KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: MGrizzly on November 11, 2016, 07:45:00 PM
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Hello Everyone,
I am 25 years old, and I've chewed about 2 cans a day for nearly 7 years. I think the reason why I want to quit so badly would sound stupid to most people who've never experienced a chemical addiction, but I think everyone here will be able to relate to some degree.
I want to quit because, for me, "life" has become the thing that happens between dips. I actually mean that. When I take a girl out on a first date, my favorite part is after I drop her off and I can stuff my cheek on the way home. Instead of being engaged at work and doing my absolute best, I spend all day waiting until I can sneak out of the office and dip in my car. I honestly can't remember the last time I enjoyed a great meal for its own sake; before I'm even half finished eating, all I want is that post-meal dip.
I was recently asked what I would do if my day were completely open and free. My honest answer: sit on my ass and take a dip, one after another. Whenever I have free time, that's what I do. I've found that I don't really care about all the things that make life worth living: work, sex, friends, family, making something of myself. Even though I don't actually enjoy dip at all anymore, I've put it before all those things for the last several years. I can't have both. So I'm choosing to enjoy life again.
Thanks for taking the time to read,
MGrizzly
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Hello Everyone,
I am 25 years old, and I've chewed about 2 cans a day for nearly 7 years. I think the reason why I want to quit so badly would sound stupid to most people who've never experienced a chemical addiction, but I think everyone here will be able to relate to some degree.
I want to quit because, for me, "life" has become the thing that happens between dips. I actually mean that. When I take a girl out on a first date, my favorite part is after I drop her off and I can stuff my cheek on the way home. Instead of being engaged at work and doing my absolute best, I spend all day waiting until I can sneak out of the office and dip in my car. I honestly can't remember the last time I enjoyed a great meal for its own sake; before I'm even half finished eating, all I want is that post-meal dip.
I was recently asked what I would do if my day were completely open and free. My honest answer: sit on my ass and take a dip, one after another. Whenever I have free time, that's what I do. I've found that I don't really care about all the things that make life worth living: work, sex, friends, family, making something of myself. Even though I don't actually enjoy dip at all anymore, I've put it before all those things for the last several years. I can't have both. So I'm choosing to enjoy life again.
Thanks for taking the time to read,
MGrizzly
Well mr grizz you've came to the right place! Go to the welcome center and learn how to post roll. That's the price of admission here. Once you've posted come back in here let us know and the advice and accountability will begin! Waiting on you. I quit with you!
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I just posted roll for the February 2017 Group. Thank you!
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I just posted roll for the February 2017 Group. Thank you!
We are in same quit group grizzly and I can't wait to look back on all this and laugh like hell at how desperate I sounded right about now. I'm on day 5. I'm 40 years old and have dipped at least a can a day for the last 24 years....it really did get to control me. I couldn't go anywhere without a spit bottle and a bottle of water. Sad really, if you think about it. I would take a dip out and put another one in right afterwards. No water no nothing. It got to the point that I was pretty much consumed by it. Plus my kids are getting old enough now to start asking questions like why am I always spitting and what's in that stinky red cup, etc....I don't even want to have this crap anywhere in my house with my kids and certainly don't want them knowing about me doing it. I sometimes wish my wife would have hated it and nagged me to death but instead she never pr assured me to quit or whined about it or anything like that. She knew I dipped when we met and I never tried to hide it so she knew exactly what she was getting when we got married. Of course she was always worried as her brother got cancer at just 36. But she's a good woman who has always supported me at all cost, no matter what. I got a good one and I just want to be around for her and my kids so as bad as it is now, turning back is not an option because there is not even 1 good thing that I can list about going back to dipping and the list of bad things is looooong
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Great to meet you, Bill, and congrats on being on day 5! I'm with you on the water bottle situation. I'm definitely sick of all those disgusting bottles half full of brown spit. It sounds like you have an awesome lady and a great family. I'm sure they're going to be proud as hell of you for what you're doing.
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Just some advice on some other things you guys might want to do early in your quits. Get a new toothbrush - no need to use one full of old chew residue. Clip off that thumbnail that you grew long to open your tins - you don't need that anymore either. :)
Buckle your seat belts! It's a wild ride early but so worth it!
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Look you fellows done the first huge step, you got your name on roll. Now around here we post as soon as we wake up. W.U.P.P. Wake up piss post. Once your name is on roll that following 24 hours is your promise to us and mainly to yourself that you will not use any form of dip. Sounds silly but here you go, I dipped 38 years and im sure just like you 2 addicts I tried numerous times to quit only to give in to the ole nic bitch. I found ktc 685 day's ago and my name on roll, brothers and sisters here on ktc keeping me accountable is the only way ive made it this far. I will tell you, I'm a straight shooter I want pussyfoot around. If you're not willing to give this 110% you will fail. Failure is not an option if your names on roll and your a man of your word. It's very hard but very doable. You will have craves, headaches, insomnia, diarrhea, constipation, anxiety, sores in your mouth. You may not experience all of this or you may experience more, just remember why it sucks as bad as it does. This shit has screwed you up not only physically but mentally. Read some stuff on the physical and mental things nic does to you. Cancer is bad but some things that it has done to you in other ways will actually rear its head and when it does you will be wondering why you ever poisoned your body so many years! Man up get numbers, stay close to the site and post early Edd ODAAT! Welcome aboard and please don't hesitate to ask for help! Quit on!
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Welcome! You are in my quit group. Feel free to pm for digits. It sounds weird but it's good to have an outlet, or a lifeline if you will. Proud to quit with you!
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Nice work TLJ and BillDAnce. Way to use the sight as new quitters and welcome people aboard. MGrizz, congrats on a great decision. You will never regret the decision.
THe control that damn weed had over us is over. You will experience your life on your terms now. Post roll early and spread your accountability. Start with the two bad asses that
have already hit you up, not to mention the other guys here Pab and Stranger.
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poof
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I have seen you ghosting man up and post roll already
February (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30053935/92/#new)
^^^ this is your group and they are a solid bunch get back in there and reach out don't mess with your quit you deserve it
don't leave your quit up to chance or the nic bitch will win