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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: CoopersBuddy on January 06, 2014, 12:02:00 PM
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I began experimenting with smokeless tobacco close to 31 years ago. By the age of 16, I was addicted and have chewed roughly a can a day of Kodiak for the past 28 years. When your a young high schooler, or in college, okay I get it it's COOL. But at 35, 40, or even 45, come on that shit will catch up with you.
Chewing has sabotaged my life in many ways, I'm sure all here can relate. I mostly regret the relationships it's damaged or ruined in the last 30 years or so. You can literally see yourself push people away so that you can get your fix. That's SAD!!! Anyway, no more!
I quit Jan 1 around 11:30 pm, the same day as my twin daughters' birthday. I've dusted off some hypnosis audio that I used 10 years ago to quit for 3 months and am determined to put this behind me once and for all. With a little help from this forum of course and a lot of perseverance.
I like the fact that each day is the goal. That's doable. We can all do one day, then get up and repeat. Anyway, I'll keep this short, but look forward to getting to know some of you.
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I began experimenting with smokeless tobacco close to 31 years ago. By the age of 16, I was addicted and have chewed roughly a can a day of Kodiak for the past 28 years. When your a young high schooler, or in college, okay I get it it's COOL. But at 35, 40, or even 45, come on that shit will catch up with you.
Chewing has sabotaged my life in many ways, I'm sure all here can relate. I mostly regret the relationships it's damaged or ruined in the last 30 years or so. You can literally see yourself push people away so that you can get your fix. That's SAD!!! Anyway, no more!
I quit Jan 1 around 11:30 pm, the same day as my twin daughters' birthday. I've dusted off some hypnosis audio that I used 10 years ago to quit for 3 months and am determined to put this behind me once and for all. With a little help from this forum of course and a lot of perseverance.
I like the fact that each day is the goal. That's doable. We can all do one day, then get up and repeat. Anyway, I'll keep this short, but look forward to getting to know some of you.
Each day is a goal, but sometimes each moment becomes a goal. I swear I've had craves that felt like they lasted years that were only 2 minutes long. Time is irrelevant sometimes.
The key to quitting is that you need to decide that you are quit. Once you've done that, you decide to be quit again. Then, you keep doing that until you are quit. Being quit is not just A decision. It is a ton of decisions. It is actions.
Congrats on being quit. We can help you, but you got to do the heavy lifting. If you promise to ask for help before using, then post roll. If you are prepared to close the door on nicotine, then post roll. If you are quit, then post roll.
It all starts with that.
We help others stay quit, and those others help us. It is a web of accountability we weave in this quit that catches us and protects us. When you're not strong, take. When you're strong, give.
Just be quit.
Got any questions man?
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Congrats on making the decision to quit. KTC will keep you quit if you utilize the tools here. The first thing is to post roll every day in your quit group. That's the April 2014 quit group. You make your promise to not use nicotine for today. Post roll every day, make your promise, and honor your word. That's all you need to do to stay quit.
Directions for posting roll are in the Welcome Center above. You should read all of the welcome center, and spend time reading the introduction threads and HOF threads as well. The Words of Wisdom section is very good too. There is plenty here to read to help get your mind off of the nicotine.
Also, reach out to people and get some phone numbers. Make some friends. This will save your quit and give you even more accountability. You want to quit for good, follow the KTC roadmap and you will be successful. One day at a time.
Welcome to KTC and don't hesitate to PM me if you have questions
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Glad to have you Coop. Like the fellas below said, read everything you possibly can on this site. It will not only give you the motivation to keep and own your quit, but it will also give you the confidence to do so because 1000's before you have done so as well.
The task is simple, but it's not easy. Keep your daughters in the forefront and remember that if you don't keep your quit, you'll be on your deathbed before you want to be and explaining to them that you were too selfish to quit to give them many more healthy years with them.
Do you want somebody else walking them down the aisle someday? How about when they have kids?
You WILL do this because you know that you don't like the answers to those questions if you keep poisoning yourself. PM me if you need some help or support. I will quit with you everyday that you and your family are more important than the poison.
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Thanks guys for the support. I know this sounds easy but as you all know quitting is not simple. I'm in day 6, and I will say it's probably been the toughest mentally. I totally hear wastepanel time seems to stand still sometimes. Wish it could do that during sex, but no it has to be when you can't sleep, or are waiting to go to bed, etc. Today has been tough but I can push through this rough patch. Need to try and not be such a dick to those in the house, but it's almost impossible. I am a dick.
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I began experimenting with smokeless tobacco close to 31 years ago. By the age of 16, I was addicted and have chewed roughly a can a day of Kodiak for the past 28 years. When your a young high schooler, or in college, okay I get it it's COOL. But at 35, 40, or even 45, come on that shit will catch up with you.
Chewing has sabotaged my life in many ways, I'm sure all here can relate. I mostly regret the relationships it's damaged or ruined in the last 30 years or so. You can literally see yourself push people away so that you can get your fix. That's SAD!!! Anyway, no more!
I quit Jan 1 around 11:30 pm, the same day as my twin daughters' birthday. I've dusted off some hypnosis audio that I used 10 years ago to quit for 3 months and am determined to put this behind me once and for all. With a little help from this forum of course and a lot of perseverance.Â
I like the fact that each day is the goal. That's doable. We can all do one day, then get up and repeat. Anyway, I'll keep this short, but look forward to getting to know some of you.
Hey cooper. I am glad you have decided to quit. It is good that you quit on a child's bday but make this quit your quit and noone else's... It is real simple around here. Find your group, post roll, don't use nicotine and get up the next day and post roll again.
Here is what I hope the hypnosis tape is saying: "Post Roll, Post Roll, Post Roll, PM your friends at KTC, Post Roll, Post Roll, Yell at the people here at KTC, Post Roll, Post Roll" The next day repeat again after me....Post Roll, Post Roll....
I quit with you today dude!!!
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Thanks guys for the support. I know this sounds easy but as you all know quitting is not simple. I'm in day 6, and I will say it's probably been the toughest mentally. I totally hear wastepanel time seems to stand still sometimes. Wish it could do that during sex, but no it has to be when you can't sleep, or are waiting to go to bed, etc. Today has been tough but I can push through this rough patch. Need to try and not be such a dick to those in the house, but it's almost impossible. I am a dick.
Don't be a dick to your family. It's not their fault you're an addict. Post your anger here or in chat. And think about tongue replacement surgery. I quit with you today.
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Thanks guys for the support. I know this sounds easy but as you all know quitting is not simple. I'm in day 6, and I will say it's probably been the toughest mentally. I totally hear wastepanel time seems to stand still sometimes. Wish it could do that during sex, but no it has to be when you can't sleep, or are waiting to go to bed, etc. Today has been tough but I can push through this rough patch. Need to try and not be such a dick to those in the house, but it's almost impossible. I am a dick.
Dude, I was the worst dick in the world during my quit. I made 100% certain during my sane times to tell my wife it wasn't me when I would get that way and I was so proud that she was standing beside me. I would do my best not to show it at home but my temper was way out of control. Below is a timeline that shows my temper days and when they ended.
Keep pushing on, you can do this.
I am on day 171 and feeling great!!!!!!
Day 15-21 Starting to get my energy level back up. Craves about 2-4 per day and short. The first thing every morning, I started to get an empty and sick feeling in my stomach when I thought about not being able to dip. Started losing my temper easily.
Day 22-25 No real changes, cruising along but feeling a little depressed. I started learning how to hate my addiction and was really mad about it.
Day 26- 30: Wow, I was starting to gain a lot of weight. Weird how I replaced Cope with Ice Cream and cake. I don't even eat sweets but here I am 10 lbs heavier. I don't care, I'm not dipping and the craves are mild.
Day 31-38: Freaking fog was back, some nasty craves and my temper way out of control. WTF!
Day 39-60: The roller coaster days. Mod craves followed by no craves, bad temper and mild depression. A difficult time but I was not giving up at this point.
Day 61-73: The best days by far. Seldom think about dip, temper is way better, sleeping like a normal person and just feeling pretty darn good. I am stacking up these good days to recharge my batteries and prepare for the next round of fights".
Day 74- 85: Really good days. Strong cravings when I have too many drinks so I have been careful with drinking. Normal days are now 0-1 crave. My temper has been completely under control for 2 weeks now.
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Thanks guys for the support. I know this sounds easy but as you all know quitting is not simple. I'm in day 6, and I will say it's probably been the toughest mentally. I totally hear wastepanel time seems to stand still sometimes. Wish it could do that during sex, but no it has to be when you can't sleep, or are waiting to go to bed, etc. Today has been tough but I can push through this rough patch. Need to try and not be such a dick to those in the house, but it's almost impossible. I am a dick.
Dude, I was the worst dick in the world during my quit. I made 100% certain during my sane times to tell my wife it wasn't me when I would get that way and I was so proud that she was standing beside me. I would do my best not to show it at home but my temper was way out of control. Below is a timeline that shows my temper days and when they ended.
Keep pushing on, you can do this.
I am on day 171 and feeling great!!!!!!
Day 15-21 Starting to get my energy level back up. Craves about 2-4 per day and short. The first thing every morning, I started to get an empty and sick feeling in my stomach when I thought about not being able to dip. Started losing my temper easily.
Day 22-25 No real changes, cruising along but feeling a little depressed. I started learning how to hate my addiction and was really mad about it.
Day 26- 30: Wow, I was starting to gain a lot of weight. Weird how I replaced Cope with Ice Cream and cake. I don't even eat sweets but here I am 10 lbs heavier. I don't care, I'm not dipping and the craves are mild.
Day 31-38: Freaking fog was back, some nasty craves and my temper way out of control. WTF!
Day 39-60: The roller coaster days. Mod craves followed by no craves, bad temper and mild depression. A difficult time but I was not giving up at this point.
Day 61-73: The best days by far. Seldom think about dip, temper is way better, sleeping like a normal person and just feeling pretty darn good. I am stacking up these good days to recharge my batteries and prepare for the next round of fights".
Day 74- 85: Really good days. Strong cravings when I have too many drinks so I have been careful with drinking. Normal days are now 0-1 crave. My temper has been completely under control for 2 weeks now.
It's tough now Coop, but the farther you get into this thing the more good days you'll have. The mental part is the toughest now because the nic is out of your system. When I hit that 6-9 day funk. I read every possible thing I could on the site. The Kerns story is especially powerful, and take a look at the pictures. Being a dick for a couple weeks is better than ending up with no jaw, no tongue, or worse.
I quit with you today Coop. Listen to PD too ------^ , dude knows what he's talking about.
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More good days to come! Congrats on reaching HOF!
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Congrats on hitting the Hall. Well done.
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Congrats on hitting the Hall. Well done.
Congrats brother! Enjoy the day
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Congrats on hitting the Hall. Well done.
Congrats brother! Enjoy the day
Nice work Coop!!