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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: EaglePride on May 28, 2011, 09:52:00 PM
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I've benn here for a few days have been posting roll, just never typed an intro. I'll make it quick. I'm a 20yr addict - grew up on a farm in SD started in early teens. I liked it never stopped. My dad has a 30+ year habit, brother chews, almost all aunts uncles smoke, and there are some alcohol addiction issues in family. Tried to quit (not really) a couple times in college, but never was committed - even though I was an athlete who trained year round (football).
I have a beautiful wife 2 wonderful kids who deserve better. I I am a Christian, a science teacher and fb coach: all areas where I (as a man) must set be a better example. I've fought with the guilt, justified every excuse to myself, and continued to let nic have control. As a teacher/coach I can't stand excuses...kind of hypocritical on my part? 2 years ago I quit for a year, but then caved while working on my Education Specialists degree during the football season. We were on a playoff run and ended up in the Final 4, and I was back in full-blown user mode.
Things are better this time around - this community committment level not only to myself, but also the others here is something I didn't have before. It was too easy to lie to myself cave in to the temptation that is around me everyday. I approach it the same way we look at putting an offense together: put some plays together get a first down, get some first downs now you have a drive, put a drive together score some points, score more points and win a game.
I'm still putting days together, and will continue to focus on sweat the little things. Some day I can look back and see successful drives (months years) and that will contribute to winning the game - my LIFE!
I hate losing - pledging to fight my ass off each day to stay quit. Thank you for your support- sounds like a cliche, but y'all really don't know how much you've meant in only 7 days.
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Congrats Eaglepride you have made it thru the 7 days, 'bang head' the worst suck days of them all , the rest as long as you stay true will steadily go downhill! Good decision, one of the best, one that very well may save your jaw and your life one day!!! Nico
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Welcome, Eagle! Proud to be Quit with you. Remember, all we have to do is get through today. Post Roll Call then keep your word. Let me know if I can help. Peace
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Yes sir - 7 suck days, no doubt. Lot of cussing (a little more than usual), plus my inlaws were here. I get along with them, but they already know/think I'm OCD. I have been eating like a freaking clydsdale - put on 5 lbs this week. Fake has helped get me through couple rough spots, but dam I love to eat right now! Figured I can get back to eating healthy exercise routine once the worst part of this suck is over. I ran this morning, but am going to cap my day with a bowl of mint chocolate chip instead of Skoal mint.
Once again FU Skoal Mint. It's 12:03 I am quit for another day.
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Yes sir - 7 suck days, no doubt. Lot of cussing (a little more than usual), plus my inlaws were here. I get along with them, but they already know/think I'm OCD. I have been eating like a freaking clydsdale - put on 5 lbs this week. Fake has helped get me through couple rough spots, but dam I love to eat right now! Figured I can get back to eating healthy exercise routine once the worst part of this suck is over. I ran this morning, but am going to cap my day with a bowl of mint chocolate chip instead of Skoal mint.
Once again FU Skoal Mint. It's 12:03 I am quit for another day.
Welcome Eagle, glad to have you...your first week is down. Now just protect your quit by posting your promise to not use daily and lean on us for support when needed. PM me if I can help.
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Yes sir - 7 suck days, no doubt. Lot of cussing (a little more than usual), plus my inlaws were here. I get along with them, but they already know/think I'm OCD. I have been eating like a freaking clydsdale - put on 5 lbs this week. Fake has helped get me through couple rough spots, but dam I love to eat right now! Figured I can get back to eating healthy exercise routine once the worst part of this suck is over. I ran this morning, but am going to cap my day with a bowl of mint chocolate chip instead of Skoal mint.
Once again FU Skoal Mint. It's 12:03 I am quit for another day.
Eat anything you want. You can deal with that later. Just don't put any nic in your pie whole. Great job Eagle! Are you from South GA? I am from Savannah.
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I'm quitting with you today EaglePride. Hang in there. I am on day 3, already gained 5 pounds and have run 20 miles. WTF? Well, the reason is because Nic suppresses appetite. No Nic, eat like a horse. As someone earlier said, don't worry about that right now. That is easy. What is harder is saying no way, no how, no dip for me today.
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Absolutely do not worry about the weight. I went from 175 to 216 over the first 150 days of quit. When I felt ready and willing to I began an exercise and diet program, now i am back to 172 - a little better than when I quit dipping and I am in better shape due to the exercise. This site will give you the ability and will to quit dip and get a better body at the same time - same attitude and determination to quit can be applied to anything you do once you realize it.
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I have 2 uncles that blew up while/after quitting smoking. Neither of them were guys who paid attention to what they eat or exercise regularly. I'm not worried about it - would rather be a fat ass quit! Temporary fat ass, full time quitter
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Yes sir - 7 suck days, no doubt. Lot of cussing (a little more than usual), plus my inlaws were here. I get along with them, but they already know/think I'm OCD. I have been eating like a freaking clydsdale - put on 5 lbs this week. Fake has helped get me through couple rough spots, but dam I love to eat right now! Figured I can get back to eating healthy exercise routine once the worst part of this suck is over. I ran this morning, but am going to cap my day with a bowl of mint chocolate chip instead of Skoal mint.
Once again FU Skoal Mint. It's 12:03 I am quit for another day.
*sigh*
Skoal Mint.
How I miss that whore. Spent 20 years with her trying to kill me.
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Skoal Mint.
How I miss that whore.
Get this thinking out of your fucking skull elkhills. You don't miss it.
There is nothing nostalgic about dipping. Nothing! There is nothing sweet about dipping! Dipping did not make ONE event in your life better, or less stressful, or more exciting, or more memorable.
That dirty little whore is the cause of more of my problems, stress and anxiety in my life than any other single thing. I hate her, I don' t miss that dirty little bitch.
I have my freedom now, and you can not take that from me.
Sorry to take a dump in your intro Eagle, but when I see guys going on about how sweet it was to dip, or how much they miss being a SLAVE to a CAN...it just gets me a little fired up.
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Skoal Mint.
How I miss that whore.
Get this thinking out of your fucking skull elkhills. You don't miss it.
There is nothing nostalgic about dipping. Nothing! There is nothing sweet about dipping! Dipping did not make ONE event in your life better, or less stressful, or more exciting, or more memorable.
That dirty little whore is the cause of more of my problems, stress and anxiety in my life than any other single thing. I hate her, I don' t miss that dirty little bitch.
I have my freedom now, and you can not take that from me.
Sorry to take a dump in your intro Eagle, but when I see guys going on about how sweet it was to dip, or how much they miss being a SLAVE to a CAN...it just gets me a little fired up.
Werd.
Romanticize and die.
Pretty fucking simple.
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Dump away noonelikesaquitter. Only been 9 days, but can honestly say I don't miss the bitch's hooks. I can't get romantic or miss something that cost me money, has absolutely NO benefit, is trying to kill me.
I'm not a rocket scientist but have 2 advanced degrees - remind me why the f%$ I did this shit for nearly 20 years? Pisses me off that I haven't been smarter stronger in past quit attempts - fuel for this quit.
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remind me why the f%$ I did this shit for nearly 20 years?
1 word
ADDICT
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I have 2 uncles that blew up while/after quitting smoking. Neither of them were guys who paid attention to what they eat or exercise regularly. I'm not worried about it - would rather be a fat ass quit! Temporary fat ass, full time quitter
You got that eagle pride...put on 74 pounds after I quit. Stayed fat for a little better than 2 years. Finally felt like I understood my addiction enough to work on something else and I've dropped 20 of it so far and am going to drop the rest.
Right now QUIT! It's the best 74 pounds I've ever carried! (Not that I suggest getting that carried away...it's just me and my addictive personality!)
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No doubt, loot. No other rationale, intelligent, logical explanation why.
bnlelliott - I agree best of luck with continued success with the weight loss, and of course staying quit. My one uncle was bitching to his doctor ( everyone else) about gaining so much weight when he quit smoking - his rationale "What the hell's worse - high bp, heart disease or possibly get cancer?"
Us addicts become medical professionals when justifying an addiction!
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Yes sir - 7 suck days, no doubt. Lot of cussing (a little more than usual), plus my inlaws were here. I get along with them, but they already know/think I'm OCD. I have been eating like a freaking clydsdale - put on 5 lbs this week. Fake has helped get me through couple rough spots, but dam I love to eat right now! Figured I can get back to eating healthy exercise routine once the worst part of this suck is over. I ran this morning, but am going to cap my day with a bowl of mint chocolate chip instead of Skoal mint.
Once again FU Skoal Mint. It's 12:03 I am quit for another day.
Eat anything you want. You can deal with that later. Just don't put any nic in your pie whole. Great job Eagle! Are you from South GA? I am from Savannah.
South Dakota.....Get a damn Map that has abbrieviations Scow! LOL!!!
UMMMMM! mint chocolate chip ice cream! I may have to make grocery run in a few minutes. Before I go, I wanted to welcome you to the best decision you have ever made in your life. Not only will you affect your own life but the lives of young students, and your family, and us. That is a big responsibility to put on your shoulders. WE are like your shoulder pads you carry us around and beat us what ever gets in your way.
Water and exercise will help with the suck and craves...so drop and give me 20, run with your players, and just run in general, you got this!
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Originally from SD, but we live east of Atlanta. Been in GA for 6 years now.
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Originally from SD, but we live east of Atlanta. Been in GA for 6 years now.
No culture shock there.
Glad you're quit Eagle.
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No doubt, loot. No other rationale, intelligent, logical explanation why.
bnlelliott - I agree best of luck with continued success with the weight loss, and of course staying quit. My one uncle was bitching to his doctor ( everyone else) about gaining so much weight when he quit smoking - his rationale "What the hell's worse - high bp, heart disease or possibly get cancer?"
Us addicts become medical professionals when justifying an addiction!
Amen...don't let it happen to you! The quit is THE thing now. Welcome aboard and if you need anything PM me
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Major test on the fb field all day today - I kicked nic's ass up and down the field ALL DAY today! Got a few texts from KTC Bros. it is much appreciated.
Newbies - this will work if you are committed make some personal contacts with other's committed to the quit. Invest your time resources every single day. No, it is not easy. But nothing worth a damn is this life is easy!
Stay Committed to YOUR Quit.