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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: steve65 on September 13, 2011, 03:41:00 AM
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hello..my name is steve..im new here and i hope im doing this right...i am 46 years old as of the 9th..i started chewing 15 years ago...2 to 3 cans easy every day....along with 6 sodas..been doing this for 15 years.i have tried to quit 1000 times.prayed..put down the can in the name of god.everything i could try..i have...i am a shell of a man..have lost myself somewhere through all these years...i want to quit so bad..but nothing works...i found this site....was hoping to find peace here..what do i need to do next...im not sure...................i spend every day and night dreaming of what i want to be...just results in more shame and failure
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Nice to see you here, brother. Seems like you have already admitted to yourself that you are in fact an ADDICT. Great, so is everyone else in here. First thing you want to do is click on the Welcome Center Link at the top of the page (it's Pink). Read around in there. Then, flush all of your lip shit, go to the December Quit Group and post roll. Posting roll holds you accountable for your quit each day. Post roll everyday and keep the shit out of your mouth. Reach out for help when you need it. Remember, quit means no nicotine of any sort in flowing through your body. Period!
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sorry..but where is the roll call part
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index.php?showtopic=5162 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5162)
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hello..my name is steve..im new here and i hope im doing this right...i am 46 years old as of the 9th..i started chewing 15 years ago...2 to 3 cans easy every day....along with 6 sodas..been doing this for 15 years.i have tried to quit 1000 times.prayed..put down the can in the name of god.everything i could try..i have...i am a shell of a man..have lost myself somewhere through all these years...i want to quit so bad..but nothing works...i found this site....was hoping to find peace here..what do i need to do next...im not sure...................i spend every day and night dreaming of what i want to be...just results in more shame and failure
You're doing it right. Look forward to seeing you in December group. Read the directions and watch the video in the Welcome Center link above in pink. We're still fresh quitters in the December group, so not everyone has posting roll all figured out, but if someone screws it up, there's usually a vet to fix it up until we've got it down.
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hello..my name is steve..im new here and i hope im doing this right...i am 46 years old as of the 9th..i started chewing 15 years ago...2 to 3 cans easy every day....along with 6 sodas..been doing this for 15 years.i have tried to quit 1000 times.prayed..put down the can in the name of god.everything i could try..i have...i am a shell of a man..have lost myself somewhere through all these years...i want to quit so bad..but nothing works...i found this site....was hoping to find peace here..what do i need to do next...im not sure...................i spend every day and night dreaming of what i want to be...just results in more shame and failure
Steve: Welcome aboard! Tried and proven on this site is the dedication quit , one day at a time! Post early and promise not to stuff that shit in your piehole today, and repeat tomorrow! Proud to be quit with you, and if you need help give me a PM. greg
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Welcome to the grind Steve. Glad to be quit with you. It ain't a walk in the park but there is plenty of info and good people to help along the way.
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Welcome Steve65, glad to be quit with you - make the promise each day and live up to it that day - forget about tomorrow and the next day.
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hello..my name is steve..im new here and i hope im doing this right...i am 46 years old as of the 9th..i started chewing 15 years ago...2 to 3 cans easy every day....along with 6 sodas..been doing this for 15 years.i have tried to quit 1000 times.prayed..put down the can in the name of god.everything i could try..i have...i am a shell of a man..have lost myself somewhere through all these years...i want to quit so bad..but nothing works...i found this site....was hoping to find peace here..what do i need to do next...im not sure...................i spend every day and night dreaming of what i want to be...just results in more shame and failure
Welcome aboard Steve. You'll be getting a lengthy welcome - and "How To" - letter from me. But just a couple of points I need to make to you here....
You said you "tried" everything to quit.
We don't Try at KTC. We don't Hope. We don't "Give it our best shot".
We QUIT. We COMMIT. We give our oaths as men and women, to each other that, whatever comes, we absolutely will not use nicotine today.
Every one of us is an addict. Say it with me now..."I AM A NICOTINE ADDICT". Say it over and over to yourself until you get that crystal clear.
Now this one..."I WILL BE A NICOTINE ADDICT FOREVER".
That's right. You are an addict and you always will be. So am I. So is every other person on KTC.
Only we don't use nicotine. Following the rules laid down here has resulted in thousands of helpless nicotine addicts to get clean and stay clean. It will work for you too.
But never try. Give us your word. Then keep it.
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Welcome Steve, 60 days ago I too was a victim of 1000's "attempts" to quit. Now I am quit today and I can promise you and everyone else here I am not going to dip or use any form of nicotine today. I can handle that, I can get thru today, if I start to question that at all, I will hop back on this site and do a little reading to remind myself of my promise for the day.
All you did when you signed on here was get thousands of people who want to help you. You are not alone in this fight, I will jump in that foxhole and fight next to you today.
I quit with you today.
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I see you posted roll, GREAT!!!!! Now all you have to do is keep your word to us that you will not dip today. Post roll tomorrow and do it all over again. Do not think of forever, just today. Forever is too much for the human mind to comprehend. Way to much anxiety in forever. Live and quit TODAY!
You can do this my brother. One day at a time. Hell, one hour at a time if you need.
Remember, you are quit. You ain't trying anything. YOU ARE QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wow..you guys are really supportive ....thanks alot....
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Wow..you guys are really supportive ....thanks alot....
That is why our way works. You keep your word and we got your back.
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headed to work......have a good day all...
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Stay strong Steve. Fight brother. Bunch of folks here to support you. Give it your best.
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hey guys.....just got home from work....it has been 24 hours since i last chewed.................................holy shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a long day............are they all like this......hell........i never thought 24 hours could last so long.......i have eaten a whole dang bag of sunflower seeds....1 bag beef jerkey...............and 5 liters of water..........................all on my first day!!!!!!!..................longest day of my life
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hey guys.....just got home from work....it has been 24 hours since i last chewed.................................holy shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a long day............are they all like this......hell........i never thought 24 hours could last so long.......i have eaten a whole dang bag of sunflower seeds....1 bag beef jerkey...............and 5 liters of water..........................all on my first day!!!!!!!..................longest day of my life
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hey guys.....just got home from work....it has been 24 hours since i last chewed.................................holy shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a long day............are they all like this......hell........i never thought 24 hours could last so long.......i have eaten a whole dang bag of sunflower seeds....1 bag beef jerkey...............and 5 liters of water..........................all on my first day!!!!!!!..................longest day of my life
Steve......the days are long at first but they do get better! I'm at 34 days and feel great. My craves were very controlable for the last 2 weeks but just kicked back in yesterday......bought two cans of fake dip yesterday to get through it because I am eating like a damn pig. The fake stuff worked well for me yesterday afternoon thoug......its actually not bad. At least it keeps me occupied!
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thanks.............maybe ill try that......................so you do feel better after awhile...................ive heard self esteem and confidence of self comes back to................really hope so..........need a BIG change in my life
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Hang in there man. The first 3-4 days are hell, but it will get better. Don't worry about how much you are eating. A little weight is a lot easier to get rid of than a big ass tumor in you jaw!
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The days will speed up man, I promise. Everyday will be a little smoother and faster. Keep the Quit strong my December brother.
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thanks.............maybe ill try that......................so you do feel better after awhile...................ive heard self esteem and confidence of self comes back to................really hope so..........need a BIG change in my life
Here is a little bit about time distortion. Like Parputt said, time distortion is at its worst at the beginning. It will get better.
http://killthecan.org/robs/time_perception.asp (http://killthecan.org/robs/time_perception.asp)
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thanks guys.....just got up,,,,,going to work......here we go again...................lol----i wish i could just sleep for 3 straight days lol
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hey guys....am i doing this right,,,is this where i post daily to everybody?
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hey guys....am i doing this right,,,is this where i post daily to everybody?
Here are the instructions on how to post roll:
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Your quit group is December 2011
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hey guys....am i doing this right,,,is this where i post daily to everybody?
Steve,
You post roll call each day in your quit group, which is December in your case.
Watch this video to learn how to post.
http://www.killthecan.org/roll/ (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
Let me know if I can help
Steve
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well...i actually meant is this where i rant or rave...lol
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well...i actually meant is this where i rant or rave...lol
Rave away friend.
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hey guys.....just got home from work....it has been 24 hours since i last chewed.................................holy shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a long day............are they all like this......hell........i never thought 24 hours could last so long.......i have eaten a whole dang bag of sunflower seeds....1 bag beef jerkey...............and 5 liters of water..........................all on my first day!!!!!!!..................longest day of my life
I so know what you mean. The kids went off to school and I had some errands to run then it was "lunch date" with my wife. We have a place here in SLC called Brewvies, they serve burgers and beer and the like while you see a movie. Little early for beer so I had a big ol burger, and ate a mound of fries that would choke a donkey. I'm a little fella too, 5'10" 155. So we get home and an hour later I am eating ice cream which I never eat, and shoveling chocolate Nutella in with a box of the kids Nilla wafers. A couple blow pops and chewing the hell out of a pack of Tea Tree oil soaked toothpicks from Whole Foods.
Who knew this chew habit kept all this gluttony at bay...LOL.
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Work is going to be tough for me too....
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Hang in there brother. You can do it.
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hey guys....thanks....im at work now.......damn long night....i have a liter of water....bag of seeds ( thats sunflower seed )..2 bags mms....soda pop...pop corn....and cup of ice.......ive been doing those things all night......damn!!!!!!.......it will be 48 hours in 3 hours....i know it dont seem that long.....but god dang this is tough......i hate the fact we are so easily consumed by addiction....it pisses me of that we are made so weak....and have to fight so hard to get our life back......everybody said pray steve....he will help............bullshit....i have prayed 20 years........this is me now.....not him....had a scare...so i knew i needed to quit......why the fuck didnt the almighty one help me years ago instead of letting me suffer like this.......................wow...sorry man...i started typing and all this came out......just feeling bad i guess......see you later guys
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You are NOT weak.
Your body is not weak. It is just a machine and some of us hooked the pleasure receptor wires to the wrong thing...like nicotine. Your machine is now wired so that it tells you what you want.
You are STRONG. You can wait it out while the wires reconnect the right way and you no longer give in. You have made the decision. God can't help us and neither can Santa Claus. It is us, you and me and all these other guys that DECIDE not to drive to 7/11 for another can.
Now just be STRONG, and stand by the decision you made. I'm right there with you.
I am amazed that I just keep looking at this site and it helps.
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hey guys....thanks....im at work now.......damn long night....i have a liter of water....bag of seeds ( thats sunflower seed )..2 bags mms....soda pop...pop corn....and cup of ice.......ive been doing those things all night......damn!!!!!!.......it will be 48 hours in 3 hours....i know it dont seem that long.....but god dang this is tough......i hate the fact we are so easily consumed by addiction....it pisses me of that we are made so weak....and have to fight so hard to get our life back......everybody said pray steve....he will help............bullshit....i have prayed 20 years........this is me now.....not him....had a scare...so i knew i needed to quit......why the fuck didnt the almighty one help me years ago instead of letting me suffer like this.......................wow...sorry man...i started typing and all this came out......just feeling bad i guess......see you later guys
Hey, Steve, I just wanted to chime in here about the stuff you're consuming. It does seem to be really loaded down with the carbs (starches, sugars natural and processed, etc) and not much protein.
Don't worry, I'm not going to recommend quitting the foods you like, but I've read a lot on brain function, and our brains actually do need a good bit of protein, just like the rest of our bodies. If you can make a way to include some lean meats, beans, fat free cottage cheese, oatmeal, eggs, etc, it'll probably go some way toward helping your body and your nerves feel more satisfied.
Not to confuse you, you still probably have a few more days of jitters and so forth, but getting some good protein will help.
Oh, and by the way, hell yes you can rant and rave. Posting roll every day give you carte blanche to do just about anything except use nicotine, and we can take WAY more abuse than anyone else, so let us have it, full force.
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thanks gump......the way im feeling....i might just go off a bit....so forgive me in advance.........thanks for the food ideas.... im eating ok at meals......the stuff i mentioned is just to put in my mouth till i eat......it really seems that EVERY damn hour holds some sort of trigger..lol
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thanks gump......the way im feeling....i might just go off a bit....so forgive me in advance.........thanks for the food ideas.... im eating ok at meals......the stuff i mentioned is just to put in my mouth till i eat......it really seems that EVERY damn hour holds some sort of trigger..lol
Yep, sure sign of a Quitter. You're doing great Steve. When you emerge from the craves and the fog, you'll feel like a fucking champion in this arena, and you'll use this feeling to take on your next dragon. Just keep on, one day at a time. Come back tomorrow and promise me you won't use nicotine.
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ok gump.....i promise
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Way to go Steve. Triggers haven't been so bad for me. Maybe thats just me trying to rationalize it right now though. But physically I'm hurting right now. I feel fine during the day and at night I feel like I'm gonna die. I'm getting sick, headaches, chills, heat stroke and whatever other sign of death there is.
It's been 4 days now and its gotten better at least. So I have that going for me. Sitting here all day and going one day at a time has helped so much. This is 4 days longer than I've gone when trying to quit.
Hope you at least feel better than me right now.
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sorry bud.....here i am having a pity party ,,,,not even thinking about anyone else,,,,sorry....hey...i read on here about the DAY 4....seems like this is one of the hardest ones....but the guy said its just like evil spirits leaving your body.....and that everything is just trying to go back to normal....its ok bud...we should enjoy this pain....it means we are going to win!!!,,,,you promise today.....ill promise today...i wont let you down......ill suffer right along side of you....WE ARE QUIT
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sorry bud.....here i am having a pity party ,,,,not even thinking about anyone else,,,,sorry....hey...i read on here about the DAY 4....seems like this is one of the hardest ones....but the guy said its just like evil spirits leaving your body.....and that everything is just trying to go back to normal....its ok bud...we should enjoy this pain....it means we are going to win!!!,,,,you promise today.....ill promise today...i wont let you down......ill suffer right along side of you....WE ARE QUIT
No need to say sorry. I'm just talking about my experience. I would rather feel like this than go back to that bitch nicotine. All I've done is complain tonight. But I will get past it.
See you at roll call when I wake up in the morning.
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All the bullshit topped out at about a week for me. Finally this morning, Day 16 for the first time since the quit I didn't think about a chew until I got to work and logged on to KTC. This shit works man. Quit for today, they'll add up and you'll see that you'll think less and less about it. You're doing great, keep it up quit brother!
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ok gump.....i promise
Great.
earn it.
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This day 3 is a real bitch!!!!!!!!!!!
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This day 3 is a real bitch!!!!!!!!!!!
The nic is just about out of your body. Your quit will change soon. Day 3, awesome work!
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Great work steve . The coming days will be awesome for you . Stay strong and stay quit !
brainsore
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thanks for the reply guys.....i just passed 72 hours......omg!!!........please tell me this is worth it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....i know....i know it is,,,,,,just need to hear.........GOD DANG my head hurts
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thanks for the reply guys.....i just passed 72 hours......omg!!!........please tell me this is worth it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....i know....i know it is,,,,,,just need to hear.........GOD DANG my head hurts
Steve it is damn well worth it bud!! Stay strong and keep treading onward one day at a time! Proud to be quit with you. nico
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HEY EVERYONE,,,,HEADED TO WORK.....DAY 4....AND I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE BEAT ME BUT GOOD......but im still quit
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HEY EVERYONE,,,,HEADED TO WORK.....DAY 4....AND I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE BEAT ME BUT GOOD......but im still quit
Keep it quit! Each day gets a little better.
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I wanted to thank you guys for helping me so far....never thought i could say i have not chewed in almost 4 days....havnt called anyone personally..kinda nervous about that... but today is a wierd day...seems harder than yesterday...but i actually feel better....anyway..im at work and just wanted to say thanks
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I wanted to thank you guys for helping me so far....never thought i could say i have not chewed in almost 4 days....havnt called anyone personally..kinda nervous about that... but today is a wierd day...seems harder than yesterday...but i actually feel better....anyway..im at work and just wanted to say thanks
65 days ago I made the same decision you made earlier this week. I am proud of you and believe me when I tell you, it does get easier. NOT EASY, but EASIER. We are all here for you if you need it.
jmiah
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I wanted to thank you guys for helping me so far....never thought i could say i have not chewed in almost 4 days....havnt called anyone personally..kinda nervous about that... but today is a wierd day...seems harder than yesterday...but i actually feel better....anyway..im at work and just wanted to say thanks
Just remember how bad those first few days sucked and remember that if you start dipping again you gotta go through them all over again.
You got this man!
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thanks all....i have a family reunion till probably monday or tuesday ...middle of the woods.....if my cell works ill just try to text what day im on....my phone dont work with all the cut and paste stuff....thanks for the support guys ....im feeling good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Keep the quit strong. Just post your days and we'll fix it for you. Have a great reunion and don't lose sight!
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thanks all....i have a family reunion till probably monday or tuesday ...middle of the woods.....if my cell works ill just try to text what day im on....my phone dont work with all the cut and paste stuff....thanks for the support guys ....im feeling good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tell Uncle Daddy I sez hi!
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thanks all....i have a family reunion till probably monday or tuesday ...middle of the woods.....if my cell works ill just try to text what day im on....my phone dont work with all the cut and paste stuff....thanks for the support guys ....im feeling good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tell Uncle Daddy I sez hi!
Stevie, think about this ole redneck, when you chomp down on some of ole Aunt Salleys homemade made from scratch nanner puddin!! Proud to be quit with you brother! nico
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Hey guys..just got where i have cellphone service....read your posts....thank you ..you guys are damn awrsome....ok...still cant post except for my cellphone....so i am proud to ask you to please post me for today....which is now day 7!!!.. never thought i could really be on day 7 and no chew.....thank you guys so much for your support...really does help me
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Hey guys..just got where i have cellphone service....read your posts....thank you ..you guys are damn awrsome....ok...still cant post except for my cellphone....so i am proud to ask you to please post me for today....which is now day 7!!!.. never thought i could really be on day 7 and no chew.....thank you guys so much for your support...really does help me
Hey Steve was that dueling banjos I heard playing in the background? 'crackup'
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What?
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What?
Family reunion in the woods...Uncle Daddy...Aunt Salley's nanner puddin...soundin like a deep south kind thing like Deliverance..
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Wow.........anyways it was a great reunion....everybody was smokin.....kinda stayed to myself...lol.....seems like day 7 is harder than day 3...... not sure why.....but damn!!
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Wow.........anyways it was a great reunion....everybody was smokin.....kinda stayed to myself...lol.....seems like day 7 is harder than day 3...... not sure why.....but damn!!
Congrats on day 7 - a week is a big deal! After a while it will start to sink in that you are in control of your life again. You might still have to keep your mouth busy with something but at least you'll have a choice besides dip. For some reason around day 16 I really started feeling free and moral improved a ton.
Keep up the great quit!
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Great....thanks man....ill just have to be a little more patient.