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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Doofus on November 09, 2018, 08:48:57 PM
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Again, here it is saved due to popular demand from the depths of Crap-a-talk, special thanks to my brother Bryce for showing me the way to pull this forward!
Doofocity wrote @ 10:52 AM - Mar 20, 2018 #1
Hey fellow quitters,
This is late but things have to happen sometimes to inspire words. My posts and leanings after 66 quit days inspired me.
I'm well into my quit now striving for 100 days tobacco free but there was a thread in March 2018 started by one of my April 18 quit brothers Bigslim....lots of great communication. I took it as an opportunity to reach out privately to Bigslim with digits because I remember him reaching out early to me....a total stranger but common goal to rid oneself of this awful addiction we all have.
I also want to share something with everyone. I shared with Bigslim and some of you already know this from me but I'm writing this introduction for future Newbies to be able to hear my story. Yes, I want to pay this forward. Newbies will see and learn acronyms like ODAT, QWYT, WUPP, PAWS etc....part of this quit is pro-activeness to learn from others who quit before you, study their process of addiction, learn about your own addiction, make a promise 1 day at a time to stay off nicotine, learn how to reconcile your own addiction and stay in recovery for the rest of your life and invest in other total strangers recovery which in turn becomes a part of your recovery. If I've missed some steps, so be it, the journey is yours to own......important thing is that everyone is connected in their journey out of addiction, studying it, sharing your experience and embracing an approach that works..... if you value accountability, support and learning then you will survive your addiction to nicotine. I came to KTC because I was too weak to beat tobacco on my own.
FACT 1- I have learned and accepted that I'm an addict. I needed to write that....it's true. I needed help, KTC is providing that help, even if I fail someday, although I'm not planning to fail tomorrow or in future, today I've stayed quit, tomorrow will eventually be today and I'll post roll and my promise to stay quit on THAT DAY and make it through TO THE NEXT day.
FACT 2- 46 years of age now but I've used tobacco since high school, started and finished with Skoal, cigarettes in between, but college athletes don't smoke but other forms of tobacco ok?!?!? Everyone playing football and baseball dips. 25 years later, here I am with a wad of shit in my mouth. I was coming from a 7 month solo quit and a 9 month cave before finding KTC....yes, quit solo for 7 months, then shit my pants and caved then I found KTC in Jan 2018....imagine that....100 days is nothing but don't look at it like that....it's day by day, that pain we all having will pass....but u can't let your guard down any day, any time.....we all quit every day, forever....the quit never stops....we all have to come to grips with that fact. I've helped a few buddies quit drinking, cocaine, pills, weed and gambling. These guys joined groups, saw doctors and therapists.....SO DID I, it's called KTC. Tobacco seems to get under-advertised as an addiction....other drugs of choice have greater connotations of evil. Tobacco is just as evil and destructive. Say these words every day, "we are no better than heroin, cocaine, alcohol or meth addicts".....fucked up thing is that Tobacco is legally sold at every corner convenience store....think about that too.
Fact 3- Went to doctor in March 2018. 3 month checkup. Bastard hounds me every 3 months with blood work. My issues have been weight (at age 45. 6-4 300lb no good), played at 265lb, have had trouble getting it off. Issues started to boil last few years with sugars, Cholesterol, BP.....Skoal isn't good for all this stuff. Found out from him that Skoal, especially the volume I used at, can cause diabetes, fucks with body's ability to process. I've remained active, believe or not I've run 3 half marathons in last 5 years, fat guys sometimes can move Ok. Doc has been cool with Quit, had his own issues with Cope years ago. Happy to report, I got down to 250 over last 3 months and with Quit all my blood issues are gone. Got 25lbs left to shed, stay quit, keep hitting the weight room and treadmill. SKOAL is a motherfucker, just wanted everyone to know it's not just cancer that dip fucks you on....it's your entire body's health that's on the line. I had to get kicked in the teeth by a doctor to realize my addiction was going to kill me.
HEAD UP, STAY QUIT.....WE ALL QUIT TODAY AND PROUD TO BE QUIT WITH EVERYONE.
DAVE- Aka DOOFUS
Ps- Now you all know why I picked DOOFUS as a name....7 month solo quit and I CAVED...DOOFUS move:) More like an addict move. It is what it is....fail, pick yourself up....then choose not to fail. Failure is a choice but it's what you do after you fail that matters. STAY QUIT.
Last edited by Doofus on 11:16 PM - Mar 20, 2018, edited 45 times in total.
..be that student of your addiction
Excuses are like assholes, everyone has one and they all stink
My Intro is here:
Listen to a story bout a man named Doofus
http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9 ... t=11594875 ( welcome info )
http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9 ... t=11541810 ( the road to recovery )
http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9 ... t=11541810 ( PAW symptoms )
http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9 ... t=11541810 ( laws of addiction )
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It's about time!!! bring the rest over - looking forward to reading it again!
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It's about time!!! bring the rest over - looking forward to reading it again!
I'll have my admin get right on it, lol
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It's about time!!! bring the rest over - looking forward to reading it again!
I'll have my admin get right on it, lol
DAY 361
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One freaking year...… did you ever think that was possible?
I have become a better man standing next to you daily on this battlefield.
You are a quit machine and I am damn proud and fortunate to call you my brother.
Here's to the next circle around the sun.... much love Dave.
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Congratulations on your first year of quit! Job well done, my friend.
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Stumbled onto this darn site, stumbled onto you and your darn digits. Led me to darn freedom from nicotine and alcohol. Darn it all.
Hot man love to you big Dave. Thanks for all the support. Looking forward to an afternoon at Paddy's sometime in the future, hey, at least we're on the same coast!
Here's to freedom and one more day with you, darn it.
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Really honored to quit with you brother. Congratulations on your first lap. You are doing this the right way.
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Hey fellow quitters,
This is late but things have to happen sometimes to inspire words. My posts and learnings after 66 quit days inspired me.
I'm well into my quit now striving for 100 days tobacco free but there was a thread in March 2018 started by one of my April 18 quit brothers Bigslim....lots of great communication. I took it as an opportunity to reach out privately to Bigslim with digits because I remember him reaching out early to me....a total stranger but common goal to rid oneself of this awful addiction we all have.
I also want to share something with everyone. I shared with Bigslim and some of you already know this from me but I'm writing this introduction for future Newbies to be able to hear my story. Yes, I want to pay this forward. Newbies will see and learn acronyms like ODAT, QWYT, WUPP, PAWS etc....part of this quit is proactiveness to learn from others who quit before you, study their process of addiction, learn about your own addiction, make a promise 1 day at a time to stay off nicotine, learn how to reconcile your own addiction and stay in recovery for the rest of your life and invest in other total strangers recovery which in turn becomes a part of your recovery. If I've missed some steps, so be it, the journey is yours to own......important thing is that everyone is connected in their journey out of addiction, studying it, sharing your experience and embracing an approach that works..... if you value accountability, support and learning then you will survive your addiction to nicotine. I came to KTC because I was too weak to beat tobacco on my own.
FACT 1- I have learned and accepted that I'm an addict. I needed to write that....it's true. I needed help, KTC is providing that help, even if I fail someday, although I'm not planning to fail tomorrow or in future, today I've stayed quit, tomorrow will eventually be today and I'll post roll and my promise to stay quit on THAT DAY and make it through TO THE NEXT day.
FACT 2- 46 years of age now but I've used tobacco since high school, started and finished with Skoal, cigarettes in between, but college athletes don't smoke but other forms of tobacco ok?!?!? Everyone playing football and baseball dips. 25 years later, here I am with a wad of shit in my mouth. I was coming from a 7 month solo quit and a 9 month cave before finding KTC....yes, quit solo for 7months, then shit my pants and caved then I found KTC in Jan 2018....imagine that....100 days is nothing but dont look at it like that....it's day by day, that pain we all having will pass....but u can't let your guard down any day, any time.....we all quit every day, forever....the quit never stops....we all have to come to grips with that fact. Ive helped a few buddies quit drinking, cocaine, pills, weed and gambling. These guys joined groups, saw doctors and therapists.....SO DID I, it's called KTC. Tobacco seems to get underadvertised as an addiction....other drugs of choice have greater connotations of evil. Tobacco is just as evil and destructive. Say these words every day, "we are no better than heroin, cocaine, alcohol or meth addicts".....fucked up thing is that Tobacco is legally sold at every corner convenience store....think about that too.
Fact 3- Went to doctor in March 2018. 3 month checkup. Bastard hounds me every 3 months with blood work. My issues have been weight (at age 45. 6-4 300lb no good), played at 265lb, have had trouble getting it off. Issues started to boil last few years with sugars, Cholesterol, BP.....Skoal isn't good for all this stuff. Found out from him that Skoal, especially the volume I used at, can cause diabetes, fucks with bodys ability to process. I've remained active, believe or not I've run 3 half marathons in last 5years, fat guys sometimes can move Ok. Doc has been cool with Quit, had his own issues with Cope years ago. Happy to report, I got down to 250 over last 3 months and with Quit all my blood issues are gone. Got 25lbs left to shed, stay quit, keep hitting the weight room and treadmill. SKOAL is a motherfucker, just wanted everyone to know it's not just cancer that dip fucks you on....it's your entire body's health that's on the line. I had to get kicked in the teeth by a doctor to realize my addiction was going to kill me.
HEAD UP, STAY QUIT.....WE ALL QUIT TODAY AND PROUD TO BE QUIT WITH EVERYONE.
DAVE- Aka DOOFUS
Ps- Now you all know why I picked DOOFUS as a name....7 month solo quit and I CAVED...DOOFUS move:) More like an addict move. It is what is....fail, pick yourself up....then choose not to fail. Failure is a choice but it's what you do after you fail that matters. STAY QUIT.
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Righteous testimony Doofus! I see stuff like this and the parallels to my own story and then see a young father with a round can and I cringe.
I can't make him listen any more than anyone could have made me listen.
But we can help the ones that come here to post with us and walk that path.
You are an inspiration!
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Righteous testimony Doofus! I see stuff like this and the parallels to my own story and then see a young father with a round can and I cringe.
I can't make him listen any more than anyone could have made me listen.
But we can help the ones that come here to post with us and walk that path.
You are an inspiration!
BTW- the PAW thread from WildIrish you pointed out was a great read, it inspired me to put pen to paper on KTC, more proof that paying forward and sharing experiences helps me, the next guy and yourself all at one time
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An addict on a mission!
This is Salty......
I quit with you today Sir.
Rawls 1219
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Proud to quit with you, Dave.
I find the diary aspect of my Intro page to be quite therapeutic. Like you, I hope that maybe somebody that is still early in their attempt to quit, or maybe just thinking about trying to quit, might find something in my intro to be helpful to them. But, I honestly write in the diary for me. I consider it to be another tool that I can use from the KTC tool shed whenever I need it. It keeps my reasons for quitting front and center in my mind which I think helps keep complacency from knocking on my door.
Kyle
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It sounds like you have your mind made up on this quit and that is the entire battle.
Once you stop the conversation in your head about whether to do one more or not, then the rest is easy.
It is great how you are playing it forward.
Let me warn you that when you think you have this addiction conquered and you are hitting a milestone date - that when you feel the urge and thought to dip again creep in.
I am not saying this to be a downer.
I am saying this to prepare you for the experience.
I quit with you today.
Quit On!
Dundippin day 920
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I hear your warning, 100 days is not a milestone to me....this is why I mention it in my intro....It's one drop in the bucket of one day at a time forever.
Thanks man, happy to be quit today eith you.
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Killer intro Brother Doofus!
Honored to quit with you!
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Pure Gold Doofus - I'll be quitting with you EDD
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KTC Lingo
Burn Your Boats Leave no option for failure. More on that here
EDD =Every Damn Day. The prescribed method for posting roll call. More on that here
Retread = A member who at some point has had to restart their day count after relapsing and consuming nicotine.
Caver = See: retread.
NAFAR = Never Again for any Reason. Because of this
QLF = Quit like fuck. Indicates that your quit is undeniable for the day. Say hi to Coach Steve
Serial Caver = Someone who caves multiple times despite having the KTC support system.
Special Butterfly = Someone who feels that they are somehow different than the rest of the addicts here and therefore can ignore sound advice on how to beat addiction daily.
Ghey = Odd, off, weird, a doosh or dooshbag or someone that takes it in the NOLAQ hole.
ODAAT = One day at a time.
BAM! Right in the ass! = Saying used by June '14 while telling a fictitious story about THansen.
*poof = I screwed that post up, and I'm deleting it and letting you know there really is nothing to see here. (Aka: Dry fire by May '14 ... apparently they charge a royalty to use it)
QFL = Quit For Life. Double meaning... quit for health reasons and a long time.
BAQ = Bad Ass Quitter
NHNNNIML = Not Here Not Now Not In My Lip - Coined by one of the true BAQ's, Cavman. Never used by anyone else ever. Not even once.
Fapping/Fap Posting/Frapping = To begin posting in a thread (signified by "members posting" found at the bottom of a page) and attract a large audience anticipating the nugget of wisdom to follow, only to close out said post and never return, ending in the unified disappointment of the crowd. Also, to masturbate; ask your dad about that one.
Frassy = The special brand of sass employed by KTC members who also hold membership in Greek life or social fraternities. See: TKE1982, Chris; Haug, Bass.
Bump - When someone posts to bring a thread to the top of the page, as I did just now, as to draw attention to the thread, or for mass distribution. Also, when two people post at the same time, and one person 'bumps' another from Roll. Usually happens in the newer groups, and is, I think...hilarious.
WUPP = Wake Up, Piss, Post. This refers to how one should handle their roll posts daily. It allows for one to get their promise out early, and leave no room for nicotine to worm it's way in between promises.
Pag/paggot= Post-and-ghoster/ some whine who comes in, post, messes up roll/ just barely passes the bar to be a member adj:"that pag f$ked roll up again"-zmckee13
MIQ- missing in quit
BIC Bullet In Cheek - Meant to convey the idea that putting a dip in your lip is about equivalent as shooting a bullet in your cheek...its just a slower death than the actual thing... - "Don't be stupid and let Nic put a BIC in ya"
QLAMFEDD - Quit Like a Motha' Effer Every Damn Day
Special Snowflake - someone who knows everything there is to know about quitting, and consequently, anything that they do not agree with or understand is wrong and illogical.
SH = Stupid Hurts-- I will ensure I used that in a sentence today...LOL
NGGYUNGLYDNGRAADY -- Self explanatory
Quith - Contraction of the words quit and with; as in "Quith you today".
Vortex - A long thread of quotes.
Fa- A long, long way to run....
LDDGFNQ -- Low Down Dirty Good For Nothing Quitter, courtesy of canofbeans
IQWYT- I Quit With You Today
PTBQWYT- Proud To Be Quit With You Today (variant of the one above this)
Wipe Your Feet posting roll in a group before commenting. A courtesy that is requested, usually when there an argument with a "vet"
Shitnado An argument that has the potential to turn into a Vortex
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I'm 77 days now....learnings....an addict replaces what he/she lost with something else.....replace that something with positive things....not something like alcohol.....not much of a drinker anymore at age 46, but I noticed two episodes of drinking to excess through 77 quit days, more than I've had in 10 years....neither episode accomplished anything but risking my quit and bad decisions. I find it no coincidence that I over-indulged on booze....maybe the nic bitch made me do it in a weak ass attempt to get me on her tit again....she failed because I stayed quit but it's no coincidence. Watch yourself with replacement strategies.....food I imagine is another common one, guys complain about getting fatter on quit
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DAY 77.5...this is my journal BTW.....a little trick I learned from another bad ass quitter ( thanks KYBO)...66 thru 77 has been harder than imagined......I've been trying to save a brother who caved this week....been trying last night through this morning to get him to Post a new Day 1, personal for me because I had made a friend, we were on the same day and he caved
I'm not gonna get into why here, because there are no excuses, from one addict to the next I'll just say, I get why he caved, I get why addicts do stupid things even if it's not using, there is a whole range of defective behavior when battling addiction....interesting, I've had to learn the hard way.
I used the famous good cop/bad cop phase on purpose in our April Roll because I want my group to post in support of July so he can see everyone supporting him, I chose to be a good cop to him...I knew there would be different takes....maybe there should...what's the old saying...."it takes a village....".....maybe it takes a village to get an addict to quit, maybe good cops and bad cops are necessary.....I'm sure one day, I'll play the role of bad cop....maybe today I'm just a pussy and are hoping my brother posts tonight because I was kind enough to be merciful....maybe he'll disappoint me, if its your brother....does it matter? You do what ever you think you need to do to get the addict to stop.
I playing it this way because I was concerned about getting him back on roll as soon as possible...the farther the end of quit gets, the harder it gets....remember a WastePanel Speech from earlier today? Look him up, HOF speech I think, otherwise it's in our roll today....That's what I was worried about with Pat....and also because I used for 30 years, quit for 7 months, caved for 9 whole months before finding KTC....I'm trying to pay it back for Pat so he does not repeat my failure. I didn't want Pat to become me......make the same mistake by rolling the dice of life or death for 9 more months......call me crazy
.....its all learning, this strengthens our own quits!....and it will Strengthen Pat in July, he'll be a leader to someone else and will pay it back....he knows what's like to fail now.
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DAY 77.5...this is my journal BTW.....a little trick I learned from another bad ass quitter.....I've been trying to save a brother who caved this week....been trying last night through this morning to get him to Post a new Day 1, personal for me because I had made a friend, we were on the same day and he caved
I'm not gonna get into why here, because there are no excuses, from one addict to the next I'll just say, I get why he caved, I get why addicts do stupid things even if it's not using, there is a whole range of defective behavior when battling addiction....interesting, I've had to learn the hard way.
I used the famous good cop/bad cop phase on purpose in our April Roll because I want my group to post in support of July so he can see everyone supporting him, I chose to be a good cop to him...I knew there would be different takes....maybe there should...what's the old saying...."it takes a village....".....maybe it takes a village to get an addict to quit, maybe good cops and bad cops are necessary.....I'm sure one day, I'll play the role of bad cop....maybe today I'm just a pussy and are hoping my brother posts tonight because I was kind enough to be merciful....maybe he'll disappoint me, if its your brother....does it matter? You do what ever you think you need to do to get the addict to stop.
I playing it this way because I was concerned about getting him back on roll as soon as possible...the farther the end of quit gets, the harder it gets....remember a WastePanel Speech from earlier today? Look him up, HOF speech I think, otherwise it's in our roll today....That's what I was worried about with Pat....and also because I used for 30 years, quit for 7 months, caved for 9 whole months before finding KTC....I'm trying to pay it back for Pat so he does not repeat my failure. I didn't want Pat to become me......make the same mistake by rolling the dice of life or death for 9 more months......call me crazy
.....its all learning, this strengthens our own quits!
He should count his lucky stars you're in his court. I spoke the other day about our successes and failures reverberating into the spheres of those around us. He sent shockwaves through parts of this community. So did Endlessquit. Different outcomes, different results on those around them.
I spent the entire morning raging. So did more than a few of the April crew. It rippled into other months as well. Hope all take the learnings from this one.
The longer he waits, the further he gets from shore, the longer he has to swim to get back.
I'll breathe a little easier when he arrives.
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DAY 77.5...this is my journal BTW.....a little trick I learned from another bad ass quitter.....I've been trying to save a brother who caved this week....been trying last night through this morning to get him to Post a new Day 1, personal for me because I had made a friend, we were on the same day and he caved
I'm not gonna get into why here, because there are no excuses, from one addict to the next I'll just say, I get why he caved, I get why addicts do stupid things even if it's not using, there is a whole range of defective behavior when battling addiction....interesting, I've had to learn the hard way.
I used the famous good cop/bad cop phase on purpose in our April Roll because I want my group to post in support of July so he can see everyone supporting him, I chose to be a good cop to him...I knew there would be different takes....maybe there should...what's the old saying...."it takes a village....".....maybe it takes a village to get an addict to quit, maybe good cops and bad cops are necessary.....I'm sure one day, I'll play the role of bad cop....maybe today I'm just a pussy and are hoping my brother posts tonight because I was kind enough to be merciful....maybe he'll disappoint me, if its your brother....does it matter? You do what ever you think you need to do to get the addict to stop.
I playing it this way because I was concerned about getting him back on roll as soon as possible...the farther the end of quit gets, the harder it gets....remember a WastePanel Speech from earlier today? Look him up, HOF speech I think, otherwise it's in our roll today....That's what I was worried about with Pat....and also because I used for 30 years, quit for 7 months, caved for 9 whole months before finding KTC....I'm trying to pay it back for Pat so he does not repeat my failure. I didn't want Pat to become me......make the same mistake by rolling the dice of life or death for 9 more months......call me crazy
.....its all learning, this strengthens our own quits!
He should count his lucky stars you're in his court. I spoke the other day about our successes and failures reverberating into the spheres of those around us. He sent shockwaves through parts of this community. So did Endlessquit. Different outcomes, different results on those around them.
I spent the entire morning raging. So did more than a few of the April crew. It rippled into other months as well. Hope all take the learnings from this one.
The longer he waits, the further he gets from shore, the longer he has to swim to get back.
I'll breathe a little easier when he arrives.
No doubt my brother Athan, we are all part of each others quit, learnings and failures. You are just as much a part of my journey as Laxdaddy, Worktowin, Haas22, Dundippin, JGromo, Big E, Kybo, Skol, Batdad, or Waste Panel. We all stick together, we all help each other in subtle and not so subtle ways. We can only be fairly judged on what we did about our failures in life, not on whether we failed or not. Everyone fails, I've said it before, here it is again, it's what you do after a fail that matters. No one is perfect.
I decided to write today because it was an experience worthy of sharing. I hope another soul trying to rid themselves of nicotine will read my intro and learn something.
Meanwhile I saw my other buddy today who has battled addiction his whole life too. This guy was doing alcohol, cocaine, pills, weed and gambling. He has one more addiction to contain, I'm hoping to get him set up in July. I'm becoming an addiction evangelist.
Adding Alcohol to the next floor is the next step for me. For now it's one day at time to quit nicotine. We'll discuss after HOF.
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Btw- Happy Easter, picked up a leg of lamb today from my butcher. Just finished the dry rub. I'm an avid chef, got family coming over tomorrow. Good times.
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Btw- Happy Easter, picked up a leg of lamb today from my butcher. Just finished the dry rub. I'm an avid chef, got family coming over tomorrow. Good times.
Most of the vets that are still regular around here used their introductions as some form of journal. It's purpose is twofold. Wisdom for those who come behind (that sounded gay) and perspective for the moment.
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Btw- Happy Easter, picked up a leg of lamb today from my butcher. Just finished the dry rub. I'm an avid chef, got family coming over tomorrow. Good times.
Most of the vets that are still regular around here used their introductions as some form of journal. It's purpose is twofold. Wisdom for those who come behind (that sounded gay) and perspective for the moment.
Well, I guess I'm on the right path then, thanks man.....its amazing how the learning keeps on coming.....its been harder lately....seems par for course judging from what others have been saying....I feel it but I'm NOT going back to being an addict...NAFAR.
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Day 78 - My boy Laxdaddy posted Day 1 in July group this morning. As traumatic as I'm sure it was for him, I feel like it was tough on me too.....in a good and bad way.
The good- I think I helped him simply by supporting him which feels good and extinguishes some depression along the journey. Days 60 thru 78 have been harder sledding. Mental games. Now I get to post in two groups, my group April and new group July, double down on my quit....and I already made some new friends in July as well as strengthened my network of support. Experience enriches. Sorry Pat, not taking pleasure in your fail, just making note of it and how it impacted me. We help each other, I'm quit today and so are you. You have kinda made yourself a lightening rod of quit, that's a positive for you!
The Bad- Shit, 70 something days and someone caves. Not surprised because I was 7months solo and caved before KTC but this was a caver on KTC. Scary. Gotta stay diligent cause I'm not letting that nic bitch back into my life. Not sure if it's bad or just scary. I'm putting these thoughts in journal though because it puts it out there for others and me to revisit.
Funny, I haven't wanted tobacco per se. I dont sit around wanting to go get a tin. Main thing for me as been regret, depression and feeling of failure for being an addict. Bit of anger at times and melancholy for bad decisions over a lifetime. It kinda rolls together as one big blur of bad choices.
I dont know If I make journal entries every day here....but right now it's a tool to stay diligent. I POST MY PROMISE EVERY DAY so I see no reason not to journalize too. Laxdaddy cave made me realize I cant take my eye off nic bitch, I have to keep my boot heal on her throat because she's constantly reaching for my throught. NAFAR
Happy Easter
I like phrase:
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems
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Day 86 - I feel better now, turned a corner...wow 60 to 80 kinda sucked worse than 20 thru 30.
Is that what it feels like to have PMS?
Weird, just a strange scientific observation
I'm seeking to destroy anything in my life that jeopardizes my quit. I FEEL LIKE A HUNTER. That's the best way to describe it.....I'm going to add to my promise every day.
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Day 86 - I feel better now, turned a corner...wow 60 to 80 kinda sucked worse than 20 thru 30.
Is that what it feels like to have PMS?
Weird, just a strange scientific observation
I'm seeking to destroy anything in my life that jeopardizes my quit. I FEEL LIKE A HUNTER. That's the best way to describe it.....I'm going to add to my promise every day.
I just read your definition of KTC fapping.
Uh... in the Midwest, fapping has a different meaning. ???
Honored to quit with you, sir. You are killing it. Going from decades of 2-3 tins a day to freedom, bro that is straight up BAD ASS.
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Day 86 - I feel better now, turned a corner...wow 60 to 80 kinda sucked worse than 20 thru 30.
Is that what it feels like to have PMS?
Weird, just a strange scientific observation
I'm seeking to destroy anything in my life that jeopardizes my quit. I FEEL LIKE A HUNTER. That's the best way to describe it.....I'm going to add to my promise every day.
I just read your definition of KTC fapping.
Uh... in the Midwest, fapping has a different meaning. ???
Honored to quit with you, sir. You are killing it. Going from decades of 2-3 tins a day to freedom, bro that is straight up BAD ASS.
Lol, I did not coin those phrases, a vet forwarded to me, lol
Yeh 2 to 3 tins a day! One dip was a full tin, I was the master of recycling. Like I said, I chewed a full pension worth. I swear that I could have popped a new full tin in my mouth every hour if cost and some shred of health consciousness was not relevant. They used to call me KOC.....KING OF CONSUMPTION
Thank you, I'm going ODAAT......PROUD YOU ARE WITH ME! WE are never touching tobacco again one day at a time.
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Day 78 - My boy Laxdaddy posted Day 1 in July group this morning. As traumatic as I'm sure it was for him, I feel like it was tough on me too.....in a good and bad way.
The good- I think I helped him simply by supporting him which feels good and extinguishes some depression along the journey. Days 60 thru 78 have been harder sledding. Mental games. Now I get to post in two groups, my group April and new group July, double down on my quit....and I already made some new friends in July as well as strengthened my network of support. Experience enriches. Sorry Pat, not taking pleasure in your fail, just making note of it and how it impacted me. We help each other, I'm quit today and so are you. You have kinda made yourself a lightening rod of quit, that's a positive for you!
The Bad- Shit, 70 something days and someone caves. Not surprised because I was 7months solo and caved before KTC but this was a caver on KTC. Scary. Gotta stay diligent cause I'm not letting that nic bitch back into my life. Not sure if it's bad or just scary. I'm putting these thoughts in journal though because it puts it out there for others and me to revisit.
Funny, I haven't wanted tobacco per se. I dont sit around wanting to go get a tin. Main thing for me as been regret, depression and feeling of failure for being an addict. Bit of anger at times and melancholy for bad decisions over a lifetime. It kinda rolls together as one big blur of bad choices.
I dont know If I make journal entries every day here....but right now it's a tool to stay diligent. I POST MY PROMISE EVERY DAY so I see no reason not to journalize too. Laxdaddy cave made me realize I cant take my eye off nic bitch, I have to keep my boot heal on her throat because she's constantly reaching for my throught. NAFAR
Happy Easter
I like phrase:
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems
Couple things really spoke to me here.
Day 60 to 70 were a struggle for me too. I couldn't really put my finger on what was going on, but it was damn difficult for me to get out of bed every day during that span. I wouldn't classify what I went through as a depression as much as I would say I just lost all motivation and direction for a wee bit. I slogged through it mostly just by holding on to the hope that it would get better. Luckily it did around days 68-70 for me. I am not sure I could have held on if that shit had lasted for more than a of couple months.
The bad choices thing hits home with me too. I haven't actually started writing up a HOF speech, but I have been jotting down some notes for when/if I do write one. It was super depressing for me when I wrote down all the times that I could remember trying to quit. I failed so many times for various reasons over the years. Bad choices after bad decisions for three decades. And the older I got the attempts to quit seemed to get fewer and farther in between. Looking back on it now I am very disappointed in myself. I am smarter than that. I feel like I just threw away so many years that I can't get back.
Thanks for sharing what you are going through. It helps me to know that I am not alone in the struggle, and I am certain that it helps others too.
It certainly doesn't seem like we have been doing this for almost 100 Days. I attribute that to the fact that we have a pretty good group in April. You guys/gal make me laugh every day. And you all make me want to come back the next day too. That means a lot to me. I am proud to quit with all every day.
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DAY 87
I finding that daily texts and more contact with brothers really does keep me stay focused on quit.
I like a game to beat this bitch.
Funny feeling of the day, had to stop for gas after dropping my 11 year old Charlotte and 7 year old Elizabeth off at school. Man, I love my girls. Now my gas stop was a place I'd get Skoal usually after dropping girls off. I have avoided the place, out of fear mostly. Kinda tough in another way because I enjoyed flirting with the hotty cashier...but that is irrelevant and something I should not be doing any way ( bad decisions caused by Skoal) However, Today, I stopped for gas at this Mobil station......those fucking tins were in my head but I smiled to myself, reposted roll because I got bumped and easily drove off. No great earth shattering point here, I did not want the tin, it wasnt a crave, it was a consciousness that they are there and I'm quit.....just a battle won ODAAT
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DAY 89
KTC Lingo with Athan addition
LUQITSOILYB!- let us quit in the shade ok I love you bye; Athan April 2018
Burn Your Boats Leave no option for failure. More on that here
EDD =Every Damn Day. The prescribed method for posting roll call. More on that here
Retread = A member who at some point has had to restart their day count after relapsing and consuming nicotine.
Caver = See: retread.
NAFAR = Never Again for any Reason. Because of this
QLF = Quit like fuck. Indicates that your quit is undeniable for the day. Say hi to Coach Steve
Serial Caver = Someone who caves multiple times despite having the KTC support system.
Special Butterfly = Someone who feels that they are somehow different than the rest of the addicts here and therefore can ignore sound advice on how to beat addiction daily.
Ghey = Odd, off, weird, a doosh or dooshbag or someone that takes it in the NOLAQ hole.
ODAAT = One day at a time.
BAM! Right in the ass! = Saying used by June '14 while telling a fictitious story about THansen.
*poof = I screwed that post up, and I'm deleting it and letting you know there really is nothing to see here. (Aka: Dry fire by May '14 ... apparently they charge a royalty to use it)
QFL = Quit For Life. Double meaning... quit for health reasons and a long time.
BAQ = Bad Ass Quitter
NHNNNIML = Not Here Not Now Not In My Lip - Coined by one of the true BAQ's, Cavman. Never used by anyone else ever. Not even once.
Fapping/Fap Posting/Frapping = To begin posting in a thread (signified by "members posting" found at the bottom of a page) and attract a large audience anticipating the nugget of wisdom to follow, only to close out said post and never return, ending in the unified disappointment of the crowd. Also, to masturbate; ask your dad about that one.
Frassy = The special brand of sass employed by KTC members who also hold membership in Greek life or social fraternities. See: TKE1982, Chris; Haug, Bass.
Bump - When someone posts to bring a thread to the top of the page, as I did just now, as to draw attention to the thread, or for mass distribution. Also, when two people post at the same time, and one person 'bumps' another from Roll. Usually happens in the newer groups, and is, I think...hilarious.
WUPP = Wake Up, Piss, Post. This refers to how one should handle their roll posts daily. It allows for one to get their promise out early, and leave no room for nicotine to worm it's way in between promises.
Pag/paggot= Post-and-ghoster/ some whine who comes in, post, messes up roll/ just barely passes the bar to be a member adj:"that pag f$ked roll up again"-zmckee13
MIQ- missing in quit
BIC Bullet In Cheek - Meant to convey the idea that putting a dip in your lip is about equivalent as shooting a bullet in your cheek...its just a slower death than the actual thing... - "Don't be stupid and let Nic put a BIC in ya"
QLAMFEDD - Quit Like a Motha' Effer Every Damn Day
Special Snowflake - someone who knows everything there is to know about quitting, and consequently, anything that they do not agree with or understand is wrong and illogical.
SH = Stupid Hurts-- I will ensure I used that in a sentence today...LOL
NGGYUNGLYDNGRAADY -- Self explanatory
Quith - Contraction of the words quit and with; as in "Quith you today".
Vortex - A long thread of quotes.
Fa- A long, long way to run....
LDDGFNQ -- Low Down Dirty Good For Nothing Quitter, courtesy of canofbeans
IQWYT- I Quit With You Today
PTBQWYT- Proud To Be Quit With You Today (variant of the one above this)
Wipe Your Feet posting roll in a group before commenting. A courtesy that is requested, usually when there an argument with a "vet"
Shitnado An argument that has the potential to turn into a Vortex
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Day 90
Anyone ever hear stories about amputees that mysteriously still "feel" their amputated limb?......I had what can best be described as a similar feeling this week.....it kinda felt like the wad was the amputated limb....kept feeling like I had one in.....weirdest damn feeling, cant explain it
It didn't feel good or bad....just kinda eery.
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Day 95
Won one yesterday. While waiting with a co worker who had a car issue....another friend whipped out a cigarette....the addict Dave would have already had a dip in or bummed a smoke....this smoker had quit but caved....it actually felt good to say I joined KTC and was quit.....I didnt experience any crave....actually just the opposite....the guy asked if it bothered me, I honestly said no way, puff away man....but I did say, " I thought you quit?"....he shrugged.....that used to be my MO....no more, quit strong.....the feeling of freedom was powerful. Just an observation. When I quit solo for 7 months, my reactions to loss of nicotine were different. It's a sobering difference in quit approach, I credit KTC and brothers and queen for this measurable difference.
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Day 98
Made some solid connections in last 24 hours.
Faced my irrational but rational fear of fishing.
NIC BITCH NOT COMING FISHING WITH ME EVER AGAIN....THAT STINKY WHORE CAN SWIM TO SHORE, FUCK OFF BITCH
WRITING THIS STUFF HELPS, TALKING ABOUT IT HELPS, ACKNOWLEDGING ADDICTION IS THE ONLY WAY TO ADDRESS IT
1 PROBLEM + NICOTINE = 2 PROBLEMS....its that simple
My quit is strong, never again ODAAT
I'm wearing two sets of underwear by communicating....failure is a choice
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Day 99
Last day of double digits, tomorrow will soon be today, I'll WUPP and ODAAT
Some humor on a nice weather day here in RI:
Not every flower can say love, but a rose can.
Not every plant survives thirst, but a cactus can.
Not every retard can read, but look at you go buttercup little buddy!
Today you should take a moment and send an encouraging message to a fucked up friend, just as IÂ’ve done.
I donÂ’t care if you lick windows, or screw farm animals. You hang in there cupcake, cause youÂ’re fucking special to me, youÂ’re my KTC friend, look at you smiling at your phone!
You crayon eating motherfucker! Happy Spring!
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Congratulations on the first of many big milestones. Take a minute to enjoy this day bro. YouÂ’ve earned it.
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Congratulations on the first of many big milestones. Take a minute to enjoy this day bro. YouÂ’ve earned it.
^^^^ Double that!! Enjoy the hard work that got you here. Take your new tools and help the next quitter in line. On to the next milestone!!
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Hey man, looking forward to the next hundred days with you. Let's get a wagon and collect dudes fresh to the site and show 'em how it's done!
xoxoxoxo
I love you
bye!
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'Popcorn'
Hey man, looking forward to the next hundred days with you. Let's get a wagon and collect dudes fresh to the site and show 'em how it's done!
xoxoxoxo
I love you
bye!
Athan, my friend....It is with profound pride that I can call you my brother. I thank you for your help in beating this sickness every day. I thank everyone here at KTC. I said it today, I'll say it to you, thank you for helping a total stranger like me, thank you for saving my life. I dont think I can ever re pay you. But here is what we can do;
When we see a guy, especially the young ones, we just share our experiences so he does not end up a user as long and old as us, lol. We'll help others too. Families, wives, children- its all a win. It's not possible to put a value on this deed but I have somehow kept my health and so have you even though we've teased the dragon and taken an awful chance. The best thing we can do is to use this opportunity afforded to us to help others. I know you and our brethren feel the same way. So we will do it, pay it back and that's that.
We will not cave, we will quit every day until 200, 300, 400, comma....forever. I am honored to complete these journeys with you. And someday we will meet but for now we stay quit.
Xoxoxo -but don't tea bag me, save that for Skol:)
OK
I LOVE YOU
BYE
DAVE
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Day 100
Little late since today is Weds and day 102 but I posted this on Monday.
"So.......I did post twice intentionally.....wanted to be first on roll for bookend WUPPS of 99 and 100 both days.....so technically when I posted roll on those days first it was prior to midnight.....so a follow up WUPP was required each day to be in compliance! .....technically speaking
I'm going to put this in my Intro journal for DAY 100....bookend 99 and 100 double posts, see if I cant get some other newbee folks to do it on their HOF, my way of being unique and maybe starting a tradition
I'm competitive, always have been hence sports was a great fit for me, dont like losing, my quit was and always will be about ending a losing streak to nicotine....I had to turn this thing into a fucking game that you cant lose, KTC got me here by shining some light on things that I could use against the Nic bitch to beat her ass ODAAT.
TODAY IM PROUD TO WIN WITH ALL YOU GOOD PEEPS. THANKS FOR HELPING ME WIN EVERY DAY....thanks for helping save my life.
....and for the record, I ain't going anywhere. ITS WUPP AGAIN WHEN TOMORROW BECOMES TODAY"
That's how I felt on my HOF day.
Additionally, I've texted this to some. I swear to God being quit makes me more emotional, not like I'm a very emotional guy but who knows, I've been on nicotine most of my adult life....I cant remember the last time I've gotten misty....but in the last 100 days, I've had my moments watching my girls...being quit has made me more soulful.
The thoughts of what I've been doing to myself for 30 years, tugged on the big guy's heart strings.....these are the things you dont think about when trying it solo.....its why KTC way works, investment versus just being a half ass quiting fiend
.....now I gotta get HOF speech done
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Day 100
Little late since today is Weds and day 102 but I posted this on Monday.
"So.......I did post twice intentionally.....wanted to be first on roll for bookend WUPPS of 99 and 100 both days.....so technically when I posted roll on those days first it was prior to midnight.....so a follow up WUPP was required each day to be in compliance! .....technically speaking
I'm going to put this in my Intro journal for DAY 100....bookend 99 and 100 double posts, see if I cant get some other newbee folks to do it on their HOF, my way of being unique and maybe starting a tradition
I'm competitive, always have been hence sports was a great fit for me, dont like losing, my quit was and always will be about ending a losing streak to nicotine....I had to turn this thing into a fucking game that you cant lose, KTC got me here by shining some light on things that I could use against the Nic bitch to beat her ass ODAAT.
TODAY IM PROUD TO WIN WITH ALL YOU GOOD PEEPS. THANKS FOR HELPING ME WIN EVERY DAY....thanks for helping save my life.
....and for the record, I ain't going anywhere. ITS WUPP AGAIN WHEN TOMORROW BECOMES TODAY"
That's how I felt on my HOF day.
Additionally, I've texted this to some. I swear to God being quit makes me more emotional, not like I'm a very emotional guy but who knows, I've been on nicotine most of my adult life....I cant remember the last time I've gotten misty....but in the last 100 days, I've had my moments watching my girls...being quit has made me more soulful.
The thoughts of what I've been doing to myself for 30 years, tugged on the big guy's heart strings.....these are the things you dont think about when trying it solo.....its why KTC way works, investment versus just being a half ass quiting fiend
.....now I gotta get HOF speech done
Well done.... Well Said
Congrats Bro.
I quit with you today.
Rawls 1256
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Day 105
Got my maiden fishing trip done last night, cat turd free, still quit!!! It wasnt as bad as I thought it could be.
Got two schoolies in the surf. Onward. ODAAT, BIG HURDLE DONE, CHECK 'Finger' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'Finger'
Hey Nic bitch, see how that works, u ain't ever going fishing with me again, go wipe your ass
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Day 105
Got my maiden fishing trip done last night, cat turd free, still quit!!! It wasnt as bad as I thought it could be.
Got two schoolies in the surf. Onward. ODAAT, BIG HURDLE DONE, CHECK 'Finger' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'Finger'
Hey Nic bitch, see how that works, u ain't ever going fishing with me again, go wipe your ass
Hell yeah! Fish on!!
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DAY 108
Shit, my company is re-orging. Back when I was using, these would be 3 or 4 tin days.....amazing what a difference now in how I cope, nicotine ain't your friend boys and girls.
1 problem + nicotine= 2 problems
That's a fact.
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Day 110
I got nothing to report. Thursday. Almost Friday. Got good weekend going bunch of parties, dinner and my daughters competitive swim team banquet. I'm going to remain dry for the entire weekend. I find alcohol jeopardizes my judgement. Pondering when my next drink might be. . ..maybe the beach this summer. Headed to Sanibel, FL beginning of June with family, condo on the beach.....that's a good time to have a cold one.
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Day 111
Fucking Friday, that's all.
I quit again today and I feel really good.....best I've felt in 3 decades, not a slave anymore.
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Day 116
HUMP DAY, feeling great, summer coming, fishing lots, Nic Bitch not riding with me no more....awesome
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Day 117
From my April Brother SKOL today in April roll:
Found this in words of wisdom, thought it was cool:
Authored by rkymtnman and posted in May 17...
It gets better by rkymtnman
"Been thinking a lot about this whole "it gets better" voodoo that we all parrot over and over. I know I didn't really believe it when I was just past the hall and trudging through the motions trying like hell to stay clean and watching my group lose quitters. Always lead me to think - if it is OK for them, why not me?
I remember another thing I did in these types of situations. Go find some "active", crusty old vet - I'd suggest a guy like Hydro because he is quit friggen YODA - shoot him a pm. Ask him questions about what it is like now. Find these 6, 7, 8 year quitters who are still here every day - though not overly active - and ask them. Don't take my word for it. Ask them what it is like. Ask them if it was all worth it. There HAS to be a reason guys like Hydro and others still post roll like it is their job. We are all pretty busy guys with professional lives and work responsibilities, with families and probably have FAR better things to do than troll internet forums for nic addicts. Yet here we all are - in the same boat.
I bet you'll hear the same story over and over. Take it on faith that shit gets so much fucking better you can't possibly imagine. I sure as shit didn't until one day, I realized it had. I challenge you all to keep the focus on TODAY - every day and everything will get worked out in time. Get rid of the thoughts of "by now, I should feel ______" because I can promise you those expectations will lead to let down. Instead, try "Today I will not use nicotine" and go live your life without thinking about where you think you ought to be at this point. You are exactly where you all should be. There is a reason I hate the hall...sure it is a bad ass benchmark but after that, it is just another +1. My worst days were AFTER the hall. My best days were ahead of me - I just didn't believe it.
Keep the faith brothers. You are all killing it - and winning - it just doesn't feel like it most days. I promise that changes."
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Day 118
From BlueManChew, posting 5/8/18 in August '18:
For as strange as we all are, we seem to conform to a norm. That norm is quit.
That norm is sleepless nights and dip dreams early on. That norm is anxiety and uncaused and intense anger, and slamming doors and breaking windows (me), and without any real provocation, chucking a griddle with half-cooked Sunday morning pancakes into the kitchen sink (me again.)
The norm is depression, worry, fog, and staring at a task for 30 minutes and not having lifted a finger. The norm is seeking just a moment of reprieve, and being painfully aware of the bitch who lurks just beyond the periphery.
The norm is feeling frustration after 30, 60, and a 100 days wondering why the fuck I still crave, or why is it still so goddamn hard? Or will it ever end?
The norm is the grind, e.d.d., a.d.d, and brotherhood.
The norm is peace of mind and health, of self-confidence, better sleep, calm, personal advancement, opportunity, and more productivity.
The norm now is winning.
Whether on day 1,000 or day 1, the norm is QUIT.
In QUIT, there are no strangers.
PTBQWY - BMC day 213
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Amazed how well this process just fucking works....tip my cap to KTC and all my bros and queens
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Day 120
I have to get this off my chest. I wake up to another day. Make another promise. And I am down and pissed because I have to go through another day of complete mental torture. I try and be positive, but my outlook sucks today. I swear after this I will try and be positive but when does this stop. When can a guy get a day to be free from worry and free from being negative. I know a lot of you have said I need to have a positive outlook. What happens when you canÂ’t get out of that mode? And IÂ’m here slogging along. One day at a time.
Quit Brother Gifty from July 2018 group:
It's mother's day so I'll quote my mother. "Attitude is 99% of everything you do." You're getting this stuff off your chest here which should be helpful to some degree, but use those digits and make sure you have a strong support system. See a therapist, don't hold back, and each morning pick up your doubt and fear and scissor kick it square in the throat. Take it one day at a time. You've done it 66 times so far, what's another one?
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Day 121
From Scooners, June 27, 2011:
THANKS ATHAN FOR SHARING THIS GOLD NUGGET
What nicotine can't do:
It cannot cripple love; it cannot shatter hope; it cannot disolve faith; it cannot destroy peace; it cannot kill friendships; it cannot suppress memories; it cannot silence courage; it cannot invade the soul; it cannot steal eternal life; it cannot conquer the spirit - IF YOU ARE QUIT.
Good night quitters, see ya in the morning.
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Day 124
EXCHANGE WITH ALAN, SKOL, BATDAD, NUMB AND A FEW OTHERS.
HOPEFULLY A NEW QUITTER WILL READ AND GET IT THAT WE ARE NEVER "CURED"....HENCE ODAAT
-Just gotta keep growing the nic bitch hate one day at a time.....more time more quit yields less and weaker craves
-? Loving the freedom from the slavery here bro. Soaring bro.
- I don't get cravings anymore. Seriously. In the past I interpreted frustration as a crave. Now I acknowledge that I'm frustrated and move along. I will NEVER SLEEP WITH HER AGAIN!
-Me neither, I was talking to Numb and he was going through some....those were my words to him......I honestly dont think about tobacco anymore
-I feel too good to even consider it....I'm fixated on feel good....that's what these new quitters need to experience, freedom
-That's freedom right there big Dave. Can't believe we were willfully in her clutches for so long
-Gotta be a new level of stupidity
-She was a free whore........but she wasnt really free
-And that's the key. Develop a hate for nicotine!! And a love for the freedom.
-Took me too long to realize that.
-We all fell in love with an alleged free whore....
-Agree, I do get satisfaction seeing some younger guys that get it.....feel good that they wont be as stupid as I was for 30 years
-Sometimes, you gotta drink the koolaid to heal
-We've all tried it our way, and failed. The system works, if you let it.
-Failure is a choice:)
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Day 130
Nothing to report other than I feel great.
It will be nice to go on vacation with family, nicotine free! And not missing the bitch one day at a time!
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Day 162
WOW, I REALLY SHIT THE BED ON MY JOURNAL.
SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED YET NOT MUCH HAS CHANGED ON MY NICOTINE ADDICTION.....OTHER THAN 30 MORE PROMISES AND NiCOTINE FREE DAYS....TOOK PACKAGE AT WORK, TOOK FAMILY ON VACATION TO FL, HAVING FUN WITH LIFE.....stumbled onto some wounded soldier tins in rented FL condo, tossed them without hesitation....had fun with wife in the process.....am I feeling strong, yes.....am I humbled because a few guys have caved, yes.....life goes on, ODAT
Did some quit reinforcement tonight. Why not? Complacency is our enemy, I would describe myself as complacent just a bit distracted lately. BUT life will do that at times, re learning how to cope without nicotine is a big deal. I'm still that student of quit.
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One thing we all have to learn is the The Law of Addiction.
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Good work on intros....
Appreciate your Quit sir.
Rawls 1315
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I been slacking lately on my intro posts.....I like posting because it keeps my support circle close....I also have text list plus obvious roll post.....I use the texts (individual too no grouo) to reaffirm my quit and promise throughout the day.....KTC works, I hope folks read my intro and learn how to strengthen their quits....its not an accident that you are comma club, congrats, I quit again with you today!
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Day 186
Interesting feeling moving toward second floor, nicotine doesn't cross my mind much but I'm still hating pretty hard on the Nic Bitch. Found a good local group...Mike, Dean, BBQ (love you guys)....been still slacking on my journal here but text with these guys every day plus a few of my April Bros.... I'm finding quality in my tools now (not that posting roll every day isnt crucial or any of my other interactions for last 186 days weren't critical).....its just more introspective now.....I have perspective now, looking back at where I was and now where I am....Im still an addict recovering one day at a time. Its enjoyment of my freedom and a greater ability to talk about it.
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Doof,
Thanks for keeping me honest every morning on the text rounds. You've stacked up some nice wins already and looking forward to seeing more to come.
QWYT.
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It sounds like you have your mind made up on this quit and that is the entire battle.
Once you stop the conversation in your head about whether to do one more or not, then the rest is easy.
It is great how you are playing it forward.
Let me warn you that when you think you have this addiction conquered and you are hitting a milestone date - that when you feel the urge and thought to dip again creep in.
I am not saying this to be a downer.
I am saying this to prepare you for the experience.
I quit with you today.
Quit On!
Dundippin day 920
Day 188
These words have stuck with me especially as I talk to guys just starting their journey to freedom as I close on 2nd floor......its really about making up your mind and choosing to be done.....after a week clean, its really just a mental game.
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"......its really about making up your mind and choosing to be done.....after a week clean, its really just a mental game."
That is really the key to the whole thing, isn't it? We are successful in our quits because we truly want to be quit. It is that simple.
I want to be quit and that is all the motivation I need to stay quit.
Like you stated earlier, nicotine doesn't cross my mind much anymore either. I go whole days sometimes without really even thinking about the fact that a year ago I would have had a chew in all day. I know I am not "cured." I know I will never be "cured." And I honestly don't care because it is just a mental game at this point. I haven't lost a mental game in 199 days and I don't plan on losing one anytime soon! I am quit because I want to be quit. It is that simple.
IQWYT!
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"......its really about making up your mind and choosing to be done.....after a week clean, its really just a mental game."
That is really the key to the whole thing, isn't it? We are successful in our quits because we truly want to be quit. It is that simple.
I want to be quit and that is all the motivation I need to stay quit.
Like you stated earlier, nicotine doesn't cross my mind much anymore either. I go whole days sometimes without really even thinking about the fact that a year ago I would have had a chew in all day. I know I am not "cured." I know I will never be "cured." And I honestly don't care because it is just a mental game at this point. I haven't lost a mental game in 199 days and I don't plan on losing one anytime soon! I am quit because I want to be quit. It is that simple.
IQWYT!
DAY 193
It is simple. I wish every newbie on the site reads this thread.
U da man Kybo, KTC WAY IS SIMPLE.
That's why I have the line about "excuses are like assholes, everyone has one and they all stink".
Posting, support, accountability, KTC....yep, yep, yep, yep....I'm the first one to tip my cap to the KTC and all the kind souls that helped (a total stranger) save his life.....but none of us can reach through a phone and take a dip away from someone.....you gotta want it, you gotta be ready to go war on winning the mental games every fucking day for the rest of your life.
I PROUD TO QUIT WITH YOU AND ALL MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS HERE ON KTC
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Day 100
Little late since today is Weds and day 102 but I posted this on Monday.
"So.......I did post twice intentionally.....wanted to be first on roll for bookend WUPPS of 99 and 100 both days.....so technically when I posted roll on those days first it was prior to midnight.....so a follow up WUPP was required each day to be in compliance! .....technically speaking
I'm going to put this in my Intro journal for DAY 100....bookend 99 and 100 double posts, see if I cant get some other newbee folks to do it on their HOF, my way of being unique and maybe starting a tradition
I'm competitive, always have been hence sports was a great fit for me, dont like losing, my quit was and always will be about ending a losing streak to nicotine....I had to turn this thing into a fucking game that you cant lose, KTC got me here by shining some light on things that I could use against the Nic bitch to beat her ass ODAAT.
TODAY IM PROUD TO WIN WITH ALL YOU GOOD PEEPS. THANKS FOR HELPING ME WIN EVERY DAY....thanks for helping save my life.
....and for the record, I ain't going anywhere. ITS WUPP AGAIN WHEN TOMORROW BECOMES TODAY"
That's how I felt on my HOF day.
Additionally, I've texted this to some. I swear to God being quit makes me more emotional, not like I'm a very emotional guy but who knows, I've been on nicotine most of my adult life....I cant remember the last time I've gotten misty....but in the last 100 days, I've had my moments watching my girls...being quit has made me more soulful.
The thoughts of what I've been doing to myself for 30 years, tugged on the big guy's heart strings.....these are the things you dont think about when trying it solo.....its why KTC way works, investment versus just being a half ass quiting fiend
.....now I gotta get HOF speech done
Day 200....double WUPP TIME!....and I'm less misty now
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Day 200
In 4 hours 45 mins, I'll hit 200....happy to also have hit 1000 posts.....sorry for spamming everyone I know but.....
Double WUPP time for 200, proud to be quit wit u
Lol 'oh yeah'
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Day 200
In 4 hours 45 mins, I'll hit 200....happy to also have hit 1000 posts.....sorry for spamming everyone I know but.....
Double WUPP time for 200, proud to be quit wit u
Lol 'oh yeah'
Fine work on the Double HoF!!
Keep quitting hard ODAAT!!
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WTG DAVE. Damn Proud to Quit with you everyday.
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Who ever thunk a Dumbass.... I mean a DOOFUS could WUPPEDD for 200 days.
Damn proud of you brother, enjoy the freedom, very well deserved.
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Congratulations on the milestone Doof! You've helped me in my quit and I look forward to keeping it going.
Nice work!
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Well.....that was magnificent! Whaddayasay we do it again, rack up another hunert days I mean. The first two were so much fun!
You really are an asset to the site big Dave! Look forward to you texticles every morning!
xoxoxo
I love you
bye
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Thanks fellas
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Day 214....cant wont would not have made it without all you crayon eating motherfuckas....for new quitters, PM me if you want digits, happy to add to my text roll
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Great read here Doofus. Thanks for sharing. Keep killing it ODAAT EDD
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Great read here Doofus. Thanks for sharing. Keep killing it ODAAT EDD
Thanks man, it's a great journey, all us quitters feeling good.....its a good thing
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Great read here Doofus. Thanks for sharing. Keep killing it ODAAT EDD
Thanks man, it's a great journey, all us quitters feeling good.....its a good thing
Getting close to un chartered quit waters.....never been past 7 months in 30 years....222 qlf
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DAY 222/48
Getting close to un chartered quit waters.....never been past 7 months in 30 years....222 qlf
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Poof
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Day 224
I like November 2017 motto today, "We will not lose an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can."
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DAY 237
Officially now into unchartered quit waters. Never been quit this long, never felt this strong in my quit. KTC works people, I continue to feel gratitude and honor towards a complete set of strangers who help save my life one day at a time. Thanks KTC
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DAY 237
Officially now into unchartered quit waters. Never been quit this long, never felt this strong in my quit. KTC works people, I continue to feel gratitude and honor towards a complete set of strangers who help save my life one day at a time. Thanks KTC
I continue to feel thankful for YOU! The morning texts, the mid day texts. Watching you support the foggiest of the foggy. You're alright Doofus.
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DAY 237
Officially now into unchartered quit waters. Never been quit this long, never felt this strong in my quit. KTC works people, I continue to feel gratitude and honor towards a complete set of strangers who help save my life one day at a time. Thanks KTC
I continue to feel thankful for YOU! The morning texts, the mid day texts. Watching you support the foggiest of the foggy. You're alright Doofus.
U da man brother Athan, u da man
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Ps GO STEELERS
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Day 238
Sorry to all about spam on Intros. I was just a bit carried away with reaching out. I'm not going to do that anymore. Shoot me for being excited about quit. I trying to find new ways to keep it all tight. 238 a drop in bucket in quit, but recent stories make me believe now is a time to stay vigilant.
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Day 238
Sorry to all about spam on Intros. I was just a bit carried away with reaching out. I'm not going to do that anymore. Shoot me for being excited about quit. I trying to find new ways to keep it all tight. 238 a drop in bucket in quit, but recent stories make me believe now is a time to stay vigilant.
Doofus, not spam to me. You may continue to bring her to my intro any time you like.
And GO BROWNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Day 238
Sorry to all about spam on Intros. I was just a bit carried away with reaching out. I'm not going to do that anymore. Shoot me for being excited about quit. I trying to find new ways to keep it all tight. 238 a drop in bucket in quit, but recent stories make me believe now is a time to stay vigilant.
Doofus, not spam to me. You may continue to bring her to my intro any time you like.
And GO BROWNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, I wanted to apologize for my unchartered post to your intro in case you were threatened by it. Apparently, my posts (mainly because I posted to like 30 people) is considered spam. I was told in PM, "Someone elseÂ’s intro is not the place to post your own personal reflections." Ok, My bad.
I did not realize I was over stepping boundaries, some folks did not like it apparently....I know of only one but didnt know how many others were pissed at me.
I got an official warning from admin and mods to cease and desist in PM. Luckily, a friend who is a mod alerted me via text this morning. I was shocked and surprised. My posts were meant as a thank you but taken as an invasion of private space. Totally unintended consequence on my part. Wont happen again, thanks for your support.
I am PISSED at Leveon Bell situation but tomorrows game may look like water sport. My Dad is a Browns fans, I hope the Steelers win 2 to zero via a safety sack in the mud of Tyrod Taylor!!!!!!!!!
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500
It's been great walking this path with you, thanks for everything bro.
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500
It's been great walking this path with you, thanks for everything bro.
Congrats on one of the BIG milestones, brother!! Thanks for all of the accountability along the way!
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500
It's been great walking this path with you, thanks for everything bro.
Congrats on one of the BIG milestones, brother!! Thanks for all of the accountability along the way!
Big Dave, one of the coolest dudes I've never met! Thanks for all the texts and taking all of my calls when I was on the fence. You've no idea how much your support has meant. Let us quit in the shade OK I love you bye!
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A big fat SIX HUNDY
You are the Upperdecker King
Damn lucky to call you a quit brother and blessed to have you in my corner
One day, one day I get to give you a big sloppy wet man hug
Much love @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151), thank you for being a keystone in my quit
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Doofus my man!
It’s been 600 days since you put down the can.
I’m sure you don’t miss it,
Not one little bit.
For you’ve not had a dip dream
Thus far in your quit.
Your texts are the shizzle
And my daily quit checker
And so I will spare you
The big upper decker!
Congratulations my man!
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Congrats on 600 brother, keep kicking ass ODAATEDD!
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Congrats on 600 brother, keep kicking ass ODAATEDD!
Love the rhyme Athan!
Thank you for all we do for each other, we keep this thing going and knock out nicotine ODAT.....its a beautiful thing.
Thank you for saving my life. This place has meant all the difference for all of us.
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Doofus my man!
It’s been 600 days since you put down the can.
I’m sure you don’t miss it,
Not one little bit.
For you’ve not had a dip dream
Thus far in your quit.
Your texts are the shizzle
And my daily quit checker
And so I will spare you
The big upper decker!
Congratulations my man!
Master Poet in da house!
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A big fat SIX HUNDY
You are the Upperdecker King
Damn lucky to call you a quit brother and blessed to have you in my corner
One day, one day I get to give you a big sloppy wet man hug
Much love @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151), thank you for being a keystone in my quit
Hugs are free, quit is non negotiable ODAT! Love ya bro, thank you!
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A big fat SIX HUNDY
You are the Upperdecker King
Damn lucky to call you a quit brother and blessed to have you in my corner
One day, one day I get to give you a big sloppy wet man hug
Much love @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151), thank you for being a keystone in my quit
Hugs are free, quit is non negotiable ODAT! Love ya bro, thank you!
Congratulations on six hundred days of greatness!
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...and then, one day at a time he was SEVEN HUNDRED DAYS FREE AND CLEAN!!
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...and then, one day at a time he was SEVEN HUNDRED DAYS FREE AND CLEAN!!
What a doofus. Congrats on 700 @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) it is great to see your 7th floor arrival
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...and then, one day at a time he was SEVEN HUNDRED DAYS FREE AND CLEAN!!
What a doofus. Congrats on 700 @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) it is great to see your 7th floor arrival
Man, I cant believe it's been 2 years. I think about our journey together and wiping our slates clean. I think about strangers becoming brothers, strangers saving each other lives, strangers becoming friends. The quality of these relationships is beyond my expectations. Thank you all, thank you for saving my life.
Dave
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900 Days Free
I thought you would like >>>>>THIS (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5UGG3gxdUM)<<<<< to celebrate
@Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the man!!!!
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900 Days Free
I thought you would like >>>>>THIS (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5UGG3gxdUM)<<<<< to celebrate
@Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the man!!!!
Congrats Doofus!
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900 Days Free
I thought you would like >>>>>THIS (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5UGG3gxdUM)<<<<< to celebrate
@Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the man!!!!
Congrats Doofus!
Yeah man! Whatchoo gwon do fo NINE HUNDY?!
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Thanks guys, feeling great!
900 Days Free
I thought you would like >>>>>THIS (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5UGG3gxdUM)<<<<< to celebrate
@Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the man!!!!
Congrats Doofus!
Yeah man! Whatchoo gwon do fo NINE HUNDY?!
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1,000 days free
Proud as hell of you bro. @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the Quit king!!!!
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1,000 days free
Proud as hell of you bro. @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the Quit king!!!!
Yessireeebob he is! Thanks for the daily support Dave!!
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Proud of all of us. It's a big crew of support that has come this far..keep on steppin, thank you
1,000 days free
Proud as hell of you bro. @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the Quit king!!!!
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Proud of all of us. It's a big crew of support that has come this far..keep on steppin, thank you
1,000 days free
Proud as hell of you bro. @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the Quit king!!!!
Quittin with you for 1,000 freakin days. unreal
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Proud of all of us. It's a big crew of support that has come this far..keep on steppin, thank you
1,000 days free
Proud as hell of you bro. @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the Quit king!!!!
Quittin with you for 1,000 freakin days. unreal
Good job Doofs! I'll never forget you telling us about the frequency and style of dipping you had. Makes me shudder. Damn proud of you, man!
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Proud of all of us. It's a big crew of support that has come this far..keep on steppin, thank you
1,000 days free
Proud as hell of you bro. @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the Quit king!!!!
Quittin with you for 1,000 freakin days. unreal
Good job Doofs! I'll never forget you telling us about the frequency and style of dipping you had. Makes me shudder. Damn proud of you, man!
Congratulations sir! 1,000 is amazing!
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Proud of all of us. It's a big crew of support that has come this far..keep on steppin, thank you
1,000 days free
Proud as hell of you bro. @Doofus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=151) you are the Quit king!!!!
Quittin with you for 1,000 freakin days. unreal
Good job Doofs! I'll never forget you telling us about the frequency and style of dipping you had. Makes me shudder. Damn proud of you, man!
Congratulations sir! 1,000 is amazing!
Congratulations on the 1000 days!!! Huge milestone!!!