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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jhaggerty on March 26, 2014, 01:09:00 PM
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Hi My Name is Jessie. I have been dipping about a can a day of Copenhagen for the past 15 years and am a nicotine addict. For the first few years I hid it from my wife and family until it had control of my life and could not hide it any more. So I dipped in front of my family and friends, I dipped at work and hid it very well and had become very good at hiding it from whoever I wanted to. My wife and kids have begged me to quit for years but have never had any success on past attempts. 7 Days ago I decided I am sick and tired of it controlling my life and have decided to take control back, so I dumped my last can down the toilet. I then went out and bought some patches and have not had a dip in 7 days. I ripped my last patch off today and this will be my first nicotine free day in over 15 years. I am done with the lying and excuses, it has taken too much of my life. Today is my day 1, I am committed to be done for good.
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Hi My Name is Jessie. I have been dipping about a can a day of Copenhagen for the past 15 years and am a nicotine addict. For the first few years I hid it from my wife and family until it had control of my life and could not hide it any more. So I dipped in front of my family and friends, I dipped at work and hid it very well and had become very good at hiding it from whoever I wanted to. My wife and kids have begged me to quit for years but have never had any success on past attempts. 7 Days ago I decided I am sick and tired of it controlling my life and have decided to take control back, so I dumped my last can down the toilet. I then went out and bought some patches and have not had a dip in 7 days. I ripped my last patch off today and this will be my first nicotine free day in over 15 years. I am done with the lying and excuses, it has taken too much of my life. Today is my day 1, I am committed to be done for good.
You came to the right place. Go to WELCOME CENTER upper left and see how this place works. Post roll is step one,you'll be in the July 2014 Quit Group. Welcome to the other side, it's great way to live.
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Good for you man! Stay off the patch, off the dip, and get rid of the nic bitch for life. I am on day 22 of my quit right now and my life is so much better now that I am free of nicotine. Post roll in July, that will be your group. You can do this, and if you need any help or advice, feel free to PM me anytime.
Welcome, and stay strong!
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Right on, Right on, Right the fuck on, bro!!!!
Smart move on ripping off the patch. That's one of the only pillars of quitting around here. No nicotine in any form. The patch, gum, etc. is just slow torture anyway. I'm on Day 31, so exactly one month ago, I was sitting in your chair.
For the first 2-3 days, hunker down...it's a bitch. My advice is to record how you're feeling the first few days. Even the crazy weird stuff. Then, later, if you feel like caving, you can look back and remember what it's like to start over. Hang around the site. Read everything. Get into chat. Chat helped me so much during the first few days. Drink the helloutta H2O, and exercise. Run, pushups, anything where you can hit something is pretty helpful the first few days. Just try not to rage on your family. If you need to vent, come in here and cuss it up. Everyone here's heard it all. (And said it all.)
Besides the no nicotine thing, the other pillar of this program is posting roll. You can find out how to post roll in the Welcome Center. Join the July Group, and post a Day 1 RIGHT NOW. Promise yourself, and your fellow quitters that you will not use nicotine today, and only for today. Don't worry about tomorrow, or next week, year, etc. Just do not use it today.
Remember - EVERYBODY here is an addict as much as you are. We've all told the same bullshit stories to ourselves and our families. We've done the same stupid shit just to get a pinch. So, reach out to anyone here. They will help. PM me if you need a number.
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Jessie, way to come here and have so many aha moments right form the start. Things to remember.
Although we are kill the can we are all addicts of nicotine, you are aware you are an addict, this is not a habit we have. You ripped off the patch, not only is that a good move but mandatory to be on this site.
You will find similar stories of hiding dip from loved ones and coworkers but ultimately YOUR attitude of taking back your life is what will make you succeed for the day. Find out what motivates your quit, guard it closely and quit for yourself. We do not try in here we just quit. Glad to have you aboard and I quit with you today.
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Read everything on this here forum.
Post roll everyday.
Make some friends.
Great job and welcome!
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Welcome. Congrats on making the best decision of your life. Spend as much time here as you can. Post roll and make some connections. PM me if you need a number.
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Congrats and welcome man! I was right where you are a couple of weeks ago. One day at a time and leverage the wisdom on this site. Get connected and keep posting roll.
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Welcome to KTC Jessie. You've made a great decision to quit, it will not be easy but if you drink the kool-aid and follow the advice of the vets here you will find it's not as difficult as you thought. Let me know if you ever need anything. I quit with you today.
MCO
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Jessie,
Welcome to KTC, I am so glad to see that you have realized this early that you are an addict. I am too. Here are a few pointers that might help you and your family as your quit progresses:
1 - quit for you and you alone, let everyone enjoy the luxury of your being around longer
2 - post roll daily here, you seem to have this covered
3 - meet fellow quitters and exchange phone numbers, this will become more valuable to you than anything else
4 - get family buy in and support, here is one helpful document Spousal Support (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/)
5 - read the stories here
6 - focus on today only, never tomorrow, or in a week or anytime but today
7 - find an alternative and have that alternative with you at all times (fake dip, candy, lots of water)
P.S. The above underlined and Bold words are links to other places on this site (all safe).
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Thanks to everyone for all the resources and support. I'm foggy as hell right now but ready to kick this addictions ass. I am committed and wont let you down, and am proud to quit with all of you today.
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Awesome intro brother; it oozes badassness (taking control, flushing the dip, ripping off the patch). I think you'll find very quickly that once the fog clears and you can look at yourself in the mirror as a free man, that sense of freedom will be overwhelming. It will bring you joy. But it will also cause you conflict. You'll be conflicted by your joy of freedom against nic-bitch cravings. However, there are differences this time compared to all those other failures from the past:
- accountability (yourself, your family, and everyone you post that daily promise to here at KTC. You may as well start wearing a t-shirt that says I quit nicotine today)
- brotherhood - you promise to quit with me and I promise to quit with you. I'll do anything in my power to keep that promise and help others who ask for it to keep that promise. That's how things work around here.
- Freedom - you now know how good this feels. Don't let go of it..it gets even better (you've hardly scratched the surface).
- knowledge - read and learn. I imagine you already know more now about quitting than you've ever known.
One day at a time, you own this quit.
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I am now 15 days into my quit and I'm starting to feel a hell of a lot better physically, but still beating the shit out of the cravings when they come.
I fucking hate Big Tobacco with a passion, and am so angry with myself for being so blind for so long. All the money wasted, all the time with my kids and wife when I should have been enjoying the moment and I was thinking about when and where I could sneak my next one. I can now look in the mirror every morning and be happy with what I see now that I am taking control back. I never want to go through the first 3 days again, pure hell!!! Exercise has been my biggest outlet and best way to calm myself down. This site kicks ass and I look forward to posting roll every fucking day and meeting more bad ass quitters every day.
Had my first dip dream last night and it was so real. I woke up in fucking cold sweat thinking that I let everyone down. I was so relieved when I realized I hadn't. Funny thing is I turned it down in my dream and was telling people about this site, then somehow it was there. Got up at 5 AM ran 4 miles and posted roll for another day.
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I am now 15 days into my quit and I'm starting to feel a hell of a lot better physically, but still beating the shit out of the cravings when they come.
I fucking hate Big Tobacco with a passion, and am so angry with myself for being so blind for so long. All the money wasted, all the time with my kids and wife when I should have been enjoying the moment and I was thinking about when and where I could sneak my next one. I can now look in the mirror every morning and be happy with what I see now that I am taking control back. I never want to go through the first 3 days again, pure hell!!! Exercise has been my biggest outlet and best way to calm myself down. This site kicks ass and I look forward to posting roll every fucking day and meeting more bad ass quitters every day.
Had my first dip dream last night and it was so real. I woke up in fucking cold sweat thinking that I let everyone down. I was so relieved when I realized I hadn't. Funny thing is I turned it down in my dream and was telling people about this site, then somehow it was there. Got up at 5 AM ran 4 miles and posted roll for another day.
Great work! Keep it up. You, my friend, are kicking some serious ass!
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I am now 15 days into my quit and I'm starting to feel a hell of a lot better physically, but still beating the shit out of the cravings when they come.
I fucking hate Big Tobacco with a passion, and am so angry with myself for being so blind for so long. All the money wasted, all the time with my kids and wife when I should have been enjoying the moment and I was thinking about when and where I could sneak my next one. I can now look in the mirror every morning and be happy with what I see now that I am taking control back. I never want to go through the first 3 days again, pure hell!!! Exercise has been my biggest outlet and best way to calm myself down. This site kicks ass and I look forward to posting roll every fucking day and meeting more bad ass quitters every day.
Had my first dip dream last night and it was so real. I woke up in fucking cold sweat thinking that I let everyone down. I was so relieved when I realized I hadn't. Funny thing is I turned it down in my dream and was telling people about this site, then somehow it was there. Got up at 5 AM ran 4 miles and posted roll for another day.
Keep up the good work man! I know how you feel about big tobacco, you/we/everyone on KTC never really realize it until you are on the other side. Keep up the good quit and damn proud of you staying 100% on roll!
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I am now 15 days into my quit and I'm starting to feel a hell of a lot better physically, but still beating the shit out of the cravings when they come.
I fucking hate Big Tobacco with a passion, and am so angry with myself for being so blind for so long. All the money wasted, all the time with my kids and wife when I should have been enjoying the moment and I was thinking about when and where I could sneak my next one. I can now look in the mirror every morning and be happy with what I see now that I am taking control back. I never want to go through the first 3 days again, pure hell!!! Exercise has been my biggest outlet and best way to calm myself down. This site kicks ass and I look forward to posting roll every fucking day and meeting more bad ass quitters every day.
Had my first dip dream last night and it was so real. I woke up in fucking cold sweat thinking that I let everyone down. I was so relieved when I realized I hadn't. Funny thing is I turned it down in my dream and was telling people about this site, then somehow it was there. Got up at 5 AM ran 4 miles and posted roll for another day.
Keep up the good work man! I know how you feel about big tobacco, you/we/everyone on KTC never really realize it until you are on the other side. Keep up the good quit and damn proud of you staying 100% on roll!
The dip dreams suck. I've had two now and the feeling of letting myself and others down is very real. The good part is knowing it was just a BS dream. Quit on!
mb289
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I am now 15 days into my quit and I'm starting to feel a hell of a lot better physically, but still beating the shit out of the cravings when they come.
I fucking hate Big Tobacco with a passion, and am so angry with myself for being so blind for so long. All the money wasted, all the time with my kids and wife when I should have been enjoying the moment and I was thinking about when and where I could sneak my next one. I can now look in the mirror every morning and be happy with what I see now that I am taking control back. I never want to go through the first 3 days again, pure hell!!! Exercise has been my biggest outlet and best way to calm myself down. This site kicks ass and I look forward to posting roll every fucking day and meeting more bad ass quitters every day.
Had my first dip dream last night and it was so real. I woke up in fucking cold sweat thinking that I let everyone down. I was so relieved when I realized I hadn't. Funny thing is I turned it down in my dream and was telling people about this site, then somehow it was there. Got up at 5 AM ran 4 miles and posted roll for another day.
Keep up the good work man! I know how you feel about big tobacco, you/we/everyone on KTC never really realize it until you are on the other side. Keep up the good quit and damn proud of you staying 100% on roll!
The dip dreams suck. I've had two now and the feeling of letting myself and others down is very real. The good part is knowing it was just a BS dream. Quit on!
mb289
Hey haggerty, sounds like you are kicking some ass... Not looking forward to a dip dream, but will deal with it if and when it happens.. You need anything you have my digits.. I QLF with you today...
yemtig
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Took my family back to my folks house at the lake this past weekend for Easter and the opening of fishing season on the lake. I knew it would be a challenge for me as my brother dips constantly from when he wakes up til when he goes to bed, and to this point I have tried to avoid any situations where there would be any chewing going on. I also hadn't been fishing without dip or chew since I was a child. That being said I was well prepared for the weekend with all the tools to make it a dip free weekend, and honestly after seeing him dip constantly it was pretty fucking nasty and I didn't want any part of it. I want to help him quit but I know that is something he has to do on his own at some point. This shit is going to kill him and now I feel like it is my responsibility to do something about it. I told him how great it was to be free, its not impossible to do it, and raved about the KTC site. He seemed to avoid anything having to do with my quit and didn't want to hear about it at all, and was honestly a pretty awkward weekend around him. I just want to help him, but don't know how to go about it.
I do know one thing, the nic bitch is never getting her claws into this guy ever again.
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Took my family back to my folks house at the lake this past weekend for Easter and the opening of fishing season on the lake. I knew it would be a challenge for me as my brother dips constantly from when he wakes up til when he goes to bed, and to this point I have tried to avoid any situations where there would be any chewing going on. I also hadn't been fishing without dip or chew since I was a child. That being said I was well prepared for the weekend with all the tools to make it a dip free weekend, and honestly after seeing him dip constantly it was pretty fucking nasty and I didn't want any part of it. I want to help him quit but I know that is something he has to do on his own at some point. This shit is going to kill him and now I feel like it is my responsibility to do something about it. I told him how great it was to be free, its not impossible to do it, and raved about the KTC site. He seemed to avoid anything having to do with my quit and didn't want to hear about it at all, and was honestly a pretty awkward weekend around him. I just want to help him, but don't know how to go about it.
I do know one thing, the nic bitch is never getting her claws into this guy ever again.
You can't talk someone into quitting. It's funny how fast a brother or someone you've know your whole life and know the most embarrassing shit about will clam up and change the subject when it comes to talking about quitting. You and I were the same way, man, until the light bulb went off.
Keep doing what you're doing and when he gets sick of being a slave, he'll ask and have a serious discussion.
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Jhag.. Just wanted to post here about your awesome progress... I too, have approached a coworker to tell them that I will show them the way to quit.. Haha.. they all look at us like we have 3 eyes and are freaks!! But the thing is, we are the smart ones, the ones with the real cojones... Don't let them tell you otherwise... Keep up the quit and text me as always, I love to hear from real fucking quitters... QLF bro..
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
That's great. I love the ballpark and we certainly don't need tobacco to enjoy baseball. Good for you.
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
Hell yeah jhag. I quit with you man. I'm looking forward to being able to start really breaking down barriers and do the things I've pretty much never done without a dip.
Got my first fishing trip this weekend since my quit and I'm excited to see how it feels dip free.
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
The sweet smell of victory after kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT!
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
The sweet smell of victory after kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT!
wow the memories of being so similar.....
and me quitting almost 2 years ago in the middle of tournament baseball for 10 year olds....
you are not alone.
well done.
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
The sweet smell of victory after kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT!
wow the memories of being so similar.....
and me quitting almost 2 years ago in the middle of tournament baseball for 10 year olds....
you are not alone.
well done.
Enjoy your freedom. You are earning it everyday that you make that promise to us. Well done!
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
The sweet smell of victory after kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT!
wow the memories of being so similar.....
and me quitting almost 2 years ago in the middle of tournament baseball for 10 year olds....
you are not alone.
well done.
Enjoy your freedom. You are earning it everyday that you make that promise to us. Well done!
What a huge victory. I love this story.....helps me power through today. Quit on brother.
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
The sweet smell of victory after kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT!
wow the memories of being so similar.....
and me quitting almost 2 years ago in the middle of tournament baseball for 10 year olds....
you are not alone.
well done.
Enjoy your freedom. You are earning it everyday that you make that promise to us. Well done!
What a huge victory. I love this story.....helps me power through today. Quit on brother.
Days like these are really amazing. Think about it... you used to coach your kids team and all you thought about was getting that next fix. How jacked up is that. That is what happens when you are a slave. I can relate to this so well.
Look at you now... On this day, you actually were present for your family. You owned your quit and your day. You were the dad you were put here to be! This is outstanding.
Well done. Keep at it today. Proud to be quit with you!
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I had a victory yesterday probably the best day of my quit so far. I have now quit one day at a time, 58 times in a row after being a slave for over 16 years, and am looking forward to many more +1's. Had some really tough days between days 37 and 42 and thought the craves would never lessen, the fog came back, but pushed through it with the help of many of my July quit brothers and KTC site. Now on with the story. I have coached baseball for the past 2 years for my 12 and 11 year old sons little league teams. The games usually last about 2 hrs including warmups, so last year I would have a chew in before I got there and couldn't wait to get back to the car after the game to throw in a big fattie. Anything over 3 -4 hours I would get the fog and get irritable, also I very rarely smiled with the fear I had some shit in my teeth. Well yesterday was a different story, we got to the field and they had changed the schedule up so we had a double header, which last year would have sent me into panic mode knowing it would be a good 5 hrs til my next one. I was pumped yesterday that we had 2 games and probably had the most fun coaching that I ever had, not thinking about the nic bitch at all and having a clear head made me 100 times better coach. I was able to have my complete focus on the kids and the game and my cheeks hurt when I got home from smiling so much. It is those moments at the ballpark and memories made with my boys that will keep me quit and coming back to this site every damn day. Quit on my brothers.
The sweet smell of victory after kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT!
wow the memories of being so similar.....
and me quitting almost 2 years ago in the middle of tournament baseball for 10 year olds....
you are not alone.
well done.
Enjoy your freedom. You are earning it everyday that you make that promise to us. Well done!
What a huge victory. I love this story.....helps me power through today. Quit on brother.
Awesome post, Brother. Keep up the good work.
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Day 78 into my quit, 78 days without poisoning myself after nearly 6,000 days of killing myself daily. These are questions I have asked myself along the way: What took me so long to quit? Why did I let this poison take control? When did I put this as a higher priority than spending time with my children and wife? What the fuck was I thinking? Holy Shit, how much cash have I spent on this crap? I can't believe the lies I have told to myself and the people I love? How many important moments have I missed that I can never get back?
Somewhere along the way I found that guy that was hiding under the addiction, the man before the addiction and lies. Every day of fog, every craving, and everything I had to to do to stay quit was worth it, my only regret is I didn't quit sooner. I can look at myself in the mirror again and see an honest man. The great Dad that pays attention to everything his children do and say, and is there for them every step of the way with a clear head. A husband that is not staying up late to get his last fix in, but is spending more time with his wife and strengthening the bond. I can actually kiss my wife again, coach my kids in baseball, smile without worrying if there is shit in my teeth, and go places and do things without thinking of ways I could get my fix in. I owe a lot to this site and all the badass quitters here for helping me reclaim my life and for saving my life, I post my promise every day and I do so with conviction and as a man of my word. I am a better Father, husband and all around man.
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Day 78 into my quit, 78 days without poisoning myself after nearly 6,000 days of killing myself daily. These are questions I have asked myself along the way: What took me so long to quit? Why did I let this poison take control? When did I put this as a higher priority than spending time with my children and wife? What the fuck was I thinking? Holy Shit, how much cash have I spent on this crap? I can't believe the lies I have told to myself and the people I love? How many important moments have I missed that I can never get back?
Somewhere along the way I found that guy that was hiding under the addiction, the man before the addiction and lies. Every day of fog, every craving, and everything I had to to do to stay quit was worth it, my only regret is I didn't quit sooner. I can look at myself in the mirror again and see an honest man. The great Dad that pays attention to everything his children do and say, and is there for them every step of the way with a clear head. A husband that is not staying up late to get his last fix in, but is spending more time with his wife and strengthening the bond. I can actually kiss my wife again, coach my kids in baseball, smile without worrying if there is shit in my teeth, and go places and do things without thinking of ways I could get my fix in. I owe a lot to this site and all the badass quitters here for helping me reclaim my life and for saving my life, I post my promise every day and I do so with conviction and as a man of my word. I am a better Father, husband and all around man.
Thanks for posting this JH. This is the Kool-Aid. I'm drinking the hell out of this and hoping that when I hit 78, I can stand up with same conviction and confidence.
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Day 78 into my quit, 78 days without poisoning myself after nearly 6,000 days of killing myself daily. These are questions I have asked myself along the way: What took me so long to quit? Why did I let this poison take control? When did I put this as a higher priority than spending time with my children and wife? What the fuck was I thinking? Holy Shit, how much cash have I spent on this crap? I can't believe the lies I have told to myself and the people I love? How many important moments have I missed that I can never get back?
Somewhere along the way I found that guy that was hiding under the addiction, the man before the addiction and lies. Every day of fog, every craving, and everything I had to to do to stay quit was worth it, my only regret is I didn't quit sooner. I can look at myself in the mirror again and see an honest man. The great Dad that pays attention to everything his children do and say, and is there for them every step of the way with a clear head. A husband that is not staying up late to get his last fix in, but is spending more time with his wife and strengthening the bond. I can actually kiss my wife again, coach my kids in baseball, smile without worrying if there is shit in my teeth, and go places and do things without thinking of ways I could get my fix in. I owe a lot to this site and all the badass quitters here for helping me reclaim my life and for saving my life, I post my promise every day and I do so with conviction and as a man of my word. I am a better Father, husband and all around man.
Excellent post. You are on to some serious quit attitude. Thanks for sharing.
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Day 78 into my quit, 78 days without poisoning myself after nearly 6,000 days of killing myself daily. These are questions I have asked myself along the way: What took me so long to quit? Why did I let this poison take control? When did I put this as a higher priority than spending time with my children and wife? What the fuck was I thinking? Holy Shit, how much cash have I spent on this crap? I can't believe the lies I have told to myself and the people I love? How many important moments have I missed that I can never get back?
Somewhere along the way I found that guy that was hiding under the addiction, the man before the addiction and lies. Every day of fog, every craving, and everything I had to to do to stay quit was worth it, my only regret is I didn't quit sooner. I can look at myself in the mirror again and see an honest man. The great Dad that pays attention to everything his children do and say, and is there for them every step of the way with a clear head. A husband that is not staying up late to get his last fix in, but is spending more time with his wife and strengthening the bond. I can actually kiss my wife again, coach my kids in baseball, smile without worrying if there is shit in my teeth, and go places and do things without thinking of ways I could get my fix in. I owe a lot to this site and all the badass quitters here for helping me reclaim my life and for saving my life, I post my promise every day and I do so with conviction and as a man of my word. I am a better Father, husband and all around man.
When I joined this site, I was surprised so many people had similar dipping experiences, and similar then quitting experiences. Your second paragraph is another one of those mirrors unto my own life. Totally agree. I'm quit with you today.
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Congrats on the Hundo! Let me be the first to note it down in your intro!!!
Way to Go!!!!!!!
Looking forward to being Quit with you tomorrow Jessie!
Wolfe
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Jessie ... congrats on the 2nd floor bro, proud as hell to quit with you EDD and call you my DD brother! Looking forwards to trying some of your homebrew one of these days!! 'Cheers' 'Have a beer' 'Sing and Drink'
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Jhags! 365 days bro ... and you kicked ass the entire way! Glad to have you in my corner, you're a big part of my quit! Keep it going bro, see you on roll tomorrow ...
'Cheers' 'clap'
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Fuck ... it's cobwebs everywhere in here! Get back in and post something Jessie!
Congrats on 500 hags!! 'dance'
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Fuck ... it's cobwebs everywhere in here! Get back in and post something Jessie!
Congrats on 500 hags!! 'dance'
Congrats on your 500 JH!!