KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: KY_flyboy on November 28, 2017, 08:32:00 PM
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Hey yall, I never knew I was an addict until I found this site and boy I'm glad I did. I shoved that crap in my face for almost 20 years. Love being quit with everyone. Here I sit trying to make better roll posts, texting internet strangers... yeah its kinda weird but I am not dipping and that is awesome. IQWYT.
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KY - there's a test thread (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11199239/) for experimenting with formatting and stuff like that, if it's not something you're interested in keeping around.
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After reading BigTex51's intro I feel less horrible about the things I did and makes me more committed to my quit with you. I really struggled with my religion as a slave to a can. I even felt like i had to hide it even deeper than the ninja dipping the rest of the time. When I was around my church family I pretended like I wasn't a slave/addict/junkie, like i was another person that couldn't wait to put cancer shavings in my face the second I thought I was in the clear and they wouldn't know. I may have a shorter fuse these days but hope to be a better person every day.
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I'm slightly aggravated tonight, it's not a cave or crave... I guess it's just the asshole in me coming out. Best news is I am and will continue to be nicotine and tobacco free.
Rant to follow:
I am pissed at all the posting and ghost in the FCWM. Not one slackjawwed faggot stepping up to help with accountability, leadership or even the roll or the SSOA. Part of me wants to let this be my last fucking post on this website. I'm not asking for sympathy lol, a pat on the back or any bullshit like that. I would love actual help typing shit in the SSOA or the clean roll file.
As I type this out I think I'm going to stay here but I'll just be a post and ghost too. Fuck it. I hate being like this but I don't want to be the only horse pulling that's for damn sure. You won't see me here after a 100 days. Go fuck yourself FCWM.
Rounds complete
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I think you should not flip roll, not update the SSOA, and post what you wrote above in the FCWM.
Might at least generate some excitement for the day.
Instead of flipping roll tomorrow simply post a reply asking for a pickup.
As for the asshole part, my personal experience is that I still haven't figured out how to be the person I was with nicotine. That's my problem though, and there is no way in hell I am going to think for a second that nicotine is going to fix it. Mask it until I quit again or die, maybe, but it sure as fuck won't fix me. So after 476 days I am still focused mostly on staying quit first, fixing my a-holeness second.
Quit On With Your Badass Self!
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Oh, and edit your fucking intro thread title. "Here ges"...ferfucksake
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I'm slightly aggravated tonight, it's not a cave or crave... I guess it's just the asshole in me coming out. Best news is I am and will continue to be nicotine and tobacco free.
Rant to follow:
I am pissed at all the posting and ghost in the FCWM. Not one slackjawwed faggot stepping up to help with accountability, leadership or even the roll or the SSOA. Part of me wants to let this be my last fucking post on this website. I'm not asking for sympathy lol, a pat on the back or any bullshit like that. I would love actual help typing shit in the SSOA or the clean roll file.
As I type this out I think I'm going to stay here but I'll just be a post and ghost too. Fuck it. I hate being like this but I don't want to be the only horse pulling that's for damn sure. You won't see me here after a 100 days. Go fuck yourself FCWM.
Rounds complete
Please don't give up on the site. I've read way too many cave threads from folks who started here and tried to continue on their own. Some folks have issues with the format or their quit groups - there are even some people who post roll in groups other than their own month. Quit is quit, simple enough. The important thing is that we wake up every morning and realize how important it is to quit today. If we forget to quit we will surely fail.
I quit with you today! Stranger999 day 865
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Oh, and edit your fucking intro thread title. "Here ges"...ferfucksake
I tired to but dont have rights...
Oh well, just proves that i am much better at spreadsheets than English (or maybe slightly spescial).
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Oh, and edit your fucking intro thread title. "Here ges"...ferfucksake
I tired to but dont have rights...
Oh well, just proves that i am much better at spreadsheets than English (or maybe slightly spescial).
If your resolve is no stronger than saying after 100 days you're out because of some petty bullshit about spreadsheet and such, what the hell are you going to do when life throws you a real curveball? Yes, you have the right to be upset with your quit group. Giving up your own accountability after 100 days because of their lack of action though? Doesn't that seem like you letting them control your outcome? Sounds an awful lot like an addict mentality winning and playing mind games with a new quitter to me.
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Oh, and edit your fucking intro thread title. "Here ges"...ferfucksake
I tired to but dont have rights...
Oh well, just proves that i am much better at spreadsheets than English (or maybe slightly spescial).
If your resolve is no stronger than saying after 100 days you're out because of some petty bullshit about spreadsheet and such, what the hell are you going to do when life throws you a real curveball? Yes, you have the right to be upset with your quit group. Giving up your own accountability after 100 days because of their lack of action though? Doesn't that seem like you letting them control your outcome? Sounds an awful lot like an addict mentality winning and playing mind games with a new quitter to me.
Thank you for the response. You certainly have quite a quit going. I can tell you one thing my resolve is stronger than a spreadsheet, a website, and I believe most people walking this earth. I'm still here posting fighting through my own shit, so I would appreciate only positive reinforcement. If you would like to comment in any other fashion you can pm me or something.
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Oh, and edit your fucking intro thread title. "Here ges"...ferfucksake
I tired to but dont have rights...
Oh well, just proves that i am much better at spreadsheets than English (or maybe slightly spescial).
If your resolve is no stronger than saying after 100 days you're out because of some petty bullshit about spreadsheet and such, what the hell are you going to do when life throws you a real curveball? Yes, you have the right to be upset with your quit group. Giving up your own accountability after 100 days because of their lack of action though? Doesn't that seem like you letting them control your outcome? Sounds an awful lot like an addict mentality winning and playing mind games with a new quitter to me.
Thank you for the response. You certainly have quite a quit going. I can tell you one thing my resolve is stronger than a spreadsheet, a website, and I believe most people walking this earth. I'm still here posting fighting through my own shit, so I would appreciate only positive reinforcement. If you would like to comment in any other fashion you can pm me or something.
The group that you find yourself in is somewhat luck of the draw. Some groups are full of drama, rage, wisdom, etc. Others are quiet and it can seem like the ‘brotherhood’ aspect of this site is unrepresented.
All I can offer is advice to branch out. Post support in some older groups, get some vet digits, put your political opinions out the and piss someone off.
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Oh, and edit your fucking intro thread title. "Here ges"...ferfucksake
I tired to but dont have rights...
Oh well, just proves that i am much better at spreadsheets than English (or maybe slightly spescial).
If your resolve is no stronger than saying after 100 days you're out because of some petty bullshit about spreadsheet and such, what the hell are you going to do when life throws you a real curveball? Yes, you have the right to be upset with your quit group. Giving up your own accountability after 100 days because of their lack of action though? Doesn't that seem like you letting them control your outcome? Sounds an awful lot like an addict mentality winning and playing mind games with a new quitter to me.
Thank you for the response. You certainly have quite a quit going. I can tell you one thing my resolve is stronger than a spreadsheet, a website, and I believe most people walking this earth. I'm still here posting fighting through my own shit, so I would appreciate only positive reinforcement. If you would like to comment in any other fashion you can pm me or something.
The group that you find yourself in is somewhat luck of the draw. Some groups are full of drama, rage, wisdom, etc. Others are quiet and it can seem like the ‘brotherhood’ aspect of this site is unrepresented.
All I can offer is advice to branch out. Post support in some older groups, get some vet digits, put your political opinions out the and piss someone off.
I think of my quit group as my home page here, but that does not prevent me from posting on other threads. :)
My advice is to get here every damn morning to renew your quit. Don't ever miss a day and you won't ever forget to quit for that day.
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Oh, and edit your fucking intro thread title. "Here ges"...ferfucksake
I tired to but dont have rights...
Oh well, just proves that i am much better at spreadsheets than English (or maybe slightly spescial).
If your resolve is no stronger than saying after 100 days you're out because of some petty bullshit about spreadsheet and such, what the hell are you going to do when life throws you a real curveball? Yes, you have the right to be upset with your quit group. Giving up your own accountability after 100 days because of their lack of action though? Doesn't that seem like you letting them control your outcome? Sounds an awful lot like an addict mentality winning and playing mind games with a new quitter to me.
Thank you for the response. You certainly have quite a quit going. I can tell you one thing my resolve is stronger than a spreadsheet, a website, and I believe most people walking this earth. I'm still here posting fighting through my own shit, so I would appreciate only positive reinforcement. If you would like to comment in any other fashion you can pm me or something.
The group that you find yourself in is somewhat luck of the draw. Some groups are full of drama, rage, wisdom, etc. Others are quiet and it can seem like the ‘brotherhood’ aspect of this site is unrepresented.
All I can offer is advice to branch out. Post support in some older groups, get some vet digits, put your political opinions out the and piss someone off.
I think of my quit group as my home page here, but that does not prevent me from posting on other threads. :)
My advice is to get here every damn morning to renew your quit. Don't ever miss a day and you won't ever forget to quit for that day.
I treat everyone the same here. You want respect, earn it. It's tough love sometimes; like an older brother to his younger. Don't say you'll be out after a 100 days and expect people to clamor for you to stay. There is no intent to push you away, read the message I'm giving you here. Be stronger than outside forces you cannot control and your quit will thank you for it.