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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: ihatecope on November 01, 2013, 05:49:00 PM
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Hello. My name is Paul. IÂ’m 38 years old, and IÂ’m from Utah. I have been a "closet chewing" for 16 years. I know, closet chewing and for fÂ’n 16 years thatÂ’s pretty sad! I have been lying to my awesome wife and amazing kids and myself. I started chewing as a senior in high school because I liked the high and I was a pussy to any degree of peer pressure. I actually quit and cleaned up my life for 3 years serving a church mission and getting married after meeting my wife-to-be but caved back into my old ways of drinking and chewing when I rekindled old buddy relationships. IÂ’ve tried to quit several times in the past 4 years but havenÂ’t been able to overcome the addiction. I somehow convinced myself that since I quit for 3 years I wasnÂ’t able to be addicted and can quit anytime. Well, I am addicted and quitting is going to be tough, especially since I really loved the smell, taste, and relax time of dipping with copenhagen.
Now, IÂ’m 5 days quit (again). And it hasnÂ’t been swell. I have pissed off everyone around me with my horrible attitude. IÂ’m just thankful that I found this website for some reinforcement. I damn near cried (fÂ’n mood swings) reading some of the articles of loss as people like myself who choose to chew have screwed up the lives of people they love. It reminded me of why I have been trying to quit for the past 4 years. I love my family and most of my dip shit friends. I have come to the conclusion that I would give my life for my wife and family, so why wouldnÂ’t I give up tobacco for them?
I’m quitting because I’m scared of losing my face and life and the destructive wake that will wreak havoc on my wife and family who I love with all my heart and soul. I’m also quitting for myself because deep down I know that no one sees chewing as a good idea, something that smart, educated, respectable, and attractive people do. It’s not cool and I now realize that’s the reason I have been “closet chewing” all these years.
Thanks,
i hate cope
P.S. Future note to self: Even though you think you are a copenhagen ninja, youÂ’re not! Hiding a nasty addiction like chewing and keeping close relationships is IMPOSSIBLE. They all know dumbass, you have been busted too many times to count.
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Welcome aboard Paul. Read, read and read some more. Post roll daily and get ready for a wild ride on the KTC train. We are 16,000 members strong and will bend over backwards to help a new quitter. After you have posted roll in February 2014, your new quit qroup, look up at the top right of this screen and you will see Inbox (1). Open it and you will find a message from me. It is my telephone number. Call or text me with any questions or problems you are encountering. You might also want to try out our Chat room. It is a great place to meet new quitters, vent, rage or just talk to other quitters going through the same thing you are. It is not easy, but you should really try to control the anger and frustration when amongst family and friends...it will save you alot of apologizing in the future. Instead, take it out on us...we have been there and will will continue to support you. As far as your love affair with the smell, taste and relaxation of Copenhagen, you will soon find that is the addict portion of your brain trying to convince you to continue dipping. You will also soon realize that shit stinks, tastes bad and fouls your breath like a cow's nasty ass...just go ask your wife how pleasant dip breath is. Anyway, you are now quit and have joined the best quit site on the planet. Congratulations on taking back your life! Wayne
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Quitting is really simple.
Read everything on here, post roll call each morning and don't dip. Wow....that sounds so easy, doesn't it?
If you read through the other intro's you may see some of my same words on them but they always hold true so I will just repeat them...
You are in for one nasty fight but you have the tools here to make it.
Go load yourself up with gum, mints, fake chew, seeds and beef jerky. Also get some member phone numbers right now, they will help you through the rough parts.
Next, exercise to exhaustion every single day and drink so much water that you feel like you may bust. Both of these will help.
Make sure your wife reads about what you are going through. 99% chance that you are going to be a short fussed dick for the next 3-4 weeks. Try not to take it out on her and the kids. Get on here and take it out on us, we will be fine.
I quit with you.
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Paul, glad to see you get the roll call figured out and was really happy for the response to my PM. My advise for the next few weeks is get other numbers, read all you can. There is a wealth of experience among the brotherhood. It's a rough ride but it is possible if you really want it.
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Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.
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Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.
Show her this Spousal support link (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.
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Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.
Show her this Spousal support link (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.
you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"
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Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.
Show her this Spousal support link (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.
you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"
The poison makes us do stupid things. Use the fact that you hate being bad to your wife for the sake of a poison weed to fuel your quit. Focus your rage at the poison and stay quit today.
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Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.
Show her this Spousal support link (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.
you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"
The poison makes us do stupid things. Use the fact that you hate being bad to your wife for the sake of a poison weed to fuel your quit. Focus your rage at the poison and stay quit today.
No reason to stay up late getting in that last bit of poison for the day. Now you wife knows you can go to bed a little early and get your groove on.
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I was inspired by another quit brother (Mthomas3824) to use this page as a journal so I will not forget the hell I am going through to free myself from a poison that is ruining my life. I will not go through this hell again! Plus reading and writing right now is helping me quit so I will read and write all damn day if I have too. P.S. I really don’t know if writing thought and opinion of an addict on a public forum is a good idea but frankly I don’t give a shit. I’m pretty sure I’m going to F up and piss someone off. Well feel free to let me know. If I agree with you, I will say, “Thank You,” and if I don’t agree with you, I’ll say, ”Fuck You.”
Day 11 – So far it has been a good day. Worked out early this morning for the first time in months and hit work feeling like I am winning this quit. Made roll call and knew as I hit post that I will keep my promise. The Vets tell me not to get complacent and just quit today and come back tomorrow. I am listing and I will. As I read everything I can find on this site, my eyes are beginning to open on UST. I now understand the strong hatred for UST. I am pissed at myself for being so dumb as to get into bed with such a horrible industry. I am pissed because I gave them everything precious to me and fucking willingly. I want my money, my time, and all my health back so I can give it to my family. I ran the saving calculator backwards to see how much I spent over 16 years. About $23,000 and that doesn’t include my time or health. Yea, I’m pissed. I want to take back something I wrote a couple of days ago about the taste and smell of tobacco. I no longer find that smell or taste appealing at all. I would rather eat dog shit than copenhagen. It’s free and healthier than tobacco and a least the yard gets clean. (I think I read that analogy somewhere else but not sure)
Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.
Days 9–5 – Became a member of KTC on Day5. I was honest on the KTC site which surprised me. Things are getting better both at nights and during the days. I am still having stupid fight dreams and waking up drenched in sweat and craving. My wife thinks that I am sick or something and is worried about me. WT commits me to tell my wife what I am up to and it’s eating me not to take that wise advice. Work is still piling up and for some reason I don’t care. Cravings and stupid thoughts are less. One stupid thought of note was to buy a can for a friend and if he offers don’t be rude. Another was to cave and quit fresh with the New Year. I like KTC and all the help even though I feel like a newbe outsider (which I am). I feel like I’m in “protect myself mode.” I come late to work and hide in my office and act real pissed off so no one bugs me. I cling to KTC site all day and read read read. I go home early and try to find projects around the house to keep me busy.
Day 2-4 – (Pre KTC) I think about caving more than sex and I think about sex a lot. My fucking life is being consumed by this horrible quit. I need help because this has been the worst quit that I have ever attempted. I am not sleeping which hurts because the cravings are now day and night. I have a horrible attitude and piss everyone off around me. I decide that I will cave tomorrow patting myself on the back for at least trying.
Day 1 – On the drive home from Denver with a dip in my lip, I tell myself that I should try to quit again. I’m sick of “closet chewing” and I need to “man up” and turn my life right. Plus I am so sick of copenhagen and I know the only satisfaction I get from it is when I satisfy the cravings. At 2:00 PM I throwaway all my cans.
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I showed Megan the spousal support last night and we read it together. It opened up full communication in my quit and now she is a mega support. She also has full access to my KTC account so she can be involved in my quit. I donÂ’t know why I didnÂ’t get her on board earlier. Even though the quit every day is enough reward in itself, she's already got a pretty damn nice reward system in place. Duathman, you hit the nail on the head, I donÂ’t know what the fuck I was thinking instead of capitalizing on opportunities with my wife in bed, I was trying to get cancer of the mouth.
You are getting it now. Just remember quit for you and let her support you and cherish the little wins with you. You will and do need her support fully. Honesty and openness are the best ways to win at anything.
Life will continue to happen around you weather you are quit or not. We do not become the men we are by the difficulties that we face but rather by how we deal with the difficulties that we face.
Great job and I quit with you today.
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Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.
Show her this Spousal support link (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.
you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"
The poison makes us do stupid things. Use the fact that you hate being bad to your wife for the sake of a poison weed to fuel your quit. Focus your rage at the poison and stay quit today.
No reason to stay up late getting in that last bit of poison for the day. Now you wife knows you can go to bed a little early and get your groove on.
I showed Megan the spousal support last night and we read it together. It opened up full communication in my quit and now she is a mega support. She also has full access to my KTC account so she can be involved in my quit. I donÂ’t know why I didnÂ’t get her on board earlier. Even though the quit every day is enough reward in itself, she's already got a pretty damn nice reward system in place. Duathman, you hit the nail on the head, I donÂ’t know what the fuck I was thinking instead of capitalizing on opportunities with my wife in bed, I was trying to get cancer of the mouth.
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Day 10 - Finally nuted up and told my wife about KTC. She has heard this quit talk before but only after busting me with death in my lip. I have the best damn wife who for some reason puts up with my dumbass and still supports me. I love you, Megan. Thank you.
Show her this Spousal support link (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/) it will help her understand what to expect, what you are going through and another step to show her your serious this time.
you have to earn her trust. quit One day at a Time and You will earn HER trust!
The tools are here for you.
The quit is within YOU!
Do it for you and you can be quit "ODAAT and NAFAR!"
The poison makes us do stupid things. Use the fact that you hate being bad to your wife for the sake of a poison weed to fuel your quit. Focus your rage at the poison and stay quit today.
No reason to stay up late getting in that last bit of poison for the day. Now you wife knows you can go to bed a little early and get your groove on.
I showed Megan the spousal support last night and we read it together. It opened up full communication in my quit and now she is a mega support. She also has full access to my KTC account so she can be involved in my quit. I donÂ’t know why I didnÂ’t get her on board earlier. Even though the quit every day is enough reward in itself, she's already got a pretty damn nice reward system in place. Duathman, you hit the nail on the head, I donÂ’t know what the fuck I was thinking instead of capitalizing on opportunities with my wife in bed, I was trying to get cancer of the mouth.
There is also a facebook page for wives of quitters.
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1375263019381879/ (https://www.facebook.com/groups/1375263019381879/)
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I showed Megan the spousal support last night and we read it together. It opened up full communication in my quit and now she is a mega support. She also has full access to my KTC account so she can be involved in my quit. I don’t know why I didn’t get her on board earlier. Even though the quit every day is enough reward in itself, she's already got a pretty damn nice reward system in place. Duathman, you hit the nail on the head, I don’t know what the fuck I was thinking instead of capitalizing on opportunities with my wife in bed, I was trying to get cancer of the mouth.
You are getting it now. Just remember quit for you and let her support you and cherish the little wins with you. You will and do need her support fully. Honesty and openness are the best ways to win at anything.
Life will continue to happen around you weather you are quit or not. We do not become the men we are by the difficulties that we face but rather by how we deal with the difficulties that we face.
Great job and I quit with you today.
I DO remember and I WILL deal. Thanks for the support and advice. I quit with you.
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Day 12 – I think I’m focusing too much on this quit and it’s consuming my life. I was on the KTC site all day yesterday. When I got home all my wife and I talked about was quitting. Last night lying in bed all I could do is think about this quit. Woke up at 3:30 this morning and couldn’t sleep because again I am thinking of this quit. I don’t know if this is normal but right now I don’t care. I’m taking my life back and getting my ass back to work and getting my thoughts back to where they should be – like how can I get my wife to do something kinky.
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Day 12 – I think I’m focusing too much on this quit and it’s consuming my life. I was on the KTC site all day yesterday. When I got home all my wife and I talked about was quitting. Last night lying in bed all I could do is think about this quit. Woke up at 3:30 this morning and couldn’t sleep because again I am thinking of this quit. I don’t know if this is normal but right now I don’t care. I’m taking my life back and getting my ass back to work and getting my thoughts back to where they should be – like how can I get my wife to do something kinky.
I hate to admit that my quit has consumed me as much the same. However, I never wanted to step back from it. You are addicted and how do you beat an addiction by beating it out of you. PERIOD!
This site is a tool, the members are a vital part of that; plus the information here is what helps you quit.
Understanding that your quit as a key aspect of your life right now is important. You need to beat the addiction once you realize that you will not feel bad about how important this quit is to you.
I understand that you still want a life outside of your quit, but without your quit that life can be short lived. I wouldn't focus on how much time you are spending as a waste, look at it as an investment in more years to come.
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Day 12 – I think I’m focusing too much on this quit and it’s consuming my life. I was on the KTC site all day yesterday. When I got home all my wife and I talked about was quitting. Last night lying in bed all I could do is think about this quit. Woke up at 3:30 this morning and couldn’t sleep because again I am thinking of this quit. I don’t know if this is normal but right now I don’t care. I’m taking my life back and getting my ass back to work and getting my thoughts back to where they should be – like how can I get my wife to do something kinky.
I hate to admit that my quit has consumed me as much the same. However, I never wanted to step back from it. You are addicted and how do you beat an addiction by beating it out of you. PERIOD!
This site is a tool, the members are a vital part of that; plus the information here is what helps you quit.
Understanding that your quit as a key aspect of your life right now is important. You need to beat the addiction once you realize that you will not feel bad about how important this quit is to you.
I understand that you still want a life outside of your quit, but without your quit that life can be short lived. I wouldn't focus on how much time you are spending as a waste, look at it as an investment in more years to come.
I think it is totally normal in the early stages of a quit. I used to think about "quit" all the time. It is healthy, it will lead you to uncovering the truths. And, ultimately, it is still probably no more time than you had spent thinking about dip.
As the quit shoes break in, and begin to feel a little more comfortable, it will diminish.
Stay strong. Proud to be quit with you today.
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Day 12 – I think I’m focusing too much on this quit and it’s consuming my life. I was on the KTC site all day yesterday. When I got home all my wife and I talked about was quitting. Last night lying in bed all I could do is think about this quit. Woke up at 3:30 this morning and couldn’t sleep because again I am thinking of this quit. I don’t know if this is normal but right now I don’t care. I’m taking my life back and getting my ass back to work and getting my thoughts back to where they should be – like how can I get my wife to do something kinky.
12 days is great and getting your wife involved has strengthened your quit. You are right where you need to be. You have made this quit the most important thing in your life and in time you'll start thinking of the poison less and less.
At 12 days quit if you aren't thinking about quitting your using. That's the way it is. It will suck until it don't and then it won't (Sm)....
I didn't experience much enjoyment from quitting until the 40's. Your brain is rewiring. Take a deep breath, settle in and except it for what it is. (THE SUCK OF QUITTING).
It's worth it my friend. Stay the course. Keep your head pointed forward,, nothing back there but a filthy disgusting can of poison with chains. Read my hof speech in my signature line,, i think it will help. Glad to be quit with you.
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Thanks for all the advice it really helps. So this is the suck. I guess I really didnÂ’t know how broad the suck can be.
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Paul, continue to do what you are doing and you will get through this. So what if you spent alot of time on the site yesterday...it only helped you to strengthen your quit. Every day will be a little less difficult and your constant thinking about your quit will diminish as well. About the only time I think about my quit now is when I am on here posting roll or reading intros. Proud to be quit with you today.
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Thanks for all the advice it really helps. So this is the suck. I guess I really didnÂ’t know how broad the suck can be.
Hang in there brother you doing great! The fog can last for a month or so, just keep posting every day and doing what your doing. I can't tell you how many days I sat staring at the site all day, it gave me the strength to keep going, the faith that these guys had been where I was......I can promise that it will get better. When it does, you'll be so glad you stayed strapped in for the ride.
I'll stay quit with today!
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Thanks for all the advice it really helps. So this is the suck. I guess I really didnÂ’t know how broad the suck can be.
Hang in there brother you doing great! The fog can last for a month or so, just keep posting every day and doing what your doing. I can't tell you how many days I sat staring at the site all day, it gave me the strength to keep going, the faith that these guys had been where I was......I can promise that it will get better. When it does, you'll be so glad you stayed strapped in for the ride.
I'll stay quit with today!
How often did you think of Copenhagen when you were using? If you didn't have a can or you
Were running low what was # 1 on your mind. If you were going somewhere that you wouldn't be able to get some what kinda planning did you do? I live 70 miles from the closest town and I drove that 140 mile round trip many times for nothing but my Copenhagen. If I was going with the family I would get pouches I could hide and have handy for the drive time. Point is I doubt your thinking about quitting any more than you spent thinking about cope in the past. Just keep on quit tin' your doing great!
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Day 13 - I totally lied about staying away from the site and getting work done. I was worthless again yesterday except that I'm am smarter on my quit. Letting this quit consume my life is just part of the suck. I hate sucking and know why the vets are telling me to embrace it. Still have stupid thoughts and cravings but they are less which I'm am happy to see any progress. Met some really cool guys in my quit group. Don't know why it helps to know that Brett is going through the exact same shit - maybe cause I'm a dick or maybe because I realize that I'm no different than anyone else so I should just take my lumps and stop whining. Going on a 4 day headache, my throat hurts like I have strep, and sleeping isn't getting any better. Did I mention that I'm not a fan of this suck. Woke up at 4 am and instead of letting my thoughts wonder got up and went to work out. That helped. Headed to Craig, CO to line out some work. If there are any quit brothers there let me know. Maybe we can grab a beer or something.
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It's worth it my friend. Stay the course. Keep your head pointed forward,, nothing back there but a filthy disgusting can of poison with chains. Read my hof speech in my signature line,, i think it will help. Glad to be quit with you.
Srans, thanks for these words right here. So true. I am going to print that quote above and keep it in my wallet. You know, I was wondering, how many people who are addicted to nicotine have not at some point thought about quitting? OK, second question. How many people have never cared about their health and are just happy to kill themselves with this stuff? I think those numbers would be interesting.
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Day 15 – Yesterday wasn’t great. I think it’s because I’m getting up at 3:30 AM and I’m not a fan of traveling out of town for work. I got some over the counter sleep medicine (zzzQuil) when I got home and slept for 12 hours. I woke up at 5:30 AM this morning feeling great. No fog and no cravings - finally. Today is going to be a great day.
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Day 15 – Yesterday wasn’t great. I think it’s because I’m getting up at 3:30 AM and I’m not a fan of traveling out of town for work. I got some over the counter sleep medicine (zzzQuil) when I got home and slept for 12 hours. I woke up at 5:30 AM this morning feeling great. No fog and no cravings - finally. Today is going to be a great day.
:ph43r:
good days are followed by cravings. Triggers - Damn things. Poison is out of your body but Nicotine is a ninja and can sneak up on you.
Every Great day Quit is a result of staying in your match and winning the bad day that you felt too weak to win.
Don't break, be ready for the bad times still. Those are fun because if you survive it, the victory and feelings that follow are sooo much better than any buzz I got from nicotine! Winning is worth the hurt and suck!
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Day 15 – Yesterday wasn’t great. I think it’s because I’m getting up at 3:30 AM and I’m not a fan of traveling out of town for work. I got some over the counter sleep medicine (zzzQuil) when I got home and slept for 12 hours. I woke up at 5:30 AM this morning feeling great. No fog and no cravings - finally. Today is going to be a great day.
:ph43r:
good days are followed by cravings. Triggers - Damn things. Poison is out of your body but Nicotine is a ninja and can sneak up on you.
Every Great day Quit is a result of staying in your match and winning the bad day that you felt too weak to win.
Don't break, be ready for the bad times still. Those are fun because if you survive it, the victory and feelings that follow are sooo much better than any buzz I got from nicotine! Winning is worth the hurt and suck!
Thanks for the advice. I'll be on my toes. After the first week there is NO buzz from tobacco - Just some weak repression to the addiction craves. You talk about a major suck - it's using nicotine. That bitch gives nothing and takes everything.
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Day 16 – Another good night of sleep last night with the help of zzzQuil. Yesterday was easy with very little craves or thoughts. Spent the whole day with the family and it was nice not coming up with excuses to satisfy a nasty addiction. I woke up feeling great again. Looking forward to another good day of football and further distancing myself from the pull of nicotine. I will take heed to some sound advice given to watch out for further triggers and pitfalls.
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You know what 16 days means Paul?.?. Let me show you.
16 years thatÂ’s pretty sad! I have been lying to my awesome wife and amazing kids and myself.
You haven't been doing this ^^^^^ anymore.
I was a pussy.
Your no longer this ^^^^^^. You said it,, I didn't!.!.!
been trying to quit for the past 4 years.
No more trying brother,,, ^^^^^^^^^^ is gone!
wife and family who I love with all my heart and soul.
You have been proving this ^^^^^ for 16 days. 16 days ago you stated.
I really loved the smell, taste, and relax time of dipping with copenhagen.
For 16 days you have demonstrated you love your wife, kids and yourself more that a can of dirt. I'll bet this ^^^^^ mind set is changing. 17 days ago you enjoyed spending time with a can of dirt more than your family. How sad is that?.?. Something tells me you are seeing the truth now my friend. Great job on your quit. Remember all this ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^. You have already come a long ways in 16 days. To fail now would undo all you have done. Keep moving forward. You have no idea what's beyond the door. We weren't meant to be chained to a can of dirt. Glad to be quit with you.
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You know what 16 days means Paul?.?. Let me show you.Â
16 years thatÂ’s pretty sad! I have been lying to my awesome wife and amazing kids and myself.
You haven't been doing this ^^^^^ anymore.
I was a pussy.
Your no longer this ^^^^^^. You said it,, I didn't!.!.!
been trying to quit for the past 4 years.
No more trying brother,,, ^^^^^^^^^^ is gone!
wife and family who I love with all my heart and soul.
You have been proving this ^^^^^ for 16 days. 16 days ago you stated.
I really loved the smell, taste, and relax time of dipping with copenhagen.
For 16 days you have demonstrated you love your wife, kids and yourself more that a can of dirt. I'll bet this ^^^^^ mind set is changing. 17 days ago you enjoyed spending time with a can of dirt more than your family. How sad is that?.?. Something tells me you are seeing the truth now my friend. Great job on your quit. Remember all this ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^. You have already come a long ways in 16 days. To fail now would undo all you have done. Keep moving forward. You have no idea what's beyond the door. We weren't meant to be chained to a can of dirt. Glad to be quit with you.
'clap'
Feels damn good, doesn't it!
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Proud to be quit with a good man. I too am on this site way too much. But if that is what it takes, I will do it. Like Metallica sings, Nothing Else Matters.
Remember George Nelson from "OH Brother, Where Art Thou"? Baby Face Nelson feeling 10 foot tall? Yeah, that has been me for the last 10 days. Today, I'm sleepy and going to take advantage of that.
We are all on the same team, Glad to be quit with you Ihatecope....
Mogul
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You talk about a major suck - it's using nicotine. That bitch gives nothing and takes everything.
I love this!!!!!! That raises my quit to a better level. So true. Damn, that's just brilliant.
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Day 17 – It was a tough day today. It started out great and without warning got a curve ball. I had to supervise a crew working out of town. We drove together and he chewed the whole 5 hour round trip. The majority of the time I took it like an angry champ but I was really surprised a few times when a strong stupid thought or crave would hit. I was glad for the advice of MT WT to stay on my toes and for my resolve in my daily promise. I sit here pissed at myself that those thoughts ever crossed my mind even after all the nicotine education I have received. This addiction really sucks. Day 17 doesn’t mean shit to an addict. I now have a headache and feeling the suck pretty good. The silver lining is that I crossed that trigger and took home the win. I’m 17-0 and no can humper.
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Day 17 – It was a tough day today. It started out great and without warning got a curve ball. I had to supervise a crew working out of town. We drove together and he chewed the whole 5 hour round trip. The majority of the time I took it like an angry champ but I was really surprised a few times when a strong stupid thought or crave would hit. I was glad for the advice of MT WT to stay on my toes and for my resolve in my daily promise. I sit here pissed at myself that those thoughts ever crossed my mind even after all the nicotine education I have received. This addiction really sucks. Day 17 doesn’t mean shit to an addict. I now have a headache and feeling the suck pretty good. The silver lining is that I crossed that trigger and took home the win. I’m 17-0 and no can humper.
Win is a win! Not every match is a blowout. Addiction, you just get those craves. No matter what you know or do, craves throw a punch...you punched back and look who's standing!
Very pleased to be a fan of a bad ass quitter. 5 hours in a truck??? That's an impressive win.
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Day 17 – It was a tough day today. It started out great and without warning got a curve ball. I had to supervise a crew working out of town. We drove together and he chewed the whole 5 hour round trip. The majority of the time I took it like an angry champ but I was really surprised a few times when a strong stupid thought or crave would hit. I was glad for the advice of MT WT to stay on my toes and for my resolve in my daily promise. I sit here pissed at myself that those thoughts ever crossed my mind even after all the nicotine education I have received. This addiction really sucks. Day 17 doesn’t mean shit to an addict. I now have a headache and feeling the suck pretty good. The silver lining is that I crossed that trigger and took home the win. I’m 17-0 and no can humper.
Win is a win! Not every match is a blowout. Addiction, you just get those craves. No matter what you know or do, craves throw a punch...you punched back and look who's standing!
Very pleased to be a fan of a bad ass quitter. 5 hours in a truck??? That's an impressive win.
The great Vin Diesel said... "...it don't matter if you win by an inch or by a mile. Winning is winning." Today is a big W bro! You are gonna crave... You are going to think about dipping... You are gonna be thinking about it all the time. That is just the way it is... The key is --- get it straight in your mind that you will not cave! No matter what ... On this day you will keep your word and hold your quit! I will tell you what... You manned up today and quit like a beast!!! Win the day! Quit on!
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Proud to be quit with you today cope. I'm on Day 375 and while I can say I rarely even think of dipping anymore, I still have those days where from nowhere, a craving will sneak up on me. Once an addict, always an addict and we are all addicts here. It's the bond that unites us now and always.
I ninja dipped for almost 13 years and was up to 2 cans of skoal a day when I finally took my life back. It took me over 100 days to really man up and bring my wife in on my quit (good job on bringing her in early!!!) but that was when I really knew I was done with this shit for good.
In time the triggers will diminish (those long drives without the family being among the worst) and your brain will rewire but they will never go away completely. The difference now, is where they were a real struggle early on in the quit, now they help remind me what I'm fighting for, what I will continue to fight for the rest of my life and what a shmuck I was for wasting some much time and energy to satisfy my addiction while lying to my wife and playing Russian roulette with a real risk that my 2 little kids would soon be fatherless.
Keep up the good work one day at a time, the bad days will lessen and the good days will increase.
VERY PROUD TO BE QUIT WITH SUCH A BADASS QUITTER FOR TODAY ONLY!
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Buddy you are a real warrior in this quit! You've really faced it down like a superhero a couple of times, and both the way you did it and how you describe it gets my admiration. Nice job! Keep it up! I hope today is better, and regardless, i'm proud to be quit with you today!
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Those wins add up just like that; ODAAT. Good report to come home to the wife is good also. That trust starts improving and I find that one of my greatest side benefits.
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Day 19 – The last two days have been nice. Very little fog, craves, or thoughts of chewing at all. I have been free of nicotine for 19 days but because of this suck I haven’t really felt free until now. It feels pretty damn good right now and worth all the suck. I know this won’t last but I’ll be enjoying this win today. Here’s to winning while grinning.
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Day 19 – The last two days have been nice. Very little fog, craves, or thoughts of chewing at all. I have been free of nicotine for 19 days but because of this suck I haven’t really felt free until now. It feels pretty damn good right now and worth all the suck. I know this won’t last but I’ll be enjoying this win today. Here’s to winning while grinning.
Great News!!
I'm in the SUCK right now on day 4, glad to hear there is some good days involved :D
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Day 21 - It feels good to be stepping into the 20s. If 100 days is the 1st floor then 20 days has to be the second step from the basement or from hell. The past couple of days were spent working out of town in Craig hanging with guys who chew. This time everything was a lot easier. Thoughts and cravings were very few and they felt like very minor annoyances. I think things went so well because I had the same plan as last time plus the added confidence of having successfully tripped that trigger. Now I'm back home and my luck has changed. The fog is back with some really strong craves. Plus I feel like shit and am in a horrible mood. Writing this and reading all the wins around the site is helping. Welcome back to the suck grind.
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Hang in there man. Use your past victories to help you through these challenges. Every win makes you stronger. I quit with you today brother.
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Hang in there man. Use your past victories to help you through these challenges. Every win makes you stronger. I quit with you today brother.
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Hang in there man. Use your past victories to help you through these challenges. Every win makes you stronger. I quit with you today brother.
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Your doing great and sex everyday you quit!
I quit with you today also.
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Great job on your quit ihc.
The fog is back with some really strong craves.
Your going to have some good days and bad. Some days your going to feel like you got this. Some days your going to wonder why the world is spinning backwards. Keep pressing forward. The good days will become more frequent and the bad days will decrease. You've come to far now. Might as well get to that next door.
276 days quit and i can tell you first hand, life is so much better without the poison. As I write these words on your intro I thank myself for enduring everything I went through in the early days. It was so worth it! Thanks ktc for showing me a way better life. Quit with you today.
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IHC,
Im on day 42 and still going through the roller coaster. We do this once, and one time only. i quit with you and will smile through the misery and joy. Keep Winning.
-Grizzfall
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Day 23 – I’m in Denver pretty excited to see the game. I am more excited that I’ll be doing it without nicotine. Win, loose, or draw for the Broncos, I still get the win. On a side note, I want to make sure to thank everyone in my accountability network especially my wife. You are a bunch of badasses and quitting with you makes me also feel like as badass. Thank You.
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going through the roller coaster
Perfect analogy.
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Day 23 – I’m in Denver pretty excited to see the game. I am more excited that I’ll be doing it without nicotine. Win, loose, or draw for the Broncos, I still get the win. On a side note, I want to make sure to thank everyone in my accountability network especially my wife. You are a bunch of badasses and quitting with you makes me also feel like as badass. Thank You.
Bravo sir, and keep up the great work.
I'm still bitter about the 80s so I won't be rooting for he broncos today (browns fan).
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Day 23 – I’m in Denver pretty excited to see the game. I am more excited that I’ll be doing it without nicotine. Win, loose, or draw for the Broncos, I still get the win. On a side note, I want to make sure to thank everyone in my accountability network especially my wife. You are a bunch of badasses and quitting with you makes me also feel like as badass. Thank You.
Bravo sir, and keep up the great work.
I'm still bitter about the 80s so I won't be rooting for he broncos today (browns fan).
LOL - Who can forget The Drive.
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Hey IHC you battenned down for the weekend? Keep up the quit-- you're a solid, badass quitter on a mission!
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Hey IHC you battenned down for the weekend? Keep up the quit-- you're a solid, badass quitter on a mission!
Brett, Thanks for looking out for a KTC brother. I QLF with you.
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Day 30 – 3rd step up from hell. One of the many benefits to this site is that we are all climbing away from our former user selves and the battles and demons that I fight have been and are being beaten down and conquered by other KTC warriors. Sometimes my addicted self would have me believe that my battles are worse or easier and that I am alone in this fight. Well, that’s not true and I know that is some sub-conscience bullshit which my addicted self is using to throw me off my quit game. Well, I will not be thrown from my quit.
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Great thoughts. Very inspirational. You are right on. Keep it up brother!
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Day 30 – 3rd step up from hell. One of the many benefits to this site is that we are all climbing away from our former user selves and the battles and demons that I fight have been and are being beaten down and conquered by other KTC warriors. Sometimes my addicted self would have me believe that my battles are worse or easier and that I am alone in this fight. Well, that’s not true and I know that is some sub-conscience bullshit which my addicted self is using to throw me off my quit game. Well, I will not be thrown from my quit.
Thats some solid determination there. Keep it up for when shit hits the fan later.
-grizzfall
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Day 30 – 3rd step up from hell. One of the many benefits to this site is that we are all climbing away from our former user selves and the battles and demons that I fight have been and are being beaten down and conquered by other KTC warriors. Sometimes my addicted self would have me believe that my battles are worse or easier and that I am alone in this fight. Well, that’s not true and I know that is some sub-conscience bullshit which my addicted self is using to throw me off my quit game. Well, I will not be thrown from my quit.
Thats some solid determination there. Keep it up for when shit hits the fan later.
-grizzfall
way to keep the determination man keep the quit going
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Day 30 – 3rd step up from hell. One of the many benefits to this site is that we are all climbing away from our former user selves and the battles and demons that I fight have been and are being beaten down and conquered by other KTC warriors. Sometimes my addicted self would have me believe that my battles are worse or easier and that I am alone in this fight. Well, that’s not true and I know that is some sub-conscience bullshit which my addicted self is using to throw me off my quit game. Well, I will not be thrown from my quit.
Thats some solid determination there. Keep it up for when shit hits the fan later.
-grizzfall
way to keep the determination man keep the quit going
You've got it, the mind games are the bitches last ditch effort to fight her way back.
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Day 39 – The quit seems to be on cruise control. All the days seem to be good days with very little infrequent naggings from the nic bitch. I wrote this in a text earlier today but it defiantly sums up how I have felt lately,
The grass is way greener on the quit side of the fence.
Can I just say quitting chew has been fucking awesome! Good riddance forever nicotine, I do not miss you!
Quit Perspective
The past couple of days I have been thinking about Quit Perspective. This is something that can literally change your quit. For me Quit Perspective is something like this:
If someone says, “Hey Asshole, grow some balls and quit.” You can perceive that statement in a couple of different ways.
There is the person who is looking for any open door to cave and can choose this opportunity to be offended and return to his poison treatments.
Or there is the person who knows while quitting we all become assholes sometimes [or if you are using then you are literally an asshole cause you have shit in your mouth] and it definitely takes someone who is mentally and physically tough to protect their quit (i.e. “balls”). I guess that person would take the opportunity to say, "Thank You!” to the KTC brother or sister who at least took some time for you.
To all my new brothers sisters here at KTC, I hope you assholes grow some balls and quit.
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Day 39 – The quit seems to be on cruise control. All the days seem to be good days with very little infrequent naggings from the nic bitch. I wrote this in a text earlier today but it defiantly sums up how I have felt lately,The grass is way greener on the quit side of the fence.
Can I just say quitting chew has been fucking awesome! Good riddance forever nicotine, I do not miss you!
Quit Perspective
The past couple of days I have been thinking about Quit Perspective. This is something that can literally change your quit. For me Quit Perspective is something like this:
If someone says, “Hey Asshole, grow some balls and quit.” You can perceive that statement in a couple of different ways.
There is the person who is looking for any open door to cave and can choose this opportunity to be offended and return to his poison treatments.
Or there is the person who knows while quitting we all become assholes sometimes [or if you are using then you are literally an asshole cause you have shit in your mouth] and it definitely takes someone who is mentally and physically tough to protect their quit (i.e. “balls”). I guess that person would take the opportunity to say, "Thank You!” to the KTC brother or sister who at least took some time for you.
To all my new brothers sisters here at KTC, I hope you assholes grow some balls and quit.
Thats awsome stuff.
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hey, here you go again, quitting the nic bitch today! Step 4 out of hell, 40 days! way to go, I really believe you have this quit and I respect the way you protect it. I'm glad to quit with you and will have your back whenver you need it to keep this quit going- it gives my own quit added strength to have yours be so strong!
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Day 39 – The quit seems to be on cruise control. All the days seem to be good days with very little infrequent naggings from the nic bitch. I wrote this in a text earlier today but it defiantly sums up how I have felt lately,The grass is way greener on the quit side of the fence.
Can I just say quitting chew has been fucking awesome! Good riddance forever nicotine, I do not miss you!
Quit Perspective
The past couple of days I have been thinking about Quit Perspective. This is something that can literally change your quit. For me Quit Perspective is something like this:
If someone says, “Hey Asshole, grow some balls and quit.” You can perceive that statement in a couple of different ways.
There is the person who is looking for any open door to cave and can choose this opportunity to be offended and return to his poison treatments.
Or there is the person who knows while quitting we all become assholes sometimes [or if you are using then you are literally an asshole cause you have shit in your mouth] and it definitely takes someone who is mentally and physically tough to protect their quit (i.e. “balls”). I guess that person would take the opportunity to say, "Thank You!” to the KTC brother or sister who at least took some time for you.
To all my new brothers sisters here at KTC, I hope you assholes grow some balls and quit.
Thats awsome stuff.
Good insight, to bad that first group of pussies can't recognize the power of their addiction for what it is. So many think they have the door closed but are willing to open it to defend another sick whining pussy. They should have looked out the peep hole and they would have seen the bitch holding hands with the pussy. Soon they are walking off together humping the can.
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Day 39 – The quit seems to be on cruise control. All the days seem to be good days with very little infrequent naggings from the nic bitch. I wrote this in a text earlier today but it defiantly sums up how I have felt lately,The grass is way greener on the quit side of the fence.
Can I just say quitting chew has been fucking awesome! Good riddance forever nicotine, I do not miss you!
Quit Perspective
The past couple of days I have been thinking about Quit Perspective. This is something that can literally change your quit. For me Quit Perspective is something like this:
If someone says, “Hey Asshole, grow some balls and quit.” You can perceive that statement in a couple of different ways.
There is the person who is looking for any open door to cave and can choose this opportunity to be offended and return to his poison treatments.
Or there is the person who knows while quitting we all become assholes sometimes [or if you are using then you are literally an asshole cause you have shit in your mouth] and it definitely takes someone who is mentally and physically tough to protect their quit (i.e. “balls”). I guess that person would take the opportunity to say, "Thank You!” to the KTC brother or sister who at least took some time for you.
To all my new brothers sisters here at KTC, I hope you assholes grow some balls and quit.
Thats awsome stuff.
Good insight, to bad that first group of pussies can't recognize the power of their addiction for what it is. So many think they have the door closed but are willing to open it to defend another sick whining pussy. They should have looked out the peep hole and they would have seen the bitch holding hands with the pussy. Soon they are walking off together humping the can.
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it is always nice to see a newer quitter begin to understand and realize what we are here trying to do for each other. Well done.
I stand beside and quit with you today.
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Day 39 – The quit seems to be on cruise control. All the days seem to be good days with very little infrequent naggings from the nic bitch. I wrote this in a text earlier today but it defiantly sums up how I have felt lately,The grass is way greener on the quit side of the fence.
Can I just say quitting chew has been fucking awesome! Good riddance forever nicotine, I do not miss you!
Quit Perspective
The past couple of days I have been thinking about Quit Perspective. This is something that can literally change your quit. For me Quit Perspective is something like this:
If someone says, “Hey Asshole, grow some balls and quit.” You can perceive that statement in a couple of different ways.
There is the person who is looking for any open door to cave and can choose this opportunity to be offended and return to his poison treatments.
Or there is the person who knows while quitting we all become assholes sometimes [or if you are using then you are literally an asshole cause you have shit in your mouth] and it definitely takes someone who is mentally and physically tough to protect their quit (i.e. “balls”). I guess that person would take the opportunity to say, "Thank You!” to the KTC brother or sister who at least took some time for you.
To all my new brothers sisters here at KTC, I hope you assholes grow some balls and quit.
Thats awsome stuff.
Good insight, to bad that first group of pussies can't recognize the power of their addiction for what it is. So many think they have the door closed but are willing to open it to defend another sick whining pussy. They should have looked out the peep hole and they would have seen the bitch holding hands with the pussy. Soon they are walking off together humping the can.
'clap'
it is always nice to see a newer quitter begin to understand and realize what we are here trying to do for each other. Well done.
I stand beside and quit with you today.
I concur.
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This is the big 100 my friend, the first big milestone-- congrats and well done! You've been a stalwart quitter I knew was there if I ever needed a hand with my own quit. Thanks and enjoy coming this far. Please keep it up too, let's make this time last for good!
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This is the big 100 my friend, the first big milestone-- congrats and well done! You've been a stalwart quitter I knew was there if I ever needed a hand with my own quit. Thanks and enjoy coming this far. Please keep it up too, let's make this time last for good!
Congratulations, winning one day at a time pays off. Bask in the glory of quit today!
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Is this not what it's all about???? Way to be my brother.
Mogul
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Day 150 - Just checking in. IÂ’m quit and loving being quit. Freedom thatÂ’s what this is all about. In the past 150 days there have been FÂ’n awesome days and there have been FÂ’n shitty days, but there have been NO days with nicotine.
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Day 150 - Just checking in. IÂ’m quit and loving being quit. Freedom thatÂ’s what this is all about. In the past 150 days there have been FÂ’n awesome days and there have been FÂ’n shitty days, but there have been NO days with nicotine.
Way to kill it Paul!
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Day 150 - Just checking in. I’m quit and loving being quit. Freedom that’s what this is all about. In the past 150 days there have been F’n awesome days and there have been F’n shitty days, but there have been NO days with nicotine.
Way to kill it Paul!
Congrats on 151! I hate Cope as well. I have have hated it for 275 days. My 275 sound just like your 151. That is life. We are now attacking the day like a normal human being and not an addicted slave.
Well done sir! Keep at it today.
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I have been free from nicotine for 365 days. Quitting has been one of the best decisions I have ever made and I cannot believe how much happiness has come from that decision. I am so grateful for this site which showed me how to quit, and for my fellow quitters who were there with me in the quit trenches through the suck. Also a big thanks to Brett, who I met on this site and has become a great friend.
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Congrats to u!! That's awesome. I'm on day 7 so just a little behind u :) I'm sure u remember what it's like that first week...
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I have been free from nicotine for 365 days. Quitting has been one of the best decisions I have ever made and I cannot believe how much happiness has come from that decision. I am so grateful for this site which showed me how to quit, and for my fellow quitters who were there with me in the quit trenches through the suck. Also a big thanks to Brett, who I met on this site and has become a great friend.
I'm proud to be quitting with you and glad that you keep checking in here. Keep it strong!
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I have been free from nicotine for 365 days. Quitting has been one of the best decisions I have ever made and I cannot believe how much happiness has come from that decision. I am so grateful for this site which showed me how to quit, and for my fellow quitters who were there with me in the quit trenches through the suck. Also a big thanks to Brett, who I met on this site and has become a great friend.
I'm proud to be quitting with you and glad that you keep checking in here. Keep it strong!
Well done. Happy Quit Birthday