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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: bartproc on September 24, 2012, 01:09:00 PM
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I am on day 2 and this is harder than I thought. A Lot harder!! This is the first time I've ever seriously tried to quit. I am a former Marine, Crossfitter and Homicide Detective and this is, by far, the toughest thing to date. I have resorted to marking off each hour as another small victory. Pathetic..
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I am on day 2 and this is harder than I thought. A Lot harder!! This is the first time I've ever seriously tried to quit. I am a former Marine, Crossfitter and Homicide Detective and this is, by far, the toughest thing to date. I have resorted to marking off each hour as another small victory. Pathetic..
It's not pathetic.
It's what you have to do to stay quit initially.
It will get better. Much, much better.
I see that this is your first post, so go ahead and take a look here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13) That is our welcome center, and it will explain what we do, how we do it, and why we do it. But, for a quick explanation, we post roll call every morning (promise not to use nicotine in any form) to remind ourselves "Never again!".
You are a December 2012 quit member, and your 100 days will be the last day of 2012. Barring any end of the world scenerios coming true (like the Mayan Prophecy or Al Gore's Day After Tomorrow), you will get to start 2013 as a Hall of Fame member.
Congrats man.
I'm very proud of you. Keep it up, and look in your pm's for my number.
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I have a spreadsheet that counts the days and hours. It is not pathetic. It is an awesome start. Look at the investment that you already have.
From your past, you have already proven to yourself that your mind is tougher than your body. It is your body that is punishing you. The chemical dependence. You can do this. Stay committed and stay focused.
Lots of great stuff on this website, from the daily post to promise for the day, to the many many stories of people that have quit before us.
Quitting with you! Stay strong and focused. You got this.
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That's not pathetic, Bartproc. That's how it is done. We always say "one day at a time"...which is true. But early on (like where you are at Day 2) it is more like one minute at a time. That is why we suggest reading all you can on this site. The bad ass quitters here have seen it all. Whether you're at Day 1 or 1000 is immaterial...we're all addicts. and have been right where you are right now...wondering how the fuck we were going to actually quit dipping?!!! Check out the Quit Groups...not just yours, but click around on a few more. Pretty fucking cool, huh? All those folks have been right where you are now...and they are living nic free today because of one simple thing...posting roll everyday and keeping their word.
It's like the joke about how to eat an elephant...one bite at a time. That is how quitting is done...one minute, one hour, one meal, one day at a time. The thought of "quitting forever" is overwhelming. So, don't do it. Nobody on this site is asking you to do that. Quit forever is hard. We just ask you to give us your word that come Hell of high water you will remain nic free TODAY. And anybody can go one day, right?
We can't change the past. What's done is done. And nobody knows the future. So don't think about it. Just focus on today...this 5 minutes. We'll deal with tomorrow, next week, next month or whatever when they get here. But we want you to give us your word by posting roll that you not put any nicotine in you body today...and just today, nothing else. Then tomorrow, you'll wake up and do it all over again.
Read all you can. The Nic Bitch is relentless, but so it our resolve. Congrats on taking the first steps, brother. Now let us help you the rest of the way.
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Thanks. First big test comes tonight as I have several co-workers who chew and won't mind watching me suffer. The dizziness has been the hardest to deal with, But the physical withdrawls are nothing compared to just having a chew in my mouth during certain activities. Like something isnt right or I'm forgetting something.
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As said, you have made the most improtant step of all. You decided to quit and you found this website. We all quit with you today and promised to not dip or chew all day. We'll be back tomorrow to do it all over again.
You are looking at a couple of really tough days but I can't imagine it's than anything you've done before. Stay focused on the moment and understand that any cravings and temptations you have will pass. Use gum, candy, seeds, fake stuff to satisfy your oral fixation and by day four, you'll feel completely different.
Glad to have you in our December quit grop. We are the Wreckin' Crew and will post roll with you every day.
Stay quit today. We'll work on tomorrow when it gets here.
Jax
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Marking the hours is definitely not pathetic. You're doing what you need to do to keep the crap out of your lip.
I'd suggest holding onto those pieces of paper. It'll be a good reminder of the pain you went through. I had to do the same thing, and I have the papers I used still sitting on top of my desk. There's no way I will go through that again.
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Hey man, I'm with you too! I'm in the December Crew and I hear ya - but do what you can... just think how great you'll feel having ANOTHER day done.
Keep it up - and send me a PM if you need someone to yell at ya!
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I am on day 2 and this is harder than I thought. A Lot harder!! This is the first time I've ever seriously tried to quit. I am a former Marine, Crossfitter and Homicide Detective and this is, by far, the toughest thing to date. I have resorted to marking off each hour as another small victory. Pathetic..
Stay strong brother, you CAN do this. 620 days ago I made the decision to take my life back from tobacco and it has been the best decision of my life. You are in for a fight, probably the worst you have ever been in, but you can prevail. Post roll every day and keep your word for 24hrs. Don't think in terms of weeks or years or the dreaded forever. Quit 1 day at a time. If you have to break it into hours then do it. Just don't put another dip/chew in your mouth.
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I am on day 2 and this is harder than I thought. A Lot harder!! This is the first time I've ever seriously tried to quit. I am a former Marine, Crossfitter and Homicide Detective and this is, by far, the toughest thing to date. I have resorted to marking off each hour as another small victory. Pathetic..
Stay strong brother, you CAN do this. 620 days ago I made the decision to take my life back from tobacco and it has been the best decision of my life. You are in for a fight, probably the worst you have ever been in, but you can prevail. Post roll every day and keep your word for 24hrs. Don't think in terms of weeks or years or the dreaded forever. Quit 1 day at a time. If you have to break it into hours then do it. Just don't put another dip/chew in your mouth.
It gets easier, trust me. Right now all you gotta do is keep nic outta your system. One minute at a time if need be. Your in what we call the suck. Embrace it. Craves won't kill you. Your going to be agitated, irritable, restless, hyper, exhausted, and may find yourself crying at episodes of saved by the bell or golden girls. In any case, a little temporary discomfort is a small price to pay to save your own life. Just accept the fact that it's going to suck until it doesn't, then ride the wave.
sM
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It's hard, it sucks! Embrace the suck, remember every minute of it so you never want to repeat it. You need to post roll in January 13 click Here (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=7170) to go there and read how to post roll. Come back daily and post your promise to stay nicotine free for the day!
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Im the biggest pussy ktc ever saw. EVERYONE told me things would get better...didnt believe a sngle one of them. Here I am 115 days quit and EVERY ONE of them were right. Hang in there. It is so worth it, the freedom you will feel is beyond description. Remember these first few days are a mere snapshot in your life. You will not feel like this forever.
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When will I start to feel normal and not completely shitty like I feel right now. I'm on day 3 btw. The headaches have gotten somewhat better though.
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When will I start to feel normal and not completely shitty like I feel right now. I'm on day 3 btw. The headaches have gotten somewhat better though.
Normal is very hard to define. On day 3 you are finishing up having the nicotene get out of your system. This is the withdrawl symptoms that you are feeling now.
Once this is through, keep exercising, keep drinking the water as it will come the period where the nic bitch will start playing mind games. You mind will be re-wiring itself in this period since you will no longer be feeding it the poision. This will be different for everyone, but this is the time of the fog. Fight through it and do whatever it takes not to put nicotene in your body.
Also, never forget the feelings you have right now as let this feed your quit so you never have to endure this again.
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When will I start to feel normal and not completely shitty like I feel right now. I'm on day 3 btw. The headaches have gotten somewhat better though.
Takes awhile to feel normal (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=7011) again. Today is better then yesterday and tomorrow will be better then today. You're doing great brotha, embrace the suck!
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Hang tough and stay quit! Remember Bartproc, you can't smoke a rock so be that rock!!! Oh and atomic fireballs rock. Look in you inbox for my number. Semper Fi
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Atomic Fireballs do rock!!!! I eat toms of those damn things to keep my mind off of the evil shit!
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When will I start to feel normal and not completely shitty like I feel right now. I'm on day 3 btw. The headaches have gotten somewhat better though.
What's normal? Most of us have been controlled all of our adult lives by the poison in our system!
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When will I start to feel normal and not completely shitty like I feel right now. I'm on day 3 btw. The headaches have gotten somewhat better though.
What's normal? Most of us have been controlled all of our adult lives by the poison in our system!
They will get better. But normalÂ…..you will have to find a new normal. You spent the majority of your adult life as an addict. Normal to you is not normal to the rest of society. It gets easier, but you will always be an addict. So you have to take that into consideration when deciding what normal is.
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Well I've made it to day 9. Feeling better everyday. I'm starting to believe.
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Well I've made it to day 9. Feeling better everyday. I'm starting to believe.
The want brought you here to the site
The need keeps you here on a daily basis
But never give up the believing as without it the want nor the need will take hold and keep you quit.
great job and keep up the good work.
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Random observations from day 10 of my quit..
1. The support of people is starting to wane. They usually respond with a short "good job" and that's about it.
2. I really miss taking a shit on a daily basis
3. Smokey Mountain fake is really getting me through the suck. That I guess will be my second quit
4. I am feeling physically better since my quit. My body forgot what it was like to be and feel normal.
5. My sleep is starting to get better but far from normal.
6. The best way to quit is one day at a time. Didn't get that until I quit.
More to come in a few days..
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Remember to pay it forward. if you feel that support is starting to wane, get more digits, tell someone else to stay strong. True there will be quite times, but sometimes you might just need to blurt out "Stay Strong" to someone else.
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Random observations from day 10 of my quit..
1. The support of people is starting to wane. They usually respond with a short "good job" and that's about it.
2. I really miss taking a shit on a daily basis
3. Smokey Mountain fake is really getting me through the suck. That I guess will be my second quit
4. I am feeling physically better since my quit. My body forgot what it was like to be and feel normal.
5. My sleep is starting to get better but far from normal.
6. The best way to quit is one day at a time. Didn't get that until I quit.
More to come in a few days..
right there with ya buddy. 1, 2 and 4 are the same for me too.
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Have you noticed that food tastes different? Maybe it's just me
Random observations from day 10 of my quit..
1. The support of people is starting to wane. They usually respond with a short "good job" and that's about it.
2. I really miss taking a shit on a daily basis
3. Smokey Mountain fake is really getting me through the suck. That I guess will be my second quit
4. I am feeling physically better since my quit. My body forgot what it was like to be and feel normal.
5. My sleep is starting to get better but far from normal.
6. The best way to quit is one day at a time. Didn't get that until I quit.
More to come in a few days..
right there with ya buddy. 1, 2 and 4 are the same for me too. :wacko: :wacko:
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Have you noticed that food tastes different? Maybe it's just me
Random observations from day 10 of my quit..
1. The support of people is starting to wane. They usually respond with a short "good job" and that's about it.
2. I really miss taking a shit on a daily basis
3. Smokey Mountain fake is really getting me through the suck. That I guess will be my second quit
4. I am feeling physically better since my quit. My body forgot what it was like to be and feel normal.
5. My sleep is starting to get better but far from normal.
6. The best way to quit is one day at a time. Didn't get that until I quit.
More to come in a few days..
right there with ya buddy. 1, 2 and 4 are the same for me too. :wacko: :wacko:
Food definately tastes different especially beer. And I crave pasta like crazy now
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Hang in there...and as Dozer99 said, Pay it Forward...
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3. Smokey Mountain fake is really getting me through the suck. That I guess will be my second quit
4. I am feeling physically better since my quit. My body forgot what it was like to be and feel normal.
5. My sleep is starting to get better but far from normal.
6. The best way to quit is one day at a time. Didn't get that until I quit.
These are very true for me as well. especially #3. This stuff is a lifesaver to the point that I worry about how to get rid of it later.
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Random observations from day 10 of my quit..
1. The support of people is starting to wane. They usually respond with a short "good job" and that's about it. Get active. Get in Chat. PM two new brothers daily. Become the goto when someone goes awol. Read other months so you know what to expect. Rememeber detective, It takes balls to quit, lots and lots of balls.
2. I really miss taking a shit on a daily basis MiraLax
3. Smokey Mountain fake is really getting me through the suck. That I guess will be my second quit who fucking cares? Really? I used fake for the first 180 days, then, decided to not use. It was nothing to stop. You can switch things up if that makes you feel better (smc, hooch, jakes, bacc, teabags, coffee, 9v battery, anal beads, etc....)
4. I am feeling physically better since my quit. My body forgot what it was like to be and feel normal. Yep, 2 decades of nicotine caused a tunnel to my "feel-good-how-to-deal-with-life" portion of my brain. It takes a while for your brain to reroute and for you close down the tunnel you built.
5. My sleep is starting to get better but far from normal. Normal? You flooded your neuroendocrine system with nicotine daily, and you know what normal is? Ha. Take benadryl at night, drink calming tea, meditate, read the Good Book, journal, learn magic, exercise, .....link up with me when Black Ops II comes out. But don't worry about sleep, it just happens
6. The best way to quit is one day at a time. Didn't get that until I quit. Never, ever, ever forget this. Thoughts of forever just make an addict rationalize caving. You are not unique. You are an addict. Your heroine is nicotine. You can never have just one.
More to come in a few days..
Keep your intro topics together. Post here and in your month so that your quit brothers will benefit too.
Vadge 263
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Those were some damn funny responses to my observations especially the reference to anal beads. Thanks for the comic relief erdvm..
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Well I just hit day 20 of MY quit and thought I would share some more observations from my journey...
1. I actually sometimes go a couple of hours without thinking or craving a dip.
2. I actually smelled copenhagen from a co-worker the other day and I swear that is the nastiest smelling shit I have ever encountered. No wonder people hardly ever start out with Cope (fucking big tobacco)
3. Since quitting I have started to crave energy drinks..Monster, 5 hour, etc..
4. The bitch (I won't even refer to her by name) is relentless in trying to rationalize why I should just have one dip for doing so good on my quit.
5. I have put on 5 pounds since quitting
6. I will never, ever, put that shit in my lip for the rest of the day..
More to come
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document the highs and the lows of your quit so when the nic bitch comes calling or everything in your world falls apart, you will have your quit history to look back on and be able to say oh hell no , I'm going back!