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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: mdbtech on April 23, 2018, 05:27:00 AM
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'bang head'
I am a 47-year-old male who lives in Southern California and has been chewing tobacco for the last 35 years when I started in 1983 when I was just 13 years old. My poison of choice when I started was Levi Garrett leaves and plug as well as Red Man and Beech-Nut. I chewed leaves until High School started in 1985 then made the switch to snuff which my poison of choice was Skoal long-cut mint which I did until I was about 18 where I switched over to Kodiak Wintergreen and have been an addict ever since. I have been with my wife since 1990 and got married when I was 26 and she was 21. One of those shit or get off the port scenarios. We are 5 year's apart she was 15 and I was 20 when we met. I became a farther when I was 35 and have great 13 year old son and a beautiful 10 year old daughter. My wife has been discussed with my oral hygiene for as long as I can remember I cannot even tell you the last time she kissed me or I kissed her other than occasional little peck on the forhead or cheek. In 2016 my really bad choice in ife / snuff addiction really started to spiral downhill where I lost my 3 front lower teeth. Last year I lost an upper right mollar and this year I lost my 3 upper front left teeth as well as an upper right eye tooth. I still need to have both of my two upper K9 teeth removed and my upper front right tooth. I still need to see an oral surgeon to do some biopsies and have the tissue sent to pathologist. I have been Disgusted with my oral hygiene and the way my teeth, mouth have deteriorated over the last several decades. Not Only has this addiction have a negative impact on my hygiene it also causes me to go to the hospital and be admitted several times a year for G.I. issues because when I use I don’t spit it out I swallow every little bit of it and then just get up and then put another fatty in. I finally want to get serious about my disgusting addiction. I also have another grave concern as in the begging of 2018 I found out my son was vaping. I have started to randomly test my son using a 14 panel drug urine test, a 200 ng/mL nicotine test which checks for usage and a much more sensitive 10 ng/mL nicotine exposure test. He has been grounded twice this year for dirty nicotine tests but has been clean every test I have giving him since his last grounding. What good am If I try to nip it in the bud and tell him to do as I say, and not as I do meaning “don't imitate my behavior but obey my instructions.” I really needed to have stopped yesterday but I keep telling myself there is always tomorrow.. A typical addiction behavior right? I thought this quit was going to be much easier then quitting alcohol which I did back in 2008 and haven’t touched it since then and having a dry house makes it that much easier. I want to be here for my self and my loved ones and stop being so damm selfish!!
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Welcome. This is a link to your Quit Group (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30539911/255/). That's where you will go on a daily basis and make your promise to yourself, your quit brothers and sisters, your supporters, and everyone else in this community that you will not use nicotine in any form for the rest of the day. Then you go back the next day and make the same promise. We don't take weekends off. We don't take holidays, birthdays, or sick days off either. We make out promise every damn day (EDD), early in the morning before just after we take our morning leak (Wake Up, Piss Post, or WUPP).
We make our promise but putting our name, and the number of days we're quit on "roll call". Here is some background on roll call (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10391308/1/#new) and instructions (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/#new) on posting roll.
You have found the web's premier site for quitting smokeless tobacco. You will find support, brotherhood, and accountability all day long, every day of the week. But, we can't quit for you. You must make the commitment, and ultimately refuse to cave.
There are thousands of reasons to quit, and no reason at all to keep using. But you have to push through the suck, and push through the craves. But, I guarantee the freedom from nicotine is worth it.
Proud to quit with you.
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mdbtech...the price of admission to KTC is posting roll. RDB provided you the link to July 2018 which would be your quit "month" if you stayed quit today. Go on over there, post your name (nic), day quit (1) and promise to not put nicotine in your body for the day. Get up tomorrow, post a Day 2. And so on.
This place works. I had nicotine in my body for 35 years, too. Plenty of folks here who have been addicted to nicotine for 35 or more years. So don't tell me you can't quit. We are no stronger than you. That doubt and fear is just nicotine whispering into your ear and telling you lies. Time to take back your life, friend.
Let's do this. Post roll and let's get this quit going!!!
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You can do this brother and KTC is here to help.
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You can do this brother and KTC is here to help.
Wow it sounds like this shit has put you through a lot of misery. It stops NOW. Follow the rules of KTC and declare you are done each and every day. You will go through a lot but keep your pledge. If the symptoms get to where you need even more help look to your doctor and this site. You either quit or you didn’t, nothing in between “never just one”. No such thing, quit is quit.
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mdbtech
I pray that you are continuing with your quit. Your intro says you have to quit.
I will say this, you can not force your daughter to quit vaping just as your wife can not command you to quit dippin. You have to decide on your own and so does your daughter.
I suggest backing the hell off your daughter and let her do what she wants. It is her life. Instead, set a good example by quitting first yourself.
The best thing that came from my quit (after dipping for 40 years) was that my daughter quit vaping. You know how I did it? I told her that just because I quit there was no reason she had to. I dipped for 40 years, she could do the same. No pressure.
Guess what? She quit on her own without any pressure from me in the 3 months.
So, set an example.
Here are my words of Wisdom to help you with your quit:
Welcome to the group.
The main way to be successful is to just decide that you have quit. Once you stop the negotiating in your head as to whether you will do one more or not the rest becomes far more simple.
Next, you will learn to distract your attention from your desire for a dip to anything else that interests you. This ability to change your focus will guarantee your success and make your quit that much easier.
When you place a dip in your mouth, your brain releases sugars. Well, those sugars are now going to be gone.
However, you can replace them with OJ or other fruit juices with sugar. This will provide some comfort, especially on your initial quit days.
Make sure to exercise with weights and cardio when you feel that nagging tension in your muscles, you feel that rage, when you can not sleep and when you cannot focus. Exercise really helps.
Here is one that most people overlook. Get at least 3 square meals a day. Hunger can really bring on those urges so squash those urges before they come. Eat full healthy meals and do not let yourself get excessively hungry. You will see this helps a great deal.
I waited until I was 59 quit after using tobacco for 40 years. You are wise to quit now.
I quit with you today.
Dundippin day 955
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I am 48 and posted roll today. and will remain quit for the next 14 hours. See the difference between us?
Post roll, throw the shit away, and quit.
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Never too late to post a Day 1. Saw you stopped by yesterday. You want this so bad. I know, because I did too. But it seemed impossible. It isn't. Just jump, don't think about it, get this done, post your day 1. Take back your life.