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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Lonnier on July 13, 2016, 09:29:00 PM
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I have spent 36 years, or 75% of my life, addicted to S. Tobacco. I have had parents, wife, children, and friends try to get me to stop. I have tried to quit for my own sake and at times for other people. All of those attempts at stopping or moderating have ended in failure. I did not believe I would be able to stop until I ran across this website.
The idea that got my attention here was the simple statemement expressed by the site and members that they had quit using any form of nicotine. Not that you were trying, or cutting back, or using the patch, or any other method or shortcut. You all just quit. suffered through withdrawal and quit.
So that gave me some hope. If I do what you do, I can quit this garbage too. So that is my plan. I am going to follow directions.
Lonnie
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I have spent 36 years, or 75% of my life, addicted to S. Tobacco. I have had parents, wife, children, and friends try to get me to stop. I have tried to quit for my own sake and at times for other people. All of those attempts at stopping or moderating have ended in failure. I did not believe I would be able to stop until I ran across this website.
The idea that got my attention here was the simple statemement expressed by the site and members that they had quit using any form of nicotine. Not that you were trying, or cutting back, or using the patch, or any other method or shortcut. You all just quit. suffered through withdrawal and quit.
So that gave me some hope. If I do what you do, I can quit this garbage too. So that is my plan. I am going to follow directions.
Lonnie
Welcome aboard!
Yep, you've got the recipe. It isn't easy, but it works. Post your promise (which I see you've done 3 days in a row!!!) and keep your word. One day at a time. You can do anything for a day. You could bang Janet Reno for s day if it meant freedom. I'm certain that would be worse than any nicotine effects. Trust me, what you are feeling today will pass. This isn't the new normal. This hurts, but you'll live.
We are all here to help. 36 years is a long time. 3 days of freedom is a big, big deal. Congratulations man... You are really gonna like where this road leads. Right now it seems like you are giving up an old friend, something that will kill you but brought you peace, contentment, and happiness. Once this pain passes, I promise that one day your eyes will open and Tull see the truth.
Welcome to Ktc and the beginning of a new you.
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Saw you posted roll, great job, even with all the bumps in October. Congratulations on making one of the single best decisions of your life. You're going to find a ton of support on this site. It is your new number one quit tool and believe me, it works!
Remember to WUPP- wake up, piss, post!
EDD - every damn day
For 37 years one of the first things you did was put a lipper in when you woke up. Now, post roll and your promise instead. Quit for that day, every day. Familiarize yourself with the welcome center and read a lot of the past intros. We are all addicts, just like you.
Get ready for some serious quit.
I pm'd you my digits
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I did not believe I would be able to stop until I ran across this website.
Lonnie
I said the same thing 174 days ago. You are thinking exactly right. Drink the Kool-Ade, and follow the crowd.
I was a 24 year user that stuffed that shit into my lip for more than half of my life. I had quit quitting.
Follow the program here, and at some point you will start thinking of yourself as a former user. Always an addict, but a former user.
It's going to suck for a while, then it won't.
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You've got the recipe Lonnie. You can use the Nestle Tollhouse chocolate chip cookie recipe that has worked for thousands and thousands of batches of cookies, or you can try to improvise and do it yourself. I chose the Tollhouse recipe and tomorrow is day 371. No need to try to improve a perfect recipe.
Post roll, keep your promise, repeat. In doing so, be active, build accountability, build brotherhood. These simple steps = success. The choice is yours.
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3 days in 36 years? That is friggin huge man! Glad to see you hitting roll and making your promise. I cant speak for everyone but I quit with you EDD man! Take care bud. If you need anything give me a PM or email. My phone number is burnt up right now. Phone company needed more cash than I had in my pocket this month :(
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I'm here with you, quit with you. One day at a time sir. 25+ year user here, and I'm 39. I was some where along 12-13 when I tried the weed monster. I know you can do this.
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Lonnie, I saw you already posted roll today. That simple effort is exactly what has kept me quit after decades of dipping. It sets my mind right all day. Quitting sucks, fighting off crave after crave, feeling light headed, tired, angry, lost. Posting roll got me focused to combat that everyday.
Also if you had a friend who made you feel light headed, tired, angry, and lost....wouldn't you dump that person as a friend? Regardless of what you feel now Lonnie you've made a great choice. Good luck.
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Lonnie, I saw you already posted roll today. That simple effort is exactly what has kept me quit after decades of dipping. It sets my mind right all day. Quitting sucks, fighting off crave after crave, feeling light headed, tired, angry, lost. Posting roll got me focused to combat that everyday.
Also if you had a friend who made you feel light headed, tired, angry, and lost....wouldn't you dump that person as a friend? Regardless of what you feel now Lonnie you've made a great choice. Good luck.
Welcome Lonnie....
Remember how bad the next few days and weeks suck. Sear it into your memory so that you NEVER want to have to go through it again. Learn to hate that friggin weed as much as you used to think you loved it. Learn when your addict brain starts talking and figure out a way to tell it to STFU. Come on back tomorrow, and post up another day's promise. That's how quits are built. No offense, Dagranger, but last time I looked, luck doesn't have nothin' to do with a QUIT.
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Lonnie, I saw you already posted roll today. That simple effort is exactly what has kept me quit after decades of dipping. It sets my mind right all day. Quitting sucks, fighting off crave after crave, feeling light headed, tired, angry, lost. Posting roll got me focused to combat that everyday.
Also if you had a friend who made you feel light headed, tired, angry, and lost....wouldn't you dump that person as a friend? Regardless of what you feel now Lonnie you've made a great choice. Good luck.
Welcome Lonnie....
Remember how bad the next few days and weeks suck. Sear it into your memory so that you NEVER want to have to go through it again. Learn to hate that friggin weed as much as you used to think you loved it. Learn when your addict brain starts talking and figure out a way to tell it to STFU. Come on back tomorrow, and post up another day's promise. That's how quits are built. No offense, Dagranger, but last time I looked, luck doesn't have nothin' to do with a QUIT.
7 days now and you are right, these first few days are pretty rough. My head cleared this weekend but the craving seems to be much more intense the last two days. Not sure if this is normal as this is unchartered territory for me.
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Lonnie, I saw you already posted roll today. That simple effort is exactly what has kept me quit after decades of dipping. It sets my mind right all day. Quitting sucks, fighting off crave after crave, feeling light headed, tired, angry, lost. Posting roll got me focused to combat that everyday.
Also if you had a friend who made you feel light headed, tired, angry, and lost....wouldn't you dump that person as a friend? Regardless of what you feel now Lonnie you've made a great choice. Good luck.
Welcome Lonnie....
Remember how bad the next few days and weeks suck. Sear it into your memory so that you NEVER want to have to go through it again. Learn to hate that friggin weed as much as you used to think you loved it. Learn when your addict brain starts talking and figure out a way to tell it to STFU. Come on back tomorrow, and post up another day's promise. That's how quits are built. No offense, Dagranger, but last time I looked, luck doesn't have nothin' to do with a QUIT.
7 days now and you are right, these first few days are pretty rough. My head cleared this weekend but the craving seems to be much more intense the last two days. Not sure if this is normal as this is unchartered territory for me.
Yeah man it is charted territory for sure. The craves are going to happen. Pound water, chew the hell out of seeds or regular gum or something to take your mind off of it. It really sucks but it happens. Isn't it wonderful what we put ourselves through for a bit of pleasure?
Ironically enough, as my group hit the hall of fame at 100 days, we had a bad ass quitter come in and tell us all to watch out for the 120 craves. RIGHT!!!! Sure thing bud, now beat it! WRONG! He was right! All we can do is learn to live with it. I call it part of Living life on Life's own terms. Lets face it man, it is a permanent part of our life now. Simply put we are addicts and as long as we have a breath left to take, the old nic hag is going to be knocking on our doors wanting back in.
Hold firm bud. It gets better man. Keep your network and tools very close! Give me a shout if needed!
Ray
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7 days now and you are right, these first few days are pretty rough. My head cleared this weekend but the craving seems to be much more intense the last two days. Not sure if this is normal as this is unchartered territory for me.
Hey man.
I'm at 9 days and I'm experiencing much the same thing.
The physically painful/uncomfortable withdrawal symptoms are largely gone and my vision and thinking are getting much clearer but the cravings to just stick a dip in my mouth are getting worse.
They aren't all that hard to fight, but they're a real pain in the ass.
I've been keeping my mouth busy with chewing gum and sunflower seeds.
That seems to help more than anything else.
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Everybody's early quit is different, but quit one day at a time and soon you will experience the pure joy of being a quitter. We got this brother!
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7 days now and you are right, these first few days are pretty rough. My head cleared this weekend but the craving seems to be much more intense the last two days. Not sure if this is normal as this is unchartered territory for me.
Hey man.
I'm at 9 days and I'm experiencing much the same thing.
The physically painful/uncomfortable withdrawal symptoms are largely gone and my vision and thinking are getting much clearer but the cravings to just stick a dip in my mouth are getting worse.
They aren't all that hard to fight, but they're a real pain in the ass.
I've been keeping my mouth busy with chewing gum and sunflower seeds.
That seems to help more than anything else.
Those craves will get more manageable as your brain rewires. You'll still get them, but it will be more of a curiosity than a driving desire to use.
The thing that you have to watch out for in the future is complacency or false security. As soon as you start entertaining thoughts of "I have this beat" or "This is over" you're in trouble.
There seems to be a fog/ anxiety/ crave resurgence between days 60-80 (and I hear again around 120). The good thing is that you'll have developed the tools to take it on when it hits.
The Suck is the Suck because it sucks. Embrace it and it will pass.
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Day 26 today. It feels like several months since I quit as the days kind of drag and I still feel foggy. I seem to be out of the worst of the cravings though and my sleep is improving. All in all, things are going alright. I have been pleasantly surprised with my lack of anger. Anxiety is high at times but having support of others who are quitting has made a huge difference and kept me going.
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Day 26 today. It feels like several months since I quit as the days kind of drag and I still feel foggy. I seem to be out of the worst of the cravings though and my sleep is improving. All in all, things are going alright. I have been pleasantly surprised with my lack of anger. Anxiety is high at times but having support of others who are quitting has made a huge difference and kept me going.
Lonnier,
You're a rockstar quitter. It has been an honor to be quit with you for these few weeks. Keep up the texting and never stop leaning on your support group. FYI: you've gotten me through a few hard times and you didn't even know it. Getting through those first 3 weeks was the hardest, mainly because of the crazy sleep pattern thing. I can honestly tell you that I shared the same pain you did and completely understand. That was the one thing that actually almost broke me. Don't stop with your quit momentum, in fact, now is the time to pick it up! post more, start helping out newbs, give input in the November group. Those are the things that will help reinforce your quit.
Very Proud to bee quit with you and looking forward to your HOF speech in 74 days.
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Day 26 today. It feels like several months since I quit as the days kind of drag and I still feel foggy. I seem to be out of the worst of the cravings though and my sleep is improving. All in all, things are going alright. I have been pleasantly surprised with my lack of anger. Anxiety is high at times but having support of others who are quitting has made a huge difference and kept me going.
Lonnier,
You're a rockstar quitter. It has been an honor to be quit with you for these few weeks. Keep up the texting and never stop leaning on your support group. FYI: you've gotten me through a few hard times and you didn't even know it. Getting through those first 3 weeks was the hardest, mainly because of the crazy sleep pattern thing. I can honestly tell you that I shared the same pain you did and completely understand. That was the one thing that actually almost broke me. Don't stop with your quit momentum, in fact, now is the time to pick it up! post more, start helping out newbs, give input in the November group. Those are the things that will help reinforce your quit.
Very Proud to bee quit with you and looking forward to your HOF speech in 74 days.
Thanks Dave. I appreciate all of your help and encouragement. I am proud to be quit with you.
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I have 48 days in the books today. I would not have thought it possible two months ago. I feel I should add few words here, as I never want to forget this.
This process has been pretty simple, but not easy. I can now see what a crutch that dip was for me. I never learned to work through any stressful situations without relying on it. Well, in the last four weeks, I have gotten plenty of practice and it has been quite a roller coaster. A few times I have felt like I was coming apart. Thankfully, I have contact with some members here who have helped me get through those times, especially fishflorida.
On the positive side, I have had some moments of calm and I have had 48 days of freedom from nicotine. I am grateful for this site and all the members here who are keeping me going.
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I have 48 days in the books today. I would not have thought it possible two months ago. I feel I should add few words here, as I never want to forget this.
This process has been pretty simple, but not easy. I can now see what a crutch that dip was for me. I never learned to work through any stressful situations without relying on it. Well, in the last four weeks, I have gotten plenty of practice and it has been quite a roller coaster. A few times I have felt like I was coming apart. Thankfully, I have contact with some members here who have helped me get through those times, especially fishflorida.
On the positive side, I have had some moments of calm and I have had 48 days of freedom from nicotine. I am grateful for this site and all the members here who are keeping me going.
Congrats on 48. The roller coaster keeps going but you got this figured out.
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I have 48 days in the books today. I would not have thought it possible two months ago. I feel I should add few words here, as I never want to forget this.
This process has been pretty simple, but not easy. I can now see what a crutch that dip was for me. I never learned to work through any stressful situations without relying on it. Well, in the last four weeks, I have gotten plenty of practice and it has been quite a roller coaster. A few times I have felt like I was coming apart. Thankfully, I have contact with some members here who have helped me get through those times, especially fishflorida.
On the positive side, I have had some moments of calm and I have had 48 days of freedom from nicotine. I am grateful for this site and all the members here who are keeping me going.
Congrats on 48. The roller coaster keeps going but you got this figured out.
My friend Lonnie. It's gonna suck donkey balls for a while! It will take time for your brain to realize how to handle a bunch of different situations you used to hide behind the can with. I honestly can't begin to figure out how our brain tricks us into thinking give me my fix and everything is fine,? How, it's still there with your nic or when you spit one out. That is some powerful shit! I'm still learning after 600 + days how to occupy my usual dip time alone and I'm loving my time and it's a lot more ,well spent with my family! We cheated the ones we loved long enough. Quit on! Always ODAAT!
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Keep up the good work Lonnie!!
Were getting better everyday my friend!
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I have 48 days in the books today. I would not have thought it possible two months ago. I feel I should add few words here, as I never want to forget this.
This process has been pretty simple, but not easy. I can now see what a crutch that dip was for me. I never learned to work through any stressful situations without relying on it. Well, in the last four weeks, I have gotten plenty of practice and it has been quite a roller coaster. A few times I have felt like I was coming apart. Thankfully, I have contact with some members here who have helped me get through those times, especially fishflorida.
On the positive side, I have had some moments of calm and I have had 48 days of freedom from nicotine. I am grateful for this site and all the members here who are keeping me going.
Congrats on 48. The roller coaster keeps going but you got this figured out.
My friend Lonnie. It's gonna suck donkey balls for a while! It will take time for your brain to realize how to handle a bunch of different situations you used to hide behind the can with. I honestly can't begin to figure out how our brain tricks us into thinking give me my fix and everything is fine,? How, it's still there with your nic or when you spit one out. That is some powerful shit! I'm still learning after 600 + days how to occupy my usual dip time alone and I'm loving my time and it's a lot more ,well spent with my family! We cheated the ones we loved long enough. Quit on! Always ODAAT!
Lonnie,
One of the best things you can do for your quit is to pay it forward. I was about 50 days quit when I reached out to you. Me helping you played a huge part in my own quit. I was able to tell someone what I was going through and help them at the same time. I think you should start paying it forward, you'll find out very quickly how much it helps. It's is great being quit with you. Never forget the OLE 96er. I've got a couple of iguanas for you too.
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Day 70 Free of nicotine. I am feeling pretty grateful today. To this site and everyone here. I am not sure exactly when it happened, but things are slowly getting better and I am confident it will continue as long as I stick with the program and help others.
I had a lot of fog through the first couple of months and I was not sure I would get my concentration back but that has been improving so if you are going through similar, it does get better. My overall temperament also seems better than my dipping days. A nice bonus.
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Day 70 Free of nicotine. I am feeling pretty grateful today. To this site and everyone here. I am not sure exactly when it happened, but things are slowly getting better and I am confident it will continue as long as I stick with the program and help others.
I had a lot of fog through the first couple of months and I was not sure I would get my concentration back but that has been improving so if you are going through similar, it does get better. My overall temperament also seems better than my dipping days. A nice bonus.
It only gets better! Jump in support other groups, give back, there's always someone needing help. Sounds like you're seeing the bright side a little, just remember there's still shitty day's ahead and when they happen remember these days you write about. Quit on! Damn proud to be quit with you!
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Day 70 Free of nicotine. I am feeling pretty grateful today. To this site and everyone here. I am not sure exactly when it happened, but things are slowly getting better and I am confident it will continue as long as I stick with the program and help others.
I had a lot of fog through the first couple of months and I was not sure I would get my concentration back but that has been improving so if you are going through similar, it does get better. My overall temperament also seems better than my dipping days. A nice bonus.
It only gets better! Jump in support other groups, give back, there's always someone needing help. Sounds like you're seeing the bright side a little, just remember there's still shitty day's ahead and when they happen remember these days you write about. Quit on! Damn proud to be quit with you!
LONNIER, I'm proud to be quit with you. I think it's great you show support in other groups. I'm really glad to hear things have settled down. I'll bag an iguana for you.
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Day 70 Free of nicotine. I am feeling pretty grateful today. To this site and everyone here. I am not sure exactly when it happened, but things are slowly getting better and I am confident it will continue as long as I stick with the program and help others.
I had a lot of fog through the first couple of months and I was not sure I would get my concentration back but that has been improving so if you are going through similar, it does get better. My overall temperament also seems better than my dipping days. A nice bonus.
It only gets better! Jump in support other groups, give back, there's always someone needing help. Sounds like you're seeing the bright side a little, just remember there's still shitty day's ahead and when they happen remember these days you write about. Quit on! Damn proud to be quit with you!
LONNIER, I'm proud to be quit with you. I think it's great you show support in other groups. I'm really glad to hear things have settled down. I'll bag an iguana for you.
FF,
Proud to be quit with you as well. Looking forward to seeing the Iguana.
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Day 98 today. It has been a little while since I added anything here so I thought I should add a few words to document what has been going on. I am getting pretty close to HOF. It feels pretty good to be approaching 100 days although I am realizing it is just the beginning of this journey. I have had some pretty good days during the last 98 and some pretty bad ones. Yesterday I had to put my dog of 13 years to rest. It was painful to let go as she was another member of the family and the addict part of me was quick to whisper in my ear that a one time use would not hurt. Today, however, the quit part of me knows better. I had made my promise for the day and that kept me from buying in to that train of thought. It is surprisingly powerful, that daily promise. It has gotten me to this point, I feel like I am starting to learn, for the first time in my life, how to live life without nicotine.
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Congratulations on HOF sir!!!