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Title: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: Killbane on March 02, 2011, 09:42:00 PM
Hello

I am 41 and I have been dipping since I was 10 or 11 and I actually quit for 6 years but pressure and stress of a new job and the need to feel accepted in the new job made me re-sell my soul and health. I can never regain those days but I can make new ones without dip. I just ordered a mint sampler and that is how I quit last time so I figure if it worked once it can work again, and this time I have more self esteem and less of a need to be "One of the guy" I just wanted to tell someone the truth and it it feels damn good. ;)

Be seeing ya!

KB
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: jaygib on March 02, 2011, 09:53:00 PM
Great choice kb and welcome to the party. If the last time you gave up using seems easy in the rearview mirror don't allow that to cloud your experience this time around. You're forgotten how tough that time was, and you'll forget how tough this quit will be. I've already forgotten how much of a basket case I was a mere 40 days ago. If all you can do is crawl for the next couple days crawl with all your effort. It's a great day to be quit
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: ninereasons on March 02, 2011, 10:00:00 PM
Quote from: Killbane
Hello

I am 41 and I have been dipping since I was 10 or 11 and I actually quit for 6 years but pressure and stress of a new job and the need to feel accepted in the new job made me re-sell my soul and health. I can never regain those days but I can make new ones without dip. I just ordered a mint sampler and that is how I quit last time so I figure if it worked once it can work again, and this time I have more self esteem and less of a need to be "One of the guy" I just wanted to tell someone the truth and it it feels damn good.  ;)

Be seeing ya!

KB
Hi KB. Welcome to your quit.

I think I know what you mean when you say that tough circumstances "made" you start dipping again, but you'll help yourself if you get picky about that kind of talk, and look at it as failure to take responsibility for your own actions. It's just not the way a quitter talks. Nothing can shove that manure in your yap but you, right?

Speaking from my own experience, I also wouldn't call your 6 year hiatus a "quit". You have a pattern of use that includes long periods of abstinence. You're last "quit" was a failure. You're here to put an end to that, I believe.

I have all kinds of respect for your decision.

We'll be watching for you in the June quit group. Post roll every day. That's your promise not to use today. Keep your word. I'm quitting with you.
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: Greg5280 on March 02, 2011, 10:01:00 PM
Nothing you will do today is more important than staying quit. Focus on that, the rest will take care of itself.

Great choice. Welcome to the site.
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: grimace8777 on March 02, 2011, 10:35:00 PM
I hear ya, I took a 9 month break but found myself here right after that. You didnt quit you took a break. But you can quit and quit for good right now! You know you can quit so post up and make yourself accountable everyday. I plan on posting roll for the rest of my life! Your an addict accept it and join the rest of us. If you need any help pm me on this site. You've got this!
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: sts on March 03, 2011, 06:28:00 AM
sweet jesus man, 10-11 years old?? i tried some dip when i was like 14 with my buddy and i was spewing vomit like a fountain. didn't touch it again until i was out of college.
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: redtrain14 on March 03, 2011, 08:29:00 AM
Where you at killbane?

Are you getting started?

C'mon, get off your hiney and get to quitting.
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: shortround on March 03, 2011, 11:46:00 AM
Congrats and welcome to KTC killbane. You definately made the right choice!
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: Souliman on March 03, 2011, 02:02:00 PM
Way to go KB. One day at at a time bro.
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: Killbane on March 08, 2011, 08:19:00 AM
Well it has been 5 days and no Nicotine in my system and Smokey Mountain wintergreen is perfect so yeah I am feeling pretty good. B)
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: redtrain14 on March 08, 2011, 08:21:00 AM
Quote from: Killbane
Well it has been 5 days and no Nicotine in my system and Smokey Mountain wintergreen is perfect so yeah I am feeling pretty good. B)
You need to go find roll call.

June 2011, look it up....its important.
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: Killbane on February 28, 2014, 04:57:00 PM
Hi just wanted to say that I have not used in 3 yrs :)
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: construction24$7 on February 28, 2014, 05:06:00 PM
Quote from: Killbane
Hi just wanted to say that I have not used in 3 yrs :)
Congratulations, I think :unsure: How did you post roll for the first 100 days with only having 5 posts total ???
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on February 28, 2014, 05:12:00 PM
Quote from: construction24$7
Quote from: Killbane
Hi just wanted to say that I have not used in 3 yrs :)
Congratulations, I think :unsure: How did you post roll for the first 100 days with only having 5 posts total ???
Great job congrats!!
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: rdad on February 28, 2014, 05:32:00 PM
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: construction24$7
Quote from: Killbane
Hi just wanted to say that I have not used in 3 yrs :)
Congratulations, I think :unsure: How did you post roll for the first 100 days with only having 5 posts total ???
Great job congrats!!
Im curious to hear the answer to construction24$7's question 'Popcorn'
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: construction24$7 on February 28, 2014, 06:33:00 PM
Quote from: rdad
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: construction24$7
Quote from: Killbane
Hi just wanted to say that I have not used in 3 yrs :)
Congratulations, I think :unsure: How did you post roll for the first 100 days with only having 5 posts total ???
Great job congrats!!
Im curious to hear the answer to construction24$7's question 'Popcorn'
I'm with you rdad. With zero nicotine and zero alcohol in my system I am one skeptical SOB - LOL :D
Title: Re: I just threw it away and I am ready.
Post by: Wt57 on February 28, 2014, 08:26:00 PM
Quote from: construction24$7
Quote from: rdad
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: construction24$7
Quote from: Killbane
Hi just wanted to say that I have not used in 3 yrs :)
Congratulations, I think :unsure: How did you post roll for the first 100 days with only having 5 posts total ???
Great job congrats!!
Im curious to hear the answer to construction24$7's question 'Popcorn'
I'm with you rdad. With zero nicotine and zero alcohol in my system I am one skeptical SOB - LOL :D
This is a big 'Finger' 3 more years to go!