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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Erdnase on October 03, 2011, 12:50:00 PM
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I don't say it is my Birthday to get wishes, but I do say it to track when I stop chewing and get to getting. Usual, tried it and went weak and popped one in my check and gum. 37 today and I read thru what others have said about looking at your kid, and wanting to be around to see the ups and downs of life.
I am a very strong person, but this little bastard keeps getting the better of me. Today I give my word of Honor, that I will not chew.
Chad
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I don't say it is my Birthday to get wishes, but I do say it to track when I stop chewing and get to getting. Usual, tried it and went weak and popped one in my check and gum. 37 today and I read thru what others have said about looking at your kid, and wanting to be around to see the ups and downs of life.
I am a very strong person, but this little bastard keeps getting the better of me. Today I give my word of Honor, that I will not chew.
Chad
Welcome Chad! We are all here for you man!
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I see you posted roll. Congratulations on your decision. You will not regret it. Read, read, read this site. PM me if you need any help. You can do this.
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Great to see your post, Chad! Welcome, and don't underestimate yourself. You never quit before, you just took breaks. This is QUIT, capital letters all the way. You can make it till bedtime without using nicotine (in ANY form). You are doing this, stay close to this site. Read everything then read it again. You and I will both live to see our kids grow up. This fight is for my life, no joke there. It's a fight for your life. You can be victorious today.
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Congrats chad,
I must say i am glad you took the first step to getting your life back. I know you have heard this alot today but read everything on here and then read it again. it will only help you. This time you QUIT you didnt take a break.
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I don't say it is my Birthday to get wishes, but I do say it to track when I stop chewing and get to getting. Usual, tried it and went weak and popped one in my check and gum. 37 today and I read thru what others have said about looking at your kid, and wanting to be around to see the ups and downs of life.Â
I am a very strong person, but this little bastard keeps getting the better of me. Today I give my word of Honor, that I will not chew.Â
Chad
Nice promise for the day. Be true to your word.
Make it until tomorrow when you post roll, and be true to your word, then, too.
But first, worry about today. When you're questioning your choice, come on here and read; when a crave hits, go to live chat and just say, "Holy shit, I'm fighting a crave;" when your head feels like shit read some HOF speeches; share your number with your fellow January quitters and with vets; PM quitters.
Put your hands on the keyboard and keep them from sticking that shit in your lip. You can do this.
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Thank you all for standing with me on this!!
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Good Morning everyone. Foggy Foggy Day yesterday. I swear that not having this site I would have cracked like an egg on a 3yr olds Easter Egg Hunt.
I Laughed out loud last night as my boy and I had cookies before bed. Oreo's. I looked at the mirror when we were done and looked like I had a big fatty dip with the crumbs all over my gums and teeth.
Have a great day and thank you for your words of encouragement
Chad
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Way to go Chad and welcome to a healthier new life.
Great decision.
Stay close and read, read, read.
PM me of you need anything. I quit with YOU today brother.
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any idea why my throat is sore? Felt fine yeasterday, hit the gym hard today, and feel great. But this afternoon my throat feels raw??
Could be I am getting sick, but it is just weird
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My fiancee had a sore throat about day 2 thru probably day 5. So I dont think you are getting sick!
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any idea why my throat is sore? Felt fine yeasterday, hit the gym hard today, and feel great. But this afternoon my throat feels raw??
Could be I am getting sick, but it is just weird
Sores In Your Mouth (lip, tongue, cheek, etc.) - you're done dipping... why does your mouth hurt so damn bad? You've got more sores in your mouth now than when you were dipping. What's going on?!? There are a couple of explanations for this one. First, if you're like most of us, you've found something to replace your dip to get you past the oral fixation (See Smokeless Alternatives). If you're chewing seeds then there's a TON of salt in your mouth that wasn't there before. Also once you get dip out of your sytem the PH balance in your mouth is changing. Bottom line is this - get to a dentist and get checked out. But unless something stays around for more than two weeks you should be good to go.
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So for the last few days I have been hiding out. I go to work and then beeline home. Sent my wife into the store for icecream because I did not want to chance walking up to the counter with a a thing of ice cream and tell the pimply butterface kid behind the counter, " Yeah, I will take this and a tin of Cope."
But last night I went to my Bowling League. Great group I bowl with but the temptation was huge. I have stopped drinking beers for the time being as well.
As my team-mates showed up the 3 finger shocker bitch was present last night. Maybe I am a bit foggy still, but it was like a a weird porno. 3 fingers to pack the chew in the mouth, 3 fingers to throw the ball, three fingers to tip the beers back and at some point the fellas got a strike or two, and guess what....a 3 finger high five???
I don't know if life is moving slower and that is why I have the chance now to observe, which flew by before?
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Today has been a great day! If you feel this give me a "Hell Yeah"
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Today has been a great day! If you feel this give me a "Hell Yeah"
Here is a Hell Yeah for ya!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ)
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Today has been a great day! If you feel this give me a "Hell Yeah"
Here is a Hell Yeah for ya!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ)
Today has been a great day! If you feel this give me a "Hell Yeah"
Here is a Hell Yeah for ya!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ)
Razd-Thanks for that brother!!! Fired me right Up!
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Today has been a great day! If you feel this give me a "Hell Yeah"
Here is a Hell Yeah for ya!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ)
Today has been a great day! If you feel this give me a "Hell Yeah"
Here is a Hell Yeah for ya!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyu5ckar5mQ)
Razd-Thanks for that brother!!! Fired me right Up!
You're kickin ass!! Keep it up.
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Just had to post. I had a Mutha Fucka of a weekend. We had a family get together and a Football game and tailgating on Saturday. Now mind you I live in Montana where it is sort of a Mantra to Chew and tip a few brews. My wife leaned over to me at the game, that she was proud that I did not cave with all my friends around me.
So Sunday I woke up late, and went and had breakfast and ten turned into 2 then 3 in the afternoon. I am thinking shit I am on 2 weeks, its ok if I don't post today, I got this thing worked out.
And then I sat there.
I made a commitment to be nic free, but I also made a commitment to post roll. Will I post roll call everyday of my life?
I have met some pretty great people on here, and they made the commitment to themselves but I feel that we are in a group and we made that same commitment to each other. I have gotten some #'s and had a few laughs. But I also want to see this through and my hope is that the fellas and fellettes decided to see this through with me.
Erd
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Just had to post. I had a Mutha Fucka of a weekend. We had a family get together and a Football game and tailgating on Saturday. Now mind you I live in Montana where it is sort of a Mantra to Chew and tip a few brews. My wife leaned over to me at the game, that she was proud that I did not cave with all my friends around me.
So Sunday I woke up late, and went and had breakfast and ten turned into 2 then 3 in the afternoon. I am thinking shit I am on 2 weeks, its ok if I don't post today, I got this thing worked out.
And then I sat there.
I made a commitment to be nic free, but I also made a commitment to post roll. Will I post roll call everyday of my life?
I have met some pretty great people on here, and they made the commitment to themselves but I feel that we are in a group and we made that same commitment to each other. I have gotten some #'s and had a few laughs. But I also want to see this through and my hope is that the fellas and fellettes decided to see this through with me.
Erd
I just posted this up in your group, and you need to remember it forever (not just through the 20s)
Hello January quitters.
I see that some of you have hit 20 days in your quit. Congratulations.
There is a major funk that is coming up shortly. It starts usually in the late teens. It does not make you crave nicotine. It's the opposite. It makes you think you are invincible and completely quit.
Take a look at the other months' spreadsheets. We lose many a fine quitter in the 20s. In fact, we lose more quitters in the 20s than any other time (except for the first week). I myself was almost a victim.
My thoughts on the funk are this:
The first week is complete hell. We all agree there. But, upon completion of the first week, we start to feel more comfortable with being quit. We get a sense of accomplishment for breaking that physical addiction, and our quits are fueled by adreneline.
Around day 20 (maybe later, maybe sooner), the adreneline starts to run out. Our brains want to tell us that we are quit, and we don't need to think about being quit all the time. We want normalcy, rather than having to feel committed to a website and anonymous strangers. We don't want to think that we used to stick cat turds in our mouths all the time, let alone that we are addicts. Even if we've embraced the label "addict" early in the quit, we wonder if we truly are at this time. We start to think that this roll call posting is silly business, because we are quit already. We begin hating all the bullshit on this site, and start thinking that the site is more drama than what it is worth.
This is the start to the planned cave.
Your addicted brain is letting the nic bitch have the microphone in your head and she is the one talking. She will tell you that she is gone, and that you don't need to post roll anymore. She'll tell you every lie under the sun to get you to stop giving your word everyday.
Some of you will decide she is right. You will leave. And you might not even cave right away, but you will. The nic bitch is a tricky whore, and she can sleep until you are the weakest.
Be very careful here. There is a lot of bullshit on this site, and it's meant to be a distraction for you. If it becomes too much, simply post roll and ignore it. Lean on your brothers. They are having these same thoughts, and the best thing you can do is to make sure that everybody keeps posting.
I stopped posting roll after 150 days in 2006. I caved in 2009 because I forgot I was an addict. The nic bitch had taken that time to break down every tool I learned here, and made me forget. She dug her claws in, and I manned up again 111 days ago today. I should be around 1,900 days quit, and instead all I can claim is that I stopped for like 1,000 days and then again for 111.
EVERYDAY
Post roll.
Stay quit.
Repeat.
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Just had to post. I had a Mutha Fucka of a weekend. We had a family get together and a Football game and tailgating on Saturday. Now mind you I live in Montana where it is sort of a Mantra to Chew and tip a few brews. My wife leaned over to me at the game, that she was proud that I did not cave with all my friends around me.
So Sunday I woke up late, and went and had breakfast and ten turned into 2 then 3 in the afternoon. I am thinking shit I am on 2 weeks, its ok if I don't post today, I got this thing worked out.Â
And then I sat there.
I made a commitment to be nic free, but I also made a commitment to post roll. Will I post roll call everyday of my life?
I have met some pretty great people on here, and they made the commitment to themselves but I feel that we are in a group and we made that same commitment to each other. I have gotten some #'s and had a few laughs. But I also want to see this through and my hope is that the fellas and fellettes decided to see this through with me.
Erd
I just posted this up in your group, and you need to remember it forever (not just through the 20s)
Hello January quitters.
I see that some of you have hit 20 days in your quit. Congratulations.
There is a major funk that is coming up shortly. It starts usually in the late teens. It does not make you crave nicotine. It's the opposite. It makes you think you are invincible and completely quit.
Take a look at the other months' spreadsheets. We lose many a fine quitter in the 20s. In fact, we lose more quitters in the 20s than any other time (except for the first week). I myself was almost a victim.
My thoughts on the funk are this:
The first week is complete hell. We all agree there. But, upon completion of the first week, we start to feel more comfortable with being quit. We get a sense of accomplishment for breaking that physical addiction, and our quits are fueled by adreneline.
Around day 20 (maybe later, maybe sooner), the adreneline starts to run out. Our brains want to tell us that we are quit, and we don't need to think about being quit all the time. We want normalcy, rather than having to feel committed to a website and anonymous strangers. We don't want to think that we used to stick cat turds in our mouths all the time, let alone that we are addicts. Even if we've embraced the label "addict" early in the quit, we wonder if we truly are at this time. We start to think that this roll call posting is silly business, because we are quit already. We begin hating all the bullshit on this site, and start thinking that the site is more drama than what it is worth.
This is the start to the planned cave.
Your addicted brain is letting the nic bitch have the microphone in your head and she is the one talking. She will tell you that she is gone, and that you don't need to post roll anymore. She'll tell you every lie under the sun to get you to stop giving your word everyday.
Some of you will decide she is right. You will leave. And you might not even cave right away, but you will. The nic bitch is a tricky whore, and she can sleep until you are the weakest.
Be very careful here. There is a lot of bullshit on this site, and it's meant to be a distraction for you. If it becomes too much, simply post roll and ignore it. Lean on your brothers. They are having these same thoughts, and the best thing you can do is to make sure that everybody keeps posting.
I stopped posting roll after 150 days in 2006. I caved in 2009 because I forgot I was an addict. The nic bitch had taken that time to break down every tool I learned here, and made me forget. She dug her claws in, and I manned up again 111 days ago today. I should be around 1,900 days quit, and instead all I can claim is that I stopped for like 1,000 days and then again for 111.
EVERYDAY
Post roll.
Stay quit.
Repeat.
Great post WastePannel!! That Fires me right UP!!!
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Just had to post. I had a Mutha Fucka of a weekend. We had a family get together and a Football game and tailgating on Saturday. Now mind you I live in Montana where it is sort of a Mantra to Chew and tip a few brews. My wife leaned over to me at the game, that she was proud that I did not cave with all my friends around me.
So Sunday I woke up late, and went and had breakfast and ten turned into 2 then 3 in the afternoon. I am thinking shit I am on 2 weeks, its ok if I don't post today, I got this thing worked out.Â
And then I sat there.
I made a commitment to be nic free, but I also made a commitment to post roll. Will I post roll call everyday of my life?
I have met some pretty great people on here, and they made the commitment to themselves but I feel that we are in a group and we made that same commitment to each other. I have gotten some #'s and had a few laughs. But I also want to see this through and my hope is that the fellas and fellettes decided to see this through with me.
Erd
I just posted this up in your group, and you need to remember it forever (not just through the 20s)
Hello January quitters.
I see that some of you have hit 20 days in your quit. Congratulations.
There is a major funk that is coming up shortly. It starts usually in the late teens. It does not make you crave nicotine. It's the opposite. It makes you think you are invincible and completely quit.
Take a look at the other months' spreadsheets. We lose many a fine quitter in the 20s. In fact, we lose more quitters in the 20s than any other time (except for the first week). I myself was almost a victim.
My thoughts on the funk are this:
The first week is complete hell. We all agree there. But, upon completion of the first week, we start to feel more comfortable with being quit. We get a sense of accomplishment for breaking that physical addiction, and our quits are fueled by adreneline.
Around day 20 (maybe later, maybe sooner), the adreneline starts to run out. Our brains want to tell us that we are quit, and we don't need to think about being quit all the time. We want normalcy, rather than having to feel committed to a website and anonymous strangers. We don't want to think that we used to stick cat turds in our mouths all the time, let alone that we are addicts. Even if we've embraced the label "addict" early in the quit, we wonder if we truly are at this time. We start to think that this roll call posting is silly business, because we are quit already. We begin hating all the bullshit on this site, and start thinking that the site is more drama than what it is worth.
This is the start to the planned cave.
Your addicted brain is letting the nic bitch have the microphone in your head and she is the one talking. She will tell you that she is gone, and that you don't need to post roll anymore. She'll tell you every lie under the sun to get you to stop giving your word everyday.
Some of you will decide she is right. You will leave. And you might not even cave right away, but you will. The nic bitch is a tricky whore, and she can sleep until you are the weakest.
Be very careful here. There is a lot of bullshit on this site, and it's meant to be a distraction for you. If it becomes too much, simply post roll and ignore it. Lean on your brothers. They are having these same thoughts, and the best thing you can do is to make sure that everybody keeps posting.
I stopped posting roll after 150 days in 2006. I caved in 2009 because I forgot I was an addict. The nic bitch had taken that time to break down every tool I learned here, and made me forget. She dug her claws in, and I manned up again 111 days ago today. I should be around 1,900 days quit, and instead all I can claim is that I stopped for like 1,000 days and then again for 111.
EVERYDAY
Post roll.
Stay quit.
Repeat.
Great post WastePannel!! That Fires me right UP!!!
Why post everyday? When I help others quit I solidify my quit. It is just that simple. Call it service, call it Karma, call it paying it forward. What ever. Every day you spend on the site, even if it is helping another for just a minute is a day you kick big tobacco in the balls. It just feels right.
Glad you are here!
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Just had to post. I had a Mutha Fucka of a weekend. We had a family get together and a Football game and tailgating on Saturday. Now mind you I live in Montana where it is sort of a Mantra to Chew and tip a few brews. My wife leaned over to me at the game, that she was proud that I did not cave with all my friends around me.
So Sunday I woke up late, and went and had breakfast and ten turned into 2 then 3 in the afternoon. I am thinking shit I am on 2 weeks, its ok if I don't post today, I got this thing worked out.Â
And then I sat there.
I made a commitment to be nic free, but I also made a commitment to post roll. Will I post roll call everyday of my life?
I have met some pretty great people on here, and they made the commitment to themselves but I feel that we are in a group and we made that same commitment to each other. I have gotten some #'s and had a few laughs. But I also want to see this through and my hope is that the fellas and fellettes decided to see this through with me.
Erd
I just posted this up in your group, and you need to remember it forever (not just through the 20s)
Hello January quitters.
I see that some of you have hit 20 days in your quit. Congratulations.
There is a major funk that is coming up shortly. It starts usually in the late teens. It does not make you crave nicotine. It's the opposite. It makes you think you are invincible and completely quit.
Take a look at the other months' spreadsheets. We lose many a fine quitter in the 20s. In fact, we lose more quitters in the 20s than any other time (except for the first week). I myself was almost a victim.
My thoughts on the funk are this:
The first week is complete hell. We all agree there. But, upon completion of the first week, we start to feel more comfortable with being quit. We get a sense of accomplishment for breaking that physical addiction, and our quits are fueled by adreneline.
Around day 20 (maybe later, maybe sooner), the adreneline starts to run out. Our brains want to tell us that we are quit, and we don't need to think about being quit all the time. We want normalcy, rather than having to feel committed to a website and anonymous strangers. We don't want to think that we used to stick cat turds in our mouths all the time, let alone that we are addicts. Even if we've embraced the label "addict" early in the quit, we wonder if we truly are at this time. We start to think that this roll call posting is silly business, because we are quit already. We begin hating all the bullshit on this site, and start thinking that the site is more drama than what it is worth.
This is the start to the planned cave.
Your addicted brain is letting the nic bitch have the microphone in your head and she is the one talking. She will tell you that she is gone, and that you don't need to post roll anymore. She'll tell you every lie under the sun to get you to stop giving your word everyday.
Some of you will decide she is right. You will leave. And you might not even cave right away, but you will. The nic bitch is a tricky whore, and she can sleep until you are the weakest.
Be very careful here. There is a lot of bullshit on this site, and it's meant to be a distraction for you. If it becomes too much, simply post roll and ignore it. Lean on your brothers. They are having these same thoughts, and the best thing you can do is to make sure that everybody keeps posting.
I stopped posting roll after 150 days in 2006. I caved in 2009 because I forgot I was an addict. The nic bitch had taken that time to break down every tool I learned here, and made me forget. She dug her claws in, and I manned up again 111 days ago today. I should be around 1,900 days quit, and instead all I can claim is that I stopped for like 1,000 days and then again for 111.
EVERYDAY
Post roll.
Stay quit.
Repeat.
Great post WastePannel!! That Fires me right UP!!!
Why post everyday? When I help others quit I solidify my quit. It is just that simple. Call it service, call it Karma, call it paying it forward. What ever. Every day you spend on the site, even if it is helping another for just a minute is a day you kick big tobacco in the balls. It just feels right.
Glad you are here!
This is some fine shit right here.
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Dear Dave
One time me and my buddy Randy and my buddy Dave were bow hunting and we were in the cabin on the first night knocking down bottles of Lord Calvert and Pepsi, because weÂ’re hicks from Montana and thatÂ’s what we drink.
Anyway, Dave passed out at around 3am so of course me and Randy dragged him into the woods and stripped him naked and rolled him onto his stomach and poured about 4 bottles of Doe-In-Heat on his ass.
If you donÂ’t know, Doe In Heat is urine of a female deer and itÂ’s used to attract male deer. Just a few drops will attract every buck within a hundred miles.
The plan was to have some huge stag come mount Dave, but we were making tons of noise, and so unfortunately no deer ever made love to DaveÂ’s anus. Which is probably for the best, since an erect deer penis is about four feet long, and I bet Dave would have been pretty surprised to get sodomized by that, to wake up with that pressing against his heart and collapsing his rectum?
It would have been worth it though because we could have said, “Wow, he deer-ly loves you Dave!” “What an en-deer-ing couple you two make!”
'Remshot'