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Title: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on March 05, 2014, 12:29:00 PM
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on March 05, 2014, 12:29:00 PM
Hello everyone,

I'm here for the same reason as everyone else, dipping did not result in me running faster or jumping higher, but not for lack of trying to convince myself it was a necessity in life. The significant driving force for me is one word:

Daisy

This is the name of a little girl who is about 8 years old who actually looks very similar to my sister in a very haunting way. I say haunting because little Daisy has brain cancer, and it is a terrifying ordeal. I was reading about Daisy, who is the daughter of a family friend, and I reached over to my can. I asked myself, "What are you doing?" This poor little girl is suffering and losing her childhood over a disease she did nothing to get, but I was playing Russian Roulette.

As a result of the awakening, I've since put the can down and have rid myself of the evilness. Looking forward to a life without nicotine.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: tarpon17 on March 05, 2014, 01:02:00 PM
Glad you're here, even if you're from tu. Wealth of knowledge here and the best support anywhere.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: AppleJack on March 05, 2014, 01:04:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
Hello everyone,

I'm here for the same reason as everyone else, dipping did not result in me running faster or jumping higher, but not for lack of trying to convince myself it was a necessity in life. The significant driving force for me is one word:

Daisy

This is the name of a little girl who is about 8 years old who actually looks very similar to my sister in a very haunting way. I say haunting because little Daisy has brain cancer, and it is a terrifying ordeal. I was reading about Daisy, who is the daughter of a family friend, and I reached over to my can. I asked myself, "What are you doing?" This poor little girl is suffering and losing her childhood over a disease she did nothing to get, but I was playing Russian Roulette.

As a result of the awakening, I've since put the can down and have rid myself of the evilness. Looking forward to a life without nicotine.

As commendable as your stated reason may be... it won't work.

You have to quit for you.
You.
Outside components can be a great motivator/inspiration but it boils down to quitting for you. You're the one who is an addict. You're the one whose health is affected. You're the one. See... as an addict, you'll find some way, at some point, to talk yourself into "just one". Especially if it's for someone else. It's too easy to blame them or whatever other flavor of the moment excuse you, as an addict, cook up.

We want YOU to quit! Get yourself up to the Welcome Center link at the top of the page. It's got everything you need to get rollin'. Stick around... be a better you.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: slug.go on March 05, 2014, 01:04:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
Hello everyone,

I'm here for the same reason as everyone else, dipping did not result in me running faster or jumping higher, but not for lack of trying to convince myself it was a necessity in life. The significant driving force for me is one word:

Daisy

This is the name of a little girl who is about 8 years old who actually looks very similar to my sister in a very haunting way. I say haunting because little Daisy has brain cancer, and it is a terrifying ordeal. I was reading about Daisy, who is the daughter of a family friend, and I reached over to my can. I asked myself, "What are you doing?" This poor little girl is suffering and losing her childhood over a disease she did nothing to get, but I was playing Russian Roulette.

As a result of the awakening, I've since put the can down and have rid myself of the evilness. Looking forward to a life without nicotine.
Welcome aboard...powerful motivator. Lots of valuable info spread out on these pages. Look around, see what you can find. Good to see you in Chat today. QLF!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Mogul on March 05, 2014, 01:47:00 PM
AppleJack is absolutely correct. He is not questioning your motivation or taking anything away from your love of Daisy. However, we have seen it too many times, people quit for kids or wife or friend etc. They all go back to the can. Love yourself more than you love Daisy and quit for YOU.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Derk40 on March 05, 2014, 02:36:00 PM
Quote from: mogul
AppleJack is absolutely correct.  He is not questioning your motivation or taking anything away from your love of Daisy.  However, we have seen it too many times, people quit for kids or wife or friend etc.  They all go back to the can.  Love yourself more than you love Daisy and quit for YOU.
Nice job posting roll for day 2! Great to have you here and quit. We quit here ODAAT. Don't worry about the past or the future. Just today.

Some others said this, but it is really important... this is one of those things that you need to be selfish about. This time it is absolutely about you. Noone else can do this but you. You are the only one that can stay quit. It has nothing to do with anyone but you.

When the nic B comes knocking... and she will... you are the one that needs to lay her out. You and you alone.

You CAN do this. I will quit with you today!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Wt57 on March 05, 2014, 02:39:00 PM
Quote from: mogul
AppleJack is absolutely correct. He is not questioning your motivation or taking anything away from your love of Daisy. However, we have seen it too many times, people quit for kids or wife or friend etc. They all go back to the can. Love yourself more than you love Daisy and quit for YOU.
I guess I read longhorn a little different. As he sees daisy dying from cancer because of nothing she did, he sees that he is killing himself and recognizes the stupidity of that action. I guess I see that as a very good reason to quit. It is the "awakening" that strikes me. Every addict must accept that their life is out of control and unmanageable before they can begin recovery. The many times that so many of us made failed attempts to quit proves our lack of control. I've told my story of setting with my friend as he died with no face from oral cancer and I kept on dipping. I wish my awakening had happened then, it would have saved me 25+ years of slavery, but it didn't. My awakening came over a 6 month period of deciding rather I would quit or die. I knew I couldn't dip and live anymore. I personally chose to live even though it was at the time a very difficult choice.
So, my thought is; if daisy awakens 'your' desire to gain freedom I'm 100% with you longhorn. If what you are saying is that looking at daisy makes you realize what a selfish prick you've been by abusing your body with no thought of what it would lead to. And you desire more for yourself, You are awakening.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Mogul on March 05, 2014, 02:51:00 PM
Quote from: Wt57
Quote from: mogul
AppleJack is absolutely correct.  He is not questioning your motivation or taking anything away from your love of Daisy.  However, we have seen it too many times, people quit for kids or wife or friend etc.  They all go back to the can.  Love yourself more than you love Daisy and quit for YOU.
I guess I read longhorn a little different. As he sees daisy dying from cancer because of nothing she did, he sees that he is killing himself and recognizes the stupidity of that action. I guess I see that as a very good reason to quit. It is the "awakening" that strikes me. Every addict must accept that their life is out of control and unmanageable before they can begin recovery. The many times that so many of us made failed attempts to quit proves our lack of control. I've told my story of setting with my friend as he died with no face from oral cancer and I kept on dipping. I wish my awakening had happened then, it would have saved me 25+ years of slavery, but it didn't. My awakening came over a 6 month period of deciding rather I would quit or die. I knew I couldn't dip and live anymore. I personally chose to live even though it was at the time a very difficult choice.
So, my thought is; if daisy awakens 'your' desire to gain freedom I'm 100% with you longhorn. If what you are saying is that looking at daisy makes you realize what a selfish prick you've been by abusing your body with no thought of what it would lead to. And you desire more for yourself, You are awakening.
I reread his intro wt, and I think you are correct. either way, I think he knows we support him and want to him to stay quit.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: AppleJack on March 05, 2014, 02:54:00 PM
Quote from: Wt57
Quote from: mogul
AppleJack is absolutely correct.  He is not questioning your motivation or taking anything away from your love of Daisy.  However, we have seen it too many times, people quit for kids or wife or friend etc.  They all go back to the can.  Love yourself more than you love Daisy and quit for YOU.
I guess I read longhorn a little different. As he sees daisy dying from cancer because of nothing she did, he sees that he is killing himself and recognizes the stupidity of that action. I guess I see that as a very good reason to quit. It is the "awakening" that strikes me. Every addict must accept that their life is out of control and unmanageable before they can begin recovery. The many times that so many of us made failed attempts to quit proves our lack of control. I've told my story of setting with my friend as he died with no face from oral cancer and I kept on dipping. I wish my awakening had happened then, it would have saved me 25+ years of slavery, but it didn't. My awakening came over a 6 month period of deciding rather I would quit or die. I knew I couldn't dip and live anymore. I personally chose to live even though it was at the time a very difficult choice.
So, my thought is; if daisy awakens 'your' desire to gain freedom I'm 100% with you longhorn. If what you are saying is that looking at daisy makes you realize what a selfish prick you've been by abusing your body with no thought of what it would lead to. And you desire more for yourself, You are awakening.

This ^^^ is good stuff.

Bottom line Longhorn... We want you to quit and this is the best place to do it. Let me know if I can help in any way.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on March 06, 2014, 09:47:00 AM
To clarify, I'm not quitting for anyone else. I'm quitting for the following reasons:

1. I don't want to die of cancer. While I can't control what happens to me in the future, I can control if dipping was the cause or not.

2. Self Control - Dipping is a weakness, being a slave to something. I want to take back my self control.

3. Ephesians 5:18 says, "Do not get drunk with wine, but be filled with the Holy Spirit." I draw a parallel here because I think the purpose of this scripture is to say that your mind should be filled with the Holy Spirit and not be in control or weakened by a substance. Nicotine has altered our mind and we look to it for comfort and a myriad of other reasons. I want to look to the One that is actually the Healer and makes all things new rather than have my mind be controlled by nicotine.

Thank you all for the fantastic support. This is day 3 and I woke up feeling a great change in my life. There is so much satisfaction in enduring the pain. I've saved $15 already and I don't feel like I'm having to hide something all day.

LH
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: kayakdude on March 06, 2014, 10:31:00 AM
LH,

I am day 23....it seems like just yesterday that I quit.

We all quit for many reasons but ultimately we all quit for the same reason...we have had enough and it was time to man up.

You got the resolve.

Take it ODAAT.

You will find what you need here.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: AppleJack on March 06, 2014, 11:34:00 AM
Quote from: longhorn83
To clarify, I'm not quitting for anyone else. I'm quitting for the following reasons:

1. I don't want to die of cancer. While I can't control what happens to me in the future, I can control if dipping was the cause or not.

2. Self Control - Dipping is a weakness, being a slave to something. I want to take back my self control.

3. Ephesians 5:18 says, "Do not get drunk with wine, but be filled with the Holy Spirit." I draw a parallel here because I think the purpose of this scripture is to say that your mind should be filled with the Holy Spirit and not be in control or weakened by a substance. Nicotine has altered our mind and we look to it for comfort and a myriad of other reasons. I want to look to the One that is actually the Healer and makes all things new rather than have my mind be controlled by nicotine.

Thank you all for the fantastic support. This is day 3 and I woke up feeling a great change in my life. There is so much satisfaction in enduring the pain. I've saved $15 already and I don't feel like I'm having to hide something all day.

LH

Bro... the feeling of a burden being lifted is something we can all preach on. The lying and hiding... it's been too much for too long. Day by day it gets better. Better than you would think possible. Check your Inbox(1) from me...
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Sh4string on March 06, 2014, 11:38:00 AM
To me it does not matter what "wakes you up" to all the horror that dipping actually is, what matters is that you woke up and quit. We control very little of our world, but we certainly control whether or not we put that shit in our mouth and poison ourselves. Post roll every damn day, keep your promise for that day, and repeat. I'm proof that it can be done!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Steakbomb18 on March 06, 2014, 08:47:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
This is day 3 and I woke up feeling a great change in my life. There is so much satisfaction in enduring the pain.
I just got out of my chair, kicked it, and yelled HELL YEAH he just said that. Dude, that there is how you quit and it's arguably the most badass statement I've ever read from a newbie.

You have motivation. You have reason. You have attitude. You have desire. You have the need for control and freedom. Let this quit consume you and become you.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: LeonardThompson on March 06, 2014, 10:17:00 PM
"3. Ephesians 5:18 says, "Do not get drunk with wine, but be filled with the Holy Spirit." I draw a parallel here because I think the purpose of this scripture is to say that your mind should be filled with the Holy Spirit and not be in control or weakened by a substance. Nicotine has altered our mind and we look to it for comfort and a myriad of other reasons. I want to look to the One that is actually the Healer and makes all things new rather than have my mind be controlled by nicotine. "

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Hell to the Yes, bro. Let me know when, and I'll meet you down on Quit Street. Half a block up from FuckNicotine Ave.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: rothstein57 on March 07, 2014, 04:04:00 AM
You have a great mind set for this place. Keep up the great work, and I promise you it will get better, as long as you quit for today.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on March 07, 2014, 08:51:00 AM
Thanks for all the support and comments. I'm feeling great on Day 4. No nicotine in the system, I'm purged of its evilness! I'm quit with you all today.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: slug.go on March 07, 2014, 09:14:00 AM
Quote from: longhorn83
Thanks for all the support and comments. I'm feeling great on Day 4. No nicotine in the system, I'm purged of its evilness! I'm quit with you all today.
You're rocking it, Longhorn, keep the press on!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: StevieG on March 07, 2014, 02:18:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83


Thank you all for the fantastic support. This is day 3 and I woke up feeling a great change in my life. There is so much satisfaction in enduring the pain.
Quit envy. I too love the pain and embrace this suck. Only because it means I am doing this quit right. We are doing this thing right. Every one of us do this EDD365 keep rocking it Longhorn!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: AirbusPilot on April 01, 2014, 09:26:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
To clarify, I'm not quitting for anyone else. I'm quitting for the following reasons:

1. I don't want to die of cancer. While I can't control what happens to me in the future, I can control if dipping was the cause or not.

2. Self Control - Dipping is a weakness, being a slave to something. I want to take back my self control.

3. Ephesians 5:18 says, "Do not get drunk with wine, but be filled with the Holy Spirit." I draw a parallel here because I think the purpose of this scripture is to say that your mind should be filled with the Holy Spirit and not be in control or weakened by a substance. Nicotine has altered our mind and we look to it for comfort and a myriad of other reasons. I want to look to the One that is actually the Healer and makes all things new rather than have my mind be controlled by nicotine.

Thank you all for the fantastic support. This is day 3 and I woke up feeling a great change in my life. There is so much satisfaction in enduring the pain. I've saved $15 already and I don't feel like I'm having to hide something all day.

LH
Hey Longhorn I'm one day behind you on the daily roll posting (AirbusPilot). Just wanted to give a fellow Texan some support and encouragement. It's pretty cool not worrying about a can. Also being able to "close talk" (Sienfeld reference) again without killing someone with my skoal breath. Quit on brother. I'm right behind you every day.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on April 02, 2014, 01:28:00 PM
All

Just wanted to say that I am loving this quit. 30 days in and it feels awesome!

Also, went to the dentist today. They can do a scan that checks for cancerous/precancerous cells. I am happy to say that I was clear, and feels good knowing that I'm not putting that crap back in my lip today to change that.

ODAAT

;Ironman:
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Bean on April 02, 2014, 03:00:00 PM
Congrats!!! 30 Days is huge. But it is just the beginning. The only thing that matters is being quit today, brother. Keep on keeping on...
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: 30isEnuff on April 02, 2014, 03:02:00 PM
Quote from: Bean
Congrats!!! 30 Days is huge. But it is just the beginning. The only thing that matters is being quit today, brother. Keep on keeping on...
What ^^^^^^ said.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: bronc on April 03, 2014, 09:44:00 AM
Great getting to know you and proud to be quit with you Hookem.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on May 05, 2014, 05:44:00 PM
Thought I'd post an update. I'm 63 Days Quit and it feels awesome. Also wanted to share that my little friend who battled Brain cancer put one in the W column last week. She beat cancer and is in remission. Remember that the next time one of you thinks about putting a dip in...Would you dip in front of a 6 year old girl that spent 2 years in a hospital to fight a disease that she did not bring upon herself, but we tried to give to ourselves?

Nic, Cancer, all of it...You can suck it.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Derk40 on May 05, 2014, 06:04:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
Thought I'd post an update. I'm 63 Days Quit and it feels awesome. Also wanted to share that my little friend who battled Brain cancer put one in the W column last week. She beat cancer and is in remission. Remember that the next time one of you thinks about putting a dip in...Would you dip in front of a 6 year old girl that spent 2 years in a hospital to fight a disease that she did not bring upon herself, but we tried to give to ourselves?

Nic, Cancer, all of it...You can suck it.
Congrats on 63 days brother! Well done. That is great news regarding the cancer!! Keep it up today!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: cbird65 on May 07, 2014, 09:33:00 AM
Quote from: derk40
Quote from: longhorn83
Thought I'd post an update. I'm 63 Days Quit and it feels awesome. Also wanted to share that my little friend who battled Brain cancer put one in the W column last week. She beat cancer and is in remission. Remember that the next time one of you thinks about putting a dip in...Would you dip in front of a 6 year old girl that spent 2 years in a hospital to fight a disease that she did not bring upon herself, but we tried to give to ourselves?

Nic, Cancer, all of it...You can suck it.
Congrats on 63 days brother! Well done. That is great news regarding the cancer!! Keep it up today!
Goo stuff right there! Strap in on for the pre Hall funk
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Evil_Won on May 07, 2014, 11:04:00 PM
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: derk40
Quote from: longhorn83
Thought I'd post an update. I'm 63 Days Quit and it feels awesome. Also wanted to share that my little friend who battled Brain cancer put one in the W column last week. She beat cancer and is in remission. Remember that the next time one of you thinks about putting a dip in...Would you dip in front of a 6 year old girl that spent 2 years in a hospital to fight a disease that she did not bring upon herself, but we tried to give to ourselves?

Nic, Cancer, all of it...You can suck it.
Congrats on 63 days brother! Well done. That is great news regarding the cancer!! Keep it up today!
Goo stuff right there! Strap in on for the pre Hall funk
Good update. Made my day. Thanks.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: bronc on May 08, 2014, 09:51:00 AM
Quote from: Evil_Won
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: derk40
Quote from: longhorn83
Thought I'd post an update. I'm 63 Days Quit and it feels awesome. Also wanted to share that my little friend who battled Brain cancer put one in the W column last week. She beat cancer and is in remission. Remember that the next time one of you thinks about putting a dip in...Would you dip in front of a 6 year old girl that spent 2 years in a hospital to fight a disease that she did not bring upon herself, but we tried to give to ourselves?

Nic, Cancer, all of it...You can suck it.
Congrats on 63 days brother! Well done. That is great news regarding the cancer!! Keep it up today!
Goo stuff right there! Strap in on for the pre Hall funk
Good update. Made my day. Thanks.
Proud to be quit with you Longhorn! Congrats!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on May 09, 2014, 06:28:00 AM
Quote from: Bronc
Quote from: Evil_Won
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: derk40
Quote from: longhorn83
Thought I'd post an update. I'm 63 Days Quit and it feels awesome. Also wanted to share that my little friend who battled Brain cancer put one in the W column last week. She beat cancer and is in remission. Remember that the next time one of you thinks about putting a dip in...Would you dip in front of a 6 year old girl that spent 2 years in a hospital to fight a disease that she did not bring upon herself, but we tried to give to ourselves?

Nic, Cancer, all of it...You can suck it.
Congrats on 63 days brother! Well done. That is great news regarding the cancer!! Keep it up today!
Goo stuff right there! Strap in on for the pre Hall funk
Good update. Made my day. Thanks.
Proud to be quit with you Longhorn! Congrats!
That is some serious motivation there. Thanks for sharing an uplifting story.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: sixercountry on May 12, 2014, 10:44:00 AM
where the fuck are you?? was all this bullshit in your intro just that, bullshit??? if you come on here and read this PM me immediately and get it together.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on July 28, 2014, 02:06:00 PM
All,

Decided to drop my pride and get back here. I caved and I need to take my lashes. I avoided coming back out of embarrassment, but realize its time to get passed that and get life back on track.

What Happened

I thought everything was going well. I was 50 or so days into the program, and I thought I had beaten her. I went back to Texas for something with work and was feeling good. I missed posting a few days and didn't have the right mindset. Next think I know, I'm getting gas and I just walked on inside and got a can.


Why Did I Let It Happen

I think I let it happen because I wanted it to happen. I wanted to dip again. I wanted that sweet burning sensation followed by the dizzy endorphin like release. I didn't have numbers, so I didn't call anyone. I didn't get back online. I basically didn't even try to stop.

What Will I Do To Keep It From Happening Again

I need to exchange numbers. I didn't do that last time, and when I disappeared, I could disappear. Noone had any way of contacting me unless I let them. I wasn't plugged in well, because I came back to the site, I had two messages asking where I had been. Perhaps I set myself up for failure in that I didn't take advantage of getting interlocked with people to yell at me when I got close to caving. I'm not saying the site failed, I'm saying I failed to get involved right so that the program could work in a time of need. I also need to keep the fervor high on my quit. I got lazy before my cave. My first 40 days or so on here, I fought hard and I was involved with roll and the chat room. When I caved, I wasn't doing anything.

I'm starting over today. I'm posting day 1 again, and its awful.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: wastepanel on July 28, 2014, 02:39:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
All,

Decided to drop my pride and get back here. I caved and I need to take my lashes. I avoided coming back out of embarrassment, but realize its time to get passed that and get life back on track.

What Happened

I thought everything was going well. I was 50 or so days into the program, and I thought I had beaten her. I went back to Texas for something with work and was feeling good. I missed posting a few days and didn't have the right mindset. Next think I know, I'm getting gas and I just walked on inside and got a can.


Why Did I Let It Happen

I think I let it happen because I wanted it to happen. I wanted to dip again. I wanted that sweet burning sensation followed by the dizzy endorphin like release. I didn't have numbers, so I didn't call anyone. I didn't get back online. I basically didn't even try to stop.

What Will I Do To Keep It From Happening Again

I need to exchange numbers. I didn't do that last time, and when I disappeared, I could disappear. Noone had any way of contacting me unless I let them. I wasn't plugged in well, because I came back to the site, I had two messages asking where I had been. Perhaps I set myself up for failure in that I didn't take advantage of getting interlocked with people to yell at me when I got close to caving. I'm not saying the site failed, I'm saying I failed to get involved right so that the program could work in a time of need. I also need to keep the fervor high on my quit. I got lazy before my cave. My first 40 days or so on here, I fought hard and I was involved with roll and the chat room. When I caved, I wasn't doing anything.

I'm starting over today. I'm posting day 1 again, and its awful.
Do you want to be quit?
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Diesel2112 on July 28, 2014, 02:52:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
All,

Decided to drop my pride and get back here. I caved and I need to take my lashes. I avoided coming back out of embarrassment, but realize its time to get passed that and get life back on track.

What Happened

I thought everything was going well. I was 50 or so days into the program, and I thought I had beaten her. I went back to Texas for something with work and was feeling good. I missed posting a few days and didn't have the right mindset. Next think I know, I'm getting gas and I just walked on inside and got a can.


Why Did I Let It Happen

I think I let it happen because I wanted it to happen. I wanted to dip again. I wanted that sweet burning sensation followed by the dizzy endorphin like release. I didn't have numbers, so I didn't call anyone. I didn't get back online. I basically didn't even try to stop.

What Will I Do To Keep It From Happening Again

I need to exchange numbers. I didn't do that last time, and when I disappeared, I could disappear. Noone had any way of contacting me unless I let them. I wasn't plugged in well, because I came back to the site, I had two messages asking where I had been. Perhaps I set myself up for failure in that I didn't take advantage of getting interlocked with people to yell at me when I got close to caving. I'm not saying the site failed, I'm saying I failed to get involved right so that the program could work in a time of need. I also need to keep the fervor high on my quit. I got lazy before my cave. My first 40 days or so on here, I fought hard and I was involved with roll and the chat room. When I caved, I wasn't doing anything.

I'm starting over today. I'm posting day 1 again, and its awful.
Translation... you didn't care.

You wanted that "sweet burning sensation" more than anything.

Took you 2+ months to come back? That's some weak shit, placing blame on the site is even weaker.

You quoted the bible, brought your daughter into it, said everything was going good and then you bailed. You fucked everybody, and your word was shit.

Now your back giving all the right answer and spouting more bullshit.

Having numbers doesn't guarantee shit, if your a coward. We can keep track of you but we can't physically be with you.

If someone shoots you a call or text and your yearning for that "sweet burn" you'll ignore us, just as you did your first time around.

Get involved all you want, but until you grow a set of balls and actually WANT to quit none of it's going to matter.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on July 28, 2014, 02:54:00 PM
I didn't blame the site, I specifically said that so no one would take what I said as blaming the site.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Diesel2112 on July 28, 2014, 02:58:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
I didn't blame the site, I specifically said that so no one would take what I said as blaming the site.
I can read between lines. I'm magical like that.

Its like when someone prefaces something with "no offense to what about I'm about to say..."

Bet your ass their about to offend someone and they know it.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: slug.go on July 28, 2014, 03:00:00 PM
Quote from: Diesel2112
Quote from: longhorn83
All,

Decided to drop my pride and get back here. I caved and I need to take my lashes. I avoided coming back out of embarrassment, but realize its time to get passed that and get life back on track.

What Happened

I thought everything was going well. I was 50 or so days into the program, and I thought I had beaten her. I went back to Texas for something with work and was feeling good. I missed posting a few days and didn't have the right mindset. Next think I know, I'm getting gas and I just walked on inside and got a can.


Why Did I Let It Happen

I think I let it happen because I wanted it to happen. I wanted to dip again. I wanted that sweet burning sensation followed by the dizzy endorphin like release. I didn't have numbers, so I didn't call anyone. I didn't get back online. I basically didn't even try to stop.

What Will I Do To Keep It From Happening Again

I need to exchange numbers. I didn't do that last time, and when I disappeared, I could disappear. Noone had any way of contacting me unless I let them. I wasn't plugged in well, because I came back to the site, I had two messages asking where I had been. Perhaps I set myself up for failure in that I didn't take advantage of getting interlocked with people to yell at me when I got close to caving. I'm not saying the site failed, I'm saying I failed to get involved right so that the program could work in a time of need. I also need to keep the fervor high on my quit. I got lazy before my cave. My first 40 days or so on here, I fought hard and I was involved with roll and the chat room. When I caved, I wasn't doing anything.

I'm starting over today. I'm posting day 1 again, and its awful.
Translation... you didn't care.

You wanted that "sweet burning sensation" more than anything.

Took you 2+ months to come back? That's some weak shit, placing blame on the site is even weaker.

You quoted the bible, brought your daughter into it, said everything was going good and then you bailed. You fucked everybody, and your word was shit.

Now your back giving all the right answer and spouting more bullshit.

Having numbers doesn't guarantee shit, if your a coward. We can keep track of you but we can't physically be with you.

If someone shoots you a call or text and your yearning for that "sweet burn" you'll ignore us, just as you did your first time around.

Get involved all you want, but until you grow a set of balls and actually WANT to quit none of it's going to matter.




Daisy would be so proud. Get your man pants on and get quit. Stops aren't allowed here.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: slug.go on November 04, 2014, 08:44:00 AM
100 days of FREEDOM!!!
OUTFUCKINGSTANDING, do it again!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: cbird65 on November 04, 2014, 08:50:00 AM
Quote from: slug.go
100 days of FREEDOM!!!
OUTFUCKINGSTANDING, do it again!
'oh yeah'
Have you dialed in a new target yet?
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: schaef418 on November 04, 2014, 02:36:00 PM
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: slug.go
100 days of FREEDOM!!!
OUTFUCKINGSTANDING, do it again!
'oh yeah'
Have you dialed in a new target yet?
congrats longhorn, look forward to seeing you on 101
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Done4Me on November 04, 2014, 09:27:00 PM
Quote from: schaef418
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: slug.go
100 days of FREEDOM!!!
OUTFUCKINGSTANDING, do it again!
'oh yeah'
Have you dialed in a new target yet?
congrats longhorn, look forward to seeing you on 101
Congrats on 100. You led early then faded after Japan trip. Lead again, it will help strengthen you quit.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on November 10, 2014, 02:28:00 PM
106 days in, and I'm loving this. Thanks everyone for your support. I'm lasering the target on 200 now!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: CastleHusky on November 10, 2014, 05:43:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
106 days in, and I'm loving this. Thanks everyone for your support. I'm lasering the target on 200 now!
Whoop whoop, atta boy.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: longhorn83 on February 12, 2015, 02:09:00 PM
Two Fucking Hundred

'nuff said

If I can do it, anyone can do it. One day at a time.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Idaho Spuds on February 12, 2015, 02:15:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
Two Fucking Hundred

'nuff said

If I can do it, anyone can do it. One day at a time.
Well done LH! Keep in going! 'oh yeah'
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Scowick65 on February 12, 2015, 04:17:00 PM
Quote from: Idaho
Quote from: longhorn83
Two Fucking Hundred

'nuff said

If I can do it, anyone can do it. One day at a time.
Well done LH! Keep in going! 'oh yeah'
hell yes.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: ChickDip on July 28, 2015, 10:15:00 AM
'party2'

congrats on your 1 year LH!

proud to be quit with you today!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Nolaq on July 28, 2015, 10:26:00 AM
Quote from: ChickDip
'party2'

congrats on your 1 year LH!

proud to be quit with you today!
Awesome job Horn!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: invader on July 28, 2015, 11:31:00 AM
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: ChickDip
'party2'

congrats on your 1 year LH!

proud to be quit with you today!
Awesome job Horn!
What they said! Great job, LH!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Mr. Cope on July 29, 2015, 10:50:00 AM
Quote from: invader
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: ChickDip
'party2'

congrats on your 1 year LH!

proud to be quit with you today!
Awesome job Horn!
What they said! Great job, LH!
Out Fucking Standing LH!!!!!!! Thank you for breaking the trail and running point! Here is to your next 100 days!

'oh yeah'
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Kdip on July 29, 2015, 10:59:00 AM
Quote from: Mr.
Quote from: invader
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: ChickDip
'party2'

congrats on your 1 year LH!

proud to be quit with you today!
Awesome job Horn!
What they said! Great job, LH!
Out Fucking Standing LH!!!!!!! Thank you for breaking the trail and running point! Here is to your next 100 days!

'oh yeah'
Congrats on really QUITTING this time!!!!!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: ChickDip on July 27, 2016, 12:50:00 PM
Congrats on your 2 years quit LH!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: ChickDip on April 23, 2017, 05:30:00 PM
Wowza...
Nice comma!!!
Congrats !
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: ChickDip on July 28, 2017, 12:38:00 PM
Congrats on your 3 years quit LH!
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: Pepper on August 03, 2017, 05:13:00 PM
Quote from: longhorn83
Ephesians 5:18 says, "Do not get drunk with wine, but be filled with the Holy Spirit."
That is a good Bible verse to remember. The one that comes to my mind every time I think of caving is 1 Corinthians 3:17
Quote
If any man defile the temple of God, him shall God destroy; for the temple of God is holy, which temple ye are.
Title: Re: Hook 'em
Post by: GrizzlySlave on August 03, 2017, 06:51:00 PM
This is Mack Brown, isn't it?