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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: dman7373 on June 14, 2011, 01:00:00 PM
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Hey all,
I'm a 38 year old dipshit.
I quit smoking 6 years ago, and had a hell of a time with it. But I was successful, I haven't had a puff for all of those six years, and didn't have any nicotine at all for the first four years, and then...
I got a new job in a new town with a co-worker who had a tin of Cope on his desk all the time.
I started opening it up and smelling it, it smelled so wonderful. 'winker'
I had gained about 25 pounds after quitting smoking, and was chowing down on the sunflower seeds on the long drives back home. My new coworker recommended taking a couple of pouches of dip with me on the drives, so I wouldn't eat so many seeds. (full disclosure: I HAD mooched a couple of pouches from him prior to this).
Within a couple of weeks, I was regularly chewing.
I can't believe how quickly I was dipping first thing in the morning, immediately after meals, and pretty much having that turd in my lip all the time.
I then read somewhere that chew isn't nealy as bad for your health as smoking, and for some reason (addiction) this resonated with me, and I said to myself, "screw it, I'm just going to be a chewer."
Basically, I switched one nicotine delivery system for another, with a four year break in between.
I feel like a moron.
I read on this site that a lot of people recommend just taking my chew and throwing it in the toilet right now, immediately.
When I quit smoking, I gradually weaned myself off the smokes, and it worked (at least so far :unsure: )
Just wanted to share my nicotine travails, and ask for comment
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Do you want to continue to be a slave to nicotine???? Do you want to continue to worry about your health? Do you want to conitnue to pay US Tobacco for giving you cancer? If the answers to these questions are yes then by all means feel free to keep doing what you are doing. But if you want to pull on your big boy pants tell the nic bitch to fuck off and start gaining the freedom that being quit gives you flush that shit now...Go post roll in September and start your day 1 right NOW! No better time than now to be quit. You are putting off the inevitable....Whether you wean yourself off nicotine or fucking do it right now you are going to go through a rough patch for a few days... Why keep putting that shit in your mouth. maybe just maybe the next one is the one that gives you fucking cancer...bye bye Jaw.... Dont do tomorrow what you know you want to do right now.....I got your back...PM me if you have a question or 2 or 1,000
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Just to clarify - you are implying that you plan to wean yourself off of chew, just like you did smoking? Why would you do that? It may have appeared to work for you the first time, but obviously you hadn't closed the door on nicotine altogether. You took a four year break, but nicotine was still an option for you four years later. There have been quitters on this site who have gone through hell and back and never returned to nicotine as a crutch. They have closed the door and know that caving is never an option. It won't make any shitty situation better. It just adds pain to your life.
I feel like weaning yourself down is admitting defeat before you even get started. You're telling yourself and this community that you are not strong enough to take complete control of your addiction. You need to compromise with your addiction. Let it down gently. No, no, no. Nicotine is not your friend. You do not need it to lead a normal, happy life. Every day that you ingest nicotine you are losing the psychological war. Not to mention that your next chew just might be the one that gives you cancer. Yeah, that line sounds like rhetorical bullshit, but it's true.
Be a fucking man. Don't give your subconscious an opportunity to convince you that you need nicotine. That you were successful with quitting smoking. You weren't. You failed. Why was nicotine still an option? Will overcoming the pain of cold turkey make your eventual quit stick?
Who knows - you're still an excuse making chewer. Don't fucking post here again until you've quit. You're not welcome here as is.
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I feel like a moron.
For ever reintroducing nic you are a Moron. But the good thing is you can unmoron yourself.
Either you are quit or your not. No weening around here!
Take what you have, flush it and post a day one.
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DO IT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'impatient' 'impatient' 'impatient'
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Ok, Ok
30 minutes after I first posted this, I took my two tins to the bathroom and flushed them. That was 3 hours and 10 minutes ago. I now feel like someone caked a wad of vaseline over my eyeballs, and I'm twitchin and bitchin, but I've begun the detox process.
I posted to the Sept 2011 quit group and I'm gonna give this a shot.
Thanks for the no bullshit, kick in the ass
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Ok, Ok
30 minutes after I first posted this, I took my two tins to the bathroom and flushed them. That was 3 hours and 10 minutes ago. I now feel like someone caked a wad of vaseline over my eyeballs, and I'm twitchin and bitchin, but I've begun the detox process.
I posted to the Sept 2011 quit group and I'm gonna give this a shot.
Thanks for the no bullshit, kick in the ass
nice work, brother. welcome to the suck. embrace it, allow the misery to wash over you in waves, and rejoice in the fact that you'll never have to do the first day again.
take things one day at a time. follow these steps:
1. wake up
2. post roll (your promise to remain nic free for the next 24 hours)
3. keep your word to yourself and your quit brothers
4. repeat
you'll have cravings and triggers and moments of weakness. have a plan to deal with that shit. seeds, gum, fake chew, phone numbers to call/text, exercise, etc. find what works for you.
you're tougher than this addiction, but the nic bitch ain't no pussy either. fight for your freedom. protect your quit by not putting yourself in dangerous situations (i.e. drinking with the boys or something).
let me know how i can help you.
dch
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Welcome aboard dman! Embrace the suck and get on with your QUIT!!!! The very wise decision that may very well save your life! Nico
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Ok, Ok
30 minutes after I first posted this, I took my two tins to the bathroom and flushed them. That was 3 hours and 10 minutes ago. I now feel like someone caked a wad of vaseline over my eyeballs, and I'm twitchin and bitchin, but I've begun the detox process.
I posted to the Sept 2011 quit group and I'm gonna give this a shot.
Thanks for the no bullshit, kick in the ass
If you're just giving it a shot, you will fail. OWN yourself today. Aren't you tired of being a slave? You've taken the first step by posting roll. Now, do whatever it takes to stay nicotine free the rest of the day, because nicotine is off the table for you and me. Stay on here reading until you go to bed. That will help pass the time. Then get up tomorrow and post roll first thing. Don't think about it, just post and live up to your word. Just focus on each day as it comes right now.
If I can do this, you can do this. I'll be looking for your post tomorrow morning. Good to be quit with you.
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Ok, Ok
30 minutes after I first posted this, I took my two tins to the bathroom and flushed them. That was 3 hours and 10 minutes ago. I now feel like someone caked a wad of vaseline over my eyeballs, and I'm twitchin and bitchin, but I've begun the detox process.
I posted to the Sept 2011 quit group and I'm gonna give this a shot.
Thanks for the no bullshit, kick in the ass
If you're just giving it a shot, you will fail. OWN yourself today. Aren't you tired of being a slave? You've taken the first step by posting roll. Now, do whatever it takes to stay nicotine free the rest of the day, because nicotine is off the table for you and me. Stay on here reading until you go to bed. That will help pass the time. Then get up tomorrow and post roll first thing. Don't think about it, just post and live up to your word. Just focus on each day as it comes right now.
If I can do this, you can do this. I'll be looking for your post tomorrow morning. Good to be quit with you.
Thanks for the DIP dMan! (http://media.ebaumsworld.com/mediaFiles/picture/1430838/81362387.gif)
Now, keep that shit out of your face ya hear.
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Ok, Ok
30 minutes after I first posted this, I took my two tins to the bathroom and flushed them. That was 3 hours and 10 minutes ago. I now feel like someone caked a wad of vaseline over my eyeballs, and I'm twitchin and bitchin, but I've begun the detox process.
I posted to the Sept 2011 quit group and I'm gonna give this a shot.
Thanks for the no bullshit, kick in the ass
If you're just giving it a shot, you will fail. OWN yourself today. Aren't you tired of being a slave? You've taken the first step by posting roll. Now, do whatever it takes to stay nicotine free the rest of the day, because nicotine is off the table for you and me. Stay on here reading until you go to bed. That will help pass the time. Then get up tomorrow and post roll first thing. Don't think about it, just post and live up to your word. Just focus on each day as it comes right now.
If I can do this, you can do this. I'll be looking for your post tomorrow morning. Good to be quit with you.
Listen to what Gmann said. Giving it a "shot" is not good enough.
Some times I have difficulty explaining this but it is all your choice.
If you make the choice to be done, then your done. It IS that easy. There will be some shitty days and times ahead. We are here to help you through that.
1.Make the promise every day to not use.
2.Don't use
Make that decision daily to do these two things and you're 100% guaranteed success.
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Ok, Ok
30 minutes after I first posted this, I took my two tins to the bathroom and flushed them. That was 3 hours and 10 minutes ago. I now feel like someone caked a wad of vaseline over my eyeballs, and I'm twitchin and bitchin, but I've begun the detox process.
I posted to the Sept 2011 quit group and I'm gonna give this a shot.
Thanks for the no bullshit, kick in the ass
If you're just giving it a shot, you will fail. OWN yourself today. Aren't you tired of being a slave? You've taken the first step by posting roll. Now, do whatever it takes to stay nicotine free the rest of the day, because nicotine is off the table for you and me. Stay on here reading until you go to bed. That will help pass the time. Then get up tomorrow and post roll first thing. Don't think about it, just post and live up to your word. Just focus on each day as it comes right now.
If I can do this, you can do this. I'll be looking for your post tomorrow morning. Good to be quit with you.
Listen to what Gmann said. Giving it a "shot" is not good enough.
Some times I have difficulty explaining this but it is all your choice.
If you make the choice to be done, then your done. It IS that easy. There will be some shitty days and times ahead. We are here to help you through that.
1.Make the promise every day to not use.
2.Don't use
Make that decision daily to do these two things and you're 100% guaranteed success.
These 2 are correct. I really don't want to waste my time with someone who want's to "give it a shot"
We are all or none here.
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welcome to THE quit. Just for today. Four years means nothing.
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Nice job posting roll today. Love it. :)
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So tomorrow at 11:30AM it will be 72 hours since I've had any tobacco in my system. Thanks to you all. Just reading everybody's posts makes a big difference, and I'm surprised how solemnly I take that rollcall.
I have a theory: No one person has enough willpower to slay the nicodemon, but when I'm runnnin low on willpower, I can draw on yours through this site. And I store my surplus willpower (if I have some) on the boards for someone else to draw upon if they need it.
I have a concern though. Although I have been very muddy mentally the last couple of days, I haven't really had any extreme cravings. It worries me that I will have trouble when they do come. But WTF, worrying about what's to come doesn't seem to be what this process is all about. I feel better already.
Thanks again all, you guys rock and/or roll!
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Reading posts, writing posts, helping other quitters out there...that is what keeps me busy during the idle times where I would previously pack a dip and do nothing productive.
Stock up on seeds, gum, fake, whatever you need to counter the crave. I keep that stuff handy during the times I normally would throw in a lip, like when watching the game on TV or surfing the net.
You can do this. You are doing it. Each day that passes, your quit grows stronger.
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The first part of your post (which is spot on) is the answer to the second part of your post. It may well get harder, but you'll know how to deal with it. You'll post roll first thing in the morning and you'll hold onto that oath, come what may. Take some of my willpower if you need it. I'll ask for some of yours when I need it back. I'm quit with you.
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You can count on me.
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Welcome to the quit dman. You can do this. Read read read. Educate yourself on what's coming by hearing past experiences. Post roll, get involved, get that quit going brother. Reach out if you need to.
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I'm at day 150. I don't measure my quit in how much or little I want to dip now, rather I measure it in how easy it is to say no to myself. You have and are battling the toughest part and you are winning but it can be so overwhelming initially that you may not know it yet.
Nicotine will change the attacks soon. Once you have defeated her physical control on you she will start the mental warfare but in a subtle way--the thrill of the one night stand for old times sake. Just remember that she is a black widow that wants to eff you and then kill you!
Keep drawing support from the rest of the family here. I saw a couple guys that were posting support this morning in the 800s and I don't deserve a celebratory dip if those guys with 2 more years of quit don't.
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Right on Brother- Glad to have you in Sept 2011. And fuck you too 'Finger' if you haven't had any bad cravings, LOL, consider it a blessing :D . In all seriousness, welcome to Sept 2011, glad to be quit with you today. Feel free to PM me if those cravings do kick up and you're looking for some support.
AceInTheHole
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I'm with the September quit group, and I'm going on a canoe trip to the BWCA (on the Canadian border) in three weeks. There's no possibility of internet or cell phone access in the BWCA, so I won't be able to post roll for those 6 (maybe 7) days. I'll also be traveling before and after that, so I'll need numbers from some helpful quit-buddy(no homo) to text my roll.
Thanks
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I'm with the September quit group, and I'm going on a canoe trip to the BWCA (on the Canadian border) in three weeks. There's no possibility of internet or cell phone access in the BWCA, so I won't be able to post roll for those 6 (maybe 7) days. I'll also be traveling before and after that, so I'll need numbers from some helpful quit-buddy(no homo) to text my roll.
Thanks
Any of you pirates got this?