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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Awkwood15 on January 15, 2015, 06:54:00 PM
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Good afternoon. I've been a slave to tobacco for about 15 years. A can or more a day. As the title suggests I've attempted to quit many times before. Why have I failed? The usual excuses, reasoning, and weakness. "Just one more." "One pinch wont hurt." "I'm already quit, I'll quit again after this can." However, the biggest reason I believe is that I work in an industry that is saturated with the use of chewing tobacco. 'fireman' Every shift I work, the beast is there. If not in my pocket, in my partners.
I'm currently embracing day 6 of the suck, cold turkey. "Fog" is heavy. Crazy munchies. I wouldn't say that I'm edgy but everyone around me needs to quit being so damn annoying. Luckily I'm on day 6 of 9 days off from work. Spending this time mentally preparing to fight the beast when shift starts. There's no way I'm failing this time. I'm done. Sick and tired of it. Plus this time I have you guys. A source full of reasons to continue instead of just a mind full of reasons to fail.
Any suggestions for work and the munchies?
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Welcome Awkward, hey there are a lot of firemen and officers here that can help.
Regarding the munchies.. Munch on brother, what ever it takes to QUIT. Munchies will go away later. Today we focus on whipping the Nic B$#+h, she is there to destroy you and your fellow workers. Let that inviroment your in be a strength, bring on the suck.... We shouldn't be so scared to suffer.... It makes us stronger. PM me anytime... I'll suffer and quit with you any day. Some of my closest fishing buddies are firemen, and they have quit also. You got this.
Have you posted Roll yet?
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One of the first things you may discover is that you can work long hours, and stay up late, without dip. But, you should be prepared. Have a bunch of seeds, fake dip, gum, whatever. The fake dip really does help with the cravings. In my area, Walmart carries Smokey Mountain.
When you hit a fog, get the body moving to help snap out of it.
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Hey Awkwood. I'm in an industry and location with a high ratio of dippers, too. It's tough, man, I know. But having made the decision to really quit, and having found this place, you're off to a good start. I'm new at this, too, so I can't offer you any magic bullets except one. The daily roll call, and the promise I make along with it, is huge for me. All the bad ass quitters here say the same thing, and those guys will also be able to offer up more nuggets for you.
Anyway, I quit with you today, brother. Shoot me a PM if you want to trade digits.
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Good for you Awkwood! I quit with you. You'll find a plethora of excuses listed in people's introductions. You'll find that those go out the door the day you make your pledge. You'll also find that you're fighting the good fight with some great people on here and hopefully you take advantage of that. PM me any time you need support.
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Hey man, be an active participant in your quit daily. Doorway dancers don't pass the muster and only you hold the j-key. Get your name on roll. It's a promise to yourself and us each day that you're quit. Back it up. Get some seeds, trident, fake chew or jerky. Excercise and water are your friends. Have a plan of attack and acquire the tools strewn about here to assist in the battle. Above all else, post roll and don't let us down. Get involved, get acquainted, get some numbers. Shout if you've got any questions and welcome to freedom!
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Hey Awkwood. I'm in an industry and location with a high ratio of dippers, too. It's tough, man, I know. But having made the decision to really quit, and having found this place, you're off to a good start. I'm new at this, too, so I can't offer you any magic bullets except one. The daily roll call, and the promise I make along with it, is huge for me. All the bad ass quitters here say the same thing, and those guys will also be able to offer up more nuggets for you.
Anyway, I quit with you today, brother. Shoot me a PM if you want to trade digits.
^^ this guy is a dependable one.
Swap digits. Post roll.
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Awkwood,
You took the first step posting an intro, knowing you need help with this addiction. Now its time to put on the big boy pants and jump into the deep end and start making your daily promise. For us that is posting roll each and every day. Promise to stay nicotine free for 24 hours, thats it. Sounds stupid simple huh! Well it is simple, but it is a battle and everyone on here is waging this war every day together we don't lose. Get on the train today!
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Awkwood,
You took the first step posting an intro, knowing you need help with this addiction. Now its time to put on the big boy pants and jump into the deep end and start making your daily promise. For us that is posting roll each and every day. Promise to stay nicotine free for 24 hours, thats it. Sounds stupid simple huh! Well it is simple, but it is a battle and everyone on here is waging this war every day together we don't lose. Get on the train today!
What that ^^^^ BAQ said. Our roll post is our bond.
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Wow. Thank you for the genuine welcome into the community. Strong sense of brotherhood here and I like that. I believe I posted roll correctly. I'm sure you guys will let me know if I didn't. Today is Day 7 and I will not fall prey to the nic-bi*ch today!!
Thanks in advance for all your support. I'm a complete novice when it comes to forums but you have my word: I will abstain from nicotine and be a contributing factor in our fight.
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Wow. Thank you for the genuine welcome into the community. Strong sense of brotherhood here and I like that. I believe I posted roll correctly. I'm sure you guys will let me know if I didn't. Today is Day 7 and I will not fall prey to the nic-bi*ch today!!
Thanks in advance for all your support. I'm a complete novice when it comes to forums but you have my word: I will abstain from nicotine and be a contributing factor in our fight.
I think something must have gone awry, brother, unless I've gone partially blind or dyslexic. I don't see your roll call post.
@GA - you showed me the way, man. My intro wasn't posted here 10 minutes before I had your digits and a bad ass welcome into the fold, then followed by more from other BAQs.
'Finger' Nic
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Wow. Thank you for the genuine welcome into the community. Strong sense of brotherhood here and I like that. I believe I posted roll correctly. I'm sure you guys will let me know if I didn't. Today is Day 7 and I will not fall prey to the nic-bi*ch today!!
Thanks in advance for all your support. I'm a complete novice when it comes to forums but you have my word: I will abstain from nicotine and be a contributing factor in our fight.
I think something must have gone awry, brother, unless I've gone partially blind or dyslexic. I don't see your roll call post.
@GA - you showed me the way, man. My intro wasn't posted here 10 minutes before I had your digits and a bad ass welcome into the fold, then followed by more from other BAQs.
'Finger' Nic
I'm supposed to post with the Apes of Wrath (Pre HOF April 2015) group right? Post #5889 should be mine. I did see that a later roll post I was absent but it looks to be fixed now.
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Good roll post, and now I quit with you all damn day. Stay strong, especially in the face of co-workers dipping. Soon you will see how ridiculous our shared addiction is, and how you can overcome it on a daily basis.
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Yep, I see it there now. I must have been looking at a bad version. I'm quit with you today, brother.
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Well by golly I think we got a winner here brothers! Grab that nic bitch every morning slap her ass and post roll! I quit with you my brother!
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Hey man I just decided to quit literally about an hour or so ago and already this site and its people have been awesome.
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Hey man I just decided to quit literally about an hour or so ago and already this site and its people have been awesome.
That's great bro! I'm happy to hear it! As the others have pressed on to me... post roll daily, get digits for support, and punch that nic-bitch in the face. This is our fight man! Today, I quit with you.
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'oh yeah'
great stuff Awkwood! Get some.
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Good morning fellow quitters! Now I'm not much of a "feelings" guy. Not saying that because I'm proud of it. It's just a fact due to my job. I internalize and that probably helped rage my tobacco addiction. However, I digress... Guys, last night that nicbitch snuck into my slumber and delivered a kick to the sack I will never forget. Here's my dream in a nut shell:
I just got home from work and dropped my bag at the front door. Let the dogs out back and then headed to the bedroom. There I found my wife sitting on the bed smiling at me. I walked over and embraced her. Started kissing her on the neck and that's when she said the words that ripped me right out of my sleep.... "I can smell the dip in your mouth." Bamn. Good morning day 9.
Now at face value it doesn't seem like much, so here's the backstory... Guys, I'm not married. Never have been. The girl in the dream was the "one that got away". I truly loved her but in the end she stood between me and the can. I was too fucking addicted and impatient to give quitting an honest shot and to work on the relationship and make something of it. She didn't understand the addiction like you guys do. To her it was just some junk I put in my mouth and something I could just stop without any issue. Isn't that kind of naïve thinking beautiful? Seriously, to not know what this is like is bliss.
That dream cut deep and really hurt brothers. After some thought though I've realized the dream was a mistake on the nicbitch's part. There's a fire in me now and I'm raging today fellas. Boy am I fucking raging. Not because I want a pinch but because I want to give back every pinch I've had with a fist to the nicbitch's face and a smile that says FUCK YOU BITCH! Today is day 9, and the day is mine! I quit today with all you assholes and there's nothing else I'd rather do!! Thanks for the support and stay strong. We will beat this bitch!!!
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Good morning fellow quitters! Now I'm not much of a "feelings" guy. Not saying that because I'm proud of it. It's just a fact due to my job. I internalize and that probably helped rage my tobacco addiction. However, I digress... Guys, last night that nicbitch snuck into my slumber and delivered a kick to the sack I will never forget. Here's my dream in a nut shell:
I just got home from work and dropped my bag at the front door. Let the dogs out back and then headed to the bedroom. There I found my wife sitting on the bed smiling at me. I walked over and embraced her. Started kissing her on the neck and that's when she said the words that ripped me right out of my sleep.... "I can smell the dip in your mouth." Bamn. Good morning day 9.
Now at face value it doesn't seem like much, so here's the backstory... Guys, I'm not married. Never have been. The girl in the dream was the "one that got away". I truly loved her but in the end she stood between me and the can. I was too fucking addicted and impatient to give quitting an honest shot and to work on the relationship and make something of it. She didn't understand the addiction like you guys do. To her it was just some junk I put in my mouth and something I could just stop without any issue. Isn't that kind of naïve thinking beautiful? Seriously, to not know what this is like is bliss.
That dream cut deep and really hurt brothers. After some thought though I've realized the dream was a mistake on the nicbitch's part. There's a fire in me now and I'm raging today fellas. Boy am I fucking raging. Not because I want a pinch but because I want to give back every pinch I've had with a fist to the nicbitch's face and a smile that says FUCK YOU BITCH! Today is day 9, and the day is mine! I quit today with all you assholes and there's nothing else I'd rather do!! Thanks for the support and stay strong. We will beat this bitch!!!
Awesome but sad! You kicked the bitches ass! Hey brother the one got away...married? If not never to late! Stay quit my brother! I'm here always, you need me pm. I quit with you my brother!
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Good morning fellow quitters! Now I'm not much of a "feelings" guy. Not saying that because I'm proud of it. It's just a fact due to my job. I internalize and that probably helped rage my tobacco addiction. However, I digress... Guys, last night that nicbitch snuck into my slumber and delivered a kick to the sack I will never forget. Here's my dream in a nut shell:
I just got home from work and dropped my bag at the front door. Let the dogs out back and then headed to the bedroom. There I found my wife sitting on the bed smiling at me. I walked over and embraced her. Started kissing her on the neck and that's when she said the words that ripped me right out of my sleep.... "I can smell the dip in your mouth." Bamn. Good morning day 9.
Now at face value it doesn't seem like much, so here's the backstory... Guys, I'm not married. Never have been. The girl in the dream was the "one that got away". I truly loved her but in the end she stood between me and the can. I was too fucking addicted and impatient to give quitting an honest shot and to work on the relationship and make something of it. She didn't understand the addiction like you guys do. To her it was just some junk I put in my mouth and something I could just stop without any issue. Isn't that kind of naïve thinking beautiful? Seriously, to not know what this is like is bliss.
That dream cut deep and really hurt brothers. After some thought though I've realized the dream was a mistake on the nicbitch's part. There's a fire in me now and I'm raging today fellas. Boy am I fucking raging. Not because I want a pinch but because I want to give back every pinch I've had with a fist to the nicbitch's face and a smile that says FUCK YOU BITCH! Today is day 9, and the day is mine! I quit today with all you assholes and there's nothing else I'd rather do!! Thanks for the support and stay strong. We will beat this bitch!!!
Awesome but sad! You kicked the bitches ass! Hey brother the one got away...married? If not never to late! Stay quit my brother! I'm here always, you need me pm. I quit with you my brother!
Honestly, I'm not really sure... I know she moved out of state and was "seriously involved". We're pretty much ghosts in each others past now and I thought I was ok with that. That dream caught me off guard and I know it flooded my mind with thoughts and emotion trying to get me to cave. Ain't happening! Why? Because I made a decision to quit and then I turned that decision into a promise that I make everyday to a bunch of other bad ass quitters! Best damn decision of my life.
Same goes for you Pab1964. I'm here for you.
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I feel a full on threat of the Nic Bitch losing a disciple here. Awkwood, brother, keep it up. Never let the whores of UST suck from your money tit ever again. they only do it to enrich themselves and suck the life from your very being. I quit with you all day long. You have strengthened my quit 10 times by your words to never again finger fuck a can of poison.
Not since the days of Sapper, Raider and Slug.go have I seen someone get this serious about quit. Well, there was that wort guy. anyway, your quit has given me wood.
Mogul
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I feel a full on threat of the Nic Bitch losing a disciple here. Awkwood, brother, keep it up. Never let the whores of UST suck from your money tit ever again. they only do it to enrich themselves and suck the life from your very being. I quit with you all day long. You have strengthened my quit 10 times by your words to never again finger fuck a can of poison.
Not since the days of Sapper, Raider and Slug.go have I seen someone get this serious about quit. Well, there was that wort guy. anyway, your quit has given me wood.
Mogul
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Nothing wrong with a little wood.
Mogul your a stud..
Awkwood you are on your way pard, keep posting, this is some strong quit. I quit with you Brother!
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Like a fawkin boss! I quit with you today Awkwood.
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We like nic rage here my man, it means we have another quitter in our ranks. Rage and quit on!
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Good morning fellow quitters! Now I'm not much of a "feelings" guy. Not saying that because I'm proud of it. It's just a fact due to my job. I internalize and that probably helped rage my tobacco addiction. However, I digress... Guys, last night that nicbitch snuck into my slumber and delivered a kick to the sack I will never forget. Here's my dream in a nut shell:
I just got home from work and dropped my bag at the front door. Let the dogs out back and then headed to the bedroom. There I found my wife sitting on the bed smiling at me. I walked over and embraced her. Started kissing her on the neck and that's when she said the words that ripped me right out of my sleep.... "I can smell the dip in your mouth." Bamn. Good morning day 9.
Now at face value it doesn't seem like much, so here's the backstory... Guys, I'm not married. Never have been. The girl in the dream was the "one that got away". I truly loved her but in the end she stood between me and the can. I was too fucking addicted and impatient to give quitting an honest shot and to work on the relationship and make something of it. She didn't understand the addiction like you guys do. To her it was just some junk I put in my mouth and something I could just stop without any issue. Isn't that kind of naïve thinking beautiful? Seriously, to not know what this is like is bliss.
That dream cut deep and really hurt brothers. After some thought though I've realized the dream was a mistake on the nicbitch's part. There's a fire in me now and I'm raging today fellas. Boy am I fucking raging. Not because I want a pinch but because I want to give back every pinch I've had with a fist to the nicbitch's face and a smile that says FUCK YOU BITCH! Today is day 9, and the day is mine! I quit today with all you assholes and there's nothing else I'd rather do!! Thanks for the support and stay strong. We will beat this bitch!!!
Awesome but sad! You kicked the bitches ass! Hey brother the one got away...married? If not never to late! Stay quit my brother! I'm here always, you need me pm. I quit with you my brother!
Honestly, I'm not really sure... I know she moved out of state and was "seriously involved". We're pretty much ghosts in each others past now and I thought I was ok with that. That dream caught me off guard and I know it flooded my mind with thoughts and emotion trying to get me to cave. Ain't happening! Why? Because I made a decision to quit and then I turned that decision into a promise that I make everyday to a bunch of other bad ass quitters! Best damn decision of my life.
Same goes for you Pab1964. I'm here for you.
yes, crush her.
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Thank you for all the support my brothers! I'm glad I could help motivate your quits the way you have motivated mine!! I have been extremely busy these last few days and I haven't been able to get as much KTC time as I would like. Fret not however, I am still raging 'bang head' and quitting! Posting roll everyday too. Today has been one of the rougher days but that nicbitch still has nothing on me! 'finger point'
My busy days unfortunately will continue but know I'm here when I can be. Stay strong and stay quit brothers! Email or text me and I'll get back to you faster.
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"I can smell the dip in your mouth" — just sat here for five minutes thinking about how I never want to hear that. Great intro thread Awkwood. Had a shitty day and came on here looking for wisdom — I remember now that KTC and quitters can't solve all my problems, but they can keep me quit, which at the core is the most important thing.
Quit with you today, and Every Damn Day!
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"I can smell the dip in your mouth" — just sat here for five minutes thinking about how I never want to hear that. Great intro thread Awkwood. Had a shitty day and came on here looking for wisdom — I remember now that KTC and quitters can't solve all my problems, but they can keep me quit, which at the core is the most important thing.
Quit with you today, and Every Damn Day!
That's funny! I always thought my wife was being dramatic when she would plug her nose in the car when we were driving together. Now I can smell that shit from a mile away. She was right as usual and I was a selfish ass. Glad that over for us!
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"I can smell the dip in your mouth" — just sat here for five minutes thinking about how I never want to hear that. Great intro thread Awkwood. Had a shitty day and came on here looking for wisdom — I remember now that KTC and quitters can't solve all my problems, but they can keep me quit, which at the core is the most important thing.
Quit with you today, and Every Damn Day!
That's funny! I always thought my wife was being dramatic when she would plug her nose in the car when we were driving together. Now I can smell that shit from a mile away. She was right as usual and I was a selfish ass. Glad that over for us!
No joke, I was in the grocery store a few months back and I started smelling that shit. tracked it down to a man in his 50s the next row over from me. I just stared at his ugly ass for a second and turned and walked away. The smell from that stuff is powerful and raunchy. Donkey cock drip comes to mind. Stay quit Awkwood and I quit with you.
Mogul
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Checking up on you my brother, how's going?
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"I can smell the dip in your mouth" — just sat here for five minutes thinking about how I never want to hear that. Great intro thread Awkwood. Had a shitty day and came on here looking for wisdom — I remember now that KTC and quitters can't solve all my problems, but they can keep me quit, which at the core is the most important thing.
Quit with you today, and Every Damn Day!
That's funny! I always thought my wife was being dramatic when she would plug her nose in the car when we were driving together. Now I can smell that shit from a mile away. She was right as usual and I was a selfish ass. Glad that over for us!
No joke, I was in the grocery store a few months back and I started smelling that shit. tracked it down to a man in his 50s the next row over from me. I just stared at his ugly ass for a second and turned and walked away. The smell from that stuff is powerful and raunchy. Donkey cock drip comes to mind. Stay quit Awkwood and I quit with you.
Mogul
It's amazing how pungent that crap really is. To think of all the times I tried to secretly dip next to someone and thought I was getting away with it. It's equivalent to shitting your pants and thinking no one will notice.
At the risk of sounding like a madman, I think KTC should make awareness/business cards that we can order. That way we can hand them out to our fellow addicts. I've tried convincing guys at work to log on and check the site out but they're just not ready yet. I figure they could put the card in their wallet and someday down the road have an "aha!" moment when they rediscover it.
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Checking up on you my brother, how's going?
Doing great brother! Thanks for checking on me. Work has been kicking my ass and so has life but my quit is strong! The two week rewind was a little rough but I can honestly say now, that for the first time in my life, I actually laugh at my cravings and triggers. It amazes me how deep this nicbitch had her claws in me and how hard she fights to keep it that way. I'm pretty clear of the fog now and I think hitting the gym regularly has been a big help with that. I still have the dip dreams but am sleeping a lot better. The dreams aren't as profound as the other one I posted about. These seem to glorify the act of dipping but it's too late. Between my drive to quit, you guys, and the impact that other dream had on me... I'm unstoppable and it feels amazing! Am I invincible? No. Becoming complacent? No. There is a huge difference between where I was and where I am now but I still have a long way to go. The way I'm looking at it is I have roughly 5,475 days of avid use to make up for. Today is day 16. I'm proud of my two week accomplishment but as you can see I'm not finished yet, and I never will be!
I QUIT all day, EDD, with all of you! Now let's go smack that nicbitch around!! 'bangin'
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Checking up on you my brother, how's going?
Doing great brother! Thanks for checking on me. Work has been kicking my ass and so has life but my quit is strong! The two week rewind was a little rough but I can honestly say now, that for the first time in my life, I actually laugh at my cravings and triggers. It amazes me how deep this nicbitch had her claws in me and how hard she fights to keep it that way. I'm pretty clear of the fog now and I think hitting the gym regularly has been a big help with that. I still have the dip dreams but am sleeping a lot better. The dreams aren't as profound as the other one I posted about. These seem to glorify the act of dipping but it's too late. Between my drive to quit, you guys, and the impact that other dream had on me... I'm unstoppable and it feels amazing! Am I invincible? No. Becoming complacent? No. There is a huge difference between where I was and where I am now but I still have a long way to go. The way I'm looking at it is I have roughly 5,475 days of avid use to make up for. Today is day 16. I'm proud of my two week accomplishment but as you can see I'm not finished yet, and I never will be!
I QUIT all day, EDD, with all of you! Now let's go smack that nicbitch around!! 'bangin'
Hell yes! Keep that attitude we will celebrate our first 5 year quit together! I stay quit with you my friend and brother!
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Checking up on you my brother, how's going?
Doing great brother! Thanks for checking on me. Work has been kicking my ass and so has life but my quit is strong! The two week rewind was a little rough but I can honestly say now, that for the first time in my life, I actually laugh at my cravings and triggers. It amazes me how deep this nicbitch had her claws in me and how hard she fights to keep it that way. I'm pretty clear of the fog now and I think hitting the gym regularly has been a big help with that. I still have the dip dreams but am sleeping a lot better. The dreams aren't as profound as the other one I posted about. These seem to glorify the act of dipping but it's too late. Between my drive to quit, you guys, and the impact that other dream had on me... I'm unstoppable and it feels amazing! Am I invincible? No. Becoming complacent? No. There is a huge difference between where I was and where I am now but I still have a long way to go. The way I'm looking at it is I have roughly 5,475 days of avid use to make up for. Today is day 16. I'm proud of my two week accomplishment but as you can see I'm not finished yet, and I never will be!
I QUIT all day, EDD, with all of you! Now let's go smack that nicbitch around!! 'bangin'
Hell yes! Keep that attitude we will celebrate our first 5 year quit together! I stay quit with you my friend and brother!
Gonna hold you brothers to that 5 year celebration. Quit with you today Awkwood and pab, ODAAT
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Checking up on you my brother, how's going?
Doing great brother! Thanks for checking on me. Work has been kicking my ass and so has life but my quit is strong! The two week rewind was a little rough but I can honestly say now, that for the first time in my life, I actually laugh at my cravings and triggers. It amazes me how deep this nicbitch had her claws in me and how hard she fights to keep it that way. I'm pretty clear of the fog now and I think hitting the gym regularly has been a big help with that. I still have the dip dreams but am sleeping a lot better. The dreams aren't as profound as the other one I posted about. These seem to glorify the act of dipping but it's too late. Between my drive to quit, you guys, and the impact that other dream had on me... I'm unstoppable and it feels amazing! Am I invincible? No. Becoming complacent? No. There is a huge difference between where I was and where I am now but I still have a long way to go. The way I'm looking at it is I have roughly 5,475 days of avid use to make up for. Today is day 16. I'm proud of my two week accomplishment but as you can see I'm not finished yet, and I never will be!
I QUIT all day, EDD, with all of you! Now let's go smack that nicbitch around!! 'bangin'
Hell yes! Keep that attitude we will celebrate our first 5 year quit together! I stay quit with you my friend and brother!
Gonna hold you brothers to that 5 year celebration. Quit with you today Awkwood and pab, ODAAT
The nicbitch has been calling all day today and I needed a little KTC action to get rid of her. Just read the posts on this page and am good to go until tomorrow. Keep up the quit and thanks for all the good posts.
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Checking up on you my brother, how's going?
Doing great brother! Thanks for checking on me. Work has been kicking my ass and so has life but my quit is strong! The two week rewind was a little rough but I can honestly say now, that for the first time in my life, I actually laugh at my cravings and triggers. It amazes me how deep this nicbitch had her claws in me and how hard she fights to keep it that way. I'm pretty clear of the fog now and I think hitting the gym regularly has been a big help with that. I still have the dip dreams but am sleeping a lot better. The dreams aren't as profound as the other one I posted about. These seem to glorify the act of dipping but it's too late. Between my drive to quit, you guys, and the impact that other dream had on me... I'm unstoppable and it feels amazing! Am I invincible? No. Becoming complacent? No. There is a huge difference between where I was and where I am now but I still have a long way to go. The way I'm looking at it is I have roughly 5,475 days of avid use to make up for. Today is day 16. I'm proud of my two week accomplishment but as you can see I'm not finished yet, and I never will be!
I QUIT all day, EDD, with all of you! Now let's go smack that nicbitch around!! 'bangin'
Hell yes! Keep that attitude we will celebrate our first 5 year quit together! I stay quit with you my friend and brother!
Gonna hold you brothers to that 5 year celebration. Quit with you today Awkwood and pab, ODAAT
The nicbitch has been calling all day today and I needed a little KTC action to get rid of her. Just read the posts on this page and am good to go until tomorrow. Keep up the quit and thanks for all the good posts.
Write date down get my digits if I'm still alive I will be celebrating! Proud to be quit with all you Apes!
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Day 26 and I have been in a bit of a funk these last couple days. I started thinking about this funk and began wondering what the hell it really was. I started some research about nicotine effects and withdrawals and I think I may have figured it out. This probably is nothing new to many of you and I'm sure some of our fellow MD quitters can shed more light on the subject, but for me it was sort of an Ah-Ha moment. I think the fog and funks set in during periods of reduced dopamine levels due to the reconditioning of the brain. It's the brains way of trying to induce a dopamine release that was typically always present but now is no longer there. Trying to fill the void of sorts.
Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that reinforces behavior that is essential to survival. It's the driving force behind our cravings for food, water, reproduction, physical activity, etc. For example, when someone is hungry dopamine levels will drop and cause a craving for food. Once the stomach is full, signals are sent to the brain and it releases dopamine to create that satisfaction/euphoria feeling. Nicotine itself has the ability to bind with dopamine release receptors in the brain and cause large amounts of dopamine to be released. Kind of makes sense now why it used to be so easy to go most of the day without eating. Also explains why the first few days of the quit are so difficult. The brain has been trained to think that nicotine, because it causes the release of dopamine, is a necessary component for survival. That's why the cravings are so intense at the beginning and why you feel like you can't live without it. Overtime, the brain adjusts and rewires and begins to release dopamine more appropriately. However, because we do have addict brains, there will always be an imprint/pathway that will always desire nicotine. A reminder to the brain that "nicotine is essential for surivival". That's why just one more, one time, one can, won't work. It instantly reinforces that imprint and it comes back to life.
It also explains why the KTC method works. Another instinct we have is to form groups for survival. When in a group, we feel stronger and more empowered to fight anything. Helping each other through these trying times strengthens our bonds and guess what else it does? Yup, it releases dopamine. That's why many of our users are so passionate about this site and what it stands for.
So in short, the secret to getting through the fogs and funks is to KTC it up, eat, drink water, workout, and quit like fuck! Proud to be quit with all you bad ass quitters!
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Day 26 and I have been in a bit of a funk these last couple days. I started thinking about this funk and began wondering what the hell it really was. I started some research about nicotine effects and withdrawals and I think I may have figured it out. This probably is nothing new to many of you and I'm sure some of our fellow MD quitters can shed more light on the subject, but for me it was sort of an Ah-Ha moment. I think the fog and funks set in during periods of reduced dopamine levels due to the reconditioning of the brain. It's the brains way of trying to induce a dopamine release that was typically always present but now is no longer there. Trying to fill the void of sorts.
Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that reinforces behavior that is essential to survival. It's the driving force behind our cravings for food, water, reproduction, physical activity, etc. For example, when someone is hungry dopamine levels will drop and cause a craving for food. Once the stomach is full, signals are sent to the brain and it releases dopamine to create that satisfaction/euphoria feeling. Nicotine itself has the ability to bind with dopamine release receptors in the brain and cause large amounts of dopamine to be released. Kind of makes sense now why it used to be so easy to go most of the day without eating. Also explains why the first few days of the quit are so difficult. The brain has been trained to think that nicotine, because it causes the release of dopamine, is a necessary component for survival. That's why the cravings are so intense at the beginning and why you feel like you can't live without it. Overtime, the brain adjusts and rewires and begins to release dopamine more appropriately. However, because we do have addict brains, there will always be an imprint/pathway that will always desire nicotine. A reminder to the brain that "nicotine is essential for surivival". That's why just one more, one time, one can, won't work. It instantly reinforces that imprint and it comes back to life.
It also explains why the KTC method works. Another instinct we have is to form groups for survival. When in a group, we feel stronger and more empowered to fight anything. Helping each other through these trying times strengthens our bonds and guess what else it does? Yup, it releases dopamine. That's why many of our users are so passionate about this site and what it stands for.
So in short, the secret to getting through the fogs and funks is to KTC it up, eat, drink water, workout, and quit like fuck! Proud to be quit with all you bad ass quitters!
Excellent post Awkwood. I love seeing new quitters putting in the effort to understand what the hell is going on with this quitting business. It shows you are serious. You are right about the group thing. It was easy to let myself down in hundreds of stops but the thought of letting down this community is really unthinkable. The tighter the quit web you can weave the better. Nice job bro!
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Day 26 and I have been in a bit of a funk these last couple days. I started thinking about this funk and began wondering what the hell it really was. I started some research about nicotine effects and withdrawals and I think I may have figured it out. This probably is nothing new to many of you and I'm sure some of our fellow MD quitters can shed more light on the subject, but for me it was sort of an Ah-Ha moment. I think the fog and funks set in during periods of reduced dopamine levels due to the reconditioning of the brain. It's the brains way of trying to induce a dopamine release that was typically always present but now is no longer there. Trying to fill the void of sorts.
Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that reinforces behavior that is essential to survival. It's the driving force behind our cravings for food, water, reproduction, physical activity, etc. For example, when someone is hungry dopamine levels will drop and cause a craving for food. Once the stomach is full, signals are sent to the brain and it releases dopamine to create that satisfaction/euphoria feeling. Nicotine itself has the ability to bind with dopamine release receptors in the brain and cause large amounts of dopamine to be released. Kind of makes sense now why it used to be so easy to go most of the day without eating. Also explains why the first few days of the quit are so difficult. The brain has been trained to think that nicotine, because it causes the release of dopamine, is a necessary component for survival. That's why the cravings are so intense at the beginning and why you feel like you can't live without it. Overtime, the brain adjusts and rewires and begins to release dopamine more appropriately. However, because we do have addict brains, there will always be an imprint/pathway that will always desire nicotine. A reminder to the brain that "nicotine is essential for surivival". That's why just one more, one time, one can, won't work. It instantly reinforces that imprint and it comes back to life.
It also explains why the KTC method works. Another instinct we have is to form groups for survival. When in a group, we feel stronger and more empowered to fight anything. Helping each other through these trying times strengthens our bonds and guess what else it does? Yup, it releases dopamine. That's why many of our users are so passionate about this site and what it stands for.
So in short, the secret to getting through the fogs and funks is to KTC it up, eat, drink water, workout, and quit like fuck! Proud to be quit with all you bad ass quitters!
Excellent post Awkwood. I love seeing new quitters putting in the effort to understand what the hell is going on with this quitting business. It shows you are serious. You are right about the group thing. It was easy to let myself down in hundreds of stops but the thought of letting down this community is really unthinkable. The tighter the quit web you can weave the better. Nice job bro!
I got faith in you my brother and I know damn well you have faith in yourself! Stay quit! Damn proud be quit with you!
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Day 26 and I have been in a bit of a funk these last couple days. I started thinking about this funk and began wondering what the hell it really was. I started some research about nicotine effects and withdrawals and I think I may have figured it out. This probably is nothing new to many of you and I'm sure some of our fellow MD quitters can shed more light on the subject, but for me it was sort of an Ah-Ha moment. I think the fog and funks set in during periods of reduced dopamine levels due to the reconditioning of the brain. It's the brains way of trying to induce a dopamine release that was typically always present but now is no longer there. Trying to fill the void of sorts.
Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that reinforces behavior that is essential to survival. It's the driving force behind our cravings for food, water, reproduction, physical activity, etc. For example, when someone is hungry dopamine levels will drop and cause a craving for food. Once the stomach is full, signals are sent to the brain and it releases dopamine to create that satisfaction/euphoria feeling. Nicotine itself has the ability to bind with dopamine release receptors in the brain and cause large amounts of dopamine to be released. Kind of makes sense now why it used to be so easy to go most of the day without eating. Also explains why the first few days of the quit are so difficult. The brain has been trained to think that nicotine, because it causes the release of dopamine, is a necessary component for survival. That's why the cravings are so intense at the beginning and why you feel like you can't live without it. Overtime, the brain adjusts and rewires and begins to release dopamine more appropriately. However, because we do have addict brains, there will always be an imprint/pathway that will always desire nicotine. A reminder to the brain that "nicotine is essential for surivival". That's why just one more, one time, one can, won't work. It instantly reinforces that imprint and it comes back to life.
It also explains why the KTC method works. Another instinct we have is to form groups for survival. When in a group, we feel stronger and more empowered to fight anything. Helping each other through these trying times strengthens our bonds and guess what else it does? Yup, it releases dopamine. That's why many of our users are so passionate about this site and what it stands for.
So in short, the secret to getting through the fogs and funks is to KTC it up, eat, drink water, workout, and quit like fuck! Proud to be quit with all you bad ass quitters!
Excellent post Awkwood. I love seeing new quitters putting in the effort to understand what the hell is going on with this quitting business. It shows you are serious. You are right about the group thing. It was easy to let myself down in hundreds of stops but the thought of letting down this community is really unthinkable. The tighter the quit web you can weave the better. Nice job bro!
I got faith in you my brother and I know damn well you have faith in yourself! Stay quit! Damn proud be quit with you!
Awkwood is a bad ass April Ape. All the Apes should be reading his post right about now. Most of us are in the 30-40 day "funky" window.
QLF with Awkwood!
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Day 26 and I have been in a bit of a funk these last couple days. I started thinking about this funk and began wondering what the hell it really was. I started some research about nicotine effects and withdrawals and I think I may have figured it out. This probably is nothing new to many of you and I'm sure some of our fellow MD quitters can shed more light on the subject, but for me it was sort of an Ah-Ha moment. I think the fog and funks set in during periods of reduced dopamine levels due to the reconditioning of the brain. It's the brains way of trying to induce a dopamine release that was typically always present but now is no longer there. Trying to fill the void of sorts.
Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that reinforces behavior that is essential to survival. It's the driving force behind our cravings for food, water, reproduction, physical activity, etc. For example, when someone is hungry dopamine levels will drop and cause a craving for food. Once the stomach is full, signals are sent to the brain and it releases dopamine to create that satisfaction/euphoria feeling. Nicotine itself has the ability to bind with dopamine release receptors in the brain and cause large amounts of dopamine to be released. Kind of makes sense now why it used to be so easy to go most of the day without eating. Also explains why the first few days of the quit are so difficult. The brain has been trained to think that nicotine, because it causes the release of dopamine, is a necessary component for survival. That's why the cravings are so intense at the beginning and why you feel like you can't live without it. Overtime, the brain adjusts and rewires and begins to release dopamine more appropriately. However, because we do have addict brains, there will always be an imprint/pathway that will always desire nicotine. A reminder to the brain that "nicotine is essential for surivival". That's why just one more, one time, one can, won't work. It instantly reinforces that imprint and it comes back to life.
It also explains why the KTC method works. Another instinct we have is to form groups for survival. When in a group, we feel stronger and more empowered to fight anything. Helping each other through these trying times strengthens our bonds and guess what else it does? Yup, it releases dopamine. That's why many of our users are so passionate about this site and what it stands for.
So in short, the secret to getting through the fogs and funks is to KTC it up, eat, drink water, workout, and quit like fuck! Proud to be quit with all you bad ass quitters!
Excellent post Awkwood. I love seeing new quitters putting in the effort to understand what the hell is going on with this quitting business. It shows you are serious. You are right about the group thing. It was easy to let myself down in hundreds of stops but the thought of letting down this community is really unthinkable. The tighter the quit web you can weave the better. Nice job bro!
I got faith in you my brother and I know damn well you have faith in yourself! Stay quit! Damn proud be quit with you!
Awkwood is a bad ass April Ape. All the Apes should be reading his post right about now. Most of us are in the 30-40 day "funky" window.
QLF with Awkwood!
Let's read it again....
Quit with you again Awkwood.
Well done young man. EDD ODAAT.
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Day 26 and I have been in a bit of a funk these last couple days. I started thinking about this funk and began wondering what the hell it really was. I started some research about nicotine effects and withdrawals and I think I may have figured it out. This probably is nothing new to many of you and I'm sure some of our fellow MD quitters can shed more light on the subject, but for me it was sort of an Ah-Ha moment. I think the fog and funks set in during periods of reduced dopamine levels due to the reconditioning of the brain. It's the brains way of trying to induce a dopamine release that was typically always present but now is no longer there. Trying to fill the void of sorts.
Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that reinforces behavior that is essential to survival. It's the driving force behind our cravings for food, water, reproduction, physical activity, etc. For example, when someone is hungry dopamine levels will drop and cause a craving for food. Once the stomach is full, signals are sent to the brain and it releases dopamine to create that satisfaction/euphoria feeling. Nicotine itself has the ability to bind with dopamine release receptors in the brain and cause large amounts of dopamine to be released. Kind of makes sense now why it used to be so easy to go most of the day without eating. Also explains why the first few days of the quit are so difficult. The brain has been trained to think that nicotine, because it causes the release of dopamine, is a necessary component for survival. That's why the cravings are so intense at the beginning and why you feel like you can't live without it. Overtime, the brain adjusts and rewires and begins to release dopamine more appropriately. However, because we do have addict brains, there will always be an imprint/pathway that will always desire nicotine. A reminder to the brain that "nicotine is essential for surivival". That's why just one more, one time, one can, won't work. It instantly reinforces that imprint and it comes back to life.
It also explains why the KTC method works. Another instinct we have is to form groups for survival. When in a group, we feel stronger and more empowered to fight anything. Helping each other through these trying times strengthens our bonds and guess what else it does? Yup, it releases dopamine. That's why many of our users are so passionate about this site and what it stands for.
So in short, the secret to getting through the fogs and funks is to KTC it up, eat, drink water, workout, and quit like fuck! Proud to be quit with all you bad ass quitters!
Excellent post Awkwood. I love seeing new quitters putting in the effort to understand what the hell is going on with this quitting business. It shows you are serious. You are right about the group thing. It was easy to let myself down in hundreds of stops but the thought of letting down this community is really unthinkable. The tighter the quit web you can weave the better. Nice job bro!
I got faith in you my brother and I know damn well you have faith in yourself! Stay quit! Damn proud be quit with you!
Awkwood is a bad ass April Ape. All the Apes should be reading his post right about now. Most of us are in the 30-40 day "funky" window.
QLF with Awkwood!
Let's read it again....
Quit with you again Awkwood.
Well done young man. EDD ODAAT.
Damn. Great stuff.
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Day 42 and my quit is very strong. However, there has been some serious shit going down in the Apes house. We've had 2 cavers consecutively and have received a lot of flak from others outside of our group. I fully support my fellow Apes in defending themselves against certain ass holes coming in and attacking us as a whole. Kash has stepped up as our Sheriff and places people into certain jails appropriately. Keep up the strong work guys. Unfortunately, I do not fully agree with the way we are dealing with one of the cavers. I'm posting this in my own introduction so that 1) I can later look back upon this and see where my head was at 2) it is my own my opinion and 3) if this attracts a shit storm it won't trash our house again.
My fellow Apes,
There's a big difference between helping someone and enabling them. I specifically chose to quit with KTC because I thought enabling was pretty much nonexistent here. I know some of you will consider me cold hearted after reading all this but I assure you that if your heads on straight and your quit is front and center, you'll at least understand where I'm coming from.
Owena has failed us and himself numerous times. To keep him in our group, be it on GroupMe or in April, would be a great dishonor to ourselves. I understand that he has circumstances that differ from ours but my question to him is this... Do you want to be treated like a man or a child?
As many of you are aware, I have spent many years in one of the worlds busiest EMS systems. Yes, I admit I am a bit jaded from it but what you need to understand is that during this time I have gained the ability to instantly tell the difference between a seeker and someone who genuinely wants help. Seekers repeatedly call upon and feed off of the enablers. Seekers display a pattern that does not change. Seekers often have early mental trauma of some sort and use that as extortion in the seeking process, as well as any other heart strings they can pull. Owena, I do not know you personally. I do not know the full story of your life. All I know is that I'm here to help myself and to get the help I know I need. I'm also here to return the favor and help those that I know are trying to help themselves. For me, Owena, you do not fall into that category. I have nothing personal against you but I do not trust you with my quit and I do not feel an obligation to expend any more of my energy on yours. Quit making excuses. Quit making people feel sorry for you. If you want help, get it. Be it from here or through your insurance, do whatever is necessary. Stop asking how and listen to what you are being told. The KTC way is rather simple. Post roll, be a man of your word, and repeat. Other involvement in the site itself is optional. You choose how involved you want to be. KTC can only help you if you truly want the help.
In conclusion... Flaw, mind your own fucking business and stay out of our house. You, yourself, have a lot growing up to do before you will be able to make it in the fire service. You have way more ahead of you than the Chiefs interview. Respect your superiors, even if they're not on your desired department. Despite initial impressions, our world is actually a very small world indeed. You sir are currently standing on a bridge to that world. Put the matches down and shut the fuck up.
Stay strong, stay vigilant, stay quit.
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Day 42 and my quit is very strong. However, there has been some serious shit going down in the Apes house. We've had 2 cavers consecutively and have received a lot of flak from others outside of our group. I fully support my fellow Apes in defending themselves against certain ass holes coming in and attacking us as a whole. Kash has stepped up as our Sheriff and places people into certain jails appropriately. Keep up the strong work guys. Unfortunately, I do not fully agree with the way we are dealing with one of the cavers. I'm posting this in my own introduction so that 1) I can later look back upon this and see where my head was at 2) it is my own my opinion and 3) if this attracts a shit storm it won't trash our house again.
My fellow Apes,
There's a big difference between helping someone and enabling them. I specifically chose to quit with KTC because I thought enabling was pretty much nonexistent here. I know some of you will consider me cold hearted after reading all this but I assure you that if your heads on straight and your quit is front and center, you'll at least understand where I'm coming from.
Owena has failed us and himself numerous times. To keep him in our group, be it on GroupMe or in April, would be a great dishonor to ourselves. I understand that he has circumstances that differ from ours but my question to him is this... Do you want to be treated like a man or a child?
As many of you are aware, I have spent many years in one of the worlds busiest EMS systems. Yes, I admit I am a bit jaded from it but what you need to understand is that during this time I have gained the ability to instantly tell the difference between a seeker and someone who genuinely wants help. Seekers repeatedly call upon and feed off of the enablers. Seekers display a pattern that does not change. Seekers often have early mental trauma of some sort and use that as extortion in the seeking process, as well as any other heart strings they can pull. Owena, I do not know you personally. I do not know the full story of your life. All I know is that I'm here to help myself and to get the help I know I need. I'm also here to return the favor and help those that I know are trying to help themselves. For me, Owena, you do not fall into that category. I have nothing personal against you but I do not trust you with my quit and I do not feel an obligation to expend any more of my energy on yours. Quit making excuses. Quit making people feel sorry for you. If you want help, get it. Be it from here or through your insurance, do whatever is necessary. Stop asking how and listen to what you are being told. The KTC way is rather simple. Post roll, be a man of your word, and repeat. Other involvement in the site itself is optional. You choose how involved you want to be. KTC can only help you if you truly want the help.
In conclusion... Flaw, mind your own fucking business and stay out of our house. You, yourself, have a lot growing up to do before you will be able to make it in the fire service. You have way more ahead of you than the Chiefs interview. Respect your superiors, even if they're not on your desired department. Despite initial impressions, our world is actually a very small world indeed. You sir are currently standing on a bridge to that world. Put the matches down and shut the fuck up.
Stay strong, stay vigilant, stay quit.
With fear of sounding like I don't give a shit, this is spot on what I was trying to say earlier. I care about the house of the Apes. And like Awk, I don't dislike Owena and I don't know Owena. It's a difficult analogy to make to people that aren't in the fire service, but since this is Awk's post and I know he understands, I'll say it. KTC is about who I want to be behind me on the nozzle. Backing someone up on the nozzle is a huge responsibility. You have to trust that they'll crawl into the middle of the shit with you, and trust that if shit his the fan, they'll pull you out. Owena, I can't trust that you would be my backup. We shouldn't give out a trophy for giving up. We reap what we sow, we learn and we move on making damn sure we do better than the last time. Awk, I'd trust you on the nozzle any day. Carry on with your bad ass quit.
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Day 42 and my quit is very strong. However, there has been some serious shit going down in the Apes house. We've had 2 cavers consecutively and have received a lot of flak from others outside of our group. I fully support my fellow Apes in defending themselves against certain ass holes coming in and attacking us as a whole. Kash has stepped up as our Sheriff and places people into certain jails appropriately. Keep up the strong work guys. Unfortunately, I do not fully agree with the way we are dealing with one of the cavers. I'm posting this in my own introduction so that 1) I can later look back upon this and see where my head was at 2) it is my own my opinion and 3) if this attracts a shit storm it won't trash our house again.
My fellow Apes,
There's a big difference between helping someone and enabling them. I specifically chose to quit with KTC because I thought enabling was pretty much nonexistent here. I know some of you will consider me cold hearted after reading all this but I assure you that if your heads on straight and your quit is front and center, you'll at least understand where I'm coming from.
Owena has failed us and himself numerous times. To keep him in our group, be it on GroupMe or in April, would be a great dishonor to ourselves. I understand that he has circumstances that differ from ours but my question to him is this... Do you want to be treated like a man or a child?
As many of you are aware, I have spent many years in one of the worlds busiest EMS systems. Yes, I admit I am a bit jaded from it but what you need to understand is that during this time I have gained the ability to instantly tell the difference between a seeker and someone who genuinely wants help. Seekers repeatedly call upon and feed off of the enablers. Seekers display a pattern that does not change. Seekers often have early mental trauma of some sort and use that as extortion in the seeking process, as well as any other heart strings they can pull. Owena, I do not know you personally. I do not know the full story of your life. All I know is that I'm here to help myself and to get the help I know I need. I'm also here to return the favor and help those that I know are trying to help themselves. For me, Owena, you do not fall into that category. I have nothing personal against you but I do not trust you with my quit and I do not feel an obligation to expend any more of my energy on yours. Quit making excuses. Quit making people feel sorry for you. If you want help, get it. Be it from here or through your insurance, do whatever is necessary. Stop asking how and listen to what you are being told. The KTC way is rather simple. Post roll, be a man of your word, and repeat. Other involvement in the site itself is optional. You choose how involved you want to be. KTC can only help you if you truly want the help.
In conclusion... Flaw, mind your own fucking business and stay out of our house. You, yourself, have a lot growing up to do before you will be able to make it in the fire service. You have way more ahead of you than the Chiefs interview. Respect your superiors, even if they're not on your desired department. Despite initial impressions, our world is actually a very small world indeed. You sir are currently standing on a bridge to that world. Put the matches down and shut the fuck up.
Stay strong, stay vigilant, stay quit.
With fear of sounding like I don't give a shit, this is spot on what I was trying to say earlier. I care about the house of the Apes. And like Awk, I don't dislike Owena and I don't know Owena. It's a difficult analogy to make to people that aren't in the fire service, but since this is Awk's post and I know he understands, I'll say it. KTC is about who I want to be behind me on the nozzle. Backing someone up on the nozzle is a huge responsibility. You have to trust that they'll crawl into the middle of the shit with you, and trust that if shit his the fan, they'll pull you out. Owena, I can't trust that you would be my backup. We shouldn't give out a trophy for giving up. We reap what we sow, we learn and we move on making damn sure we do better than the last time. Awk, I'd trust you on the nozzle any day. Carry on with your bad ass quit.
You said it perfectly Chief. I'd trust you with my life as well. Especially with Woos, Kash, and Pab on RIC and Trig at the pump.
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HOF Awk, congratulations!
Quit with you another 100, EDD!
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HOF Awk, congratulations!
Quit with you another 100, EDD!
Awk my brother! Congrats on the HOF! See you at 200!