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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: x83762 on August 14, 2012, 11:38:00 AM
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I just joined, but I'm on day 14 of being dip-free. I hate that friggin bear on the kodiak tin.
I started kodiak back in 1993 when I was 16 years old. This sick, dirty, and disgusting habit was enabled throughout my high-school days through participation in football...and then throughout my days at the United States Military Academy as well as 10 years in the Army.
I always thought that I'd stop when I got out of the Army, married, and had kids...but I kept on saying "this will be the last tin" and I'd go to 7-11 and get another...and another...and another. And I'd be at the last pinch of that tin...and the cycle would repeat itself.
And I'd swear to my kids as I kissed them goodnight while they were sleeping that I'd stop...and I'd make myself sick to my stomach because I knew it my heart I was just lying to them and myself...but the cycle would continue none-the-less.
Until 14 days ago...and I'm still on the wagon...but the last couple of days have been hard. I've gone thorugh jolly ranchers, gum, sunflower seeds, and beef jerky...but it's getting tough. I'd go for a run, but I just had arthoscopic knee surgery, so that's out of the question.
So I'm here now...and looking for support. I have a huge test coming up soon...my wife and kids are leaving for a week, which is when I usually have a dip in my lip ALL DAY LONG (they don't know I chew tobacco). I'm dreading it...I don't want to slip, but the nicotine is already whispering in my ear. I'm praying, PRAYING for help!
That's my story! Keep me in your prayers!
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You got this. By day 14, most of the nicotine is out of your system. Now its just a mental game. Quit one day at a time. Post roll everyday, read and study all the people who have quit before you. Know your enemy, the nic bitch is sneaky.
You got this. Shoot me a PM if you have questions or need to vent.
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Good on you for taking back your life. Prayers for strength when you are left alone, you are stronger than a drug and can do it. Stay strong and avoid the trigger you see coming. Call someone if you feel you are gonna cave.
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Your story really hit home with me - I can remember how each can of copenhagen I bought was going to be my last only to find myself heading back for the next "last" can (only to repeat the cycle for a few decades).
The same thing with my wife and three kids - my rational self was telling me to quit so I could hang around to see grandkids and take care of my beautiful wife, but the addiction always made me believe one more can wouldn't hurt.
I was also worried when my wife and kids went out of town for 10 days this summer (I was less than a week into my quit) but KTC got me through - post each day and keep your word. When you feel like caving, connect to the site, reach out for support, and rebuild your resolve.
PM if you need anything. Stay quit.
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Holy smoke, quitter, your story is eerily similar to mine!!! Read my HOF (linked at the bottom of this post) and you'll see some of the similarities.
1. Started when I was 16 or 17.
2. Bowed to the addiction for 19 or 20 years.
3. Repeatedly lied to my wife and kids.
4. Had knee surgery (torn/detached meniscus) several weeks after I quit.
5. While immobilized from surgery, couldn't distract myself or workout.
6. Found KTC during that time of weakness.
In short, I've been exactly where you are. It sucked. This site will save you. It has saved me. I am celebrating day 700 today.
I'm also dropping you a PM. Hit me up if you need anything.
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I just joined, but I'm on day 14 of being dip-free. I hate that friggin bear on the kodiak tin.
I started kodiak back in 1993 when I was 16 years old. This sick, dirty, and disgusting habit was enabled throughout my high-school days through participation in football...and then throughout my days at the United States Military Academy as well as 10 years in the Army.
I always thought that I'd stop when I got out of the Army, married, and had kids...but I kept on saying "this will be the last tin" and I'd go to 7-11 and get another...and another...and another. And I'd be at the last pinch of that tin...and the cycle would repeat itself.
And I'd swear to my kids as I kissed them goodnight while they were sleeping that I'd stop...and I'd make myself sick to my stomach because I knew it my heart I was just lying to them and myself...but the cycle would continue none-the-less.
Until 14 days ago...and I'm still on the wagon...but the last couple of days have been hard. I've gone thorugh jolly ranchers, gum, sunflower seeds, and beef jerky...but it's getting tough. I'd go for a run, but I just had arthoscopic knee surgery, so that's out of the question.
So I'm here now...and looking for support. I have a huge test coming up soon...my wife and kids are leaving for a week, which is when I usually have a dip in my lip ALL DAY LONG (they don't know I chew tobacco). I'm dreading it...I don't want to slip, but the nicotine is already whispering in my ear. I'm praying, PRAYING for help!
That's my story! Keep me in your prayers!
You've got this X. Use KTC to get you through. Read, chat, rage, whatever you need to do to stay quit. At 14 days it is tough but all mental. PM me if I can assist you. You will stay quit if you chose to make it a priority and do whatever it takes to keep quit. Remember what you would be willing to do to get a new can when you ran out? Apply that focus to NOT dipping.
You can do this!
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I just joined, but I'm on day 14 of being dip-free. I hate that friggin bear on the kodiak tin.
I started kodiak back in 1993 when I was 16 years old. This sick, dirty, and disgusting habit was enabled throughout my high-school days through participation in football...and then throughout my days at the United States Military Academy as well as 10 years in the Army.
I always thought that I'd stop when I got out of the Army, married, and had kids...but I kept on saying "this will be the last tin" and I'd go to 7-11 and get another...and another...and another. And I'd be at the last pinch of that tin...and the cycle would repeat itself.
And I'd swear to my kids as I kissed them goodnight while they were sleeping that I'd stop...and I'd make myself sick to my stomach because I knew it my heart I was just lying to them and myself...but the cycle would continue none-the-less.
Until 14 days ago...and I'm still on the wagon...but the last couple of days have been hard. I've gone thorugh jolly ranchers, gum, sunflower seeds, and beef jerky...but it's getting tough. I'd go for a run, but I just had arthoscopic knee surgery, so that's out of the question.Â
So I'm here now...and looking for support. I have a huge test coming up soon...my wife and kids are leaving for a week, which is when I usually have a dip in my lip ALL DAY LONG (they don't know I chew tobacco). I'm dreading it...I don't want to slip, but the nicotine is already whispering in my ear. I'm praying, PRAYING for help!
That's my story! Keep me in your prayers!
You've got this X. Use KTC to get you through. Read, chat, rage, whatever you need to do to stay quit. At 14 days it is tough but all mental. PM me if I can assist you. You will stay quit if you chose to make it a priority and do whatever it takes to keep quit. Remember what you would be willing to do to get a new can when you ran out? Apply that focus to NOT dipping.
You can do this!
Confused a little here. You say you would tell your kids you'd stop when you kissed them goodnight. Then, two sentences later you say that the wife and kids don't know you dipped? Which way is it? Because, depending on whether they know or not, you may have some extra accountability while they are away.
If they know, what I would do is this, if possible:
Wake up, post roll, call wife and kids and make that same commitment to them for the day. At the end of the day, call again to confirm you kept your word.
Go to sleep, wake and repeat.
In the meantime, spend as much time as necessary here to keep your word. No one likes a soldier who can't shoot straight and by giving in to a crave, you would not be shooting anyone in your life straight.