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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Supplehands on August 13, 2015, 11:25:00 AM
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Hello everyone. I found ktc a couple days ago, jumped in the chat and was baptized that day by posting my first roll. Today is day 11 of my quit and ktc has been instrumental to my quit since I found it.
I started around 18 years old. I told myself I'd only do it while I was young and would quit in a year or two. Well, I woke up a couple weeks ago, walked to the bathroom mirror and looked at my 25 year old reflection. "7 years", I thought to myself. At 7:30am just after going through a stop light, I balanced an open can of grizzly on my right thigh. Driving with my knee, I used three fingers from each hand to mold a dip to my specifications. In that moment I felt dumber and more ashamed than I ever have. I dropped the dip back into the can, held it out the window and turned it over. I watched gravity pull each shred down to the earth.
That was 11 days ago. When I blink again and I'm 30, I'll look in the mirror and smile. I'll know that because I found this place, and people I'd never met cared about me as much as I cared about myself, I was able to kill the can. I want to say a special thanks to those here and those who were in the chat that first day. Thanks for taking the time to save one more.
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Hello everyone. I found ktc a couple days ago, jumped in the chat and was baptized that day by posting my first roll. Today is day 11 of my quit and ktc has been instrumental to my quit since I found it.
I started around 18 years old. I told myself I'd only do it while I was young and would quit in a year or two. Well, I woke up a couple weeks ago, walked to the bathroom mirror and looked at my 25 year old reflection. "7 years", I thought to myself. At 7:30am just after going through a stop light, I balanced an open can of grizzly on my right thigh. Driving with my knee, I used three fingers from each hand to mold a dip to my specifications. In that moment I felt dumber and more ashamed than I ever have. I dropped the dip back into the can, held it out the window and turned it over. I watched gravity pull each shred down to the earth.
That was 11 days ago. When I blink again and I'm 30, I'll look in the mirror and smile. I'll know that because I found this place, and people I'd never met cared about me as much as I cared about myself, I was able to kill the can. I want to say a special thanks to those here and those who were in the chat that first day. Thanks for taking the time to save one more.
Welcome brother. Very supple intro....love that word. Post roll every day. I quit with you today.
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Awesome post Sups. You have your head in exactly the right place. It's not always going to be easy, but it will ALWAYS be worth gaining your freedom back. Keep it up.
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Thanks cjoy and kingnothing. I realize that the dip had me institutionalized. It's like getting out of jail after decades, you know you want to be free, but your mind has a hard time accepting that freedom at first. I have to train my mind to understand that the real freedom is in NOT dipping, and what is a life worth if not lived free?
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Hello everyone. I found ktc a couple days ago, jumped in the chat and was baptized that day by posting my first roll. Today is day 11 of my quit and ktc has been instrumental to my quit since I found it.
I started around 18 years old. I told myself I'd only do it while I was young and would quit in a year or two. Well, I woke up a couple weeks ago, walked to the bathroom mirror and looked at my 25 year old reflection. "7 years", I thought to myself. At 7:30am just after going through a stop light, I balanced an open can of grizzly on my right thigh. Driving with my knee, I used three fingers from each hand to mold a dip to my specifications. In that moment I felt dumber and more ashamed than I ever have. I dropped the dip back into the can, held it out the window and turned it over. I watched gravity pull each shred down to the earth.
That was 11 days ago. When I blink again and I'm 30, I'll look in the mirror and smile. I'll know that because I found this place, and people I'd never met cared about me as much as I cared about myself, I was able to kill the can. I want to say a special thanks to those here and those who were in the chat that first day. Thanks for taking the time to save one more.
'oh yeah'
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Thanks cjoy and kingnothing. I realize that the dip had me institutionalized. It's like getting out of jail after decades, you know you want to be free, but your mind has a hard time accepting that freedom at first. I have to train my mind to understand that the real freedom is in NOT dipping, and what is a life worth if not lived free?
THIS is it bro. This is exactly the mindset you need to have. Instead of planning every minute of every day around when we're going to be dipping, we're living life. Life is not lived between dips, it's lived without them. Freedom is worth the battle, just ask the guys posting 1,000 and 2,000 days right now.
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Great Intro supple, glad I have met you through my days of quit so far. I'm here for you the rest of the way and I know you have my back as well.
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Great Intro supple, glad I have met you through my days of quit so far. I'm here for you the rest of the way and I know you have my back as well.
Kujo, I look at you and I see me. I hear you talk and I can hear myself. I appreciate you opening up to me. We will have to sleep sitting up, with our backs against each other so nothing sneaks up, but I'm confident we got this.
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Great Intro supple, glad I have met you through my days of quit so far. I'm here for you the rest of the way and I know you have my back as well.
Kujo, I look at you and I see me. I hear you talk and I can hear myself. I appreciate you opening up to me. We will have to sleep sitting up, with our backs against each other so nothing sneaks up, but I'm confident we got this.
Hell yes! Great attitude, although I do see a little Brokeback Mountain in this post. Hey whatever floats your boat, but I QLF with both of you regardless!
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Great Intro supple, glad I have met you through my days of quit so far. I'm here for you the rest of the way and I know you have my back as well.
Kujo, I look at you and I see me. I hear you talk and I can hear myself. I appreciate you opening up to me. We will have to sleep sitting up, with our backs against each other so nothing sneaks up, but I'm confident we got this.
Hell yes! Great attitude, although I do see a little Brokeback Mountain in this post. Hey whatever floats your boat, but I QLF with both of you regardless!
If being gay is gay, then I don't want to be straight. I think I got that right. "Everyone back to the pile" -Randy Marsh, South Park
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Good intro, great quit. Even better attitudes and that is what it is going to take. There are ups and downs and then there are dip dreams and they suck. Nicotine is a poison of very powerful abilities. At 650 days quit the dip dream still hit me. Stay strong, stay connected to each other. If it was not for this place I would still be dipping. It's not the site, it's the people.
Mogul
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Good intro, great quit. Even better attitudes and that is what it is going to take. There are ups and downs and then there are dip dreams and they suck. Nicotine is a poison of very powerful abilities. At 650 days quit the dip dream still hit me. Stay strong, stay connected to each other. If it was not for this place I would still be dipping. It's not the site, it's the people.
Mogul
Palmolive do not forget the simplicity of this place.
Post roll giving us your word that you are quit for today.
Do what ever it takes to keep your word.
Repeat.
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Good intro, great quit. Even better attitudes and that is what it is going to take. There are ups and downs and then there are dip dreams and they suck. Nicotine is a poison of very powerful abilities. At 650 days quit the dip dream still hit me. Stay strong, stay connected to each other. If it was not for this place I would still be dipping. It's not the site, it's the people.
Mogul
Palmolive do not forget the simplicity of this place.
Post roll giving us your word that you are quit for today.
Do what ever it takes to keep your word.
Repeat.
If the quit comes from the heart it's much easier to accomplish! Doing great! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Mr. SuppleButtz..
Proud of you!! Congrats on your HoF day! Nice 100, keep it going, your not done. But you're strong.
I. quit with you today.
Sweet!!
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Congrats on the big 300/3rd floor.
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Congrats on the big 300/3rd floor.
Welcome to the 3rd floor my brother!
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Congrats on the big 300/3rd floor.
Welcome to the 3rd floor my brother!
My lil Supplebuttz!
Congrats on hitting the 3rd floor!
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Congrats on the big 300/3rd floor.
Welcome to the 3rd floor my brother!
My lil Supplebuttz!
Congrats on hitting the 3rd floor!
Palmolive great job of stacking the +1's
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I came back to my introduction for the first time in several months. Today is day 349 of no nicotine. Life doesn't stop for you to quit. There is no perfect time to quit, there is only right now. There is only today. Things will happen along the way that will test you. It may be as simple as someone tossing you a can, or it may be as heavy as a loss of a loved one. Your life isn't defined by what happens to you, your life is defined by your reactions to those events.
I'm not sure why today is the day I visited my introduction or why I decided to ramble but it just felt right. A lot has happened in the last year. I've measured life differently in the last year. My perspective is different. I'm more patient, and compassionate. I owe a lot to KTC. A lot of growth as a human occurred because of this website. A lot of strength was developed right here.
I'm excited to step into year two with no nicotine. I'm excited to continue to develop this complex concept that we call freedom. How many people in our lives are actually free? Free from substances, abusive relationships, unjust laws, etc... probably not many. When I first quit it felt like being in a prison. The cravings gave me the perception that I was suffering. What I had really done was step out of the prison and my brain fought against the fresh air, the freedom.
I'm thankful for KTC. The people here are fighters, and they care. I like being around fighters and people who care. I like being a part of that.
Here's to today, because that is all there is.
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Awesome post Supple and I couldn't agree more.
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Awesome post Supple and I couldn't agree more.
Great post Supple.
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As I get ready to step into day 595 I can't help but reflect for a moment. My life has improved in a lot of ways. During the early stages of my quit I only focused on not using nicotine. Over the past few months I have further improved my health. I have replaced soft drinks with water, and have cut out fast food almost completely. I have been exercising regularly as well. Quitting nicotine has saved me money, immense amounts of time, and my health. My mouth appears as if I never dipped. I have saved roughly $800 (dip is very cheap in Virginia). My health insurance premiums were cut in half saving an additional $408 per year. I'm in my 20's but my blood pressure and heart rate have dropped (blood pressure was running high, due mainly to genetics). How can I even quantify all the time saved? The extra time playing with my child. The value of setting a proper example. This was the way my life was supposed to be lived.
I'm excited to cross the 2 year threshold. I'm very excited to approach a coma. But with all of that excitement in mind, I know that I am just one poor decision away from starting over. I'm never tempted to use. I always keep KTC in mind. I know that there are so many people fighting each and every second of each and every day trying not to cave, I can't help but think, I should be here to help them through that phase, not end up struggling along side them because of a poor decision. My role in the quit journey is to support others at this point, not to disappoint anyone. If you are reading this and you are struggling with quitting, know that it gets better. I don't just mean that you will improve. I mean that you will genuinely be better off in every way. Keep the faith that there will come a time when you are truly free and you can move forward with your life.
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I can't believe it has been 2 years since I dumped out my last can of Grizzley Wintergreen while I was driving. In so many ways it feels like I never dipped. When I see people dipping my only thought is that I feel sorry for them because I understand how difficult it is to quit and I know they probably would like to. I still remember early on in my quit thinking how bad my life was going to suck without dip because of the emtpy feeling. Luckily that feeling fades completely.
One thing I love is not being concerned with every little thing I feel in my mouth. Now I can brush my teeth, visit the dentist and not think about my mouth beyond that. That's freedom. Quitting is a hike up a steep mountain. It takes a lot of determination, there are dangers along the way. But intermittently you'll catch glimpses of an ever increasing view peaking through the trees. And eventually your at the ridge line and all the hard work is done. The only thing left to do is enjoy the view, and keep your footing because one loose rock could send you a long way down.
I'm walking the ridgeline now. The view is gorgeous and my footing is solid.
Thanks KTC. And if you are new here, listen to the advice you are given. There is enough room for everyone to share in the view.
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Your intro is very comforting for another young(ish) guy looking to get out ahead of all the trouble. I'm just now sneaking up on 4 weeks but already the positive changes are starting to show. Quit on, brother.
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Your intro is very comforting for another young(ish) guy looking to get out ahead of all the trouble. I'm just now sneaking up on 4 weeks but already the positive changes are starting to show. Quit on, brother.
Thanks for the message. Always put your quit first in your life, and paradoxically, you will be putting the people and things that really matter first by default. Keep crushing it ODAAT and don't forget to check out the view along the way!