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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: scheller on September 12, 2012, 08:49:00 PM
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Hello
My name is Zack and I have decided to quit. As I right this I have a dip in and by the time I'm done it will be gone. I have been dipping for 10 years and I'm tired of it. I hate the need for it, the money wasted on it, and the looks I get when I spit. Most of all I hate the dip itself. I have no need for it in my life anymore. I know its going to be tough and I have accepted that. I also know that it will not be the toughest thing I've ever gone through in my life. I've been having panic attacks for about a year now and have struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember. If I can make it through a panic attack, which feels like I'm dying, then I can make it through anything. I just need to stay positive and remember that this is all for my own good, and for the good of my family.
This website is great and I love reading the stories of people who have quit. It makes me realize that I am not alone and that it is possible. A little reassurance goes a long way in my mind.
Any advice or encouragement would be appreciated.
Thank you.
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Hello
My name is Zack and I have decided to quit. As I right this I have a dip in and by the time I'm done it will be gone. I have been dipping for 10 years and I'm tired of it. I hate the need for it, the money wasted on it, and the looks I get when I spit. Most of all I hate the dip itself. I have no need for it in my life anymore. I know its going to be tough and I have accepted that. I also know that it will not be the toughest thing I've ever gone through in my life. I've been having panic attacks for about a year now and have struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember. If I can make it through a panic attack, which feels like I'm dying, then I can make it through anything. I just need to stay positive and remember that this is all for my own good, and for the good of my family.
This website is great and I love reading the stories of people who have quit. It makes me realize that I am not alone and that it is possible. A little reassurance goes a long way in my mind.
Any advice or encouragement would be appreciated.
Thank you.
Welcome,
read up while you're here, check the welcome center (in the top bar, text is pink) Your quit group is December 2012 (you'll hit 100 days quit in December) go there, post roll, introduce yourself to your group and make friends there. reach out when you have a need, everyone here wants to see you make it!
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Hello
My name is Zack and I have decided to quit. As I right this I have a dip in and by the time I'm done it will be gone. I have been dipping for 10 years and I'm tired of it. I hate the need for it, the money wasted on it, and the looks I get when I spit. Most of all I hate the dip itself. I have no need for it in my life anymore. I know its going to be tough and I have accepted that. I also know that it will not be the toughest thing I've ever gone through in my life. I've been having panic attacks for about a year now and have struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember. If I can make it through a panic attack, which feels like I'm dying, then I can make it through anything. I just need to stay positive and remember that this is all for my own good, and for the good of my family.
This website is great and I love reading the stories of people who have quit. It makes me realize that I am not alone and that it is possible. A little reassurance goes a long way in my mind.
Any advice or encouragement would be appreciated.
Thank you.
Welcome,
read up while you're here, check the welcome center (in the top bar, text is pink) Your quit group is December 2012 (you'll hit 100 days quit in December) go there, post roll, introduce yourself to your group and make friends there. reach out when you have a need, everyone here wants to see you make it!
Zack, don't underestimate the pain you are about to encounter. I've experiences sever depression anxiety and panic attacks for decades, but what I experienced my first week I wasn't prepared for. I'm more than happy to give you a hand if you need help. Your story is similar to another excellent quitter who just reached HOF yesterday. Diesel suffered sever anxiety for the first few weeks and pushed through even though he couldn't talk his Dr. To prescribe any meds. He is a hero of quit!
You can do this not because you have survived panic attacts but because you are like each one of us addicts you want to quit and we all quit everyday. Everyone can quit for 1 day! Pm me.
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Hello
My name is Zack and I have decided to quit. As I right this I have a dip in and by the time I'm done it will be gone. I have been dipping for 10 years and I'm tired of it. I hate the need for it, the money wasted on it, and the looks I get when I spit. Most of all I hate the dip itself. I have no need for it in my life anymore. I know its going to be tough and I have accepted that. I also know that it will not be the toughest thing I've ever gone through in my life. I've been having panic attacks for about a year now and have struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember. If I can make it through a panic attack, which feels like I'm dying, then I can make it through anything. I just need to stay positive and remember that this is all for my own good, and for the good of my family.
This website is great and I love reading the stories of people who have quit. It makes me realize that I am not alone and that it is possible. A little reassurance goes a long way in my mind.
Any advice or encouragement would be appreciated.
Thank you.
Welcome - This is my first day and I'm just like you. Anxioty for years on and off but more on since I quit. It drives me freaking crazy....6'2", 245 ex-athlete that is scared of pretty much nothing. Will take an ass beating with the best of them if need be and I have panic attacks. How do you explain that besides letting you know you're not alone. We will beat this demon along with everyone else on this site. I'm going the Dec group as well. Get in and we'll kick it's ass together. IM me if you need help or need to vent.
tough times don't last, tough people do.
Mike
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Hey guys,
This also is my first day quitting... again. I've quit before, for a full two years even, but tough times brought me back to the snuff and got me hooked again. I'm determined to stop though, else I wouldn't keep trying.
How do you guys stay away from it and prevent a backslide? My toughest times staying away from it are when I'm home by myself after work. I can stay off it when I'm around my girlfriend, or other people, but it's so trying when I'm alone.
What do you guys do to not dip when you're by yourself?
Thanks all, and stay strong in your fight to quit.
Jon
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Hey guys,
This also is my first day quitting... again. I've quit before, for a full two years even, but tough times brought me back to the snuff and got me hooked again. I'm determined to stop though, else I wouldn't keep trying.
How do you guys stay away from it and prevent a backslide? My toughest times staying away from it are when I'm home by myself after work. I can stay off it when I'm around my girlfriend, or other people, but it's so trying when I'm alone.
What do you guys do to not dip when you're by yourself?
Thanks all, and stay strong in your fight to quit.
Jon
to all three of the rooks in this thread, that last question by wojo is important.
how do you do it? when the sun goes down, and the girlfriend/wife/kids/boyfriend/dog/etc goes to be and it is just you... how do you manage?
you do it with the help of KTC and the good people (let me go, i'm on a roll) that come here. KTC was founded on the principles of personal accountability, honor, trust, friendship, and a DAILY COMMITTMENT.
we post roll here. it is our promise not to use nicotine (in ANY form) for that day. then we simply keep our word. it is very simple in concept, but hard to execute. you have to be a man (or woman) of your word. you have to be willing to cut ties with friends that use nicotine... sometimes for just a stretch, sometimes forever. you have to be willing to avoid triggers. to stop drinking. to stop playing softball.
you have to be committed during the highs, the easy days; you have to be committed during the lows and the hard days. you have to be as dedicated to quitting every day as you were to dipping every day.
let me ask you... you're going on vacation to Bumfuck, Nowhere. Hunting trip with the boys in the middle of virgin forest (don't even try to fuck the knotholes). when you were a dipper, would you even THINK to embark without a solid plan for having enough dip for the trip? by a log, or two, or three? you have to do the same prep when you're quitting. going on a trip to the artic circle? have a plan in place to quit daily. spend the money for a sat connection, give an eskimo a handjob, whatever. make. it. happen.
we quit daily with a promise... to ourselves, to our family, to our friends, and to our KTC brothers. that promise is your roll call post.
we then keep our word at all costs. you eliminate friends, family, and co-workers that erode your will. don't kill them.... you've read too many spy novels. just don't hang out with them anymore.
you come back and do it again the next day. we take it one day at a time here. there is no forever at KTC. i've posted for 484 of my 487 days quit, and each of those posts was only good for one day. those other three days? those were days that i "forgot," and i really did forget to post (long after 100 days). those three days were also the closest i've come to caving... not because i had crazy craves, but because those were the days nicotine wasn't officially off the table.
TL:DR?
1. post roll
2. man up and keep your fucking word.
3. make posting roll your new habit. it's better for you.
go post roll. if you've already posted today, post it again for shits and grins.
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As WT said I had anxiety up the ASS when I quit. Literally my body went haywire when I deprived it of nicotine. Anxiety attacks, depression, just flat out weird shit that I had never had in my life. I thought fuck this I cant do it...I'm not made to quit, I gotta go back to my friend kodiak. But I didn't.
I'm still not sure why I didn't. Ive started and stopped/quit shit all my life. I still have a half cut down tree in my yard for crying out loud.
Anyway I don't wanna tell u my life story but here's my 2 cents. If anxiety, panic attacks, depression are really fucking with you go see a doctor. I'm 6'4 270lb (all muscle of course) and I TRIED to ride it out thinking "I'm a bad ass I can beat this on my own". Wrong.
I ended up going go my regular doc, burned through 2 psychiatrists, and see a substance abuse couuncellor. I'm still on anti anxiety meds and small dose of a anti depression medicine. That mean I'm a pussy? Some on here may think so but I don't give a fuck.
Im 102 days quit and I'm about to come off the meds. Bottom line do what you gotta do to quit. Go see a doctoc, talk to a therapist, hell stand on your head and beat off if you have to. Bottom line is I did what I had to and it was 1000000% worth it. The meds took the edge off but it was still me that WANTED to quit. There's no "quit pill" out there but there are "assists" that can get you off the start line easier. Use the assists if you really want this. Some guys need em, some don't. The way I see it who gives a fuck if you stop finger banging a can a slowly killing yourself with worm dirt.
Anyway, I'm not quit guru or long time vet but that's the Gods honest best advice I personally can give you. One last thing...try to remember in the early days of your quit when you're really struggling don't think "this is the rest of my life, no way I can do this". Think of it more of an ugly snap shot in your life on a road to a better life. That attitude really helped me out. Every day without dip you win a little. Eventually those little victories add up. Just gotta do what it takes to stick with it.
Damnable I'm a long winded asshole.
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Damnable I'm a long winded asshole.
lol....
see below.
nice to know you, fellow asshole!