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Title: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: Sscaringe on October 24, 2012, 05:55:00 PM
I'm freaking out. All I can think about is putting a dip in. I want it so bad. Today I searched for help on google and found this website. I signed up and now I'm here. My head is spinning and I have the shakes. I dont want to talk to anyone in my life right now because everything pisses me off. I have tried 2 previous times without prevail. I'm happy I found this website but I don't really know how to get started. Just hoping to get some support.
Thanks,
Stephen
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: kcah on October 24, 2012, 06:02:00 PM
Look up in the right hand of the page and it says live chat, click on that and hop in there should be some quitters there. Im at work right now but can hop in there or text with you when I get home.

You made the right choice coming here and do what you need to do to not put that shit in your mouth.


KC
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: BoomerSooner on October 24, 2012, 06:16:00 PM
You came to the right place. There are tons of resources here for you to tap into. First things first, post roll everyday. It is your promise to your quit class and every other BAMF that you will not use today.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: Sscaringe on October 24, 2012, 06:17:00 PM
I'm doing all this on my phone right now but I sure as hell am gunna hop on here as soon as I get to my computer. Do I just go to JAN 2013 and post a reply to post roll?

Stephen
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: luby on October 24, 2012, 06:34:00 PM
Quote from: Sscaringe
I'm doing all this on my phone right now but I sure as hell am gunna hop on here as soon as I get to my computer. Do I just go to JAN 2013 and post a reply to post roll?

Stephen
When you get on your computer go to "welcome center" upper left of the site it'll walk you through what you need to know. If not just post a promise to us any way you can in January and stick to your word.
I will quit with you today.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: Sportsfan231 on October 24, 2012, 09:17:00 PM
need to check your inbox for contacts
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: Sscaringe on October 25, 2012, 08:15:00 PM
Day 3 is almost done. I have to say it has been a rough one! Break time at work literally everybody was usin some form of that bitch nic. The cravings have been unbearable. But I said FUCK THAT!!! An that's why I'm posting on here. I knew my brothers would be proud of me because even though it's only 3 days.. It's the longest I've gone in 6 years. Stay strong fellow quitters and we'll do this together!

'Finger' NIC
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: DanNoCan on October 25, 2012, 08:25:00 PM
Good Job bud....hang in there through the first week; it can be really tough! Post everyday to make your pledge not to use. It is fuckin' hard but it is worth it. Be selfish and quit for you, and your family  friends will appreciate it.

I'm only on Day 44; but I see dipper's and smokers now differently. I reminds you how clueless/stupid we all were. SURE it did satisfy our need, but we looked so damn stupid doing it...
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: p23 on October 25, 2012, 08:32:00 PM
Quote from: Sscaringe
Day 3 is almost done. I have to say it has been a rough one! Break time at work literally everybody was usin some form of that bitch nic. The cravings have been unbearable. But I said FUCK THAT!!! An that's why I'm posting on here. I knew my brothers would be proud of me because even though it's only 3 days.. It's the longest I've gone in 6 years. Stay strong fellow quitters and we'll do this together!

'Finger' NIC
In due time your break room trips will turn from craves into disgust. Stick with your guns. Own your quit.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: sporticus on October 25, 2012, 08:52:00 PM
I'm with you. Prior to July, I once made it 7 days. I sucked at quitting. These SOBs got me through that and I'm over 100 right now. Live it. Own it. Ask for help. You can do it. If my retarded ass made it, you can too bro. PM me if you need anything.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: jhaenel23 on October 26, 2012, 12:41:00 AM
Quote from: Sscaringe
Day 3 is almost done. I have to say it has been a rough one! Break time at work literally everybody was usin some form of that bitch nic. The cravings have been unbearable. But I said FUCK THAT!!! An that's why I'm posting on here. I knew my brothers would be proud of me because even though it's only 3 days.. It's the longest I've gone in 6 years. Stay strong fellow quitters and we'll do this together!

'Finger' NIC
You are the Fucking man!!!! Jackwagon's!!!! Proud of you brother!! Stay in the Quit.....Fuck the NIC!!!


I quit with you everyday!!!!



Justin
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: TSNUS on October 26, 2012, 08:02:00 AM
Quote from: Sscaringe
Day 3 is almost done. I have to say it has been a rough one! Break time at work literally everybody was usin some form of that bitch nic. The cravings have been unbearable. But I said FUCK THAT!!! An that's why I'm posting on here. I knew my brothers would be proud of me because even though it's only 3 days.. It's the longest I've gone in 6 years. Stay strong fellow quitters and we'll do this together!

'Finger' NIC
Keep owning that bitch and never let down your guard. You don't ever want to go through that again. Remember it well and let it motivate you.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: T-Cell on October 26, 2012, 11:51:00 PM
Quote from: DanNoCan
SURE it did satisfy our need, but we looked so damn stupid doing it...
Dan, good job of supporting, but I gotta bust your chops on this statement. Tobacco only solves the 1 thing it creates, which is withdrawl symptoms. Your brain and body was addicted to nicotine, so it began to go into withdrawl until you fed the addiction again, which relieved the symptoms. That is the only think nicotine ever did for you. It didn't contribute anything else positive to your life, it was only your addicted brain associating it with good things...
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: Sscaringe on October 27, 2012, 08:33:00 AM
Every time I get a craving I look at this shit. Thanks for the support bros its the only thing keepin me goin. I'm on day 5 and feeling pretty good about it.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: T-Cell on October 27, 2012, 11:33:00 AM
Quote from: Sscaringe
Every time I get a craving I look at this shit. Thanks for the support bros its the only thing keepin me goin. I'm on day 5 and feeling pretty good about it.
Good job! Stay close to the site, read, jump into chat, txt/call a brother. Do whatever it takes to stay quit today. You've got this! One day at a time...
It will get better and easier...
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: Sscaringe on November 02, 2012, 09:53:00 AM
on the night of October 31, 9 days into my quit i got into an altercation that resulted not in my favor. Afterwords, i caved. I let myself, my family, and everyone on here down.I still want to quit, but in that drunken stupor i let the nic bitch take control once again. My trigger was the fight, not to mention the booze. Next time i need to not be such a bitch because now that i look at it, thats all i am for walking to that gas station and buying that can of shit. A real man would have said fuck that shit. Im going to plan my next quit carefully before i try again, stay away from alchohol and situations like that. I cant believe i let this happen. im so sorry, to myself and to all of you.
-stephen
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: G on November 02, 2012, 10:19:00 AM
A real man doesn't try.

A real man quits today. Have you posted a day 1?
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: wastepanel on November 02, 2012, 10:29:00 AM
Quote from: Sscaringe
My trigger was the fight, not to mention the booze.
The trigger was the fight.

The decision was yours.

There's only one thing in this world that you can control: your actions. You chose to use.

The funny thing is that you managed to get drunk, get into a fight, and then had the ability to find your way to a gas station and buy some chew. Yet, you did not take the time to contact somebody here for help (which would have required so less effort). It wasn't the moment that you took the chew that you caved. It was the decisions beforehand.

I suggest you:

(1) Post roll
(2) Keep your word-Get some numbers. Use them in times of good and bad. Don't let your guard down. In times of good, we practice for the bad. In times of bad, we lean on our tools we learned here.

We'll give you further instructions tomorrow.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: magnum9 on November 02, 2012, 10:31:00 AM
You're going to "plan" your quit?

You're a failure from the start. You want to know what real men don't do? Plan a quit. They just grab their nuts and do it. Look around this site at all the men, and even some women, who have done it. Maybe you're not the man you think, or are you?

You know what I like less than cavers? Cavers who come back whining about how much of a pussy they are and then not even manning up.... running away after wallowing in their own tears.

Do you really want to quit or not? If you do, flush your can and post day 1. Otherwise stop wasting our time and go start "planning" your quit. Come let us know how that goes 15 years from now when you have half a jaw and your drooling chew spit down your chin.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: Bean on November 02, 2012, 10:33:00 AM
Nobody is perfect. But, it wasn't booze or fighting's fault. It's your fault. You gave your word and didn't keep it. Simple as that.

You need to re-examine what "giving your word" means. That is where your break-down occurred...your word is no good. And excuses are like assholes...everyone's got one and they all stink. Keep yours off this site.

We want to help you stay quit...every last one of us is on your side unconditionally. When you signed up, nobody charged you any money. Nobody made you prove anything to us. We only expected you to keep your word.

Go find a different website if you just want clown around, bullshit and make excuses. But if you're serious about quitting, seriously THINK about what giving your word means. Then come back and post a new Day 1 when you're willing to do whatever it takes to keep your word.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: epayne on November 02, 2012, 11:56:00 AM
While you're at it, why don't you drop by January and answer the holy trinity for us like we discussed.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: Radman on November 02, 2012, 01:20:00 PM
The guys posting before me are all correct, but my suggestion is get your life in order...... all of it. Make up you mind that you're old enough to live respectably. I have no problem with drinking. Hell, I do myself. But.... within limits. Drunken brawls (or "altercations") are not good for health, future, or quit. Not good for anything at all. You want to quit nicotine? Dedicate yourself to it. If you expect to win this battle, it takes 100%. Nothing can come before it. It took me a long time to realize that, but it is true. I completely stopped drinking altogether for a few months early in my quit.

Basically, everything I just said means stop letting other people influence you. Be the stronger person. With that comes the confidence we need to accomplish this task each day.
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: 30isEnuff on November 02, 2012, 02:46:00 PM
You can "do better". If you'll open your ears and your mind and heed, and I mean really "do" what these men have advised "for You".
You can't buy this advice and serious help!
a little story:
My whole family are addicts...most dead now. I was the "good kid". So they called me, because I went to school, finished school, treated my elders with respect, didn't smoke, drink or chase women. When I found tobacco, my brain, my life went down hill. Until May 25 2012 at 8:36a.m. I discovered that "I too" am an ADDICT!!!!!!
I used to think, I don't drink or smoke, I don't have a problem! Boy was I wrong and ignorant of "REAL" life. I dipped 30 years, 24/7, 1-2 cans per day.
Since I have become quit, I realize that it can't stop there. I have improved my eating habits and exercise habits. I am healthier, smarter on my feet. I can "think" again.
My mom, dad and their families all died from tobacco and drinking related illnesses. You see, the drinking lowers our bodies ability to fight. I think this combination of addictions caused my family to die younger than need be. I'm not a doctor, but I know what I saw.
I just hope that I haven't damaged myself beyond repair. I hope you haven't either. Give yourself a break, pick yourself up and find a mirror. Talk to the addict until you know that your "want and Have to be quit". Quit the poison you put in your mouth. All of it, the alcohol and the tobacco and any other "known" poisons!!!! YOU can do this. Many MEN have paved the way. The system here at KTC works! Period!
YOu know what you need to do.....DO it now before it is too late!
Be quit this WEEKEND with Me and all of KTC!! 'bang head'
Title: Re: Day 2 I'm in hell!
Post by: wastepanel on November 05, 2012, 03:09:00 PM
I merged all of your intros together so we can follow your quit a little better.