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Title: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on May 13, 2016, 12:42:00 AM
My name is Steven. I live in the DFW metroplex and have been in this area a long time. I started dipping regularly when I was about 30 and have kept it up for 22 years.

I have had health issues that I believe are directly linked to my nicotine/tobacco use. So I decided after a few weeks of anxiety and stupid 'maybe's', that I would quit.

I have to say that I don't feel that well at all...but I'm happy to have quit. I'm using the Smokey Mountain chew (although it kinda makes me queasy)

Slept ok last night, but having a very hard time going to sleep tonight.

Steven
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: mattlock on May 13, 2016, 01:01:00 AM
You definitely made the right decision Steven. Welcome aboard. Head on over to the August Quit Group (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11604982/) and post roll. That's your promise not to use nicotine in any form for 24 hours, then keep your word for 24 hours. The plan is simple but the implementation can be difficult. That's where your brothers and sisters in your quit group come in. Get their numbers and give yours out. They will lean on you when you are strong and give you someone to lean on when you aren't quite up to it. Brotherhood + accountability = success.

As for the withdrawal symptoms it will suck until it doesn't. Embrace it and remember it. Drink lots and lots of water. It will help with the headaches, fogginess and getting that crap flushed out. Exercise also helps with the insomnia and fogginess I found. I used Smokey Mountain as well when I first started but use seeds, gum, whatever you need to to get you through it.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: DWEIRICK on May 13, 2016, 01:54:00 AM
Welcome man! Many of us here punished our bodies for many of years! There is still hope all you have to do is give your promise everyday! Go to August 2016 and make that First step you wont regret it trust me.......
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: Shaun_737 on May 13, 2016, 02:39:00 PM
Welcome to the site Steven. I'm also in the August 2016 group. One day at a time. Sometimes one hour or minute at a time. I've been using Smokey Mountain snuff as well. Whatever it takes man.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on May 15, 2016, 11:31:00 PM
Quote from: Shaun_737
Welcome to the site Steven. I'm also in the August 2016 group. One day at a time. Sometimes one hour or minute at a time. I've been using Smokey Mountain snuff as well. Whatever it takes man.
Thanks for the encouragement Gentlemen!

So now I have been without nicotine for 101 hours. I keep counting hours rather than days. Maybe because I emptied my lip of that shit at 5:00 Wednesday, 5/11/16 and didn't count a whole first day until Thursday at 5:00.
Steven
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: Maddog59 on May 16, 2016, 01:33:00 PM
Welcome aboard Steven. You count minutes if you like as everyone one of them is special being quit! Proud to be quit with you and look forward to your many successes with your quit.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on May 21, 2016, 11:33:00 PM
Quote from: MadDog59
Welcome aboard Steven. You count minutes if you like as everyone one of them is special being quit! Proud to be quit with you and look forward to your many successes with your quit.
Now I am at 10 days. It feels like it has been 30 at least! Time seems to be moving at a nasty slow pace.
I'm using the Smokey Mountain chew, so not feeling as crazy with oral fixation. But I really want to cut that out too. My mouth seems ultra sensitive since the QUIT.

Canker sore way up high on cheek that has lasted a good 8 days. Sore on my tongue just showed up. Jaw and tooth pain intermittent. And I'm a fucking asshole to be around....

But, I AM QUIT.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: paul-san on May 22, 2016, 04:14:00 AM
Quote from: CowMus
Quote from: MadDog59
Welcome aboard Steven. You count minutes if you like as everyone one of them is special being quit! Proud to be quit with you and look forward to your many successes with your quit.
Now I am at 10 days. It feels like it has been 30 at least! Time seems to be moving at a nasty slow pace.
I'm using the Smokey Mountain chew, so not feeling as crazy with oral fixation. But I really want to cut that out too. My mouth seems ultra sensitive since the QUIT.

Canker sore way up high on cheek that has lasted a good 8 days. Sore on my tongue just showed up. Jaw and tooth pain intermittent. And I'm a fucking asshole to be around....

But, I AM QUIT.
Brother CowMus, Appreciate the post and hang in there! Just a few days behind you at 6 and having some of the same issues. My oral fixation isn't that bad, nothing that a quick fake with a licorice drop cant subdue. At least so far. No sores for me but I am experiencing jaw and tooth pain. The pain is typically at night and it's more of a dull soreness with twinges of pain. Although this is primarily a night experience, there have been a couple of pain/soreness flashes during the day for me.

AS far as being an asshole to be around, at least you'll be around. I figure, explain to loved ones what's up and beg support and forgiveness.

With you, I am QUIT!
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on May 22, 2016, 07:00:00 AM
Quote from: paul-san
Quote from: CowMus
Quote from: MadDog59
Welcome aboard Steven. You count minutes if you like as everyone one of them is special being quit! Proud to be quit with you and look forward to your many successes with your quit.
Now I am at 10 days. It feels like it has been 30 at least! Time seems to be moving at a nasty slow pace.
I'm using the Smokey Mountain chew, so not feeling as crazy with oral fixation. But I really want to cut that out too. My mouth seems ultra sensitive since the QUIT.

Canker sore way up high on cheek that has lasted a good 8 days. Sore on my tongue just showed up. Jaw and tooth pain intermittent. And I'm a fucking asshole to be around....

But, I AM QUIT.
Brother CowMus, Appreciate the post and hang in there! Just a few days behind you at 6 and having some of the same issues. My oral fixation isn't that bad, nothing that a quick fake with a licorice drop cant subdue. At least so far. No sores for me but I am experiencing jaw and tooth pain. The pain is typically at night and it's more of a dull soreness with twinges of pain. Although this is primarily a night experience, there have been a couple of pain/soreness flashes during the day for me.

AS far as being an asshole to be around, at least you'll be around. I figure, explain to loved ones what's up and beg support and forgiveness.

With you, I am QUIT!
Appreciate the supportive comments, Paul. It makes a difference.

Also, I like hearing that my symptoms are normal.....hell, I guess we all want to be normal. Haha

Steven
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: Dundippin on May 23, 2016, 08:05:00 AM
Steven,

Congratulations on your quit. I waited till I was 59 to quit and am on day 252. I recommend drinking plenty of Orange Juice as it replaces the sugar generated by your brain when using snuff. It will give you extra energy and help you to think.

You will be in a fog for an unknown number of days until you aren't. When the flog lifts it will be wonderful. Remember to distract your mind and think about something else when the craves come. They will come just when you think you have this thing handled. Be ready for it and fight through. Do not let your guard down.

I quit with you today.

Dundippin/Bud
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: ZillahCowboy on May 30, 2016, 12:14:00 AM
Some good quittin' going on in here. Good job guys, keep it up. Life gets better with every day quit. Guaranteed.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: FISHFLORIDA on May 30, 2016, 08:41:00 AM
Quote from: CowMus
Quote from: paul-san
Quote from: CowMus
Quote from: MadDog59
Welcome aboard Steven. You count minutes if you like as everyone one of them is special being quit! Proud to be quit with you and look forward to your many successes with your quit.
Now I am at 10 days. It feels like it has been 30 at least! Time seems to be moving at a nasty slow pace.
I'm using the Smokey Mountain chew, so not feeling as crazy with oral fixation. But I really want to cut that out too. My mouth seems ultra sensitive since the QUIT.

Canker sore way up high on cheek that has lasted a good 8 days. Sore on my tongue just showed up. Jaw and tooth pain intermittent. And I'm a fucking asshole to be around....

But, I AM QUIT.
Brother CowMus, Appreciate the post and hang in there! Just a few days behind you at 6 and having some of the same issues. My oral fixation isn't that bad, nothing that a quick fake with a licorice drop cant subdue. At least so far. No sores for me but I am experiencing jaw and tooth pain. The pain is typically at night and it's more of a dull soreness with twinges of pain. Although this is primarily a night experience, there have been a couple of pain/soreness flashes during the day for me.

AS far as being an asshole to be around, at least you'll be around. I figure, explain to loved ones what's up and beg support and forgiveness.

With you, I am QUIT!
Appreciate the supportive comments, Paul. It makes a difference.

Also, I like hearing that my symptoms are normal.....hell, I guess we all want to be normal. Haha

Steven
It's day 7 for me and I swear I can actually feel my teeth tingle. It's is the absolute weirdest feeling. I'm glad to hear someone else has similar.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: Bert75 on May 30, 2016, 10:17:00 PM
Stay focused. Some real good quittin' going on here. Better days ahead for sure! For me sugar free gum has worked the best. I love seeds but they shred my mouth (I would burn thru the whole damn bag at once).
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on July 03, 2016, 07:26:00 AM
So, I'm 54 days into being quit. I'm glad that I quit. My anxiety of health has been better on a day to day basis. However, I think my anxiety spikes in a huge way dealing with health issues as a result of my quit. The mouth healing has brought canker sores like crazy, much more intense TMJ because I am clenching my jaw in my sleep. This week I had 2 canker sores come up that have also caused my lymph nodes to swell up. It's probably tooth related as well.

I notice guys buying a can a lot more than I used to. Sometimes I think I should tell them about this sight, and honestly sometimes I have that second of "I want some". I wonder if that split second ever goes away? I immediately shake it off but it is still there long enough for me to realize it.

Interesting....
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: paul-san on July 03, 2016, 07:36:00 AM
Quote from: CowMus
So, I'm 54 days into being quit. I'm glad that I quit. My anxiety of health has been better on a day to day basis. However, I think my anxiety spikes in a huge way dealing with health issues as a result of my quit. The mouth healing has brought canker sores like crazy, much more intense TMJ because I am clenching my jaw in my sleep. This week I had 2 canker sores come up that have also caused my lymph nodes to swell up. It's probably tooth related as well.

I notice guys buying a can a lot more than I used to. Sometimes I think I should tell them about this sight, and honestly sometimes I have that second of "I want some". I wonder if that split second ever goes away? I immediately shake it off but it is still there long enough for me to realize it.

Interesting....
Cowmus,

Thanks for sharing. I am still clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth at night. I use night guards that I purchase over the counter and they help prevent damage that can occur due to the grinding. Seems to be working for me now.

I am sure it will be a while until we are past the trigger of watching folks buy chew and us having a desire to want some. We are rewiring our brains and that'll take some time depending on how long we've chewed and how strong our addiction was.

Proud to be quit with you in our Aug 2016 group!
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: pky1520 on July 03, 2016, 08:28:00 AM
Quote from: paul-san
Quote from: CowMus
So, I'm 54 days into being quit. I'm glad that I quit. My anxiety of health has been better on a day to day basis. However, I think my anxiety spikes in a huge way dealing with health issues as a result of my quit. The mouth healing has brought canker sores like crazy, much more intense TMJ because I am clenching my jaw in my sleep. This week I had 2 canker sores come up that have also caused my lymph nodes to swell up. It's probably tooth related as well.

I notice guys buying a can a lot more than I used to. Sometimes I think I should tell them about this sight, and honestly sometimes I have that second of "I want some". I wonder if that split second ever goes away? I immediately shake it off but it is still there long enough for me to realize it.

Interesting....
Cowmus,

Thanks for sharing. I am still clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth at night. I use night guards that I purchase over the counter and they help prevent damage that can occur due to the grinding. Seems to be working for me now.

I am sure it will be a while until we are past the trigger of watching folks buy chew and us having a desire to want some. We are rewiring our brains and that'll take some time depending on how long we've chewed and how strong our addiction was.

Proud to be quit with you in our Aug 2016 group!
I cant even look at the Wall at the gas station. Just looking at the cans feels like cheating. At some point I'd love for it to be such a distant memory, that I can see a wall of tobacco or others using and feel nothing about it, but maybe it's ok if I never get there. Those mini craves and thoughts can just remind me that I'm free of it now and should be proud of that.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: eric71 on July 03, 2016, 11:26:00 AM
Quote from: pky1520
Quote from: paul-san
Quote from: CowMus
So, I'm 54 days into being quit. I'm glad that I quit. My anxiety of health has been better on a day to day basis. However, I think my anxiety spikes in a huge way dealing with health issues as a result of my quit. The mouth healing has brought canker sores like crazy, much more intense TMJ because I am clenching my jaw in my sleep. This week I had 2 canker sores come up that have also caused my lymph nodes to swell up. It's probably tooth related as well.

I notice guys buying a can a lot more than I used to. Sometimes I think I should tell them about this sight, and honestly sometimes I have that second of "I want some". I wonder if that split second ever goes away? I immediately shake it off but it is still there long enough for me to realize it.

Interesting....
Cowmus,

Thanks for sharing. I am still clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth at night. I use night guards that I purchase over the counter and they help prevent damage that can occur due to the grinding. Seems to be working for me now.

I am sure it will be a while until we are past the trigger of watching folks buy chew and us having a desire to want some. We are rewiring our brains and that'll take some time depending on how long we've chewed and how strong our addiction was.

Proud to be quit with you in our Aug 2016 group!
I cant even look at the Wall at the gas station. Just looking at the cans feels like cheating. At some point I'd love for it to be such a distant memory, that I can see a wall of tobacco or others using and feel nothing about it, but maybe it's ok if I never get there. Those mini craves and thoughts can just remind me that I'm free of it now and should be proud of that.
It will all subside in time but it never truly goes away. That is what an addictive mindset does. It can allow us to control it though. Use the addictive tendency to keep the bitch in her place. She no longer has a grip on your life. Be addicted to what life has to offer you now that you are no longer chained to the can.

I quit with you today.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on August 03, 2016, 10:53:00 PM
Quote from: pky1520
Quote from: paul-san
Quote from: CowMus
So, I'm 54 days into being quit. I'm glad that I quit. My anxiety of health has been better on a day to day basis. However, I think my anxiety spikes in a huge way dealing with health issues as a result of my quit. The mouth healing has brought canker sores like crazy, much more intense TMJ because I am clenching my jaw in my sleep. This week I had 2 canker sores come up that have also caused my lymph nodes to swell up. It's probably tooth related as well.

I notice guys buying a can a lot more than I used to. Sometimes I think I should tell them about this sight, and honestly sometimes I have that second of "I want some". I wonder if that split second ever goes away? I immediately shake it off but it is still there long enough for me to realize it.

Interesting....
Cowmus,

Thanks for sharing. I am still clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth at night. I use night guards that I purchase over the counter and they help prevent damage that can occur due to the grinding. Seems to be working for me now.

I am sure it will be a while until we are past the trigger of watching folks buy chew and us having a desire to want some. We are rewiring our brains and that'll take some time depending on how long we've chewed and how strong our addiction was.

Proud to be quit with you in our Aug 2016 group!
I cant even look at the Wall at the gas station. Just looking at the cans feels like cheating. At some point I'd love for it to be such a distant memory, that I can see a wall of tobacco or others using and feel nothing about it, but maybe it's ok if I never get there. Those mini craves and thoughts can just remind me that I'm free of it now and should be proud of that.
I know what you mean about looking. Today I was at the QT to get Tea and SMC....I looked at the far left corner of the rack. Cuz that always where the Copenhagen snuff is. (My choir for 20+ years). I snapped my head back in an instant as if I had seen my parents having sex. I was 'eyes forward only' until it was my turn to be at the counter. EEEEK.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on August 03, 2016, 10:59:00 PM
I'm close to 90 days quit now. As of Monday the August group starts hitting 100 day mark. It's exciting to read the posts. It's really affirming to read the HOF speeches.

I'm still using Smokey Mountain Chew...actually in the last few days I use it as much as I dipped. It even has some of the same effects on my mouth. (And I obsess over that!!!!!)

For some reason I feel kind of depressed and I'm almost at 90 days! That just seems fucked up. I should be excited about the upcoming 100 days quit and even proud of myself. But I am feeling depressed.

UGH. Has anyone else had this at the juncture in the quit?
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: Stranger999 on August 03, 2016, 11:09:00 PM
Quote from: CowMus
I'm close to 90 days quit now. As of Monday the August group starts hitting 100 day mark. It's exciting to read the posts. It's really affirming to read the HOF speeches.

I'm still using Smokey Mountain Chew...actually in the last few days I use it as much as I dipped. It even has some of the same effects on my mouth. (And I obsess over that!!!!!)

For some reason I feel kind of depressed and I'm almost at 90 days! That just seems fucked up. I should be excited about the upcoming 100 days quit and even proud of myself. But I am feeling depressed.

UGH. Has anyone else had this at the juncture in the quit?
Congratulations on your soon to be HOF day! Yes, there will be ups and downs ahead of you. You aren't cured nor will you ever be cured. The good news is that the downs come less and less often the further along in your quit. Stay connected and stay quit! B)B
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on August 03, 2016, 11:12:00 PM
Quote from: Stranger999
Quote from: CowMus
I'm close to 90 days quit now. As of Monday the August group starts hitting 100 day mark. It's exciting to read the posts. It's really affirming to read the HOF speeches.

I'm still using Smokey Mountain Chew...actually in the last few days I use it as much as I dipped. It even has some of the same effects on my mouth. (And I obsess over that!!!!!)

For some reason I feel kind of depressed and I'm almost at 90 days! That just seems fucked up. I should be excited about the upcoming 100 days quit and even proud of myself. But I am feeling depressed.

UGH. Has anyone else had this at the juncture in the quit?
Congratulations on your soon to be HOF day! Yes, there will be ups and downs ahead of you. You aren't cured nor will you ever be cured. The good news is that the downs come less and less often the further along in your quit. Stay connected and stay quit! B)B
Thank you 999. I sure appreciate the encouraging words.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: eric71 on August 04, 2016, 09:07:00 AM
Quote from: CowMus
Quote from: Stranger999
Quote from: CowMus
I'm close to 90 days quit now. As of Monday the August group starts hitting 100 day mark. It's exciting to read the posts. It's really affirming to read the HOF speeches.

I'm still using Smokey Mountain Chew...actually in the last few days I use it as much as I dipped. It even has some of the same effects on my mouth. (And I obsess over that!!!!!)

For some reason I feel kind of depressed and I'm almost at 90 days! That just seems fucked up. I should be excited about the upcoming 100 days quit and even proud of myself. But I am feeling depressed.

UGH. Has anyone else had this at the juncture in the quit?
Congratulations on your soon to be HOF day! Yes, there will be ups and downs ahead of you. You aren't cured nor will you ever be cured. The good news is that the downs come less and less often the further along in your quit. Stay connected and stay quit! B)B
Thank you 999. I sure appreciate the encouraging words.
Look back through my log and the journal of many others, you will see there was a wall around this point for nearly everyone. The initial push to be quit begins to really subside. Now is the time to buckle down and grind it out. There will be a letdown around 120-150 as well. That is the high coming off reaching the HOF milestone. Much like you've done to this point, plan ahead and use what you need to persevere. I'm quit with you today, 1501 today for me, you will get there as well.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: FISHFLORIDA on August 04, 2016, 09:47:00 AM
Quote from: Eric71
Quote from: CowMus
Quote from: Stranger999
Quote from: CowMus
I'm close to 90 days quit now. As of Monday the August group starts hitting 100 day mark. It's exciting to read the posts. It's really affirming to read the HOF speeches.

I'm still using Smokey Mountain Chew...actually in the last few days I use it as much as I dipped. It even has some of the same effects on my mouth. (And I obsess over that!!!!!)

For some reason I feel kind of depressed and I'm almost at 90 days! That just seems fucked up. I should be excited about the upcoming 100 days quit and even proud of myself. But I am feeling depressed.

UGH. Has anyone else had this at the juncture in the quit?
Congratulations on your soon to be HOF day! Yes, there will be ups and downs ahead of you. You aren't cured nor will you ever be cured. The good news is that the downs come less and less often the further along in your quit. Stay connected and stay quit! B)B
Thank you 999. I sure appreciate the encouraging words.
Look back through my log and the journal of many others, you will see there was a wall around this point for nearly everyone. The initial push to be quit begins to really subside. Now is the time to buckle down and grind it out. There will be a letdown around 120-150 as well. That is the high coming off reaching the HOF milestone. Much like you've done to this point, plan ahead and use what you need to persevere. I'm quit with you today, 1501 today for me, you will get there as well.
Cowmus, my Yeehaw brother.
Keep the momentum of that 100 day quit into the 200. I'm doing it with you. I've had some wicked lows lately and it seems the only way to lose them is to actually go to sleep. whatever it takes.
Let's get ready for the next 200 and attack it just like the first 100! Going gung-ho on KTC like a raving idiot has been the ONLY thing keeping me quit. I'd be a bigger idiot if I stopped doing that. I am sooo not outta the woods. QLAMFEDD you cattle groping, I mean roping, madman!
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: CowMus on August 05, 2016, 12:32:00 AM
Thanks for all the encouraging words and texts! It really does help!

I've noticed people in our August group really hyped this week. Tons of activity, texts, posts. It has pulled me out of my funk. Celebrating my quit and ignoring the other shit.

Thanks gentlemen!
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: Stranger999 on August 05, 2016, 09:31:00 PM
Quote from: CowMus
Thanks for all the encouraging words and texts! It really does help!

I've noticed people in our August group really hyped this week. Tons of activity, texts, posts. It has pulled me out of my funk. Celebrating my quit and ignoring the other shit.

Thanks gentlemen!
Keep going. I promise that it keeps getting better. :)
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: Rawls on August 05, 2016, 10:50:00 PM
Quote from: Stranger999
Quote from: CowMus
Thanks for all the encouraging words and texts! It really does help!

I've noticed people in our August group really hyped this week. Tons of activity, texts, posts. It has pulled me out of my funk. Celebrating my quit and ignoring the other shit.

Thanks gentlemen!
Keep going. I promise that it keeps getting better. :)
Every day... the old dies
and a new you awakes.
Your getting stronger ODAAT.
I quit with you today.
Rawls 627
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: pky1520 on August 18, 2016, 01:31:00 PM
Congrats on your HOF Cowmus! So proud to have had you in my group - thanks for being such a solid brother in quit!
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: FISHFLORIDA on August 18, 2016, 02:15:00 PM
Brother! Awesome to quit with you! congrats on 100hof. Can't wait to go to 200 with you.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: pab1964 on August 18, 2016, 04:09:00 PM
Congratulations! Hof is the start of a new beginning my friend. First hurdle cleared and it was a big one. Now ODAAT let it fall where it may. Proud to be quit with you.
Title: Re: 30 Hours so Far
Post by: eric71 on August 19, 2016, 07:41:00 AM
Quote from: pab1964
Congratulations! Hof is the start of a new beginning my friend. First hurdle cleared and it was a big one. Now ODAAT let it fall where it may. Proud to be quit with you.
Well done brother! Congrats on the HOF!