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Title: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on July 22, 2014, 11:23:00 AM
Well today seems as good of day as any. I have been chewing since I have been 15 years old and I am not too far past 23. I have been a pretty consistent user and have gone from the causal chewer to the in denial addict to the guy who has claimed to have quit umpteen million times and always ends up back at square one- being comfortable with the fact that I chew and aignt nothing anybody can do to change that.

Came across this site with a fat lipper in at the office yesterday and after having been on the fence of mustering up the courage to try and go one more round with walking away from it for good, I figured why the hell not!

I have been off the chaw for just about a 20 hours now and I would be lying if I said it wasn't tempting me already. I have made a few weeks and months on occasion but its never a walk in the park. Reading the stories and some of the posts on here is as good as a motivator as any that it can be done and it is all up to me to do it.

I have a beautiful girlfriend I am moving in with and would like clear the first week of pure anxiety and instability while we aren't under the same roof.

This has been a long time coming and have not been comfortable with myself buying tin after tin and telling myself and everyone "This is my last one" and setting a quit date to get to it and say "I still have half a tin, I will start when it is gone". No more denial and no more backing down from the challenge. This is a victory that is worth fighting for and this is a victory I need to prove to myself I can overcome this obstacle.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: AppleJack on July 22, 2014, 11:44:00 AM
Welcome in bro... This is the place you need.
Get yourself involved with your quit group and this site. The Welcome Center has all the info you need to get you going.

Don't be nonchalant about this... Own it. It really is your life on the line.
Freedom is yours for the taking... It's worth it man. It really is.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: basshaug on July 22, 2014, 11:52:00 AM
Cheezehead. Welcome, quitting is the best decision of your life. It sounds like you are ready, and you're lucky to have stumbled into this place at 23.

There are a couple things I've got to say. First, we dont try, hope, or wish here. We quit. And how we quit is by posting roll every day first thing. Roll is the price of admission. It is your word that you will not use nicotine in any form that day. You are promising yourself, me, applejack, cinnamon toast crunch, your quit group, and all of KTC that you will not use nicotine today. We do this early to take using off the table for that day. I bet you can keep your word for one day right?

Head over to the welcome center (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/). Read how to post roll. Then head over to your quit group, October. These guys are bad asses.

Drink a shitload of water, buy some seeds, keep the poison out of your face. In the top right corner you have my number. Text me if you need any help figuring this out or any advice.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Dogman36 on July 22, 2014, 11:58:00 AM
Good call you won't regret it. You might want to have your girlfriend read the Spousal support section.
You are going to be really irritable and mean. This will pass, but give her a heads up.
Just stay quit one craving at a time.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: basshaug on July 22, 2014, 11:59:00 AM
I see you posted roll. Fuckin' A!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Thumblewort on July 22, 2014, 12:01:00 PM
Fukkin A, this Lions fan quits with a Cheezehead today!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Dagranger on July 22, 2014, 12:36:00 PM
Quote from: AppleJack
Welcome in bro... This is the place you need.
Get yourself involved with your quit group and this site. The Welcome Center has all the info you need to get you going.

Don't be nonchalant about this... Own it. It really is your life on the line.
Freedom is yours for the taking... It's worth it man. It really is.

Listen to AppleJack..."Don't be nonchalant about this" Quitting dipping is really serious business and requirtes serious conviction. I have been quit a little over a year, and I have to have had at least 5,000 craves that I have fought off. This whole site is built on accountability....you make a one day promise, then keep that promise. Caving in is not only a disappointment to you, but to hundreds of us who have seen your roll call and made a promise to. That's the difference between this time and every other time you've "tried" to quit. Good luck.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on July 22, 2014, 01:34:00 PM
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: AppleJack
Welcome in bro... This is the place you need.
Get yourself involved with your quit group and this site. The Welcome Center has all the info you need to get you going.

Don't be nonchalant about this... Own it. It really is your life on the line.
Freedom is yours for the taking... It's worth it man. It really is.

Listen to AppleJack..."Don't be nonchalant about this" Quitting dipping is really serious business and requirtes serious conviction. I have been quit a little over a year, and I have to have had at least 5,000 craves that I have fought off. This whole site is built on accountability....you make a one day promise, then keep that promise. Caving in is not only a disappointment to you, but to hundreds of us who have seen your roll call and made a promise to. That's the difference between this time and every other time you've "tried" to quit. Good luck.
Not being nonchalant about it one bit. I am ready to give this habit a boot and I have zero plans of having to try again. I know damn well this isn't as habit you can walk away from scot free. I am grateful for the opportunity to be part of a community with so much tenacity and hatred for the can and so much wisdom and experience in fighting the urge and setting a tone for us young bucks to learn from.

Its not something I take lightly, I don't want to let you guys down no more than I want to let myself down!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: B-loMatt on July 22, 2014, 01:39:00 PM
stay close to KTC as much as you can. Keep reading and getting involved. Hydrate, exercise, post, and make friends; then read some more... PM me if you need anything. The KTC plan works. Drink the kool-aide.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: lighty7 on July 22, 2014, 01:40:00 PM
Quote from: Cheezhead33
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: AppleJack
Welcome in bro... This is the place you need.
Get yourself involved with your quit group and this site. The Welcome Center has all the info you need to get you going.

Don't be nonchalant about this... Own it. It really is your life on the line.
Freedom is yours for the taking... It's worth it man. It really is.

Listen to AppleJack..."Don't be nonchalant about this" Quitting dipping is really serious business and requirtes serious conviction. I have been quit a little over a year, and I have to have had at least 5,000 craves that I have fought off. This whole site is built on accountability....you make a one day promise, then keep that promise. Caving in is not only a disappointment to you, but to hundreds of us who have seen your roll call and made a promise to. That's the difference between this time and every other time you've "tried" to quit. Good luck.
Not being nonchalant about it one bit. I am ready to give this habit a boot and I have zero plans of having to try again. I know damn well this isn't as habit you can walk away from scot free. I am grateful for the opportunity to be part of a community with so much tenacity and hatred for the can and so much wisdom and experience in fighting the urge and setting a tone for us young bucks to learn from.

Its not something I take lightly, I don't want to let you guys down no more than I want to let myself down!
Love the attitude - but it's not a habit it's an addiction. Take advantage of the fact you have found this site and going through with your quit. I found this site years ago - bookmarked it and then steadfastly refused to click on it because the nic bitch was in my head telling me not to! 4 more yrs of stuffing my face with the shit went by in the blink of an eye! Quit now and I'll quit with you every damn day.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: AppleJack on July 22, 2014, 01:55:00 PM
Quote from: lighty7
Quote from: Cheezhead33
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: AppleJack
Welcome in bro... This is the place you need.
Get yourself involved with your quit group and this site. The Welcome Center has all the info you need to get you going.

Don't be nonchalant about this... Own it. It really is your life on the line.
Freedom is yours for the taking... It's worth it man. It really is.

Listen to AppleJack..."Don't be nonchalant about this" Quitting dipping is really serious business and requirtes serious conviction. I have been quit a little over a year, and I have to have had at least 5,000 craves that I have fought off. This whole site is built on accountability....you make a one day promise, then keep that promise. Caving in is not only a disappointment to you, but to hundreds of us who have seen your roll call and made a promise to. That's the difference between this time and every other time you've "tried" to quit. Good luck.
Not being nonchalant about it one bit. I am ready to give this habit a boot and I have zero plans of having to try again. I know damn well this isn't as habit you can walk away from scot free. I am grateful for the opportunity to be part of a community with so much tenacity and hatred for the can and so much wisdom and experience in fighting the urge and setting a tone for us young bucks to learn from.

Its not something I take lightly, I don't want to let you guys down no more than I want to let myself down!
Love the attitude - but it's not a habit it's an addiction. Take advantage of the fact you have found this site and going through with your quit. I found this site years ago - bookmarked it and then steadfastly refused to click on it because the nic bitch was in my head telling me not to! 4 more yrs of stuffing my face with the shit went by in the blink of an eye! Quit now and I'll quit with you every damn day.
Addiction.
I'm glad lighty pointed that out.
Once on this quit path you can never go back. Never have just one. Nicotine addiction doesn't allow any wiggle room. Quitting is all in. We will do it with you every day. Guaranteed.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on July 22, 2014, 06:00:00 PM
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: lighty7
Quote from: Cheezhead33
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: AppleJack
Welcome in bro... This is the place you need.
Get yourself involved with your quit group and this site. The Welcome Center has all the info you need to get you going.

Don't be nonchalant about this... Own it. It really is your life on the line.
Freedom is yours for the taking... It's worth it man. It really is.

Listen to AppleJack..."Don't be nonchalant about this" Quitting dipping is really serious business and requirtes serious conviction. I have been quit a little over a year, and I have to have had at least 5,000 craves that I have fought off. This whole site is built on accountability....you make a one day promise, then keep that promise. Caving in is not only a disappointment to you, but to hundreds of us who have seen your roll call and made a promise to. That's the difference between this time and every other time you've "tried" to quit. Good luck.
Not being nonchalant about it one bit. I am ready to give this habit a boot and I have zero plans of having to try again. I know damn well this isn't as habit you can walk away from scot free. I am grateful for the opportunity to be part of a community with so much tenacity and hatred for the can and so much wisdom and experience in fighting the urge and setting a tone for us young bucks to learn from.

Its not something I take lightly, I don't want to let you guys down no more than I want to let myself down!
Love the attitude - but it's not a habit it's an addiction. Take advantage of the fact you have found this site and going through with your quit. I found this site years ago - bookmarked it and then steadfastly refused to click on it because the nic bitch was in my head telling me not to! 4 more yrs of stuffing my face with the shit went by in the blink of an eye! Quit now and I'll quit with you every damn day.
Addiction.
I'm glad lighty pointed that out.
Once on this quit path you can never go back. Never have just one. Nicotine addiction doesn't allow any wiggle room. Quitting is all in. We will do it with you every day. Guaranteed.
I am all in, I am just about to finish my first day of work completely Nic Free. 11 hour shift behind a desk crunching numbers has taken a toll on my mental capacity and am about ready to wig out! Haha I brought it upon myself though
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Smeds on July 22, 2014, 06:03:00 PM
Quote from: Cheezhead33
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: lighty7
Quote from: Cheezhead33
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: AppleJack
Welcome in bro... This is the place you need.
Get yourself involved with your quit group and this site. The Welcome Center has all the info you need to get you going.

Don't be nonchalant about this... Own it. It really is your life on the line.
Freedom is yours for the taking... It's worth it man. It really is.

Listen to AppleJack..."Don't be nonchalant about this" Quitting dipping is really serious business and requirtes serious conviction. I have been quit a little over a year, and I have to have had at least 5,000 craves that I have fought off. This whole site is built on accountability....you make a one day promise, then keep that promise. Caving in is not only a disappointment to you, but to hundreds of us who have seen your roll call and made a promise to. That's the difference between this time and every other time you've "tried" to quit. Good luck.
Not being nonchalant about it one bit. I am ready to give this habit a boot and I have zero plans of having to try again. I know damn well this isn't as habit you can walk away from scot free. I am grateful for the opportunity to be part of a community with so much tenacity and hatred for the can and so much wisdom and experience in fighting the urge and setting a tone for us young bucks to learn from.

Its not something I take lightly, I don't want to let you guys down no more than I want to let myself down!
Love the attitude - but it's not a habit it's an addiction. Take advantage of the fact you have found this site and going through with your quit. I found this site years ago - bookmarked it and then steadfastly refused to click on it because the nic bitch was in my head telling me not to! 4 more yrs of stuffing my face with the shit went by in the blink of an eye! Quit now and I'll quit with you every damn day.
Addiction.
I'm glad lighty pointed that out.
Once on this quit path you can never go back. Never have just one. Nicotine addiction doesn't allow any wiggle room. Quitting is all in. We will do it with you every day. Guaranteed.
I am all in, I am just about to finish my first day of work completely Nic Free. 11 hour shift behind a desk crunching numbers has taken a toll on my mental capacity and am about ready to wig out! Haha I brought it upon myself though
Welcome brother ... you've kicked nicotine's ass today, keep it up! I like the quit in this one ... smells quitty!

I quit with you today bud. Let some of the talk in October roll off of you ... lots of guys fighting for their life in there. I saw you asked an innocent question and got lit up ... ducks back it, and keep quitting. Definitely get involved, make contacts, help others ... Just don't get discouraged. The beginning is a bitch, power through. PM me if you need digits, or an ear. See you on roll tomorrow ...
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: DirtyHarry10 on July 22, 2014, 08:41:00 PM
I see it was a bit of a rough go in roll call this evening. Sometimes folks will crawl in your ass, but understand that it comes from a place that is willing to help. Just stay the course. Use all the resources available to you on the site. The appetitie and sleep should work itself out. At least I hope it does. I'm coming from the same place. Stay strong brother.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Menace on July 22, 2014, 09:05:00 PM
Ahhhh Shit a cheesehead that I have to support. Welcome to the Asylum and you seem to have a grasp already of what this takes, but it will be worse then you thought guaranteed. With that said, you follow the KTC plan you will quit, stay quit and be a rockstar quitter period. It is a fail proof system if you are a man of your word. Post roll, stay quit for 24 hours on your promise and do it again the next day. Fool proof!

This Vikes fan will quit with you today Cheezshead! SKOL Vikings!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on July 22, 2014, 09:30:00 PM
Quote from: DirtyHarry10
I see it was a bit of a rough go in roll call this evening. Sometimes folks will crawl in your ass, but understand that it comes from a place that is willing to help. Just stay the course. Use all the resources available to you on the site. The appetitie and sleep should work itself out. At least I hope it does. I'm coming from the same place. Stay strong brother.
It may have been a little rough of a go but don't put a label on me, I'm a man of my convictions and if I say I can be held accountable I can be held accountable. I have never come across this site quitting in the past still not sure how to fully take advantage of it, but its a start by posting. Only train I am boarding is the one that leads to tomorrows quit and take it from there, no crave will make me cave... I am doing it for everyone of you guys now, not just for myself
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on July 22, 2014, 09:35:00 PM
Quote from: Menace
Ahhhh Shit a cheesehead that I have to support. Welcome to the Asylum and you seem to have a grasp already of what this takes, but it will be worse then you thought guaranteed. With that said, you follow the KTC plan you will quit, stay quit and be a rockstar quitter period. It is a fail proof system if you are a man of your word. Post roll, stay quit for 24 hours on your promise and do it again the next day. Fool proof!

This Vikes fan will quit with you today Cheezshead! SKOL Vikings!
Ill quit with a Vike any day of the week brother
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Smeds on July 22, 2014, 11:08:00 PM
Quote from: Cheezhead33
Quote from: DirtyHarry10
I see it was a bit of a rough go in roll call this evening. Sometimes folks will crawl in your ass, but understand that it comes from a place that is willing to help. Just stay the course. Use all the resources available to you on the site. The appetitie and sleep should work itself out. At least I hope it does. I'm coming from the same place. Stay strong brother.
It may have been a little rough of a go but don't put a label on me, I'm a man of my convictions and if I say I can be held accountable I can be held accountable. I have never come across this site quitting in the past still not sure how to fully take advantage of it, but its a start by posting. Only train I am boarding is the one that leads to tomorrows quit and take it from there, no crave will make me cave... I am doing it for everyone of you guys now, not just for myself
153 views of your intro as I type this, all who appreciate the fact you realize your quit is YOURS, but affects us all. Thanks man. I'll quit with you today!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: sixercountry on July 23, 2014, 07:57:00 AM
Hey cheez.....go post a day 2 instead of a one. Today is your second day, you deserve it. I love your attitude from the pms we exchanged. Stay close and post roll every day. Welcome brother.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on July 23, 2014, 06:20:00 PM
Well made it through another day at work on day 2... It has been manageable quit thus far... Got a little wonder towards the last hour and the lack of focus and head pounding was catching up quick! Nothing my fellow Titans and an old get couldn't handle, got mind off he crave and on the day! Post work post to follow lifting and softball... First ball game off the chaw, guess where channeling the built up tension! BYE BYE BIRDIE
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: slug.go on July 23, 2014, 07:00:00 PM
Wow a Vikings fan and a Cheesehead bumping uglies and quitting together? 'BanDog' It's another KTC miracle! Glad to see you posting, Cheese. Sent you a PM last night re: hungry. Stay quit
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on July 23, 2014, 07:04:00 PM
Quote from: slug.go
Wow a Vikings fan and a Cheesehead bumping uglies and quitting together? 'BanDog' It's another KTC miracle! Glad to see you posting, Cheese. Sent you a PM last night re: hungry. Stay quit
It's no different than cheering I the football season... I cheer for the foe as long as they aren't playing the packers.... In this case though it's the fucking pro bowl and we are on the same damn team! Fucking All Stars stay quit!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Menace on July 23, 2014, 09:27:00 PM
Mmmmm smell that cheese...........Awesome brutha......keep it up and not much longer the physical addiction is gone and then you only have one front to battle, the mental bitch!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on April 02, 2015, 03:08:00 PM
Update needed
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on April 02, 2015, 03:11:00 PM
You want to talk about a guy with his head so far up his ass, look no further then to read my original intro. Some of you are going to be asking yourself "well what the hell has changed" or something along those lines. Well truth be told I don't know what much has changed. If you read the supporters and all the lines I fed them, you would know exactly what type of person I was. I tried to personify this guy who was so ready to quit and would buy into the system and be a supporter to the team. I tried hard to fake it until I made it, I figured if I just force feed myself into the culture and acted like I was already there I could fit in and eventually I would hone in on the quit. Like some how I was supposed to be free and clear of the nic bitch because I signed my name into roll call, and all the experience from the vets would empower me vicariously through the signing of my name, and all the struggles of the quit would wash away and ignore me because I was supposed to be free by finding this site. Well it went well for a few weeks, then it started getting hard, and then when the struggles were real and the fog came rolling in, I started losing faith in my quit, and I had spent so much time ignoring my people around me (titans) and just going through the motions that I thought I was better on my own. Doing it alone is not the key.

Fellow Goons and Vets alike take notice of this former caver. Know that the person in the intro and even in my 3 answers when I got back needs to be killed. I said I was ready last time and my intro wasn't to be taken as "non-chalant", I proved that was a lie. I said I was going to "try to quit", I have been shown the hard way there is no "trying" and there is no "hoping" there is only doing! I was afraid to be transparent to a bunch of "strangers" so I put on a facade of a man who is to proud to admit his short comings and take in the real meaning of the site. Well, I am just a boy who is too scared too admit that I am a slave and I cannot do this on my own.

I apologize to all those who I ignored when I decided I was going to cave. I am filled with all sorts of anxiety of letting ya'll down again. But, I know I owe it to myself and I owe it to the Titans and every single one of you to not be weak and not give in. If you will quit with me, I can quit for you!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Cheezhead33 on April 02, 2015, 03:19:00 PM
Quote from: Cheezhead33
You want to talk about a guy with his head so far up his ass, look no further then to read my original intro. Some of you are going to be asking yourself "well what the hell has changed" or something along those lines. Well truth be told I don't know what much has changed. If you read the supporters and all the lines I fed them, you would know exactly what type of person I was. I tried to personify this guy who was so ready to quit and would buy into the system and be a supporter to the team. I tried hard to fake it until I made it, I figured if I just force feed myself into the culture and acted like I was already there I could fit in and eventually I would hone in on the quit. Like some how I was supposed to be free and clear of the nic bitch because I signed my name into roll call, and all the experience from the vets would empower me vicariously through the signing of my name, and all the struggles of the quit would wash away and ignore me because I was supposed to be free by finding this site. Well it went well for a few weeks, then it started getting hard, and then when the struggles were real and the fog came rolling in, I started losing faith in my quit, and I had spent so much time ignoring my people around me (titans) and just going through the motions that I thought I was better on my own. Doing it alone is not the key.

Fellow Goons and Vets alike take notice of this former caver. Know that the person in the intro and even in my 3 answers when I got back needs to be killed. I said I was ready last time and my intro wasn't to be taken as "non-chalant", I proved that was a lie. I said I was going to "try to quit", I have been shown the hard way there is no "trying" and there is no "hoping" there is only doing! I was afraid to be transparent to a bunch of "strangers" so I put on a facade of a man who is to proud to admit his short comings and take in the real meaning of the site. Well, I am just a boy who is too scared too admit that I am a slave and I cannot do this on my own.

I apologize to all those who I ignored when I decided I was going to cave. I am filled with all sorts of anxiety of letting ya'll down again. But, I know I owe it to myself and I owe it to the Titans and every single one of you to not be weak and not give in. If you will quit with me, I can quit for you!
Ever since I made this post 3 days into my quit with my new brothers my life has changed and my viewpoint on the KTC community has changed. The quitting sucks, the sleepless nights, the first 72 hours, in and out of the fog! It only sucks so long before it doesn't suck as much, regardless I will can never put myself back to day 1!

I am currently on day 31 of my quit and have never lost sight of what brought me back in the first place. my group is a bunch of badasses and even though we have lost a few in our first month, we have gained confidence and accountability with each other. There are some followers and some leaders but we are all on the same page! We are all quit for ourselves, our goons, and our vets that have paved the way and literally pounded the KTC philosophy into us!

This site has given me an identity in my quit and an outlook on life that one day at a time change can happen! It is still a struggle day in and day out but with this great group of guys and gals, I will prevail and the bitch will never catch me slipping again!
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: JKEdwards on April 02, 2015, 03:21:00 PM
Quote from: Cheezhead33
Quote from: Cheezhead33
You want to talk about a guy with his head so far up his ass, look no further then to read my original intro. Some of you are going to be asking yourself "well what the hell has changed" or something along those lines. Well truth be told I don't know what much has changed. If you read the supporters and all the lines I fed them, you would know exactly what type of person I was. I tried to personify this guy who was so ready to quit and would buy into the system and be a supporter to the team. I tried hard to fake it until I made it, I figured if I just force feed myself into the culture and acted like I was already there I could fit in and eventually I would hone in on the quit. Like some how I was supposed to be free and clear of the nic bitch because I signed my name into roll call, and all the experience from the vets would empower me vicariously through the signing of my name, and all the struggles of the quit would wash away and ignore me because I was supposed to be free by finding this site. Well it went well for a few weeks, then it started getting hard, and then when the struggles were real and the fog came rolling in, I started losing faith in my quit, and I had spent so much time ignoring my people around me (titans) and just going through the motions that I thought I was better on my own. Doing it alone is not the key.

Fellow Goons and Vets alike take notice of this former caver. Know that the person in the intro and even in my 3 answers when I got back needs to be killed. I said I was ready last time and my intro wasn't to be taken as "non-chalant", I proved that was a lie. I said I was going to "try to quit", I have been shown the hard way there is no "trying" and there is no "hoping" there is only doing! I was afraid to be transparent to a bunch of "strangers" so I put on a facade of a man who is to proud to admit his short comings and take in the real meaning of the site. Well, I am just a boy who is too scared too admit that I am a slave and I cannot do this on my own.

I apologize to all those who I ignored when I decided I was going to cave. I am filled with all sorts of anxiety of letting ya'll down again. But, I know I owe it to myself and I owe it to the Titans and every single one of you to not be weak and not give in. If you will quit with me, I can quit for you!
Ever since I made this post 3 days into my quit with my new brothers my life has changed and my viewpoint on the KTC community has changed. The quitting sucks, the sleepless nights, the first 72 hours, in and out of the fog! It only sucks so long before it doesn't suck as much, regardless I will can never put myself back to day 1!

I am currently on day 31 of my quit and have never lost sight of what brought me back in the first place. my group is a bunch of badasses and even though we have lost a few in our first month, we have gained confidence and accountability with each other. There are some followers and some leaders but we are all on the same page! We are all quit for ourselves, our goons, and our vets that have paved the way and literally pounded the KTC philosophy into us!

This site has given me an identity in my quit and an outlook on life that one day at a time change can happen! It is still a struggle day in and day out but with this great group of guys and gals, I will prevail and the bitch will never catch me slipping again!
Happy to quit with you today. Just keep it one day at a time, and stay true to yourself, and the rest of the Goons and you are good in my book. Don't give up on us, and we won't give up on you. Simple as that. Remember if you have a rough day, you have my digits. Rant all you need.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: danojeno on April 02, 2015, 08:49:00 PM
Quote from: JKEdwards
Quote from: Cheezhead33
Quote from: Cheezhead33
You want to talk about a guy with his head so far up his ass, look no further then to read my original intro. Some of you are going to be asking yourself "well what the hell has changed" or something along those lines. Well truth be told I don't know what much has changed. If you read the supporters and all the lines I fed them, you would know exactly what type of person I was. I tried to personify this guy who was so ready to quit and would buy into the system and be a supporter to the team. I tried hard to fake it until I made it, I figured if I just force feed myself into the culture and acted like I was already there I could fit in and eventually I would hone in on the quit. Like some how I was supposed to be free and clear of the nic bitch because I signed my name into roll call, and all the experience from the vets would empower me vicariously through the signing of my name, and all the struggles of the quit would wash away and ignore me because I was supposed to be free by finding this site. Well it went well for a few weeks, then it started getting hard, and then when the struggles were real and the fog came rolling in, I started losing faith in my quit, and I had spent so much time ignoring my people around me (titans) and just going through the motions that I thought I was better on my own. Doing it alone is not the key.

Fellow Goons and Vets alike take notice of this former caver. Know that the person in the intro and even in my 3 answers when I got back needs to be killed. I said I was ready last time and my intro wasn't to be taken as "non-chalant", I proved that was a lie. I said I was going to "try to quit", I have been shown the hard way there is no "trying" and there is no "hoping" there is only doing! I was afraid to be transparent to a bunch of "strangers" so I put on a facade of a man who is to proud to admit his short comings and take in the real meaning of the site. Well, I am just a boy who is too scared too admit that I am a slave and I cannot do this on my own.

I apologize to all those who I ignored when I decided I was going to cave. I am filled with all sorts of anxiety of letting ya'll down again. But, I know I owe it to myself and I owe it to the Titans and every single one of you to not be weak and not give in. If you will quit with me, I can quit for you!
Ever since I made this post 3 days into my quit with my new brothers my life has changed and my viewpoint on the KTC community has changed. The quitting sucks, the sleepless nights, the first 72 hours, in and out of the fog! It only sucks so long before it doesn't suck as much, regardless I will can never put myself back to day 1!

I am currently on day 31 of my quit and have never lost sight of what brought me back in the first place. my group is a bunch of badasses and even though we have lost a few in our first month, we have gained confidence and accountability with each other. There are some followers and some leaders but we are all on the same page! We are all quit for ourselves, our goons, and our vets that have paved the way and literally pounded the KTC philosophy into us!

This site has given me an identity in my quit and an outlook on life that one day at a time change can happen! It is still a struggle day in and day out but with this great group of guys and gals, I will prevail and the bitch will never catch me slipping again!
Happy to quit with you today. Just keep it one day at a time, and stay true to yourself, and the rest of the Goons and you are good in my book. Don't give up on us, and we won't give up on you. Simple as that. Remember if you have a rough day, you have my digits. Rant all you need.
Brings a tear to my eye! Keep rockin' it Cheeze, glad to be quit with you Today.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: JKEdwards on May 13, 2015, 12:25:00 PM
Quote from: Cheezhead33
I will prevail and the bitch will never catch me slipping again!
But, you slipped. Not just a slip. You fucking jumped for that smoke.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: Nolaq on May 13, 2015, 12:38:00 PM
Quote from: JKEdwards
Quote from: Cheezhead33
I will prevail and the bitch will never catch me slipping again!
But, you slipped. Not just a slip. You fucking jumped for that smoke.
Ooops.
Title: Re: Enough Saying More Doing
Post by: 30yraddict on May 13, 2015, 07:39:00 PM
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: JKEdwards
Quote from: Cheezhead33
I will prevail and the bitch will never catch me slipping again!
But, you slipped. Not just a slip. You fucking jumped for that smoke.
Ooops.
a slip implies that it was somehow accidental.

there is nothing accidental about a cave. it is a deliberate act.

why are you here if you are simply going to shit yourself every time you have a weak moment?

ferfucksake!