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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: whoireallyam on October 23, 2011, 10:39:00 PM
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Well, I am glad I found KTC today. I know I will need the support, since my many attempts at quitting before have failed.
My last dip was earlier this afternoon. I threw out 3 cans of my stash and am motivated that this is it. I have been dipping for 18 years and dip almost a can a day. I dipped Red Seal for the past 8 years and about 7 with copenhagen. I would like to share my experience over the many posts I plan on making in the future to help me through this, so I won't make this too long, but wanted to introduce myself.
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Welcome and you have come to the right place if you REALLY want to quit. Keep in mind that we don't "attempt" to quit...we QUIT, period.
Like you, I dipped for many years and had more attempts to quit than I could could count...UNTIL I found KTC. Tomorrow will be my 89th day of freedom. You, too, can have that same success. Success that MANY celebrate every day right here at KTC.
Click the "Welcome Center" link at the top left and learn how to post roll. That is the key. You post roll every morning and make a promise not to use nicotine that day...just that day. Then you wake up the next morning and repeat. Trust me, it works. So drink the koolaid and get busy changing your life RIGHT NOW. Get in there and learn to post roll NOW.
Should if you need anything.
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Well my Rangers won and now it looks like I will get to bed earlier than usual rather than stay up to have another dip while my family sleeps. Like a lot of the stories I have read, I wasted so much to have another dip. I am ready to wake up tomorrow, post and committ to quit for the day.
I have made it before for a few days or so, but always lacked the strength to stay quit. I could always let myself down. Now is different.
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Well my Rangers won and now it looks like I will get to bed earlier than usual rather than stay up to have another dip while my family sleeps. Like a lot of the stories I have read, I wasted so much to have another dip. I am ready to wake up tomorrow, post and committ to quit for the day.
I have made it before for a few days or so, but always lacked the strength to stay quit. I could always let myself down. Now is different.
Use the chat room... I was in there constant for 2 days when I quit now 8 days ago. The folks here are awesome and will help hold you to the fire.
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Welcome!
I have just recently made it through my first week of quit. On day 10 now. I wouldn't wish the aggravation of the first week on anyone, but I will to you. Only so that you know how fortunate you are for having come to KTC and making the first step towards quitting. I can't tell you how resourceful and supportive this community is. From the Veterans and H.O.F-ers to new quitters like ourselves, there is a shared sense of quit.
Be sure to check out the welcome page and post roll to your respective quit group.
Damn proud to quit with you!
PM me with any questions.
Best,
JMAC
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Good decision! The posting of role call is that backbone of this program! Get on there and post your promise for today then repeat tomorrow!
Keep it up and proud to be quit with you today.
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I see you posted roll today, Who. Way to go. That is your pleadge to stay nic free today. You need to post roll like that every day from now on. YOU are doing it. YOU are taking charge of your life one day at a time.
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You are all right. This sucks so far. Day 1 is half way over but I can see the end of today. I will make it to sleep. I didn't even sleep well last night knowing how hard this would be. The thoughts are almost constant. "shut the door to your office and put in a dip". "go run that errand so you can dip". "leave a little early to have one". But I am quit. This forum has had a big impact already. I want to be true from now on. this is my last chance.
I do find my mind racing and feel I can't relax. I plan on keeping busy. Afternoons will not be easy. I thank you and welcome all the support.
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You are all right. This sucks so far. Day 1 is half way over but I can see the end of today. I will make it to sleep. I didn't even sleep well last night knowing how hard this would be. The thoughts are almost constant. "shut the door to your office and put in a dip". "go run that errand so you can dip". "leave a little early to have one". But I am quit. This forum has had a big impact already. I want to be true from now on. this is my last chance.
I do find my mind racing and feel I can't relax. I plan on keeping busy. Afternoons will not be easy. I thank you and welcome all the support.
Know and believe that you are bad ass for even getting thru this long without a pinch. Yes, it will suck and you will have an inner battle for days, but it will get easier. I wish I could've recorded the constant arguments going on in my dome for the first few days.
Do whatever u need to get thru today. .that's it.
congratulations on being quit!
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You are all right. This sucks so far. Day 1 is half way over but I can see the end of today. I will make it to sleep. I didn't even sleep well last night knowing how hard this would be. The thoughts are almost constant. "shut the door to your office and put in a dip". "go run that errand so you can dip". "leave a little early to have one". But I am quit. This forum has had a big impact already. I want to be true from now on. this is my last chance.
I do find my mind racing and feel I can't relax. I plan on keeping busy. Afternoons will not be easy. I thank you and welcome all the support.
Know and believe that you are bad ass for even getting thru this long without a pinch. Yes, it will suck and you will have an inner battle for days, but it will get easier. I wish I could've recorded the constant arguments going on in my dome for the first few days.
Do whatever u need to get thru today. .that's it.
congratulations on being quit!
Great job taking the plunge. Trust me, it is well worth the suck. Read, read, read. We create freedom one day at a time.
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I am almost over today now. This afternoon was tough with a massive headache and feeling weak, but I am feeling much better now. Thank you for the support and pushing me in the right direction. I feel really good about today. I feel clean!
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I am almost over today now. This afternoon was tough with a massive headache and feeling weak, but I am feeling much better now. Thank you for the support and pushing me in the right direction. I feel really good about today. I feel clean!
All that pain and weakness if your body letting go of the nasty shit you were stuffing in it. Consciously stuffing poison in your pie hole probably didn't make your body happy. But hey...here's the bonus. You quit only once. You will never feel that misery again. You will be a different man. I applaud that.
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Today is harder, but I feel strong. I am ready for this to be better. I had a headache and some stomach cramps this morning and was a little bitch to my wife all morning, but am quit. I will make it today.
For some of you vets, I understand it gets better (less awful), but can you help out with how it gets "great". My Nic fitted mind can only see the negative today and could use some inspiration.
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Today is harder, but I feel strong. I am ready for this to be better. I had a headache and some stomach cramps this morning and was a little bitch to my wife all morning, but am quit. I will make it today.
For some of you vets, I understand it gets better (less awful), but can you help out with how it gets "great". My Nic fitted mind can only see the negative today and could use some inspiration.
I'm no "vet" but 90 days in can reflect with you on how my life is now "great". I can only assume that the "greatness" will continue and get even "greater"!
Let's see, how about living and breathing knowing that every activity you engage in does not have an asterisk next to it. Meaning, you can take a road trip, now clean and without the poison; you can watch a movie, now clean and without the poison; you can spend time with your wife and kids, now without thinking how you can sneak away for a dip; you can drink beer with your buds, now clean without the poison; etc., etc., etc. Shall I continue? The list is endless.
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Today is harder, but I feel strong. I am ready for this to be better. I had a headache and some stomach cramps this morning and was a little bitch to my wife all morning, but am quit. I will make it today.
For some of you vets, I understand it gets better (less awful), but can you help out with how it gets "great". My Nic fitted mind can only see the negative today and could use some inspiration.
1. Realize that you are no longer contributing to your chances of getting cancer
2. You can kiss your wife/kids/lover without drooling spit on them
3. You haven't wasted any money on nic and supported some fatcat tobacco man
4. You don't have to wash your mouth out before the meeting
5. You didn't spill a spitter
6. You are in control of your life
Do I really need to go on? Shit gets tough man, hang in there. Feeling low, come into the chat room, lok for a guy named ODAAT, he gives free hummers.
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I do see the positives so thanks for the thoughts. My life is already better for all the reasons you all listed. And now I made it another day. I Guess I am experiencing the insomnia tonight. Today wasn't as bad as the previous as far as withdrawal but the cravings were major. After my big Texas BBQ lunch would have been the ultimate dip. At least that is what the Nic bitch would have me believe. I was fine without it. I am extremely proud of myself and thankful for this site as an outlet for me. I feel more confident tonight that I can do this.
I never would admit before that I was an addict and tried the game with myself that I could quit anytime. I would just dip in the car, or no dip in the car or no dip at home or work or whatever. But the next day I would dip all day, everywhere I could. I know now that I will never put that in my mouth ever again. This is final. I am ready for any situation.
I am rambling on here but I guess that is the point. I will try to get back to sleep and look forward to posting roll in the morning.
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I do see the positives so thanks for the thoughts. My life is already better for all the reasons you all listed. And now I made it another day. I Guess I am experiencing the insomnia tonight. Today wasn't as bad as the previous as far as withdrawal but the cravings were major. After my big Texas BBQ lunch would have been the ultimate dip. At least that is what the Nic bitch would have me believe. I was fine without it. I am extremely proud of myself and thankful for this site as an outlet for me. I feel more confident tonight that I can do this.
I never would admit before that I was an addict and tried the game with myself that I could quit anytime. I would just dip in the car, or no dip in the car or no dip at home or work or whatever. But the next day I would dip all day, everywhere I could. I know now that I will never put that in my mouth ever again. This is final. I am ready for any situation.
I am rambling on here but I guess that is the point. I will try to get back to sleep and look forward to posting roll in the morning.
Admitting you are an addict is a big step forward. I know it is hard, but it will the foundation to your quit. Now, 1 day at a time.
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I do see the positives so thanks for the thoughts. My life is already better for all the reasons you all listed. And now I made it another day. I Guess I am experiencing the insomnia tonight. Today wasn't as bad as the previous as far as withdrawal but the cravings were major. After my big Texas BBQ lunch would have been the ultimate dip. At least that is what the Nic bitch would have me believe. I was fine without it. I am extremely proud of myself and thankful for this site as an outlet for me. I feel more confident tonight that I can do this.
I never would admit before that I was an addict and tried the game with myself that I could quit anytime. I would just dip in the car, or no dip in the car or no dip at home or work or whatever. But the next day I would dip all day, everywhere I could. I know now that I will never put that in my mouth ever again. This is final. I am ready for any situation.
I am rambling on here but I guess that is the point. I will try to get back to sleep and look forward to posting roll in the morning.
whoyoureallyare,
I am proud to be quit with you.
I am proud of you for the 4 days you have put in because I understand exactly what you are going through because I have put in the same 4 days.
I hope that insomnia goes away soon, and give me a holler if you ever need anything.
dippshit
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Today is my day 6. It has been a great one. I have had my typical craves but have put that energy into more positive things. I am very glad that my wife isn't working over the weekend, b/c those are usually my weakest days. I have gotten a lot done around the house. I have a lot more time on my hands rather than ninja dipping on an errand or in the bathroom and have a lot of pinned up energy from the stress of not dipping. The Nic bitch is still very much there, whispering in my ear every time an opportunity would arise for her to slip in. So today went well, which means that tomorrow could be always be hell. I won't let up. Thanks to all my quitting brothers who have helped me with their stories and support. 1 week tomorrow!
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Today is quit day 9. I have been getting terrible headaches the past few days. Today my entire mouth and teeth are throbbing and itching. The cravings are getting fewer but more intense. At times I feel very strong and almost forget for a brief moment about dip. This feeling scares me the most, b/c it makes me believe that I am "past' this or have conquered it already, when I know I never will be cured or past this. I will alway be addicted to nicotine and have to be careful not to let my guard down.
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Today is quit day 9. I have been getting terrible headaches the past few days. Today my entire mouth and teeth are throbbing and itching. The cravings are getting fewer but more intense. At times I feel very strong and almost forget for a brief moment about dip. This feeling scares me the most, b/c it makes me believe that I am "past' this or have conquered it already, when I know I never will be cured or past this. I will alway be addicted to nicotine and have to be careful not to let my guard down.
Days 4 through 20 - Here comes the mind games. The nicotine is out of your system now. You will still have some physical things to deal with.
Cravings
Irritability,
Insomnia
Fatigue
Inability to Concentrate
Headache
Sore throat
Constipation, gas, stomach pain
Dry mouth
Sore tongue and/or gums
Yep, you have this to look forward to. Your brain is rewiring itself. It isn't used to being in an oxygen rich environment. Your body is responding in kind. Everything is a mind game now. All the cravings you have are actually due to triggers. Triggers are events where you are in a situtation you would normally dip in. Mowing the grass, playing poker online, playing golf, working on the car.........you get the picture. Keep drinking water, use seeds, the fake stuff, whatever you need to keep the dip out of your mouth. Remember, oral fixation is part of our habit, something you will eventually need to break. For now though, use all the tools you have.
Yes, you are an addict. Never forget that. 1 day at a time. You can count on me for support.
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Thought I would get some thoughts out now that I have passed the halfway point to the HOF. I am determined and excited to reach the 100 day mark. What a difference to get out of the first few weeks. It was definitely a dazed time that I am very happy is over. I will try to keep those feelings close to remind me never to go through this again. I do feel physically normal, with much fewer cravings. I have gained so much since quiting (including weight) but more importantly, I have more time, more energy, more money and more confidence. What a waste it was for me to dip all those years. Keep fighting through the tough part if you are new...it gets easier!