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Title: Hammer Down
Post by: K0d1ak_K1LLeR on April 12, 2017, 09:53:00 AM

25-year addict. This is day 1 of my quit. Ready to post roll.

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: Mike1966 on April 12, 2017, 09:59:00 AM

Awesome Kodiak Killer. Welcome to KTC. And congrats on the decision to take back your life.

You'll be posting roll with the July 17 group. That's when you'll hit 100 days quit. Here's a link to the group. topic/30190862/124/#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30190862/124/#new)

If there's anything I can do to help let me know . I'll be sending you a pm with my digits and roll posting instructions

Proud to Quit with you today!

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: Richard K on April 12, 2017, 10:05:00 AM

Quote from: Mike1966

Awesome Kodiak Killer. Welcome to KTC. And congrats on the decision to take back your life.

You'll be posting roll with the July 17 group. That's when you'll hit 100 days quit. Here's a link to the group. topic/30190862/124/#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30190862/124/#new)

If there's anything I can do to help let me know . I'll be sending you a pm with my digits and roll posting instructions

Proud to Quit with you today!

Welcome to the group. Make sure you do what mike said and post roll in july 17. Post roll every morning and early to promise not to use nic for the next 24 hours. Then wake up and do it again. Welcome to the group..

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: gentgeen on April 12, 2017, 07:17:00 PM

Glad you decided to post up... You have to start that quit somewhere!!!

I see you made it over to roll already. Take some time, read about others quit, and trade some digits. You got this
'oh yeah'

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: K0d1ak_K1LLeR on April 13, 2017, 07:50:00 PM

Thanks for the support July '17ers! Craven, Rudd and Wallace, F$k all y'all. Proud to be quit today. K0d1ak_K1LLeR, Day 2.

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: hatleyn1988 on April 13, 2017, 10:07:00 PM

Quote from: K0d1ak_K1LLeR

Thanks for the support July '17ers! Craven, Rudd and Wallace, F$k all y'all. Proud to be quit today. K0d1ak_K1LLeR, Day 2.

We are in the same group I'm at day 7 so I have just experienced what you are in at the moment. Stay active buy you a bike and ride. I choose to do this cause I never dipped while riding and it is a great stress reliever. Stay in there congrats on day 2

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: Mike1966 on April 13, 2017, 10:22:00 PM

Quote from: hatleyn1988

Quote from: K0d1ak_K1LLeR

Thanks for the support July '17ers! Craven, Rudd and Wallace, F$k all y'all. Proud to be quit today. K0d1ak_K1LLeR, Day 2.

We are in the same group I'm at day 7 so I have just experienced what you are in at the moment. Stay active buy you a bike and ride. I choose to do this cause I never dipped while riding and it is a great stress reliever. Stay in there congrats on day 2

Great advice Hatleyn!
Forgive me for reposting one of my previous posts if you've already read it, but I'm too tired to be original right now :) I'm a big believer in aerobic exercise being helpful at taking the edge off withdrawal and a great way to fill the void left behind by nicotine addiction.

Aerobic exercise is great way to take the edge off of withdrawal. IÂ’ve been alternating between running and bike riding in the last 6 months. In the coming days and months youÂ’ll start replacing the void left with nicotine with something. I, like a lot of people, in the beginning of my Quit, replaced it with junk food and gained 15 pounds. Better than to be hooked on nicotine but stillÂ… some of my quit brothers from July 16 hit the gym instead and lost weight.

There's a lot of info on the web on the effect of aerobic exercise on withdrawal.

Exercise Away the Urge to Smoke (http://www.everydayhealth.com/smoking-cessation/living/exercise-can-help-you-quit-smoking.aspx)

Also, google "the effects of aerobic exercise on the brain" Once you start getting old and forgetful like me, those articles will start to sound pretty interesting.

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: K0d1ak_K1LLeR on April 14, 2017, 09:40:00 AM

Thanks, Hatelyn for the support! Staying strong today. Getting my bike out today. Never dipped while riding either. Yesterday, I started hucking a bouncy ball at the wall as hard as I could. That helps, too. Mike1996, rock on with the exercise. Thought about buying a boat-load of candy earlier, your post changed my mind. Thanks, dude.

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: Richard K on April 14, 2017, 10:09:00 PM

Quote from: K0d1ak_K1LLeR

Thanks for the support July '17ers! Craven, Rudd and Wallace, F$k all y'all. Proud to be quit today. K0d1ak_K1LLeR, Day 2.

Bobbie and Davie brother!! Harry gant as well!! Like to see some old school!! Welcome to the group brother. I sent a pm with my number!!

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: Rawls on April 15, 2017, 09:30:00 AM

Quote from: K0d1ak_K1LLeR

Thanks, Hatelyn for the support! Staying strong today. Getting my bike out today. Never dipped while riding either. Yesterday, I started hucking a bouncy ball at the wall as hard as I could. That helps, too. Mike1996, rock on with the exercise. Thought about buying a boat-load of candy earlier, your post changed my mind. Thanks, dude.

Quit smells strong in here....
Avoid the past and future.
Stay focused on today.
It sucks untill it doesnt........
I quit with you today K1LLeR.
Rawls 880

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: K0d1ak_K1LLeR on April 15, 2017, 11:28:00 AM

Quote from: Richard

Richard! Thanks man for the digits. And hey, did those boys drive the Kodiak car, too, back on the day?

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: Richard K on April 15, 2017, 05:17:00 PM

No, but I liked them. Gant raced in the Skoal car, especially when the shifter went through is knee!
Any time on the number brother!!! Keep up the great quit!!!!

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: K0d1ak_K1LLeR on May 08, 2017, 06:09:00 AM

Quote from: K0d1ak_K1LLeR

25-year addict. This is day 1 of my quit. Ready to post roll.

My day 1 introduction was short. Here's why: This is the first time I've admitted to being an addict, to anyone. Ever.

I dipped Kodiak Wintergreen long-cut, on and off for 25 years, and almost every day for the last 10. Started when I was in high school (sports, road trips, partying in the woods). Used to think it was fun back when I was younger. Felt like I was killing it whenever I was dipping. Thought it helped me focus. Didn't give a fuck and that felt awesome then.

Now I'm 41. Been married for 10 years but with my partner for 20 years. At some point, I started to believe that by dipping I had a sense of freedom that would help me avoid a full-blown midlife crisis and stay married. I've always lied about dipping to my wife, and either hid or denied it to most anyone else. But I'm a dumb ass, a bad liar and a forgetful SOB. So I've never been able to hide it. Lying about dipping gave me license to lie about everything and usually for no good reason. While trying to pull out of a cycle of wrecking my marriage with ridiculous lies, I realized that I learned to lie about dipping and now I do it everywhere.

Like a lot of you, I've thrown a dozen plus tins out my window as hard as a could and said, "that's the last one." Never really committed. Before my quit, I cruised through KTC before. But, I admitted to myself that I'm addicted to chewing tobacco and that I have to quit for myself. I came here 28 days ago, read so many stories that echoed mine and realized I can be honest with you all one day at a time. And I don't want to dip anymore.

Title: Re: Hammer Down
Post by: K0d1ak_K1LLeR on July 11, 2017, 06:22:00 AM

I am going to ramble here, because I can't freakin' sleep and I regret YELLING my ass off on July roll about my views on casual or inconsistent roll posting. I use roll everyday to get fired up, and like the energy it brings to my quit and each day. I am not a particularly angry individual though. Now on to Donkey's HOF prep question if the day.

Was just thinking about the final straw, or that thing that made the most difference in getting me to KTC and committing to quit ODAAT. I actually had in my mind that today, July 11, would be my 100 day mark. I didn't count. Today is exactly 3 months from my quit date and I'm fucking proud of that. It's also the day I started the job I've been in for 13 years and believe, at times, that I love, and at others, that crushes my soul (not an important detail).

The thing is, I started this quit for real because I am an addict. I always said I can quit and sometimes I have for really long periods of time. But each previous cave, I was right back in it. Still, I'd tell myself,"I don't dip that much and I can stop." But I don't.

I am the kind of person that seeks out addictive behaviors. I have 2 sons diagnosed with ADHD. And in helping them deal with their behaviors and tendencies, I realized and accepted that I have ADHD, too. Restlessness, impulsive decision-making and ADDiCTION are common ADHD tendencies. I love to play sports and games and know they are healthy ways to take small risks. Being an adddict though, not a small risk. And not one that I can contain, or one that I want to hide.

'bubblehead' 'hoftrain' 'bubblehead'

'usflag' July '17 Patriots 'o' Quit 'usflag'

Tuesday, July 11th, 2017

• HOF Train Conductors[/url]1) October 2008-bubblehed668-The Conductor
  2) October 2009-January 2012-Flashman
  3) January 2012-Samcat
  3) February 2012-Brotherofnomosko
  4) March 2012-Mcarmo44
  5) April 2012-TSmith17
  6) May 2012-Coach Steve
  7) June 2012-Zam
  8) July 2012-Zam
  9) August 2012-Wedge
  10) September 2012-Woosel
  11) October 2012-Swede and Morgan1
  12) November 2012-SirDerek and Mich34
  13) December 2012-ericfrompitt and tsnus
  14) January 2013-lcwb96 and Boelker62
  15) February 2013-Evil_Won and OneImpressiveBall
  16) March 2013-wmcatty and cdaniels
  17) April 2013-Mike_Land, Halldogau, and Tazbutane
  18) May 2013-iizphilister and Spaat and Quit
  22) September 2013-Eurssell and Jake Frawley
  23) October 2013-DUATHMAN AND DOUGIE
  24) November 2013-Pinched and jlud007
  25) December 2013-dabean22 and midwest04z
  26) January 2014-Ron_Cross and JayDubya and Doc2quit4good
  27) February 2014-Punkin, GrizzFall and MN_Ben
  28) March 2014-Dave1903, Mogul,  Grizzlyhasclaws
  29) April 2014-GOLFPRO9696, STARR_78
  30) May 2014-ExNuke, ZillahCowboy, Sam83, KCM,  JoseyWales
  31) June 2014-Lipi, Doc, Paul, Krusty, and Sapper
  32) July 2014-MCO and THansen
  33) August 2014-Braves360, Smeds, Thumblewort, vbe931, Thewolfe and Zquitter
  34) September 2014-Basshaug, natemcpherson, truetomyself, Stig, AR-Fishteen, the TJB, Done4Me, Medicff and Bombero. Chugachugachugachuga
  35) October 2014-Medic, Landdon, CavMan, big_dipper, bigton16335, KDLforever, oconnordan, JoeC, dipdaps, Jubella, and paul1231
  36) November 2014- Candoit, Southpaw32, Bam0821, Lours, Swetty, Danojeno, AClowroller, Jeeptruck, Lim25
  37) December 2014-SoDaCattle, Bazooka Joe, Tuco Grill, Crazy Volts, Castlehusky
  38) January 2015-Sir Nope, Sajax, Mitchy, pr0f, Dumpo, Jal0315, SoxFan, Jwright
  39) February 2015-Txtaco1, Okie Hunter, Natro, Cpoz421, ink cog kneedough, Jake_M
  40) March 2015 Candoit
  41) April 2015 Mcarmo
  42) May 2015 Candoit
  43) June 2015 Pre and GrievousAngel
  44) July 2015 Kramer and Tom92673
  45) August 2015 Danojeno and Randall
  46) September 2015 Devil6Dog and ChickDip
  47) October 2015 Bucky and Candoit
  48) November 2015 BrianL and Dweirick
  49) December 2015 oakTree and KingNothing
  50) January 2016 Houpilot2001 and stieramus
  51) February 2016 Stranger999 and DjPorkchop
  52) March 2016 FWLPLAY and 77Midget
  53) April 2016 Nate2 and Remickulous
  54) May 2016 Wepdoc and Gone Cruising
  55) June 2016 Walterwhite and ReWire
  56) July 2016 Njohns23 and texasyeti
  57) August 2016 wildirish317 and Sacksyboy
  58) September 2016 Richard K and mike1966
  59) October 2016 FishFlorida and Pky1520
  60) November 2016 PMILS and Sooverit
  61) December 2016 Brown71 and Edward
  62) January 2017 Mike0351 and BillW21
  63) February 2017 Prohunter and mrlentz
  64) March 2017 Tiswritten and Harvestgirl
  65) April 2017 Bokie and Law1358
  66) May 2017 Clemte and ViceDawg
  67) June 2017 Batdad and Brian G
  68) July 2017 DonkeyMN and JustinJ

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   We have no stops scheduled for today so I would like to ask all of you a question....What was the straw that broke the camel's back for you? What was it that finally made you say " ok I have to quit and now is the time"? I hope to get alot of good answers from all of you about this....I will start. It was that moment when my twelve year old son came home with a can of jerky chew and said "now I can be like u dad". That was a very low point for me....What have I done? Showed my son how to slowly kill himself? I hope he is smarter than I! Look forward to hearing your answers!
  
  Well Justin, mine is well documented in my Intro and HOF speech, but my Mom passing too soon from cancer was the straw for me. I love hearing answers from this kind of question, so come on July!  
  
  Remember this Patriots, Be vigilant in your quit. 100 days is a milestone, and not a destination. Keep the focus!
  

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  MISSING OR LATE JULY PATRIOTS!!!!
  
  
  
  July '17 Patriots:
  Richard K 471 with those of the Patriots that actually give a shit!!!!
  
  Support from other Bad Ass Quitters:
  Ariana 135 - The last straw for me would be witnessing my nana passing away from cancer.. HUGE eye opener!!
  B--rad 115 with the posting patriots!!!
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