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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: operator on October 03, 2014, 10:13:00 PM
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Well I'm ready to quit ( not stop) .
Ready to .......
Quit slowly killing myself
Quit hating myself
Quit lying to myself
Quit wasting my money and time on this dog shit
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I finally grew some balls tried to post roll and took that step to reach out for some help. I've been on this sight almost every night for the last 6 months reading everything. I have dipped since I was 13, I am now 35, got 3 perfect kids a great wife and I'm the only problem in our near perfect equation. I can't enjoy anything because of my addiction, I will be done with.
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I finally grew some balls tried to post roll and took that step to reach out for some help. I've been on this sight almost every night for the last 6 months reading everything. I have dipped since I was 13, I am now 35, got 3 perfect kids a great wife and I'm the only problem in our near perfect equation. I can't enjoy anything because of my addiction, I will be done with.
Took you long enough but that's ok, just glad you've finally done it. If you've been here that much you know what make this successful. Give it 100%
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I finally grew some balls tried to post roll and took that step to reach out for some help. I've been on this sight almost every night for the last 6 months reading everything. I have dipped since I was 13, I am now 35, got 3 perfect kids a great wife and I'm the only problem in our near perfect equation. I can't enjoy anything because of my addiction, I will be done with.
Took you long enough but that's ok, just glad you've finally done it. If you've been here that much you know what make this successful. Give it 100%
Roll every day. Got it will do it.
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If you've been lurking for the past 6 months, what have you seen and what have you learned? What sticks out the most to you as you head into Day 1? Finally, what was it that finally prompted you to make the leap?
Welcome, by the way.
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If you've been lurking for the past 6 months, what have you seen and what have you learned? What sticks out the most to you as you head into Day 1? Finally, what was it that finally prompted you to make the leap?
Welcome, by the way.
Well it seems that the everyday promise of roll call keeps a person straight. I finally took the leap cause I want to change, I want to quit. I think about it everyday. I have read several threads of people getting grilled over a quit date.Maybe I was laying here in bed and got thirsty for some cool aid. Another thing is I should of already had my HOFspeech .
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If you've been lurking for the past 6 months, what have you seen and what have you learned? What sticks out the most to you as you head into Day 1? Finally, what was it that finally prompted you to make the leap?
Welcome, by the way.
Well it seems that the everyday promise of roll call keeps a person straight. I finally took the leap cause I want to change, I want to quit. I think about it everyday. I have read several threads of people getting grilled over a quit date.Maybe I was laying here in bed and got thirsty for some cool aid. Another thing is I should of already had my HOFspeech .
Eh, close but not quite. Posting roll every day doesn't keep you straight. Being a man of your word does. Putting your quit above all else keeps you straight. Accepting that you are an addict and that you will always be an addict, won't keep you straight. Accepting that you are an addict for life, but can be a non-using addict can keep you straight. Building a web of support with your quit brothers can keep you straight. Choosing to stop packing your lip with cat turds can, in fact, keep you straight.
You've been lurking for a long time, but it seems like the real nitty grit isn't going to sink in until you've been in the trenches for a while. That's ok. Keep posting roll first thing every day, build up that network of support accountability, and the rest will start to fall into place.
As you said, drink up that kool-aid.
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If you've been lurking for the past 6 months, what have you seen and what have you learned? What sticks out the most to you as you head into Day 1? Finally, what was it that finally prompted you to make the leap?
Welcome, by the way.
Well it seems that the everyday promise of roll call keeps a person straight. I finally took the leap cause I want to change, I want to quit. I think about it everyday. I have read several threads of people getting grilled over a quit date.Maybe I was laying here in bed and got thirsty for some cool aid. Another thing is I should of already had my HOFspeech .
Eh, close but not quite. Posting roll every day doesn't keep you straight. Being a man of your word does. Putting your quit above all else keeps you straight. Accepting that you are an addict and that you will always be an addict, won't keep you straight. Accepting that you are an addict for life, but can be a non-using addict can keep you straight. Building a web of support with your quit brothers can keep you straight. Choosing to stop packing your lip with cat turds can, in fact, keep you straight.
You've been lurking for a long time, but it seems like the real nitty grit isn't going to sink in until you've been in the trenches for a while. That's ok. Keep posting roll first thing every day, build up that network of support accountability, and the rest will start to fall into place.
As you said, drink up that kool-aid.
....what Tuco said.
The only way to "get it" is to get in and get dirty.....and when you are filthy, go ahead and jump in the quit pool. We keep the water warm and the sun always shines. We have umbrellas and drinks, more KTC koolaid, or bottled water if you prefer. Oh....if KO is there, keep in mind he pees in the pool so I add the disclaimer that we are not responsible for what you swallow while in the Quit Pool.
Let's go.....hop to it.
Roll - my promise to myself and a promise to everyone here that I will not put that shit in my mouth for 24 hours, or obtain that drug in any form whatsoever. I promise myself because I am worth it. I promise you and everyone else so you can hold me accountable.
The action of posting keeps me strong. The reason behind doing the action keeps me quit and keeps me here alive for one more day.
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It is also important to be active in the community. Take off your lurker mask and make some friends here. It will give more meaning to your roll (as long as you value keeping your word to friends over strangers).
Most of us are fairly safe to talk to :)
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posted roll this morning, i think i did it right. It seems to be easier using a computer than a cell phone. Thanks for reaching out so quickly and I will have questions over the weekend. Please any good advice from anyone would be appreciated that is browsing and stops here.
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posted roll this morning, i think i did it right. It seems to be easier using a computer than a cell phone. Thanks for reaching out so quickly and I will have questions over the weekend. Please any good advice from anyone would be appreciated that is browsing and stops here.
Welcome aboard. Drink tons of water. Stock up on sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs. Read every nook and cranny of this website.
You are doing it! Be proud of your quit. It's the greatest thing you can do for yourself.
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posted roll this morning, i think i did it right. It seems to be easier using a computer than a cell phone. Thanks for reaching out so quickly and I will have questions over the weekend. Please any good advice from anyone would be appreciated that is browsing and stops here.
Welcome aboard. Drink tons of water. Stock up on sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs. Read every nook and cranny of this website.
You are doing it! Be proud of your quit. It's the greatest thing you can do for yourself.
Welcome operator! Glad you decided to jump into the water, but now it's time to burn the bridge and drink the KTC koolaid. No looking back!
It's kind of crazy, but one thing that helped get me through the first couple of weeks was repeating the phrase, "I don't do that nasty shit anymore!" every time I got a craving. Over time it has helped me develop a hatred for the nic bitch. Water and believe it or not, those red atomic fireballs will also help! I still keep a bag of those handy when I get a tough craving. For me, I much prefer those than trying any of the fake, herbal stuff. To each his own, but it wasn't for me.
Be sure to collect as many digits from your January brothers as possible. That's another good one for your quit tool belt!
Glad to have you here and I'm quit with you today!
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posted roll this morning, i think i did it right. It seems to be easier using a computer than a cell phone. Thanks for reaching out so quickly and I will have questions over the weekend. Please any good advice from anyone would be appreciated that is browsing and stops here.
Welcome aboard. Drink tons of water. Stock up on sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs. Read every nook and cranny of this website.
You are doing it! Be proud of your quit. It's the greatest thing you can do for yourself.
Welcome operator! Glad you decided to jump into the water, but now it's time to burn the bridge and drink the KTC koolaid. No looking back!
It's kind of crazy, but one thing that helped get me through the first couple of weeks was repeating the phrase, "I don't do that nasty shit anymore!" every time I got a craving. Over time it has helped me develop a hatred for the nic bitch. Water and believe it or not, those red atomic fireballs will also help! I still keep a bag of those handy when I get a tough craving. For me, I much prefer those than trying any of the fake, herbal stuff. To each his own, but it wasn't for me.
Be sure to collect as many digits from your January brothers as possible. That's another good one for your quit tool belt!
Glad to have you here and I'm quit with you today!
Great choice operator!
There is a "chat" button at the top right. Usually some badass quitter in there to talk with.
Focus on Today, just today.
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posted roll this morning, i think i did it right. It seems to be easier using a computer than a cell phone. Thanks for reaching out so quickly and I will have questions over the weekend. Please any good advice from anyone would be appreciated that is browsing and stops here.
Welcome aboard. Drink tons of water. Stock up on sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs. Read every nook and cranny of this website.
You are doing it! Be proud of your quit. It's the greatest thing you can do for yourself.
Welcome operator! Glad you decided to jump into the water, but now it's time to burn the bridge and drink the KTC koolaid. No looking back!
It's kind of crazy, but one thing that helped get me through the first couple of weeks was repeating the phrase, "I don't do that nasty shit anymore!" every time I got a craving. Over time it has helped me develop a hatred for the nic bitch. Water and believe it or not, those red atomic fireballs will also help! I still keep a bag of those handy when I get a tough craving. For me, I much prefer those than trying any of the fake, herbal stuff. To each his own, but it wasn't for me.
Be sure to collect as many digits from your January brothers as possible. That's another good one for your quit tool belt!
Glad to have you here and I'm quit with you today!
Great choice operator!
There is a "chat" button at the top right. Usually some badass quitter in there to talk with.
Focus on Today, just today.
Welcome aboard. You've got all the buzz words down....so now it's time to sack up. Everyday you take a step towards getting more and more control back in your life. Unfortunately is a long process. So put your seat belt on and getting ready for the grind.
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operator,
Firstly, welcome, please reach out to me if you ever need anything.
Secondly, I recommend you take some time and write down details about each one of these items here in your introduction:
"Ready to .......
Quit slowly killing myself
Quit hating myself
Quit lying to myself
Quit wasting my money and time on this dog shit"
Describe why you feel you are hating yourself, what types of lies are you facing on a daily basis, how much money are you spending, how has this addiction been ruining your life one day at time.
The reason I recommend this, is every morning you come back to this introduction before posting roll and read it again. Remind yourself of how fuckign miserable your addiction is. Because as time passes and things get good, you will begin to forget the little things that your addiction has done to ruin your life. Never forget!!!!
Do this, and then post roll every fucking day and really understand that roll is a promise, and believe me... before you know it you will be one month out and I cannot even describe how great life is without that shit. Get through this month to save your life.
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Day 58 and 100%, and posting on intros...........looks like BAQ to me.
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Day 58 and 100%, and posting on intros...........looks like BAQ to me.
Thanks for noticing. Going on 60 days . I think what really convinced me was the smell of someone spitting in a cup. The smell of tobacco doesn't appeal to me any more. I truly hate the thought of it. I know by reading on this sight for the last 6 months that hating is what it takes to stay quit. Well I do hate, and I love it. I have such a freedom that I didn't realize was possible. I don't plan useless trips into town, constantly hiding from my wife, no more sore throat, I could go on and on. I have no regrets and very little memory of wanting . Want and will. I have both. I will never put death in my mouth ever again. This is a promise I make to myself once a day along with Jan quitters, my wife and my future. No one but my self can take this promise away. Not a tuff situation, a death in the family, alcohol nothing but my failure. That will not happen.
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Day 58 and 100%, and posting on intros...........looks like BAQ to me.
Thanks for noticing. Going on 60 days . I think what really convinced me was the smell of someone spitting in a cup. The smell of tobacco doesn't appeal to me any more. I truly hate the thought of it. I know by reading on this sight for the last 6 months that hating is what it takes to stay quit. Well I do hate, and I love it. I have such a freedom that I didn't realize was possible. I don't plan useless trips into town, constantly hiding from my wife, no more sore throat, I could go on and on. I have no regrets and very little memory of wanting . Want and will. I have both. I will never put death in my mouth ever again. This is a promise I make to myself once a day along with Jan quitters, my wife and my future. No one but my self can take this promise away. Not a tuff situation, a death in the family, alcohol nothing but my failure. That will not happen.
And once again NAFAR was achieved, and an angel got it's wings.........nice post Operator.