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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Buddy Mac on November 14, 2011, 03:55:00 PM
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Quit for 82 days earlier this year and caved. I am on day 7 of this quit and I want it to be my last quit. My name is Buddy Macmillan , I am 35 years old and have dipped for the last 20 years.
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We quit 1 day at a time. We do it by "posing roll"
This is our mission statement. index.php?showtopic=125 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=125)
This is why we post roll. index.php?showtopic=120 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)
This is how we post roll. index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
This is where you would post roll. index.php?showtopic=5397 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5397)
LOL. I see you posted roll in the midst of this message. Great job. PM me if you need any help. Welcome to all the support you need to take control of your nicotine addiction.
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Hell Yeah Buddy. It's time to take your life back. Post roll every morning and repeat. Read, read, read..chew on sunflower seeds, candy, stir sticks, atomic fireballs..do whatever it takes to NOT dip or ingest nicotine. Whatever it takes...
One day at a time brother. We're here for you!
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Congrats!!! One week is huge. No nic in your system anymore, but the Nic Bitch still stalks you...as you know...and she's relentless. But you've got everyone behind you. We've got your back. One day at a time, post roll every morning then punch yourself in the nuts. Okay, you don't HAVE to punch yourself in the nuts everyday, but you have to post roll.
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Welcome aboard Buddy Mac! Proud to be quit with you today!
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Good to have you here, Buddy. Give a shout to anyone should you need any help or words of wisdom. There's plenty of motivation to go around here at KTC.
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Quit for 82 days earlier this year and caved. I am on day 7 of this quit and I want it to be my last quit. My name is Buddy Macmillan , I am 35 years old and have dipped for the last 20 years.
This will be your last quit. Read everything on this site mutiple times---lean on this support for your quit. Educate yourself about the rough patches. Have an anti cave plan. Seriously--write it down!
You got this--post your promise every morning and you win.
pm me if you need anything
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Good Morning July 2012,
My name is Buddy Mac and I recently made the Hall of Fame with the February 2012 group. I caved yesterday. Those words I never thought i would say but it happened. I don't know how or why but it did. I feel like shit because I didn't even want it. But one thing I know now is this site and always posting is what I have to do.. I stopped posting at around day 140 and the nic bitch got me. Gentlemen, I will be posting day 1 with your group and am asking that you guys accept me into your group as I start all over today with DAY 1. Please feel free to text me at xxx-xxx-xxxx. Hope you all will accept me.
Buddy Mac
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Come on in buddy. It could be any of us. From day 3 to day 3,000. Takes a man to admit it.
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How is this time going to be different from last time?
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So what's the plan mac? You going to use the tools here this time? You gonna reach out when shit hits the fan? Tell me. Tell me how the hell you will get through it this time. What have you learned.
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How is this time going to be different from last time?
Made it 150+ days this last time, and then don't know what happened. How will it be different than last time, right now I can't fully answer that question. I do know that I found out that I have to post every day, every day from 1 to 10,000. Not posting is not an option for me . I must be held accountable.
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So what's the plan mac? You going to use the tools here this time? You gonna reach out when shit hits the fan? Tell me. Tell me how the hell you will get through it this time. What have you learned.
The plan is to use this site and my brothers on here everyway i can. Right now I can't honestly tell you how I will get through it this time but I have learned that posting every day is huge for me.
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So what's the plan mac? You going to use the tools here this time? You gonna reach out when shit hits the fan? Tell me. Tell me how the hell you will get through it this time. What have you learned.
The plan is to use this site and my brothers on here everyway i can. Right now I can't honestly tell you how I will get through it this time but I have learned that posting every day is huge for me.
The only thing you should be focused on is today, tell people how you will get through today. Then use that plan everyday. The first step is earning some credibility back by posting roll today and honoring it. Repeat tomorrow.
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Sorry to hear about your cave. You would think 150+ days quit is a good base.
I know for myself I would really like to know the details of the cave. How it happened, why it happened. Was there a specific trigger ?
I think it would very helpful and educational for me, and other noobs, to arm ourselves with more useful information to help avoid the cave.
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Sorry to hear about your cave. You would think 150+ days quit is a good base.
I know for myself I would really like to know the details of the cave. How it happened, why it happened. Was there a specific trigger ?
I think it would very helpful and educational for me, and other noobs, to arm ourselves with more useful information to help avoid the cave.
I don't think there was a any one specific trigger. I think for me alot played into my cave. The weather getting nicer , coaching baseball, which is something I have either played or coached my whole life and always until this year involved snuff. I quit posting and for me that does not work.. No matter how many days it has been I need to post. That probably does not apply to everyone but it does to me. I need the accountability. 150+ days, I thought I was in the clear, I wasn't and now I am dealing with the guilt of letting my brothers and sisters on this site down and my family and myself. Rough day.. but no one to blame but my dumb ass. I hoped this helps a little. PM me if and i will give you cell phone number so we can text if you need it. I know i do.
Buddy Mac
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So what's the plan mac? You going to use the tools here this time? You gonna reach out when shit hits the fan? Tell me. Tell me how the hell you will get through it this time. What have you learned.
The plan is to use this site and my brothers on here everyway i can. Right now I can't honestly tell you how I will get through it this time but I have learned that posting every day is huge for me.
Posting everyday...posting everyday...posting everyday...posting everyday...POSTING EVERYGODDAMNDAY
Lets start w/ that one, maybe exchange more numbers and make yourself more reachable to your quit brothers. So, 'friend' them on facebook, exchange e-mails ect...
You can do this buddy, show us you're committed this time
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So what's the plan mac? You going to use the tools here this time? You gonna reach out when shit hits the fan? Tell me. Tell me how the hell you will get through it this time. What have you learned.
The plan is to use this site and my brothers on here everyway i can. Right now I can't honestly tell you how I will get through it this time but I have learned that posting every day is huge for me.
Posting everyday...posting everyday...posting everyday...posting everyday...POSTING EVERYGODDAMNDAY
Lets start w/ that one, maybe exchange more numbers and make yourself more reachable to your quit brothers. So, 'friend' them on facebook, exchange e-mails ect...
You can do this buddy, show us you're committed this time
I am not on facebook but please PM me and I will share cell phone with any and all.
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Sorry to hear about your cave. You would think 150+ days quit is a good base.
I know for myself I would really like to know the details of the cave. How it happened, why it happened. Was there a specific trigger ?
I think it would very helpful and educational for me, and other noobs, to arm ourselves with more useful information to help avoid the cave.
I don't think there was a any one specific trigger. I think for me alot played into my cave. The weather getting nicer , coaching baseball, which is something I have either played or coached my whole life and always until this year involved snuff. I quit posting and for me that does not work.. No matter how many days it has been I need to post. That probably does not apply to everyone but it does to me. I need the accountability. 150+ days, I thought I was in the clear, I wasn't and now I am dealing with the guilt of letting my brothers and sisters on this site down and my family and myself. Rough day.. but no one to blame but my dumb ass. I hoped this helps a little. PM me if and i will give you cell phone number so we can text if you need it. I know i do.
Buddy Mac
Understood. Baseball, coaching, start of good weather would be huge triggers....and first time you have faced all 3 together. Major hurdle.
Thank you for sharing.
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Sorry to hear about your cave. You would think 150+ days quit is a good base.
I know for myself I would really like to know the details of the cave. How it happened, why it happened. Was there a specific trigger ?
I think it would very helpful and educational for me, and other noobs, to arm ourselves with more useful information to help avoid the cave.
I don't think there was a any one specific trigger. I think for me alot played into my cave. The weather getting nicer , coaching baseball, which is something I have either played or coached my whole life and always until this year involved snuff. I quit posting and for me that does not work.. No matter how many days it has been I need to post. That probably does not apply to everyone but it does to me. I need the accountability. 150+ days, I thought I was in the clear, I wasn't and now I am dealing with the guilt of letting my brothers and sisters on this site down and my family and myself. Rough day.. but no one to blame but my dumb ass. I hoped this helps a little. PM me if and i will give you cell phone number so we can text if you need it. I know i do.
Buddy Mac
Understood. Baseball, coaching, start of good weather would be huge triggers....and first time you have faced all 3 together. Major hurdle.
Thank you for sharing.
It is like watching groundhog day. :angry:
index.php?showtopic=4689 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4689)
Addiction if for life. Freedom is self-imposed.
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
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The farther away from KTC, the less you post roll, plus a minimum of interaction, and the more vulnerable you'll be. It's that simple.
You have proven you can't do this on your own. Are you going to try it the KTC way now?
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The farther away from KTC, the less you post roll, plus a minimum of interaction, and the more vulnerable you'll be. It's that simple.
You have proven you can't do this on your own. Are you going to try it the KTC way now?
More of this......
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
Less of this....
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
Less of this....
less of what? the truth?
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
Less of this....
less of what? the truth?
baseball, nice weather? that's why you caved?
pfffffft!
'B.S.'
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To nobody....and everybody.....
Same old story....quit for xxx days, quit posting, thought I had it.......caved. Can't say how many times I've seen this happen.
Until you put your quit right next to shitting, showering, shaving, eating, sleeping, fucking, working out, going to the doctor, and etc., you're just screwing yourself. All of these things are about taking care of yourself. Isn't that the reason we are all here the first place?
You came here because you wanted to improve your quality of life wether you dipped long enough to give yourself cancer or not. The freedom you experience until that day will be worth every penny, cancer be damned. Bad thing is, you will never find out how great life can be if you cave.
You also came here because you have access to the interweb. I don't know anybody that doesn't log on to the web to check something daily. How much time out of your day would it take to post roll call? 2 minutes? You going to decide to quit brushing your teeth tomorrow? Take the time...do it.
Think you have this all figured out at 150? Good luck, you'll be the first. I figure it takes one full year to get your legs under this quit thing and really find out who you are without a can in your pocket. Think you got it yet? Nope, might take another full year to face all the seasonal triggers again and actually find out that you can live without dipping. Yeah, this sure sounds like along time, get over it. 20 years of stupid doesn't get fixed in a 150 days.
How much time are you willing to sacrifice to live a better life? If you can't spare a couple minutes to give your word, you may not be around long enough to find out.
I'm RT, I've been quit for 1535 days in a row, and I still post roll everyday.
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Lets get real here folks...
The take away here: I drifted, I caved
The facts: I did not take full advantage of what this site offers.
Come on now... if I drifted, with all the numbers I have, with all the cold calls I have made... do any of you think I would have been able to cave? Would you let me off this easy? NO FUCKING WAY.
Better yet, the KTC dictate is that you request permission to cave before you actually do.
Or Even Better Still: who the FUCK did this guy call during the craves? Not a GODDAMN ONE!!! A fucking good guess I would say.
But everyone wants to welcome him back... kiss his ass... coddle his balls...
Go to fucking LITE folks... we don't even have a good fucking story here, and everyone wants to kiss his ass and say everything will be okay.
"well... I kinda had a moment of weakness... I don't know what happened... I just shoved that shit in my lip... but got sick... thats a good thing"
Seriously???
Hey Buddy, I am not out to flame you... you fucked up... BIG TIME... but you are setting a horrible standard. You do realize that, right?
The requisite replies also set a horrendous standard as well... you all get this, right???
Enjoy your "welcome back ball coddling" brother... because you may have even contributed to a couple more caves with this milk-toast showing.
Fuck me.
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Come on in buddy. It could be any of us. From day 3 to day 3,000. Takes a man to admit it.
Bullshit.
It takes a man to stay quit.
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Lets get real here folks...
The take away here: I drifted, I caved
The facts: I did not take full advantage of what this site offers.
Come on now... if I drifted, with all the numbers I have, with all the cold calls I have made... do any of you think I would have been able to cave? Would you let me off this easy? NO FUCKING WAY.
Better yet, the KTC dictate is that you request permission to cave before you actually do.
Or Even Better Still: who the FUCK did this guy call during the craves? Not a GODDAMN ONE!!! A fucking good guess I would say.
But everyone wants to welcome him back... kiss his ass... coddle his balls...
Go to fucking LITE folks... we don't even have a good fucking story here, and everyone wants to kiss his ass and say everything will be okay.
"well... I kinda had a moment of weakness... I don't know what happened... I just shoved that shit in my lip... but got sick... thats a good thing"
Seriously???
Hey Buddy, I am not out to flame you... you fucked up... BIG TIME... but you are setting a horrible standard. You do realize that, right?
The requisite replies also set a horrendous standard as well... you all get this, right???
Enjoy your "welcome back ball coddling" brother... because you may have even contributed to a couple more caves with this milk-toast showing.
Fuck me.
+1
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Lets get real here folks...
The take away here: I drifted, I caved
The facts: I did not take full advantage of what this site offers.
Come on now... if I drifted, with all the numbers I have, with all the cold calls I have made... do any of you think I would have been able to cave? Would you let me off this easy? NO FUCKING WAY.
Better yet, the KTC dictate is that you request permission to cave before you actually do.
Or Even Better Still: who the FUCK did this guy call during the craves? Not a GODDAMN ONE!!! A fucking good guess I would say.
But everyone wants to welcome him back... kiss his ass... coddle his balls...
Go to fucking LITE folks... we don't even have a good fucking story here, and everyone wants to kiss his ass and say everything will be okay.
"well... I kinda had a moment of weakness... I don't know what happened... I just shoved that shit in my lip... but got sick... thats a good thing"
Seriously???
Hey Buddy, I am not out to flame you... you fucked up... BIG TIME... but you are setting a horrible standard. You do realize that, right?
The requisite replies also set a horrendous standard as well... you all get this, right???
Enjoy your "welcome back ball coddling" brother... because you may have even contributed to a couple more caves with this milk-toast showing.
Fuck me.
The Colonel spittin straight truth here folks.....
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
Less of this....
Wedgie, LOVE the fact you are 10 days in and have been active as hell - 50+ posts.
However, the cold hard truth is often what people need...and being kind and gentle isn't going to help them face the reality of quitting versus caving.
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
Less of this....
Wedgie, LOVE the fact you are 10 days in and have been active as hell - 50+ posts.
However, the cold hard truth is often what people need...and being kind and gentle isn't going to help them face the reality of quitting versus caving.
Loving a coach's advice...
I might be harsh... Brutal... But one thing is for sure...
Everyone's quit is of paramount importance to me.
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This was discussed to death and resolved (for the most part) in the July 12 quit group section.
Carry on.
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My Grandfather quit smoking cold turkey. Smoked for 30 years, woke up one morning and quit. Never smoked again. I admire him for that. If he was alive today I'm sure he would be happy I am attempting to do the same thing he did..quit for good the first time.
If he saw me cave, I would take every second of abuse he dished out berating me for caving. He can talk the talk because he walked the walk. He quit forever the first attempt, so he would have every right to expect the same of me....and he would be right.
The term ..Do as I say, not as I do"...would not apply to my Grandfather.
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
Less of this....
Shut da fug up, jackpipe.
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
Less of this....
Shut da fug up, jackpipe.
Less pussified fucking bullshit is what I would like...
More folks who believe in themselves. More folks with balls and backbone and KNOW they can make it 24 hours without stuffing fucking poison in their mouth.
Surround yourself with success and its harder to fail. Do your part to keep the quit pool clean.
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Lawl. Personal insults. Awesome. 'Popcorn'
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This section is full of all this beautiful fresh quit introduction and this guy takes a big shit in the middle of it?
'bang head'
Less of this....
Shut da fug up, jackpipe.
GHEYTOR!
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I just wanted to throw a couple things out this morning. As most know I reached HOF with the kickass FU group and then I quit posting roll and I caved. That was 28 days ago. I don't think when I was posting in FU I ever really totally invested myself in my quit, and for that I owe FU one more apology. Sorry guys. I say all this because the last 28 days have been a true eye-opening experience. My cave showed me how much I hate tobacco and the last 28 days just reinforced that. I have fully invested myself into my quit and the quit of my July brothers. Feels great to be quit....
On the other side of the coin though, I kinda feel like shit. I took my two daughters to breakfast the other morning and it was great, not one thought of snuff. That was awesome, but after I took them to school and was driving to work I started thinking about how many breakfasts with my girls have "the nic bitch" cost me. I used to be so worried about getting that morning "pinch" , that was all that mattered. Then I started thinking about how much time with my wife and girls "the bithch" had cost me. How many times did I go outside just to have a pinch of snuff. Or how many times did I run an errand just to have a dip in while i drove. How many times did I do all this stupid shit instead of pushing my daughters on a swing or taking a walk with my wife. I am such a piece of shit for letting the bitch run my life.
I sat down with my wife and girls and apologized for being an asshole. Luckily my girls are fairly young (10 and 5) so I can start making it up to them. However I can never get back the time that I took from them for snuff. I know we quit one day at a time here but never again will that shit enter my body. I hate the bitch. Sometimes I hate myself for letting her run my life for so long. I am glad i have a great wife and wonderful daughters that will look past the shit i did. I am sorry girls I love you very much and will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for lost time. I quit TODAY.
Buddy Mac
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I just wanted to throw a couple things out this morning. As most know I reached HOF with the kickass FU group and then I quit posting roll and I caved. That was 28 days ago. I don't think when I was posting in FU I ever really totally invested myself in my quit, and for that I owe FU one more apology. Sorry guys. I say all this because the last 28 days have been a true eye-opening experience. My cave showed me how much I hate tobacco and the last 28 days just reinforced that. I have fully invested myself into my quit and the quit of my July brothers. Feels great to be quit....
On the other side of the coin though, I kinda feel like shit. I took my two daughters to breakfast the other morning and it was great, not one thought of snuff. That was awesome, but after I took them to school and was driving to work I started thinking about how many breakfasts with my girls have "the nic bitch" cost me. I used to be so worried about getting that morning "pinch" , that was all that mattered. Then I started thinking about how much time with my wife and girls "the bithch" had cost me. How many times did I go outside just to have a pinch of snuff. Or how many times did I run an errand just to have a dip in while i drove. How many times did I do all this stupid shit instead of pushing my daughters on a swing or taking a walk with my wife. I am such a piece of shit for letting the bitch run my life.
I sat down with my wife and girls and apologized for being an asshole. Luckily my girls are fairly young (10 and 5) so I can start making it up to them. However I can never get back the time that I took from them for snuff. I know we quit one day at a time here but never again will that shit enter my body. I hate the bitch. Sometimes I hate myself for letting her run my life for so long. I am glad i have a great wife and wonderful daughters that will look past the shit i did. I am sorry girls I love you very much and will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for lost time. I quit TODAY.
Buddy Mac
Good powerful inspiring stuff brother!
I believe you have come to see what KTC is all about and when your drinking the kool-aid look around these guys are your support and your family is YOUR family!!!
I have found it is never to late and kids are not like us they dont judge you they just love you and will always enjoy whatever time you give them just make it count!
PM me if you need any numbers bro!
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I just wanted to throw a couple things out this morning. As most know I reached HOF with the kickass FU group and then I quit posting roll and I caved. That was 28 days ago. I don't think when I was posting in FU I ever really totally invested myself in my quit, and for that I owe FU one more apology. Sorry guys. I say all this because the last 28 days have been a true eye-opening experience. My cave showed me how much I hate tobacco and the last 28 days just reinforced that. I have fully invested myself into my quit and the quit of my July brothers. Feels great to be quit....
On the other side of the coin though, I kinda feel like shit. I took my two daughters to breakfast the other morning and it was great, not one thought of snuff. That was awesome, but after I took them to school and was driving to work I started thinking about how many breakfasts with my girls have "the nic bitch" cost me. I used to be so worried about getting that morning "pinch" , that was all that mattered. Then I started thinking about how much time with my wife and girls "the bithch" had cost me. How many times did I go outside just to have a pinch of snuff. Or how many times did I run an errand just to have a dip in while i drove. How many times did I do all this stupid shit instead of pushing my daughters on a swing or taking a walk with my wife. I am such a piece of shit for letting the bitch run my life.Â
I sat down with my wife and girls and apologized for being an asshole. Luckily my girls are fairly young (10 and 5) so I can start making it up to them. However I can never get back the time that I took from them for snuff. I know we quit one day at a time here but never again will that shit enter my body. I hate the bitch. Sometimes I hate myself for letting her run my life for so long. I am glad i have a great wife and wonderful daughters that will look past the shit i did. I am sorry girls I love you very much and will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for lost time. I quit TODAY.
Buddy Mac
Good powerful inspiring stuff brother!
I believe you have come to see what KTC is all about and when your drinking the kool-aid look around these guys are your support and your family is YOUR family!!!
I have found it is never to late and kids are not like us they dont judge you they just love you and will always enjoy whatever time you give them just make it count!
PM me if you need any numbers bro!
Buddy right after you posted, I had been here long enough to have been burnt a time or two. I decided to stand off alittle and observe your actions. It didn't take long to see you were totally invested. I'm proud to be quit with you.
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I just wanted to throw a couple things out this morning. As most know I reached HOF with the kickass FU group and then I quit posting roll and I caved. That was 28 days ago. I don't think when I was posting in FU I ever really totally invested myself in my quit, and for that I owe FU one more apology. Sorry guys. I say all this because the last 28 days have been a true eye-opening experience. My cave showed me how much I hate tobacco and the last 28 days just reinforced that. I have fully invested myself into my quit and the quit of my July brothers. Feels great to be quit....
On the other side of the coin though, I kinda feel like shit. I took my two daughters to breakfast the other morning and it was great, not one thought of snuff. That was awesome, but after I took them to school and was driving to work I started thinking about how many breakfasts with my girls have "the nic bitch" cost me. I used to be so worried about getting that morning "pinch" , that was all that mattered. Then I started thinking about how much time with my wife and girls "the bithch" had cost me. How many times did I go outside just to have a pinch of snuff. Or how many times did I run an errand just to have a dip in while i drove. How many times did I do all this stupid shit instead of pushing my daughters on a swing or taking a walk with my wife. I am such a piece of shit for letting the bitch run my life.
I sat down with my wife and girls and apologized for being an asshole. Luckily my girls are fairly young (10 and 5) so I can start making it up to them. However I can never get back the time that I took from them for snuff. I know we quit one day at a time here but never again will that shit enter my body. I hate the bitch. Sometimes I hate myself for letting her run my life for so long. I am glad i have a great wife and wonderful daughters that will look past the shit i did. I am sorry girls I love you very much and will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for lost time. I quit TODAY.
Buddy Mac
I hereby decree you a lifetime member of the Dumbass No More Club!
Quit on...
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I just wanted to throw a couple things out this morning. As most know I reached HOF with the kickass FU group and then I quit posting roll and I caved. That was 28 days ago. I don't think when I was posting in FU I ever really totally invested myself in my quit, and for that I owe FU one more apology. Sorry guys. I say all this because the last 28 days have been a true eye-opening experience. My cave showed me how much I hate tobacco and the last 28 days just reinforced that. I have fully invested myself into my quit and the quit of my July brothers. Feels great to be quit....
On the other side of the coin though, I kinda feel like shit. I took my two daughters to breakfast the other morning and it was great, not one thought of snuff. That was awesome, but after I took them to school and was driving to work I started thinking about how many breakfasts with my girls have "the nic bitch" cost me. I used to be so worried about getting that morning "pinch" , that was all that mattered. Then I started thinking about how much time with my wife and girls "the bithch" had cost me. How many times did I go outside just to have a pinch of snuff. Or how many times did I run an errand just to have a dip in while i drove. How many times did I do all this stupid shit instead of pushing my daughters on a swing or taking a walk with my wife. I am such a piece of shit for letting the bitch run my life.
I sat down with my wife and girls and apologized for being an asshole. Luckily my girls are fairly young (10 and 5) so I can start making it up to them. However I can never get back the time that I took from them for snuff. I know we quit one day at a time here but never again will that shit enter my body. I hate the bitch. Sometimes I hate myself for letting her run my life for so long. I am glad i have a great wife and wonderful daughters that will look past the shit i did. I am sorry girls I love you very much and will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for lost time. I quit TODAY.
Buddy Mac
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Keep quitting hard buddy, and help others get to the same place you have gotten. I'll quit with you today!
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That was powerful stuff. I feel the same way. Great job Buddy.
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Good shit, bro. Your comments hit home - I have a 1 and 4 yr old that I snuck away from. Also, I hear you on the "never again" comment. I guess I got a little caught up in semantics recently talking about "shutting the door" on dipping. I was reminded (correctly) that we take it one day at a time.
One day at a time is the hardest simple thing to remember. It is so easy to get ahead of yourself...like a toddler taking their first step and looking up as if to say "looky here...I'm doing it!!!" We all know what happens next.
I say "never again" all the time, but all I can really swear to is "not today." Maybe that is a better way of saying it?
Regardless...we're quit, right? Stay strong, bro.
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Buddy,
These are the kinds of stories that need to be pinned and highlighted so that everyone who visits this site and is contemplating quitting can read and understand what it means to be free from the slavery to the can. Getting your life back is tough to understand and see sometimes because it's hard to imagine what your life is like w/o a ring in your pocket and a plastic bottle in your hand.
Congrats on getting another piece of your life back bro. Glad to be quit with you.
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Buddy,
These are the kinds of stories that need to be pinned and highlighted so that everyone who visits this site and is contemplating quitting can read and understand what it means to be free from the slavery to the can. Getting your life back is tough to understand and see sometimes because it's hard to imagine what your life is like w/o a ring in your pocket and a plastic bottle in your hand.
Congrats on getting another piece of your life back bro. Glad to be quit with you.
Hey all,
Wanted to write a little bit this morning so here goes:
After reaching HOF in February and then caving i am on day 43 of MY QUIT.
That is exactly what it is this time, it is MY QUIT, not for my kiddos, not for my wife but for me. Sure my wife and kids are supportive and they are other reasons for me to quit but this is for me and I love it. I have not felt this good is so long. It is not just because I am 43 days quit, because i have gone longer, it is because I truly believe in it this time and that is wonderful. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I would not dip if you tried to pour it in my lip. It grosses me out. I am disgusted that I did that crap for so long. 'bang head' What a dumbass I was. We can sugarcoat it or call it what we want , but that is what we all are for ever doing it is DUMBASSES.. but we are no longer. We quit today. I quit with Wedge, MCarmo44, Kub, Chit all you guys. Your quit is my quit. Anything, anytime and anywhere I am here . I QUIT Today!!!!
Damn I feel good..
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Buddy,
These are the kinds of stories that need to be pinned and highlighted so that everyone who visits this site and is contemplating quitting can read and understand what it means to be free from the slavery to the can. Getting your life back is tough to understand and see sometimes because it's hard to imagine what your life is like w/o a ring in your pocket and a plastic bottle in your hand.
Congrats on getting another piece of your life back bro. Glad to be quit with you.
Hey all,
Wanted to write a little bit this morning so here goes:
After reaching HOF in February and then caving i am on day 43 of MY QUIT.
That is exactly what it is this time, it is MY QUIT, not for my kiddos, not for my wife but for me. Sure my wife and kids are supportive and they are other reasons for me to quit but this is for me and I love it. I have not felt this good is so long. It is not just because I am 43 days quit, because i have gone longer, it is because I truly believe in it this time and that is wonderful. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I would not dip if you tried to pour it in my lip. It grosses me out. I am disgusted that I did that crap for so long. 'bang head' What a dumbass I was. We can sugarcoat it or call it what we want , but that is what we all are for ever doing it is DUMBASSES.. but we are no longer. We quit today. I quit with Wedge, MCarmo44, Kub, Chit all you guys. Your quit is my quit. Anything, anytime and anywhere I am here . I QUIT Today!!!!
Damn I feel good..
Quit with you today bro!
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Buddy- it's a little early, but I want to say brother, I'm proud of your ass. You caved you came back determined and with a plan and you stuck to it, like a boss. Every morning, except once (I texted him and woke him up), I woke up to a text from this dude. I see you postin in younger groups, in the intros and it seems as if your quit as grown stronger everyday. I don't feel like I have to tell you, you are not out of the clear yet brother...and I still expect text from you each morning!
Well done, congrats on the HoF for the last time...keep up the good work