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Title: I will win.
Post by: HighOct4ne on June 04, 2016, 08:47:00 PM
Last Sunday (May 29th) my 8 year old daughter and I were watching tv and the snuff commercial where the guy missing the "warning signs" came on (you guys know the one) and she looks at me and asked me to quit. I've been thinking about it for a while, but I finally decided to kick this habit while I still could  10pm, I spit out my last chew.
I just wish I had done more research to be better prepared for the hell this first week would bring.
The first day was relatively easy...aside from working with assholes constantly offering me chews, I was content with my Big Red gum. The morning of day 2 is when it really started to suck.
I've had issues with anxiety in the past, but they were NOTHING compared to my recent experiences. Fear for my health  if I was "too late" consumed me. A few times these feelings were so intense, I had to leave the room  walk outside. Due to the constant anxiety, I've lost my appetite  have been forcing myself to eat. In addition to the anxiety  loss of appetite, when I do fall asleep, I wake up every hour or so.
Thursday I ended up going to the Doctor  getting a Wellbutrin Rx...but it was explained to me it has to "build up" in your system before becoming effective.
This. Week. Sucked
Anxiety aside, the cravings come  go cinnamon toothpicks  gum have been my go-to  have held up pretty well taking the edge off. Though...even as I sit here watching hockey my body is constantly reminding me something's missing...but if anything, I'm hard-headed and refuse to give in and erase a hard-fought 6 days.
I've never been one for chat rooms or internet support groups, I've been coming here often for the past few days looking for advice dealing with my own withdrawal and decided to give it a shot.
(Strength in numbers, right???)
I'm still learning how to navigate through the site, so any help would be greatly appreciated.
A 12 year habit is going to be hard to break, but I refuse to be beaten by a small plastic can.
Here's to day 6 of...forever!!!
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: Bert75 on June 04, 2016, 09:01:00 PM
welcome! You made a great decision to quit. You got 6 days under your belt and no doubt it sucks. You just gotta grind thru it and you will start seeing "flashes" of feeling ok. Hang in there man!! We have all done it here and so can you!! I sit here watching the hockey game as well chewing my sugar free gum and life is good!! It will be for you too!!
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: trigerhapy on June 04, 2016, 10:02:00 PM
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I'm hard-headed and refuse to give in and erase a hard-fought 6 days.
That's awesome! You got this man.
When the cravings hit just keep in mind you only need to focus on being quit for today.
Here's some links you're gonna need.
Welcome Center (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/)
September 2016 Quit Group (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11649440/50/#new)
Welcome to the quit!
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: Gone Cruising on June 05, 2016, 02:33:00 AM
Brother, you sound just like me when I started my quit. I did a lot of research to help myself after trying RX Meds and the link here has it all. I hope this helps you and if you need any help feel free to ask me!

topic/11568995/226/#post9739207 (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11568995/226/#post9739207)
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: worktowin on June 05, 2016, 06:52:00 AM
Welcome aboard! First things first... This is not the new normal for you. There is a greatness ahead as a result of you taking your freedom back. But just like any war, there are some tough battles to fight.

Anxiety is a common theme here. If you need meds - take them. Whatever you have to do to succeed is worth it. Your brain will rewire. It just takes time. This site will save your life dude and lead you to success. Post roll every day, without exception. You'll never regret quitting and you will love winning. There is s ton of support here, just ask.
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: copingwithoutcopen on June 05, 2016, 08:10:00 AM
Welcome! The worst is behind you. You never have to go through that again if you stick to the program. Roll call saves lives and the withdrawal symptoms loose some teeth daily.
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: HighOct4ne on June 05, 2016, 10:09:00 AM
I appreciate all the welcoming words, fellas.
Once the anxiety passes  my body adjusts to life without nicotine, things will be MUCH better...the bad part is hoping it'll take weeks, but in reality it will be months.
I'm still kind-of unsure what "roll" is. I posted on the "September 2016" page (if I even did it right)...is that all its for, a daily "check-in"???
Lol, I'm not trying to sound "needy", but I know me  even though my wife has been amazingly supportive this past week, I know I'm going to have days where I have to speak with someone that has gone through the same thing. Is that possible on the "roll" page??? (Again, sorry...still new to forums.)
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: Candoit on June 05, 2016, 10:46:00 AM
Quote from: HighOct4ne
I appreciate all the welcoming words, fellas.
Once the anxiety passes  my body adjusts to life without nicotine, things will be MUCH better...the bad part is hoping it'll take weeks, but in reality it will be months.
I'm still kind-of unsure what "roll" is. I posted on the "September 2016" page (if I even did it right)...is that all its for, a daily "check-in"???
Lol, I'm not trying to sound "needy", but I know me  even though my wife has been amazingly supportive this past week, I know I'm going to have days where I have to speak with someone that has gone through the same thing. Is that possible on the "roll" page??? (Again, sorry...still new to forums.)
Here are the top 5 nuggets of quitty goodness I can give you.I will quit everyday with you, on one condition. You text me an additional promise every morning, that you will be quit today. Check your inbox for my digits.
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: pky1520 on June 05, 2016, 10:59:00 PM
Quote from: HighOct4ne
I appreciate all the welcoming words, fellas.
Once the anxiety passes  my body adjusts to life without nicotine, things will be MUCH better...the bad part is hoping it'll take weeks, but in reality it will be months.
I'm still kind-of unsure what "roll" is. I posted on the "September 2016" page (if I even did it right)...is that all its for, a daily "check-in"???
Lol, I'm not trying to sound "needy", but I know me  even though my wife has been amazingly supportive this past week, I know I'm going to have days where I have to speak with someone that has gone through the same thing. Is that possible on the "roll" page??? (Again, sorry...still new to forums.)
Octane, you'll figure out roll pretty quickly. And yes, conversation is supposed to take place on the roll page. Your intro is great as a log, sounding board, brain dump, etc., but you'll build relationships with the folks in your group on the group page. If there isn't a lot of conversation happening, get it started and others will follow. Vets will pop in and help / piss you off, but everyone in your group is in the same general spot.

Start connecting with as many folks as you can and your support and accountability network will balloon. Exchange numbers with people, use them. It will help you through whatever might come up.
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: CavMan83 on June 07, 2016, 11:19:00 AM
Morning and welcome....

If you haven't already, show your wife the Spouse Support Page (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/).... sounds like she's already on your side, but this may help her to more fully understand how a quit works. Solidly in your corner, dude!

Edited to get the link to the KTC Spouse support page correct....cause I'm stupid and didn't get it right the first time!! 'bang head'
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: Cope30 on June 08, 2016, 09:49:00 AM
Congrats brother on the quit, it will be Hell for a while so use your resources here it will help. The support here is unreal, I know your wife will support you, but we can support you in ways she doesn't understand, mental mind game, most of us have been there.
You got my digits, HMU anytime.
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: KillTheCamel on June 08, 2016, 06:27:00 PM
Quit with you today HighOct4ne.
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: KillTheCamel on June 09, 2016, 01:26:00 PM
Quote from: HighOct4ne
Last Sunday (May 29th) my 8 year old daughter and I were watching tv and the snuff commercial where the guy missing the "warning signs" came on (you guys know the one) and she looks at me and asked me to quit. I've been thinking about it for a while, but I finally decided to kick this habit while I still could  10pm, I spit out my last chew.
I just wish I had done more research to be better prepared for the hell this first week would bring.
The first day was relatively easy...aside from working with assholes constantly offering me chews, I was content with my Big Red gum. The morning of day 2 is when it really started to suck.
I've had issues with anxiety in the past, but they were NOTHING compared to my recent experiences. Fear for my health  if I was "too late" consumed me. A few times these feelings were so intense, I had to leave the room  walk outside. Due to the constant anxiety, I've lost my appetite  have been forcing myself to eat. In addition to the anxiety  loss of appetite, when I do fall asleep, I wake up every hour or so.
Thursday I ended up going to the Doctor  getting a Wellbutrin Rx...but it was explained to me it has to "build up" in your system before becoming effective.
This. Week. Sucked
Anxiety aside, the cravings come  go cinnamon toothpicks  gum have been my go-to  have held up pretty well taking the edge off. Though...even as I sit here watching hockey my body is constantly reminding me something's missing...but if anything, I'm hard-headed and refuse to give in and erase a hard-fought 6 days.
I've never been one for chat rooms or internet support groups, I've been coming here often for the past few days looking for advice dealing with my own withdrawal and decided to give it a shot.
(Strength in numbers, right???)
I'm still learning how to navigate through the site, so any help would be greatly appreciated.
A 12 year habit is going to be hard to break, but I refuse to be beaten by a small plastic can.
Here's to day 6 of...forever!!!
Glad you quit, and I pledged my quit with you yesterday.

Take an OTC sleeping pill before bed if you have to for a short time to get some rest. I know I am having the same issue now on day 3.

The anxiety sucks, and it will take some time for the wellbutrin to help with that. About 6 weeks I was told.

Everyone is telling me to embrace the suck including the withdrawl pain and remember it for later on.

I've been reading, and starting to support others as suggested and guess what it is building my network and helping me solve the problem I created myself.

Now you think you will have better success on your own? Surrounded by dipping Aholes at work?

Keep up the fight, don't give in or walk away. The daily roll or check in is your pledge to not use for the day. For me it is accountability, something I need because I sure as hell cannot do it on my own. There is a whole list of men and women going through this together, get to know the names and stories as they are pretty relateable to me. Below the September roll is the list of those who have been down this road before us. Giving support and encouragement for our weak asses to help us hold it together and not give up or in.

Don't worry about being needy. Take what you need and leave the rest. You don't have to log into the chat rooms, and the internet support room might just keep you quit.

Check your inbox for my number if I can help I will.
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: Thumblewort on June 09, 2016, 01:31:00 PM
Quote from: KillTheCamel
Quote from: HighOct4ne
Last Sunday (May 29th) my 8 year old daughter and I were watching tv and the snuff commercial where the guy missing the "warning signs" came on (you guys know the one) and she looks at me and asked me to quit. I've been thinking about it for a while, but I finally decided to kick this habit while I still could  10pm, I spit out my last chew.
I just wish I had done more research to be better prepared for the hell this first week would bring.
The first day was relatively easy...aside from working with assholes constantly offering me chews, I was content with my Big Red gum. The morning of day 2 is when it really started to suck.
I've had issues with anxiety in the past, but they were NOTHING compared to my recent experiences. Fear for my health  if I was "too late" consumed me. A few times these feelings were so intense, I had to leave the room  walk outside. Due to the constant anxiety, I've lost my appetite  have been forcing myself to eat. In addition to the anxiety  loss of appetite, when I do fall asleep, I wake up every hour or so.
Thursday I ended up going to the Doctor  getting a Wellbutrin Rx...but it was explained to me it has to "build up" in your system before becoming effective.
This. Week. Sucked
Anxiety aside, the cravings come  go cinnamon toothpicks  gum have been my go-to  have held up pretty well taking the edge off. Though...even as I sit here watching hockey my body is constantly reminding me something's missing...but if anything, I'm hard-headed and refuse to give in and erase a hard-fought 6 days.
I've never been one for chat rooms or internet support groups, I've been coming here often for the past few days looking for advice dealing with my own withdrawal and decided to give it a shot.
(Strength in numbers, right???)
I'm still learning how to navigate through the site, so any help would be greatly appreciated.
A 12 year habit is going to be hard to break, but I refuse to be beaten by a small plastic can.
Here's to day 6 of...forever!!!
Glad you quit, and I pledged my quit with you yesterday.

Take an OTC sleeping pill before bed if you have to for a short time to get some rest. I know I am having the same issue now on day 3.

The anxiety sucks, and it will take some time for the wellbutrin to help with that. About 6 weeks I was told.

Everyone is telling me to embrace the suck including the withdrawl pain and remember it for later on.

I've been reading, and starting to support others as suggested and guess what it is building my network and helping me solve the problem I created myself.

Now you think you will have better success on your own? Surrounded by dipping Aholes at work?

Keep up the fight, don't give in or walk away. The daily roll or check in is your pledge to not use for the day. For me it is accountability, something I need because I sure as hell cannot do it on my own. There is a whole list of men and women going through this together, get to know the names and stories as they are pretty relateable to me. Below the September roll is the list of those who have been down this road before us. Giving support and encouragement for our weak asses to help us hold it together and not give up or in.

Don't worry about being needy. Take what you need and leave the rest. You don't have to log into the chat rooms, and the internet support room might just keep you quit.

Check your inbox for my number if I can help I will.
Just wanted to clarify you and I are nicotine addicts - it's not a habit. It may seem picky, but once you admit you are an addict and helpless against nicotine is when the healing can begin.
Title: Re: I will win.
Post by: pab1964 on June 09, 2016, 03:16:00 PM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: KillTheCamel
Quote from: HighOct4ne
Last Sunday (May 29th) my 8 year old daughter and I were watching tv and the snuff commercial where the guy missing the "warning signs" came on (you guys know the one) and she looks at me and asked me to quit. I've been thinking about it for a while, but I finally decided to kick this habit while I still could  10pm, I spit out my last chew.
I just wish I had done more research to be better prepared for the hell this first week would bring.
The first day was relatively easy...aside from working with assholes constantly offering me chews, I was content with my Big Red gum. The morning of day 2 is when it really started to suck.
I've had issues with anxiety in the past, but they were NOTHING compared to my recent experiences. Fear for my health  if I was "too late" consumed me. A few times these feelings were so intense, I had to leave the room  walk outside. Due to the constant anxiety, I've lost my appetite  have been forcing myself to eat. In addition to the anxiety  loss of appetite, when I do fall asleep, I wake up every hour or so.
Thursday I ended up going to the Doctor  getting a Wellbutrin Rx...but it was explained to me it has to "build up" in your system before becoming effective.
This. Week. Sucked
Anxiety aside, the cravings come  go cinnamon toothpicks  gum have been my go-to  have held up pretty well taking the edge off. Though...even as I sit here watching hockey my body is constantly reminding me something's missing...but if anything, I'm hard-headed and refuse to give in and erase a hard-fought 6 days.
I've never been one for chat rooms or internet support groups, I've been coming here often for the past few days looking for advice dealing with my own withdrawal and decided to give it a shot.
(Strength in numbers, right???)
I'm still learning how to navigate through the site, so any help would be greatly appreciated.
A 12 year habit is going to be hard to break, but I refuse to be beaten by a small plastic can.
Here's to day 6 of...forever!!!
Glad you quit, and I pledged my quit with you yesterday.

Take an OTC sleeping pill before bed if you have to for a short time to get some rest. I know I am having the same issue now on day 3.

The anxiety sucks, and it will take some time for the wellbutrin to help with that. About 6 weeks I was told.

Everyone is telling me to embrace the suck including the withdrawl pain and remember it for later on.

I've been reading, and starting to support others as suggested and guess what it is building my network and helping me solve the problem I created myself.

Now you think you will have better success on your own? Surrounded by dipping Aholes at work?

Keep up the fight, don't give in or walk away. The daily roll or check in is your pledge to not use for the day. For me it is accountability, something I need because I sure as hell cannot do it on my own. There is a whole list of men and women going through this together, get to know the names and stories as they are pretty relateable to me. Below the September roll is the list of those who have been down this road before us. Giving support and encouragement for our weak asses to help us hold it together and not give up or in.

Don't worry about being needy. Take what you need and leave the rest. You don't have to log into the chat rooms, and the internet support room might just keep you quit.

Check your inbox for my number if I can help I will.
Just wanted to clarify you and I are nicotine addicts - it's not a habit. It may seem picky, but once you admit you are an addict and helpless against nicotine is when the healing can begin.
Wow some strong quit preaching going on in here and it's the gospel! This is not easy but it's also not impossible. 38 year addict here and 530 days later I'm nic free. I'm still an addict and always will be but I've made it ODAAT with the help of my ktc family. Hang in there, and tell your wife, if she don't know already, that you are gonna be a dickhead for a while but forgive you in advance. Come in here an cuss and raise hell at us, we can take and your wife doesn't deserve it! Quit on!