend for some like myself!), and April if you are reading this, have a plan for this weekend! I do!
ScrewYouCope
You're doing a great job my quit brother. Proud to quit with you.
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Strange thing happened today. I'm 61 days in and I was driving my 2 year old to the sitter this morning and had a craving on the way over. I should mention a few things. First since my cave I was a ninja dipper so my first chew every day was in the morning between dropping my son off and driving to work. 2nd, since my cave I have been petrified of caving again. Because of this fear I have literally carried my can of Smokey Mountain with me every where I go. It has replaced my can of Cope in that pocket morning, noon, and nigh.. In the past 4-6 week I have had roughly used it 4 times. Most of those after a beer or 2.
So there I am craving on the ride over and I figure once I drop the baby off I'll have a Smokey Mountain. So I walk in and do the normal niceties with the sitter and head out to the truck. When I get out there I think to myself, here we go, relief. Then as I start to reach into my pocket several other thoughts go through my head. I don't want to have to clean out my teeth, it's only a 10 minute ride, if I take one I'll drive the long way to work and waste gas. Oh hell, I guess I don't really want one and off I went with no Smokey Mountain.
For me this is another big step, I started to really think about what a choir it is to chew. It really is between finding cans, hiding the shit, trying to focus on traffic while you grasp for a can to spit in, having to find somewhere to spit it out and hope people don't see, then hit the bathroom to make sure you don't have any in your teeth before your first meeting.
I will continue to carry my can of Smokey Mountain until I feel I can leave it, but I really have no desire to chew it either. I wish I could say I was at that point that I despise chew and never ever want one again but I'm not there yet. Someday I know I will hate it and I will get there one day at a time.
I am taking baby steps and am proud of those steps. I wanted to document day 61 so I can look back on it someday!
Quit with all you other great quitters here! Have a great weekend (long weekend for some like myself!), and April if you are reading this, have a plan for this weekend! I do!
ScrewYouCope
You're doing a great job my quit brother. Proud to quit with you.
I love this post. Chewing IS a monstrous pain in the ass. Dude, you're killing it. Stay active and keep quit. Cheers to the small victories.
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Strange thing happened today. I'm 61 days in and I was driving my 2 year old to the sitter this morning and had a craving on the way over. I should mention a few things. First since my cave I was a ninja dipper so my first chew every day was in the morning between dropping my son off and driving to work. 2nd, since my cave I have been petrified of caving again. Because of this fear I have literally carried my can of Smokey Mountain with me every where I go. It has replaced my can of Cope in that pocket morning, noon, and nigh.. In the past 4-6 week I have had roughly used it 4 times. Most of those after a beer or 2.
So there I am craving on the ride over and I figure once I drop the baby off I'll have a Smokey Mountain. So I walk in and do the normal niceties with the sitter and head out to the truck. When I get out there I think to myself, here we go, relief. Then as I start to reach into my pocket several other thoughts go through my head. I don't want to have to clean out my teeth, it's only a 10 minute ride, if I take one I'll drive the long way to work and waste gas. Oh hell, I guess I don't really want one and off I went with no Smokey Mountain.
For me this is another big step, I started to really think about what a choir it is to chew. It really is between finding cans, hiding the shit, trying to focus on traffic while you grasp for a can to spit in, having to find somewhere to spit it out and hope people don't see, then hit the bathroom to make sure you don't have any in your teeth before your first meeting.
I will continue to carry my can of Smokey Mountain until I feel I can leave it, but I really have no desire to chew it either. I wish I could say I was at that point that I despise chew and never ever want one again but I'm not there yet. Someday I know I will hate it and I will get there one day at a time.
I am taking baby steps and am proud of those steps. I wanted to document day 61 so I can look back on it someday!
Quit with all you other great quitters here! Have a great weekend (long weekend for some like myself!), and April if you are reading this, have a plan for this weekend! I do!
ScrewYouCope
You're doing a great job my quit brother. Proud to quit with you.
I love this post. Chewing IS a monstrous pain in the ass. Dude, you're killing it. Stay active and keep quit. Cheers to the small victories.
Awesome quit you got going on,stay doing what your doing you got this.
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Sappy Time!
I'm on day 96 today! It's been a fun ride so far. I wanted to share a quick story. We recently moved my 2 year old from a crib to a toddler bed much to my dismay. I have no problem with the little guy growing up, but now when he gets up in the morning instead of playing in his crib he comes and crawls in bed with Mama and Daddy. I don't mind him crawling in bed with us, except for the fact that this usually plays out between 5:45 and 6:00 am. My alarm doesn't go off till 6:30 so I always end up waking up earlier than I want to. Most mornings he crawls in and is quite for the first 15-20 minutes and then wants us to turn cartoons on, get him orange juice, and insure we meet his every whim, thus blowing any chance of sleeping until the alarm sounds!!!
This morning was no different, 5:50 AM here comes ScrewYouCope Jr. He crawls between us and lays down. I was awake enough that I was thinking about my HOF coming up and what we should do to celebrate and such. My wife gets out of bed to hit the shower around 6:10. While I was sitting there thinking about the HOF my little guy rolls over and lays on my back (I'm facing away from him) and says, "Daddy, I want cuddle cuddles". How could I resist that request? I roll over and he tucked his little body up to my stomach and put his head right next to me. We sat there cuddling for about 10 minutes until my wife got out of the shower at which point my boy was full blown awake and ready to get the day going.
In those 10 minutes I came to the realization that the HOF is a great accomplishment, but it's just a number. What is most important is I have greatly increased the odds that I will be alive when my 2 year old no longer wants cuddle cuddles and instead wants to borrow the car, or help paying for college, or wants me to watch his 2 year old so he can have some adult time! This means way more to me than the HOF! I don't want to down play the HOF as it's a very solid start to me making sure I'm there for both my boys for years to come! And ghey or sappy or not, I'm gonna enjoy my occasional cuddle cuddles with SYC Jr while I can!
I quit with you all on day 96 and will continue to do so one day at a time!
ScrewYouCope ~ Josh
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Day 204... It's been 108 days since my last intro post! The last 108 have been fairly uneventful. The HOF came and went. The 2nd floor came and went. I'm proud to be a member of both! I just went back and re-read my last post and it hit home again. I want to start by saying that I've been a bit complacent in my last 100 days of posting. I was 100% poster day 1-100. Day 101-200 probably closer to 80%. I should have been 100% considering my 4 year cave I had. Needless to say my quite group including Dave1903 and GrizzClaws have kept me honest.
I can honestly say the last 108 days have been very easy for me. I don't know if that's due to being a retread or not, but I have literally had about 3 cravings in that time that I easily defeated. I'm not going to sit and say I'm cured or I have all the answers. I will however say that I feel I have a solid start on getting tobacco under control. Having re-read my last post I also realized that I don't have a solid grasp on my health. I have read so many books on what it takes to be healthy. The 2 key concepts I have taken away are I need to eat less and move more. This isn't easy for me being an IT guy that sits behind a desk 8 hours a day. I general consume between 2-3K calories between eating out and soda a day. I also roughly take 2-4K steps a day! The research I read has said that to be healthy you should eat less than 2K calories and take 6-10K steps daily. Doing the math math makes for a 5'10" 245 lb fat ass! Needless to say I hate the way I look and the way I feel, and I know that while I'm now tobacco free, that I have only slightly increased the odds of being there for my family as I get older. Now I'm very likely not to die of mouth or throat cancer, but more likely to die from heart failure or some other obesity complication.
It is for that reason that I start my 2nd step of my journey. When I came back to KTC in November of last year I couldn't imagine a day without chewing. I came in and resolved myself not to chew everyday with my quit brothers and sisters. I was dedicated and kicked chews ass! (Feel free to chime in about not getting too confident, I'm always open to feedback!). I now want to start phase 2 with my dedication to eating less. When I say eating less I am committing to eating 2000 calories or less a day moving forward. I'm going to treat it just like I did chew. I'm on vacation this week and today I'm calling my day 1! It's not the best time to start but it's the time I'm starting. There is never a good first day, there's always an excust, so today I will eat less than 2000 calories. I will do this everyday no matter what! Weekends will be hard, drinking beer will be hard! They were when I was chewing too, but I will find a way to make it work! 200 days from now eating less than 2000 calories a day will be as natural as not chewing! I won't even think about it, it will be what it is. Long term I would like to add walking/running/jogging/moving 6000 steps a day as well, but I'm taking it in stages. Come back around day 400!
I will reach out to my quit group to let them know about my commitment and use them as a support group! They got me this far and they will help me get to the next step! Re-reading the last post makes me realize I really do want to be on this earth a long time to watch my kids grow and mature! The only way I can do that is to get truly healthy and this is my next step on my journey! Prepare to see me struggle the next 100 days, and curse, and battle, and win! For those starting their battle with tobacco, please listen to those on the board and kick chew's ass! It's just the beginning of a better life across the board!
Thank you for listening
ScrewYouCope~aka Josh
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Day 204... It's been 108 days since my last intro post! The last 108 have been fairly uneventful. The HOF came and went. The 2nd floor came and went. I'm proud to be a member of both! I just went back and re-read my last post and it hit home again. I want to start by saying that I've been a bit complacent in my last 100 days of posting. I was 100% poster day 1-100. Day 101-200 probably closer to 80%. I should have been 100% considering my 4 year cave I had. Needless to say my quite group including Dave1903 and GrizzClaws have kept me honest.
I can honestly say the last 108 days have been very easy for me. I don't know if that's due to being a retread or not, but I have literally had about 3 cravings in that time that I easily defeated. I'm not going to sit and say I'm cured or I have all the answers. I will however say that I feel I have a solid start on getting tobacco under control. Having re-read my last post I also realized that I don't have a solid grasp on my health. I have read so many books on what it takes to be healthy. The 2 key concepts I have taken away are I need to eat less and move more. This isn't easy for me being an IT guy that sits behind a desk 8 hours a day. I general consume between 2-3K calories between eating out and soda a day. I also roughly take 2-4K steps a day! The research I read has said that to be healthy you should eat less than 2K calories and take 6-10K steps daily. Doing the math math makes for a 5'10" 245 lb fat ass! Needless to say I hate the way I look and the way I feel, and I know that while I'm now tobacco free, that I have only slightly increased the odds of being there for my family as I get older. Now I'm very likely not to die of mouth or throat cancer, but more likely to die from heart failure or some other obesity complication.
It is for that reason that I start my 2nd step of my journey. When I came back to KTC in November of last year I couldn't imagine a day without chewing. I came in and resolved myself not to chew everyday with my quit brothers and sisters. I was dedicated and kicked chews ass! (Feel free to chime in about not getting too confident, I'm always open to feedback!). I now want to start phase 2 with my dedication to eating less. When I say eating less I am committing to eating 2000 calories or less a day moving forward. I'm going to treat it just like I did chew. I'm on vacation this week and today I'm calling my day 1! It's not the best time to start but it's the time I'm starting. There is never a good first day, there's always an excust, so today I will eat less than 2000 calories. I will do this everyday no matter what! Weekends will be hard, drinking beer will be hard! They were when I was chewing too, but I will find a way to make it work! 200 days from now eating less than 2000 calories a day will be as natural as not chewing! I won't even think about it, it will be what it is. Long term I would like to add walking/running/jogging/moving 6000 steps a day as well, but I'm taking it in stages. Come back around day 400!
I will reach out to my quit group to let them know about my commitment and use them as a support group! They got me this far and they will help me get to the next step! Re-reading the last post makes me realize I really do want to be on this earth a long time to watch my kids grow and mature! The only way I can do that is to get truly healthy and this is my next step on my journey! Prepare to see me struggle the next 100 days, and curse, and battle, and win! For those starting their battle with tobacco, please listen to those on the board and kick chew's ass! It's just the beginning of a better life across the board!
Thank you for listening
ScrewYouCope~aka Josh
Hey Josh if you haven't seen it there are a couple of eating better links in the Wildcard section, under "Getting my shit together". Lots of quitters eating right.
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Day 204... It's been 108 days since my last intro post! The last 108 have been fairly uneventful. The HOF came and went. The 2nd floor came and went. I'm proud to be a member of both! I just went back and re-read my last post and it hit home again. I want to start by saying that I've been a bit complacent in my last 100 days of posting. I was 100% poster day 1-100. Day 101-200 probably closer to 80%. I should have been 100% considering my 4 year cave I had. Needless to say my quite group including Dave1903 and GrizzClaws have kept me honest.
I can honestly say the last 108 days have been very easy for me. I don't know if that's due to being a retread or not, but I have literally had about 3 cravings in that time that I easily defeated. I'm not going to sit and say I'm cured or I have all the answers. I will however say that I feel I have a solid start on getting tobacco under control. Having re-read my last post I also realized that I don't have a solid grasp on my health. I have read so many books on what it takes to be healthy. The 2 key concepts I have taken away are I need to eat less and move more. This isn't easy for me being an IT guy that sits behind a desk 8 hours a day. I general consume between 2-3K calories between eating out and soda a day. I also roughly take 2-4K steps a day! The research I read has said that to be healthy you should eat less than 2K calories and take 6-10K steps daily. Doing the math math makes for a 5'10" 245 lb fat ass! Needless to say I hate the way I look and the way I feel, and I know that while I'm now tobacco free, that I have only slightly increased the odds of being there for my family as I get older. Now I'm very likely not to die of mouth or throat cancer, but more likely to die from heart failure or some other obesity complication.
It is for that reason that I start my 2nd step of my journey. When I came back to KTC in November of last year I couldn't imagine a day without chewing. I came in and resolved myself not to chew everyday with my quit brothers and sisters. I was dedicated and kicked chews ass! (Feel free to chime in about not getting too confident, I'm always open to feedback!). I now want to start phase 2 with my dedication to eating less. When I say eating less I am committing to eating 2000 calories or less a day moving forward. I'm going to treat it just like I did chew. I'm on vacation this week and today I'm calling my day 1! It's not the best time to start but it's the time I'm starting. There is never a good first day, there's always an excust, so today I will eat less than 2000 calories. I will do this everyday no matter what! Weekends will be hard, drinking beer will be hard! They were when I was chewing too, but I will find a way to make it work! 200 days from now eating less than 2000 calories a day will be as natural as not chewing! I won't even think about it, it will be what it is. Long term I would like to add walking/running/jogging/moving 6000 steps a day as well, but I'm taking it in stages. Come back around day 400!
I will reach out to my quit group to let them know about my commitment and use them as a support group! They got me this far and they will help me get to the next step! Re-reading the last post makes me realize I really do want to be on this earth a long time to watch my kids grow and mature! The only way I can do that is to get truly healthy and this is my next step on my journey! Prepare to see me struggle the next 100 days, and curse, and battle, and win! For those starting their battle with tobacco, please listen to those on the board and kick chew's ass! It's just the beginning of a better life across the board!
Thank you for listening
ScrewYouCope~aka Josh
Hey Josh if you haven't seen it there are a couple of eating better links in the Wildcard section, under "Getting my shit together". Lots of quitters eating right.
Thanks for taking the time to post this Josh. Heartfelt and honest. I can totally relate. I used to sit at my desk all Day, Dip Constantly, not eat breakfast, go to fast food, go home, drink a couple vodkas, eat a bad dinner and dip until bed. Since the HOF I eat oatmeal every morning, pack my own lunch (no fast food for over 100 days now) I go to the gym 4-5 time a week, eat a much smaller, healthier dinner and almost never drink. Its coming off slowly but surely and eating better, coupled with getting some exercise and not dipping, I feel better than I can ever remember. My point is that if we could stop dipping (the hardest thing I have ever done in my life) we certainly have the strength to get off our fat asses and get moving and eating less and better! You can do this! Quitting dip I think gives us a reason to take stock in other areas of our lives we can work on. I quit my ass off with you today!