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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: lungb on June 19, 2014, 08:33:00 AM
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I have been dipping for around 20 yr and I took my last one on Monday. I have "quit"in the past but obviously went right back. I have a wife and two kids that depend on me and I'm done putting stuff in my lip that has a cancer warning right on it.
These last 2 days have sucked bad, with yesterday being the worst. I haven't slept worth a damn either but its gotta get better with time. I've tried my best to not take it out on my family but I know that I've been an ass a couple of times. I know there are better days ahead and I'm gonna keep on keeping on no matter what!
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I'm gonna keep on keeping on no matter what!
This ^^^^^^ is the mindset of quitter. Srans likes.
Your right my friend. It will get better with time. Each day you put between you and the poison the easier and better life will become. You just have to believe. Your mind only knows life with the poison right now. Guess what, being chained to the poison is not how life was intended.
If you haven't go to the welcome center and learn how and why we post roll. Let's take this quit to the next level. Post roll with us. We can always use one more quitter!
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I'm gonna keep on keeping on no matter what!
This ^^^^^^ is the mindset of quitter. Srans likes.
Your right my friend. It will get better with time. Each day you put between you and the poison the easier and better life will become. You just have to believe. Your mind only knows life with the poison right now. Guess what, being chained to the poison is not how life was intended.
If you haven't go to the welcome center and learn how and why we post roll. Let's take this quit to the next level. Post roll with us. We can always use one more quitter!
Post roll.....read....learn....get involved....
be accountable
We fix up a mean batch of quittin Kool-Aid.....
have a cup
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Congrats on making a great choice, Lungb!!! Learn how and why we post roll. Then do it. Then, let's work on your attitude. Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do it. Yes, going through the fog sucks. But not compared to feeding tubes, jaw removal and death. So think of it this way...you GET to go through the fog because you made a great CHOICE to be free.
Welcome the withdrawals. It will get better. But focus on TODAY. Really take note of how bad the suck is, really experience it. It is the feeling of your recovery. Nobody gets free for the asking. You have to earn it. No exceptions. But look at the Quit Groups...not just your own, but all of those years, all of those months and all of those badasses were once right where you are right now. Pretty cool, huh?
YOU CAN DO THIS, BROTHER!!!
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Day #4 of what I'm sure is gonna be a long road! Day 2 has been definitely the worst so far. I'm not going back and I'm so glad I found a link to this site!
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Day #4 of what I'm sure is gonna be a long road! Day 2 has been definitely the worst so far. I'm not going back and I'm so glad I found a link to this site!
It's not so long my friend. One day at a time. If you have to, one second. There is no tomorrow, there is only today. It takes time to get that mindset, but once you do it will get easier. The addict in you will try to think about the future and how long and hard this road will be.
Take a good look at yourself today my friend. Breath in that dignity your taking back. Suck in that freedom you now have. Today you have posted, you're quit and that's all you have to worry about! Screw the poison!!!!
Day 4 means the poison is either completely out of your system, if not all the way out. Go outside and take a good look around. Look at the world without the poison blurring your vision and clouding your mind. Good job!
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You're headed in the right direction bro. There's nothing like hitting day 13 or so and realizing that your whole life is ahead of you because you FINALLY had the balls to quit. Proud as hell to quit with you today.
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Woke up to day 5 suck sucking more. Just woke up bummed today for some reason, just need to kick myself in the ass and get on with it!!
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Hang in there lungb! I'm on day 3 so I'm right there with ya.
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Hang in there lungb! I'm on day 3 so I'm right there with ya.
I'm hanging, I refuse to go back. Thanks brother, we got this!
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Embrace the suck, it means you are winning! Plow through today just like the last 4. Keep reading KTC, drink lots of H2O and get a little exercise in. QLF all day with you.
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Day 6 and not looking back! Spent the day with my family at a Reds game yesterday. There seemed to be dippers everywhere I looked but not this guy! Made the 2.5 hr drive with a cup of tea, a couple of suckers and a pack of gum. It was OK and I did it without a lip full of black shit!
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Day 6 and not looking back! Spent the day with my family at a Reds game yesterday. There seemed to be dippers everywhere I looked but not this guy! Made the 2.5 hr drive with a cup of tea, a couple of suckers and a pack of gum. It was OK and I did it without a lip full of black shit!
Well done as that is a victory you need to keep close to you and remember it.
just keep pushing ahead and keep at it one day at a time and never more than that.
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Day 6 and not looking back! Spent the day with my family at a Reds game yesterday. There seemed to be dippers everywhere I looked but not this guy! Made the 2.5 hr drive with a cup of tea, a couple of suckers and a pack of gum. It was OK and I did it without a lip full of black shit!
Well done as that is a victory you need to keep close to you and remember it.
just keep pushing ahead and keep at it one day at a time and never more than that.
It's amazing that baseball is still fun without shoving that shit in our lips. It might even be more fun.
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Lungb, I was at the Reds game too having the same thoughts! Lol, hang in there bro, and go Reds!
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Day 7! The days are getting so much better but I won't ever let my guard down! QLF all day every day!
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Day 7! The days are getting so much better but I won't ever let my guard down! QLF all day every day!
Gratz on the 7 Lung, but you are right, never let your guard down! You have some rough days ahead, but I promise if you stay quit you'll have even more better days! I remember my first good day after the SUCK, it was an ahh-ha! moment! Proud to be quit with you today!
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Day 8! Coached my daughters softball team to our biggest win of the season over an extremely talented group of girls last night. Didn't even need the black shit in my lip!
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lungb
You got this. I was a 30 year Cope dipper until 13 days ago. Isnt the freedom amazing???
Keep up the good work. It only gets easier. The suck is much easier to get past each day.
joe c
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Day 8! Coached my daughters softball team to our biggest win of the season over an extremely talented group of girls last night. Didn't even need the black shit in my lip!
It gets easier. I'm on day 16 and only think about it every hour instead of every minute. I finally got a full nights sleep last night. I quit with you today.
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Day 8! Coached my daughters softball team to our biggest win of the season over an extremely talented group of girls last night. Didn't even need the black shit in my lip!
Amazing how things still work correctly without a fatty in. Quit with you all damn day!
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Day number 9 and still embracing! F nicotine!!!!!!
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Day number 9 and still embracing! F nicotine!!!!!!
Way to go lungb!
Every day whittles away at the bonds that the nic bitch has wrapped around you. It will get easier, but it will get hard again as well. Good news is, you are building the weapons that you will need to continue your quit.
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Double digits with today being day 10! Days are getting a lot easier but still have some irritable moment's like yesterday but I got thru it! I'm going to cut back my updates to weekly I think. Thanks to all that have posted encouragement in my thread, I appreciate the assistance!
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Double digits with today being day 10! Days are getting a lot easier but still have some irritable moment's like yesterday but I got thru it! I'm going to cut back my updates to weekly I think. Thanks to all that have posted encouragement in my thread, I appreciate the assistance!
WTG Lug, Now just get the auto correct to like your name and it's all down hill from here. Never give in, never give up, no matter what.
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Double digits with today being day 10! Days are getting a lot easier but still have some irritable moment's like yesterday but I got thru it! I'm going to cut back my updates to weekly I think. Thanks to all that have posted encouragement in my thread, I appreciate the assistance!
WTG Lug, Now just get the auto correct to like your name and it's all down hill from here. Never give in, never give up, no matter what.
Great job lungb. you've got a long way tyo go, but no way you will ever have to face down a tougher 10 day stretch.
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Today is day 14. Its hard to believe that I've made it two weeks already! It seems like the last couple of days have been a struggle with working 16 hrs yesterday and really wanting one being the worst as of late. I really have to give credit to the KTC community! There is no way that I would still be on track without giving my word to a group of people that I don't even know and seeing that you all are going through the same thing. That is what has kept me from caving! Thanks everybody and I QLF with you all today!
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I'm right there with ya! Day 13 for me! Changing our lives bro. Changing our lives!
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Today is day 14. Its hard to believe that I've made it two weeks already! It seems like the last couple of days have been a struggle with working 16 hrs yesterday and really wanting one being the worst as of late. I really have to give credit to the KTC community! There is no way that I would still be on track without giving my word to a group of people that I don't even know and seeing that you all are going through the same thing. That is what has kept me from caving! Thanks everybody and I QLF with you all today!
Lungb, anyone here over day 14 knows where you are at. The fact that you didn't break down and cave shows what you are made of, and that you are breaking the shackles of slavery. I love the daily journal here, you will always be able to go back and read the good and bad of your quit. Damn proud to be quit with you today!
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Today is day 14. Its hard to believe that I've made it two weeks already! It seems like the last couple of days have been a struggle with working 16 hrs yesterday and really wanting one being the worst as of late. I really have to give credit to the KTC community! There is no way that I would still be on track without giving my word to a group of people that I don't even know and seeing that you all are going through the same thing. That is what has kept me from caving! Thanks everybody and I QLF with you all today!
Lungb, anyone here over day 14 knows where you are at. The fact that you didn't break down and cave shows what you are made of, and that you are breaking the shackles of slavery. I love the daily journal here, you will always be able to go back and read the good and bad of your quit. Damn proud to be quit with you today!
I love reading this stuff. Thanks for quitting today.
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Today is day 14. Its hard to believe that I've made it two weeks already! It seems like the last couple of days have been a struggle with working 16 hrs yesterday and really wanting one being the worst as of late. I really have to give credit to the KTC community! There is no way that I would still be on track without giving my word to a group of people that I don't even know and seeing that you all are going through the same thing. That is what has kept me from caving! Thanks everybody and I QLF with you all today!
Lungb, anyone here over day 14 knows where you are at. The fact that you didn't break down and cave shows what you are made of, and that you are breaking the shackles of slavery. I love the daily journal here, you will always be able to go back and read the good and bad of your quit. Damn proud to be quit with you today!
I love reading this stuff. Thanks for quitting today.
Way to be lungb! Those are 14 days you will never have to repeat. Done, finished. Keep going! Wait for the good stuff. Its coming.
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Today is day 18 and I have had a lot of thoughts about dip these last couple of days. My wife says I've been an ass and that I should just go by a can, wow a lot of support. She doesn't get it and says all that I need to do is just not think about it. Its been a little rough at home and I start a 2 week vacation tomorrow so I gotta keep on the right path. I know that I will never just not think about it, this will be something that I will deal with each day forever. I created this 20 yrs ago and I have to deal with it! I do a ton of reading around here and this place is what keeps me on the right side!
Happy 4th to you all and your families!
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Hang in there man. I, and all the other Sultans have your back. Some people just dint understand, ( like our wives). She made the comment to me the other day that i was a lit nicer when i dipped. She doesn't get why its so hard because she has never been addicted to something. It sounds like your wife is similar. Maybe refer her to the spousal support section on here, it helped my wife to understand a bit better what to expect and what i am going through. If not just remember it will only get better and eventually she will see its the best thing. Reach out if you need to man.
Keep rocking your quit. Youre doing awesome
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Today is day 18 and I have had a lot of thoughts about dip these last couple of days. My wife says I've been an ass and that I should just go by a can, wow a lot of support. She doesn't get it and says all that I need to do is just not think about it. Its been a little rough at home and I start a 2 week vacation tomorrow so I gotta keep on the right path. I know that I will never just not think about it, this will be something that I will deal with each day forever. I created this 20 yrs ago and I have to deal with it! I do a ton of reading around here and this place is what keeps me on the right side!
Happy 4th to you all and your families!
You hang in there man. That's a really dangerously ignorant comment for your spouse to make. Clearly she doesn't understand it. Please hang in there. Use the groups, use your numbers and hang tough.
I'm at 215. It gets easier and you really do start to understand yourself and the addiction better. It's worth it man. I'm still making new. discoveries. You can do this.
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Today is day 18 and I have had a lot of thoughts about dip these last couple of days. My wife says I've been an ass and that I should just go by a can, wow a lot of support. She doesn't get it and says all that I need to do is just not think about it. Its been a little rough at home and I start a 2 week vacation tomorrow so I gotta keep on the right path. I know that I will never just not think about it, this will be something that I will deal with each day forever. I created this 20 yrs ago and I have to deal with it! I do a ton of reading around here and this place is what keeps me on the right side!
Happy 4th to you all and your families!
You hang in there man. That's a really dangerously ignorant comment for your spouse to make. Clearly she doesn't understand it. Please hang in there. Use the groups, use your numbers and hang tough.
I'm at 215. It gets easier and you really do start to understand yourself and the addiction better. It's worth it man. I'm still making new. discoveries. You can do this.
Dude, things definitely get easier, but I agree with Bulldog, that's a rough line from your wife. One of the big tenets of this site is you quit for you, not for your family, and loved one's but for you only. After watching many people chronicle their quits over my time here it is easy to see who "gets it" right away, and lungb you definitely do. So keep doing what got you through 18 days. If it helps have your wife read the page for spouses. And have some fun on vacation.
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Well today is day 23! I'm on vac with my family and I managed to make the 10 hr drive to the beach without the shit in my mouth! Everything is a trigger down here from the big eats to the beer and just the normal everyday beach life but I'm good. I don't need it!! My plan was to quit after vac just like every other year until I found KTC 23 days ago and I'm glad I did. I would never have quit when we got home because squirrel season would be coming in then deer season and then etc etc etc........ thanks everybody for your words and help!
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lungb, I have really enjoyed reading your intro. First of all, you are one hell of a quitter. Please don't worry about your wife right now. You dipped for you and now you are quit for you, not her. This is yours man and don't let anyone take that away. I quit with ya all day long today. Enjoy vacation.
Mogul
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lungb, I have really enjoyed reading your intro. First of all, you are one hell of a quitter. Please don't worry about your wife right now. You dipped for you and now you are quit for you, not her. This is yours man and don't let anyone take that away. I quit with ya all day long today. Enjoy vacation.
Mogul
What Mogul said....
I am proud to be a Sultan with you, brother!
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lungb, I have really enjoyed reading your intro. First of all, you are one hell of a quitter. Please don't worry about your wife right now. You dipped for you and now you are quit for you, not her. This is yours man and don't let anyone take that away. I quit with ya all day long today. Enjoy vacation.
Mogul
What Mogul said....
I am proud to be a Sultan with you, brother!
Lung, that's a drag about your wife, but mine isn't that supportive either. The first bit of support was on vacation last month and that was a "glad the motel room doesn't smell like chew, good job", and that around day 72. I was disappointed in her lack of caring.......but then I looked at it from her angle. I "quit" 3-4 times a year for as many years as she and I have been together (14), so why would this be any different? I get my wife's lack of trust when it comes to me being quit, I lied too many times to her.
The difference is that you and I have the support of thousands of quitters. The angry days will pass soon enough Lung, and I'm proud to be quit with you today.
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Day 25 and I made it through vacation! We made it back late this eve and once again I didn't need the junk in my lip to make the drive! I'm gonna keep my foot on the pedal and keep the nic part of my life in the rear view mirror going forward! Thanks again for everyone's words of encouragement, I couldn't do this without the support!
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Today marks day 28 nic free, 4 weeks! Its hard to believe its been that long but I'm looking forward to the next 4, one day at a time of course. Thanks KTC!!!
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Today marks day 28 nic free, 4 weeks! Its hard to believe its been that long but I'm looking forward to the next 4, one day at a time of course. Thanks KTC!!!
Thank you for being a bad ass quitter!
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Today marks day 28 nic free, 4 weeks! Its hard to believe its been that long but I'm looking forward to the next 4, one day at a time of course. Thanks KTC!!!
Thank you for being a bad ass quitter!
Awesome!!! I love me some quit. Never become complacent. Always remember those first few days. You never have to repeat that pain as long as you come here and make your promise.
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Today marks day 28 nic free, 4 weeks! Its hard to believe its been that long but I'm looking forward to the next 4, one day at a time of course. Thanks KTC!!!
Thank you for being a bad ass quitter!
Awesome!!! I love me some quit. Never become complacent. Always remember those first few days. You never have to repeat that pain as long as you come here and make your promise.
Congrats, it has been a rough 4 weeks but it really does get better hang in there.
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Today marks day 28 nic free, 4 weeks! Its hard to believe its been that long but I'm looking forward to the next 4, one day at a time of course. Thanks KTC!!!
Thank you for being a bad ass quitter!
Awesome!!! I love me some quit. Never become complacent. Always remember those first few days. You never have to repeat that pain as long as you come here and make your promise.
Congrats, it has been a rough 4 weeks but it really does get better hang in there.
Keep adding the plus ones brutha. Great job on 4 weeks.
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Today is day 42 and not really much to add. Still crave and still quit! Had some rough times lately but I kept the quit going! I've put on 7.5 lbs but I should shave that off in time. Thanks again to the KTC community!
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Today is day 42 and not really much to add. Still crave and still quit! Had some rough times lately but I kept the quit going! I've put on 7.5 lbs but I should shave that off in time. Thanks again to the KTC community!
Congrats. 42 days is an awesome accomplishment. I guarantee that it will get easier with time. Keep doing what you are doing. You are winning.
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Today is day 42 and not really much to add. Still crave and still quit! Had some rough times lately but I kept the quit going! I've put on 7.5 lbs but I should shave that off in time. Thanks again to the KTC community!
Congrats. 42 days is an awesome accomplishment. I guarantee that it will get easier with time. Keep doing what you are doing. You are winning.
I'm right on your ass at day 40 - feels great doesn't it. Why the hell I waited this long to give this crap up makes my head spin. I tell the nic bitch to "take a suck" each day.
Sultan proud to be quit with you. old ES
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I haven't done many updates in this thread but today is day 100 so I wanted to bring it back up! I want to thank each person that posted in my intro thread early on! I could have never got this far on my own! I'm proud to say that I'm a 100% poster on roll and I'm damn proud to be quit with each and every person here! Thanks KTC!
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Gratz to you Lungb, proud to be quit with you, enjoy the HoF!
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I haven't done many updates in this thread but today is day 100 so I wanted to bring it back up! I want to thank each person that posted in my intro thread early on! I could have never got this far on my own! I'm proud to say that I'm a 100% poster on roll and I'm damn proud to be quit with each and every person here! Thanks KTC!
congrats! It gets soo much easier but you still have land mines on your journey. Post roll, keep your word and call for help!!!!! Its a great accomplishment by you are far from recovered but now you can finally smell and touch the excitement of being free. Just stay close and keep going. Don't check out or think one wouldn't hurt.
Quit on! I am honored to quit with you.
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I haven't done many updates in this thread but today is day 100 so I wanted to bring it back up! I want to thank each person that posted in my intro thread early on! I could have never got this far on my own! I'm proud to say that I'm a 100% poster on roll and I'm damn proud to be quit with each and every person here! Thanks KTC!
congrats! It gets soo much easier but you still have land mines on your journey. Post roll, keep your word and call for help!!!!! Its a great accomplishment by you are far from recovered but now you can finally smell and touch the excitement of being free. Just stay close and keep going. Don't check out or think one wouldn't hurt.
Quit on! I am honored to quit with you.
I love a 100% Poster!
Is there any other way?
Works for BadAss LungB!!!
Awesome milestone...keep up the great work.
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I haven't done many updates in this thread but today is day 100 so I wanted to bring it back up! I want to thank each person that posted in my intro thread early on! I could have never got this far on my own! I'm proud to say that I'm a 100% poster on roll and I'm damn proud to be quit with each and every person here! Thanks KTC!
congrats! It gets soo much easier but you still have land mines on your journey. Post roll, keep your word and call for help!!!!! Its a great accomplishment by you are far from recovered but now you can finally smell and touch the excitement of being free. Just stay close and keep going. Don't check out or think one wouldn't hurt.
Quit on! I am honored to quit with you.
I love a 100% Poster!
Is there any other way?
Works for BadAss LungB!!!
Awesome milestone...keep up the great work.
Great job lungb...but what now? The easy way is to just keep posting roll and not much else. But now that you know how to quit, make it a point to help someone out. To get to a hundred I just put my head down and grinded for myself I think I had 120 total posts the day I hit 100...because I felt I had to, but when I felt I could do more....I did. You do the same.