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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Bram on June 12, 2015, 09:56:00 AM
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I'm months away from being a 20 year addict. I know quitting will not stop my addiction but I want to be able to at least tell my boys I am clean. I am tired of lying to my wife, boys, family, friends, coworkers, and students. All the while I sneak off for one last dip. I am tired of dropping 20+ dollars a week just to lie. I'm sick of being selfish.
I originally found KTC one year ago and quit, without support, for 6 months. I thought I could do it without support or help. I have a hard time asking for both. I couldn't do it alone, so I am back and I am not going to do it alone. The hardest part was signing up and writing this intro. Now that I am over the hump...I am quit, done, finished and I walk this path with my new supporters, ODNT and anniesdaddy. Thanks for the help fellas and reaching out to me.
For those of you thinking about or planning on quitting, start today, ask for support, and pledge to be nic free. Thanks to all the veterans who continue to support us newbies. Thank you to all that come before. I quit for good and pledge to do so every morning. I quit with you all today and tomorrow.
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I'm months away from being a 20 year addict. I know quitting will not stop my addiction but I want to be able to at least tell my boys I am clean. I am tired of lying to my wife, boys, family, friends, coworkers, and students. All the while I sneak off for one last dip. I am tired of dropping 20+ dollars a week just to lie. I'm sick of being selfish.
I originally found KTC one year ago and quit, without support, for 6 months. I thought I could do it without support or help. I have a hard time asking for both. I couldn't do it alone, so I am back and I am not going to do it alone. The hardest part was signing up and writing this intro. Now that I am over the hump...I am quit, done, finished and I walk this path with my new supporters, ODNT and anniesdaddy. Thanks for the help fellas and reaching out to me.
For those of you thinking about or planning on quitting, start today, ask for support, and pledge to be nic free. Thanks to all the veterans who continue to support us newbies. Thank you to all that come before. I quit for good and pledge to do so every morning. I quit with you all today and tomorrow.
Bram welcome to KTC. I like you thought I could do this all alone. When I joined in July of 2013 I was real quiet and kept to myself for the first month or so. Then I finally started to see the brotherhood that was present here. I could never go to a lifetime friend of mine or a co-worker and tell them I was an addict and I needed help. I guess that was either foolish pride or tobacco whispering in my ear. None the less, I finally did it here and exposed myself to all of the lies and bullshit. I am an addict still and I am a month away from being quit for two years. I guess I will consider myself an addict at least until I am dip free for as many years as I was a dipper. I am not even sure that day will come yet.
I am glad to see you say that you want to quit lying to your wife and family and co-workers. That is the kind of resolve it takes, now be clear that you are quitting for yourself not them. This helps remind yourself that you are an addict because of your choices not theirs, thus when you rage and you will do not take it out on anyone else but yourself. You may find that writing a nicely worded FUCK YOU letter to US Tobacco may help too (I wrote one but never mailed it).
Exercise and drinking lots of water will help you with cravings. I used to drop into push-ups or burpees when I got an urge. Have your wife read up on the main site (www.killthecan.org (http://www.killthecan.org)), as you should too. There are lots of useful articles on there. Read the stories of other quitters here, invest some time daily post roll, read and help others. Helping others helps remind you of your bad days on good days.
Finally, make this shit REAL, exchange phone numbers with another quitter, find a quitter in your area and meet them face to face. I can tell you from experience it really does help you turn into the quitter I believe you want to be.
Now, quit on and feel free to let me know at anytime if I can help you. My phone number is one small request away if you would like, just shoot me a PM.
Pinched
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I'm months away from being a 20 year addict. I know quitting will not stop my addiction but I want to be able to at least tell my boys I am clean. I am tired of lying to my wife, boys, family, friends, coworkers, and students. All the while I sneak off for one last dip. I am tired of dropping 20+ dollars a week just to lie. I'm sick of being selfish.
I originally found KTC one year ago and quit, without support, for 6 months. I thought I could do it without support or help. I have a hard time asking for both. I couldn't do it alone, so I am back and I am not going to do it alone. The hardest part was signing up and writing this intro. Now that I am over the hump...I am quit, done, finished and I walk this path with my new supporters, ODNT and anniesdaddy. Thanks for the help fellas and reaching out to me.
For those of you thinking about or planning on quitting, start today, ask for support, and pledge to be nic free. Thanks to all the veterans who continue to support us newbies. Thank you to all that come before. I quit for good and pledge to do so every morning. I quit with you all today and tomorrow.
Bram welcome to KTC. I like you thought I could do this all alone. When I joined in July of 2013 I was real quiet and kept to myself for the first month or so. Then I finally started to see the brotherhood that was present here. I could never go to a lifetime friend of mine or a co-worker and tell them I was an addict and I needed help. I guess that was either foolish pride or tobacco whispering in my ear. None the less, I finally did it here and exposed myself to all of the lies and bullshit. I am an addict still and I am a month away from being quit for two years. I guess I will consider myself an addict at least until I am dip free for as many years as I was a dipper. I am not even sure that day will come yet.
I am glad to see you say that you want to quit lying to your wife and family and co-workers. That is the kind of resolve it takes, now be clear that you are quitting for yourself not them. This helps remind yourself that you are an addict because of your choices not theirs, thus when you rage and you will do not take it out on anyone else but yourself. You may find that writing a nicely worded FUCK YOU letter to US Tobacco may help too (I wrote one but never mailed it).
Exercise and drinking lots of water will help you with cravings. I used to drop into push-ups or burpees when I got an urge. Have your wife read up on the main site (www.killthecan.org (http://www.killthecan.org)), as you should too. There are lots of useful articles on there. Read the stories of other quitters here, invest some time daily post roll, read and help others. Helping others helps remind you of your bad days on good days.
Finally, make this shit REAL, exchange phone numbers with another quitter, find a quitter in your area and meet them face to face. I can tell you from experience it really does help you turn into the quitter I believe you want to be.
Now, quit on and feel free to let me know at anytime if I can help you. My phone number is one small request away if you would like, just shoot me a PM.
Pinched
I'm quitting with you today my brother! Just remember when it gets tough it's not impossible! You got this and we're all here with you!
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Bram, you've got some solid advice from a damn fine quitter. You've been down this road before (without the support of KTC) and you know the cravings and feelings you are/will be facing. Take it one day, hour, or minute at a time if you have to. Lean on us for support, that's what makes KTC quitters successful. Feel free to pm me as well. -Midwest-
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Strong men ask for help when they can't do alone what needs to be done.
It is tough to wake up every day for almost 20 years knowing that you are a liar about your addiction, isn't it. Give up the nicotine, give up being a liar. I quit with you today.
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Awesome, welcome aboard. PM if you need additional support!
YOU GOT THIS!!!!
We have all lied and done some really stupid things to support our addiction.
I dipped for 22 years and quit 11 days ago.
Feeling like a champ, embarrassed it took me so long to do it.
I quit with you today.
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I'm months away from being a 20 year addict. I know quitting will not stop my addiction but I want to be able to at least tell my boys I am clean. I am tired of lying to my wife, boys, family, friends, coworkers, and students. All the while I sneak off for one last dip. I am tired of dropping 20+ dollars a week just to lie. I'm sick of being selfish.
I originally found KTC one year ago and quit, without support, for 6 months. I thought I could do it without support or help. I have a hard time asking for both. I couldn't do it alone, so I am back and I am not going to do it alone. The hardest part was signing up and writing this intro. Now that I am over the hump...I am quit, done, finished and I walk this path with my new supporters, ODNT and anniesdaddy. Thanks for the help fellas and reaching out to me.
For those of you thinking about or planning on quitting, start today, ask for support, and pledge to be nic free. Thanks to all the veterans who continue to support us newbies. Thank you to all that come before. I quit for good and pledge to do so every morning. I quit with you all today and tomorrow.
Bram welcome to KTC. I like you thought I could do this all alone. When I joined in July of 2013 I was real quiet and kept to myself for the first month or so. Then I finally started to see the brotherhood that was present here. I could never go to a lifetime friend of mine or a co-worker and tell them I was an addict and I needed help. I guess that was either foolish pride or tobacco whispering in my ear. None the less, I finally did it here and exposed myself to all of the lies and bullshit. I am an addict still and I am a month away from being quit for two years. I guess I will consider myself an addict at least until I am dip free for as many years as I was a dipper. I am not even sure that day will come yet.
I am glad to see you say that you want to quit lying to your wife and family and co-workers. That is the kind of resolve it takes, now be clear that you are quitting for yourself not them. This helps remind yourself that you are an addict because of your choices not theirs, thus when you rage and you will do not take it out on anyone else but yourself. You may find that writing a nicely worded FUCK YOU letter to US Tobacco may help too (I wrote one but never mailed it).
Exercise and drinking lots of water will help you with cravings. I used to drop into push-ups or burpees when I got an urge. Have your wife read up on the main site (www.killthecan.org (http://www.killthecan.org)), as you should too. There are lots of useful articles on there. Read the stories of other quitters here, invest some time daily post roll, read and help others. Helping others helps remind you of your bad days on good days.
Finally, make this shit REAL, exchange phone numbers with another quitter, find a quitter in your area and meet them face to face. I can tell you from experience it really does help you turn into the quitter I believe you want to be.
Now, quit on and feel free to let me know at anytime if I can help you. My phone number is one small request away if you would like, just shoot me a PM.
Pinched
Pinched,
Thank you. I truly appreciate hearing from others that have gone through the same things. It strengthens my resolve to keep my quit going. Which i needed today. Just jumped on here because I was craving and needed a boost. This did it.
Thanks!
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Bram, you've got some solid advice from a damn fine quitter. You've been down this road before (without the support of KTC) and you know the cravings and feelings you are/will be facing. Take it one day, hour, or minute at a time if you have to. Lean on us for support, that's what makes KTC quitters successful. Feel free to pm me as well. -Midwest-
Midwest,
Thanks for the support and the offer to help.
Bram
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Strong men ask for help when they can't do alone what needs to be done.
It is tough to wake up every day for almost 20 years knowing that you are a liar about your addiction, isn't it. Give up the nicotine, give up being a liar. I quit with you today.
And I with you!
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Awesome, welcome aboard. PM if you need additional support!
YOU GOT THIS!!!!
We have all lied and done some really stupid things to support our addiction.
I dipped for 22 years and quit 11 days ago.
Feeling like a champ, embarrassed it took me so long to do it.
I quit with you today.
Mtn Climber,
Glad to meet another on the road towards the century mark. I look forward to walking this with you. I appreciate the support and quit today with you as well.
Bram
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I'm a 3 day free man myself. Just stopped in to offer my support. We are going to make it! We have to. The only other option is allowing ourselves the opportunity to have surgery on our mouth and hope we still have a jaw left. I'm done!
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Day 3 sucked. Nothing seemed to go the right direction. Couldn't and still can't sleep well into the morning of day 4 and soon the family will be up and attum while I stumble through breakfast. Ok done feeling sorry for myself. I will continue into my quit. I have posted roll and will honor my pledge to you all. Good morning, no make that a great morning to not be controlled by my addiction!
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Day 3 sucked. Nothing seemed to go the right direction. Couldn't and still can't sleep well into the morning of day 4 and soon the family will be up and attum while I stumble through breakfast. Ok done feeling sorry for myself. I will continue into my quit. I have posted roll and will honor my pledge to you all. Good morning, no make that a great morning to not be controlled by my addiction!
Day 3 and 4 are probably going to suck even if you got 8 hours of the bests sleep you've ever had. Everybody's suck sucks in its own way, and it sucks. Hang strong. I quit with you today.
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I'm right there with you and the suck, but it's getting better. We will make it! You know we will be feeling better in a few more days.
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Day 3 sucked. Nothing seemed to go the right direction. Couldn't and still can't sleep well into the morning of day 4 and soon the family will be up and attum while I stumble through breakfast. Ok done feeling sorry for myself. I will continue into my quit. I have posted roll and will honor my pledge to you all. Good morning, no make that a great morning to not be controlled by my addiction!
Day 3 and 4 are probably going to suck even if you got 8 hours of the bests sleep you've ever had. Everybody's suck sucks in its own way, and it sucks. Hang strong. I quit with you today.
This is the last day 3 you'll ever have man.
Your body is in full on withdrawals. Nicotine attacKs your brain by connecting it's usage with your memories. That means all of your good memories start and 3nd with nicotine. All your bad ones....well, they were made better by the poison. It's all a lie though. You lived without this stuff before, and you're better without it now. You'll see.
Once the nicotine gets out of your sytem, you begin healing. It's little stuff at first like taking a shower without thinking about dip but soon turns into getting through your whole morning routine without thinking about. Physically, you'll begin healing soon. You'll have adrenaline bursts. You'll have lulls. It's all normal.
The key to this program is to take quitting one step at a time. Plan you quit, and don't get lost in forever. It can feel scary, but it can also make you overconfident. Make yourself a part of the community and make it physically hurt to let your brothers down.
I'm counting on you, and I'm here for you.
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I liked that you admitted you stopped using for 6 months, and then restarted because you didn't do it the KTC way. This way works, and will save your life, and the only cost is placing your name on roll daily. Not a bad deal IMHO.
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Congrats on the HOF Bram! You have fought through tremendous challenges to get here. Keep on fighting, never give up, and always know your KTC family is there for you.
CJ
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Congratulations Samurai!
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Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor Bram!
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Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor Bram!
Congrats on 200 Bram
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Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor Bram!
Congrats on 200 Bram
2nd floor- great job! Keep it rolling, stay sharp, nurture your quit! 'oh yeah'
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Congrats on 300 Bram! Keep kicking ass!
CJ
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Congrats on 300 Bram! Keep kicking ass!
CJ
One Year! Way to be Bram. Quit with you EDD.