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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: m5shelly on October 10, 2014, 08:56:00 PM
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Hello everyone. I'm Shelly from Wisconsin.
I quit smoking seven years ago (thank god), but I chose to use pouches to replace the nicotine. I didn't realize at the time that they actually contained bmore/b nicotine than cigs! I was still happy, since I smoked for twenty years, and I do breath easier now. A friend of mine suggested quitting smokes that way, but I couldn't imagine using bare tobacco, and then he showed me pouches.
Now, it's time for me to quit all tobacco. I actually tried to start this last week Friday, on my own, using nicotine gum. It turned out highly unsuccessful. I didn't tell my husband. I made it through the first day relatively easily, and then on day 2, we had a terrible fight, and we never fight. I immediately ran to the store and bought more pouches.
Now, for the last week I have pared my usage down to two/day, until today... and that increased to three. The same cycle all over again. I visited this site last week, and ordered some fake pouches to help. I will get them tomorrow.
I can't believe that I am so screwed up, that I am sitting here totally out of sorts just posting this.
Are our posts censored here? Are we allowed to talk freely? I don't want to come off with little class, but I can tell already that there will be times when I need to vent, honestly.
I hope this works out. I hope I don't drag others down in the process, and I hope I can help others, after or while, I get some help.
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Hello everyone. I'm Shelly from Wisconsin.
I quit smoking seven years ago (thank god), but I chose to use pouches to replace the nicotine. I didn't realize at the time that they actually contained bmore/b nicotine than cigs! I was still happy, since I smoked for twenty years, and I do breath easier now. A friend of mine suggested quitting smokes that way, but I couldn't imagine using bare tobacco, and then he showed me pouches.
Now, it's time for me to quit all tobacco. I actually tried to start this last week Friday, on my own, using nicotine gum. It turned out highly unsuccessful. I didn't tell my husband. I made it through the first day relatively easily, and then on day 2, we had a terrible fight, and we never fight. I immediately ran to the store and bought more pouches.
Now, for the last week I have pared my usage down to two/day, until today... and that increased to three. The same cycle all over again. I visited this site last week, and ordered some fake pouches to help. I will get them tomorrow.
I can't believe that I am so screwed up, that I am sitting here totally out of sorts just posting this.
Are our posts censored here? Are we allowed to talk freely? I don't want to come off with little class, but I can tell already that there will be times when I need to vent, honestly.
I hope this works out. I hope I don't drag others down in the process, and I hope I can help others, after or while, I get some help.
Shelly. Vent and vent honestly, we know what your going through with the addiction and withdrawal we are living it too. Keep doing this the rewards will be worth it. Remember we all quit just for today. One day at a time. Make today day one and post roll. You can do this.
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Thanks Hart. I was not being totally honest in my intro; when I said I was out of sorts posting my intro, I should've said I was (and am) sitting here crying. It's crazy, I know. The fucking power this crap has over my life!
My husband is trying to be supportive. I have since told him what I'm doing, but he had never quit anything, so he had no clue. He asks me, "what's worse, the physical addiction, or lack of nicotine?". Honestly, I have no idea what's what. I just know that I felt better before, with a quick fix.
Thanks for listening.
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Post in roll call every morning. We are all here for help. Life is better nic free!
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I just posted my first roll - day 1.
That really sucks on a phone, but the extra time it takes will fill some time, I guess.
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Thanks Hart. I was not being totally honest in my intro; when I said I was out of sorts posting my intro, I should've said I was (and am) sitting here crying. It's crazy, I know. The fucking power this crap has over my life!
My husband is trying to be supportive. I have since told him what I'm doing, but he had never quit anything, so he had no clue. He asks me, "what's worse, the physical addiction, or lack of nicotine?". Honestly, I have no idea what's what. I just know that I felt better before, with a quick fix.
Thanks for listening.
Ok Shelly. Here's the deal. You will beat this. With our help. But you gotta follow the process.
You are an addict. You need to admit that and you have a chance. Flush all your shit. All of it. Let us know when it's done. If you haven't done so, find the quit groups page and post roll in January 2015. This is the month you hit the hall of fame (100 days) and you will hit 100 days. I'm gonna put our pack of girl quitters on your butt and they will ensure you stay quit. But you have to be committed as well. Very much so committed.
You can quit this. You can come out on the other side empowered for being quit and wanting to continue self-improvement. You have roughly ~ 500 active supporters wanting to see you be successful.
My story? 25 year dipper 9100 days 35 thousand bucks pissed in the wind to kill myself. How stupid is that? Fuck big tobacco. You need to develop a hatred as well. It will give your quit staying power. Fucking pricks. Make shit highly addictive that will kill you and market it as a safe alternative to smoke tobacco. Oh yeah, let's make a junior high entry level called hawkin. They need to be stood up in a line and have their collective sacks cut off. Maybe turn them into coin purses for the money we're saving.
Other than that I'm a nice guy.
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Thanks Hart. I was not being totally honest in my intro; when I said I was out of sorts posting my intro, I should've said I was (and am) sitting here crying. It's crazy, I know. The fucking power this crap has over my life!
My husband is trying to be supportive. I have since told him what I'm doing, but he had never quit anything, so he had no clue. He asks me, "what's worse, the physical addiction, or lack of nicotine?". Honestly, I have no idea what's what. I just know that I felt better before, with a quick fix.
Thanks for listening.
Ok Shelly. Here's the deal. You will beat this. With our help. But you gotta follow the process.
You are an addict. You need to admit that and you have a chance. Flush all your shit. All of it. Let us know when it's done. If you haven't done so, find the quit groups page and post roll in January 2015. This is the month you hit the hall of fame (100 days) and you will hit 100 days. I'm gonna put our pack of girl quitters on your butt and they will ensure you stay quit. But you have to be committed as well. Very much so committed.
You can quit this. You can come out on the other side empowered for being quit and wanting to continue self-improvement. You have roughly ~ 500 active supporters wanting to see you be successful.
My story? 25 year dipper 9100 days 35 thousand bucks pissed in the wind to kill myself. How stupid is that? Fuck big tobacco. You need to develop a hatred as well. It will give your quit staying power. Fucking pricks. Make shit highly addictive that will kill you and market it as a safe alternative to smoke tobacco. Oh yeah, let's make a junior high entry level called hawkin. They need to be stood up in a line and have their collective sacks cut off. Maybe turn them into coin purses for the money we're saving.
Other than that I'm a nice guy.
Please listen to my brother D4M here. Join us. We are here to support you. Just follow the program. We are saving each other's lives.
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Thank you guys. I am ready, but I know how tough it will be.
I'll check in to roll tomorrow, then I work from 9-5.
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Thank you guys. I am ready, but I know how tough it will be.
I'll check in to roll tomorrow, then I work from 9-5.
Good. Post roll as soon as you wake up. That'll ensure your quit for tomorrow. Great job getting through today. You are doing it!!
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Thank you guys. I am ready, but I know how tough it will be.
I'll check in to roll tomorrow, then I work from 9-5.
We all understand the pain of quitting that you are going through and the withdrawal that you have ahead of you. I was where you are 2 1/2 years ago and honestly at the time I didn't think it was going to be possible to quit. My brothers and sisters here made it possible. They hold me accountable and likewise I hold them accountable and it has led to success. Whatever you do don't halfass it.
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Hi Shelly - I am also a female dipper....well I was....I quit....286 days ago. You know, I was so scared, nervous, full of doubt, anxious and hopeful when I started here. I had a plan to quit. I thought I knew what I was going to do, how I could handle it, how I could be successful at this. The reality was, I just had to trust what these people were telling me. I just had to jump in feet first and quit. Just be quit. I spent a lot of time reading to both be educated but to also pass some time and not have to log off of my lifeline.....KTC and these people.
I would sleep as much as possible to get thru the first few days. I would practically live in chat and text two or three people everyday. I began to understand that every one here knows what the fears were like, how the anxiety felt, how the insecurity and doubt tried to bring you down, and how just following the POST ROLL, KEEP YOUR WORD, REPEAT method truly worked.
We all get it. Come here to vent. Scream and punch your way thru this. Post in your thread and keep a record of how shitty it is.....do this so you will NEVER forget how horrible it is......so you don't have to do it again.
We put ourselves here. We are addicts. But, you are going to have do the work, and we will be here to support you each step of the way. You will see so many hands reaching out to you......all you have to do is just grab one. We got you.....
Quit on sister....
Ginet
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You may be asking yourself, "What does Posting Roll have to do with quitting"? Posting Roll is the foundation for a solid quit. It is your promise to yourself and the rest of us that you will not put nicotine into your body today. Notice I said "Today". That's what we worry about, Today and Today only. One Day At A Time (ODAAT) is a term you will see on here a lot. Quitting will cause stress which may lead to problems, so here is a little math problem for ya. What does 1 Problem + Nicotine add up to? 2 Problems. Nicotine will not solve anything, it will only make things worse.
Post Roll Daily
Honor your word
be active here
Follow the 3 and successful you will be.
Quitting with you today.
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Wow Shelly you got lots of great advice up above. Quitting is hard, and very trying on your emotions. For us men we usually get angry and lash out at everyone around us, and I can only imagine the emotions that come into play for a woman...but regardless of that know that you can do this. There is no one on this site who didn't show up a little humbled because quitting was too big for them to handle alone. Treat your roll call like the true promise that it is, and honor that promise everyday. Everyone can quit for one day. You'll be amazed what you can accomplish quitting this way. Be strong. Good luck.
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Hi Shelly, great decision. We have a shit ton of bad ass quitters here, included some serious bad ass female quitters. The KTC saved my life half a year ago, follow the program, make some friends, and Quit Like Fuck (QLF) Every Damn Day (EDD).
And yes, you can say potty words in here!
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Wow Shelly you got lots of great advice up above. Quitting is hard, and very trying on your emotions. For us men we usually get angry and lash out at everyone around us, and I can only imagine the emotions that come into play for a woman...but regardless of that know that you can do this. There is no one on this site who didn't show up a little humbled because quitting was too big for them to handle alone. Treat your roll call like the true promise that it is, and honor that promise everyday. Everyone can quit for one day. You'll be amazed what you can accomplish quitting this way. Be strong. Good luck.
Great decision. Get in an post roll ASAP today.
From your intro we need to get one thing clear... you said "time to quit tobacco." While this is true, you do need to quit dipping.... Realize what you are quitting. The culprit here and the evil doer is NICOTINE. You stopped smoking and transferred your addiction right over to dipping pouches. You can not make that mistake again. Nicotine comes in many forms of delivery... let's kick this addiction to nicotine IN ALL FORMS to the curb today.
Start with ROLL ... you can do this!
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Hi Shelly - I am also a female dipper....well I was....I quit....286 days ago. You know, I was so scared, nervous, full of doubt, anxious and hopeful when I started here. I had a plan to quit. I thought I knew what I was going to do, how I could handle it, how I could be successful at this. The reality was, I just had to trust what these people were telling me. I just had to jump in feet first and quit. Just be quit. I spent a lot of time reading to both be educated but to also pass some time and not have to log off of my lifeline.....KTC and these people.
I would sleep as much as possible to get thru the first few days. I would practically live in chat and text two or three people everyday. I began to understand that every one here knows what the fears were like, how the anxiety felt, how the insecurity and doubt tried to bring you down, and how just following the POST ROLL, KEEP YOUR WORD, REPEAT method truly worked.
We all get it. Come here to vent. Scream and punch your way thru this. Post in your thread and keep a record of how shitty it is.....do this so you will NEVER forget how horrible it is......so you don't have to do it again.
We put ourselves here. We are addicts. But, you are going to have do the work, and we will be here to support you each step of the way. You will see so many hands reaching out to you......all you have to do is just grab one. We got you.....
Quit on sister....
Ginet
Thank you Ginet. I appreciate your time.
Perhaps I'm fooling myself in some way, but I expect today to go easier, since I have to work all day at my 2nd job. I will be busy, and have found the cravings less during this work during past attempts.
I also got my Bacc-Off pouches today. Hopefully they begin to taste better after repeated use.
I better get ready for work. Fuck. It's cold outside! According to the weather app it's 31°F now. I hope my last couple garden plants made it overnight. I hate cold weather!
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Hi Shelly - I am also a female dipper....well I was....I quit....286 days ago. You know, I was so scared, nervous, full of doubt, anxious and hopeful when I started here. I had a plan to quit. I thought I knew what I was going to do, how I could handle it, how I could be successful at this. The reality was, I just had to trust what these people were telling me. I just had to jump in feet first and quit. Just be quit. I spent a lot of time reading to both be educated but to also pass some time and not have to log off of my lifeline.....KTC and these people.
I would sleep as much as possible to get thru the first few days. I would practically live in chat and text two or three people everyday. I began to understand that every one here knows what the fears were like, how the anxiety felt, how the insecurity and doubt tried to bring you down, and how just following the POST ROLL, KEEP YOUR WORD, REPEAT method truly worked.
We all get it. Come here to vent. Scream and punch your way thru this. Post in your thread and keep a record of how shitty it is.....do this so you will NEVER forget how horrible it is......so you don't have to do it again.
We put ourselves here. We are addicts. But, you are going to have do the work, and we will be here to support you each step of the way. You will see so many hands reaching out to you......all you have to do is just grab one. We got you.....
Quit on sister....
Ginet
Thank you Ginet. I appreciate your time.
Perhaps I'm fooling myself in some way, but I expect today to go easier, since I have to work all day at my 2nd job. I will be busy, and have found the cravings less during this work during past attempts.
I also got my Bacc-Off pouches today. Hopefully they begin to taste better after repeated use.
I better get ready for work. Fuck. It's cold outside! According to the weather app it's 31°F now. I hope my last couple garden plants made it overnight. I hate cold weather!
I hate cold weather too and backoff does taste like shit. But - I'd hate having my jaw cut off or my life ending in a painful battle with cancer, so let's say cold weather is cool and backoff can taste like shit because we do whatever it takes to keep that shit our of our mouths!
Perspective - it will come to you....one day.....it will creep in and you will feel so much better.
Keep quitting like a girl!
Check your messages.
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I had a surprisingly good day today. Either my first roll call made that big of a difference, or I was too busy at work to think of anything else, or a combination of both.
The BaccOff pouches were a fair fake. I will get used to the taste.
It doesn't matter to me why. I'm glad I survived. I wish the best for all. I have a feeling tomorrow will be different, since I have no customers scheduled. Thanks all.
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I had a surprisingly good day today. Either my first roll call made that big of a difference, or I was too busy at work to think of anything else, or a combination of both.
The BaccOff pouches were a fair fake. I will get used to the taste.
It doesn't matter to me why. I'm glad I survived. I wish the best for all. I have a feeling tomorrow will be different, since I have no customers scheduled. Thanks all.
Hi. Remember....this nic bitch waits for you to get comfortable. When you feel like "I've go this" and BAM! She's back in your face drawing you in. Stay focused. You are doing great! NEVER let your guard down. Trust us. She out there.
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Like your quote of Stephen Covey in your signature Ginet. I read his most popular book in college, and kept it to reread later in my career "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People".
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Had a tough evening. I am visiting family in WA State this week. We all went to a casino, where we had drinks, and they had a tariff-free nicotine shop.
I didn't cave. Can't say I didn't think about it.
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Had a tough evening. I am visiting family in WA State this week. We all went to a casino, where we had drinks, and they had a tariff-free nicotine shop.
I didn't cave. Can't say I didn't think about it.
Doesn't matter how cheap it is, it will still remove your jaw someday. Keep winning those little battles! Quit with you today!
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Had a tough evening. I am visiting family in WA State this week. We all went to a casino, where we had drinks, and they had a tariff-free nicotine shop.
I didn't cave. Can't say I didn't think about it.
Doesn't matter how cheap it is, it will still remove your jaw someday. Keep winning those little battles! Quit with you today!
I agree with Southpaw. However, as an addict, I would have paid ten bucks a can if prices were such. FU nicotine. I'm keeping my jaw. I'm keeping my life. I'm keeping my money. I'm keeping my word, and I'm keeping my quit.
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Had a tough evening. I am visiting family in WA State this week. We all went to a casino, where we had drinks, and they had a tariff-free nicotine shop.
I didn't cave. Can't say I didn't think about it.
Doesn't matter how cheap it is, it will still remove your jaw someday. Keep winning those little battles! Quit with you today!
I agree with Southpaw. However, as an addict, I would have paid ten bucks a can if prices were such. FU nicotine. I'm keeping my jaw. I'm keeping my life. I'm keeping my money. I'm keeping my word, and I'm keeping my quit.
true. keep winning and realizing you done need that stuff anymore. one day at a time one minute at a time. you got this keep marching on shelly
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Had a tough evening. I am visiting family in WA State this week. We all went to a casino, where we had drinks, and they had a tariff-free nicotine shop.
I didn't cave. Can't say I didn't think about it.
Doesn't matter how cheap it is, it will still remove your jaw someday. Keep winning those little battles! Quit with you today!
I agree with Southpaw. However, as an addict, I would have paid ten bucks a can if prices were such. FU nicotine. I'm keeping my jaw. I'm keeping my life. I'm keeping my money. I'm keeping my word, and I'm keeping my quit.
true. keep winning and realizing you done need that stuff anymore. one day at a time one minute at a time. you got this keep marching on shelly
Keep a journal of all these wins, write about every struggle because when you get further along in your quit and the "easy days" come you will need the grim reminders to help your addict brain remember why you are quit.
Drinking lots of water helps, exercise is a good outlet and remember to prepare for triggers. Consumption of alcohol is a trigger, I like to drink myself but I have to be prepared mentally before getting at it.
You can do this, so go quit like a girl and show all of us men how bad ass girls are.
P
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Thanks for all the support. I have now finished my first week. I have made it this far before, though the first time I quit was for the surgeon who fused the vertebrae in my spine, and I didn't join this forum to help me out. I quit for about four months that time (three years back).
This time is different. I'm quitting for me, and joining up with friends here to help out, hopefully in both directions. One question I have for experience quitters; do the craves that occur during alcohol ingestion get any easier?
I hear a lot of people on here suggest staying away from drinking totally. I don't have a problem with drinking/alcoholism, and I would like to have a few drinks with friends on the weekend, or at Lambeau Field watching a Packer game. I hope the craves while drinking get less. I certainly wouldn't want to give up all drinking, and I wouldn't want to cave for such a stupid reason.
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Thanks for all the support. I have now finished my first week. I have made it this far before, though the first time I quit was for the surgeon who fused the vertebrae in my spine, and I didn't join this forum to help me out. I quit for about four months that time (three years back).
This time is different. I'm quitting for me, and joining up with friends here to help out, hopefully in both directions. One question I have for experience quitters; do the craves that occur during alcohol ingestion get any easier?
I hear a lot of people on here suggest staying away from drinking totally. I don't have a problem with drinking/alcoholism, and I would like to have a few drinks with friends on the weekend, or at Lambeau Field watching a Packer game. I hope the craves while drinking get less. I certainly wouldn't want to give up all drinking, and I wouldn't want to cave for such a stupid reason.
Shelly, don't drink. You will have fun with your friends but it is not worth losing your quit over. This is a good time to tell you the following statement. I use it every time I get into a jam and really need help. "LET NOTHING GET IN THE WAY OF YOUR QUIT" I don't know you beyond this place and the few messages we've shared. I do know a one week quit though. One week is kick ass girl, but too fresh to add alcohol.
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OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
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OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
Nice job on two weeks girl!
Driving was the worst for me too. I used fake up until about day 215 so don't be stressing on that. If you need that then use the hell out of it. Do what you need to in order to keep that shit out of your mouth!
Chew some gum and then wad it up in your lip.
Eat your breakfast on the way to work.....something else to do.
It does get better. It does get easier. You just have to keep pushing and KNOW that this is the truth. Promise.
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OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
Nice job on two weeks girl!
Driving was the worst for me too. I used fake up until about day 215 so don't be stressing on that. If you need that then use the hell out of it. Do what you need to in order to keep that shit out of your mouth!
Chew some gum and then wad it up in your lip.
Eat your breakfast on the way to work.....something else to do.
It does get better. It does get easier. You just have to keep pushing and KNOW that this is the truth. Promise.
Driving. That is one tough trigger for all of us; especially in the beginning. But lets look at a few things you've accomplished in 2 weeks of quit as it relates to driving.
# Nasty spitters in the car - 0
# of times you spilled fresh dip on your pants/shirt leaving small skid marks when you wipe them away - 0
# of times you dropped a piece of wet dip upon removal on the cup holder rather than the spitter - 0
# of times you wiped your finger on the carpet underneath the driver's seat - 0
# of times you had to check your teeth for dip flecks upon leaving said car - 0
# of times you were self conscious that the person who pulled up next to you saw that big fatty in your lower lip - 0
# of times did you think how stupid you look with a fatty in your lip - 0
# of times you had to suck up the spit outside of the spit can because of missed spit overflow - 0
The list goes on and on. Pretty pathetic when you actually type it out or read it and say to yourself, "hey I did that too." Shelly, you're NOT that person today. You are quit today and tomorrow you're going to wake up and post roll just like every other day for the past 2 weeks and you're going to be quit again. Never stop investing in your quit; it is a full on investment in yourself that always pays dividends. Always.
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OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
Nice job on two weeks girl!
Driving was the worst for me too. I used fake up until about day 215 so don't be stressing on that. If you need that then use the hell out of it. Do what you need to in order to keep that shit out of your mouth!
Chew some gum and then wad it up in your lip.
Eat your breakfast on the way to work.....something else to do.
It does get better. It does get easier. You just have to keep pushing and KNOW that this is the truth. Promise.
Driving. That is one tough trigger for all of us; especially in the beginning. But lets look at a few things you've accomplished in 2 weeks of quit as it relates to driving.
# Nasty spitters in the car - 0
# of times you spilled fresh dip on your pants/shirt leaving small skid marks when you wipe them away - 0
# of times you dropped a piece of wet dip upon removal on the cup holder rather than the spitter - 0
# of times you wiped your finger on the carpet underneath the driver's seat - 0
# of times you had to check your teeth for dip flecks upon leaving said car - 0
# of times you were self conscious that the person who pulled up next to you saw that big fatty in your lower lip - 0
# of times did you think how stupid you look with a fatty in your lip - 0
# of times you had to suck up the spit outside of the spit can because of missed spit overflow - 0
The list goes on and on. Pretty pathetic when you actually type it out or read it and say to yourself, "hey I did that too." Shelly, you're NOT that person today. You are quit today and tomorrow you're going to wake up and post roll just like every other day for the past 2 weeks and you're going to be quit again. Never stop investing in your quit; it is a full on investment in yourself that always pays dividends. Always.
^^^^^ What he said. Yes!!! I totally hear ya with the pouches breaking open too. Pain in the ass, but those fuckers help my quit big time. I hated sunflower seeds before, but I began to love them when I first quit. Something to think about. Good job on 2 weeks. We are all behind you if you need us.
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OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
Nice job on two weeks girl!
Driving was the worst for me too. I used fake up until about day 215 so don't be stressing on that. If you need that then use the hell out of it. Do what you need to in order to keep that shit out of your mouth!
Chew some gum and then wad it up in your lip.
Eat your breakfast on the way to work.....something else to do.
It does get better. It does get easier. You just have to keep pushing and KNOW that this is the truth. Promise.
Driving. That is one tough trigger for all of us; especially in the beginning. But lets look at a few things you've accomplished in 2 weeks of quit as it relates to driving.
# Nasty spitters in the car - 0
# of times you spilled fresh dip on your pants/shirt leaving small skid marks when you wipe them away - 0
# of times you dropped a piece of wet dip upon removal on the cup holder rather than the spitter - 0
# of times you wiped your finger on the carpet underneath the driver's seat - 0
# of times you had to check your teeth for dip flecks upon leaving said car - 0
# of times you were self conscious that the person who pulled up next to you saw that big fatty in your lower lip - 0
# of times did you think how stupid you look with a fatty in your lip - 0
# of times you had to suck up the spit outside of the spit can because of missed spit overflow - 0
The list goes on and on. Pretty pathetic when you actually type it out or read it and say to yourself, "hey I did that too." Shelly, you're NOT that person today. You are quit today and tomorrow you're going to wake up and post roll just like every other day for the past 2 weeks and you're going to be quit again. Never stop investing in your quit; it is a full on investment in yourself that always pays dividends. Always.
^^^^^ What he said. Yes!!! I totally hear ya with the pouches breaking open too. Pain in the ass, but those fuckers help my quit big time. I hated sunflower seeds before, but I began to love them when I first quit. Something to think about. Good job on 2 weeks. We are all behind you if you need us.
Two weeks...... Oh yea your winning one second, minute, hour, day, at a time. It gets better dear, it gets better each and every time time you win! I am on day 542 and I dipped for over 20 years over a can a day. If I can,,,, you can. Quit with you!!
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OK. I'm nearly up to two weeks, and it feels like an eternity! The fake shit helps, but I still have major cravings.
My plan is to stay quit. I agree though Ginet; alcohol really intensifies the cravings. I enjoyed my vacation last week, but I'm kind of glad that I'm back home, and no wine consumption with dinner during normal life.
Commuting to work is murder though, since I have major cravings while driving. Hopefully this gets easier, and time flies past faster, unlike the last couple of weeks.
The fake pouches suck too, just like the negative reviews online. They do help the cravings, but the quality of the actual pouches suck. Many of them have open ends, leaking the fake snuff out of them, and then they contaminate the rest of the pouches in the tin. I don't mind the half-empty pouches as much as the fact that I have to wipe the non-leaking pouches off before placing them in my mouth, or have black crap on my teeth. I never tried using regular tobacco, only pouches, and the quality of real pouches was much higher. Rarely did I find any leakers.
OK. That's my week #2 rant. Thanks to everyone for the support here, and thanks for listening to my rants. My hubby knows I've quit, but I haven't directed any rants to him. That's probably a good thing. We have an excellent marriage, but you never know; that first quit week, we had a couple verbal spats. That's something that hasn't happened in years. After finding this board and my quit group, that hasn't happened again. Thank You!
Nice job on two weeks girl!
Driving was the worst for me too. I used fake up until about day 215 so don't be stressing on that. If you need that then use the hell out of it. Do what you need to in order to keep that shit out of your mouth!
Chew some gum and then wad it up in your lip.
Eat your breakfast on the way to work.....something else to do.
It does get better. It does get easier. You just have to keep pushing and KNOW that this is the truth. Promise.
Driving. That is one tough trigger for all of us; especially in the beginning. But lets look at a few things you've accomplished in 2 weeks of quit as it relates to driving.
# Nasty spitters in the car - 0
# of times you spilled fresh dip on your pants/shirt leaving small skid marks when you wipe them away - 0
# of times you dropped a piece of wet dip upon removal on the cup holder rather than the spitter - 0
# of times you wiped your finger on the carpet underneath the driver's seat - 0
# of times you had to check your teeth for dip flecks upon leaving said car - 0
# of times you were self conscious that the person who pulled up next to you saw that big fatty in your lower lip - 0
# of times did you think how stupid you look with a fatty in your lip - 0
# of times you had to suck up the spit outside of the spit can because of missed spit overflow - 0
The list goes on and on. Pretty pathetic when you actually type it out or read it and say to yourself, "hey I did that too." Shelly, you're NOT that person today. You are quit today and tomorrow you're going to wake up and post roll just like every other day for the past 2 weeks and you're going to be quit again. Never stop investing in your quit; it is a full on investment in yourself that always pays dividends. Always.
^^^^^ What he said. Yes!!! I totally hear ya with the pouches breaking open too. Pain in the ass, but those fuckers help my quit big time. I hated sunflower seeds before, but I began to love them when I first quit. Something to think about. Good job on 2 weeks. We are all behind you if you need us.
Two weeks...... Oh yea your winning one second, minute, hour, day, at a time. It gets better dear, it gets better each and every time time you win! I am on day 542 and I dipped for over 20 years over a can a day. If I can,,,, you can. Quit with you!!
Of course it gets better. If it didn't I sure as hell wouldn't be here still
Used to hate it when people would tell me that...
"Hang in there Diesel. Things are going to get better, I promise!"
FUCK YOU ASSHOLE, TELL ME WHEN!!!!! IM FUCKING DIEING HERE!!!!!!
I had ZERO patience, yet here I am 872 days layer. I often used to think, "How the hell did I pull this off????"
For a long time I couldn't answer that questio. Then one day it hit me. I stayed quit because I really REALLY wanted to. Goofy part was I didn't even realize it at the time. I thought I was depriving myself of something, when really I was setting myself free. I was a prisoner so damn long, I forgot what freedom even felt like. I thought I was fighting myself, but really I was fighting FOR myself. It's one of those things that you don't realize until you get some distance from your initial struggles and are able to look back and make some sense of exactly what the hell happened. I really wanted this. I'm not only thankful that I did, but also for the fact that I didn't have to do it alone. People here helped me walk this journey. It's a pretty powerful combo. You need to stick around and find out just how powrful it can be.
If you really want something bad enough, you can do ANYTHING. Even if it sucks a fat one in the beginning.
Hang tough and stay involved.
Quit on...
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Shelly,
I just had a pretty serious craving on my way to the office. The car has always been my worst trigger. Well, I just got a new set of shoes for my 540i so when I was getting onto the long winding on ramp to I-75 I exercised my right to accelerate to highway speed in an appropriate timeframe, in this case, somewhere around 5.8 Seconds. Ahh, what a way to stop a crave.
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Thanks for the support everyone! I really had a tough time last week.
This week is definitely easier. I still have a rough time in the car, like most others here, but that is getting a bit easier too.
Like you hubbie, I just installed new CPSs on Bank 1 of my baby last Sunday. Wow! I think I gained about 20 extra HP! I had a CEL on for the last few months. I finally addressed it, and I'm happy driving. The car's computer claims I have increased the mileage by 3MPG also!
I also had an e39 540i, before I bought my M5. My 540i was the M5-lite, with the high performance package, 6-speed manual, etc. I ended up giving the car to my husband, after I wrecked the engine :(
I was exiting the freeway onto an offramp, and I mistakenly down-shifted from 6th gear, to 3rd; ouch! Bent all the valves. He's a mechanic, so he replaced the engine with a used one, and drives the car now. Matching black Bimmers.
I am dreading the day, coming soon, that I have to put the M5 in storage for the winter.
I have been using less of the fake pouches this week. I have been chewing more gum. So much so, that my jaw is getting sore by the end of the day! I have also has problems biting the inside of my lip, and cheeks while frantically chewing gum too. Better than nic pouches though.
I am buying 80-pack bags of gum. Much cheaper than nic. And, not embarrassing to purchase!
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So. This will be my first weekend alone since quitting.
One of the main people I quit for was my husband, and he left me this afternoon, off to his annual deer hunting trip. I hid my usage from him for a couple years after my last quit/cave cycle.
I have now been quit, with the help of KTC, for 42 days. I didn't think about stopping at the convenience store on my way home from work, which I credit to my quit time past me, since one month ago, I was considering stopping at every store!
I did have a craving thought just sitting here alone though. It's just me and my dogs, no hubby to be upset if I caved. I'm thankful to my quit group and supporters here for me not driving down the street to buy a can.
Thank you Sox, Done 4, JLaw, Cindy, Ginet, etc, etc, etc.. If it weren't for everyone I've met here, I definitely would be using, right now.
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So. This will be my first weekend alone since quitting.
One of the main people I quit for was my husband, and he left me this afternoon, off to his annual deer hunting trip. I hid my usage from him for a couple years after my last quit/cave cycle.
I have now been quit, with the help of KTC, for 42 days. I didn't think about stopping at the convenience store on my way home from work, which I credit to my quit time past me, since one month ago, I was considering stopping at every store!
I did have a craving thought just sitting here alone though. It's just me and my dogs, no hubby to be upset if I caved. I'm thankful to me quit group and supporters here for me not driving down the street to buy a can.
Thank you Sox, Done 4, JLaw, Cindy, Ginet, etc, etc, etc.. If it weren't for everyone I've met here, I definitely would be using, right now.
My recommendation... Don't sit around all weekend thinking about all this. Get out and enjoy the weekend! Go for a walk, enjoy the outdoors, or do something indoors. You can do whatever you like. You are a free women. You can do this. You have done it the past 42 days. Stay with the plan. Quit with you today.
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So. This will be my first weekend alone since quitting.
One of the main people I quit for was my husband, and he left me this afternoon, off to his annual deer hunting trip. I hid my usage from him for a couple years after my last quit/cave cycle.
I have now been quit, with the help of KTC, for 42 days. I didn't think about stopping at the convenience store on my way home from work, which I credit to my quit time past me, since one month ago, I was considering stopping at every store!
I did have a craving thought just sitting here alone though. It's just me and my dogs, no hubby to be upset if I caved. I'm thankful to me quit group and supporters here for me not driving down the street to buy a can.
Thank you Sox, Done 4, JLaw, Cindy, Ginet, etc, etc, etc.. If it weren't for everyone I've met here, I definitely would be using, right now.
My recommendation... Don't sit around all weekend thinking about all this. Get out and enjoy the weekend! Go for a walk, enjoy the outdoors, or do something indoors. You can do whatever you like. You are a free women. You can do this. You have done it the past 42 days. Stay with the plan. Quit with you today.
I could use some help replacing the head gaskets on my son's 4runner. Come on down to NC and we'll show you how pork is done!
D4M (not a stalker don't listen to Thumble)
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Ha, Done 4, I feel for you. The last time I replaced a head gasket was on a 1991 BMW 535i, and that was 10 years ago! After what I saw outside this morning (1/4" of solid ice), I would prefer to be in NC, even if I had to get my hands dirty.
Derk, I have been hanging with my dogs. Those bastards are spoiled, with 2-3 walks/day. If the ice melts off of the sidewalks today, we will be roving the neighborhood. It's supposed to warm up to just over 40°F here today, so it may even be enjoyable to be outdoors again.
My hubby took my little truck, and left me his Bimmer to drive while he's away. I'm thinking of taking the boys on a little road trip for dinner. With the early salt on the roads this year, I have the M5 in winter storage already, which has made driving to work an absolute bore.
There's no way I will allow myself to cave this weekend, but I have been spending more time here. The craves have definitely been worse though; the first thought I had upon waking this morning was to grab for a tin. Crazy.
Thanks for the support guys!
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Ha, Done 4, I feel for you. The last time I replaced a head gasket was on a 1991 BMW 535i, and that was 10 years ago! After what I saw outside this morning (1/4" of solid ice), I would prefer to be in NC, even if I had to get my hands dirty.
Derk, I have been hanging with my dogs. Those bastards are spoiled, with 2-3 walks/day. If the ice melts off of the sidewalks today, we will be roving the neighborhood. It's supposed to warm up to just over 40°F here today, so it may even be enjoyable to be outdoors again.
My hubby took my little truck, and left me his Bimmer to drive while he's away. I'm thinking of taking the boys on a little road trip for dinner. With the early salt on the roads this year, I have the M5 in winter storage already, which has made driving to work an absolute bore.
There's no way I will allow myself to cave this weekend, but I have been spending more time here. The craves have definitely been worse though; the first thought I had upon waking this morning was to grab for a tin. Crazy.
Thanks for the support guys!
Sounds like the dogs are getting taken care of. Good deal. Stay active, stay close to the site... That is a good plan. Don't worry about the entire weekend... Attack this in small chunks. Today only! That should be your focus... We can worry about tomorrow when it comes. You can do it. Quit with you all day long!
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Ha, Done 4, I feel for you. The last time I replaced a head gasket was on a 1991 BMW 535i, and that was 10 years ago! After what I saw outside this morning (1/4" of solid ice), I would prefer to be in NC, even if I had to get my hands dirty.
Derk, I have been hanging with my dogs. Those bastards are spoiled, with 2-3 walks/day. If the ice melts off of the sidewalks today, we will be roving the neighborhood. It's supposed to warm up to just over 40°F here today, so it may even be enjoyable to be outdoors again.
My hubby took my little truck, and left me his Bimmer to drive while he's away. I'm thinking of taking the boys on a little road trip for dinner. With the early salt on the roads this year, I have the M5 in winter storage already, which has made driving to work an absolute bore.
There's no way I will allow myself to cave this weekend, but I have been spending more time here. The craves have definitely been worse though; the first thought I had upon waking this morning was to grab for a tin. Crazy.
Thanks for the support guys!
Sounds like the dogs are getting taken care of. Good deal. Stay active, stay close to the site... That is a good plan. Don't worry about the entire weekend... Attack this in small chunks. Today only! That should be your focus... We can worry about tomorrow when it comes. You can do it. Quit with you all day long!
That procedure ruled! My hubby just returned with his prize, 10-pt buck. I stayed on this site all weekend, and participated in live chat more than ever before. I didn't leave the house at all, besides to walk the dogs, therefore I didn't get near any convenience stores to tempt me.
Thanks to all who were there to talk to and provide advice! Without you guys, I'd still be owned by tins of nic. You're awesome!
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Ha, Done 4, I feel for you. The last time I replaced a head gasket was on a 1991 BMW 535i, and that was 10 years ago! After what I saw outside this morning (1/4" of solid ice), I would prefer to be in NC, even if I had to get my hands dirty.
Derk, I have been hanging with my dogs. Those bastards are spoiled, with 2-3 walks/day. If the ice melts off of the sidewalks today, we will be roving the neighborhood. It's supposed to warm up to just over 40°F here today, so it may even be enjoyable to be outdoors again.
My hubby took my little truck, and left me his Bimmer to drive while he's away. I'm thinking of taking the boys on a little road trip for dinner. With the early salt on the roads this year, I have the M5 in winter storage already, which has made driving to work an absolute bore.
There's no way I will allow myself to cave this weekend, but I have been spending more time here. The craves have definitely been worse though; the first thought I had upon waking this morning was to grab for a tin. Crazy.
Thanks for the support guys!
Sounds like the dogs are getting taken care of. Good deal. Stay active, stay close to the site... That is a good plan. Don't worry about the entire weekend... Attack this in small chunks. Today only! That should be your focus... We can worry about tomorrow when it comes. You can do it. Quit with you all day long!
That procedure ruled! My hubby just returned with his prize, 10-pt buck. I stayed on this site all weekend, and participated in live chat more than ever before. I didn't leave the house at all, besides to walk the dogs, therefore I didn't get near any convenience stores to tempt me.
Thanks to all who were there to talk to and provide advice! Without you guys, I'd still be owned by tins of nic. You're awesome!
Well done! I knew you could get thru the weekend! Now, let's do the exact same thing today. Quit with you today!
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Shelly,
I'm TxTaco1 (Jason) and I must say this evening for some reason is the first time I read thru your story. I'm glad/proud to be quit with you today. See ya in the HOF!
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Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
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Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.
Quit with you today.
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Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.
Quit with you today.
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Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.
We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
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Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.
Quit with you today.
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Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.
We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
This is a solid post because you raise a question that can be answered from a number of directions. My response is, a milestone is a milestone is a milestone, just as is any +1 day you add to your quit. Think of it like a mile marker. Day 1 is the starting point and you just threw out your last dip. Each +1 is that much more added distance from the starting point. But unlike auto racing, there is no end, the milestones are just nice rounded numbers for you to take a step back and look how far away you are from Day 1. But no matter how far from Day 1 you get, you can always see it, even if it gets smaller and smaller in your rear view mirror. Why can you always see it? Because you're an addict. And so am I. But one thing I know is that if I protect my quit and stay the course, it does get smaller, and becomes more and more insignificant as I grow stronger and stronger.
So Shelly, I look at your 50 days as a nice chunk of distance from day 1. That is an accomplishment; one that is worth protecting. Don't ever find yourself driving down those same 50 days you just passed.
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Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.
Quit with you today.
30
Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.
We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
This is a solid post because you raise a question that can be answered from a number of directions. My response is, a milestone is a milestone is a milestone, just as is any +1 day you add to your quit. Think of it like a mile marker. Day 1 is the starting point and you just threw out your last dip. Each +1 is that much more added distance from the starting point. But unlike auto racing, there is no end, the milestones are just nice rounded numbers for you to take a step back and look how far away you are from Day 1. But no matter how far from Day 1 you get, you can always see it, even if it gets smaller and smaller in your rear view mirror. Why can you always see it? Because you're an addict. And so am I. But one thing I know is that if I protect my quit and stay the course, it does get smaller, and becomes more and more insignificant as I grow stronger and stronger.
So Shelly, I look at your 50 days as a nice chunk of distance from day 1. That is an accomplishment; one that is worth protecting. Don't ever find yourself driving down those same 50 days you just passed.
I recommend supporting new quitters. It can be tough and frustrating, but it can also be very rewarding. You will lose many to the viscous nature of our shared addiction, but it only takes one solid connection to make it all worth while.
Gratz on the half HoF, and see you at +1 tomorrow.
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Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.
Quit with you today.
30
Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.
We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
This is a solid post because you raise a question that can be answered from a number of directions. My response is, a milestone is a milestone is a milestone, just as is any +1 day you add to your quit. Think of it like a mile marker. Day 1 is the starting point and you just threw out your last dip. Each +1 is that much more added distance from the starting point. But unlike auto racing, there is no end, the milestones are just nice rounded numbers for you to take a step back and look how far away you are from Day 1. But no matter how far from Day 1 you get, you can always see it, even if it gets smaller and smaller in your rear view mirror. Why can you always see it? Because you're an addict. And so am I. But one thing I know is that if I protect my quit and stay the course, it does get smaller, and becomes more and more insignificant as I grow stronger and stronger.
So Shelly, I look at your 50 days as a nice chunk of distance from day 1. That is an accomplishment; one that is worth protecting. Don't ever find yourself driving down those same 50 days you just passed.
I recommend supporting new quitters. It can be tough and frustrating, but it can also be very rewarding. You will lose many to the viscous nature of our shared addiction, but it only takes one solid connection to make it all worth while.
Gratz on the half HoF, and see you at +1 tomorrow.
Thanks to all for your fantastic words of wisdom. Those morals could only have been learned by you guys, who are much further in your quit.
I have already changed my attitude a little since that 50- day post. It's been like a roller coaster in some ways, going from the highs of seeing my quit as tough, and never failing, but also hitting the lows I see in that post, like why in the hell do I care, and/or when is this going to get easier.
It's difficult to tell now, but I am getting an inkling that the highs are, and will become more frequent and last longer, and the lows become fewer and further between.
Thanks to all the supporters here. You really do make a big difference! To me at least.
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Thanks Derk and Jason! Proud to be quitting with both of you.
I came back to my intro today for a reason. I hit 1/2 HOF this weekend. Not a big deal to me. I have been contemplating what the hell HOF really is going to mean to me. I have quit this crap before for just over three months, which would equate to 100 days, before I even knew about KTC.
I had back surgery three years ago, and my surgeon wouldn't even consider doing the procedure if I was using nicotine of any kind, cause he said new bone growth wouldn't happen fast enough between my fused vertebrae if I was using. So, in order to get rid of years of major pain, I quit.
I didn't have the help of ktc at that time, but I did it. I didn't have any way to go purchase tins, since I wasn't moving too quickly, much less driving, for a couple months after surgery.
Then, three months later, I went to ask for my job back. I'm an engineer, so not a labor intensive job. The company didn't want me back that soon. They were worried about something happening, and their ass being on the hook. So, I found a new job. I am much happier now, so it turned out to be a good thing, but just the stress of starting a new job, also made it easy for me to start using pouches again. I thought I could just use while on the job. I didn't tell the hubby I was using again, but no. I did not have the control to use only s little, or only 9-5. That was crazy!
So. I'm a little worried that this HOF is not much of a true milestone. Yes; it's 100 days. But it doesn't remove the cravings and the thoughts of using at all.
Is there a true milestone? I know there was when I quit smoking. Then, there was a point that I crossed when cig smoke was disgusting to me. Getting into a smoker's car or a smoker's home smells gross to me. There's no way I would think about smoking cigarettes again. I don't see any line to cross during this quit.
I don't mean to sound negative, or be bad for anyone's quit on here. I would like to support the new quitters. It's tough, I know, twice. I'm an addict. I will have to spend way more than just 100 days posting roll to feel that I've truly beat this bitch.
Savor the victory of today. Mark the time, enjoy the nice round numbers as evidence of success, and keep adding +1s to them. The hof is not a destination, but a via point on the journey of quit.
Quit with you today.
30
Enjoy every milestone, but don't get wrapped up in the past or the future. You need to live life in the present! Look at your quit milestones like you do your Birthday. On your Birthday you celebrate, but you don't want wake up the next day 6 feet under. So you wake up and keep your life rolling. Same for quitting. Celebrate the milestone on that day and wake up the next day and do it again. You don't want you quit to die either.
We spend our lives always worrying about the past or future all of which we don't control. With all that worrying, we sometimes fail to see what is right before us. Let go of all the things you don't control, own this day and enjoy it. That is true victory in my eyes.
This is a solid post because you raise a question that can be answered from a number of directions. My response is, a milestone is a milestone is a milestone, just as is any +1 day you add to your quit. Think of it like a mile marker. Day 1 is the starting point and you just threw out your last dip. Each +1 is that much more added distance from the starting point. But unlike auto racing, there is no end, the milestones are just nice rounded numbers for you to take a step back and look how far away you are from Day 1. But no matter how far from Day 1 you get, you can always see it, even if it gets smaller and smaller in your rear view mirror. Why can you always see it? Because you're an addict. And so am I. But one thing I know is that if I protect my quit and stay the course, it does get smaller, and becomes more and more insignificant as I grow stronger and stronger.
So Shelly, I look at your 50 days as a nice chunk of distance from day 1. That is an accomplishment; one that is worth protecting. Don't ever find yourself driving down those same 50 days you just passed.
I recommend supporting new quitters. It can be tough and frustrating, but it can also be very rewarding. You will lose many to the viscous nature of our shared addiction, but it only takes one solid connection to make it all worth while.
Gratz on the half HoF, and see you at +1 tomorrow.
Thanks to all for your fantastic words of wisdom. Those morals could only have been learned by you guys, who are much further in your quit.
I have already changed my attitude a little since that 50- day post. It's been like a roller coaster in some ways, going from the highs of seeing my quit as tough, and never failing, but also hitting the lows I see in that post, like why in the hell do I care, and/or when is this going to get easier.
It's difficult to tell now, but I am getting an inkling that the highs are, and will become more frequent and last longer, and the lows become fewer and further between.
Thanks to all the supporters here. You really do make a big difference! To me at least.
Hey 5shmelly! Just keep doing what you are doing. You are winning and developing a rock solid quit. You got some great advice just don't give Twart your digits.
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
Congrats on not being a slave to the can for the past 100 days.
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
Congrats on not being a slave to the can for the past 100 days.
Enjoy your day!
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
Congrats on not being a slave to the can for the past 100 days.
Enjoy your day!
100 days! Congrats, That's huge!
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Congrats on the hundy, Shmelly!
Nice! Congrats M5, today is a huge day and a huge number. How's that freedom taste!
Congrats on not being a slave to the can for the past 100 days.
Enjoy your day!
100 days! Congrats, That's huge!
Congratulation shelly! Now shoot for the 1000!