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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Dieselchick87 on October 10, 2016, 12:41:00 PM
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Edit 11/3/16 ***this Intro is my Quit Journal there will be ups and downs and things boys probably dont need to read coupled with Ramblings Galore but this is My Quit Story and I am sticking to it!!!!***
Hey DC here
I was here about 2.5 years ago and well after 3 days I decided that I really didn't want it bad enough
well a few years wiser and I am back and today is Day 5.
Day one I had enough going to sufficiently distract me
day 2 muddled through was definitely bitchy
day 3 I locked myself in my bedroom to and read a 300 page book
day 4 got up felt amazing then went bipolar on my husband
Day 5 off to a good start so far I have my Essential oils to help with cravings now just to stay away from food :)
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Welcome!
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Welcome!
Ashley - dieselchick,
If you have been here before you know the routine. Get over to your post roll.
Then you need to post answers to the 3 questions:
*What happened
*Why did it happened
*And what are you going to do different this time.
We can only take your quit seriously as you. So dig deep and make it happen, or take a hike.
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Hey dieselchick, welcome! Looks like you are figuring this site out again, posting roll, with five hard earned days of quit under your belt! WTG! What essential oils have you been using?
I am a PM away if you need anything.
FLLip
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Hey dieselchick, welcome! Looks like you are figuring this site out again, posting roll, with five hard earned days of quit under your belt! WTG! What essential oils have you been using?
I am a PM away if you need anything.
FLLip
I use Young Living Essential Oils Currently I am using Idaho Balsam Fir as a calming refocus when I have cravings tangerine and grapefruit in my water to help my body detox and peppermint for the withdrawal headaches
Have you used essential oils before?
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Hey dieselchick, welcome! Looks like you are figuring this site out again, posting roll, with five hard earned days of quit under your belt! WTG! What essential oils have you been using?
I am a PM away if you need anything.
FLLip
I use Young Living Essential Oils Currently I am using Idaho Balsam Fir as a calming refocus when I have cravings tangerine and grapefruit in my water to help my body detox and peppermint for the withdrawal headaches
Have you used essential oils before?
Only when I ...nevermind.
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So I was looking at the calendar and I am not sure if it is a new fog setting in or a break in the clouds
not sure if today is 5 or 6 the last time I dipped was Thursday the 6th at like 1pm so if I go by hours I am
at day 5 if I go by the number of calendar days then it 6. which way does everyone count the days????
whatever day it is its going to be a great day no Can telling me what to do
Bring on the day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hey dieselchick, welcome! Looks like you are figuring this site out again, posting roll, with five hard earned days of quit under your belt! WTG! What essential oils have you been using?
I am a PM away if you need anything.
FLLip
I use Young Living Essential Oils Currently I am using Idaho Balsam Fir as a calming refocus when I have cravings tangerine and grapefruit in my water to help my body detox and peppermint for the withdrawal headaches
Have you used essential oils before?
Only when I ...nevermind.
roflmao roflmao roflmao
That's the Thumble I love.
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So I was looking at the calendar and I am not sure if it is a new fog setting in or a break in the clouds
not sure if today is 5 or 6 the last time I dipped was Thursday the 6th at like 1pm so if I go by hours I am
at day 5 if I go by the number of calendar days then it 6. which way does everyone count the days????
whatever day it is its going to be a great day no Can telling me what to do
Bring on the day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Some days I counted the minutes go by. It sucks until it doesn't, and then it is great. You are killing it!
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So I was looking at the calendar and I am not sure if it is a new fog setting in or a break in the clouds
not sure if today is 5 or 6 the last time I dipped was Thursday the 6th at like 1pm so if I go by hours I am
at day 5 if I go by the number of calendar days then it 6. which way does everyone count the days????
whatever day it is its going to be a great day no Can telling me what to do
Bring on the day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Some days I counted the minutes go by. It sucks until it doesn't, and then it is great. You are killing it!
Keep it rolling! Keep logging your experiences in here so others know what support you need.
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Day 6 - just starting the day out and the fog is back with the squirrel like distractions not as bad as days 2-3
gonna have a cup of coffee and try and jump start my brain back in place rather be anywhere but work today
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Day 6 - just starting the day out and the fog is back with the squirrel like distractions not as bad as days 2-3
gonna have a cup of coffee and try and jump start my brain back in place rather be anywhere but work today
IT gets better. water water water...you are rewiring your brain now. it will take time but it gets better.
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Day 6 - just starting the day out and the fog is back with the squirrel like distractions not as bad as days 2-3
gonna have a cup of coffee and try and jump start my brain back in place rather be anywhere but work today
IT gets better. water water water...you are rewiring your brain now. it will take time but it gets better.
thanks for the reminder
if I drink much more water I fear I will become a fish I almost drank 2 gallons yesterday
is there such a thing as too much water??
rewiring is such a joy
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Day 6 - just starting the day out and the fog is back with the squirrel like distractions not as bad as days 2-3
gonna have a cup of coffee and try and jump start my brain back in place rather be anywhere but work today
IT gets better. water water water...you are rewiring your brain now. it will take time but it gets better.
thanks for the reminder
if I drink much more water I fear I will become a fish I almost drank 2 gallons yesterday
is there such a thing as too much water??
rewiring is such a joy
I does get better, I promise! Keep posting in here. It helps you for sure, and it helps others who are wondering if they are gonna die realize these feelings (both physical and emotional) are "normal".
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Day 6 - just starting the day out and the fog is back with the squirrel like distractions not as bad as days 2-3
gonna have a cup of coffee and try and jump start my brain back in place rather be anywhere but work today
IT gets better. water water water...you are rewiring your brain now. it will take time but it gets better.
thanks for the reminder
if I drink much more water I fear I will become a fish I almost drank 2 gallons yesterday
is there such a thing as too much water??
rewiring is such a joy
I does get better, I promise! Keep posting in here. It helps you for sure, and it helps others who are wondering if they are gonna die realize these feelings (both physical and emotional) are "normal".
Welcome ashley to the quit life! Buy into ktc post roll ODAAT Edd! Proud to be quit with you. Life is awesome quit. 655 days quit is a helluva alot better than the 38 years I dipped!
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Welcome. This truly is the place to find the freedom your after. Just remember this, regardless of all the little helpful things that keep us going through each day, the most important tool is our resolve. Tell yourself "never again for any reason". Say it over and over and say it when things are going good. Then the words are there in those times it gets tough. Drink the KTC kool aide. Give it everything you got. The days of being Quit will just begin to add up on their own. Congrats on taking your life back.
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Hey dieselchick, welcome! Looks like you are figuring this site out again, posting roll, with five hard earned days of quit under your belt! WTG! What essential oils have you been using?
I am a PM away if you need anything.
FLLip
I use Young Living Essential Oils Currently I am using Idaho Balsam Fir as a calming refocus when I have cravings tangerine and grapefruit in my water to help my body detox and peppermint for the withdrawal headaches
Have you used essential oils before?
Only when I ...nevermind.
roflmao roflmao roflmao
That's the Thumble I love.
Why did I even ask that? I guess forgot where I was for a moment.
Lmao.
Stay quit, girl, you are doing great!
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Hey dieselchick, welcome! Looks like you are figuring this site out again, posting roll, with five hard earned days of quit under your belt! WTG! What essential oils have you been using?
I am a PM away if you need anything.
FLLip
I use Young Living Essential Oils Currently I am using Idaho Balsam Fir as a calming refocus when I have cravings tangerine and grapefruit in my water to help my body detox and peppermint for the withdrawal headaches
Have you used essential oils before?
Only when I ...nevermind.
roflmao roflmao roflmao
That's the Thumble I love.
Why did I even ask that? I guess forgot where I was for a moment.
Lmao.
Stay quit, girl, you are doing great!
The moment you Quit is day One.
Yes you can drink too much water.
Yes the fog will lift...
We breath, and learn how to deal with life without chemicals and lies.
Cravings will decrease
Replace them now with something healthy.
When I started... I ate everything slower than me.
Do what ever it takes.
We can adjust later.
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 695
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Thank you Rawls
for the first day and a half I basically lived in the kitchen till my
husband asked me if I just wanted to move the bed in there I guess that
was his nice way of saying watch it!
Thank you for reminding me to start replacing cravings with new habits
my new dinner routine goes eat brush teeth and play fetch with the dog
I will do my best to keep all this advice in the front of my brain
FLLipOut
Thank you for the support and encouragement
I needed that yesterday!
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Today is 1 week all I have to say to the can is a
Big 'Finger' to nicotine and the can they can go to hell and stay there
I know its only a week But I am already feeling so much better about myself
yeah I am still going through hell and yeah its a struggle but I will never
trade this feeling for anything in the world I am actually proud of myself for making it this far
all I have to say to everyone (and anyone thinking about it) that is just starting this journey is
keep going don't stop its is so worth it to give Nic' and the Can the boot
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Today is 1 week all I have to say to the can is a
Big 'Finger' to nicotine and the can they can go to hell and stay there
I know its only a week But I am already feeling so much better about myself
yeah I am still going through hell and yeah its a struggle but I will never
trade this feeling for anything in the world I am actually proud of myself for making it this far
all I have to say to everyone (and anyone thinking about it) that is just starting this journey is
keep going don't stop its is so worth it to give Nic' and the Can the boot
It only gets better and better, and you will NEVER regret your choice to quit! I just did my first really long vacation since I quit 2 weeks ago at Disney. I remember going to Disney as a user, what a fool I was wasting family time hiring a cab to track down a gas station. Such a joy not looking for a spitter at the Magic Kingdom. Freedom is awesome, glad you joined us!
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"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.
-Aristotle
I AM A QUITTER!
I used to take time every morning to go through some random book off my shelf and find a quote to
reflect on and consider for the day then I began to have a dip and look at my books then the dip just
took over and the book got left on the shelf last night I picked up one of my favorite books of philosophical
quotes and I read through it for an hour or so. Why might you ask is this a big deal its a book full of things
dead people said a long ass time ago.
for me its more of a taking back of what Nicotine has stolen from me over the years. I really got to thinking
about some of the things and its pathetic
*my ability to sit and read with out thoughts of needing a dip or trying to find my spitter
*relaxing car drives
*having someone (even my husband) help clean the house (god knows where they will find a spitter that I shoved out of the way)
* family meals without having to go out to the car for a dip
*confidence in my smile whether for a picture (don't get the side I have a dip in) or just laughing with stained teeth
the list goes on but its getting me down so I will stop that
all I know is I want this more than anything I have set out to accomplish in my short life and nothing will stand in my way
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Don't let that list get you down, dieselgirl. Remember, this is just a list of things you are getting BACK! Those problems are other people's problems now, people who shove tobacco into their mouths, not yours. Because you don't do that anymore. You are quit. Proud to be quitting with you.
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Don't let that list get you down, dieselgirl. Remember, this is just a list of things you are getting BACK! Those problems are other people's problems now, people who shove tobacco into their mouths, not yours. Because you don't do that anymore. You are quit. Proud to be quitting with you.
^^^^^ agreed! keep it going! step by step. You are winning, you have it rolling for now. Just keep each moment as your own, they stack up on their own.
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Don't let that list get you down, dieselgirl. Remember, this is just a list of things you are getting BACK! Those problems are other people's problems now, people who shove tobacco into their mouths, not yours. Because you don't do that anymore. You are quit. Proud to be quitting with you.
^^^^^ agreed! keep it going! step by step. You are winning, you have it rolling for now. Just keep each moment as your own, they stack up on their own.
Have to add my congrats to the two fine quitters above....you're doing this the right way. Stay focused, stay active on the site, honor your post, journal your thoughts. You're winning.....and that's what KTC is all about. Helping people win this battle against nicotine!!
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I'm here to quit with you dieselchick. Make this time count as long as you do that I say to heck with the previous attempt. now is your friend. not then. Eyehatecope
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I am a nicotine addict, and while I was an active user lied to the only people who love me. But I can live with that because now I am a quitter, and never have to be that person again as long as I quit each and every day.
We all have regrets, but we can't change them, so let's quit today and move on!
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Thank you everyone for the encouragement day by day is the key
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this morning as I sit here enjoying a cup of coffee I sit here and reflect on how different my life is now
its a new enough change that the glow of being Nic free is blazing around me but now there is another
feeling settling..... its hard to explain it is familiar but foreign comfortable yet awkward
as I sit here I almost feel "adultish" some will understand that comment some will not .
I have 11 days under my belt today and that makes me feel strong I didn't get up this morning and
stumble around the house trying to remember where I left my can the night before only to remember that
it was on the nightstand by my bed, then crash on the couch waiting for the dip to "hit" and wake me up
only to run around the house trying to get out the door on time. This morning was different this morning was
Adultish!!!
Today I woke up and made my breakfast (something I never had "time" for while on the dip)
I got dressed for the day I was ready to head out the door early and to work early so much so
that I had time to make a cup of coffee sit down and relax and find inspiration here to keep my day
going strong!!!
I am Smiling big today because one I can there is NO dip to hide and two I started out my day Adulting for the
first time that I can remember in a long time.
Stay Strong Stay Quit
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Congrats on being smart enough to come back here after 2.5 years. My last big quit was 10 years ago. Finally, took up the cause again last year and at day 399.
I recommend drinking plenty of OJ or fruit juice.
Your brain emits sugars when you dip. The sugars in the OJ or fruit juice makes up for the lack of sugar generated from the dip.
Get plenty of exercise and eat 3 square meals. These are keys to keeping the craves away.
Remember you do not wish to quit, you are quit. That attitude makes all the difference in the world.
That attitude ends any discussion about just once more.
I quit with you today.
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!!!!!Day 14!!!!!!!
Wow I have made it a whole solid 2 weeks without caving to that nic bitch demon whore.
in the past when I "tried" to quit if I made it this far Oh wait I never could on my own.
I actually feel proud today to say
'Finger' I Am A Quitter 'Finger'
in my head there is a running script of something I wanted to say here but the fog as faded the words into the
background maybe later today my brain will break through the fog and I will remember what I had to say.
Nicotine can go fucker herself all the way to hell I am on the road to freedom forever!!!!!
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Win for the weekend!!!!
started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby
but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!
I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!
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Win for the weekend!!!!
started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby
but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!
I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!
YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!
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Win for the weekend!!!!
started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby
but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!
I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!
YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!
I love this...
Once you own this...
YOU own this.
We preach one day at a time but there comes a point for some where you KNOW... you're done. You're quit. The KTC way let you break the barrier and now... you're free.
For life.
You get it.
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Win for the weekend!!!!
started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby
but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!
I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!
YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!
I love this...
Once you own this...
YOU own this.
We preach one day at a time but there comes a point for some where you KNOW... you're done. You're quit. The KTC way let you break the barrier and now... you're free.
For life.
You get it.
Wow chick! It's amazing how I come on to encourage you and find encouragement for myself! Thank you young lady and remember it may get tough but you have us all behind you and available whenever you need us!
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Win for the weekend!!!!
started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby
but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!
I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!
YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!
I love this...
Once you own this...
YOU own this.
We preach one day at a time but there comes a point for some where you KNOW... you're done. You're quit. The KTC way let you break the barrier and now... you're free.
For life.
You get it.
Wow chick! It's amazing how I come on to encourage you and find encouragement for myself! Thank you young lady and remember it may get tough but you have us all behind you and available whenever you need us!
Diesel, that is awesome. I'm proud of you, using your tools, using your contacts, using the forum, reaching out.
Keep doing what you're doing DC.
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Win for the weekend!!!!
started my weekend off with 13 people 10 dogs in my home (random friends dropping by) then.....
Had to completely empty my spare/storage room so...
My household size could go from 3 people to 7 people 2 of whom are under 2 years old
I have been woken up 6 times in 2 nights to a screaming baby
but its Monday now and everything is alright!!!!
I realized during all of this that I don't have to hide behind the dip to stay calm I can take a deep breath and reach way down inside and pull some weird string that brings a balance to my thoughts even though I was in a hell of a fog I didn't cave it didn't even cross my mind until I sat down and the magnitude of what was changing in my life hit me square on top of my head. but as I sat there I realized that I couldn't back down from my quit even if I wanted to because I had given my word to not cave.
its amazing how in only 2 short weeks how everyone here that I talk to and have reached out to means to me I am glad that I found this place and while some may bitch about the fact that we hold eachother accountable to our words and that posting roll is a must I for one know without posting roll I would not be 18 days Quit..... So today I quit again and I will keep on quitting for the rest of my life one day at a time!
YES!!! way to knock it out of the park! the harder the temptations, the bigger the victory-- you are reprogramming your brain and the big ones are like a great knockdown victory. Way to go- and thanks for sharing, so others can grow from your experiences too! Nice, Nice work- keep it going!
I love this...
Once you own this...
YOU own this.
We preach one day at a time but there comes a point for some where you KNOW... you're done. You're quit. The KTC way let you break the barrier and now... you're free.
For life.
You get it.
Wow chick! It's amazing how I come on to encourage you and find encouragement for myself! Thank you young lady and remember it may get tough but you have us all behind you and available whenever you need us!
Diesel, that is awesome. I'm proud of you, using your tools, using your contacts, using the forum, reaching out.
Keep doing what you're doing DC.
I'm lovin' this intro page. Awesome to watch a new quitter kick nicotine's ass every day. Using your tools, posting, having integrity, supporting others. Just pure awesomeness right here. Actually its inspiring. Congrats DC!
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Day 22
last night and this morning I had to do some deep introspection on my quit and why I started in the first place it all started last night when I was at the gas station and a guy pulled up next to me and gave me this look like "just another dumb girl driving her mans truck" and I SOOO wanted to get out of the truck and kick his ass
I don't know why it irritates me so but it does. the dip used to be what I used to prove I wasn't just another pretty face and don't fuck with me. sounds weird but it worked. if I wasn't quit yesterday I would have taken a dip and tossed my can on the dash and that would have it. but instead I felt insecure, which pissed me off more.
I don't know about everyone or anyone else but this quit for me is tied to more than my additcion to nicotine it is tied to my self image self esteem and self worth.
I don't want to be just another pretty face driving down the road
or the dumb girl that is just repeating what her man has said before
I know that this road along with my quit are going to be long roads that will weave in and around each other and at times travel one on top of the other
but for today
I am Proud to be Quit and I am Proud of the woman I am
what others think is their business I know me and my journey
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Day 22
last night and this morning I had to do some deep introspection on my quit and why I started in the first place it all started last night when I was at the gas station and a guy pulled up next to me and gave me this look like "just another dumb girl driving her mans truck" and I SOOO wanted to get out of the truck and kick his ass
I don't know why it irritates me so but it does. the dip used to be what I used to prove I wasn't just another pretty face and don't fuck with me. sounds weird but it worked. if I wasn't quit yesterday I would have taken a dip and tossed my can on the dash and that would have it. but instead I felt insecure, which pissed me off more.
I don't know about everyone or anyone else but this quit for me is tied to more than my additcion to nicotine it is tied to my self image self esteem and self worth.
I don't want to be just another pretty face driving down the road
or the dumb girl that is just repeating what her man has said before
I know that this road along with my quit are going to be long roads that will weave in and around each other and at times travel one on top of the other
but for today
I am Proud to be Quit and I am Proud of the woman I am
what others think is their business I know me and my journey
Boom.
Keep up the great work, Diesel!
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Day 22
last night and this morning I had to do some deep introspection on my quit and why I started in the first place it all started last night when I was at the gas station and a guy pulled up next to me and gave me this look like "just another dumb girl driving her mans truck" and I SOOO wanted to get out of the truck and kick his ass
I don't know why it irritates me so but it does. the dip used to be what I used to prove I wasn't just another pretty face and don't fuck with me. sounds weird but it worked. if I wasn't quit yesterday I would have taken a dip and tossed my can on the dash and that would have it. but instead I felt insecure, which pissed me off more.
I don't know about everyone or anyone else but this quit for me is tied to more than my additcion to nicotine it is tied to my self image self esteem and self worth.
I don't want to be just another pretty face driving down the road
or the dumb girl that is just repeating what her man has said before
I know that this road along with my quit are going to be long roads that will weave in and around each other and at times travel one on top of the other
but for today
I am Proud to be Quit and I am Proud of the woman I am
what others think is their business I know me and my journey
DC,
I actually get that. Almost all my friends that fish, dip. It's like a rite of passage. Hell, every fly fishing mag shows the guys with either a cig or a dip in their mouth and a PBR or Hamm's in their hand. To not do it seems weird. It has to become the norm NOT TO use.
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This post is so badass, there's not much more than I can say. I wear my quit on my sleeve for the world to see because I'm just so damn proud of it. I was ashamed of my dipping; ashamed of my addiction. But I'm more proud of my quit - and it's just another reason why I win every day. DC - you get it and I'll quit next to you any day.
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I don't know about everyone or anyone else but this quit for me is tied to more than my additcion to nicotine it is tied to my self image self esteem and self worth.
I don't want to be just another pretty face driving down the road
or the dumb girl that is just repeating what her man has said before
You know you don't need dip to be a strong woman. You don't need to prove anything to anyone that you are a strong woman. And no one (unless they are an idiot themselves) will ever confuse you with someone who is dumb - certainly not from what I've read on these boards!
You just keep being dieselchick. The best damn dieselchick you can be. And no one - absolutely no one but you - gets a say in who that is.
Proud to be quit with you, girl!
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**** Boys Beware Menstrual Post***
last night was hell on wheels between the Nic bitch hormone fluctuation and my body trying to rip me apart from the inside out I was an emotional wreck last night and I literally could have been to a can of chew in about 5 minutes but instead I sat on my back porch and for the
first time in lord knows how long I sat there and processed my emotions I was a major bitch to my husband (for which I need to apologize today) I was a bitch to myself and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have to create a new normal for dealing with this menstrual craziness this is literally the first menstrual cycle that I have had without nicotine and this shit SUCKS ( I will not cave over it do not worry) when your body is conspiring against you it makes your head play tricks on you. it compounds emotions on top of emotions inside of emotions wrapped around emotions fried in emotions topped with emotional sauce. I wonder if that is why I got hooked on the Nic Bitch to mellow out my emotions?? don't get me wrong my cycles have been bad in the past this though was way woooorrrssseee then anything I have experienced up to this point I hope to Hope that this is not a new normal.
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After a rough start to my week things are evening out and settling down I am really excited that I am learning to be a responsible adult. Last night I was able to take a breath and listen to my husband when he said that infamous line "we need to talk" that normally would have had me huffing and puffing "not before I have a dip we dont" would have been my reply setting up the whole conversation to be a fight and it would have been a fight over laundry not last night the knock down drag out fight avoided and a great night was spent enjoying my husbands company!
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**** Boys Beware Menstrual Post***
last night was hell on wheels between the Nic bitch hormone fluctuation and my body trying to rip me apart from the inside out I was an emotional wreck last night and I literally could have been to a can of chew in about 5 minutes but instead I sat on my back porch and for the
first time in lord knows how long I sat there and processed my emotions I was a major bitch to my husband (for which I need to apologize today) I was a bitch to myself and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have to create a new normal for dealing with this menstrual craziness this is literally the first menstrual cycle that I have had without nicotine and this shit SUCKS ( I will not cave over it do not worry) when your body is conspiring against you it makes your head play tricks on you. it compounds emotions on top of emotions inside of emotions wrapped around emotions fried in emotions topped with emotional sauce. I wonder if that is why I got hooked on the Nic Bitch to mellow out my emotions?? don't get me wrong my cycles have been bad in the past this though was way woooorrrssseee then anything I have experienced up to this point I hope to Hope that this is not a new normal.
Absolutely nothing is the new normal for you right now, so don't sweat it.
I remember being EXACTLY where you are now in quit days and worrying if how I was feeling then was to be my new normal. Exactly the same fear. Guess what - it wasn't. Healing from this addiction is a long process. But how you feel on day 27 or so is most certainly NOT your new normal! I'm on day 104 today and still healing - and I now know that how I feel now is not my new normal either.
If you read about what nicotine does to the body, it really is kind of frightening. It wrestles from your brain control of a lot of vital command centers. It takes time for the brain to rewire and take back the wheel. It is still learning what it was designed to do - it just jacks roll a lot in the early going. 'winker'
In the meantime, READ this. (http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/287580.php)
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**** Boys Beware Menstrual Post***
last night was hell on wheels between the Nic bitch hormone fluctuation and my body trying to rip me apart from the inside out I was an emotional wreck last night and I literally could have been to a can of chew in about 5 minutes but instead I sat on my back porch and for the
first time in lord knows how long I sat there and processed my emotions I was a major bitch to my husband (for which I need to apologize today) I was a bitch to myself and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have to create a new normal for dealing with this menstrual craziness this is literally the first menstrual cycle that I have had without nicotine and this shit SUCKS ( I will not cave over it do not worry) when your body is conspiring against you it makes your head play tricks on you. it compounds emotions on top of emotions inside of emotions wrapped around emotions fried in emotions topped with emotional sauce. I wonder if that is why I got hooked on the Nic Bitch to mellow out my emotions?? don't get me wrong my cycles have been bad in the past this though was way woooorrrssseee then anything I have experienced up to this point I hope to Hope that this is not a new normal.
Absolutely nothing is the new normal for you right now, so don't sweat it.
I remember being EXACTLY where you are now in quit days and worrying if how I was feeling then was to be my new normal. Exactly the same fear. Guess what - it wasn't. Healing from this addiction is a long process. But how you feel on day 27 or so is most certainly NOT your new normal! I'm on day 104 today and still healing - and I now know that how I feel now is not my new normal either.
If you read about what nicotine does to the body, it really is kind of frightening. It wrestles from your brain control of a lot of vital command centers. It takes time for the brain to rewire and take back the wheel. It is still learning what it was designed to do - it just jacks roll a lot in the early going. 'winker'
In the meantime, READ this. (http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/287580.php)
I did not realize that the cravings were related to my hormone levels that is crazy uggg thanks for the encouragement guess I will have to accept my brain where it is and give it time to heal (hurry hurry hurry damnit )
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**** Boys Beware Menstrual Post***
last night was hell on wheels between the Nic bitch hormone fluctuation and my body trying to rip me apart from the inside out I was an emotional wreck last night and I literally could have been to a can of chew in about 5 minutes but instead I sat on my back porch and for the
first time in lord knows how long I sat there and processed my emotions I was a major bitch to my husband (for which I need to apologize today) I was a bitch to myself and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have to create a new normal for dealing with this menstrual craziness this is literally the first menstrual cycle that I have had without nicotine and this shit SUCKS ( I will not cave over it do not worry) when your body is conspiring against you it makes your head play tricks on you. it compounds emotions on top of emotions inside of emotions wrapped around emotions fried in emotions topped with emotional sauce. I wonder if that is why I got hooked on the Nic Bitch to mellow out my emotions?? don't get me wrong my cycles have been bad in the past this though was way woooorrrssseee then anything I have experienced up to this point I hope to Hope that this is not a new normal.
Absolutely nothing is the new normal for you right now, so don't sweat it.
I remember being EXACTLY where you are now in quit days and worrying if how I was feeling then was to be my new normal. Exactly the same fear. Guess what - it wasn't. Healing from this addiction is a long process. But how you feel on day 27 or so is most certainly NOT your new normal! I'm on day 104 today and still healing - and I now know that how I feel now is not my new normal either.
If you read about what nicotine does to the body, it really is kind of frightening. It wrestles from your brain control of a lot of vital command centers. It takes time for the brain to rewire and take back the wheel. It is still learning what it was designed to do - it just jacks roll a lot in the early going. 'winker'
In the meantime, READ this. (http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/287580.php)
I did not realize that the cravings were related to my hormone levels that is crazy uggg thanks for the encouragement guess I will have to accept my brain where it is and give it time to heal (hurry hurry hurry damnit )
So when my wife is being a biatch when grandmas visiting, all i have to do is slip her some dip? Well hell yes, I will start putting it in her coffee ?! Your mind and body will go through many more changes but nothing you can't handle. And you're absolutely correct we all have to figure out how to handle all types of situations, circumstances,etc. I'm still having trouble with some simple little things, like stupid ass people texting when driving and damn near running over me! Quit on! You're doing great!
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**** Boys Beware Menstrual Post***
last night was hell on wheels between the Nic bitch hormone fluctuation and my body trying to rip me apart from the inside out I was an emotional wreck last night and I literally could have been to a can of chew in about 5 minutes but instead I sat on my back porch and for the
first time in lord knows how long I sat there and processed my emotions I was a major bitch to my husband (for which I need to apologize today) I was a bitch to myself and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have to create a new normal for dealing with this menstrual craziness this is literally the first menstrual cycle that I have had without nicotine and this shit SUCKS ( I will not cave over it do not worry) when your body is conspiring against you it makes your head play tricks on you. it compounds emotions on top of emotions inside of emotions wrapped around emotions fried in emotions topped with emotional sauce. I wonder if that is why I got hooked on the Nic Bitch to mellow out my emotions?? don't get me wrong my cycles have been bad in the past this though was way woooorrrssseee then anything I have experienced up to this point I hope to Hope that this is not a new normal.
Absolutely nothing is the new normal for you right now, so don't sweat it.
I remember being EXACTLY where you are now in quit days and worrying if how I was feeling then was to be my new normal. Exactly the same fear. Guess what - it wasn't. Healing from this addiction is a long process. But how you feel on day 27 or so is most certainly NOT your new normal! I'm on day 104 today and still healing - and I now know that how I feel now is not my new normal either.
If you read about what nicotine does to the body, it really is kind of frightening. It wrestles from your brain control of a lot of vital command centers. It takes time for the brain to rewire and take back the wheel. It is still learning what it was designed to do - it just jacks roll a lot in the early going. 'winker'
In the meantime, READ this. (http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/287580.php)
I did not realize that the cravings were related to my hormone levels that is crazy uggg thanks for the encouragement guess I will have to accept my brain where it is and give it time to heal (hurry hurry hurry damnit )
Yes. And it sucks a bit. Okay, a LOT. But it is so clear you are going to take back your life, piece by piece, in no time.
Patience, grasshopper. 'Cheers'
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**** Boys Beware Menstrual Post***
last night was hell on wheels between the Nic bitch hormone fluctuation and my body trying to rip me apart from the inside out I was an emotional wreck last night and I literally could have been to a can of chew in about 5 minutes but instead I sat on my back porch and for the
first time in lord knows how long I sat there and processed my emotions I was a major bitch to my husband (for which I need to apologize today) I was a bitch to myself and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have to create a new normal for dealing with this menstrual craziness this is literally the first menstrual cycle that I have had without nicotine and this shit SUCKS ( I will not cave over it do not worry) when your body is conspiring against you it makes your head play tricks on you. it compounds emotions on top of emotions inside of emotions wrapped around emotions fried in emotions topped with emotional sauce. I wonder if that is why I got hooked on the Nic Bitch to mellow out my emotions?? don't get me wrong my cycles have been bad in the past this though was way woooorrrssseee then anything I have experienced up to this point I hope to Hope that this is not a new normal.
Absolutely nothing is the new normal for you right now, so don't sweat it.
I remember being EXACTLY where you are now in quit days and worrying if how I was feeling then was to be my new normal. Exactly the same fear. Guess what - it wasn't. Healing from this addiction is a long process. But how you feel on day 27 or so is most certainly NOT your new normal! I'm on day 104 today and still healing - and I now know that how I feel now is not my new normal either.
If you read about what nicotine does to the body, it really is kind of frightening. It wrestles from your brain control of a lot of vital command centers. It takes time for the brain to rewire and take back the wheel. It is still learning what it was designed to do - it just jacks roll a lot in the early going. 'winker'
In the meantime, READ this. (http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/287580.php)
I did not realize that the cravings were related to my hormone levels that is crazy uggg thanks for the encouragement guess I will have to accept my brain where it is and give it time to heal (hurry hurry hurry damnit )
So when my wife is being a biatch when grandmas visiting, all i have to do is slip her some dip? Well hell yes, I will start putting it in her coffee ?! Your mind and body will go through many more changes but nothing you can't handle. And you're absolutely correct we all have to figure out how to handle all types of situations, circumstances,etc. I'm still having trouble with some simple little things, like stupid ass people texting when driving and damn near running over me! Quit on! You're doing great!
Thats cruelty to yourself imagine now plus nic bitch cravings???
'Popcorn' you have fun with that my advice step away from the coffee!!!
But in all seriousness thank you for the encouragement I know I have lots of changing and growing to do
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Yippee tomorrow is going to be 30 days!!!!!!!! I was going to wait to post again till then but
I will be on my phone all weekend and its just easier to type on a full sized keyboard
the last couple of days I have been really struggling with anxiety that hit me out of no where and last night while
I was filliping out on my husband simply for not calling when he was done with his appointment (I am a huge worry wart when
it comes to medical shit ) I was flipping out and pacing back and forth my husband grabbed my shoulders and looked me dead in the
eyes and said "you are not going to find what your brain is looking for its at the store" that took all the wind out of my sails
As I come up on 30 days I realize that while I may not be actively recognizing the cravings they are still there on a deep seated almost molecular level. the battle has changed from a physical one to a subconscious one and it is a battle of wills.
I by no means have this under control like people around me think they ask how long have I been off dip I tell them my count and they respond with you so you are past the cravings you are home free....... I look at them thinking you are a special kind of stupid aren't you??
then I realize that their outlook is because they themselves are still under the Nic Bitches spell oh its no big deal (its just one dip/smoke or its only a social thing) LIES I tell you its all LIES there is no such thing as social dipping I can see this now. there is no such thing as just 1 are the people that think this really that stupid.
I doubt that anyone that is thinking about quitting will read this far into my ramblings but know this if you do
*your first week will be hell then the next two weeks you will question everything you knew to be true about yourself week 4 it will start to make sense only to get tossed around again. this journey isn't for the weak but know that contrary to what that nic bitch says you dont NEED her poison and you CANT just have one. this is an Addiction and until you realize that you have no control BUT once you realize the true nature of the hole you have dug for yourself you have the power to take your life back and say NO to the filthy dirty bitch and crawl hand over hand out of that hole. It is a CHOICE only you can make!
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Yippee tomorrow is going to be 30 days!!!!!!!! I was going to wait to post again till then but
I will be on my phone all weekend and its just easier to type on a full sized keyboard
the last couple of days I have been really struggling with anxiety that hit me out of no where and last night while
I was filliping out on my husband simply for not calling when he was done with his appointment (I am a huge worry wart when
it comes to medical shit ) I was flipping out and pacing back and forth my husband grabbed my shoulders and looked me dead in the
eyes and said "you are not going to find what your brain is looking for its at the store" that took all the wind out of my sails
As I come up on 30 days I realize that while I may not be actively recognizing the cravings they are still there on a deep seated almost molecular level. the battle has changed from a physical one to a subconscious one and it is a battle of wills.
I by no means have this under control like people around me think they ask how long have I been off dip I tell them my count and they respond with you so you are past the cravings you are home free....... I look at them thinking you are a special kind of stupid aren't you??
then I realize that their outlook is because they themselves are still under the Nic Bitches spell oh its no big deal (its just one dip/smoke or its only a social thing) LIES I tell you its all LIES there is no such thing as social dipping I can see this now. there is no such thing as just 1 are the people that think this really that stupid.
I doubt that anyone that is thinking about quitting will read this far into my ramblings but know this if you do
*your first week will be hell then the next two weeks you will question everything you knew to be true about yourself week 4 it will start to make sense only to get tossed around again. this journey isn't for the weak but know that contrary to what that nic bitch says you dont NEED her poison and you CANT just have one. this is an Addiction and until you realize that you have no control BUT once you realize the true nature of the hole you have dug for yourself you have the power to take your life back and say NO to the filthy dirty bitch and crawl hand over hand out of that hole. It is a CHOICE only you can make!
Thanks for posting this, Diesel. I hope you know that it helps me and others when you post. It lets us know what is coming down the road. What to expect. That regardless of how I feel at this moment, the fight will linger on.
It is a battle of wills. Your will is stronger and the great thing about it is, it's not just your will. It's our collective wills working together. That Nic Bitch as you call it has a super strong will when it is one-on-one. We are a team and we will prevail.
Viking
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Yippee tomorrow is going to be 30 days!!!!!!!! I was going to wait to post again till then but
I will be on my phone all weekend and its just easier to type on a full sized keyboard
the last couple of days I have been really struggling with anxiety that hit me out of no where and last night while
I was filliping out on my husband simply for not calling when he was done with his appointment (I am a huge worry wart when
it comes to medical shit ) I was flipping out and pacing back and forth my husband grabbed my shoulders and looked me dead in the
eyes and said "you are not going to find what your brain is looking for its at the store" that took all the wind out of my sails
As I come up on 30 days I realize that while I may not be actively recognizing the cravings they are still there on a deep seated almost molecular level. the battle has changed from a physical one to a subconscious one and it is a battle of wills.
I by no means have this under control like people around me think they ask how long have I been off dip I tell them my count and they respond with you so you are past the cravings you are home free....... I look at them thinking you are a special kind of stupid aren't you??
then I realize that their outlook is because they themselves are still under the Nic Bitches spell oh its no big deal (its just one dip/smoke or its only a social thing) LIES I tell you its all LIES there is no such thing as social dipping I can see this now. there is no such thing as just 1 are the people that think this really that stupid.
I doubt that anyone that is thinking about quitting will read this far into my ramblings but know this if you do
*your first week will be hell then the next two weeks you will question everything you knew to be true about yourself week 4 it will start to make sense only to get tossed around again. this journey isn't for the weak but know that contrary to what that nic bitch says you dont NEED her poison and you CANT just have one. this is an Addiction and until you realize that you have no control BUT once you realize the true nature of the hole you have dug for yourself you have the power to take your life back and say NO to the filthy dirty bitch and crawl hand over hand out of that hole. It is a CHOICE only you can make!
Thanks for posting this, Diesel. I hope you know that it helps me and others when you post. It lets us know what is coming down the road. What to expect. That regardless of how I feel at this moment, the fight will linger on.
It is a battle of wills. Your will is stronger and the great thing about it is, it's not just your will. It's our collective wills working together. That Nic Bitch as you call it has a super strong will when it is one-on-one. We are a team and we will prevail.
Viking
29 days is absolutely huge, and DC all this stuff you're going through will get better. Once that body fully resets to a non-chemically stimulated state of dependency, much of the side effects of quitting subside. Keep in mind, nicotine is an anxiolytic, and you've been self medicating any anxiety for the past X years. Now, you no longer have said drug and you're also learning to deal with anxiety minus the chemical. No easy task by any means. But you're right, you can never have just one. Like the alcoholic who can never have 1 drink, the same holds true for the nicotine addict.
Excited to see you on roll and chalk up the official 1 month mark, ...my money is on you being there, so here's a pre-congratulatory high five.
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Congrats on 30 days to one bad ass quitter!
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Congrats on 30 days to one bad ass quitter!
nice month DC!!
Keep doing what you're doing!
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Congrats on 30 days to one bad ass quitter!
nice month DC!!
Keep doing what you're doing!
30 days is huge. Keep stringing days together, it gets SO much better. This is the price to obtain your freedom, but it's a pittance for how good you will feel in the not too distant future.
You're doing great work DC, keep it up!
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Congrats on 30 days to one bad ass quitter!
nice month DC!!
Keep doing what you're doing!
30 days is huge. Keep stringing days together, it gets SO much better. This is the price to obtain your freedom, but it's a pittance for how good you will feel in the not too distant future.
You're doing great work DC, keep it up!
One month of freedom with many more to come ODAAT! Keep throat punching the bitch!
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Yippee tomorrow is going to be 30 days!!!!!!!! I was going to wait to post again till then but
I will be on my phone all weekend and its just easier to type on a full sized keyboard
the last couple of days I have been really struggling with anxiety that hit me out of no where and last night while
I was filliping out on my husband simply for not calling when he was done with his appointment (I am a huge worry wart when
it comes to medical shit ) I was flipping out and pacing back and forth my husband grabbed my shoulders and looked me dead in the
eyes and said "you are not going to find what your brain is looking for its at the store" that took all the wind out of my sails
As I come up on 30 days I realize that while I may not be actively recognizing the cravings they are still there on a deep seated almost molecular level. the battle has changed from a physical one to a subconscious one and it is a battle of wills.
I by no means have this under control like people around me think they ask how long have I been off dip I tell them my count and they respond with you so you are past the cravings you are home free....... I look at them thinking you are a special kind of stupid aren't you??
then I realize that their outlook is because they themselves are still under the Nic Bitches spell oh its no big deal (its just one dip/smoke or its only a social thing) LIES I tell you its all LIES there is no such thing as social dipping I can see this now. there is no such thing as just 1 are the people that think this really that stupid.
I doubt that anyone that is thinking about quitting will read this far into my ramblings but know this if you do
*your first week will be hell then the next two weeks you will question everything you knew to be true about yourself week 4 it will start to make sense only to get tossed around again. this journey isn't for the weak but know that contrary to what that nic bitch says you dont NEED her poison and you CANT just have one. this is an Addiction and until you realize that you have no control BUT once you realize the true nature of the hole you have dug for yourself you have the power to take your life back and say NO to the filthy dirty bitch and crawl hand over hand out of that hole. It is a CHOICE only you can make!
Thanks for posting this, Diesel. I hope you know that it helps me and others when you post. It lets us know what is coming down the road. What to expect. That regardless of how I feel at this moment, the fight will linger on.
It is a battle of wills. Your will is stronger and the great thing about it is, it's not just your will. It's our collective wills working together. That Nic Bitch as you call it has a super strong will when it is one-on-one. We are a team and we will prevail.
Viking
29 days is absolutely huge, and DC all this stuff you're going through will get better. Once that body fully resets to a non-chemically stimulated state of dependency, much of the side effects of quitting subside. Keep in mind, nicotine is an anxiolytic, and you've been self medicating any anxiety for the past X years. Now, you no longer have said drug and you're also learning to deal with anxiety minus the chemical. No easy task by any means. But you're right, you can never have just one. Like the alcoholic who can never have 1 drink, the same holds true for the nicotine addict.
Excited to see you on roll and chalk up the official 1 month mark, ...my money is on you being there, so here's a pre-congratulatory high five.
I like this quit, she gets it this time.
then I realize that their outlook is because they themselves are still under the Nic Bitches spell
I get you on this one. I've got a buddy who told me flat out, "Quitting wasn't that hard, don't know why you're so gung-ho on the whole posting roll thing". When I asked him if he would EVER chew again, he said, "I don't know ... if I was diagnosed terminal I would run to the nearest gas station I suppose". That right there is why it was easy in his mind's eye ... because he knew eventually, he was going back. You? You've flipped the proper switch. Keep killing it, moving forwards at the pace you need to go. NEVER backwards, always forwards. You're doing great!
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Yippee tomorrow is going to be 30 days!!!!!!!! I was going to wait to post again till then but
I will be on my phone all weekend and its just easier to type on a full sized keyboard
the last couple of days I have been really struggling with anxiety that hit me out of no where and last night while
I was filliping out on my husband simply for not calling when he was done with his appointment (I am a huge worry wart when
it comes to medical shit ) I was flipping out and pacing back and forth my husband grabbed my shoulders and looked me dead in the
eyes and said "you are not going to find what your brain is looking for its at the store" that took all the wind out of my sails
As I come up on 30 days I realize that while I may not be actively recognizing the cravings they are still there on a deep seated almost molecular level. the battle has changed from a physical one to a subconscious one and it is a battle of wills.
I by no means have this under control like people around me think they ask how long have I been off dip I tell them my count and they respond with you so you are past the cravings you are home free....... I look at them thinking you are a special kind of stupid aren't you??
then I realize that their outlook is because they themselves are still under the Nic Bitches spell oh its no big deal (its just one dip/smoke or its only a social thing) LIES I tell you its all LIES there is no such thing as social dipping I can see this now. there is no such thing as just 1 are the people that think this really that stupid.
I doubt that anyone that is thinking about quitting will read this far into my ramblings but know this if you do
*your first week will be hell then the next two weeks you will question everything you knew to be true about yourself week 4 it will start to make sense only to get tossed around again. this journey isn't for the weak but know that contrary to what that nic bitch says you dont NEED her poison and you CANT just have one. this is an Addiction and until you realize that you have no control BUT once you realize the true nature of the hole you have dug for yourself you have the power to take your life back and say NO to the filthy dirty bitch and crawl hand over hand out of that hole. It is a CHOICE only you can make!
Thanks for posting this, Diesel. I hope you know that it helps me and others when you post. It lets us know what is coming down the road. What to expect. That regardless of how I feel at this moment, the fight will linger on.
It is a battle of wills. Your will is stronger and the great thing about it is, it's not just your will. It's our collective wills working together. That Nic Bitch as you call it has a super strong will when it is one-on-one. We are a team and we will prevail.
Viking
29 days is absolutely huge, and DC all this stuff you're going through will get better. Once that body fully resets to a non-chemically stimulated state of dependency, much of the side effects of quitting subside. Keep in mind, nicotine is an anxiolytic, and you've been self medicating any anxiety for the past X years. Now, you no longer have said drug and you're also learning to deal with anxiety minus the chemical. No easy task by any means. But you're right, you can never have just one. Like the alcoholic who can never have 1 drink, the same holds true for the nicotine addict.
Excited to see you on roll and chalk up the official 1 month mark, ...my money is on you being there, so here's a pre-congratulatory high five.
I like this quit, she gets it this time.
then I realize that their outlook is because they themselves are still under the Nic Bitches spell
I get you on this one. I've got a buddy who told me flat out, "Quitting wasn't that hard, don't know why you're so gung-ho on the whole posting roll thing". When I asked him if he would EVER chew again, he said, "I don't know ... if I was diagnosed terminal I would run to the nearest gas station I suppose". That right there is why it was easy in his mind's eye ... because he knew eventually, he was going back. You? You've flipped the proper switch. Keep killing it, moving forwards at the pace you need to go. NEVER backwards, always forwards. You're doing great!
Thank you for the vote of confidence I am gonna rock my Quit till the end of time
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Day 35
.... it is a Thursday it was 5 Thursday's ago that I threw out my can and took back control of my life and WOW what a learning process it has been.
the last few days I have been fighting some anxiety which normally I would medicated with the chemical called Nicotine otherwise know as the BITCH. It got me to thinking I have been dipping since I was a teenager so I really have never gotten to know the adult me........ think about that one for a minute? I am having to meet myself for the first time ever. I don't know how the adult me deals with anxiety or frustrations disappointment excitement literally I get to meet a whole new me.
Yesterday I felt lost I could not concentrate or focus on anything it was like
.....gotta change the oil on this forklift crap where is that wrench I need to organize my tools oohhh this needs greased gotta get zip ties for the oil change there are too many papers on my desk that's right I took that wrench home need to sweep tonight .......
I was like a dog chasing a squirrel nothing made sense and all I could do is look at my list getting longer and longer finally I threw my hands in the air and ran to the safety of KTC hopped on chat got anchored back to earth got some good coping techniques and restarted my day today I am having to focus on one specific task at a time and not let other people bother me (like my micromanaging boss)
All I can say is this while some people my see 35 days as a life time....in quit time I am a baby . I have so many things to learn and discover and explore! Today's lesson - One Step, One Task, One conversation, at a time. I don't have to multitask focus on what is at hand crush it and move on to the next its the easiest way to get things done!
Tune in latter for more ramblings from DC
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Day 35
.... it is a Thursday it was 5 Thursday's ago that I threw out my can and took back control of my life and WOW what a learning process it has been.
the last few days I have been fighting some anxiety which normally I would medicated with the chemical called Nicotine otherwise know as the BITCH. It got me to thinking I have been dipping since I was a teenager so I really have never gotten to know the adult me........ think about that one for a minute? I am having to meet myself for the first time ever. I don't know how the adult me deals with anxiety or frustrations disappointment excitement literally I get to meet a whole new me.
Yesterday I felt lost I could not concentrate or focus on anything it was like
.....gotta change the oil on this forklift crap where is that wrench I need to organize my tools oohhh this needs greased gotta get zip ties for the oil change there are too many papers on my desk that's right I took that wrench home need to sweep tonight .......
I was like a dog chasing a squirrel nothing made sense and all I could do is look at my list getting longer and longer finally I threw my hands in the air and ran to the safety of KTC hopped on chat got anchored back to earth got some good coping techniques and restarted my day today I am having to focus on one specific task at a time and not let other people bother me (like my micromanaging boss)
All I can say is this while some people my see 35 days as a life time....in quit time I am a baby . I have so many things to learn and discover and explore! Today's lesson - One Step, One Task, One conversation, at a time. I don't have to multitask focus on what is at hand crush it and move on to the next its the easiest way to get things done!
Tune in latter for more ramblings from DC
While you are here, you will find out a lot about yourself, others, and life in general.
Some things you will wish had never come to light, some you already knew but kept it in your subconscious for your own sanity reasons. Well, here they are, feelings you have to deal with, without using a veil of nicotine to mask it all. YouÂ’ll learn to deal with everything with a clean and clear mind. ItÂ’s really difficult, but youÂ’ll succeed, eventually, as long as you want it bad enough. You know there is NO excuse or reason good enough to go back to using. I wish for you to be successful. Stay quit, itÂ’s worth it.
You are rockin it.
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Day 35
.... it is a Thursday it was 5 Thursday's ago that I threw out my can and took back control of my life and WOW what a learning process it has been.
the last few days I have been fighting some anxiety which normally I would medicated with the chemical called Nicotine otherwise know as the BITCH. It got me to thinking I have been dipping since I was a teenager so I really have never gotten to know the adult me........ think about that one for a minute? I am having to meet myself for the first time ever. I don't know how the adult me deals with anxiety or frustrations disappointment excitement literally I get to meet a whole new me.
Yesterday I felt lost I could not concentrate or focus on anything it was like
.....gotta change the oil on this forklift crap where is that wrench I need to organize my tools oohhh this needs greased gotta get zip ties for the oil change there are too many papers on my desk that's right I took that wrench home need to sweep tonight .......
I was like a dog chasing a squirrel nothing made sense and all I could do is look at my list getting longer and longer finally I threw my hands in the air and ran to the safety of KTC hopped on chat got anchored back to earth got some good coping techniques and restarted my day today I am having to focus on one specific task at a time and not let other people bother me (like my micromanaging boss)
All I can say is this while some people my see 35 days as a life time....in quit time I am a baby . I have so many things to learn and discover and explore! Today's lesson - One Step, One Task, One conversation, at a time. I don't have to multitask focus on what is at hand crush it and move on to the next its the easiest way to get things done!
Tune in latter for more ramblings from DC
While you are here, you will find out a lot about yourself, others, and life in general.
Some things you will wish had never come to light, some you already knew but kept it in your subconscious for your own sanity reasons. Well, here they are, feelings you have to deal with, without using a veil of nicotine to mask it all. YouÂ’ll learn to deal with everything with a clean and clear mind. ItÂ’s really difficult, but youÂ’ll succeed, eventually, as long as you want it bad enough. You know there is NO excuse or reason good enough to go back to using. I wish for you to be successful. Stay quit, itÂ’s worth it.
You are rockin it.
Absolutely love the way you are owning this quit, slaying that biatch, and getting to know the real you. You, young lady, are a model of what quitting done right looks like!
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Day 39
well it was an interesting weekend when to a celebration of life Saturday (which was Day 37) and it was when most of my family
realized that I QUIT!!! Grandma was happy Grandpa said what ever works for you (he is a smoker) then there was the 4 cousins and 2 uncles that had the best names for me pussy, quitter, sissy lala, blah blah blah the list goes on and on while one dip was spit out and another lipped I thought that I would be tempted seeing it all around me but I was more disgusted than anything.
Sunday had a neighborhood bbq and everyone was smoking (no dipper this day) and the smoke made me nauseous which is normal cause I hate cig smoke always have.
I guess that all in all this weekend was good I kept busy so I didn't have time to get wrapped up in my head
The tension in my jaw is going away this morning I started a new morning Yoga routine. I am all in all happy with my new life!!
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Day 39
well it was an interesting weekend when to a celebration of life Saturday (which was Day 37) and it was when most of my family
realized that I QUIT!!! Grandma was happy Grandpa said what ever works for you (he is a smoker) then there was the 4 cousins and 2 uncles that had the best names for me pussy, quitter, sissy lala, blah blah blah the list goes on and on while one dip was spit out and another lipped I thought that I would be tempted seeing it all around me but I was more disgusted than anything.
Sunday had a neighborhood bbq and everyone was smoking (no dipper this day) and the smoke made me nauseous which is normal cause I hate cig smoke always have.
I guess that all in all this weekend was good I kept busy so I didn't have time to get wrapped up in my head
The tension in my jaw is going away this morning I started a new morning Yoga routine. I am all in all happy with my new life!!
Way to stay strong Diesel!
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Day 39
well it was an interesting weekend when to a celebration of life Saturday (which was Day 37) and it was when most of my family
realized that I QUIT!!! Grandma was happy Grandpa said what ever works for you (he is a smoker) then there was the 4 cousins and 2 uncles that had the best names for me pussy, quitter, sissy lala, blah blah blah the list goes on and on while one dip was spit out and another lipped I thought that I would be tempted seeing it all around me but I was more disgusted than anything.
Sunday had a neighborhood bbq and everyone was smoking (no dipper this day) and the smoke made me nauseous which is normal cause I hate cig smoke always have.
I guess that all in all this weekend was good I kept busy so I didn't have time to get wrapped up in my head
The tension in my jaw is going away this morning I started a new morning Yoga routine. I am all in all happy with my new life!!
Way to stay strong Diesel!
Good story, you are strong! I only have 2 family members that dip, but of course, they "aren't addicts" 'facepalm'' . I choose to be quit with you today.
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Day 57
The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .
I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!
'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'
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Day 57
The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .
I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!
'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'
Stay strong. We're with you on this. Just get through today.
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Day 57
The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .
I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!
'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'
Stay strong. We're with you on this. Just get through today.
You are still owning this quit like a boss! Stay strong, stay connected, and it'll pass. It always passes. Just push through it. Here with you.
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Day 57
The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .
I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!
'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'
Stay strong. We're with you on this. Just get through today.
You are still owning this quit like a boss! Stay strong, stay connected, and it'll pass. It always passes. Just push through it. Here with you.
Thanks it is good to know that these little annoying shits will one day fade away but I think I rather like them now.....
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yep cause they are pissing me the fuck off and making me redouble down and really hold on with everything I got!!!! so go ahead and nag away you little shits me and Oregon mint are going to have a blast tonight!!!!!
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Day 57
The fog is back I started getting into it a few days ago today I cannot seem to clear my head the fact that I have been working 5 12s might have something to do with it but its frustrating to say the least. I just finished lunch a little while ago and bamm out of no where an after lunch time to put a dip in thought crossed my head now I am dealing with my jaw thinking it wants a dip but I know in the part of my head that is working that no I don't want one but the addict side of my brain is stuck on stupid right now .
I feel like smashing my head against a wall this is why the veterans tell us not to get complacent.......text messages sent addition to intro complete now to go hang out on chat..... will update latter tonight!!!!
'bang head' 'bang head' NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN 'bang head'
Stay strong. We're with you on this. Just get through today.
You are still owning this quit like a boss! Stay strong, stay connected, and it'll pass. It always passes. Just push through it. Here with you.
Thanks it is good to know that these little annoying shits will one day fade away but I think I rather like them now.....
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yep cause they are pissing me the fuck off and making me redouble down and really hold on with everything I got!!!! so go ahead and nag away you little shits me and Oregon mint are going to have a blast tonight!!!!!
Remember that you have so many good days ahead of you nicotine free! There will be funks but stick with it and they will pass. You are just really starting this journey and nicotine has dug its fingers in deep. NIC never sleeps which is why we all need to smack it in the face every morning. Even after HOF there are some rough days.
I quit with you today DC! Day 455.
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Keep up the great work. It really does continue to get better and better.
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Tomorrow is day 60 there has been some support and roll drama in my group the last couple days weak excuses were given for absence from roll and it has really made me think about what I am willing to endure for my quit?
To me this is serious this is an addiction its not something I can turn my back on because some one in the community rubbed the wrong nerve I wouldn't have made it through college hell high school even
I know that I cant want my quit brothers and sisters quit more than them but for fuck sakes how hard is it to respond to texts and emails. As I rant the alarm on my phone says its time to check the forums one final time for the night has rung so off till another day
WUPP EDD ~QUIT HARD AND QUIT PROUD
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Tomorrow is day 60 there has been some support and roll drama in my group the last couple days weak excuses were given for absence from roll and it has really made me think about what I am willing to endure for my quit?
To me this is serious this is an addiction its not something I can turn my back on because some one in the community rubbed the wrong nerve I wouldn't have made it through college hell high school even
I know that I cant want my quit brothers and sisters quit more than them but for fuck sakes how hard is it to respond to texts and emails. As I rant the alarm on my phone says its time to check the forums one final time for the night has rung so off till another day
WUPP EDD ~QUIT HARD AND QUIT PROUD
I feel you girl. I used to rack my brain on how anyone couldn't want their quit.
But you're right, you can't want it for them.
Don't let anything or anyone effect your quit.
I see you own yours, keep it that way.
I know you won't care any less for your brothers and sistersi would expect anything less, but guard your own quit at all times.
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Tomorrow is day 60 there has been some support and roll drama in my group the last couple days weak excuses were given for absence from roll and it has really made me think about what I am willing to endure for my quit?
To me this is serious this is an addiction its not something I can turn my back on because some one in the community rubbed the wrong nerve I wouldn't have made it through college hell high school even
I know that I cant want my quit brothers and sisters quit more than them but for fuck sakes how hard is it to respond to texts and emails. As I rant the alarm on my phone says its time to check the forums one final time for the night has rung so off till another day
WUPP EDD ~QUIT HARD AND QUIT PROUD
I feel you girl. I used to rack my brain on how anyone couldn't want their quit.
But you're right, you can't want it for them.
Don't let anything or anyone effect your quit.
I see you own yours, keep it that way.
I know you won't care any less for your brothers and sistersi would expect anything less, but guard your own quit at all times.
I agree wholeheartedly. Find those you can quit WITH. I was stressed out early in my quit with those in my month that failed to own their quits. You can't quit for anyone but you. Our month is down to just a hand full of guys that I know are quitting WITH me and that have my back. Don't let the weak ones drag you down. You are doing great!
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dieselchick87 I thought of you on Saturday - from reading your posts I too look - looked- forward to my Saturday cleanings while humming around with dip in my mouth buzzing thinking it was helping me focus.
Saturday I killed it with a clean lip and fresh attitude. It's a start on a long journey I plan on keeping to the path of no tobacco ever again.
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Can I just say that there are some days that I just get tired of being quit its a lot of damn work.
I think back to when it was so easy to just throw a dip in and go about my day
when I would get overwhelmed I'd just let the nicotine wash over me making me numb to the emotions
to be honest there are days I miss it ........
That is why I know that I can NEVER have Just one that will never be an option in my life
there will never be a day that I can close my eyes and not keep tabs on what the little whore named nicotine is up to.
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Can I just say that there are some days that I just get tired of being quit its a lot of damn work.
I think back to when it was so easy to just throw a dip in and go about my day
when I would get overwhelmed I'd just let the nicotine wash over me making me numb to the emotions
to be honest there are days I miss it ........
That is why I know that I can NEVER have Just one that will never be an option in my life
there will never be a day that I can close my eyes and not keep tabs on what the little whore named nicotine is up to.
You're so right. Quitting is hard work. at least we have each other to support us through these shitty days. I would have failed the first day without this site and all of you. Super cool that you are so active in supporting others' quits so hopefully that energizes.
If it helps motivate your quit at all, this post helped me as it was a reminder to me that when I reach 70-80 days to stay super vigilant and involved.. Drome and others have mentioned what's happening to you will hit nearly all of us at or around 70-80.
Sorry you are having a shitty day. 'Finger' Nicotine and chew.
Proud to quit with you.
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Can I just say that there are some days that I just get tired of being quit its a lot of damn work.
I think back to when it was so easy to just throw a dip in and go about my day
when I would get overwhelmed I'd just let the nicotine wash over me making me numb to the emotions
to be honest there are days I miss it ........
That is why I know that I can NEVER have Just one that will never be an option in my life
there will never be a day that I can close my eyes and not keep tabs on what the little whore named nicotine is up to.
You're so right. Quitting is hard work. at least we have each other to support us through these shitty days. I would have failed the first day without this site and all of you. Super cool that you are so active in supporting others' quits so hopefully that energizes.
If it helps motivate your quit at all, this post helped me as it was a reminder to me that when I reach 70-80 days to stay super vigilant and involved.. Drome and others have mentioned what's happening to you will hit nearly all of us at or around 70-80.
Sorry you are having a shitty day. 'Finger' Nicotine and chew.
Proud to quit with you.
Thank you Viking
this is the second one I hit the first one around day 55 -56 was fog and cravings and this one is just a wall like my brain doesn't want to go forward I am trying to find a balance with supporting others except for a select few core people I am giving more than getting and I think that is part of my drain right now
I have an all or nothing personality and I am having to learn how to harness that energy and balance it out if that makes sense
Keep on Quitting on!!
Quit hard and Quit proud
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Can I just say that there are some days that I just get tired of being quit its a lot of damn work.
I think back to when it was so easy to just throw a dip in and go about my day
when I would get overwhelmed I'd just let the nicotine wash over me making me numb to the emotions
to be honest there are days I miss it ........
That is why I know that I can NEVER have Just one that will never be an option in my life
there will never be a day that I can close my eyes and not keep tabs on what the little whore named nicotine is up to.
But also think of what it stole from you! Quitting is hard, but beating back the addiction is so much better. You have a great quit going. Stay strong.
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'Birthday'
DC ???
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'Birthday'
DC ???
There is no better thing than being quit on your birthday! B)B
I quit with you today! Stranger999 - day 463
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'Birthday'
DC ???
There is no better thing than being quit on your birthday! B)B
I quit with you today! Stranger999 - day 463
'oh yeah'
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Can I just say that there are some days that I just get tired of being quit its a lot of damn work.
I think back to when it was so easy to just throw a dip in and go about my day
when I would get overwhelmed I'd just let the nicotine wash over me making me numb to the emotions
to be honest there are days I miss it ........
That is why I know that I can NEVER have Just one that will never be an option in my life
there will never be a day that I can close my eyes and not keep tabs on what the little whore named nicotine is up to.
You're so right. Quitting is hard work. at least we have each other to support us through these shitty days. I would have failed the first day without this site and all of you. Super cool that you are so active in supporting others' quits so hopefully that energizes.
If it helps motivate your quit at all, this post helped me as it was a reminder to me that when I reach 70-80 days to stay super vigilant and involved.. Drome and others have mentioned what's happening to you will hit nearly all of us at or around 70-80.
Sorry you are having a shitty day. 'Finger' Nicotine and chew.
Proud to quit with you.
Thank you Viking
this is the second one I hit the first one around day 55 -56 was fog and cravings and this one is just a wall like my brain doesn't want to go forward I am trying to find a balance with supporting others except for a select few core people I am giving more than getting and I think that is part of my drain right now
I have an all or nothing personality and I am having to learn how to harness that energy and balance it out if that makes sense
Keep on Quitting on!!
Quit hard and Quit proud
DC, just read your intro. Great quit going on here!
You are on the quit roller-coaster. There will be some easier quit days, and even a couple or few/several easier days in a row, but then you will get back to cravings, fog, and the SUCK, and you will have to fight like hell to stay quit. Use the easier quit days to recharge for the next hard patch, and keep your tools sharp. There is nothing the nic-bitch can throw at you that you have not already overcome, and there is no reason, no excuse for caving. You have all the tools you need to kill a crave. You have all the tools you need to get through a fog, and a bought of the dreaded SUCK (embrace the fog and SUCK, they are signs of you winning). When you get into a hard stretch, and it takes everything you have to stay quit, remember that "it sucks until it doesn't" is a true statement. There will come a day when the roller-coaster quit ride is over, and you will find yourself in a way better place.
Have you had a crave free day yet? Keep drinking the KTC kool-aide and you will. You might have 100 craves the following day, but eventually you won't remember the last time you had a crave.
Have you had a day yet where you only thought about dip for the 2 minutes you were posting roll on KTC? You will if you keep killing it. You might go into a fog the next day, but you have proven that a fog can't destroy your quit.
There is a pattern of risky times in the early quit. 1 week, 1 month, around day 50, 70-80-90, post HOF, 120-130, 170s(lost a lot of people from the quit-group there), 220s... Knowing that it is common, and that it gets way better can help.
The SUCK was the worst thing I remember. It was the last major hurdle for me. I hit a point where I was quit and I knew I would never have another dip, but everything SUCKED. I think it lasted a few weeks, but it eventually went away. After that I don't think that I have had another hard quit day...
So just keep doing what got you here. If you have to fight like hell all day, then that is what you do b/c you know you can, and you own your quit. Know that you will have easy days to rest up and get ready for the next fight for your quit all day times. Don't be afraid to ask for help, and keep building your accountability.
You got this DC.
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Thank you CD Stranger and Raz For the birthday wishes!!!! they ment a lot I am sorry that I didn't say so sooner and B-loMatt Thank you for the list of days to Be aware of I will keep those in mind and maybe on a note on my mirror I don't ever want to get complacent. my quit means more to me every day and with a lot of the shit that is going on in my life at the moment life it too precious to dip ever again
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there was a question that was posed in January today and it has been asked before but its a fluid question (meaning the answer changes) What is our biggest Victory to date well here is what I posted there........
"my Victory is getting to today Day 77 the last few days I have been noticing (and I mean actually noticing, head turning double takes ) I am not sure why this started other than I am an addict and the Nic bitch is getting desperate
I am noticing people who ninja dip who I never noticed before I am spotting cans like its going out of style its driving me nuts I am salivating at the mere mention of taking a dip. I know I am stronger than anything that comes my way
today because I gave my word to my quit brothers and sisters here as soon as I woke up this morning!!!!!!"
I have been dealing with a lot the last couple of weeks drama with my mother in law, my nephew(2 months old) had heart surgery, my mother in law moved out of my home finally!!!! 'oh yeah' my husband has had 10 teeth pulled in the last 25 days and I have delt with some personal health issues I have had my ups and downs and its safe to say that without KTC I wouldn't still be here at day 77 this community is really an amazing thing it may sound strange to some but when you buy in fully to the KTC way it takes so much weight off your shoulders and all you have to do is make the choice each morning to Quit for that day post roll and then all the tools you need to remain quit are sitting at your fingertips. you don't have to do this on your own, pick up your phone and text or call someone you get on your computer and open up your group page and reach out pull up the live chat there is literally no reason to cave period if you cave then that's on you cause KTC gives you everything you need to stay quit.... Quitting the KTC way is easy..... that is not saying you will not have to fight off cravings with everything that you have or that you wont stare down a can having an internal (maybe verbal) conversation with the Nic Bitch telling her to go to the deepest part of hell and stay there but if you use the tools provided You will Rock the Socks off your Quit!!!!
Quit Loud and Proud!!!!!!!!!!
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there was a question that was posed in January today and it has been asked before but its a fluid question (meaning the answer changes) What is our biggest Victory to date well here is what I posted there........
"my Victory is getting to today Day 77 the last few days I have been noticing (and I mean actually noticing, head turning double takes ) I am not sure why this started other than I am an addict and the Nic bitch is getting desperate
I am noticing people who ninja dip who I never noticed before I am spotting cans like its going out of style its driving me nuts I am salivating at the mere mention of taking a dip. I know I am stronger than anything that comes my way
today because I gave my word to my quit brothers and sisters here as soon as I woke up this morning!!!!!!"
I have been dealing with a lot the last couple of weeks drama with my mother in law, my nephew(2 months old) had heart surgery, my mother in law moved out of my home finally!!!! 'oh yeah' my husband has had 10 teeth pulled in the last 25 days and I have delt with some personal health issues I have had my ups and downs and its safe to say that without KTC I wouldn't still be here at day 77 this community is really an amazing thing it may sound strange to some but when you buy in fully to the KTC way it takes so much weight off your shoulders and all you have to do is make the choice each morning to Quit for that day post roll and then all the tools you need to remain quit are sitting at your fingertips. you don't have to do this on your own, pick up your phone and text or call someone you get on your computer and open up your group page and reach out pull up the live chat there is literally no reason to cave period if you cave then that's on you cause KTC gives you everything you need to stay quit.... Quitting the KTC way is easy..... that is not saying you will not have to fight off cravings with everything that you have or that you wont stare down a can having an internal (maybe verbal) conversation with the Nic Bitch telling her to go to the deepest part of hell and stay there but if you use the tools provided You will Rock the Socks off your Quit!!!!
Quit Loud and Proud!!!!!!!!!!
You've got this DC...and we've got your back. I am proud of the focus and determination you bring every single day. You continue to be a great example to all of us.
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there was a question that was posed in January today and it has been asked before but its a fluid question (meaning the answer changes) What is our biggest Victory to date well here is what I posted there........
"my Victory is getting to today Day 77 the last few days I have been noticing (and I mean actually noticing, head turning double takes ) I am not sure why this started other than I am an addict and the Nic bitch is getting desperate
I am noticing people who ninja dip who I never noticed before I am spotting cans like its going out of style its driving me nuts I am salivating at the mere mention of taking a dip. I know I am stronger than anything that comes my way
today because I gave my word to my quit brothers and sisters here as soon as I woke up this morning!!!!!!"
I have been dealing with a lot the last couple of weeks drama with my mother in law, my nephew(2 months old) had heart surgery, my mother in law moved out of my home finally!!!! 'oh yeah' my husband has had 10 teeth pulled in the last 25 days and I have delt with some personal health issues I have had my ups and downs and its safe to say that without KTC I wouldn't still be here at day 77 this community is really an amazing thing it may sound strange to some but when you buy in fully to the KTC way it takes so much weight off your shoulders and all you have to do is make the choice each morning to Quit for that day post roll and then all the tools you need to remain quit are sitting at your fingertips. you don't have to do this on your own, pick up your phone and text or call someone you get on your computer and open up your group page and reach out pull up the live chat there is literally no reason to cave period if you cave then that's on you cause KTC gives you everything you need to stay quit.... Quitting the KTC way is easy..... that is not saying you will not have to fight off cravings with everything that you have or that you wont stare down a can having an internal (maybe verbal) conversation with the Nic Bitch telling her to go to the deepest part of hell and stay there but if you use the tools provided You will Rock the Socks off your Quit!!!!
Quit Loud and Proud!!!!!!!!!!
You've got this DC...and we've got your back. I am proud of the focus and determination you bring every single day. You continue to be a great example to all of us.
She's a quitter! Proud to be quit with you today DC
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there was a question that was posed in January today and it has been asked before but its a fluid question (meaning the answer changes) What is our biggest Victory to date well here is what I posted there........
"my Victory is getting to today Day 77 the last few days I have been noticing (and I mean actually noticing, head turning double takes ) I am not sure why this started other than I am an addict and the Nic bitch is getting desperate
I am noticing people who ninja dip who I never noticed before I am spotting cans like its going out of style its driving me nuts I am salivating at the mere mention of taking a dip. I know I am stronger than anything that comes my way
today because I gave my word to my quit brothers and sisters here as soon as I woke up this morning!!!!!!"
I have been dealing with a lot the last couple of weeks drama with my mother in law, my nephew(2 months old) had heart surgery, my mother in law moved out of my home finally!!!! 'oh yeah' my husband has had 10 teeth pulled in the last 25 days and I have delt with some personal health issues I have had my ups and downs and its safe to say that without KTC I wouldn't still be here at day 77 this community is really an amazing thing it may sound strange to some but when you buy in fully to the KTC way it takes so much weight off your shoulders and all you have to do is make the choice each morning to Quit for that day post roll and then all the tools you need to remain quit are sitting at your fingertips. you don't have to do this on your own, pick up your phone and text or call someone you get on your computer and open up your group page and reach out pull up the live chat there is literally no reason to cave period if you cave then that's on you cause KTC gives you everything you need to stay quit.... Quitting the KTC way is easy..... that is not saying you will not have to fight off cravings with everything that you have or that you wont stare down a can having an internal (maybe verbal) conversation with the Nic Bitch telling her to go to the deepest part of hell and stay there but if you use the tools provided You will Rock the Socks off your Quit!!!!
Quit Loud and Proud!!!!!!!!!!
You've got this DC...and we've got your back. I am proud of the focus and determination you bring every single day. You continue to be a great example to all of us.
She's a quitter! Proud to be quit with you today DC
Great victory diesel, that is a handful of stress going on!
The 70s to 80s for me were a rough patch in my quit. Holidays are their own challenge too. Keep doing what you are doing, you got this.
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For a second there, I thought the website was dead! Literally, it says its only me who's viewing the forum. Maybe its a wrong timing; since my time is (GMT +4) here. Which is 3:41PM right now.
But yeah,
I just wish this community could grow strong and spread around, making encouraging and motivational posts and advices. Because the target line was not met, since many are still going back to their disgusting habits!
Goodluck guys, God bless us all, and Merry Quitmas to anyone whose ready to quit! :)
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For a second there, I thought the website was dead! Literally, it says its only me who's viewing the forum. Maybe its a wrong timing; since my time is (GMT +4) here. Which is 3:41PM right now.
But yeah,
I just wish this community could grow strong and spread around, making encouraging and motivational posts and advices. Because the target line was not met, since many are still going back to their disgusting habits!
Goodluck guys, God bless us all, and Merry Quitmas to anyone whose ready to quit! :)
We are a very strong community here but we don't coddle or sugar coat anything the harsh reality of the matter is what wakes people up to the need to quit if all we talked about was butterflies and soft puppies
there would be far fewer quit then there are today because of KTC. Not sure what your post is all about but hey quit on
I Quit for ME Today!!!!! and I Quit right along side of all of my KTC brothers and sisters!!!!!!! 78 Days Strong!
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For a second there, I thought the website was dead! Literally, it says its only me who's viewing the forum. Maybe its a wrong timing; since my time is (GMT +4) here. Which is 3:41PM right now.
But yeah,
I just wish this community could grow strong and spread around, making encouraging and motivational posts and advices. Because the target line was not met, since many are still going back to their disgusting habits!
Goodluck guys, God bless us all, and Merry Quitmas to anyone whose ready to quit! :)
When you posted this, were you:
a) Sleeping?
b) High?
c) Drunk?
d) Just released from the asylum?
e) Peering into someone's window?
f) answers b, d, and e
g) answers c, d, and e
h) all of the above
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For a second there, I thought the website was dead! Literally, it says its only me who's viewing the forum. Maybe its a wrong timing; since my time is (GMT +4) here. Which is 3:41PM right now.
But yeah,
I just wish this community could grow strong and spread around, making encouraging and motivational posts and advices. Because the target line was not met, since many are still going back to their disgusting habits!
Goodluck guys, God bless us all, and Merry Quitmas to anyone whose ready to quit! :)
When you posted this, were you:
a) Sleeping?
b) High?
c) Drunk?
d) Just released from the asylum?
e) Peering into someone's window?
f) answers b, d, and e
g) answers c, d, and e
h) all of the above
roflmao roflmao roflmao I love it!!!!!!!
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I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip
78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter
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I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip
78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter
78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)
I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.
You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.
I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.
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I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip
78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter
78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)
I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.
You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.
I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.
That 12 year old son will follow right in his fathers footsteps! Mine did. Holidays are tough but so are you! Keep kicking ass and every chance you get smile and the bitch to remind her you're winning!
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I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip
78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter
78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)
I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.
You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.
I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.
That 12 year old son will follow right in his fathers footsteps! Mine did. Holidays are tough but so are you! Keep kicking ass and every chance you get smile and the bitch to remind her you're winning!
I will most definitely do Proud to be Quit with both of you!
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I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip
78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter
78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)
I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.
You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.
I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.
That 12 year old son will follow right in his fathers footsteps! Mine did. Holidays are tough but so are you! Keep kicking ass and every chance you get smile and the bitch to remind her you're winning!
I will most definitely do Proud to be Quit with both of you!
I love what this place does for us,
or more, what this place lets us do for ourselves.
All we have to do, is leave pride behind and follow the blueprint laid out.
I love that you are here, i love that you talk about your quit journey, so we can all remember what we've gone through, and new quit can understand they can also be successful .
DC, today you are stronger, tomorrow, you'll be stronger than today.
ILTQWYT!
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I am sitting here bouncing around the site trying to round up the last few that need to post roll today and trying to wrap my head around 78 days of no fucking cat shit in my lip
78 days ................................ nope it hasn't sunk in yet and the day is over half done ......................78 days
today I had a mechanic helping me install a mast on one of the forklifts and he just blurted out "what is it that you chew again?" and without thinking my popped off with KTC he gave me the strangest
look and asked me "what company makes that I have never heard of it ?" so I told him that I was 78 days quit and about the site and he looked at me like I had grown a tail then he told me that the reason
he asked was he was going to Idaho where chew is CHEAP and I mean like $2 something a can (that includes tax) and he was going to offer to pick me up some. its really crazy how much has changed just because
I quit ..........
My brain just squirrelled on me I really did have a point going there guess I will have to come back and share it latter
78 days is awesome by itself - rounding up the missing is excellent! You're getting it. :)
I was out last night and a friend of mine kept rambling on about these "great cigars" he was going to score for us. I told him not to bother for me and reminded him that I had aimed him at KTC last year. He started telling stories about his 12 year old son giving him a hard time about his can of Skoal. My friend's kid can't convince him to quit so I don't expect I will convince him either.
You've joined a special club here. All you need to do is post roll and keep your promise.
I quit with you today DC - Stranger999 - day 476.
That 12 year old son will follow right in his fathers footsteps! Mine did. Holidays are tough but so are you! Keep kicking ass and every chance you get smile and the bitch to remind her you're winning!
I will most definitely do Proud to be Quit with both of you!
I love what this place does for us,
or more, what this place lets us do for ourselves.
All we have to do, is leave pride behind and follow the blueprint laid out.
I love that you are here, i love that you talk about your quit journey, so we can all remember what we've gone through, and new quit can understand they can also be successful .
DC, today you are stronger, tomorrow, you'll be stronger than today.
ILTQWYT!
Just got caught up on the last few days of your intro...Diesel, I think anyone who knows anything about quitting and what it takes to do this should be proud of you. I, for one, am in the same boat as those posting ahead...I'm really proud of you, and happy for you. That day 77 win was huge and a great personal milestone. You earned that. But,...BUT! It gets even better. I'm still high on quit euphoria unlike a drug,...the more I quit the easier it is to achieve that euphoric feeling. Keep it up DC...the best has yet to come.
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Day 81
So I up until now have not had any major dip dreams that left me feeling guilty or confused I had a couple that left me pissed off at myself anywho
last night I had a smoking dream that made me add another goal to my New years list.......... I dreamed that I had picked up smoking "just one"
cigarette in the mornings so I had a few minutes to myself with a cup of coffee........
Well I woke up and realized that hmmmmm I must need to schedule some me time into my busy hectic life cause I can never do just one of any nicotine
substance this journey has helped me to realize the importance of self care time it doesn't matter what that looks like as long as it is a way for you to
recharge... for my husband that looks like a bunch of guys together wheeling their rigs or around a bon fire pouring shots (he is an extrovert social butterfly)
for me on the other hand it looks like a nice hot bubble bath with a book or curled up in front of the fire (shy introvert) fi we don't take time to care for ourselves
then we are opening a door for the Nic Bitch, we leave ourselves vulnerable to temptation and suggestions...
There is way more to staying quit then not putting cat shit in you lip you have to learn this new you and what your weak points are and what buttons need to be
kept guarded cause if they get pushed they activate triggers that are massive.....so the take away from these ramblings are.................
in order to take care of your quit you have to take care of you
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Day 83
****RANTING AND VENTING things in this post may not make sense I was having a melt down moment and the first thing I could think of was to come here and just let it all out and the reason that I hit Post is to remind myself in the future that even the littlest things can trigger the want to cave even a mistake that was not my fault ****
Today would have been a real bad day if I wasn't quit cause it would be a 2 can'er and I am broke as fuck.
I should have known that it was going to be a bad day when I dreamed about going to work and for some reason taking my husbands brand new pack of cigarettes with me (that should have been my first clue to stay home today) then a coworker
who has been off on sick leave came back and fell and broke a hip and I got blamed for his hip breaking (2nd clue) then on my way home from work I got into a wreck with my bosses new car (3rd and final straw)
I woke up "wow that was a fucked up dream"
I am 2 hours into my day and someone put a broom by my heater and it caught fire (its my fault) now my new nickname is Pyro. then I pissed off a friend and she canceled our dinner tonight I want to go home and hide under my blankets it seems like everything I touch I fuck it up
I give up I don't want to even try anymore its stupid and bullshit
my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now
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Day 83
****RANTING AND VENTING things in this post may not make sense I was having a melt down moment and the first thing I could think of was to come here and just let it all out and the reason that I hit Post is to remind myself in the future that even the littlest things can trigger the want to cave even a mistake that was not my fault ****
Today would have been a real bad day if I wasn't quit cause it would be a 2 can'er and I am broke as fuck.
I should have known that it was going to be a bad day when I dreamed about going to work and for some reason taking my husbands brand new pack of cigarettes with me (that should have been my first clue to stay home today) then a coworker
who has been off on sick leave came back and fell and broke a hip and I got blamed for his hip breaking (2nd clue) then on my way home from work I got into a wreck with my bosses new car (3rd and final straw)
I woke up "wow that was a fucked up dream"
I am 2 hours into my day and someone put a broom by my heater and it caught fire (its my fault) now my new nickname is Pyro. then I pissed off a friend and she canceled our dinner tonight I want to go home and hide under my blankets it seems like everything I touch I fuck it up
I give up I don't want to even try anymore its stupid and bullshit
my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now
^^^^^^^
here is a reason why people succeed. They lay it out there on the line for others to read. The get what is bothering them 'off their chest'.
Life throws quite a bit at us, and it is the learning how to handle it without the poison that shows us the way to a bright future.
Well done there lady. You have done well. You have used what has been taught. Just keep up the great work, learning each day as you go.
a huge win for you, and for others a path to see how they can too.
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Day 83
****RANTING AND VENTING things in this post may not make sense I was having a melt down moment and the first thing I could think of was to come here and just let it all out and the reason that I hit Post is to remind myself in the future that even the littlest things can trigger the want to cave even a mistake that was not my fault ****
Today would have been a real bad day if I wasn't quit cause it would be a 2 can'er and I am broke as fuck.
I should have known that it was going to be a bad day when I dreamed about going to work and for some reason taking my husbands brand new pack of cigarettes with me (that should have been my first clue to stay home today) then a coworker
who has been off on sick leave came back and fell and broke a hip and I got blamed for his hip breaking (2nd clue) then on my way home from work I got into a wreck with my bosses new car (3rd and final straw)
I woke up "wow that was a fucked up dream"
I am 2 hours into my day and someone put a broom by my heater and it caught fire (its my fault) now my new nickname is Pyro. then I pissed off a friend and she canceled our dinner tonight I want to go home and hide under my blankets it seems like everything I touch I fuck it up
I give up I don't want to even try anymore its stupid and bullshit
my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now
^^^^^^^
here is a reason why people succeed. They lay it out there on the line for others to read. The get what is bothering them 'off their chest'.
Life throws quite a bit at us, and it is the learning how to handle it without the poison that shows us the way to a bright future.
Well done there lady. You have done well. You have used what has been taught. Just keep up the great work, learning each day as you go.
a huge win for you, and for others a path to see how they can too.
really great to share this. Keep it up! you really make your quit work by giving so much- and in return you get a lot of support. The model you provide is so so valuable. Learning how to deal with life unfiltered by the poisons we all used to ingest to numb it out takes time and is hard but i'm loving it and loving seeing others on the same journey and succeeding!
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Just a reminder of why I am here
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~Thank you Cancrusher
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Day 84 I am not going to double up on my ramblings for today if you want to read them
Click HERE (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=11247538&t=30025780)
THE NIC BITCH WILL NOT WIN
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I often think how many bad days I have now that I am a quitter vs, when I was a user and it always comes out that they are equal, just now I don't have to kill myself to get through what most people call life. You are killing it Diesel.
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I often think how many bad days I have now that I am a quitter vs, when I was a user and it always comes out that they are equal, just now I don't have to kill myself to get through what most people call life. You are killing it Diesel.
thank you some days don't feel like it but so far is a good day!
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I often think how many bad days I have now that I am a quitter vs, when I was a user and it always comes out that they are equal, just now I don't have to kill myself to get through what most people call life. You are killing it Diesel.
thank you some days don't feel like it but so far is a good day!
Cool. There is a common funk around 70-80, power through it and get back on it!
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I often think how many bad days I have now that I am a quitter vs, when I was a user and it always comes out that they are equal, just now I don't have to kill myself to get through what most people call life. You are killing it Diesel.
thank you some days don't feel like it but so far is a good day!
Cool. There is a common funk around 70-80, power through it and get back on it!
HOF isn't that far away. You're doing great! :)
The key is to stay connected with other quitters. Maintaining that bond maintains the quit. I don't think anyone here stays quit without leaning on others from time to time.
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I often think how many bad days I have now that I am a quitter vs, when I was a user and it always comes out that they are equal, just now I don't have to kill myself to get through what most people call life. You are killing it Diesel.
thank you some days don't feel like it but so far is a good day!
Cool. There is a common funk around 70-80, power through it and get back on it!
HOF isn't that far away. You're doing great! :)
The key is to stay connected with other quitters. Maintaining that bond maintains the quit. I don't think anyone here stays quit without leaning on others from time to time.
So true what Stranger said. He's not even in my quit group and has picked me up a few times for roll. How cool is that?
You get to the point where you begin to look for a core of people on here from your group and different groups too.. and when you are positing, etc.. you area looking to make sure your 'core' is on roll... without realizing you are doing it..
For me its guys like King, Stranger, Jglav.... even guys from my group who have caved and moved into newer groups. Its such a cool concept when the light bulb finally goes on and a quitter buys into it.
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my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now
Do you think that perhaps its not your emotions trying to get the better of you, but rather its the other way around. Maybe. When we think of addiction and nicotine, its usually nicotine that has a hold of our brain and F's up our thinking. Emotions can either defeat or succumb to our way of thinking. For example, if your having a bad day, your emotions are weak (and vulnerable) - nicotine has the upper hand. Conversely, if you're having a bad day but you maintain your fortitude, then nicotine can be defeated.
Beating addiction is about gaining control. Emotions are harder to control in general and with nicotine F'ing with the way we think, we lose some ability to control our emotions. Diesel, you have almost 3 months of daily wins under your belt; you are gaining control. Keep the emotions in check - this is where the strength is needed.
Lastly, if you need/want a rock to lean on when you sense a crack in your foundation, need to vent, or anything - shoot me a PM and I'll give you my number. No pressure; if you already have people like that in your arsenal, then great. I would just be remiss at this point if I didn't extend myself.
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my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now
Do you think that perhaps its not your emotions trying to get the better of you, but rather its the other way around. Maybe. When we think of addiction and nicotine, its usually nicotine that has a hold of our brain and F's up our thinking. Emotions can either defeat or succumb to our way of thinking. For example, if your having a bad day, your emotions are weak (and vulnerable) - nicotine has the upper hand. Conversely, if you're having a bad day but you maintain your fortitude, then nicotine can be defeated.
Beating addiction is about gaining control. Emotions are harder to control in general and with nicotine F'ing with the way we think, we lose some ability to control our emotions. Diesel, you have almost 3 months of daily wins under your belt; you are gaining control. Keep the emotions in check - this is where the strength is needed.
Lastly, if you need/want a rock to lean on when you sense a crack in your foundation, need to vent, or anything - shoot me a PM and I'll give you my number. No pressure; if you already have people like that in your arsenal, then great. I would just be remiss at this point if I didn't extend myself.
Hey dc, you are absolutely right! This shit is hard and it takes a gal as stubborn and hard headed as you are to get it done. The way I see it the only thing that's could stop you is you! Besides what the hell would dip ever do for you again except piss you off for ever starting again. I found out that I love doing woodwork and I work on it for hours, I'm not gonna lie to you, at times I get slapped in the face hard cravings but so what I crave chocolate all the time to and guess what I can do without both because of ktc I'm a lot stronger person. It's easy to run store and get a can but it takes a strong person to look their addiction right in the eye and say F. U. never again. Even when I didn't have faith I always had someone picking me up and that's what ktc is all about, we all have your back and we all care about you and your quit! Never ever give the bitch an inch. Quit on
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my emotions say: just give me a dip this world is fucked up and there is no point to anything
my brain says: that's stupid then we would have to start this shit all over again
Emotions: no there is no point just fuck it all
Brain: oh quit being dramatic
E: I am not being dramatic you just don't understand
B: uh yeah I do remember day 3 I was coming unglued
E: that was kind of funny you were going every which way
B: that may have been funny but you should have seen yourself on day 4 you didn't know which way was up
E: that was fucked up ..........
E:........... Maybe you are right ....... Now I am tired can we go to bed now
Do you think that perhaps its not your emotions trying to get the better of you, but rather its the other way around. Maybe. When we think of addiction and nicotine, its usually nicotine that has a hold of our brain and F's up our thinking. Emotions can either defeat or succumb to our way of thinking. For example, if your having a bad day, your emotions are weak (and vulnerable) - nicotine has the upper hand. Conversely, if you're having a bad day but you maintain your fortitude, then nicotine can be defeated.
Beating addiction is about gaining control. Emotions are harder to control in general and with nicotine F'ing with the way we think, we lose some ability to control our emotions. Diesel, you have almost 3 months of daily wins under your belt; you are gaining control. Keep the emotions in check - this is where the strength is needed.
Lastly, if you need/want a rock to lean on when you sense a crack in your foundation, need to vent, or anything - shoot me a PM and I'll give you my number. No pressure; if you already have people like that in your arsenal, then great. I would just be remiss at this point if I didn't extend myself.
I hadn't thought of it like this thank you its usually nicotine that has a hold of our brain and F's up our thinking. Emotions can either defeat or succumb to our way of thinking. For example, if your having a bad day, your emotions are weak (and vulnerable) - nicotine has the upper hand
Emotions are a tricky creature and nicotine has a way of pulling punches that keep me on my toes
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DAY 95
Let that number sink in for a bit
that is a long time and a short time so much has happened and so much is yet to
happen I don't have a lot to say today but its 95 days
I don't have this licked nor am I anywhere close its easier than it was yesterday
that's just because yesterday is over and I am now in today. to anyone reading this
while young in their quit DO NOT Get COMPLACENT the cravings will still hit you upside
the head when you least expect them to keep your eyes open last night I was sitting on
my living room floor after dinner and I kinda drifted off in thought and then I realized that
I was staring down my husbands pack of cigarettes thinking about those after dinner dips of
old and how nice it would be to have just one ......... those fatal words I was so pissed off
I went and got a little wooden box I have that has a lid on it and informed my husband if he
wanted to continue poisoning himself that he would have to keep his cigarettes and lighter in that
box I don't know if it was the feeling full after a good meal or seeing the cigarettes that triggered
my wanting just one but I am not going to leave it up in the air
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DAY 95
Let that number sink in for a bit
that is a long time and a short time so much has happened and so much is yet to
happen I don't have a lot to say today but its 95 days
I don't have this licked nor am I anywhere close its easier than it was yesterday
that's just because yesterday is over and I am now in today. to anyone reading this
while young in their quit DO NOT Get COMPLACENT the cravings will still hit you upside
the head when you least expect them to keep your eyes open last night I was sitting on
my living room floor after dinner and I kinda drifted off in thought and then I realized that
I was staring down my husbands pack of cigarettes thinking about those after dinner dips of
old and how nice it would be to have just one ......... those fatal words I was so pissed off
I went and got a little wooden box I have that has a lid on it and informed my husband if he
wanted to continue poisoning himself that he would have to keep his cigarettes and lighter in that
box I don't know if it was the feeling full after a good meal or seeing the cigarettes that triggered
my wanting just one but I am not going to leave it up in the air
Keep working it out dc87...
Things get more clear every new day.
Like your emotions....they are just the caboose.
Truth is the engine....Let it lead your decisions!!
You understand the truth now.
Nicotine is a lie....
It's never done ANYTHING good for anyone.
Your more free now..than ever.
And it just gets stronger. ODAAT
Great intro, great quit.
I Quit with you, and the TRUTH!
Congrats on 95
Rawls 785
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DAY 95
Let that number sink in for a bit
that is a long time and a short time so much has happened and so much is yet to
happen I don't have a lot to say today but its 95 days
I don't have this licked nor am I anywhere close its easier than it was yesterday
that's just because yesterday is over and I am now in today. to anyone reading this
while young in their quit DO NOT Get COMPLACENT the cravings will still hit you upside
the head when you least expect them to keep your eyes open last night I was sitting on
my living room floor after dinner and I kinda drifted off in thought and then I realized that
I was staring down my husbands pack of cigarettes thinking about those after dinner dips of
old and how nice it would be to have just one ......... those fatal words I was so pissed off
I went and got a little wooden box I have that has a lid on it and informed my husband if he
wanted to continue poisoning himself that he would have to keep his cigarettes and lighter in that
box I don't know if it was the feeling full after a good meal or seeing the cigarettes that triggered
my wanting just one but I am not going to leave it up in the air
Keep working it out dc87...
Things get more clear every new day.
Like your emotions....they are just the caboose.
Truth is the engine....Let it lead your decisions!!
You understand the truth now.
Nicotine is a lie....
It's never done ANYTHING good for anyone.
Your more free now..than ever.
And it just gets stronger. ODAAT
Great intro, great quit.
I Quit with you, and the TRUTH!
Congrats on 95
Rawls 785
Diesel, I am at the point that it's not only the "just one" dip, it's the loss of respect and friendship I have developed over my quit. You are using the tools here wisely, keep up the good work!
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DAY 95
Let that number sink in for a bit
that is a long time and a short time so much has happened and so much is yet to
happen I don't have a lot to say today but its 95 days
I don't have this licked nor am I anywhere close its easier than it was yesterday
that's just because yesterday is over and I am now in today. to anyone reading this
while young in their quit DO NOT Get COMPLACENT the cravings will still hit you upside
the head when you least expect them to keep your eyes open last night I was sitting on
my living room floor after dinner and I kinda drifted off in thought and then I realized that
I was staring down my husbands pack of cigarettes thinking about those after dinner dips of
old and how nice it would be to have just one ......... those fatal words I was so pissed off
I went and got a little wooden box I have that has a lid on it and informed my husband if he
wanted to continue poisoning himself that he would have to keep his cigarettes and lighter in that
box I don't know if it was the feeling full after a good meal or seeing the cigarettes that triggered
my wanting just one but I am not going to leave it up in the air
Keep working it out dc87...
Things get more clear every new day.
Like your emotions....they are just the caboose.
Truth is the engine....Let it lead your decisions!!
You understand the truth now.
Nicotine is a lie....
It's never done ANYTHING good for anyone.
Your more free now..than ever.
And it just gets stronger. ODAAT
Great intro, great quit.
I Quit with you, and the TRUTH!
Congrats on 95
Rawls 785
Diesel, I am at the point that it's not only the "just one" dip, it's the loss of respect and friendship I have developed over my quit. You are using the tools here wisely, keep up the good work!
this is very true as well
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DAY 95
Let that number sink in for a bit
that is a long time and a short time so much has happened and so much is yet to
happen I don't have a lot to say today but its 95 days
I don't have this licked nor am I anywhere close its easier than it was yesterday
that's just because yesterday is over and I am now in today. to anyone reading this
while young in their quit DO NOT Get COMPLACENT the cravings will still hit you upside
the head when you least expect them to keep your eyes open last night I was sitting on
my living room floor after dinner and I kinda drifted off in thought and then I realized that
I was staring down my husbands pack of cigarettes thinking about those after dinner dips of
old and how nice it would be to have just one ......... those fatal words I was so pissed off
I went and got a little wooden box I have that has a lid on it and informed my husband if he
wanted to continue poisoning himself that he would have to keep his cigarettes and lighter in that
box I don't know if it was the feeling full after a good meal or seeing the cigarettes that triggered
my wanting just one but I am not going to leave it up in the air
Keep working it out dc87...
Things get more clear every new day.
Like your emotions....they are just the caboose.
Truth is the engine....Let it lead your decisions!!
You understand the truth now.
Nicotine is a lie....
It's never done ANYTHING good for anyone.
Your more free now..than ever.
And it just gets stronger. ODAAT
Great intro, great quit.
I Quit with you, and the TRUTH!
Congrats on 95
Rawls 785
Diesel, I am at the point that it's not only the "just one" dip, it's the loss of respect and friendship I have developed over my quit. You are using the tools here wisely, keep up the good work!
this is very true as well
Damn straight. I could not even imagine letting my buddies down. I've met 30 or so friends at a meet and greet and no way I am letting them down.
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
man, did you earn this milestone. Fought tooth and nail every day, promising yourself that you'd get to a point where the tastes of freedom surpassed any nicotine craving. Well, you gotta keep fighting, but there are few I'd rather be fighting day in and day out next to. Congrats DC!
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
man, did you earn this milestone. Fought tooth and nail every day, promising yourself that you'd get to a point where the tastes of freedom surpassed any nicotine craving. Well, you gotta keep fighting, but there are few I'd rather be fighting day in and day out next to. Congrats DC!
Welcome to the Train! Nice job DC 'oh yeah'
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
man, did you earn this milestone. Fought tooth and nail every day, promising yourself that you'd get to a point where the tastes of freedom surpassed any nicotine craving. Well, you gotta keep fighting, but there are few I'd rather be fighting day in and day out next to. Congrats DC!
Welcome to the Train! Nice job DC 'oh yeah'
Thanks guys! I am excited happy I will Keep Quitting EDD with all of you!
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
man, did you earn this milestone. Fought tooth and nail every day, promising yourself that you'd get to a point where the tastes of freedom surpassed any nicotine craving. Well, you gotta keep fighting, but there are few I'd rather be fighting day in and day out next to. Congrats DC!
Welcome to the Train! Nice job DC 'oh yeah'
Thanks guys! I am excited happy I will Keep Quitting EDD with all of you!
Awesome job young lady! So happy for you to have given yourself this gift! See you on roll tomorrow!
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
man, did you earn this milestone. Fought tooth and nail every day, promising yourself that you'd get to a point where the tastes of freedom surpassed any nicotine craving. Well, you gotta keep fighting, but there are few I'd rather be fighting day in and day out next to. Congrats DC!
Welcome to the Train! Nice job DC 'oh yeah'
Thanks guys! I am excited happy I will Keep Quitting EDD with all of you!
Awesome job young lady! So happy for you to have given yourself this gift! See you on roll tomorrow!
Congrats on Hall of Fame Diesel! You do wonders for yourself and others the way you speak up in newer groups. Way to lead!
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
man, did you earn this milestone. Fought tooth and nail every day, promising yourself that you'd get to a point where the tastes of freedom surpassed any nicotine craving. Well, you gotta keep fighting, but there are few I'd rather be fighting day in and day out next to. Congrats DC!
Welcome to the Train! Nice job DC 'oh yeah'
Thanks guys! I am excited happy I will Keep Quitting EDD with all of you!
Awesome job young lady! So happy for you to have given yourself this gift! See you on roll tomorrow!
Congrats on Hall of Fame Diesel! You do wonders for yourself and others the way you speak up in newer groups. Way to lead!
Sorry I'm late little lady but congratulations on the hof!
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
man, did you earn this milestone. Fought tooth and nail every day, promising yourself that you'd get to a point where the tastes of freedom surpassed any nicotine craving. Well, you gotta keep fighting, but there are few I'd rather be fighting day in and day out next to. Congrats DC!
Welcome to the Train! Nice job DC 'oh yeah'
Thanks guys! I am excited happy I will Keep Quitting EDD with all of you!
Awesome job young lady! So happy for you to have given yourself this gift! See you on roll tomorrow!
Congrats on Hall of Fame Diesel! You do wonders for yourself and others the way you speak up in newer groups. Way to lead!
Sorry I'm late little lady but congratulations on the hof!
I'm late too, but congrats girl! Very well done! Keep going.
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And here we go.
You've got the start of a strong quit going here.
So great how you've embraced the process of quit....surrounded yourself with accountabilty in other quitters...become transparent so there's no turning back.
Happy HOF day DC. Celebrate and be proud of yourself. And see you on 101.
:wub:
man, did you earn this milestone. Fought tooth and nail every day, promising yourself that you'd get to a point where the tastes of freedom surpassed any nicotine craving. Well, you gotta keep fighting, but there are few I'd rather be fighting day in and day out next to. Congrats DC!
Welcome to the Train! Nice job DC 'oh yeah'
Thanks guys! I am excited happy I will Keep Quitting EDD with all of you!
Awesome job young lady! So happy for you to have given yourself this gift! See you on roll tomorrow!
Congrats on Hall of Fame Diesel! You do wonders for yourself and others the way you speak up in newer groups. Way to lead!
Sorry I'm late little lady but congratulations on the hof!
I'm late too, but congrats girl! Very well done! Keep going.
Thank you guys I plan on sticking around for a long time!
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Day 109
the cravings have been hell the last few days I will not give up and I will not give in
I will WIN
'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' NIC BITCH GO TO HELL WHERE YOU BELONG 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger'
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Day 109
the cravings have been hell the last few days I will not give up and I will not give in
I will WIN
'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' NIC BITCH GO TO HELL WHERE YOU BELONG 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger'
Post HOF FUNK!
I suspect you know what to do?
Congrats on your quit!
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Day 109
the cravings have been hell the last few days I will not give up and I will not give in
I will WIN
'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' NIC BITCH GO TO HELL WHERE YOU BELONG 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger'
Post HOF FUNK!
I suspect you know what to do?
Congrats on your quit!
Hey DC, we've all been there! You got this girl ÿ!
Life is so damn good without nic. We all right here just talk to us and we will help. Helping others helps yourself. You're doing great and being very honest with yourself and us. Damn proud to be quit with you EDD Odaat!
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Day 109
the cravings have been hell the last few days I will not give up and I will not give in
I will WIN
'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' NIC BITCH GO TO HELL WHERE YOU BELONG 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger'
Post HOF FUNK!
I suspect you know what to do?
Congrats on your quit!
Hey DC, we've all been there! You got this girl ÿ!
Life is so damn good without nic. We all right here just talk to us and we will help. Helping others helps yourself. You're doing great and being very honest with yourself and us. Damn proud to be quit with you EDD Odaat!
Hey girl. I had the same thing happen to me around day 120 or so.
Keep pushing through.
Your minds feels your happiness, your freedom, your pride, your determination......and it's trying to pull you back in.
You however, got this!
Quit with you.
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Day 109
the cravings have been hell the last few days I will not give up and I will not give in
I will WIN
'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' NIC BITCH GO TO HELL WHERE YOU BELONG 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger'
Post HOF FUNK!
I suspect you know what to do?
Congrats on your quit!
Hey DC, we've all been there! You got this girl ÿ!
Life is so damn good without nic. We all right here just talk to us and we will help. Helping others helps yourself. You're doing great and being very honest with yourself and us. Damn proud to be quit with you EDD Odaat!
Hey girl. I had the same thing happen to me around day 120 or so.
Keep pushing through.
Your minds feels your happiness, your freedom, your pride, your determination......and it's trying to pull you back in.
You however, got this!
Quit with you.
Thank you for the words of encouragement
Freedom is worth so much more then the can I just have to remember
that and keep giving back
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Day 109
the cravings have been hell the last few days I will not give up and I will not give in
I will WIN
'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' NIC BITCH GO TO HELL WHERE YOU BELONG 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger'
Post HOF FUNK!
I suspect you know what to do?
Congrats on your quit!
Hey DC, we've all been there! You got this girl ÿ!
Life is so damn good without nic. We all right here just talk to us and we will help. Helping others helps yourself. You're doing great and being very honest with yourself and us. Damn proud to be quit with you EDD Odaat!
Hey girl. I had the same thing happen to me around day 120 or so.
Keep pushing through.
Your minds feels your happiness, your freedom, your pride, your determination......and it's trying to pull you back in.
You however, got this!
Quit with you.
Thank you for the words of encouragement
Freedom is worth so much more then the can I just have to remember
that and keep giving back
So very proud of you, DC.
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Day 112
I just had to post this cause I am damn proud to be part of the League
'January-2017
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Day 112
I just had to post this cause I am damn proud to be part of the League
'January-2017
Is it like fantasy football, because that would be cool.
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Day 112
I just had to post this cause I am damn proud to be part of the League
'January-2017
Is it like fantasy football, because that would be cool.
its even better than fantasy football
its The first Bad Ass Group of 2017 Quitters!!
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Day 112
I just had to post this cause I am damn proud to be part of the League
'January-2017
Is it like fantasy football, because that would be cool.
its even better than fantasy football
its The first Bad Ass Group of 2017 Quitters!!
That would make great beer label, may have to steal it
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Day 112
I just had to post this cause I am damn proud to be part of the League
'January-2017
Is it like fantasy football, because that would be cool.
its even better than fantasy football
its The first Bad Ass Group of 2017 Quitters!!
That would make great beer label, may have to steal it
oooooooh. I like it. I like it a lot.
I wanna have one too.
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Day 113
Today is going to have lots of updates I am gearing up for a potentially fucked weekend
it can go one of three ways
*nothing happens
*my husband goes to the emergency room and they give him 5 days interveineous Steroids at the infusion center
*go to the emergency room and get admitted for a week
my husband has MS and is having a flare up in the past this knowledge would have triggered me to go buy 4 cans minimum
just so I didn't have to leave the hospital till I could find someone to bring me more (I don't leave his side)
so I am taking the bull by the horns
I have a couple other topics to post about today so................ 'evil' I will be back 'evil'
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Day 113
Today is going to have lots of updates I am gearing up for a potentially fucked weekend
it can go one of three ways
*nothing happens
*my husband goes to the emergency room and they give him 5 days interveineous Steroids at the infusion center
*go to the emergency room and get admitted for a week
my husband has MS and is having a flare up in the past this knowledge would have triggered me to go buy 4 cans minimum
just so I didn't have to leave the hospital till I could find someone to bring me more (I don't leave his side)
so I am taking the bull by the horns
I have a couple other topics to post about today so................ 'evil' I will be back 'evil'
you have my digits..
use them if you need.
stay strong, stay connected.
prayers up for you and yours .
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Day 113
Today is going to have lots of updates I am gearing up for a potentially fucked weekend
it can go one of three ways
*nothing happens
*my husband goes to the emergency room and they give him 5 days interveineous Steroids at the infusion center
*go to the emergency room and get admitted for a week
my husband has MS and is having a flare up in the past this knowledge would have triggered me to go buy 4 cans minimum
just so I didn't have to leave the hospital till I could find someone to bring me more (I don't leave his side)
so I am taking the bull by the horns
I have a couple other topics to post about today so................ 'evil' I will be back 'evil'
you have my digits..
use them if you need.
stay strong, stay connected.
prayers up for you and yours .
Thank you much I defiantly will hit you up if we end up in the hospital
or if I just feel like strangling my husband
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Day 136
4 days ago I lost my job Friday night was a shit show yesterday my husband and I ran away to the coast and had a perfect day this morning I woke up at 4am and the first thing I grabbed was my can of fake.
I have chewed more fake these last few days and without this KTC family and posting roll I would be back in the nic bitches arms but I am here and Quit Proudly I am on to bigger and better things and I am doing it all Nic free!
Reaching HOF doesn't give anyone a free pass to let your guard down keep whether you are 10 days or 136 days guard your quit with everything you have.
Quit on and Quit Proud!
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Day 136
4 days ago I lost my job Friday night was a shit show yesterday my husband and I ran away to the coast and had a perfect day this morning I woke up at 4am and the first thing I grabbed was my can of fake.
I have chewed more fake these last few days and without this KTC family and posting roll I would be back in the nic bitches arms but I am here and Quit Proudly I am on to bigger and better things and I am doing it all Nic free!
Reaching HOF doesn't give anyone a free pass to let your guard down keep whether you are 10 days or 136 days guard your quit with everything you have.
Quit on and Quit Proud!
Nothing wrong with using that at all....it comes and goes...till your done with it. It will happen. Don't push it or feel its weak...its not.
The only reason i haven't relapsed is because i found this place and made connections. too.
Cheers to you finding something better!
Proud to quit with you today.
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Day 136
4 days ago I lost my job Friday night was a shit show yesterday my husband and I ran away to the coast and had a perfect day this morning I woke up at 4am and the first thing I grabbed was my can of fake.
I have chewed more fake these last few days and without this KTC family and posting roll I would be back in the nic bitches arms but I am here and Quit Proudly I am on to bigger and better things and I am doing it all Nic free!
Reaching HOF doesn't give anyone a free pass to let your guard down keep whether you are 10 days or 136 days guard your quit with everything you have.
Quit on and Quit Proud!
Nothing wrong with using that at all....it comes and goes...till your done with it. It will happen. Don't push it or feel its weak...its not.
The only reason i haven't relapsed is because i found this place and made connections. too.
Cheers to you finding something better!
Proud to quit with you today.
This site is full of strong women, and you are one of them! There is strength here, for your quit, and for your life. One day at a time, for your quit, and for your life. Some times it comes down to this. Later, you will look back at this time, and realize you were passing through to a better place.
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +
You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. â¤
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +
You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. â¤
Never give up.
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +
You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. â¤
Never give up.
So sorry. Prayers to you
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +
You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. â¤
Never give up.
So sorry. Prayers to you
Never give up!!!Im extremly proud to be quit with you, and I will most certainly be praying for you and your family.
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +
You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. â¤
Never give up.
So sorry. Prayers to you
Never give up!!!Im extremly proud to be quit with you, and I will most certainly be praying for you and your family.
My condolences DC. My wife and I have been there. In times like this, you'll need the same guts, determination, and passion that got you to day 143 and beyond. Quit with you.
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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.
.
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +
You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. â¤
Never give up.
So sorry. Prayers to you
Never give up!!!Im extremly proud to be quit with you, and I will most certainly be praying for you and your family.
My condolences DC. My wife and I have been there. In times like this, you'll need the same guts, determination, and passion that got you to day 143 and beyond. Quit with you.
Oh, diesel girl, I am so sorry to read this. Keeping you and your husband in my prayers.
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Day 143 *possible trigger for women trying to get pregnant *
I am not sure at what point this quit became entirely personal but at some point my shred of "I am only quitting cause the doctors said to get fertility testing I had to go off nicotine" well 2 days ago I miscarried at 14weeks (I never once got a positive test ) part of my brain said fuck it quitting didnt keep your child but a bigger side said being quit isnt about a kid(s) its about you......
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.I dont have anyone else to share with sorry in advance
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.
.
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As I laid on my couch crying I felt cheated that I had already made my promise not to use nicotine......it was the 1st out of 12 that I had to deal with the emotions of loss head on.... I ranted and raved to my husband and he told he wouldnt stop me (he had gone through a pack at that time) I got on the site and went to my inbox and looked at all the people I have been talking too and I knew I couldn't throw my quit away without hurting theirs at the same time .......the positive that came out of this was we found out that its nicotine that is causing my issues for some reason my body is rejecting implantation therefore I am getting prego but my body isn't accepting the child that my husband and I create more testing must be done and while it may never happen but I know that through all of this I will remain quit because I made it nicotine is not needed to survive the emotional death its just another damn thing that I am conquering while nicotine free
So sorry for your loss and anguish. I cannot even begin to understand your pain, but I hope you know there is comfort, concern, support and prayers here from this community.
God Bless you DC. You have support here 29,000 +
You, quitter woman, have a great attitude and resolve.
Stay strong in faith and know you have support here always.
So sorry and I pray for healing and successes. â¤
Never give up.
So sorry. Prayers to you
Never give up!!!Im extremly proud to be quit with you, and I will most certainly be praying for you and your family.
My condolences DC. My wife and I have been there. In times like this, you'll need the same guts, determination, and passion that got you to day 143 and beyond. Quit with you.
Oh, diesel girl, I am so sorry to read this. Keeping you and your husband in my prayers.
I am so sorry. Sitting here reading that and hurt with you. My prayer is that you somehow find peace in this.
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Day 173 'chew2'
I am pretty sure that I am having my favorite and best nic free experience!!! We added a 4 month old puppy to our family yesterday and in the past I would have gone through a can maybe more getting up every couple of hours knocked over or chewed on spitters would be a concern as well as making sure my can didnt become a toy......all of those are mute concerns while I cuddle and play with my new baby boy Harley!
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Day 173 'chew2'
I am pretty sure that I am having my favorite and best nic free experience!!! We added a 4 month old puppy to our family yesterday and in the past I would have gone through a can maybe more getting up every couple of hours knocked over or chewed on spitters would be a concern as well as making sure my can didnt become a toy......all of those are mute concerns while I cuddle and play with my new baby boy Harley!
Excellent. Like hearing the success stories free from nic. Congrats on the puppy
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Day 182
Mainly rambling
I went to the corner store this morning to get milk and the lady behind the counter asked me if I was still "doing that quit thing" I told her yes for 182 days now!! Her husband asked me why do I keep track of the days so I explained KTC to him
And the accountability brotherhood and support and by committing everyday not to use nicotine the reason to stay quit is even greater because I gave my word.
But as I sit here I am not sure I explained the depth of the reason at 182 days that I am still here posting.......hell I am not always sure what keeps me here but I know if I am not here my resolve definitely suffers and I struggle with head games more 182 days is nothing in the larger picture and my quit is such a priority in my life 5 minutes out of my day to post roll and communicate with my quit family is worth every second so I will continue to keep track of my days and post roll daily
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Day 182
Mainly rambling
I went to the corner store this morning to get milk and the lady behind the counter asked me if I was still "doing that quit thing" I told her yes for 182 days now!! Her husband asked me why do I keep track of the days so I explained KTC to him
And the accountability brotherhood and support and by committing everyday not to use nicotine the reason to stay quit is even greater because I gave my word.
But as I sit here I am not sure I explained the depth of the reason at 182 days that I am still here posting.......hell I am not always sure what keeps me here but I know if I am not here my resolve definitely suffers and I struggle with head games more 182 days is nothing in the larger picture and my quit is such a priority in my life 5 minutes out of my day to post roll and communicate with my quit family is worth every second so I will continue to keep track of my days and post roll daily
EDD! ODAAT! Great job
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Day 182
Mainly rambling
I went to the corner store this morning to get milk and the lady behind the counter asked me if I was still "doing that quit thing" I told her yes for 182 days now!! Her husband asked me why do I keep track of the days so I explained KTC to him
And the accountability brotherhood and support and by committing everyday not to use nicotine the reason to stay quit is even greater because I gave my word.
But as I sit here I am not sure I explained the depth of the reason at 182 days that I am still here posting.......hell I am not always sure what keeps me here but I know if I am not here my resolve definitely suffers and I struggle with head games more 182 days is nothing in the larger picture and my quit is such a priority in my life 5 minutes out of my day to post roll and communicate with my quit family is worth every second so I will continue to keep track of my days and post roll daily
EDD! ODAAT! Great job
6 months DC. You have been quit for 6 freaking months. The magnitude of that, in and of itself is insane. But, you ...don't see it that way. It's just another day in a bigger picture and you couldn't be more right. Every day you quit, everyone else around you benefits from it. Here's to staying on your quit train
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Day 182
Mainly rambling
I went to the corner store this morning to get milk and the lady behind the counter asked me if I was still "doing that quit thing" I told her yes for 182 days now!! Her husband asked me why do I keep track of the days so I explained KTC to him
And the accountability brotherhood and support and by committing everyday not to use nicotine the reason to stay quit is even greater because I gave my word.
But as I sit here I am not sure I explained the depth of the reason at 182 days that I am still here posting.......hell I am not always sure what keeps me here but I know if I am not here my resolve definitely suffers and I struggle with head games more 182 days is nothing in the larger picture and my quit is such a priority in my life 5 minutes out of my day to post roll and communicate with my quit family is worth every second so I will continue to keep track of my days and post roll daily
EDD! ODAAT! Great job
6 months DC. You have been quit for 6 freaking months. The magnitude of that, in and of itself is insane. But, you ...don't see it that way. It's just another day in a bigger picture and you couldn't be more right. Every day you quit, everyone else around you benefits from it. Here's to staying on your quit train
That is so true every day is just a day it took me typing day 180 a few times before it clicked to 6 months even now looking at that seems overwhelming but just day 182 its just another day one more then yesterday and I can do that!
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Day 182
Mainly rambling
I went to the corner store this morning to get milk and the lady behind the counter asked me if I was still "doing that quit thing" I told her yes for 182 days now!! Her husband asked me why do I keep track of the days so I explained KTC to him
And the accountability brotherhood and support and by committing everyday not to use nicotine the reason to stay quit is even greater because I gave my word.
But as I sit here I am not sure I explained the depth of the reason at 182 days that I am still here posting.......hell I am not always sure what keeps me here but I know if I am not here my resolve definitely suffers and I struggle with head games more 182 days is nothing in the larger picture and my quit is such a priority in my life 5 minutes out of my day to post roll and communicate with my quit family is worth every second so I will continue to keep track of my days and post roll daily
EDD! ODAAT! Great job
6 months DC. You have been quit for 6 freaking months. The magnitude of that, in and of itself is insane. But, you ...don't see it that way. It's just another day in a bigger picture and you couldn't be more right. Every day you quit, everyone else around you benefits from it. Here's to staying on your quit train
That is so true every day is just a day it took me typing day 180 a few times before it clicked to 6 months even now looking at that seems overwhelming but just day 182 its just another day one more then yesterday and I can do that!
Wait until you submit 365 - that one will really make you think. :)
I'm really glad that we have you here and double glad that you are sharing your quit with the rest of us. I think the short amount of time it takes to share my quit with others every day is the key to staying quit. Post your number sure, but really connecting with others locks it in.
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Where has time gone? Is the road easy after 6 months?
NO
I have gone through more fake in the last 2 months and to be honest it concerns me. Maybe it's the stress level that I have been under, maybe it's boredom, hell it could be the depression I have slid into ........
But here is the thing that drives me I know there is no and I mean no such thing as just one . I will take fake over the nic bitch everyday so for the new quitter who may read this dont knock fake don't knock a tool while maybe not ideal it's not a cat turd.
That's my thought for today
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263
Where has time gone? Is the road easy after 6 months?
NO
I have gone through more fake in the last 2 months and to be honest it concerns me. Maybe it's the stress level that I have been under, maybe it's boredom, hell it could be the depression I have slid into ........
But here is the thing that drives me I know there is no and I mean no such thing as just one . I will take fake over the nic bitch everyday so for the new quitter who may read this dont knock fake don't knock a tool while maybe not ideal it's not a cat turd.
That's my thought for today
690 here lady. It still hits me. And you are damned correct, the fake is def better than the real deal any day. Hang in there. Keep kicking it's ass.
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273
Welp it was bound to happen. 273 days in no nic and dumbass dr's and nurses. I hate this view the man I love who I swore to love in sickness and health laying in a hospital bed because M.S. wants to take him out, but just as bad I hate that my jaw is twitching because past visits would have me shoving a cat turd in my lip then spit in a bottle hide it from the doc and not kill the dumbass. I give my word that I will not use nicotine today (tuesday july 6th 2017) A whole new set of coping skills are coming into play ........ mindful relaxation of my jaw muscles peaceful meditation centering and grounding ....I dont need that poison in my lip to support my husband. He will push through and beat this flare up we are going to have a bad day tomorrow because the are going to want a new MRI which is going to show further progression of the disease but together we can conquer this its 2 am I am going to quit rambling
night night
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273
Welp it was bound to happen. 273 days in no nic and dumbass dr's and nurses. I hate this view the man I love who I swore to love in sickness and health laying in a hospital bed because M.S. wants to take him out, but just as bad I hate that my jaw is twitching because past visits would have me shoving a cat turd in my lip then spit in a bottle hide it from the doc and not kill the dumbass. I give my word that I will not use nicotine today (tuesday july 6th 2017) A whole new set of coping skills are coming into play ........ mindful relaxation of my jaw muscles peaceful meditation centering and grounding ....I dont need that poison in my lip to support my husband. He will push through and beat this flare up we are going to have a bad day tomorrow because the are going to want a new MRI which is going to show further progression of the disease but together we can conquer this its 2 am I am going to quit rambling
night night
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems
It's never a solution only a detriment. Appreciate you showing us how to QLF in what could potentially be seen as a moment of weakness. You, on the other hand, have shown us how to turn it into a moment of strength. I'm QLF with you Diesel and will keep you and your husband in my thoughts as you plow through this.
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273
Welp it was bound to happen. 273 days in no nic and dumbass dr's and nurses. I hate this view the man I love who I swore to love in sickness and health laying in a hospital bed because M.S. wants to take him out, but just as bad I hate that my jaw is twitching because past visits would have me shoving a cat turd in my lip then spit in a bottle hide it from the doc and not kill the dumbass. I give my word that I will not use nicotine today (tuesday july 6th 2017) A whole new set of coping skills are coming into play ........ mindful relaxation of my jaw muscles peaceful meditation centering and grounding ....I dont need that poison in my lip to support my husband. He will push through and beat this flare up we are going to have a bad day tomorrow because the are going to want a new MRI which is going to show further progression of the disease but together we can conquer this its 2 am I am going to quit rambling
night night
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems
It's never a solution only a detriment. Appreciate you showing us how to QLF in what could potentially be seen as a moment of weakness. You, on the other hand, have shown us how to turn it into a moment of strength. I'm QLF with you Diesel and will keep you and your husband in my thoughts as you plow through this.
Thank you
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DC congrats on your 300++ days quit girl!
Keep rocking it!
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DC congrats on your 300++ days quit girl!
Keep rocking it!
Thanks
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402 days quit 'oh yeah'
its a battle
Its not the battle of days 1-90 while the nic bitch rides on your shoulders
Its not the battle of 91-180 that bitch follows not far behind stalking your every move
Its a whole new battle that damn bitch is dragging up pleasant memories and telling me oh you can have just one its been over a year you can always quit again
To all the new quitters it gets easier but the battle never ends it just changes so never let your gaurd down keep your eye out for that nic bitches new tactics cause she will try anything to get you back in her control
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402 days quit 'oh yeah'
its a battle
Its not the battle of days 1-90 while the nic bitch rides on your shoulders
Its not the battle of 91-180 that bitch follows not far behind stalking your every move
Its a whole new battle that damn bitch is dragging up pleasant memories and telling me oh you can have just one its been over a year you can always quit again
To all the new quitters it gets easier but the battle never ends it just changes so never let your gaurd down keep your eye out for that nic bitches new tactics cause she will try anything to get you back in her control
Been thinking similar thoughts lately at Day 479.
You are doing great, diesel. You have gone through a lot and have been able to battle the bitch. Just keep making those promises and don't believe the lies. It was all a huge lie.
Quit with you today.
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Day 407
I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.
One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit
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Day 407
I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.
One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit
It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. â¤
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Day 407
I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.
One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit
It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. â¤
Both my wife and father have had cancer since I quit. Life doesn't stop because we made a good decision to stop killing ourselves on a daily basis. I am sorry for your troubles, but at least we aren't poisoning ourselves today.
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Day 407
I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.
One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit
It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. â¤
Both my wife and father have had cancer since I quit. Life doesn't stop because we made a good decision to stop killing ourselves on a daily basis. I am sorry for your troubles, but at least we aren't poisoning ourselves today.
I am so sorry to read this, diesel, but I know how you feel. Tired of seeing everyone getting what they want (what YOU want!) while you keep bumping into the same damn wall over and over. Then, of course, you feel bad because you want to feel happy for other people but being stoic and strong is hard to do sometimes.
Chick is right, of course (Chick is always right!)...it matters that you stay healthy because YOU matter. Pray, endure, push through it all and, above all, remain hopeful!
Prayers going up too. They never hurt. :wub:
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Day 407
I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.
One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit
It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. â¤
Both my wife and father have had cancer since I quit. Life doesn't stop because we made a good decision to stop killing ourselves on a daily basis. I am sorry for your troubles, but at least we aren't poisoning ourselves today.
I am so sorry to read this, diesel, but I know how you feel. Tired of seeing everyone getting what they want (what YOU want!) while you keep bumping into the same damn wall over and over. Then, of course, you feel bad because you want to feel happy for other people but being stoic and strong is hard to do sometimes.
Chick is right, of course (Chick is always right!)...it matters that you stay healthy because YOU matter. Pray, endure, push through it all and, above all, remain hopeful!
Prayers going up too. They never hurt. :wub:
Thank you for the words of encouragement I am not going to sacrifice my health for anything
I just find it hard to cope with disappointments sometimes so I will put my smile on a carry on
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Day 407
I got a case of the fuck its wondering why the fuck It matters no matter how much I try no matter the good choices I make its a shit show every time. KTC and my fake are life lines the only thing holding me in the calm waters of sanity.
One of the many reasons I decided it was time to quit when I did was my husband and I were ready to start trying for a kid we have been trying for 4 going on 5 years and last night we were informed that the hubbys kid brother and his wife are expecting. It was like a punch to the gut made me wonder whats the point of being all healthy and making right choices when its never going to happen
Damn now I am crying again fuck this shit
It DOES matter...you matter among with your health and life!
Things don't go as planned....keep on going. Praying...trying....getting through all the "fuck it's" life is worth living to the full. If game and ktc are the things keeping you quit ..then that really ok as well.
Keep trying and fighting for your life. â¤
Both my wife and father have had cancer since I quit. Life doesn't stop because we made a good decision to stop killing ourselves on a daily basis. I am sorry for your troubles, but at least we aren't poisoning ourselves today.
I am so sorry to read this, diesel, but I know how you feel. Tired of seeing everyone getting what they want (what YOU want!) while you keep bumping into the same damn wall over and over. Then, of course, you feel bad because you want to feel happy for other people but being stoic and strong is hard to do sometimes.
Chick is right, of course (Chick is always right!)...it matters that you stay healthy because YOU matter. Pray, endure, push through it all and, above all, remain hopeful!
Prayers going up too. They never hurt. :wub:
Thank you for the words of encouragement I am not going to sacrifice my health for anything
I just find it hard to cope with disappointments sometimes so I will put my smile on a carry on
Stay strong girl...Its all about Trusting and ODAAT.
I quit with you.
Rawls 1097
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What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!
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What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!
'Birthday' DC!!!
:wub:
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What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!
'Birthday' DC!!!
:wub:
'Birthday' Hope it was a good one, DC!
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What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!
'Birthday' DC!!!
:wub:
'Birthday' Hope it was a good one, DC!
Oh yeah baby girl! Happy birthday to you!
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What are the odds that on day 430 of my quit I would be turning 30 years old its my second birthday quit and it feels good!
'Birthday' DC!!!
:wub:
'Birthday' Hope it was a good one, DC!
Oh yeah baby girl! Happy birthday to you!
Thank you guys it was a good day lots of puppy snuggles! Plus I got control of the tv remote!
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Day 487
I have been fighting with some really vivid dipping dreams the last few nights. I woke up feeling guilty and pissed off then I realized it was all a dream. Definitely cant let my gaurd down
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Congrats on 500 DC!!!
'party2'
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Congrats on 500 DC!!!
'party2'
A well earned 500 by one helluva diesel quitter. Congratulations!
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Congrats on 500 DC!!!
'party2'
A well earned 500 by one helluva diesel quitter. Congratulations!
hope you take the time to recognize and celebrate your day.
well done, you earned it.
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Congrats on the big 500.
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When I started this journey I never imagined reaching 700 and still be posting I thought after HOF I would be cured and I could go on with my life.
Without daily posting I would have relapsed many times over by now I am so thankfully for my quit group and the rest of the people that have helped me maintain my quit. If you are new to KTC trust me when I say it works. 700 days and counting just take one day at a time, thats all we are promised anyways.
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When I started this journey I never imagined reaching 700 and still be posting I thought after HOF I would be cured and I could go on with my life.
Without daily posting I would have relapsed many times over by now I am so thankfully for my quit group and the rest of the people that have helped me maintain my quit. If you are new to KTC trust me when I say it works. 700 days and counting just take one day at a time, thats all we are promised anyways.
Nice! Congrats!!
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When I started this journey I never imagined reaching 700 and still be posting I thought after HOF I would be cured and I could go on with my life.
Without daily posting I would have relapsed many times over by now I am so thankfully for my quit group and the rest of the people that have helped me maintain my quit. If you are new to KTC trust me when I say it works. 700 days and counting just take one day at a time, thats all we are promised anyways.
Nice! Congrats!!
DC, congrats on achieving a huge milestone. Very happy for you and look forward to keeping this train going full-steam ahead.
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When I started this journey I never imagined reaching 700 and still be posting I thought after HOF I would be cured and I could go on with my life.
Without daily posting I would have relapsed many times over by now I am so thankfully for my quit group and the rest of the people that have helped me maintain my quit. If you are new to KTC trust me when I say it works. 700 days and counting just take one day at a time, thats all we are promised anyways.
Nice! Congrats!!
DC, congrats on achieving a huge milestone. Very happy for you and look forward to keeping this train going full-steam ahead.
Congratulations young lady!
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When I started this journey I never imagined reaching 700 and still be posting I thought after HOF I would be cured and I could go on with my life.
Without daily posting I would have relapsed many times over by now I am so thankfully for my quit group and the rest of the people that have helped me maintain my quit. If you are new to KTC trust me when I say it works. 700 days and counting just take one day at a time, thats all we are promised anyways.
Nice! Congrats!!
DC, congrats on achieving a huge milestone. Very happy for you and look forward to keeping this train going full-steam ahead.
Congratulations young lady!
Congrats and thanks for the inspiration!
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When I started this journey I never imagined reaching 700 and still be posting I thought after HOF I would be cured and I could go on with my life.
Without daily posting I would have relapsed many times over by now I am so thankfully for my quit group and the rest of the people that have helped me maintain my quit. If you are new to KTC trust me when I say it works. 700 days and counting just take one day at a time, thats all we are promised anyways.
Nice! Congrats!!
DC, congrats on achieving a huge milestone. Very happy for you and look forward to keeping this train going full-steam ahead.
Congratulations young lady!
Congrats and thanks for the inspiration!
Congratulations! Thank you for being an inspiration for me and my Quit!
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Today is the day I'm tired of dipping the demand of the cravings its a force of habit. There is no enjoyment. 8 years of daily dipping I AM DONE!!! I quit for two weeks last fall but fell back when I drank on a camping trip big mistake. But I am finally done I gave my can away and this new journey is beginning
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Today is the day I'm tired of dipping the demand of the cravings its a force of habit. There is no enjoyment. 8 years of daily dipping I AM DONE!!! I quit for two weeks last fall but fell back when I drank on a camping trip big mistake. But I am finally done I gave my can away and this new journey is beginning
Dieselchick,
Welcome to KTC, I am going to take the leap and assume that you are female (without doing an undercarriage check) and if that is the case there are several fantastic female quitters around here that are tougher than some of the "men" around here.
Do me one favor though and take note that smokeless tobacco is not a habit but a ruthless addiction. You can and will do this, so step up to the plate and put your name on roll call and let's start the accountability process.
Quit one day at a time, thus meaning only focus on the task at hand "TODAY", wait for tomorrow to become tomorrow and never ever look too far down the road as it looks long, winding and scary.
Here is how you Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50).
This should be your Quit Group Pre HOF June 2014 June Bugs (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=9580)
Now read all there is on the site, post roll (fuck up roll call several times) then come back for more fun tomorrow.
P.S. All the underline and bold text above are links to the site to help you.
Other than all that get to know some fellow quitters, make friends, exchange numbers and quit like a bad ass.
P
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Welcome! Glad to have you in our June Group! You can do this!
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Glad to have you Diesel. There are plenty of women on this site that either dipped or smoked and I"m sure that you will find plenty of support from both the male and female contingent.
Pinched laid it out for you. Read, read read. Understand you are an addict and that you need accountability; accountability that we can provide, but it's up to you to be here to use it.
POST ROLL EVERYDAY. There is no excuse to miss roll. When you do post roll, don't just post and leave. Stick around for five or ten minutes and read what your quit breatheren in June are going through. We use many examples from passed mistakes and great choices from those before you to help strengthen your resolve.
Stick around, post roll, participate, read, and spread the knowledge you learn to the new quitters after you. Pass it on.
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Welcome to the quit Diesel. It's tough but it's worth it. Welcome to the June quit group. I'm in June as well (been quit for 5 days). PM me if you need anything.
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I am going to take the leap and assume that you are female (without doing an undercarriage check)
'crackup' 'crackup' Nearly choked on my lunch. Don't let this bunch scare you off. We know one thing and that is 'quitting'!
This is for pinched. 'fireman'
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Dude, chick or something in between...doesn't matter. Only thing that counts here is that YOU have made a great choice!!!
Post roll, read, repeat.
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Hi there. What a great decision you've made. Check you inbox, upper right corner.....
You ready to quit like a girl?
Ginet - female, and yes, I did an undercarriage check....
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Welcome aboard doesn't matter what's in the undercarriage when it comes to quitting it takes guts and it can be done. We quit for today only forever is too daunting of a goal. Read read read listen learn u need help ask for it u have any left i n the tank pay it forward its a huge family here. Its up to you to pull the trigger if u need assistance.
Pm me if you need anything. Get numbers from your group get numbers from people here produces accountability. See ya around
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Hi there. What a great decision you've made. Check you inbox, upper right corner.....
You ready to quit like a girl?
Ginet - female, and yes, I did an undercarriage check....
Pinched has been checking all the new quitters out, checking to see if they have the balls enough to quit. He takes that way to literal I think. Go girls, you can gitter done as good as any of us ODAAT.
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Welcome. I like your name!!!
Diesels are tough and quit maniacs, so you got that going for ya.
Post role and get involved with the circus.
Pinched is having an affair with the bearded lady, WT goes around squirting people with a seltzer bottle, and Ginet is a sword swallower, but they are top notch quitters.
Quit on...
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Welcome. I like your name!!!
Diesels are tough and quit maniacs, so you got that going for ya.
Post role and get involved with the circus.
Pinched is having an affair with the bearded lady, WT goes around squirting people with a seltzer bottle, and Ginet is a sword swallower, but they are top notch quitters.
Quit on...
N Trauma converted pinched to a.Cummings turbo diesel
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wow that's it one post?
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Didn't even post, apparently.
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its a shame showed so much promise.
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Slave to the can
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She has brought shame to the name.
Seriously, what the fuck happened?
Oh, I know...it was really hard.
Moving along...