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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Compton on February 15, 2016, 02:56:00 PM
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It's been awhile since I've been here -- since June 23, 2014, in fact. I abandoned a 168-day quit on that day, which I had worked so hard to achieve thanks to my brothers in the Resolute Bastards. In the event one of you picks this up, I'm sorry to each and every one of you.
In the 10 months or so since falling off, I have done a lot of analysis regarding how and why it happened. Ultimately, I think I outsmarted myself (or thought I had done so). I had done immense study on the health issues surrounding using dip and/or snus, and my monkey brain somehow rationalized that the health risks did not justify the stress/difficulty of the quit. That's all it took to generate a moment of weakness, and here we are.
The health risks are clearly an important issue, but for me to succeed this time, I need to focus on the issues that really matter to me. And they are, by and large, independent of the health risks:
(i) I want my kids to witness me gain control of, and defeat, something that I do not presently have control of;
(ii) I want to look people in the eye, and flash a warm smile, and try to create warm smiles in response, without feeling self-conscious;
(iii) I want my wife and kids to know that I am in charge of my situation, and by extension, that our lives together are safe, secure and as permanent as the universe will permit;
(iv) I want to be more attractive to my wife, and I want to make out with her whenever the urge strikes me, without she or I worrying about what else was, is, or will be in my mouth.
My nicotine addiction is not something that is going to fix itself or get better with the passage of time. I believe that magical thinking and ignorance create and perpetuate problems, but my unwillingness to apply that logic to my own situation means that I am a hypocrite. Well, I was a hypocrite. I'm going to post roll every day starting today, and in my moments of weakness, I'm going to read these 4 things above, reflect on why I'm going to fix the problem, and push forward. Also, a couple of other tweaks this time: I'm not going to use fake dip or seeds. It helped during the early weeks, but became a crutch and nearly as big of a logistical/aesthetic problem. I'm going to chew the fuck out of some sugar free gum, however. I'm also not going to do any research/reading about nicotine health risks, alternatives, etc. I'm staying out of the debate and focusing on the 4 points above.
In conclusion, it's time for me to be a fucking man. I hope you'll have me back. I also hope you'll be patient with me as a re-learn the ropes.
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Hey Compton, was that your original user name? If not you need to find and use the old one, making another is a no no. If you were here 168 days you know the drill, find your old group, apologize, answer the 3 questions and do the same in May 16. Get the shit done and man the fug up! I'll be waiting to support you!
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Hey Compton, was that your original user name? If not you need to find and use the old one, making another is a no no. If you were here 168 days you know the drill, find your old group, apologize, answer the 3 questions and do the same in May 16. Get the shit done and man the fug up! I'll be waiting to support you!
It's the same account name. Thanks for the reminders, and I'll do as you suggest.
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Hey Compton, was that your original user name? If not you need to find and use the old one, making another is a no no. If you were here 168 days you know the drill, find your old group, apologize, answer the 3 questions and do the same in May 16. Get the shit done and man the fug up! I'll be waiting to support you!
It's the same account name. Thanks for the reminders, and I'll do as you suggest.
Definitely make life easier for you! I Quit with you today!
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Sucks to see that you aren't headed into year 3 with us like you promised. You sound ready to make the effort, but talk is cheap in this house. Get more involved in the site outside of simply posting roll, and make sure a lot of folks in your new group have your number.
Oh and don't fucking use again.
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Starting the Day 2 fog. It was helpful to read my original introduction again this morning, where I gave a blow-by-blow of what the first few weeks were like during my failed quit attempt.
I know I've done this before and that it gets better.
Sticking it here, so I don't lose it:
topic/1011046/1/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1011046/1/)
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Sucks to see that you aren't headed into year 3 with us like you promised. You sound ready to make the effort, but talk is cheap in this house. Get more involved in the site outside of simply posting roll, and make sure a lot of folks in your new group have your number.
Oh and don't fucking use again.
Ugh. Which one of your Resolute Bastards passed thru your mind while you packed your can? How about when you filled your lip? Or even when it started to burn and the rush of nicotine filled your blood? Tell me honestly why you made a willing decision to put that shit in your mouth. Which one of us, along with yourself, didn't matter at that very second?
PS - Thank you for fueling for my quit today. FU Nicotine.
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Sucks to see that you aren't headed into year 3 with us like you promised. You sound ready to make the effort, but talk is cheap in this house. Get more involved in the site outside of simply posting roll, and make sure a lot of folks in your new group have your number.
Oh and don't fucking use again.
Ugh. Which one of your Resolute Bastards passed thru your mind while you packed your can? How about when you filled your lip? Or even when it started to burn and the rush of nicotine filled your blood? Tell me honestly why you made a willing decision to put that shit in your mouth. Which one of us, along with yourself, didn't matter at that very second?
PS - Thank you for fueling for my quit today. FU Nicotine.
This right here is why I believe that your new quit, which I hope is your real quit, should include a minimum of two daily posts. One with your new group and one with your old group. missed out on some awesome quit and I would wager a bet that some from your original group could use a new motivation and daily reason to only quit and never stop. Caving sucks, but at least you are battling back. Glad to see you back and remember these days because nicotine never really did anything for you, she just mindfucked the shit out of you.
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Sucks to see that you aren't headed into year 3 with us like you promised. You sound ready to make the effort, but talk is cheap in this house. Get more involved in the site outside of simply posting roll, and make sure a lot of folks in your new group have your number.
Oh and don't fucking use again.
Ugh. Which one of your Resolute Bastards passed thru your mind while you packed your can? How about when you filled your lip? Or even when it started to burn and the rush of nicotine filled your blood? Tell me honestly why you made a willing decision to put that shit in your mouth. Which one of us, along with yourself, didn't matter at that very second?
PS - Thank you for fueling for my quit today. FU Nicotine.
This right here is why I believe that your new quit, which I hope is your real quit, should include a minimum of two daily posts. One with your new group and one with your old group. missed out on some awesome quit and I would wager a bet that some from your original group could use a new motivation and daily reason to only quit and never stop. Caving sucks, but at least you are battling back. Glad to see you back and remember these days because nicotine never really did anything for you, she just mindfucked the shit out of you.
Good ideas, but I'm getting mindfucked hard right now, so for now just putting thoughts here. Driving home tonight, I was thinking about the resistance/hurt feelings/posts by my old group members like ginet. I totally understand where everyone is coming from, but by the time my drive ended I had resigned myself to fail again. Shit, how quckly the mindfuckin can happen.
I caught the self-mindfucking in action and came here to share. I'm not going to fail tonight. +1 is just a few hours away.
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Sucks to see that you aren't headed into year 3 with us like you promised. You sound ready to make the effort, but talk is cheap in this house. Get more involved in the site outside of simply posting roll, and make sure a lot of folks in your new group have your number.
Oh and don't fucking use again.
Ugh. Which one of your Resolute Bastards passed thru your mind while you packed your can? How about when you filled your lip? Or even when it started to burn and the rush of nicotine filled your blood? Tell me honestly why you made a willing decision to put that shit in your mouth. Which one of us, along with yourself, didn't matter at that very second?
PS - Thank you for fueling for my quit today. FU Nicotine.
This right here is why I believe that your new quit, which I hope is your real quit, should include a minimum of two daily posts. One with your new group and one with your old group. missed out on some awesome quit and I would wager a bet that some from your original group could use a new motivation and daily reason to only quit and never stop. Caving sucks, but at least you are battling back. Glad to see you back and remember these days because nicotine never really did anything for you, she just mindfucked the shit out of you.
Good ideas, but I'm getting mindfucked hard right now, so for now just putting thoughts here. Driving home tonight, I was thinking about the resistance/hurt feelings/posts by my old group members like ginet. I totally understand where everyone is coming from, but by the time my drive ended I had resigned myself to fail again. Shit, how quckly the mindfuckin can happen.
I caught the self-mindfucking in action and came here to share. I'm not going to fail tonight. +1 is just a few hours away.
That is winning. Next time, when you are feeling that close to failure again, and we know it will happen.....remind yourself of your promise and reach out to any single life line here. One life line is in your inbox. The only rule to having my number is this: you must use that number prior to buying a can, taking a dip, having a smoke, sucking a vape, slapping on a patch, poppin' some gum, or using any form of nicotine. At that time, give me what you feel is a valid reason for using. You must get my permission to use. Take that for accountability. Quit on. Resolute LF.
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Sucks to see that you aren't headed into year 3 with us like you promised. You sound ready to make the effort, but talk is cheap in this house. Get more involved in the site outside of simply posting roll, and make sure a lot of folks in your new group have your number.
Oh and don't fucking use again.
Ugh. Which one of your Resolute Bastards passed thru your mind while you packed your can? How about when you filled your lip? Or even when it started to burn and the rush of nicotine filled your blood? Tell me honestly why you made a willing decision to put that shit in your mouth. Which one of us, along with yourself, didn't matter at that very second?
PS - Thank you for fueling for my quit today. FU Nicotine.
This right here is why I believe that your new quit, which I hope is your real quit, should include a minimum of two daily posts. One with your new group and one with your old group. missed out on some awesome quit and I would wager a bet that some from your original group could use a new motivation and daily reason to only quit and never stop. Caving sucks, but at least you are battling back. Glad to see you back and remember these days because nicotine never really did anything for you, she just mindfucked the shit out of you.
Good ideas, but I'm getting mindfucked hard right now, so for now just putting thoughts here. Driving home tonight, I was thinking about the resistance/hurt feelings/posts by my old group members like ginet. I totally understand where everyone is coming from, but by the time my drive ended I had resigned myself to fail again. Shit, how quckly the mindfuckin can happen.
I caught the self-mindfucking in action and came here to share. I'm not going to fail tonight. +1 is just a few hours away.
That is winning. Next time, when you are feeling that close to failure again, and we know it will happen.....remind yourself of your promise and reach out to any single life line here. One life line is in your inbox. The only rule to having my number is this: you must use that number prior to buying a can, taking a dip, having a smoke, sucking a vape, slapping on a patch, poppin' some gum, or using any form of nicotine. At that time, give me what you feel is a valid reason for using. You must get my permission to use. Take that for accountability. Quit on. Resolute LF.
Thanks, Ginet. That really means a lot.
I made it through last night, and am feeling okay for now. Less foggy than I remember day 3 being the last time around. I'm still having a hard time getting real work done, but am looking forward to crushing it at the gym at lunch time.
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Sucks to see that you aren't headed into year 3 with us like you promised. You sound ready to make the effort, but talk is cheap in this house. Get more involved in the site outside of simply posting roll, and make sure a lot of folks in your new group have your number.
Oh and don't fucking use again.
Ugh. Which one of your Resolute Bastards passed thru your mind while you packed your can? How about when you filled your lip? Or even when it started to burn and the rush of nicotine filled your blood? Tell me honestly why you made a willing decision to put that shit in your mouth. Which one of us, along with yourself, didn't matter at that very second?
PS - Thank you for fueling for my quit today. FU Nicotine.
This right here is why I believe that your new quit, which I hope is your real quit, should include a minimum of two daily posts. One with your new group and one with your old group. missed out on some awesome quit and I would wager a bet that some from your original group could use a new motivation and daily reason to only quit and never stop. Caving sucks, but at least you are battling back. Glad to see you back and remember these days because nicotine never really did anything for you, she just mindfucked the shit out of you.
Good ideas, but I'm getting mindfucked hard right now, so for now just putting thoughts here. Driving home tonight, I was thinking about the resistance/hurt feelings/posts by my old group members like ginet. I totally understand where everyone is coming from, but by the time my drive ended I had resigned myself to fail again. Shit, how quckly the mindfuckin can happen.
I caught the self-mindfucking in action and came here to share. I'm not going to fail tonight. +1 is just a few hours away.
That is winning. Next time, when you are feeling that close to failure again, and we know it will happen.....remind yourself of your promise and reach out to any single life line here. One life line is in your inbox. The only rule to having my number is this: you must use that number prior to buying a can, taking a dip, having a smoke, sucking a vape, slapping on a patch, poppin' some gum, or using any form of nicotine. At that time, give me what you feel is a valid reason for using. You must get my permission to use. Take that for accountability. Quit on. Resolute LF.
Thanks, Ginet. That really means a lot.
I made it through last night, and am feeling okay for now. Less foggy than I remember day 3 being the last time around. I'm still having a hard time getting real work done, but am looking forward to crushing it at the gym at lunch time.
From what I can see you are really feeling the suck this time. Keep recording all of this as I am sure it will only help you build up a better resolve to quit this time. I sure as fuck gained some resolve today just from reading it in conjunction with the to the point Gauntlet thrown down by the lovely GiNet.
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Today is day 4. I had a cave dream last night. I used to hate them, but compared to "cave reality," it really felt nice. Feeling strong this morning.
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Today is day 4. I had a cave dream last night. I used to hate them, but compared to "cave reality," it really felt nice. Feeling strong this morning.
I'm also on day 4 in my third attempt to quit. My last quit attempt got me to 42 days. I got cocky and thought that I was strong enough to have a chew while drinking on a Friday night and forget about it come Saturday morning. Well I was right but then Sunday morning rolled around and I bought a can thinking I'd just have a couple chews a week. Well one thing led to another and I was right back to a can or a little more than a can a day.
This time I can't allow myself to cave. I have to have back surgery and nicotine can prevent bone from healing properly. I need this surgery to go well because I can't handle the constant pain for much longer.
I wish you the best. Are you also part of the May 2016 HOF group?
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7:30 pm EST and no roll post. This is a quit I'm supposed to believe in?
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7:30 pm EST and no roll post. This is a quit I'm supposed to believe in?
...And I don't see him on roll today either. WTF.
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7:30 pm EST and no roll post. This is a quit I'm supposed to believe in?
...And I don't see him on roll today either. WTF.
Words don't mean shit. Clearly he was just talking out of his butt. Didn't make an effort to build his web in April '14 and didn't in his new group either (as no one has his number).
Don't be like this guy, new quitters. Make sure at least 5 people in your group have your number, and hold them accountable each day.
Brotherhood + Accountability = Success
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7:30 pm EST and no roll post. This is a quit I'm supposed to believe in?
Come on KO ZC, we don't post on weekends....do we???? Sarcasm
WTF Compton??? Why the hell are we bothering to check on you when you don't even give a shit to post roll over the weekend, or did you just have a few day stop and then nuzzle up to the bitch again??? Grow a set!
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7:30 pm EST and no roll post. This is a quit I'm supposed to believe in?
Come on KO ZC, we don't post on weekends....do we???? Sarcasm
WTF Compton??? Why the hell are we bothering to check on you when you don't even give a shit to post roll over the weekend, or did you just have a few day stop and then nuzzle up to the bitch again??? Grow a set!
I know "Compton". Grew up in the same small town and graduated from the same high school. He was a year younger than me and super smart. He went on to graduate from the University of Michigan and is now a lawyer.
Thinking maybe he out smarted himself. Perhaps went on-line and gathered a ton of data and determined that dipping really wasn't that bad for you, so he justified going back to the can again.
Pretty obvious that deep down he knows that his life would be better off without it...hence his "comeback".
A few problems though...I think he's severely underestimating the power of addicting and besides that I don't think he really wants to quit.
Talking about quitting is easy. Putting in the work and actually doing it is hard. When the novelty of quitting wears off and you realize, "oh man, this shit is REAL" those who truly want to quit find a way to remain so. Those who don't find a way back to the can.
Looks like in this case, despite the big talk, the juice wasn't worth the squeeze to Compton.
Damn shame, I was really pulling for him.
Quit on...
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7:30 pm EST and no roll post. This is a quit I'm supposed to believe in?
Come on KO ZC, we don't post on weekends....do we???? Sarcasm
WTF Compton??? Why the hell are we bothering to check on you when you don't even give a shit to post roll over the weekend, or did you just have a few day stop and then nuzzle up to the bitch again??? Grow a set!
I know "Compton". Grew up in the same small town and graduated from the same high school. He was a year younger than me and super smart. He went on to graduate from the University of Michigan and is now a lawyer.
Thinking maybe he out smarted himself. Perhaps went on-line and gathered a ton of data and determined that dipping really wasn't that bad for you, so he justified going back to the can again.
Pretty obvious that deep down he knows that his life would be better off without it...hence his "comeback".
A few problems though...I think he's severely underestimating the power of addicting and besides that I don't think he really wants to quit.
Talking about quitting is easy. Putting in the work and actually doing it is hard. When the novelty of quitting wears off and you realize, "oh man, this shit is REAL" those who truly want to quit find a way to remain so. Those who don't find a way back to the can.
Looks like in this case, despite the big talk, the juice wasn't worth the squeeze to Compton.
Damn shame, I was really pulling for him.
Quit on...
Reading this is why I come here. I find no joy in the failure of others. It reminds me how difficult this addiction really is and
how hard it is to beat. Having examples like this in front of me strengthen my quit. Quit on Brothers!!
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Pretty fuckin disappointing. You have to be pretty smart to be a lawyer but pretty stupid to say all that stuff on the 15th, then run back and throw some cat shit in your mouth till your jaw falls off. I guarantee you'll rationalize how it isn't that bad for you until all of a sudden...it gets pretty fuckin bad (sore gums, cheeks, stained teeth). I did the same thing, and you don't realize where you are until you stop. Get your head screwed on straight
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7:30 pm EST and no roll post. This is a quit I'm supposed to believe in?
Come on KO ZC, we don't post on weekends....do we???? Sarcasm
WTF Compton??? Why the hell are we bothering to check on you when you don't even give a shit to post roll over the weekend, or did you just have a few day stop and then nuzzle up to the bitch again??? Grow a set!
I know "Compton". Grew up in the same small town and graduated from the same high school. He was a year younger than me and super smart. He went on to graduate from the University of Michigan and is now a lawyer.
Thinking maybe he out smarted himself. Perhaps went on-line and gathered a ton of data and determined that dipping really wasn't that bad for you, so he justified going back to the can again.
Pretty obvious that deep down he knows that his life would be better off without it...hence his "comeback".
A few problems though...I think he's severely underestimating the power of addicting and besides that I don't think he really wants to quit.
Talking about quitting is easy. Putting in the work and actually doing it is hard. When the novelty of quitting wears off and you realize, "oh man, this shit is REAL" those who truly want to quit find a way to remain so. Those who don't find a way back to the can.
Looks like in this case, despite the big talk, the juice wasn't worth the squeeze to Compton.
Damn shame, I was really pulling for him.
Quit on...
Reading this is why I come here. I find no joy in the failure of others. It reminds me how difficult this addiction really is and
how hard it is to beat. Having examples like this in front of me strengthen my quit. Quit on Brothers!!
Damn.....just...... Damn! The tin wins again!
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I'm 39, married with two little girls who have just become aware of my habit, which i always promised would motivate a quit. Well, here we are. I have been dipping a can of Kodiak per day since I was 19. After an unrelated medical issue landed me in a hospital for several days this week, I had lots of time to ruminate on my life, how lucky I am, and how I need to put this self-destructive habit behind me for good.
I had my last dip yesterday, 1/7/14. I'm just passing the 24 hour mark, and it sucks.
I promise to get through today.
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Welcome to the April 2014 group Brother! Go to the Welcome area and learn about Posting Roll where you will put in your name and day every day. Posting Roll is the one most important thing you do on here. It is where you commit to the rest of us in your group that you quit today.
I quit with you today!
Apogeeammo cowboy
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I'm 39, married with two little girls who have just become aware of my habit, which i always promised would motivate a quit. Well, here we are. I have been dipping a can of Kodiak per day since I was 19. After an unrelated medical issue landed me in a hospital for several days this week, I had lots of time to ruminate on my life, how lucky I am, and how I need to put this self-destructive habit behind me for good.
I had my last dip yesterday, 1/7/14. I'm just passing the 24 hour mark, and it sucks.
I promise to get through today.
Way to go Compton! That is how it's done! As crazy as this sounds, if you are committed to this, posting roll will help you the most of anything you can do for yourself. Keep in mind this is a nicotine free site so you have to chunk all forms of this drug to be good here(I mean patches, gum, whatever)! Other than that that if you need anything pm me!!!!
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I'm 39, married with two little girls who have just become aware of my habit, which i always promised would motivate a quit. Well, here we are. I have been dipping a can of Kodiak per day since I was 19. After an unrelated medical issue landed me in a hospital for several days this week, I had lots of time to ruminate on my life, how lucky I am, and how I need to put this self-destructive habit behind me for good.
I had my last dip yesterday, 1/7/14. I'm just passing the 24 hour mark, and it sucks.
I promise to get through today.
Way to go Compton! That is how it's done! As crazy as this sounds, if you are committed to this, posting roll will help you the most of anything you can do for yourself. Keep in mind this is a nicotine free site so you have to chunk all forms of this drug to be good here(I mean patches, gum, whatever)! Other than that that if you need anything pm me!!!!
Worry about being quit today. Tomorrow is a non issue. Just put your heart, mind and might into surviving today. Once you win and claim victory today. You put another notch on your belt.
No thinking you are quit forever...for now....You only promise you will be quit on Today's
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Thanks guys. I think I figured out the roll thing, and I intend to do this with no patches/gums/etc. I want out entirely.
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Welcome aboard Compton...and nice job of posting your Day 2 today. Since you have posted roll, I want to take a moment to explain the rationale behind why we do it and what it means to us. Roll is your daily promise to yourself and all of your new brothers and sisters that you will not use tobacco in any form that day. You will post your name and the number of days you are quit each day in the April, 2014 quit group. Each and every day you will post your promise. No exceptions. That is the price of admission to KTC. Nothing more and nothing less. If your electricity quits working, your internet provider goes bankrupt or you are on vacation and will not have internet access, call or text a quit brother and tell the brother to post for you. Simple and easyÂ…and therefore, no reason for not posting roll. The reason you are put in April is that will be the month that you will celebrate being 100 days free of nicotineÂ…your Hall of Fame date. Now, look up at your inbox (1) and you will see a message from me with my telephone number. Call me with any questions or concerns. Congratulations on making the best decision of your life. Wayne
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I'm deep in the Day 3 withdrawal fog, and I really hope it subsides soon. Either way, I'll get through the day. Thank god for this board.
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I'm deep in the Day 3 withdrawal fog, and I really hope it subsides soon. Either way, I'll get through the day. Thank god for this board.
Nicotine takes about 72 hours to leave you body but guess what....your body is use to living on nicotine so it is about to fight you and fight you hard.
I am not trying to scare you or make things sound too hard to do, I just want you to be geared up and prepared.
The next 50-100 days are going to be difficult and you will have many bad days and a few good days. Use those good days to recharge your batteries and prepare for the next round of the fight. Quit one hour at a time, if that's too difficult, quit for one minute at a time.
When you think about it 100 days isn't very long but it can seem like forever when you are in the middle of it. You can do this and I will stand right beside you while you do it.
I need you to be successful so I know that I can stay successful in my quit
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I'm deep in the Day 3 withdrawal fog, and I really hope it subsides soon. Either way, I'll get through the day. Thank god for this board.
Nicotine takes about 72 hours to leave you body but guess what....your body is use to living on nicotine so it is about to fight you and fight you hard.
I am not trying to scare you or make things sound too hard to do, I just want you to be geared up and prepared.
The next 50-100 days are going to be difficult and you will have many bad days and a few good days. Use those good days to recharge your batteries and prepare for the next round of the fight. Quit one hour at a time, if that's too difficult, quit for one minute at a time.
When you think about it 100 days isn't very long but it can seem like forever when you are in the middle of it. You can do this and I will stand right beside you while you do it.
I need you to be successful so I know that I can stay successful in my quit
Stay tough brother. Read all you can on here about nicotine addiction. There are success and failure stories on here. Learn what to do and what not to do. You can do this. Hit me up if you have questions
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I want out entirely.
As you progress and read more and more you will realize this addiction isn't something that you will ever escape from entirely but we can win everyday against it. The grasp my always be their but we can tie the bitches arms everyday by making our daily promise to quit one more day. Have a strong quit day and enjoy the freedom.
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Listen to these vets Compton. They know that which they speak because they've been there and been thru it and can preach what the other side feels like.
You've got a good group of quitters in April 2014. Get in there and mix it up with them and get some numbers so you have support within your group as well.
Thousands of us are quit with you today. I will quit with you any day you're willing to put your life and your family's happiness ahead of a can of poisonous worm dirt.
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I want out entirely.
As you progress and read more and more you will realize this addiction isn't something that you will ever escape from entirely but we can win everyday against it. The grasp my always be their but we can tie the bitches arms everyday by making our daily promise to quit one more day. Have a strong quit day and enjoy the freedom.
Keep it simple Compton.
Post roll, keep your word, wake and repeat.
Post roll, keep your word, wake and repeat.
Post roll, keep your word, wake and repeat.
Post roll, keep your word, wake and repeat.
One day at a time...or one minute at a time...I does get better, we promise.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.
Read everyday in here and gather your weapons of nictotine destruction.
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Thanks everyone for the good advice. Working today is hilarious. It feels like I'm trying to do everything left-handed.
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Thanks everyone for the good advice. Working today is hilarious. It feels like I'm trying to do everything left-handed.
It will feel like that for a few days. Keep looking up at the sky and imagine the day when it all seems that much cleaner and clearer outside. It will happen and it is cool!!!!
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Thanks everyone for the good advice. Working today is hilarious. It feels like I'm trying to do everything left-handed.
It will feel like that for a few days. Keep looking up at the sky and imagine the day when it all seems that much cleaner and clearer outside. It will happen and it is cool!!!!
Enjoy this bro! It's you, healing. Remember this and mark it because you don't ever want to put yourself through this again. Rock on...
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Keep going Compton. Focus on today. You can do today. Today is a great day. Today is THE day. Today is what matters.
See you tomorrow and we will repeat!
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Keep going Compton. Focus on today. You can do today. Today is a great day. Today is THE day. Today is what matters.
See you tomorrow and we will repeat!
Ditto
You follow the plan and its a guaranteed victory over this shitty weed. I have learn what it takes and what I need to do never to hump a can again!
Its all about today. Nothing more or less. Yesterday is done and a building block. Today is the work. Don't be a weather man and give a 7 day forecast that is usually wrong.
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Don't be a weather man and give a 7 day forecast that is usually wrong.Â
Love this one ------^
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Day 4 begins! Actually had a very good night's sleep last night, but still very foggy and unfocused this morning. It doesn't really feel like I should be allowed to drive like this. This is going to be a hard fight, but I'll get through today.
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Day 4 begins! Actually had a very good night's sleep last night, but still very foggy and unfocused this morning. It doesn't really feel like I should be allowed to drive like this. This is going to be a hard fight, but I'll get through today.
You've got this. Beat that NB down today and today only. You're in the worst of it now. Keep piling up the W's and eventually you'll be wiping your ass with the NB (figuratively of course - I don't recommend actually wiping your ass with nic).
Quit with you today.
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Day 4 turned out to be very difficult, but I made it through. I'm somewhat proud of making it this far, but I thought I would feel stronger and better about my progress at this point. It's hard to put how I feel into words.
Just need to get through today, Day 5.
BHM
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Day 4 turned out to be very difficult, but I made it through. I'm somewhat proud of making it this far, but I thought I would feel stronger and better about my progress at this point. It's hard to put how I feel into words.
Just need to get through today, Day 5.
BHM
That's the right idea. Day 4 was one of the worst for me too. The first few weeks for me were a roller coaster, but you're doing the right thing. Stay quit today. Worry about tomorrow if/when it gets here. As Mr. Miyagi says "you must stay FOCUSED"! You're winning today Comp, that's the only thing that matters right now.
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Made it through Day 5, which was much less foggy than 4. It did take a few mouthfuls of sunflower seeds to kill some post-meal cravings. I feel a little weak for resorting to that, but it felt good to walk into a gas station and NOT buy a can of dip.
Like I said yesterday, I'm happy with how this is going but I thought I'd be overwhelmed by a sense of pride and desire to finish strong. Instead, at my weakest moments, I'm actually romanticizing the "old" days and really emotionally missing dip. It sounds crazy to even type that, but that is exactly how I felt, which in turn made me feel like I wasn't really prepared to quit. What a devious set of self-delusions that was. Fortunately, I stuck hard to the quit and all in all Day 5 wasn't that bad. It was just self-reflective and strange.
I think I'm seeing now why the focus needs to be on the short term: quit today, and deal with later later. I do hope that crazy romantic feeling goes away over time though.
I'm going to punch Day 6 in the face today.
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Made it through Day 5, which was much less foggy than 4. It did take a few mouthfuls of sunflower seeds to kill some post-meal cravings. I feel a little weak for resorting to that, but it felt good to walk into a gas station and NOT buy a can of dip.
Like I said yesterday, I'm happy with how this is going but I thought I'd be overwhelmed by a sense of pride and desire to finish strong. Instead, at my weakest moments, I'm actually romanticizing the "old" days and really emotionally missing dip. It sounds crazy to even type that, but that is exactly how I felt, which in turn made me feel like I wasn't really prepared to quit. What a devious set of self-delusions that was. Fortunately, I stuck hard to the quit and all in all Day 5 wasn't that bad. It was just self-reflective and strange.
I think I'm seeing now why the focus needs to be on the short term: quit today, and deal with later later. I do hope that crazy romantic feeling goes away over time though.
I'm going to punch Day 6 in the face today.
This is all really normal stuff. The craves can be tough and thinking about all the times you used to pack your lip with the worm dirt make it tougher.
Like you said, that's why we do things ODAAT. In the worst times, a minute at a time is a more attainable goal. You just have to stick with it, post your roll and keep your promise. Eventually you'll look back on this post and realize just how bad it was before you snatched your life back from the NB. Nice job plowing through Comp. I quit with you today.
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Made it through Day 5, which was much less foggy than 4. It did take a few mouthfuls of sunflower seeds to kill some post-meal cravings. I feel a little weak for resorting to that, but it felt good to walk into a gas station and NOT buy a can of dip.
Like I said yesterday, I'm happy with how this is going but I thought I'd be overwhelmed by a sense of pride and desire to finish strong. Instead, at my weakest moments, I'm actually romanticizing the "old" days and really emotionally missing dip. It sounds crazy to even type that, but that is exactly how I felt, which in turn made me feel like I wasn't really prepared to quit. What a devious set of self-delusions that was. Fortunately, I stuck hard to the quit and all in all Day 5 wasn't that bad. It was just self-reflective and strange.
I think I'm seeing now why the focus needs to be on the short term: quit today, and deal with later later. I do hope that crazy romantic feeling goes away over time though.Â
I'm going to punch Day 6 in the face today.
This is all really normal stuff. The craves can be tough and thinking about all the times you used to pack your lip with the worm dirt make it tougher.
Like you said, that's why we do things ODAAT. In the worst times, a minute at a time is a more attainable goal. You just have to stick with it, post your roll and keep your promise. Eventually you'll look back on this post and realize just how bad it was before you snatched your life back from the NB. Nice job plowing through Comp. I quit with you today.
Hey man, you were not weak resorting to the seeds, you were wise.
and it is that wisdom that will give you the strength to push onward and upward for another +1 today. Well done
Just remember the site here, your brothers, as with the nic out of your system now is the time the rollercoaster begins and the days that you are up and days that you are down start. Hang on and Hang tight.
you can do this. I quit with you today.
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Hey Compton. Congrats on your quit. You seem to really be putting in great effort to battle thru. I am day 16 and I get those same "just broke up with Ms. Nicotine and I miss her" struggles. It's normal. Just another trick she uses to get us to come back. She's a selfish bitch. Stay strong. You don't really miss her. You just need to replace that old bad habit with a new good habit. It WILL come together. She is nothing. We will win. There is no other acceptable outcome! I quit with you!
Ginet
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Thanks, everyone. Onward and upward with today, Day 7. Yesterday was okay. It was helpful being outside and in the fresh air.
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Thanks, everyone. Onward and upward with today, Day 7. Yesterday was okay. It was helpful being outside and in the fresh air.
be sure to exercise , and you'll feel even better. this process will change you to the core if you let it.. proud of you..
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Thanks, everyone. Onward and upward with today, Day 7. Yesterday was okay. It was helpful being outside and in the fresh air.
be sure to exercise , and you'll feel even better. this process will change you to the core if you let it.. proud of you..
I'm working on that too, and it's all kind of related. I have lost a bunch of weight the last few years (about 50 pounds), and have run a few half-marathons. You will not be shocked to learn that a primary objective in losing that weight was to actually delay a meaningful effort to quit dipping ("I just need to prove to myself that I can be that disciplined").
I started having some big time lower back problems this year, and I actually spent three days in a Mexican hospital while on vacation immediately before my quit began dealing with crazy back spasms via a morphine drip. I did some reading while in that hospital bed, and there may be some correlation with nicotine addiction and spinal disc health. That same internet vortex led me to KTC, which is what finally motivated this quit.
Right now, I want nothing more than to go out and run 10 miles to take my mind off of dip. Unfortunately, I need to heal the back up before I can attempt something like that. I gingerly jogged 2 miles last night and it seemed to help on all fronts. Starting guided physical therapy on Wednesday to assist with the lower back issues.
(note: they are also pretty liberal with the morphine in a Mexican hospital; no wonder why my first week was so difficult: I was kicking nicotine and an opiate)
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I got the shit kicked out of me in court today at a 3 hour oral argument, and I have been dreading how I would handle this. I'm now stuck at airport for flight home, walking past stores selling dip. I'm surprisingly rock solid, resolute and not tempted.
If I can get through a day like this, I can get through it all. Day 8 is a victory.
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I got the shit kicked out of me in court today at a 3 hour oral argument, and I have been dreading how I would handle this. I'm now stuck at airport for flight home, walking past stores selling dip. I'm surprisingly rock solid, resolute and not tempted.
If I can get through a day like this, I can get through it all. Day 8 is a victory.
Way to go. You are a quitter!! Congrats on a week. That is a feat.
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I got the shit kicked out of me in court today at a 3 hour oral argument, and I have been dreading how I would handle this. I'm now stuck at airport for flight home, walking past stores selling dip. I'm surprisingly rock solid, resolute and not tempted.Â
If I can get through a day like this, I can get through it all. Day 8 is a victory.
Way to go. You are a quitter!! Congrats on a week. That is a feat.
This is a strong quit you are building. Keep it up! Each new temptation overcome is one more piece of reprogramming accomplished. We have the same career and I know what a day in court with a plane ride home is like when you're using- lots o' prime time alone with the nic mistress. You're scoring some big victories today! Nice job! Glad to be quitting with you!
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I got the shit kicked out of me in court today at a 3 hour oral argument, and I have been dreading how I would handle this. I'm now stuck at airport for flight home, walking past stores selling dip. I'm surprisingly rock solid, resolute and not tempted.Â
If I can get through a day like this, I can get through it all. Day 8 is a victory.
Way to go. You are a quitter!! Congrats on a week. That is a feat.
This is a strong quit you are building. Keep it up! Each new temptation overcome is one more piece of reprogramming accomplished. We have the same career and I know what a day in court with a plane ride home is like when you're using- lots o' prime time alone with the nic mistress. You're scoring some big victories today! Nice job! Glad to be quitting with you!
That kicks ass! Way to turn down the seductress!
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I got the shit kicked out of me in court today at a 3 hour oral argument, and I have been dreading how I would handle this. I'm now stuck at airport for flight home, walking past stores selling dip. I'm surprisingly rock solid, resolute and not tempted.Â
If I can get through a day like this, I can get through it all. Day 8 is a victory.
Way to go. You are a quitter!! Congrats on a week. That is a feat.
This is a strong quit you are building. Keep it up! Each new temptation overcome is one more piece of reprogramming accomplished. We have the same career and I know what a day in court with a plane ride home is like when you're using- lots o' prime time alone with the nic mistress. You're scoring some big victories today! Nice job! Glad to be quitting with you!
That kicks ass! Way to turn down the seductress!
Who knew there were all these attorneys on here??? Nice job shutting it down Comp. That itch before a big court appearance was actually what solidified my addiction shortly after law school. I felt like I needed to relax before going in and getting my butt kicked. Man was I wrong. All I did was increase my heart rate and flirt with cancer that whole time, and I got my butt kicked anyway (the butt kicking has lessened as I've gotten some experience, thank God).
Each time you're tempted and don't cave, that's a W. In fact it's a big MF'in W! Hold tight to them and use them when the suck hits. You've got this and keep that focus. 'Finger' NB!
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I got the shit kicked out of me in court today at a 3 hour oral argument, and I have been dreading how I would handle this. I'm now stuck at airport for flight home, walking past stores selling dip. I'm surprisingly rock solid, resolute and not tempted.Â
If I can get through a day like this, I can get through it all. Day 8 is a victory.
Way to go. You are a quitter!! Congrats on a week. That is a feat.
This is a strong quit you are building. Keep it up! Each new temptation overcome is one more piece of reprogramming accomplished. We have the same career and I know what a day in court with a plane ride home is like when you're using- lots o' prime time alone with the nic mistress. You're scoring some big victories today! Nice job! Glad to be quitting with you!
That kicks ass! Way to turn down the seductress!
Who knew there were all these attorneys on here??? Nice job shutting it down Comp. That itch before a big court appearance was actually what solidified my addiction shortly after law school. I felt like I needed to relax before going in and getting my butt kicked. Man was I wrong. All I did was increase my heart rate and flirt with cancer that whole time, and I got my butt kicked anyway (the butt kicking has lessened as I've gotten some experience, thank God).
Each time you're tempted and don't cave, that's a W. In fact it's a big MF'in W! Hold tight to them and use them when the suck hits. You've got this and keep that focus. 'Finger' NB!
Yeah, dipping as a lawyer seemed weird when I was practicing in Chicago. I moved to Louisville about 5 years ago, and let's just say that it's a lot less out of place.
I'm fired up about entering into double-digits today, Day 10. Also, this just got a lot easier with my discovery of Jim Beam Jalapeno Sunflower Seeds. Thanks, Kentucky!
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Day 11: The Day I Googled "Are Sunflower Seeds Bad For You?"
Quit is strong.
Investment advice: short tobacco stocks, go long in seeds. I may put your kid through college by myself.
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Day 11: The Day I Googled "Are Sunflower Seeds Bad For You?"
Quit is strong.
Investment advice: short tobacco stocks, go long in seeds. I may put your kid through college by myself.
I was going through a bag a day of seeds. Now I'm down to about 2 bags a week. Chomp those fuckers like crazy if it keeps you quit.
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Day 11: The Day I Googled "Are Sunflower Seeds Bad For You?"
Quit is strong.
Investment advice: short tobacco stocks, go long in seeds. I may put your kid through college by myself.
Seeds are high in calcium, and don't cause cancer. Not to mention I ALWAYS have gum for the day.. and seeds for tv time or what have you. I'm never without ALL the kids (nephews nieces) know this.. I'm the gum factory, and buy it by the box.. I figure start them on gum to keep them from something else.. I ask how are you today? They reply good, can I have a piece of gum? Still trying to teach my son how to blow bubbles, he used to copy me spitting on the ground.. I'll take the bubbles any day.. peace
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Lucky 13: First vivid dip dream last night. Fog is pretty much gone, but I feel jittery in situations where I would otherwise have been dipping (right after eating is a big one).
I also picked up a few cans of smokey mountain today. I was going to try to hold off on that for longer, because I'm worried about being stuck with a new gross expensive habit.
Recalling the "whatever it takes" mentality of KTC, I ended up buying some to give the seeds/gum a break. I have to say that I'm very impressed at how realistic the texture and flavor is.
So, all in all, feeling pretty strong heading into the 2-week turn.
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Lucky 13: First vivid dip dream last night. Fog is pretty much gone, but I feel jittery in situations where I would otherwise have been dipping (right after eating is a big one).
I also picked up a few cans of smokey mountain today. I was going to try to hold off on that for longer, because I'm worried about being stuck with a new gross expensive habit.
Recalling the "whatever it takes" mentality of KTC, I ended up buying some to give the seeds/gum a break. I have to say that I'm very impressed at how realistic the texture and flavor is.
So, all in all, feeling pretty strong heading into the 2-week turn.
Two weeks is STRONG.
Don't worry much about the smokey mountain.
Speaking from my own personal experience it's a good pacifier to help with the craves but over time you will develope a "take it or leave it" attitude towards it. I used it for a few months maybe and over time I just got sick of spitting into a bottle and haven't used it since.
Like you said though....whatever it takes.
Quit on...
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Day 16, still feeling strong. PLOWING through seeds/gum/fakedip at record paces. Invest now!
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Day 16, still feeling strong. PLOWING through seeds/gum/fakedip at record paces. Invest now!
I like to read posts like this! Way to go. Shout if you need help.
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Day 18. Still feeling strong. No fog, but still feelilng antsy from time to time. I'm pretty sure I have consumed an entire season's yield of sunflower seeds at this point.
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Day 18. Still feeling strong. No fog, but still feelilng antsy from time to time. I'm pretty sure I have consumed an entire season's yield of sunflower seeds at this point.
Hey this really cracked me up. Then I gotta explain to the guy who walked by my office- wtf-- aint that funny if they can't relate. Don't worry, confidentiality was maintained. Love the avatar too, btw.
Keep up the quit and shout out if you need anything at all to help!
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Day 18. Still feeling strong. No fog, but still feelilng antsy from time to time. I'm pretty sure I have consumed an entire season's yield of sunflower seeds at this point.
Hey this really cracked me up. Then I gotta explain to the guy who walked by my office- wtf-- aint that funny if they can't relate. Don't worry, confidentiality was maintained. Love the avatar too, btw.
Keep up the quit and shout out if you need anything at all to help!
No sweat. I'm not worried about confidentiality. Unlike many of the folks here, I have never been a ninja dipper or a closet quitter. I'm an open book!
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Day 18. Still feeling strong. No fog, but still feelilng antsy from time to time. I'm pretty sure I have consumed an entire season's yield of sunflower seeds at this point.
Hey this really cracked me up. Then I gotta explain to the guy who walked by my office- wtf-- aint that funny if they can't relate. Don't worry, confidentiality was maintained. Love the avatar too, btw.
Keep up the quit and shout out if you need anything at all to help!
No sweat. I'm not worried about confidentiality. Unlike many of the folks here, I have never been a ninja dipper or a closet quitter. I'm an open book!
Welcome to Day 19 Compton - You got a great quit going on!
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Day 18. Still feeling strong. No fog, but still feelilng antsy from time to time. I'm pretty sure I have consumed an entire season's yield of sunflower seeds at this point.
Hey this really cracked me up. Then I gotta explain to the guy who walked by my office- wtf-- aint that funny if they can't relate. Don't worry, confidentiality was maintained. Love the avatar too, btw.
Keep up the quit and shout out if you need anything at all to help!
No sweat. I'm not worried about confidentiality. Unlike many of the folks here, I have never been a ninja dipper or a closet quitter. I'm an open book!
Welcome to Day 19 Compton - You got a great quit going on!
I was like you compton, an open book. I didn't care where and when I chewed. I was such an idiot. How embarrassing it must have been for my wife and kids. I don't have enough time left in my life to make up for the stupid stuff i've put my family through.
My family is so happy that is behind me now. My kids don't have to worry that they are picking up a can full of poison. They don't have to sit at a red light and wonder if I'm going to open the door and spit right there for the world to see. I could go on with this, but i'm making new memories now.
I wish I had all that money back I spent. My oldest is fixing to start college. I could use that $30/40,000.
Our families deserve this quit compton. I know that we quit for ourselves first, but our families benefit in so many ways. Glad to be quit with you.
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21 days. I almost can't believe it.
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21 days. I almost can't believe it.
3 full weeks of quit! Congrats!
Remember... "almost" only counts in horse shoes and hand grenades. As far as quitting... you either are or you are not. I can see that you ARE! So believe it!! You are doing it today.
Keep at it bro! QUit with you all day long!
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Day 25! I've had several "cave nightmares" since this started, but last night I had a dream with a much better twist on the theme. I was sitting around a picnic table with a bunch of high school buddies somewhere near where I grew up (MI). Although the dream took place in a location involving my past, it was a "present tense" dream. In other words, I was about the same age I am now, and we were talking about how I was visiting from KY.
Two guys threw in lippers, and one asked if I wanted in. Not only did I decline, but I was actually grossed out by the thought. Not as one who had quit and was trying to stay quit, but was one who had never even dipped to start with.
I'm sure avoiding temptation is not going to be as effortless as it was in that dream, but it was a good dream nonetheless.
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Day 25! I've had several "cave nightmares" since this started, but last night I had a dream with a much better twist on the theme. I was sitting around a picnic table with a bunch of high school buddies somewhere near where I grew up (MI). Although the dream took place in a location involving my past, it was a "present tense" dream. In other words, I was about the same age I am now, and we were talking about how I was visiting from KY.
Two guys threw in lippers, and one asked if I wanted in. Not only did I decline, but I was actually grossed out by the thought. Not as one who had quit and was trying to stay quit, but was one who had never even dipped to start with.
I'm sure avoiding temptation is not going to be as effortless as it was in that dream, but it was a good dream nonetheless.
I have only had one dip-mare so far. They suck. Maybe your brain is rewiring and now you will have dip wet dreams in which you f@#k the bitch:-)
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Day 25! I've had several "cave nightmares" since this started, but last night I had a dream with a much better twist on the theme. I was sitting around a picnic table with a bunch of high school buddies somewhere near where I grew up (MI). Although the dream took place in a location involving my past, it was a "present tense" dream. In other words, I was about the same age I am now, and we were talking about how I was visiting from KY.
Two guys threw in lippers, and one asked if I wanted in. Not only did I decline, but I was actually grossed out by the thought. Not as one who had quit and was trying to stay quit, but was one who had never even dipped to start with.
I'm sure avoiding temptation is not going to be as effortless as it was in that dream, but it was a good dream nonetheless.
Muskrat tempters...lol.
Fun fact: Compton and I grew up in the same SMALL city and went to the same grade school, Jr High and high school. He was two grades behind me, but much smarter, hence he went go University of Michigan and is now a lawyer while I went to Eastern Michigan and am not a lawyer. Lol.
Bottom line, don't mess with us or you will get a 810 beat down!!!
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Day 25! I've had several "cave nightmares" since this started, but last night I had a dream with a much better twist on the theme. I was sitting around a picnic table with a bunch of high school buddies somewhere near where I grew up (MI). Although the dream took place in a location involving my past, it was a "present tense" dream. In other words, I was about the same age I am now, and we were talking about how I was visiting from KY.
Two guys threw in lippers, and one asked if I wanted in. Not only did I decline, but I was actually grossed out by the thought. Not as one who had quit and was trying to stay quit, but was one who had never even dipped to start with.
I'm sure avoiding temptation is not going to be as effortless as it was in that dream, but it was a good dream nonetheless.
Muskrat tempters...lol.
Fun fact: Compton and I grew up in the same SMALL city and went to the same grade school, Jr High and high school. He was two grades behind me, but much smarter, hence he went go University of Michigan and is now a lawyer while I went to Eastern Michigan and am not a lawyer. Lol.
Bottom line, don't mess with us or you will get a 810 beat down!!!
For some reason I'm picturing you guys tag teaming an apple pie.
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Day 25! I've had several "cave nightmares" since this started, but last night I had a dream with a much better twist on the theme. I was sitting around a picnic table with a bunch of high school buddies somewhere near where I grew up (MI). Although the dream took place in a location involving my past, it was a "present tense" dream. In other words, I was about the same age I am now, and we were talking about how I was visiting from KY.
Two guys threw in lippers, and one asked if I wanted in. Not only did I decline, but I was actually grossed out by the thought. Not as one who had quit and was trying to stay quit, but was one who had never even dipped to start with.
I'm sure avoiding temptation is not going to be as effortless as it was in that dream, but it was a good dream nonetheless.
Muskrat tempters...lol.
Fun fact: Compton and I grew up in the same SMALL city and went to the same grade school, Jr High and high school. He was two grades behind me, but much smarter, hence he went go University of Michigan and is now a lawyer while I went to Eastern Michigan and am not a lawyer. Lol.
Bottom line, don't mess with us or you will get a 810 beat down!!!
For some reason I'm picturing you guys tag teaming an apple pie.
I do like pie...
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Day 25! I've had several "cave nightmares" since this started, but last night I had a dream with a much better twist on the theme. I was sitting around a picnic table with a bunch of high school buddies somewhere near where I grew up (MI). Although the dream took place in a location involving my past, it was a "present tense" dream. In other words, I was about the same age I am now, and we were talking about how I was visiting from KY.
Two guys threw in lippers, and one asked if I wanted in. Not only did I decline, but I was actually grossed out by the thought. Not as one who had quit and was trying to stay quit, but was one who had never even dipped to start with.
I'm sure avoiding temptation is not going to be as effortless as it was in that dream, but it was a good dream nonetheless.
Muskrat tempters...lol.
Fun fact: Compton and I grew up in the same SMALL city and went to the same grade school, Jr High and high school. He was two grades behind me, but much smarter, hence he went go University of Michigan and is now a lawyer while I went to Eastern Michigan and am not a lawyer. Lol.
Bottom line, don't mess with us or you will get a 810 beat down!!!
Funner fact: I didn't realize who Diesel was until at least a week after joining. Small world!
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Day 29! Still feeling strong. Still abusing seeds/gum/fake dip, but no serious temptation to use the real thing in a while.
In a case of bad timing, I cracked a crown on a tooth (chomping down on hard candy) and had to pay the dentist a visit for a (thankfully easy) repair. I was going to try to wait until 60 days or do for the first "clean" dentist visit, but it was a nice trip anyway. I got a high-five from the dentist when I told him I had been nicotine/dip free for 28 days. I'm heading back tomorrow for an overdue cleaning.
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Day 29! Still feeling strong. Still abusing seeds/gum/fake dip, but no serious temptation to use the real thing in a while.Â
In a case of bad timing, I cracked a crown on a tooth (chomping down on hard candy) and had to pay the dentist a visit for a (thankfully easy) repair. I was going to try to wait until 60 days or do for the first "clean" dentist visit, but it was a nice trip anyway. I got a high-five from the dentist when I told him I had been nicotine/dip free for 28 days. I'm heading back tomorrow for an overdue cleaning.
Nice work. Yeah, no point in holding off on the cleaning. My 6-month checkup/cleaning just happend to come up in the second week of my quit. Back in my previous life when I was dipping, I used to think that my coffee drinking was the predominant reason for having, let's just say, less-than-brilliant white teeth. Turns out it had more to do with the stinky brown weed I had been shoving in my face. I still drink coffee like it's going out of style....but damn my teeth are white!
Unrelated, throw me into the Michigan / UofM alum bucket with Compton and Diesel! I too love me some good pie.
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Day 38. Feeling a bit foggy/unfocused the last couple days, but still resolute.
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Day 38. Feeling a bit foggy/unfocused the last couple days, but still resolute.
Keep it going Compton- by now you know you can get through whatever comes your way- just be ready and take it on.
Wanna know what helped fire my quit through the blahs around the 30s-50s? Learning more about nicotine addiciton and how damned evil and poisonous it really is. Lots of stuff in the Welcome Center, and I like this article too: Nicotine Addiction 101 (http://whyquit.com/whyquit/linksaaddiction.html) It pissed me off so bad that my quit was rejuvenated in a big way.
Keep it up man you're doing it!
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Dinged 80 today, and shamefully, I haven't been a particularly active poster. Current observations are that I'm feeling very resolute about not dipping, but I am really hitting the smokey mountain and gum hard still. I have cut out seeds for the last 6 days to try to drop some of the sodium/bloating. I'd feel better if I can just stick with gum and drop the SM, but it is very hard. When I get up or after a meal, if I can't find the SM, I get panicky the same way that I did when I couldn't get my hands on dip in that situation.
Still good news and no reason to worry. I can deal with the SM later after some more distance between me and dip. Other good news -- my back is finally healing up pretty well. I've been doing PT for 3 months (the back injury/PT is essentially coextensive with my quit) and making good progress. I'm getting back to running, and have been banging out 4 milers with some regularity. Going to try a long run this weekend, and if I make it through, I may try to salvage the half-marathon that I've run for 2 years in a row. Being able to work out has made the quitting easier.
Getting ready for some out of town guests next weekend and a day at the horse track. This typically entails cigars, which I know I have to pass on. This will be my first (thankfully) event with any sort of peer pressure. I'm sure I'll do fine, and have a week to strategize.
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Dinged 80 today, and shamefully, I haven't been a particularly active poster. Current observations are that I'm feeling very resolute about not dipping, but I am really hitting the smokey mountain and gum hard still. I have cut out seeds for the last 6 days to try to drop some of the sodium/bloating. I'd feel better if I can just stick with gum and drop the SM, but it is very hard. When I get up or after a meal, if I can't find the SM, I get panicky the same way that I did when I couldn't get my hands on dip in that situation.
Still good news and no reason to worry. I can deal with the SM later after some more distance between me and dip. Other good news -- my back is finally healing up pretty well. I've been doing PT for 3 months (the back injury/PT is essentially coextensive with my quit) and making good progress. I'm getting back to running, and have been banging out 4 milers with some regularity. Going to try a long run this weekend, and if I make it through, I may try to salvage the half-marathon that I've run for 2 years in a row. Being able to work out has made the quitting easier.
Getting ready for some out of town guests next weekend and a day at the horse track. This typically entails cigars, which I know I have to pass on. This will be my first (thankfully) event with any sort of peer pressure. I'm sure I'll do fine, and have a week to strategize.
Congrats on 80....it is great to watch. Watch out for the horses and cigars combo. For me it was horses and Cope. And breaking that bond for the first time was tough. But make a plan. Execute the plan. Stick with the plan. I still have my horses. And I lost the Cope 90 days ago! :-) Quit with you brother.
ZC
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Dinged 80 today, and shamefully, I haven't been a particularly active poster. Current observations are that I'm feeling very resolute about not dipping, but I am really hitting the smokey mountain and gum hard still. I have cut out seeds for the last 6 days to try to drop some of the sodium/bloating. I'd feel better if I can just stick with gum and drop the SM, but it is very hard. When I get up or after a meal, if I can't find the SM, I get panicky the same way that I did when I couldn't get my hands on dip in that situation.
Still good news and no reason to worry. I can deal with the SM later after some more distance between me and dip. Other good news -- my back is finally healing up pretty well. I've been doing PT for 3 months (the back injury/PT is essentially coextensive with my quit) and making good progress. I'm getting back to running, and have been banging out 4 milers with some regularity. Going to try a long run this weekend, and if I make it through, I may try to salvage the half-marathon that I've run for 2 years in a row. Being able to work out has made the quitting easier.Â
Getting ready for some out of town guests next weekend and a day at the horse track. This typically entails cigars, which I know I have to pass on. This will be my first (thankfully) event with any sort of peer pressure. I'm sure I'll do fine, and have a week to strategize.
Congrats on 80....it is great to watch. Watch out for the horses and cigars combo. For me it was horses and Cope. And breaking that bond for the first time was tough. But make a plan. Execute the plan. Stick with the plan. I still have my horses. And I lost the Cope 90 days ago! :-) Quit with you brother.
ZC
Well done on 80!! Cigars pose such a problem to me because I don't think of them the same as dip, but it is nicotine none the less. Stay strong and upwind from the poisonous smoldering cancer log.
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Dinged 80 today, and shamefully, I haven't been a particularly active poster. Current observations are that I'm feeling very resolute about not dipping, but I am really hitting the smokey mountain and gum hard still. I have cut out seeds for the last 6 days to try to drop some of the sodium/bloating. I'd feel better if I can just stick with gum and drop the SM, but it is very hard. When I get up or after a meal, if I can't find the SM, I get panicky the same way that I did when I couldn't get my hands on dip in that situation.
Still good news and no reason to worry. I can deal with the SM later after some more distance between me and dip. Other good news -- my back is finally healing up pretty well. I've been doing PT for 3 months (the back injury/PT is essentially coextensive with my quit) and making good progress. I'm getting back to running, and have been banging out 4 milers with some regularity. Going to try a long run this weekend, and if I make it through, I may try to salvage the half-marathon that I've run for 2 years in a row. Being able to work out has made the quitting easier.Â
Getting ready for some out of town guests next weekend and a day at the horse track. This typically entails cigars, which I know I have to pass on. This will be my first (thankfully) event with any sort of peer pressure. I'm sure I'll do fine, and have a week to strategize.
Congrats on 80....it is great to watch. Watch out for the horses and cigars combo. For me it was horses and Cope. And breaking that bond for the first time was tough. But make a plan. Execute the plan. Stick with the plan. I still have my horses. And I lost the Cope 90 days ago! :-) Quit with you brother.
ZC
Well done on 80!! Cigars pose such a problem to me because I don't think of them the same as dip, but it is nicotine none the less. Stay strong and upwind from the poisonous smoldering cancer log.
80 days. Well done. Congrats and quit on.
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Dinged 80 today, and shamefully, I haven't been a particularly active poster. Current observations are that I'm feeling very resolute about not dipping, but I am really hitting the smokey mountain and gum hard still. I have cut out seeds for the last 6 days to try to drop some of the sodium/bloating. I'd feel better if I can just stick with gum and drop the SM, but it is very hard. When I get up or after a meal, if I can't find the SM, I get panicky the same way that I did when I couldn't get my hands on dip in that situation.
Still good news and no reason to worry. I can deal with the SM later after some more distance between me and dip. Other good news -- my back is finally healing up pretty well. I've been doing PT for 3 months (the back injury/PT is essentially coextensive with my quit) and making good progress. I'm getting back to running, and have been banging out 4 milers with some regularity. Going to try a long run this weekend, and if I make it through, I may try to salvage the half-marathon that I've run for 2 years in a row. Being able to work out has made the quitting easier.Â
Getting ready for some out of town guests next weekend and a day at the horse track. This typically entails cigars, which I know I have to pass on. This will be my first (thankfully) event with any sort of peer pressure. I'm sure I'll do fine, and have a week to strategize.
Congrats on 80....it is great to watch. Watch out for the horses and cigars combo. For me it was horses and Cope. And breaking that bond for the first time was tough. But make a plan. Execute the plan. Stick with the plan. I still have my horses. And I lost the Cope 90 days ago! :-) Quit with you brother.
ZC
Well done on 80!! Cigars pose such a problem to me because I don't think of them the same as dip, but it is nicotine none the less. Stay strong and upwind from the poisonous smoldering cancer log.
80 days. Well done. Congrats and quit on.
Cigars are the same as dip. Both are addictive and both will kill you.
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Every time I see a man smoking a cigar, I see him sucking a cock. I guess some men like this.
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Every time I see a man smoking a cigar, I see him sucking a cock. I guess some men like this.
One cigar can contain as much nicotine as one pack of cigarettes. The nicotine enters through your saliva glands just like chew does. I found this interesting when I first read it.
Now thanks to mogul i have a different approach to not smoking cigars. Thank you mogul!
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Every time I see a man smoking a cigar, I see him sucking a cock. I guess some men like this.
One cigar can contain as much nicotine as one pack of cigarettes. The nicotine enters through your saliva glands just like chew does. I found this interesting when I first read it.
Now thanks to mogul i have a different approach to not smoking cigars. Thank you mogul!
You're very welcome rans. Thank you for all the wisdom you share here.
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Glad you checked in Compton. Keep coming back! And never ever be tempted by cigars (see below) vvvvvv
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Every time I see a man smoking a cigar, I see him sucking a cock. I guess some men like this.
One cigar can contain as much nicotine as one pack of cigarettes. The nicotine enters through your saliva glands just like chew does. I found this interesting when I first read it.
Now thanks to mogul i have a different approach to not smoking cigars. Thank you mogul!
You're very welcome rans. Thank you for all the wisdom you share here.
Interesting, learn something every day. Used to enjoy a good cigar. Used to.
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Yeah, I'm 100% sure I'm incapable of smoking a cigar without totally fucking up all of this progress. I'll be ready for the temptation.
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Congrats on 100 days freedom! Welcome to the HOF!
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Hey Counsellor way to go! Now keep it up, you have the tools down well!
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Nice hundo!!! Muskrat Pride!!!
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Thanks, you guys. I'm still way too green for a hall of fame post, but I thought I'd jot down some observations. I feel like I'm really turning a corner with this. I'm super excited about clearing a hundo, and my back injury (remember, I decided to quit while hospitalized for this injury!) is also progressing very well. I've dropped PT down to once per week, and am back to running.
In fact, I'm attempting a half marathon tomorrrow (4/19). I have run this one for two years in a row, and I was extremely upset that the back injury was going to force me to miss it this year. However, things really started improving about 6 weeks ago and I've been able to do a little bit of training. A lot less than I'm used too, but it should be enough to get me across the finish line. My race tomorrow will be significantly slower than last year's but shit, I'm happy to be upright after this injury. And it's my first nicotine-free race of my life.
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Thanks, you guys. I'm still way too green for a hall of fame post, but I thought I'd jot down some observations. I feel like I'm really turning a corner with this. I'm super excited about clearing a hundo, and my back injury (remember, I decided to quit while hospitalized for this injury!) is also progressing very well. I've dropped PT down to once per week, and am back to running.
In fact, I'm attempting a half marathon tomorrrow (4/19). I have run this one for two years in a row, and I was extremely upset that the back injury was going to force me to miss it this year. However, things really started improving about 6 weeks ago and I've been able to do a little bit of training. A lot less than I'm used too, but it should be enough to get me across the finish line. My race tomorrow will be significantly slower than last year's but shit, I'm happy to be upright after this injury. And it's my first nicotine-free race of my life.
Nice update! Kick ass tomorrow!
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Thanks, you guys. I'm still way too green for a hall of fame post, but I thought I'd jot down some observations. I feel like I'm really turning a corner with this. I'm super excited about clearing a hundo, and my back injury (remember, I decided to quit while hospitalized for this injury!) is also progressing very well. I've dropped PT down to once per week, and am back to running.
In fact, I'm attempting a half marathon tomorrrow (4/19). I have run this one for two years in a row, and I was extremely upset that the back injury was going to force me to miss it this year. However, things really started improving about 6 weeks ago and I've been able to do a little bit of training. A lot less than I'm used too, but it should be enough to get me across the finish line. My race tomorrow will be significantly slower than last year's but shit, I'm happy to be upright after this injury. And it's my first nicotine-free race of my life.
Nice update! Kick ass tomorrow!
This is what winning looks like!
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How did the race go for you????
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Race went as well as could be expected. I finished, but much slower than I have done it in the past. Lower back held up like a champ, which is very encouraging.
I can personally verify that there is a connection between training and performance! Frankly, I'm just happy that I didn't have to miss the race.
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Race went as well as could be expected. I finished, but much slower than I have done it in the past. Lower back held up like a champ, which is very encouraging.
I can personally verify that there is a connection between training and performance! Frankly, I'm just happy that I didn't have to miss the race.
Successful then for sure!
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Hey congrats on the 150! Any more races yet this summer? I was crushed at work home life the last couple of months....took a work-out break....started to run again yesterday.
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Hey congrats on the 150! Any more races yet this summer? I was crushed at work home life the last couple of months....took a work-out break....started to run again yesterday.
Thanks! I'm just working building up mileage, cutting weight, and not re-injuring the back for now. I'm softly committed to doing a trail half in September. I am still toying with doing my first 26.2 in October as a reward for hitting a few benchmarks (namely -- staying nicotine-free, cutting another 10 lbs, and getting to/staying above 25 mpw for 4 weeks without getting hurt). I have strung together a few 20 mpw weeks in the last month. We'll see.
Operation dip-quit has been plugging along fairly nicely. It's still not as easy as I would have hoped at this point, but I'm feeling okay. My general observation is this: I can easily get through today without any significant risk of caving today. The risks of a short-term splurge/fail are very very low, even in compromising conditions (i.e., when drinking, at the track, with buddies, or even with other dippers). My biggest risk is thinking long-term (i.e., "you mean it has to be this way forever?") and rationalizing my way back into the habit, or a different version of the habit (i.e., like an occasional cigar, or snus). I wish I could figure out a way not to think like that, but for now I'm just ignoring those thoughts or redirecting, and fighting for the next day and the attendant +1.