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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Capt Kylos on November 30, 2010, 02:13:00 PM
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Well now that I found you all I should introduce myself. :) I started chewing tobacco at age 12 and except for the few years I took off to start and quit smoking I sit here at age 42.....2 days clean from dip. I feel like this is really my best chance to break the death grip this has had on me for decades. I have to make it because this is a battle for my soul and my life. My name is Kyle and I will beat this...this is the last Quit.
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No Caveing! No Going Back! My Resolve Grows! F-US Tobacco. Time for another bag of seeds. 'bang head'
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Great choice!!! I know it sucks right now...but you're living nic free. Congrats!!! Post roll every day, stay quit, repeat.
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One day at a time and it WILL get better.
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No Caveing! No Going Back! My Resolve Grows! F-US Tobacco. Time for another bag of seeds. 'bang head'
Well Done CK.
Seeds and sugar-free gum got me through the cravings. I'm 96 days into my Quit and still chomp on them. Not as much but still use them, whatever it takes.
Hang in there, you can do it, we are proof of this.
Brian
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Had my first "dip" dream......woke up pissed.....but feeling better today as the fog has lifted some......back at work today will be a challenge but I have my seeds and Smky Mt Fake ready.
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Having my first thoughts of caving during this quit........even have some stupid plan that popped in my head about how I was going to sneak out and buy a can after I dropped off my kids.....funny how the mind tries to de-rail your quit.
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Having my first thoughts of caving during this quit........even have some stupid plan that popped in my head about how I was going to sneak out and buy a can after I dropped off my kids.....funny how the mind tries to de-rail your quit.
Nic can be funny that way, about when I hit 20 or 25 days, I "sleep" drove to the Red Barn discount joint in the morning just befor work, like I had done a million times before to buy a can of chew. Did not even think, just listening to ESPN, driving and parking right in front of the store. When I finally realized where I was, I was friggin pissed and drove off to work. No dip purchase that day, just fighting 27 years of addiction and programming.
This shit will sneak up on you and even though I am only at 54 days quit, I have already seen a few land mines and situations where the Nic Bitch can be a tricky MFR and try to trip you up. Stay Vigiliant, get numbers, and stay active on this board.
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SO I went to the store.....with my kids before I dropped them off....and I was standing there at the supermarket customer service (thats where they sell cigs, chew and fake stuff) with the stupidest look on my face....kind of an uncomfortable smerk just looking at the 100 different flavors of death....thinking I must look like a methadone clinic groupie.....then somehow I ordered the Smky Mt FAke snuff......$3.84 she said......I snapped out of it said something about "thats as much as the real thing but worth every penny"........
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SO I went to the store.....with my kids before I dropped them off....and I was standing there at the supermarket customer service (thats where they sell cigs, chew and fake stuff) with the stupidest look on my face....kind of an uncomfortable smerk just looking at the 100 different flavors of death....thinking I must look like a methadone clinic groupie.....then somehow I ordered the Smky Mt FAke snuff......$3.84 she said......I snapped out of it said something about "thats as much as the real thing but worth every penny"........
Safeway here in Lafayette has it for just under 3.00 if I recall correctly.
Lots of Colorado quitters on here - I'm just down the road from you.
This place WILL work - it is as close to a guarantee as you will ever find - provided you follow the plan, post your word daily and keep your word. The battle is worth every every bit of the temporary pain - you MUST fight it every day.
Welcome.
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Well I had to go back and look how far I have come in a very short time....still need seeds but no fake for me now....great tool but no need at this point in my quit...seeds are a mainstay for my quit and I would highly recomend Spitz Seeds the BBQ, spicy and cracked pepper being my favorite. :wub: ..the David brand ones are just too salty....I mean shrivel your face salty, so they get the big 'Finger' from me.
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Well I had to go back and look how far I have come in a very short time....still need seeds but no fake for me now....great tool but no need at this point in my quit...seeds are a mainstay for my quit and I would highly recomend Spitz Seeds the BBQ, spicy and cracked pepper being my favorite. :wub: ..the David brand ones are just to salty....I mean shrivel your face salty, so they get the big 'Finger' from me.
Congrats, I remember sweating whether I would dip the fake shit forever. I just gradually stopped using it. I do still keep a can in my briefcase and one in my golf bag just in case.
STAY QUIT
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Well I had to go back and look how far I have come in a very short time....still need seeds but no fake for me now....great tool but no need at this point in my quit...seeds are a mainstay for my quit and I would highly recomend Spitz Seeds the BBQ, spicy and cracked pepper being my favorite. :wub: ..the David brand ones are just to salty....I mean shrivel your face salty, so they get the big 'Finger' from me.
Congrats, I remember sweating whether I would dip the fake shit forever. I just gradually stopped using it. I do still keep a can in my briefcase and one in my golf bag just in case.
STAY QUIT
I, too, just kind of stopped using the fake stuff. Never really had a defining moment, just woke up one day and realized it had been well over 2 months since the last time I used the fake. Amazing how your brain stops asking you to do pointless things wants the "reward" is gone.
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Today May 31st is World No Tobacco Day...my first being quit in 3 decades.
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Today May 31st is World No Tobacco Day...my first being quit in 3 decades.
feels good don't it?
celebrate the victories....they ALL count.
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Well I had to go back and look how far I have come in a very short time....still need seeds but no fake for me now....great tool but no need at this point in my quit...seeds are a mainstay for my quit and I would highly recomend Spitz Seeds the BBQ, spicy and cracked pepper being my favorite. :wub: ..the David brand ones are just to salty....I mean shrivel your face salty, so they get the big 'Finger' from me.
Congrats, I remember sweating whether I would dip the fake shit forever. I just gradually stopped using it. I do still keep a can in my briefcase and one in my golf bag just in case.
STAY QUIT
I, too, just kind of stopped using the fake stuff. Never really had a defining moment, just woke up one day and realized it had been well over 2 months since the last time I used the fake. Amazing how your brain stops asking you to do pointless things wants the "reward" is gone.
Agreed Cubs....I can't imagine typing that name everyday... 'yak' I still have three full cans of fake in my freezer as a just in case blanket. I never go to play a softball game without a can of fake. Haven't had a crave during a game, but still know that if one comes . I'll have my wooby to get me threw.
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So as I sit here two weeks past my second floor I am studying the irony of the faithful day in November that I quit.....I was driving my car and had just finished my last dip of Copenhagen. I looked over at my buddy Randy who was smoking away at his hand rolled Drum cigs like he always was....I told him I was not going to buy another can of dip. He looked at me like I was some sort of crazy lunatic ready to punch his mother. After he wiped that look off his face he chuckled and asked me why...I looked over and mumbled that I was sick of the shit and I knew deep down it would kill me, and I was ready to quit and if he wanted to live a full life he should too. He smirked and remarked on how long this would last, and he had never seen me without a dip in my face. He rolled another smoke and said "good luck with that".
Now over seven months later I am still quit and enjoying my freedom. Randy has not quit....he developed pain in his mouth about five months ago and had a tooth extracted. The pain did not stop with the pulling of the tooth...it increased. He visited the dentist several times and was finally referred to an oral surgeon. That oral surgeon told him that he may have cancer. That "may" have cancer has turned into stage four cancer of the tongue, jaw and throat...including a silver dollar sized tumor on his jaw and it has spread to several lymph nodes. On Friday he will have three inches of his jaw removed and most of his tongue....then radiation and chemo.
I quit, he did not. I gained freedom and he was given a 26% chance of living five years. I was given a new lease on life and he was given disfigurement and a possible death sentence. Stay quit.....it is life or death and that is the undeniable truth.
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Thanks for posting that Captain, as painful as it was to hear, I am sure it killed you to write it, Your friend will be in my continued prayers.
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We're with you Captain.
I'm proud to be quit with you.
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Thanks for posting that Captain, as painful as it was to hear, I am sure it killed you to write it, Your friend will be in my continued prayers.
Ditto.
30, please repost for the newbs.
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Stay quit.....it is life or death and that is the undeniable truth.
Captain - My thoughts and prayers are with you, your friend and his family. The part above in quotes is key for me in my 34 day battle against Nic. That is, as Nic addicts we have a choice that we must make each and every day. Live free or die. It is that simple. If you are "lucky" and do not get cancer and live to 90 while still packing lippers, you are dead. Why? Because you were a slave to Nic until your last breath. Death has many forms. Life only has one form for me, and that is freedom. Thank you for sharing.
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fucking a, that's scary shit right there. i'm real sorry to hear about your friend and wish him the best during the surgery and recovery.
i have doctor and dentist appointments this month. i hate how fucking stupid i was 14 yrs ago.
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Holy crap. Well if I needed a story to make sure I held true to my word today, that was it. I'm sorry for your friend but thanks for sharing the story.
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My quit is stronger. Crap.
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Oh captain my captain. . .
This sucks. I'm sorry to hear it. I will pray for your friend.
Thank you for sharing this though. This is among the most powerful stories I've heard told on this site in the almost year that I've been around. It scares me tremendously, but further validates my decision to quit. None of us can undo the damage that we may have already done, but we can all chose how to live moving forward.
New quitters, commit this story to memory. There will be a time when you will think 'yeah, no way that will happen to me.' I'm sure Randy said the same thing. Nobody cares about the odds if you're the one that it happens to. Call someone, text someone, hop into chat. . .do WHATEVER IT TAKES to keep you from going back down that road.
26%. . .Damn.
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Just a quick update....Randy's surgery was delayed for a week because he is battling a fever of unknown origin.....his wife told me that his weight has dropped to 126lbs and eating solid food is almost impossible.....sad shit....there is a benefit concert for Randy on July 13th at the Dickens Opera House here in Longmont Colorado featuring The Broken Everlys and special guest for $10.00....all proceeds to go to The Randall Barhite Cancer Fund.....any Denver Metro area quitters should come on up for some excellent music and help out someone less fortunate than yourself.
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I wish that I was there to come to the concert. Is there a website or anything like that where we can donate some money to his family? I would be happy to donate and I'm sure there are other folks here who would as well. Let us know when you get a chance. That was an unbelievably touching story for someone with a recent quit. It just reinforces everything that I'm doing. While I am so terribly sorry that your friend is going through this, it really is a reminder of the stakes at play here. Thank you for sharing it despite how hard it must be for you.
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Hey JRan I spoke with Randy and his wife and they are in the process of setting up a fund for Randy at his wife's credit union...I will let you know as soon as I have information..thanks for your kindness...just to let you know Randy is a painter by trade with little money and no insurance as he has been unable to work. What is most unsettling is the amount of pain this guy is in....he is taking heavy duty narcotics and he is still in unbearable pain, and the worse part is that the pain is only going to get worse with all the surgery. A painful drawn out torture is what tobacco induced cancer gives you, before it takes your life. Stay quit.
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Here is that information on Randy's cancer fund for those interested
Barhite Cancer Fund
Attention Monica
First Bank
1707 N. Main Street
Longmont, Colorado 80501
There is also a benefit concert for Randy at the Dickens Opera House in Longmont tomorrow July 13th at 7:00 pm $10.00 at the door for and all proceeds go to the Barhite Cancer Fund. Local quitters come on by and listen to some great music and help if you can.
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Well I wanted to give an update on Randy....after many delays he finally had a 12 hour surgery today to remove as much cancer from his jaw, tongue and throat as they could...they then dissected the lymph nodes on the left side of his neck that were found to be cancerous. Then to cover the defect left from the removal of the soft pallet and jaw they used a portion of his pectoris (chest) muscle. He will now spend the next week in ICU as he is on a vent to breath and has a feeding tube inserted for at least a month. As soon as he is able they will start radiation and chemo to try and kill this aggressive form of squamous cell carcinoma. That's a lot of suffering for being an addict to a poison plant. Stay quit.
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Well I wanted to give an update on Randy....after many delays he finally had a 12 hour surgery today to remove as much cancer from his jaw, tongue and throat as they could...they then dissected the lymph nodes on the left side of his neck that were found to be cancerous. Then to cover the defect left from the removal of the soft pallet and jaw they used a portion of his pectoris (chest) muscle. He will now spend the next week in ICU as he is on a vent to breath and has a feeding tube inserted for at least a month. As soon as he is able they will start radiation and chemo to try and kill this aggressive form of squamous cell carcinoma. That's a lot of suffering for being an addict to a poison plant. Stay quit.
Prayers for healing, peace, and comfort heading Randy's way right now. And my quit is stronger, too. Thanks for sharing, Capt.
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Unreal, yet so real. Please let your friend know his pain is helping others stay off that shit. Maybe some solice in this dark time.
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Capt. I am hearing more and more ot these stories these days. Everyone I hear about reinforces my quit!!! Thanks for sharing you friends story. I send my prayers for his cure and recovery.
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Well I wanted to give an update on Randy....after many delays he finally had a 12 hour surgery today to remove as much cancer from his jaw, tongue and throat as they could...they then dissected the lymph nodes on the left side of his neck that were found to be cancerous. Then to cover the defect left from the removal of the soft pallet and jaw they used a portion of his pectoris (chest) muscle. He will now spend the next week in ICU as he is on a vent to breath and has a feeding tube inserted for at least a month. As soon as he is able they will start radiation and chemo to try and kill this aggressive form of squamous cell carcinoma. That's a lot of suffering for being an addict to a poison plant. Stay quit.
There's no solace in this except that Randy's story reinforces our own quits. Every prospective quitter and every newbie should read this pronto!!!
My prayers for Randy and his family . . . .
Damn!!!
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So I am updating...Randy has been discharged to home care and I just got back from visiting him at home.....looking at him he could have been Rick Bender http://www.nosnuff.com/bio.html (http://www.nosnuff.com/bio.html) or Gruen von Behrens http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ns5FrRUaHT0 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ns5FrRUaHT0)
or Sean Marsee http://oralcancerfoundation.org/people/sean_marsee.htm (http://oralcancerfoundation.org/people/sean_marsee.htm). His face and neck were a swollen mess and where his peck should be one side is now flat and mangled. One thing I noticed that was truly different about him was his attitude.....receiving all your nourishment through a tube directly into your stomach has a way of changing you I suppose. I asked him if he was quit from tobacco....he told me that tobacco is a loaded gun and he had pulled the trigger one to many times and his will to live had overcome his desire to kill himself with Nicotiana tabacum. He now wants to go on a one man anti-tobacco crusade to anyone who wants to listen (especially children) about what tobacco will do for and to you. But first he must endure 31 days of radiation treatment and pack some weight on his 115lbs body. Stay quit, it is life or death.
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Sending some props Capt. Hope you're well and Randy is getting better. Keep fighting.
I quit with you brother.
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Sending some props Capt. Hope you're well and Randy is getting better. Keep fighting.
I quit with you brother.
Thoughts and prayers on the way Capt.
Godspeed and a quick, sucessful recovery for your friend.
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Man that is some powerful shit. My prayers go out to your friend and his family. His story should be a must read for any newbie on this site.
Wow... thanks for sharing.
STAY QUIT
Greg
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My thoughts and prayers go out to your friend.
This story, once again, should illustrate to everyone that we are not playing games around here--we are trying to save lives. I am proud to be a part of KTC.
Hopefully this story will cause some quitters to have that clicking sensation in their brain that says--"YES THIS IS REALLY IT FOR ME--NO MORE---EVER!"
Thanks for sharing
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Quick update on Randy......his post surgery progress is improving.....he is able to eat small amounts of soft foods orally and drink some liquids. Most of his nutrition is still done by feeding tube directly to his stomach. One of the harder things is living without a pectoral muscle on his left side and having to hold his head straight and upright with mangled neck muscles so his trach hole will heal properly. His weight has climbed to 135lbs so he will ready to do radiation treatments next week, but first he must have several of his teeth pulled before they BBQ where his jaw was. He will lose the ability to taste and make saliva...possibly permanently. Even after all he has gone through he still craves tobacco......think about that....
Stay quit....it is life or death.
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Quick update on Randy......his post surgery progress is improving.....he is able to eat small amounts of soft foods orally and drink some liquids. Most of his nutrition is still done by feeding tube directly to his stomach. One of the harder things is living without a pectoral muscle on his left side and having to hold his head straight and upright with mangled neck muscles so his trach hole will heal properly. His weight has climbed to 135lbs so he will ready to do radiation treatments next week, but first he must have several of his teeth pulled before they BBQ where his jaw was. He will lose the ability to taste and make saliva...possibly permanently. Even after all he has gone through he still craves tobacco......think about that....
Stay quit....it is life or death.
Please....tell Randy his story andhis spirit are keeping me quit!
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So I stopped by and saw Randy today. He is halfway through his daily radiation treatments. His face is still a swollen mess and now you can see the telltale signs of radiation burns on the side of his face and neck where the beam of radiation is concentrated on the spot where his jaw and tongue used to be. He can no longer make saliva because of the radiation and his taste buds are quickly being destroyed.
He describes the treatment as being BBQ-ed over the course of weeks with the discomfort building slowly into an all out pain fest that 30mg of morphine hardly touches. Compound that with still being fed through a tube to his stomach until late December and I can see that this guy is being tortured to his limit. I thank God every day I am quit. Stay quit it is life and death.
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Thanks for sharing this Capt. It helps keep me steadfast as does seeing your name in roll every morning. Hang in there brother. This is reality. This is life or death.
I quit with you bud.
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I wanted to use today(my one year quit anniversary)to update on Randy. He is done with radiation and has come through the experience pretty well. He is still rather weak from the treatments but his weight is holding and he is in good spirits. Now comes the hard part...the waiting....the constant vigilance for signs that the cancer will return....the patience to see if he will be in the 26% that survive for the five years plus after stage four oral cancer. The most important part of that wait is that he is QUIT....for as the doctors have told him any return to tobacco is certain death and he has heeded their warning. I am so thankful to be quit....it is life or death.
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Damn.
Thank you for continuously sharing Randy's story with us Capt. Prayers for him to make a recovery and to you for being an outstanding friend to Randy and all of us.
This is more proof that reality can be scarier then any sort of fiction.
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My prayers (remain) with Randy...Thank you for keeping us updated Captain
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Quit with you Capt.
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It has been a long time since I gave an update on Randy. I talked with him tonight for the first time in a few weeks and I was given the news that his cancer is back. Was I shocked...no...surprised?....no...I would say saddened would describe my feelings. His cancer has returned on the side of his jaw that was not removed. I think he knows his time is limited now. He is going back for more surgery, radiation and chemo. I want to give him hope but he knows all to well that odds are that he is a dead man. Tobacco does not care....it wants your life. It can't have mine....I'm quit. Stay quit it's life or death.
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So an update....Randy had 23 cancerous lymph nodes removed and what's left of his jaw shaved down in one of the areas where a cancerous node was touching the jaw bone.....now 30 days of radiation and several rounds of chemo It's looking pretty bad......stay quit it's life or death.
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Thank you for posting about Randy. I am new to the site and only 12 days in but Randy's story helped me through a very tough crave today. I am praying for Randy and his family and please pass along that he truly has helped another. He helped me stay quit today through a rough time. I'm sure he would rather be motivating others in a different way than facing the battles he has, but I pray for Randy and I thank him. God Bless Him!!! I quit with Capt. and Randy!!!
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Hey Capt...
again, i'm sorry to hear things are not going well for your buddy. i spent a long time last night reading and re-reading this thread, looking at some of the links, and just generally investing in my quit. it ain't much, but Randy sure helped make my quit stronger going forward.
thank you for sharing his story. proud to be quit with you today.
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quitting with you Capt.
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Imagine having so much of your face cut out that you have only chemotherapy to kill the cancer that is eating your flesh and bone. You are unable to lie supine because neck muscles have been dissected and your nerves cut so badly that your airway becomes compromised. Unable to be fitted for a radiation blocking mask until healing allows. Only to have the other side of your face irradiated this time in hopes of buring enough of you to kill the malignancy. As the cancer rages rampant. This is what tobacco leaves as it's legacy. Stay quit it's life or death.
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So sorry to hear how rough things are going for your friend.
I hate this damn drug.
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So sorry to hear how rough things are going for your friend.
I hate this damn drug.
This story has saved my quit several times. Anytime I start getting ideas of dipping again I just come in here and read through this thread. It brings me face to face with my reality if I ever decide to dip again..... I pray for Randy daily please let him know that through his struggles he has helped save my life and probably anyone else's that has read this.
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Been awhile since I gave an update on Randy. He finished his 28 radiation treatments two weeks ago, and this is four less treatments than the first round, but the radiation was increased for the second round. He also finished his 2 months of chemo to help increase the effectiveness of the radiation. One side effect of the radiation is that he can only open his mouth about 1 inch and must stack tongue depressors and stretch his mouth so that one day he can eat solid food again. He is optimistic that he is cured and in good spirits considering the circumstances and he is tobacco free. Stay quit....it's life of death.
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Thanks for keeping us up to speed on Randy. It scares the shit out of me when I think of all the chemicals we've all shoved into our mouths, and thinking of your friend going through all of this just makes it all that much more real.
My thoughts and prayers are with him and his family. Even though his life has already been altered, I pray that he will recover as completely as possible and be able to return to a normal life.
As always, keep us advised of his progress. His experience strengthens our quits.
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As always Capt. glad you're here. Quit with you today bud.
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I just got word that Randy is in the hospital. He started hemorrhaging out of his mouth and lungs yesterday. This tobacco induced cancer has metastasized and seems immune to radiation and chemo. I played 9 holes of golf with Randy just two weeks ago. Tobacco is poison of the highest degree.......stay quit it's life or death.
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I just got word that Randy is in the hospital. He started hemorrhaging out of his mouth and lungs yesterday. This tobacco induced cancer has metastasized and seems immune to radiation and chemo. I played 9 holes of golf with Randy just two weeks ago. Tobacco is poison of the highest degree.......stay quit it's life or death.
Sorry to hear that. I lost my dad to cancer in 2004. I hate cancer.
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I just got word that Randy is in the hospital. He started hemorrhaging out of his mouth and lungs yesterday. This tobacco induced cancer has metastasized and seems immune to radiation and chemo. I played 9 holes of golf with Randy just two weeks ago. Tobacco is poison of the highest degree.......stay quit it's life or death.
Sorry to hear that. I lost my dad to cancer in 2004. I hate cancer.
Damn capt. That is just painful to read. I can't imagine what it must feel to be you or Randy.
I agree, this is life or death. If not physical, mental and spiritual death is certain.
I pray that God will send angels to minister to him and his family. I hope he fights and wins.
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I just got word that Randy is in the hospital. He started hemorrhaging out of his mouth and lungs yesterday. This tobacco induced cancer has metastasized and seems immune to radiation and chemo. I played 9 holes of golf with Randy just two weeks ago. Tobacco is poison of the highest degree.......stay quit it's life or death.
Sorry to hear that. I lost my dad to cancer in 2004. I hate cancer.
Damn capt. That is just painful to read. I can't imagine what it must feel to be you or Randy.
I agree, this is life or death. If not physical, mental and spiritual death is certain.
I pray that God will send angels to minister to him and his family. I hope he fights and wins.
Prayers for Randy and his family.
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I just got word that Randy is in the hospital. He started hemorrhaging out of his mouth and lungs yesterday. This tobacco induced cancer has metastasized and seems immune to radiation and chemo. I played 9 holes of golf with Randy just two weeks ago. Tobacco is poison of the highest degree.......stay quit it's life or death.
Sorry to hear that. I lost my dad to cancer in 2004. I hate cancer.
Damn capt. That is just painful to read. I can't imagine what it must feel to be you or Randy.
I agree, this is life or death. If not physical, mental and spiritual death is certain.
I pray that God will send angels to minister to him and his family. I hope he fights and wins.
Prayers for Randy and his family.
My prayers are with Randy and his family.
This is my first time reading this thread. Captain, thank you for sharing.
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Thanks for sharing Capt---you are a monster Quitter. I am sorry your friend is going through this.
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Thanks for sharing Capt---you are a monster Quitter. I am sorry your friend is going through this.
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Hang in there Capt. Thoughts are with you.
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Thanks for sharing Capt---you are a monster Quitter. I am sorry your friend is going through this.
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Hang in there Capt. Thoughts are with you.
Me 2!! Capt I have missed your story somehow. Reading your updates about Randy leaves me thinking of my friend Roe! Very similar flesh and bone eating cancer! May Randy's suffering be kept to a minimum. May you stay strong and find comfort.
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Thanks for sharing Capt---you are a monster Quitter. I am sorry your friend is going through this.
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Hang in there Capt. Thoughts are with you.
Me 2!! Capt I have missed your story somehow. Reading your updates about Randy leaves me thinking of my friend Roe! Very similar flesh and bone eating cancer! May Randy's suffering be kept to a minimum. May you stay strong and find comfort.
X4 brother so sorry for your friend ..... FUCK TOBACCO!!!!!!
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Peace be with Randy.
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Quick update. Randy had surgery to stem bleeding from problem areas of his lung....they stopped the bleeding and he has stabilized for now....he's tough as shit. Stay quit it's life or death.
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Quick update. Randy had surgery to stem bleeding from problem areas of his lung....they stopped the bleeding and he has stabilized for now....he's tough as shit. Stay quit it's life or death.
Captain,
I don't know what to say or how to respond. My lack of words only tells me to say, "Thank you for the updates." If I don't respond it is because I am at a loss and don't know what to say but please keep posting updates. This is a post I want and need to follow.
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Quick update. Randy had surgery to stem bleeding from problem areas of his lung....they stopped the bleeding and he has stabilized for now....he's tough as shit. Stay quit it's life or death.
Captain,
I don't know what to say or how to respond. My lack of words only tells me to say, "Thank you for the updates." If I don't respond it is because I am at a loss and don't know what to say but please keep posting updates. This is a post I want and need to follow.
Capt
Anything I can do please let me know. I don't know what to say but will help any way I can.
Buddy Mac
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can·cer·iza·tion
noun
Definition of CANCERIZATION
: transformation into cancer or from a normal to a cancerous state.
Tobacco causes this.......many times this is irreversible......this is sadly the case with Randy. His cancer has returned and it is inoperable. Hospice is an invaluable gift at times like this, facing a finite time with dignity and comfort is their goal. I hope he will be up for some golf along his journey.
Stay quit it's life or death.
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can·cer·iza·tion
noun
Definition of CANCERIZATION
: transformation into cancer or from a normal to a cancerous state.
Tobacco causes this.......many times this is irreversible......this is sadly the case with Randy. His cancer has returned and it is inoperable. Hospice is an invaluable gift at times like this, facing a finite time with dignity and comfort is their goal. I hope he will be up for some golf along his journey.
Stay quit it's life or death.
So sorry to hear this, Capt. Thoughts and prayers to you and all families involved. Fuck you big tobacco. I'm quit with everyone on this site.
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can·cer·iza·tion
noun
Definition of CANCERIZATION
: transformation into cancer or from a normal to a cancerous state.
Tobacco causes this.......many times this is irreversible......this is sadly the case with Randy. His cancer has returned and it is inoperable. Hospice is an invaluable gift at times like this, facing a finite time with dignity and comfort is their goal. I hope he will be up for some golf along his journey.
Stay quit it's life or death.
This is as real as real gets. Thank you for sharing Randy's story....may he find solace.
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can·cer·iza·tion
noun
Definition of CANCERIZATION
: transformation into cancer or from a normal to a cancerous state.
Tobacco causes this.......many times this is irreversible......this is sadly the case with Randy. His cancer has returned and it is inoperable. Hospice is an invaluable gift at times like this, facing a finite time with dignity and comfort is their goal. I hope he will be up for some golf along his journey.
Stay quit it's life or death.
This is as real as real gets. Thank you for sharing Randy's story....may he find solace.
Thank you for the update Capt. My prayers are with Randy and those of you close to him.
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can·cer·iza·tion
noun
Definition of CANCERIZATION
: transformation into cancer or from a normal to a cancerous state.
Tobacco causes this.......many times this is irreversible......this is sadly the case with Randy. His cancer has returned and it is inoperable. Hospice is an invaluable gift at times like this, facing a finite time with dignity and comfort is their goal. I hope he will be up for some golf along his journey.
Stay quit it's life or death.
This is as real as real gets. Thank you for sharing Randy's story....may he find solace.
Thank you for the update Capt. My prayers are with Randy and those of you close to him.
Praying for Randy and his family. Thank you for showing us all that this is not a game and our lives depend on it....
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can·cer·iza·tion
noun
Definition of CANCERIZATION
: transformation into cancer or from a normal to a cancerous state.
Tobacco causes this.......many times this is irreversible......this is sadly the case with Randy. His cancer has returned and it is inoperable. Hospice is an invaluable gift at times like this, facing a finite time with dignity and comfort is their goal. I hope he will be up for some golf along his journey.
Stay quit it's life or death.
This is as real as real gets. Thank you for sharing Randy's story....may he find solace.
Thank you for the update Capt. My prayers are with Randy and those of you close to him.
Praying for Randy and his family. Thank you for showing us all that this is not a game and our lives depend on it....
he is an inspiration to all of us. please let him know he helps fuel our quit...
my prayers are with you all...
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
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My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here. It will strengthen and save many quits.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
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My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here.
Sincere condolences... Randy's story has not been shared in vain.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
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My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here.
Sincere condolences... Randy's story has not been shared in vain.
So sorry to hear about your friend Kylos. Thank you and thanks to Randy for sharing it. It has been and will continue to inspire.
Prayers to you and his family.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
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My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here.
Sincere condolences... Randy's story has not been shared in vain.
So sorry to hear about your friend Kylos. Thank you and thanks to Randy for sharing it. It has been and will continue to inspire.
Prayers to you and his family.
Very sorry to hear about your friend.
Never again, for any reason.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
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My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here.
Sincere condolences... Randy's story has not been shared in vain.
So sorry to hear about your friend Kylos. Thank you and thanks to Randy for sharing it. It has been and will continue to inspire.
Prayers to you and his family.
Very sorry to hear about your friend.
Never again, for any reason.
Sorry to hear. Condolences to all who knew and loved him.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
+ infinity
My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here.
Sincere condolences... Randy's story has not been shared in vain.
So sorry to hear about your friend Kylos. Thank you and thanks to Randy for sharing it. It has been and will continue to inspire.
Prayers to you and his family.
Very sorry to hear about your friend.
Never again, for any reason.
Sorry to hear. Condolences to all who knew and loved him.
Condolences, Kylos. Very sorry to hear of Randy's passing.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
+ infinity
My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here.
Sincere condolences... Randy's story has not been shared in vain.
So sorry to hear about your friend Kylos. Thank you and thanks to Randy for sharing it. It has been and will continue to inspire.
Prayers to you and his family.
Very sorry to hear about your friend.
Never again, for any reason.
Sorry to hear. Condolences to all who knew and loved him.
Condolences, Kylos. Very sorry to hear of Randy's passing.
sorry to read this today Capt. Prayers sent
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
+ infinity
My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here.
Sincere condolences... Randy's story has not been shared in vain.
So sorry to hear about your friend Kylos. Thank you and thanks to Randy for sharing it. It has been and will continue to inspire.
Prayers to you and his family.
Very sorry to hear about your friend.
Never again, for any reason.
Sorry to hear. Condolences to all who knew and loved him.
Condolences, Kylos. Very sorry to hear of Randy's passing.
sorry to read this today Capt. Prayers sent
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and Randy's family.
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Randy died last night. His suffering has passed and he is at peace with God. I hope and I know Randy hoped, that people would take this story as motivation to remain tobacco free and strengthen their quit. I would like to thank anyone who has posted thoughts or prayers for Randy, I know they meant a lot to him during his fight against cancer.
Sorry to hear of your friend's passing Capt.
I'm very sorry to hear it Capt. I have no other words, except those that I'm borrowing from you.
Stay quit. It's life or death.
Nothing to be said that can be of comfort right now for the loss of your friend. Yet another reminder that this is not a game. My thoughts are with you.
+ infinity
My deepest condolences, sir. His story will live on here.
Sincere condolences... Randy's story has not been shared in vain.
So sorry to hear about your friend Kylos. Thank you and thanks to Randy for sharing it. It has been and will continue to inspire.
Prayers to you and his family.
Very sorry to hear about your friend.
Never again, for any reason.
Sorry to hear. Condolences to all who knew and loved him.
Condolences, Kylos. Very sorry to hear of Randy's passing.
sorry to read this today Capt. Prayers sent
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and Randy's family.
So sorry, Capt... Randy, and your updates have truly reminded me that this battle is life and death. Thank you for sharing your pain... it has made a difference in at least this one quit.
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One year ago Randy died from his addiction to tobacco. I know he would be happy about how many lives he has touched....and saved. Stay quit....it's life or death.
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One year ago Randy died from his addiction to tobacco. I know he would be happy about how many lives he has touched....and saved. Stay quit....it's life or death.
I know it has touched mine. And I encourage all of the new quitters to read.
Capt thank you again for sharing and I stand beside you. thoughts again sent.
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Here on the second year mark of Randy losing his life to tobacco, I am proud to be quit with all of you. Stay quit it's life or death.
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Here on the second year mark of Randy losing his life to tobacco, I am proud to be quit with all of you. Stay quit it's life or death.
Kylos! Good to see you, bro.
Randy's story is something that I will never forget.
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Here on the second year mark of Randy losing his life to tobacco, I am proud to be quit with all of you. Stay quit it's life or death.
Kylos! Good to see you, bro.
Randy's story is something that I will never forget.
There but by the grace of God go I.
We all opened the door for this into our lives. We all knew what we were doing but let our addiction convince us that we would be safe. Many lost close family members to tobacco, I lost my dad and grandpa, but still continued to look the other way.
I'm sorry for your loss. I'm damn sorry for Randy's family's loss. But you keeping this story alive in here helps others. This is a fight for life and death. God bless.
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For anyone who is new to the site, this thread is mandatory reading...
As the good Capt. says, "It's life or death".
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As I stand here 7 years quit and reflect on the impact that Randy had on my quit and apparently many others I am proud of his legacy and I know he would be happy about helping others avoid his fate. He believed in the mission of Killthecan.org and their ability to help so many from the enslavement of tobacco. His death at age 49 was not in vain.
Kylos