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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: drock7 on May 30, 2013, 08:12:00 AM
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I couldnt wait to wake up this am and learn to navigate this site. and post that ive quit, today shall be a day i control , not the nasty , disgusting, whore in a can.
will post roll as soon as i figure out how...
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I couldnt wait to wake up this am and learn to navigate this site. and post that ive quit, today shall be a day i control , not the nasty , disgusting, whore in a can.
will post roll as soon as i figure out how...
Good decision on kicking your nicotine habit to the curb. This site can help. We don't use words like try or hope as they are just another excuse for our addictive brains to tell us another lie. There are no short cuts, but here are some links that will help you navigate this site.
This a NO NICOTINE site. End of discussion. Why this Site Works (http://www.killthecan.org/about/why.asp)
Biggest thing to do is get acquainted with this site.
Highly recommend you go here: WELCOME CENTER (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13), Getting acclimated (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=7614) and What to Expect (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp)
Nice job posting !!!
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CBird, speaks the truth friend. Welcome to KTC Roll is your promise to the rest of us, keep it, then make that promise again tomorrow!!
I quit with you, go own it. Were with you, PM me if you need anything.
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Perfect intro. Proud to be quit with you.
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There ya go Drock I knew you could do it...all you got to do is ask and there are brothers and sisters here to help you in a moments notice....Key part of my last sentence is....ASK...
There is no one here that will tell you NO as long as you hold up your end of the deal post roll, give us your word and do not use nicotine in any form. You are Fogged out right now reread your thread a few times for tips...these tips will help save your life.
PM if you need my number did you have digits yet?
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I couldnt wait to wake up this am and learn to navigate this site. and post that ive quit, today shall be a day i control , not the nasty , disgusting, whore in a can.
will post roll as soon as i figure out how...
Awesome! Welcome. We are here to help. We've been there, right where you are. It wasn't that long ago for me, but it's starting to feel like a whole other life ago.
Drink lots of water today. If you don't already workout, start. Run, lift weights, do 150 burpees, whatever, do whatever you have to do to not feed nicotine into your body. You'll start to feel better in 3 or 4 days once your system is free of that shit.
I can't remember who's signature line this is on, but it's too good to not pass along. "Caving is not an option. Do something else."
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Good job drock,, glad to have you. I see you posted. That is the smartest thing I bet you've done in a long time. Now the quit begins! One day at a time and you can have your life back my friend.
Make this quit the most important thing in your life. If you make it the most important the other important things in your life will benefit.
If you haven't done so,, read, read and read some more. Learn everything you can about nicotine and why your addicted. Learning your enemy will help you defeat it. I quit with you today.
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Welcome Drock, im excited to have you here. I quit with you today and our quit will become stronger together.
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Nice work Doctor Octopus! Cunt punt that bitch to the curb! We've all been where you are right now. Use this site - lean on anyone and everyone. PM me for a number and we'll lay this whore to waste!
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IM not giving in today, my head hurts, im sick to my stomach, and i cant focus,
vision even seems blurred, im shaking a little bit and yes I STILL QUIT
I cant believe I have allowed this whore in a can to control me , never again
I must ad, because it makes me feel better and laugh a bit. my last half can went in the tiolet and YES i took a nice big crap on top of it... I QUIT you whore
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Congrats Drock! Post roll and keep your word. Just get through today. Read all you can. The more you know about the Nic Bitch, the better prepared you'll be to fight.
You can do this, brother!!!
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Congrats!!! Nic Bitch doesn't let you go just for the asking. You have to earn your freedom. Cold turkey, come what may...you're free!!!
You'll earn your freedom one day at a time. Quitting "forever" is hard. But the good news is that you don't have to do that. Nobody is asking you to quit for forever. We take it ONE DAY AT A TIME. So, don't think about tomorrow, next week, next month or year. We'll deal with them when they get here. All you need to focus on is TODAY. No nicotine TODAY!!!
You got this, brother!
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IM not giving in today, my head hurts, im sick to my stomach, and i cant focus,
vision even seems blurred, im shaking a little bit and yes I STILL QUIT
I cant believe I have allowed this whore in a can to control me , never again
I must ad, because it makes me feel better and laugh a bit. my last half can went in the tiolet and YES i took a nice big crap on top of it... I QUIT you whore
Get the biggest fucking plastic Big Gulp cup you can. Keep it full of WATER not Pop.
Drink h20 by the gallon!!
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Drock,
keep posting in your orignial thread....that way you can keep it all together and read back over it like a book ask a moderator to combine your posts
You will get through this
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Tomorrow's Friday maybe the headache will be gone and you'll be able to take it easy. I can identify with the Fog I had it all through a 3 mile run and for about 3 hours afterwords then had a super busy day at work. Right now I'm playing hookey but will get back to my email (work related) shortly. If you can be sure to get enough sleep because for me lack of that makes the fog weird and severe and i don't notice the tiredness per se. Good luck dude.
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headed to bed , day 1 was bad and im looking for day 2 to suck as well.
My freedom was not taken, i gave it away. Each day I will get it back pieces
at the time.
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Proud to quit with you!!
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I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY
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Hell yeah! Gitter dun, man. Everything you do will be a "first time without a dip". You'll find that kinda stuff for quite a while. After you clear those hurdles (you have no choice since you've posted today), mark each one down as a personal victory.
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Hell yeah! Gitter dun, man. Everything you do will be a "first time without a dip". You'll find that kinda stuff for quite a while. After you clear those hurdles (you have no choice since you've posted today), mark each one down as a personal victory.
Side note: Every time I see your screen name pop up, the lyrics from this song right here (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kIJjG2vXDM4) start running through my head.
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Hell yeah! Gitter dun, man. Everything you do will be a "first time without a dip". You'll find that kinda stuff for quite a while. After you clear those hurdles (you have no choice since you've posted today), mark each one down as a personal victory.
Good job drock. Your going to find out you didn't need a lip full of crud to conduct that big old train. A lot of people have done some amazing things without crud in their lip. Astronauts, race car drivers, jet pilots and I could go on an on.
Sure, it's not going to be easy when those craves hit, but think about all things that get accomplished by people every day and they don't need it. You don't need it and never did. I drive for a living, so I know what your feeling. Trust me,, it will be the easiest of the hurdles. My hardest ending up being the things I didn't do a lot. Those ones that sneak up on you and bite you in the ass.
My dad retired from the rail road. He's living it up now, good retirement. He worked Lakeland,Florida for seaboard coastline for over over 40.
Get you some toothpicks, that's my thing. I bought some mint oil from gnc and made them myself. If i'm driving I usually have one in. I use to think the poison helped me drive. It done a lot of things, but NOT ONE OF THEM HELPED ME!! I quit with you today. You have already taken your life back. Keep it, it's yours! It don't belong to a weed no more.
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I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY
Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.
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I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY
Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.
Today not to bad, the morning was easy but this afternoon the nic whore took her panties off and wanted some action.
I proudly said , I dont do nasty skanky 3 dollar whores, instead i did 44 lifesavers, 2 packs of seeds,
and one pack beef jerky,
The fog lifted a bit today , thanks for the support , my fellow quitters
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I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY
Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.
Today not to bad, the morning was easy but this afternoon the nic whore took her panties off and wanted some action.
I proudly said , I dont do nasty skanky 3 dollar whores, instead i did 44 lifesavers, 2 packs of seeds,
and one pack beef jerky,
The fog lifted a bit today , thanks for the support , my fellow quitters
Thats funny as shit! My mom was over visiting and read that post. Funny as hell. I'm still laughing my ass off. She didn't get it!
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I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY
Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.
Today not to bad, the morning was easy but this afternoon the nic whore took her panties off and wanted some action.
I proudly said , I dont do nasty skanky 3 dollar whores, instead i did 44 lifesavers, 2 packs of seeds,
and one pack beef jerky,
The fog lifted a bit today , thanks for the support , my fellow quitters
Thats funny as shit! My mom was over visiting and read that post. Funny as hell. I'm still laughing my ass off. She didn't get it!
keep it up Drock stay away from the Nic whore she is a sneaky manipulative bitch... Proud of you man keep it up... NAFAR is what I play in my head all day long. Keep the words of Bean I sent you close the weekend is here so keep the site close push a text out now and then to let peeps know you are ok.
txt me if you need anything
T
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I QUIT again today, whoo hooo, Yall hang with me today, i got a big challenge.
Im a conductor for NS and today im heading on a main line train for first time since the QUIT. IM up for the challenge!! and I GOT THIS, IM QUIT FOR TODAY
Awesome! You're bigger than this challenge...far bigger. The power your brain has over challenges like this is unlimited. I quit with you today.
Today not to bad, the morning was easy but this afternoon the nic whore took her panties off and wanted some action.
I proudly said , I dont do nasty skanky 3 dollar whores, instead i did 44 lifesavers, 2 packs of seeds,
and one pack beef jerky,
The fog lifted a bit today , thanks for the support , my fellow quitters
Thats funny as shit! My mom was over visiting and read that post. Funny as hell. I'm still laughing my ass off. She didn't get it!
keep it up Drock stay away from the Nic whore she is a sneaky manipulative bitch... Proud of you man keep it up... NAFAR is what I play in my head all day long. Keep the words of Bean I sent you close the weekend is here so keep the site close push a text out now and then to let peeps know you are ok.
txt me if you need anything
T
i cant erase what ive done for 20 plus years in a five day quit, but i can take my life back one day at a time...i think for me it helps in my mind to add the years of my life before the nic whore to my days. i wasnt born an addict,
so i tell my self , self you have not dipped 13 years plus my 5 BRAND NEW DAYS, i enjoyed those 13 years, and the last 5 days have been worth the suck. Feeling so much better , working on the mental stuff now. I am enjoying saying no to the NIC WHORE, she wants me bad, but she cant get none of the Drock....have a great day quitters
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DAY 5 was terrible, im not sure why it was the worst so far. The NIC whore tried to use my wife and kids to get me to cave. I realized i am the one in the battle. I started the crap and i have to be the one to beat it. I could have made the excuse I CANT LIVE WITH THIS WOMAN WITHOUT DIP, and chewed like a donkey chewing on briars. I realized day 5 that the urges are stronger than i could have imagined. Right in the middle of the worst of the worst craves, low and behold i get a text from KillinTheKodiak.... this site isnt a joke, i quit with all you quitters today.
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DAY 5 was terrible, im not sure why it was the worst so far. The NIC whore tried to use my wife and kids to get me to cave. I realized i am the one in the battle. I started the crap and i have to be the one to beat it. I could have made the excuse I CANT LIVE WITH THIS WOMAN WITHOUT DIP, and chewed like a donkey chewing on briars. I realized day 5 that the urges are stronger than i could have imagined. Right in the middle of the worst of the worst craves, low and behold i get a text from KillinTheKodiak.... this site isnt a joke, i quit with all you quitters today.
What kind of fucked up shit is that? Your nicotine addicted brain telling you that you can't live with your own wife unless you're steadily feeding nicotine into your body and inching closer and closer to losing your face and dying. That is fucked up. But I know what you mean brother. I've thought the same thing. But, fuck that! We are better than that!
I quit with you today.
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keep busy come here and bitch do not get on your family...we are tuff enuff to take it....you did it not your family...my day 6 was your day 5 it sounds like, I came here and got a talking to by the vets. I am not a vet yet (odaat) let your wife know what is happening so that she can direct herself and kids away from you. you come here let us work on you.
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i have been reading and reading and reading.. I see many examples of why QUIT, and i agree with the reasons. Then i come across a guy 200 plus days in and he caved. Then 2 and 3 year quitters caved, even know a five year quitter that caved.
I am on only at day 6, and have a question? Does this crap in a can still control the brain after so long, does the urge ever go away. There were no urges before i started, i made myself start and im now making myself QUIT. I would like to think that i could return to my life before dip, no urges. Is it possible, or have we caused brain damage that is irreversable? I know im an addict and always will be, but i do have hope that one day i can say im not haunted by the whore in a can!!!!
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i have been reading and reading and reading.. I see many examples of why QUIT, and i agree with the reasons. Then i come across a guy 200 plus days in and he caved. Then 2 and 3 year quitters caved, even know a five year quitter that caved.
I am on only at day 6, and have a question? Does this crap in a can still control the brain after so long, does the urge ever go away. There were no urges before i started, i made myself start and im now making myself QUIT. I would like to think that i could return to my life before dip, no urges. Is it possible, or have we caused brain damage that is irreversable? I know im an addict and always will be, but i do have hope that one day i can say im not haunted by the whore in a can!!!!
Drock, if you look into a lot of these caves its because the folks never really did KTC our way. I 200 plus day quitter with 100 posts? Here, is what I know, I come in here every day, and I promise you, and I promise others 14,000 of them I wont use nicotine in any form today.
I post roll in like 10 different groups. I also, have a slew of phone numbers in case I need to re-affirm anything. I plan on continuing my promise every day to protect my quit. I am at day 97, could I make it a day and not cave yes, I am sure of it. But I would rather not tempt fate or the bitch.
Accountability is Key!!!
I quit with your bad ass today.
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i have been reading and reading and reading.. I see many examples of why QUIT, and i agree with the reasons. Then i come across a guy 200 plus days in and he caved. Then 2 and 3 year quitters caved, even know a five year quitter that caved.
I am on only at day 6, and have a question? Does this crap in a can still control the brain after so long, does the urge ever go away. There were no urges before i started, i made myself start and im now making myself QUIT. I would like to think that i could return to my life before dip, no urges. Is it possible, or have we caused brain damage that is irreversable? I know im an addict and always will be, but i do have hope that one day i can say im not haunted by the whore in a can!!!!
sorry man but your a addickt for life. so am i. sos evry buddy here. i got no buddy to blame but me. it doesnt go away for good. the good news is those cravins dont happin much any more. and when they do i can deal with um. and if i coodnt i got numbers. lots a numbers. but man i only hafta rememember days 3 and 4 what reely sucked. or afore day 1 when i dint evin control my own life. i cood drift off and may be cave or may be not. but it dont take me much time to post up roll and burn that brige for the day. i bet those guys with 200 days or 3 or 4 or 5 years prolly aint posted up in weeks or months. you dont read many storys a guys what posted roll with hof days and caved the next day. nope most a them drifted. i aint driftin yet.
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I was thinking about this very same thing when I was running today. Then I realized that we do this very same thing with everything in our lives. I can build up my conditioning to run a marathon in 100 days but as soon as I stop working on my running I start to slide back to a point where running a mile becomes hard.
You can quit, but to stay quit you have to work at it every single day. The 100 days are there to build a solid foundation a base if you will. It is up to you to maintain that foundation for the rest of your life by making the pledge to stay nicotine free every single day.
I quit with you today.
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Drock,
I have been watching your from the your first day here and you are doing it the right way... you post roll you chirp with your group you post on threads you have numbers...keep it up.
It is not unheard of to be fogged in still or partially in the suck. everyone is different how their body sheds toxins. And hell ya we fucked ourselves up we did a dance with the most addicting chemical in the world all for different reasons...well now that dance is over and we need eachother to beat this bitch.
stay strong brother I know you can do it you wouldnt have text me and asked why your name was gone from roll if you didnt care...dig bro dig
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Drock,
I have been watching your from the your first day here and you are doing it the right way... you post roll you chirp with your group you post on threads you have numbers...keep it up.
It is not unheard of to be fogged in still or partially in the suck. everyone is different how their body sheds toxins. And hell ya we fucked ourselves up we did a dance with the most addicting chemical in the world all for different reasons...well now that dance is over and we need eachother to beat this bitch.
stay strong brother I know you can do it you wouldnt have text me and asked why your name was gone from roll if you didnt care...dig bro dig
^^^^^ full quit Wood, right there!
Drock, keep it up.
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Erussell, gonna stay invested, these caves prove putting your toe in is not like jumping in! It's your quit drock, don't let these pussies caving scare you. You decide everyday if you will or won't put that shit in your body. Being invested insurers a sounder quit. Keep investing yourself learn what not to do from cavers! And as for the wanting to never think about it, well we already screwed that pooch, delimma if you use it you want off, if your quit you miss it. Best to miss using than wish you were quit since your gonna crave either road you take bro. I quit whith you man!
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Its depressing me, im sick of the fake, im sick of the jolly ranchers, im sick of the seeds, and im sick of the WHORE IN THE CAN.... so ive dtermined im just sick . I cut grass today without dip, first time i can ever remember. I thought about dip probably 70 % of the time. Its a mental illness for sure !! Im ok guys, im just venting . The WHORE is trying her best, im not giving in you piece of crap, slut, whore, turd in a can, sack of monkey dung, HOLY CRAP WHERE is THE TYLENOL.... distorted quote from my favorite Clarke W Griswold
crave has passed , good day quitters
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Drock,
I have been watching your from the your first day here and you are doing it the right way... you post roll you chirp with your group you post on threads you have numbers...keep it up.Â
It is not unheard of to be fogged in still or partially in the suck. everyone is different how their body sheds toxins. And hell ya we fucked ourselves up we did a dance with the most addicting chemical in the world all for different reasons...well now that dance is over and we need eachother to beat this bitch.
stay strong brother I know you can do it you wouldnt have text me and asked why your name was gone from roll if you didnt care...dig bro dig
^^^^^ full quit Wood, right there!
Drock, keep it up.
That's the fat man flow. ;)
I agree.... you're doing it the right way.
To answer your earlier question: You're an addict for life, but the urges do go away..... almost. It gets much, much easier, but that is problem. It's like a trap. That's why I'm still here. I've seen experienced quit brothers and sisters say "I've got this handled. I don't need to post roll anymore." when the path gets easier. We lost a strong quitter from our for exactly that reason. Call it letting the guard down, or call it getting cocky.
Bottom line: it gets MUCH easier, but always remain diligent.
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Its depressing me, im sick of the fake, im sick of the jolly ranchers, im sick of the seeds, and im sick of the WHORE IN THE CAN.... so ive dtermined im just sick . I cut grass today without dip, first time i can ever remember. I thought about dip probably 70 % of the time. Its a mental illness for sure !! Im ok guys, im just venting . The WHORE is trying her best, im not giving in you piece of crap, slut, whore, turd in a can, sack of monkey dung, HOLY CRAP WHERE is THE TYLENOL.... distorted quote from my favorite Clarke W Griswold
crave has passed , good day quitters
I love that scene. One of the best rants ever captured on film.
Here's a little good news for you: you've cleared that hurdle. The next time you mow, it'll be less dramatic. There will be no "...first time without...." for you to focus on. You'll only think about dip maybe 40% of the time. See how that works? Fight through this crap, and it gets easier.
Rant on, brother...... rant on.
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Its depressing me, im sick of the fake, im sick of the jolly ranchers, im sick of the seeds, and im sick of the WHORE IN THE CAN.... so ive dtermined im just sick . I cut grass today without dip, first time i can ever remember. I thought about dip probably 70 % of the time. Its a mental illness for sure !! Im ok guys, im just venting . The WHORE is trying her best, im not giving in you piece of crap, slut, whore, turd in a can, sack of monkey dung, HOLY CRAP WHERE is THE TYLENOL.... distorted quote from my favorite Clarke W Griswold
crave has passed , good day quitters
I love that scene. One of the best rants ever captured on film.
Here's a little good news for you: you've cleared that hurdle. The next time you mow, it'll be less dramatic. There will be no "...first time without...." for you to focus on. You'll only think about dip maybe 40% of the time. See how that works? Fight through this crap, and it gets easier.
Rant on, brother...... rant on.
Drock,, a couple words of advice. First one listen to radman. He knows what he's talking about.
I want to touch on something you wrote earlier in the day and i haven't had the time to make a comment on it, but it's been on my mind all day.
You talked about people caving with many days under their belt. You were wondering if the craves stay with you forever. How about this for an answer,, worry about today. Day 6 is the only day you can control. 200 is a number, 400 is a number, so on and so forth. When you get to those days you worry about them. It makes the quit a lot easier when you only worry about today.
Now for redneck wisdom. I don't know how you might feel about being a slave, but i hate it. I never want to be a slave to a weed again. SO,, I WILL NOT EVER TOUCH THE POISON AGAIN,,, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CRAVE. YEA, I HOPE THE CRAVES NEVER COME AGAIN. I'M ON DAY 110 SO IT WILL SUIT ME JUST FINE TO NEVER HAVE A CRAVE FROM 111 and SO ON, BUT IF I DO,, I WILL NOT CAVE. NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY REASON. I DON'T CARE HOW MUCH I CRAVE. I DON'T CARE HOW MANY FRIENDS I HAVE THAT ARE SLAVES. NOT ME, EVER!!! HOW ABOUT YOU JOIN ME IN THIS DICISION. IT IS SO ENLIGHTENING. I quit with you brother.
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Its depressing me, im sick of the fake, im sick of the jolly ranchers, im sick of the seeds, and im sick of the WHORE IN THE CAN.... so ive dtermined im just sick . I cut grass today without dip, first time i can ever remember. I thought about dip probably 70 % of the time. Its a mental illness for sure !! Im ok guys, im just venting . The WHORE is trying her best, im not giving in you piece of crap, slut, whore, turd in a can, sack of monkey dung, HOLY CRAP WHERE is THE TYLENOL.... distorted quote from my favorite Clarke W Griswold
crave has passed , good day quitters
I love that scene. One of the best rants ever captured on film.
Here's a little good news for you: you've cleared that hurdle. The next time you mow, it'll be less dramatic. There will be no "...first time without...." for you to focus on. You'll only think about dip maybe 40% of the time. See how that works? Fight through this crap, and it gets easier.
Rant on, brother...... rant on.
Drock,, a couple words of advice. First one listen to radman. He knows what he's talking about.
I want to touch on something you wrote earlier in the day and i haven't had the time to make a comment on it, but it's been on my mind all day.
You talked about people caving with many days under their belt. You were wondering if the craves stay with you forever. How about this for an answer,, worry about today. Day 6 is the only day you can control. 200 is a number, 400 is a number, so on and so forth. When you get to those days you worry about them. It makes the quit a lot easier when you only worry about today.
Now for redneck wisdom. I don't know how you might feel about being a slave, but i hate it. I never want to be a slave to a weed again. SO,, I WILL NOT EVER TOUCH THE POISON AGAIN,,, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CRAVE. YEA, I HOPE THE CRAVES NEVER COME AGAIN. I'M ON DAY 110 SO IT WILL SUIT ME JUST FINE TO NEVER HAVE A CRAVE FROM 111 and SO ON, BUT IF I DO,, I WILL NOT CAVE. NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY REASON. I DON'T CARE HOW MUCH I CRAVE. I DON'T CARE HOW MANY FRIENDS I HAVE THAT ARE SLAVES. NOT ME, EVER!!! HOW ABOUT YOU JOIN ME IN THIS DICISION. IT IS SO ENLIGHTENING. I quit with you brother.
srans, your right. today is all i have to quit, and i choose to quit today. I plan quitting again in the morning. I was just asking, did these guys cave because they never got passed the funk . I can quit today, i dont want to feel like this five years from now, but i guess hats better than the alternative of no face.
I ve been reading alot, and many stories of cancer. im thankful for all these quitters, and i appreciate your comments and i look forward to quitting one day at a time
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Its depressing me, im sick of the fake, im sick of the jolly ranchers, im sick of the seeds, and im sick of the WHORE IN THE CAN.... so ive dtermined im just sick . I cut grass today without dip, first time i can ever remember. I thought about dip probably 70 % of the time. Its a mental illness for sure !! Im ok guys, im just venting . The WHORE is trying her best, im not giving in you piece of crap, slut, whore, turd in a can, sack of monkey dung, HOLY CRAP WHERE is THE TYLENOL.... distorted quote from my favorite Clarke W Griswold
crave has passed , good day quitters
I love that scene. One of the best rants ever captured on film.
Here's a little good news for you: you've cleared that hurdle. The next time you mow, it'll be less dramatic. There will be no "...first time without...." for you to focus on. You'll only think about dip maybe 40% of the time. See how that works? Fight through this crap, and it gets easier.
Rant on, brother...... rant on.
Drock,, a couple words of advice. First one listen to radman. He knows what he's talking about.
I want to touch on something you wrote earlier in the day and i haven't had the time to make a comment on it, but it's been on my mind all day.
You talked about people caving with many days under their belt. You were wondering if the craves stay with you forever. How about this for an answer,, worry about today. Day 6 is the only day you can control. 200 is a number, 400 is a number, so on and so forth. When you get to those days you worry about them. It makes the quit a lot easier when you only worry about today.
Now for redneck wisdom. I don't know how you might feel about being a slave, but i hate it. I never want to be a slave to a weed again. SO,, I WILL NOT EVER TOUCH THE POISON AGAIN,,, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CRAVE. YEA, I HOPE THE CRAVES NEVER COME AGAIN. I'M ON DAY 110 SO IT WILL SUIT ME JUST FINE TO NEVER HAVE A CRAVE FROM 111 and SO ON, BUT IF I DO,, I WILL NOT CAVE. NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY REASON. I DON'T CARE HOW MUCH I CRAVE. I DON'T CARE HOW MANY FRIENDS I HAVE THAT ARE SLAVES. NOT ME, EVER!!! HOW ABOUT YOU JOIN ME IN THIS DICISION. IT IS SO ENLIGHTENING. I quit with you brother.
srans, your right. today is all i have to quit, and i choose to quit today. I plan quitting again in the morning. I was just asking, did these guys cave because they never got passed the funk . I can quit today, i dont want to feel like this five years from now, but i guess hats better than the alternative of no face.
I ve been reading alot, and many stories of cancer. im thankful for all these quitters, and i appreciate your comments and i look forward to quitting one day at a time
Drock7,
1. you are receiving excellent advice here from some very smart quitters.
2. Trust me, trust me, trust me you will not feel like this 5 years from now. I thought the same thing. I didnt want to use, I just wanted to feel normal. This will pass man I promise. And it wont take 5 years, I am just over 150 days and I dont need dip for anything. And either do you. 1-2 tins/day for almost 25 years. I couldnt even take a shit without dip for weeks.
3. You mentioned losing your face. Well that is great motivation to quit. And we have good reason to FEAR the effects of dip. But there are so many more reasons to quit also. No one should have to go through life with their behavior being dictated by a can of shit.
You have a great quit going man, keep it the good one. I am damn proud of you.
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Its depressing me, im sick of the fake, im sick of the jolly ranchers, im sick of the seeds, and im sick of the WHORE IN THE CAN.... so ive dtermined im just sick . I cut grass today without dip, first time i can ever remember. I thought about dip probably 70 % of the time. Its a mental illness for sure !! Im ok guys, im just venting . The WHORE is trying her best, im not giving in you piece of crap, slut, whore, turd in a can, sack of monkey dung, HOLY CRAP WHERE is THE TYLENOL.... distorted quote from my favorite Clarke W Griswold
crave has passed , good day quitters
I love that scene. One of the best rants ever captured on film.
Here's a little good news for you: you've cleared that hurdle. The next time you mow, it'll be less dramatic. There will be no "...first time without...." for you to focus on. You'll only think about dip maybe 40% of the time. See how that works? Fight through this crap, and it gets easier.
Rant on, brother...... rant on.
Drock,, a couple words of advice. First one listen to radman. He knows what he's talking about.
I want to touch on something you wrote earlier in the day and i haven't had the time to make a comment on it, but it's been on my mind all day.
You talked about people caving with many days under their belt. You were wondering if the craves stay with you forever. How about this for an answer,, worry about today. Day 6 is the only day you can control. 200 is a number, 400 is a number, so on and so forth. When you get to those days you worry about them. It makes the quit a lot easier when you only worry about today.
Now for redneck wisdom. I don't know how you might feel about being a slave, but i hate it. I never want to be a slave to a weed again. SO,, I WILL NOT EVER TOUCH THE POISON AGAIN,,, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CRAVE. YEA, I HOPE THE CRAVES NEVER COME AGAIN. I'M ON DAY 110 SO IT WILL SUIT ME JUST FINE TO NEVER HAVE A CRAVE FROM 111 and SO ON, BUT IF I DO,, I WILL NOT CAVE. NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY REASON. I DON'T CARE HOW MUCH I CRAVE. I DON'T CARE HOW MANY FRIENDS I HAVE THAT ARE SLAVES. NOT ME, EVER!!! HOW ABOUT YOU JOIN ME IN THIS DICISION. IT IS SO ENLIGHTENING. I quit with you brother.
srans, your right. today is all i have to quit, and i choose to quit today. I plan quitting again in the morning. I was just asking, did these guys cave because they never got passed the funk . I can quit today, i dont want to feel like this five years from now, but i guess hats better than the alternative of no face.
I ve been reading alot, and many stories of cancer. im thankful for all these quitters, and i appreciate your comments and i look forward to quitting one day at a time
Drock7,
1. you are receiving excellent advice here from some very smart quitters.
2. Trust me, trust me, trust me you will not feel like this 5 years from now. I thought the same thing. I didnt want to use, I just wanted to feel normal. This will pass man I promise. And it wont take 5 years, I am just over 150 days and I dont need dip for anything. And either do you. 1-2 tins/day for almost 25 years. I couldnt even take a shit without dip for weeks.
3. You mentioned losing your face. Well that is great motivation to quit. And we have good reason to FEAR the effects of dip. But there are so many more reasons to quit also. No one should have to go through life with their behavior being dictated by a can of shit.
You have a great quit going man, keep it the good one. I am damn proud of you.
One day at a time, good stuff guys. To answer the question about never getting over the funk, read this. (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp) It's pretty good and shows that you've got an upswing that'll be here before you know it. Just remember when you feel on top of the world that there is another downturn around the corner. You aren't done just because you feel great after a few weeks! Hope that helps. Even better - one day at a time. Don't worry about how someone else felt on day 223, worry about how your quit is going right now.
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Its depressing me, im sick of the fake, im sick of the jolly ranchers, im sick of the seeds, and im sick of the WHORE IN THE CAN.... so ive dtermined im just sick . I cut grass today without dip, first time i can ever remember. I thought about dip probably 70 % of the time. Its a mental illness for sure !! Im ok guys, im just venting . The WHORE is trying her best, im not giving in you piece of crap, slut, whore, turd in a can, sack of monkey dung, HOLY CRAP WHERE is THE TYLENOL.... distorted quote from my favorite Clarke W Griswold
crave has passed , good day quitters
THIS is addiction at it's finest. Isn't this fucked up? That something has this much control over our lives that we act and think like this? Damn. I've told my wife several times that this addiction, is stupid, stupid, stupid. It's just stupid. We drive ourselves crazy over a goddamn chemical. We kill ourselves over a goddamn chemical. Fuck that. I'm not going to do it. Every day I'm quit is another day of freedom from my life being run by a fucking chemical.
You are rocking it drock! Keep up the quit. I quit with you today.
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Today I took my 9 yr old and 6 yr old boys and my 2 yr old daughter to the pond for a morning of fishing. Thats right, all three, in no time i had worms crawling loose on the golf cart, one fish hanging with a swallowed hook, and my other son tangled up like pube hairs playing twister... I knew before i left the house this would be a huge step. I just spit some seeds and munched a few jolly ranchers, wow what a morning. Ended up the rascals caught 34 and we cooked 14 for lunch. It was 20 years ago when i last cleaned fish without a cat turd in the lip... Im feeling great on DAY 7... I QUIT and my kids are digging it too
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Today I took my 9 yr old and 6 yr old boys and my 2 yr old daughter to the pond for a morning of fishing. Thats right, all three, in no time i had worms crawling loose on the golf cart, one fish hanging with a swallowed hook, and my other son tangled up like pube hairs playing twister... I knew before i left the house this would be a huge step. I just spit some seeds and munched a few jolly ranchers, wow what a morning. Ended up the rascals caught 34 and we cooked 14 for lunch. It was 20 years ago when i last cleaned fish without a cat turd in the lip... Im feeling great on DAY 7... I QUIT and my kids are digging it too
and drock it was most likely all the sweeter now that you are free. you got to spend that quality time without any pauses.
a huge victory for you....just remember this day
Quit on
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Today I took my 9 yr old and 6 yr old boys and my 2 yr old daughter to the pond for a morning of fishing. Thats right, all three, in no time i had worms crawling loose on the golf cart, one fish hanging with a swallowed hook, and my other son tangled up like pube hairs playing twister... I knew before i left the house this would be a huge step. I just spit some seeds and munched a few jolly ranchers, wow what a morning. Ended up the rascals caught 34 and we cooked 14 for lunch. It was 20 years ago when i last cleaned fish without a cat turd in the lip... Im feeling great on DAY 7... I QUIT and my kids are digging it too
and drock it was most likely all the sweeter now that you are free. you got to spend that quality time without any pauses.
a huge victory for you....just remember this day
Quit on
You will start to uncover all the lies the poison has been telling you. It use to tell you it was impossible to enjoy life without it. You just proved that lie wrong. I quit with you brother.
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Man Drock that's impressive difference from your post 6/4 and 6/5. Thanks for the post it gives a lot of encouragement just reading it.
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Awesome Drock now you can focus on them without worry about the NIC bitch stealing your thoughts....
so how did you handle the lines all full of assholes...my first time fishing with out dip my line jumped off my real and I had more assholes in it then I could count..
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Awesome Drock now you can focus on them without worry about the NIC bitch stealing your thoughts....
so how did you handle the lines all full of assholes...my first time fishing with out dip my line jumped off my real and I had more assholes in it then I could count..
i did give it the ol college try, but ended up cutting the line off and starting fresh. He really messed it up good. They had a blast though
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Awesome Drock now you can focus on them without worry about the NIC bitch stealing your thoughts....
so how did you handle the lines all full of assholes...my first time fishing with out dip my line jumped off my real and I had more assholes in it then I could count..
i did give it the ol college try, but ended up cutting the line off and starting fresh. He really messed it up good. They had a blast though
All that matters man, and think of the example you are setting by quitting now. My 8 year old knows about my quit, and knows about my "quitter site". He even told mom that she needed a quitter group for Candy Crush ( 'crackup' ).
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OK, just killed a crave while making homemade pies
Think I will name it crave cake, or cream cheese no cave
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OK, just killed a crave while making homemade porn...
Think I will name it No NICoTEENS, or New Cans 'arse' SUCK
You are making homemade porn with teenagers?
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It was just a nic. joke, next thing i know the feds will be knocking on the door...
be sure to let them know it was a joke if they ask you first
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It was just a nic. joke, next thing i know the feds will be knocking on the door...
be sure to let them know it was a joke if they ask you first
Big brother is just :ph43r: under the guise of national security
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It was just a nic. joke, next thing i know the feds will be knocking on the door...
be sure to let them know it was a joke if they ask you first
Big brother is just :ph43r: under the guise of national security
BREAKING: The NSA and FBI have direct access to the KTC servers. They'll be collecting data over the next 90 days in order to determine the exact whereabouts of the Lindbergh baby.
But anyway, back to this "teen porn" you speak of. Where can I find some? I've been on the Internet for days now, and so far I've found nothin'.
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It was just a nic. joke, next thing i know the feds will be knocking on the door...
be sure to let them know it was a joke if they ask you first
Big brother is just :ph43r: under the guise of national security
BREAKING: The NSA and FBI have direct access to the KTC servers. They'll be collecting data over the next 90 days in order to determine the exact whereabouts of the Lindbergh baby.
But anyway, back to this "teen porn" you speak of. Where can I find some? I've been on the Internet for days now, and so far I've found nothin'.
By "teen", I'm specifically referring to consenting 19 year olds not from states or countries outlawing such things, and for the express purpose of scholarly research.
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Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me. I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. The hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
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Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me. I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. The hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.
And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
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Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me. I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. The hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.
And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
just speaking for me cause i have heard this alot on this site, but i never hid anything from anybody. I dipped openly in front of any and every one. Not bragging about that aspect, but i didnt take time away from family to dip. I did however set bad examples for my children. They always asking whats that in your mouth, and i want some of that. Also, i do agree with some of your points. Like leaving home at 10 30 or 11 at nite, driving 10 miles round trip to get a 3 dollar can of crap. The days it got turned over in the house, truck,car, condo at the beach, hotels provided by work... it happened in all of them. How disgusted i am of myself. I even spit tobacco on someone by accident, but still thats very offensive. If the table was turned i probably would have errupted. to be continued....
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Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me. I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. The hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.
And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
just speaking for me cause i have heard this alot on this site, but i never hid anything from anybody. I dipped openly in front of any and every one. Not bragging about that aspect, but i didnt take time away from family to dip. I did however set bad examples for my children. They always asking whats that in your mouth, and i want some of that. Also, i do agree with some of your points. Like leaving home at 10 30 or 11 at nite, driving 10 miles round trip to get a 3 dollar can of crap. The days it got turned over in the house, truck,car, condo at the beach, hotels provided by work... it happened in all of them. How disgusted i am of myself. I even spit tobacco on someone by accident, but still thats very offensive. If the table was turned i probably would have errupted. to be continued....
my kids even drank from spit cans, cups, bottles...just insanity..
I even remember sore gums once or twice , wait for it , wait for it,... yep... thats
right so sore i dipped in the upper lip. carrying a spit cup in the theater, wedding once, funeral once or twice, the list goes on. Idiot was , thats right was my middle name.
Looks and sounds like a good example of one extreme to the other, good ole fashion basket case. I remain quit today, and have enjoyed this rant rave cry session what ever you want to call it. It was quite releasing.
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Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me. I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. The hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.
And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
just speaking for me cause i have heard this alot on this site, but i never hid anything from anybody. I dipped openly in front of any and every one. Not bragging about that aspect, but i didnt take time away from family to dip. I did however set bad examples for my children. They always asking whats that in your mouth, and i want some of that. Also, i do agree with some of your points. Like leaving home at 10 30 or 11 at nite, driving 10 miles round trip to get a 3 dollar can of crap. The days it got turned over in the house, truck,car, condo at the beach, hotels provided by work... it happened in all of them. How disgusted i am of myself. I even spit tobacco on someone by accident, but still thats very offensive. If the table was turned i probably would have errupted. to be continued....
my kids even drank from spit cans, cups, bottles...just insanity..
I even remember sore gums once or twice , wait for it , wait for it,... yep... thats
right so sore i dipped in the upper lip. carrying a spit cup in the theater, wedding once, funeral once or twice, the list goes on. Idiot was , thats right was my middle name.
Looks and sounds like a good example of one extreme to the other, good ole fashion basket case. I remain quit today, and have enjoyed this rant rave cry session what ever you want to call it. It was quite releasing.
Hey, we all need to rant and rave and cry. I've done almost everything you've listed, too. When that thought creeps into our heads; that dipping was great or whatever, we just have to "focus on the negative."
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Well just doing some observations as im going through day 10. I see that the site works, its manageable to quit for today. It can be done, however it sucks to the highest degree. The thoughts linger all day long of how good it was, and yes it was good. Maybe not good for me but good to me. I was much happier dipping. I am not going to cave today, im just telling the truth of how i feel. I am glad that i have the discipline to quit day by day. The more i log on and read at times has a negative effect, its a reminder . The fake crap is a reminder, the seeds have my mouth screwed up worse than dipping ever did, and the jolly ranchers without a doubt will either rot my teeth out or break them from the constant gnawing. Well as i have seen before, it is what it is. The hope i have in the whole process is to be an example for non dippers and the younger generation. I cant change the fact i screwed my mind up with the drug, but i can and will tell others to never use this crap. Not even once, you will be screwed until your last day.
Drock-As a fellow September slut, I agree with a lot of what you're saying. Dipping was something we all loved to do. If not, we wouldn't be here. I also agree that lots of things are reminders. I consider this site, the fake shit, talking about it with family or friends just a reminder of the fact that I have to be very vigilant and not fuck up.
And every time I feel myself thinking the old "damn, dipping was great" thing, I remind myself that when I was dipping I was constantly worried. Worried about whether I had enough or had to go out to the gas station again, worried about if it was in my teeth or on my shirt or hands, worried about who might find out, worried about when I'd have some time alone away from loved ones so I could dip, worried about CANCER (not that we're out of the woods, but we're certainly done contributing to it), and not mention worried about when I'd finally quit. I worried about every single one of those things every single day I was dipping. FUCK all that worry...and fuck dip! Not worth it. That's what I tell myself when that thought creeps in.
just speaking for me cause i have heard this alot on this site, but i never hid anything from anybody. I dipped openly in front of any and every one. Not bragging about that aspect, but i didnt take time away from family to dip. I did however set bad examples for my children. They always asking whats that in your mouth, and i want some of that. Also, i do agree with some of your points. Like leaving home at 10 30 or 11 at nite, driving 10 miles round trip to get a 3 dollar can of crap. The days it got turned over in the house, truck,car, condo at the beach, hotels provided by work... it happened in all of them. How disgusted i am of myself. I even spit tobacco on someone by accident, but still thats very offensive. If the table was turned i probably would have errupted. to be continued....
my kids even drank from spit cans, cups, bottles...just insanity..
I even remember sore gums once or twice , wait for it , wait for it,... yep... thats
right so sore i dipped in the upper lip. carrying a spit cup in the theater, wedding once, funeral once or twice, the list goes on. Idiot was , thats right was my middle name.
Looks and sounds like a good example of one extreme to the other, good ole fashion basket case. I remain quit today, and have enjoyed this rant rave cry session what ever you want to call it. It was quite releasing.
Hey, we all need to rant and rave and cry. I've done almost everything you've listed, too. When that thought creeps into our heads; that dipping was great or whatever, we just have to "focus on the negative."
Brother, this poison was a big part of our lives for a long time and it takes some time to get past the ceremony of dipping. Don't confuse ceremony with happiness and don't confuse comfort for goodness. Friend, quitting doesn't suck to the highest degree, dying does. Leaving your wife and kids with your final thought during your last breath being that you picked a weed over them (seems to me) would suck to the highest degree. Your addict mind is playing games, make no mistake. There is nothing, no part of your life that wasn't adversely effected by this weed. Conversely, you'll soon see the positive effects on your mouth, your health, your wallet and the relationship with your family as you become the person they deserve.
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Read last night on the net, that oral cancer has a 10 year incubation period. Im a bit confused. I know of several stories where guys dipping have found out after 3 to 4 years after starting dipping. One even started dip and got cancer and died before 6 years. I know we all are different, just curious about this ten years thing. Any input you have on this , feel free to add.
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Read last night on the net, that oral cancer has a 10 year incubation period. Im a bit confused. I know of several stories where guys dipping have found out after 3 to 4 years after starting dipping. One even started dip and got cancer and died before 6 years. I know we all are different, just curious about this ten years thing. Any input you have on this , feel free to add.
Good job on your quit drock. Yea,, there is a lot of good information out there. There is also a lot of bad information out there. This is the FACT about cancer,, make no mistake. Me and you have dipped for years. We are very fortunate not to have died from it yet. Quitting dipping will not secure our future cancer free. I've read that it will take 15 years before our chances diminish to that of a non dipper. Yep, 15 years from now we could still get lung cancer, jaw cancer, mouth cancer,, or 100 other cancers out there. We cannot know for certain. It also cannot be guaranteed we will not get cancer after that.
The truth is we can not guarantee a life cancer free, but in saying that. Isn't it worth it to diminish the chances even it's by 1%. This is not to mention the freedom you will have poison free.
Take a good look at yourself right now drock. You are worried about cancer. Each day you think about the poison most of the day. I know this because I once had a day 12. Your first thought in the morning is of a filthy, disgusting weed that you even brought inside and shared with your family.. I also brought it in my house and shared it with my family. Think about how sad that it!! Your first thought in the morning is of this filthy disgusting weed. Don't tell me it's not,, remember I'm a addict also.
Let me tell you what your last thought should be before you go to bed. Your loved ones, not a weed. Your first thought in the morning should be of your loved ones, not a weed. The weed has no place in our homes, cars, back pockets, garbage can,yea i said garbage can. I don't even want it in my garbage. This is my house not the poisons. I know this has been long, but I get this way sometimes. I HATE the poison. It has stolen so much from me. I quit with you today.
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Read last night on the net, that oral cancer has a 10 year incubation period. Im a bit confused. I know of several stories where guys dipping have found out after 3 to 4 years after starting dipping. One even started dip and got cancer and died before 6 years. I know we all are different, just curious about this ten years thing. Any input you have on this , feel free to add.
Good job on your quit drock. Yea,, there is a lot of good information out there. There is also a lot of bad information out there. This is the FACT about cancer,, make no mistake. Me and you have dipped for years. We are very fortunate not to have died from it yet. Quitting dipping will not secure our future cancer free. I've read that it will take 15 years before our chances diminish to that of a non dipper. Yep, 15 years from now we could still get lung cancer, jaw cancer, mouth cancer,, or 100 other cancers out there. We cannot know for certain. It also cannot be guaranteed we will not get cancer after that.
The truth is we can not guarantee a life cancer free, but in saying that. Isn't it worth it to diminish the chances even it's by 1%. This is not to mention the freedom you will have poison free.
Take a good look at yourself right now drock. You are worried about cancer. Each day you think about the poison most of the day. I know this because I once had a day 12. Your first thought in the morning is of a filthy, disgusting weed that you even brought inside and shared with your family.. I also brought it in my house and shared it with my family. Think about how sad that it!! Your first thought in the morning is of this filthy disgusting weed. Don't tell me it's not,, remember I'm a addict also.
Let me tell you what your last thought should be before you go to bed. Your loved ones, not a weed. Your first thought in the morning should be of your loved ones, not a weed. The weed has no place in our homes, cars, back pockets, garbage can,yea i said garbage can. I don't even want it in my garbage. This is my house not the poisons. I know this has been long, but I get this way sometimes. I HATE the poison. It has stolen so much from me. I quit with you today.
srans,
i agree totally. we may even get cancer unrelated to dipping but its not an excuse to keep dipping. My grandmother(mom side) dipped for 70 years, died at age 80 never had cancer. I always told myself if i could live to be 80 and died even with cancer of the mouth that i would be satisfied. I look at that now and see how stupid it was to say. I know im going to die, just dont know when. However, i dont have to die with the poison controlling my life. Just as information, i have two great uncles(dad side) thats fate was not as good as my grandmother. They did live to a ripe old age of about 74-76 range. One died from chewing tobacco related mouth cancer. Died one year after major surgery to remove parts of his jaw and tongue. Couldnt speak, just mumbled as if we knew what he was saying. His brother smoked, and died within 3 months of him while struggling with lung cancer. Too top this off, their sister ,(my grandmother) is 100 years old and never smoked or dipped. Its not to say that they would have made it to a 100, but im sure she wouldnt have made it this far. She is in great shape to be a 100. I wanted to write about this as a reminder to me of the damaging effects the poison has had on my family. The fear has been a concern and is a big part of my Quit. The biggest impact has been my family, wife and children. I remain Quit today with all of you quitters.
Times get rough and the nic whore attacks, but its worth it today and I know it will be again tomorrow.
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Read last night on the net, that oral cancer has a 10 year incubation period. Im a bit confused. I know of several stories where guys dipping have found out after 3 to 4 years after starting dipping. One even started dip and got cancer and died before 6 years. I know we all are different, just curious about this ten years thing. Any input you have on this , feel free to add.
Good job on your quit drock. Yea,, there is a lot of good information out there. There is also a lot of bad information out there. This is the FACT about cancer,, make no mistake. Me and you have dipped for years. We are very fortunate not to have died from it yet. Quitting dipping will not secure our future cancer free. I've read that it will take 15 years before our chances diminish to that of a non dipper. Yep, 15 years from now we could still get lung cancer, jaw cancer, mouth cancer,, or 100 other cancers out there. We cannot know for certain. It also cannot be guaranteed we will not get cancer after that.
The truth is we can not guarantee a life cancer free, but in saying that. Isn't it worth it to diminish the chances even it's by 1%. This is not to mention the freedom you will have poison free.
Take a good look at yourself right now drock. You are worried about cancer. Each day you think about the poison most of the day. I know this because I once had a day 12. Your first thought in the morning is of a filthy, disgusting weed that you even brought inside and shared with your family.. I also brought it in my house and shared it with my family. Think about how sad that it!! Your first thought in the morning is of this filthy disgusting weed. Don't tell me it's not,, remember I'm a addict also.
Let me tell you what your last thought should be before you go to bed. Your loved ones, not a weed. Your first thought in the morning should be of your loved ones, not a weed. The weed has no place in our homes, cars, back pockets, garbage can,yea i said garbage can. I don't even want it in my garbage. This is my house not the poisons. I know this has been long, but I get this way sometimes. I HATE the poison. It has stolen so much from me. I quit with you today.
srans,
i agree totally. we may even get cancer unrelated to dipping but its not an excuse to keep dipping. My grandmother(mom side) dipped for 70 years, died at age 80 never had cancer. I always told myself if i could live to be 80 and died even with cancer of the mouth that i would be satisfied. I look at that now and see how stupid it was to say. I know im going to die, just dont know when. However, i dont have to die with the poison controlling my life. Just as information, i have two great uncles(dad side) thats fate was not as good as my grandmother. They did live to a ripe old age of about 74-76 range. One died from chewing tobacco related mouth cancer. Died one year after major surgery to remove parts of his jaw and tongue. Couldnt speak, just mumbled as if we knew what he was saying. His brother smoked, and died within 3 months of him while struggling with lung cancer. Too top this off, their sister ,(my grandmother) is 100 years old and never smoked or dipped. Its not to say that they would have made it to a 100, but im sure she wouldnt have made it this far. She is in great shape to be a 100. I wanted to write about this as a reminder to me of the damaging effects the poison has had on my family. The fear has been a concern and is a big part of my Quit. The biggest impact has been my family, wife and children. I remain Quit today with all of you quitters.
Times get rough and the nic whore attacks, but its worth it today and I know it will be again tomorrow.
Good post drock. One of the reasons I finally jumped in the quit pool was my mother and law. Her and another member of our church died of lung cancer last year. What an awful way to die. My mother in law had quit for a few years before the cancer took hold, but the damage was done.
My sisters, mother and father all smoke. MY dad is 65 and a chain smoker. He already has been diagnosed with emphysema and has heart problems. I don't know how much time I have left with him. My guess is each day is a blessing because each day he takes more and more days away from his life. Nothing can be done at this point,,, the damage is done and a life a slavery he has chosen.. There is hope for my sisters, in which they will get tired of me, because I will try to set them straight. Your quit is inspiring me brother,, I quit with you today.
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I was looking ahead today, thinking about college football. I really enjoy the season as much as a person can. Bam !!, out of no where it hit me and i just laughed at myself. If you have ever done what im about to post let me know.
I actually have been watching the game , whether on tv or there in person and felt as if i could change the outcome. Let me explain ! My Dawgs would be going into the fourth quarter, and my stupid self would say " lets put a big fresh lump of cat crap in my mouth and get this game turned around" . It could be 2 minute drill and game on the line, I would say let me get us a dip and bring these boys some luck. I got to get a dip so we can hold them on this huge fourth down play.I have many examples of how this stupid crap made me act , just thought i would share this one today. The makers of this poison really know how to screw your mind up.
I never realized how childish i was acting.... This year i can root for my Dawgs while spitting some seeds or possibly Smokey mtn if im still using the fake. Happy quitting !!
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today was a tough one, i knew i could do it, but it was really tough. I just got home and decided to read the Kern story again. Ive read it a number of times already. I decided this time to click the caringbridge link. A gorgeous family, having to live without their father. My addiction does affect others . I struggle each day and its not easy to say the least. I have only one choice, I QUIT today,
and when i wake GOD willing, Im QUITTING again tomorrow.
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today was a tough one, i knew i could do it, but it was really tough. I just got home and decided to read the Kern story again. Ive read it a number of times already. I decided this time to click the caringbridge link. A gorgeous family, having to live without their father. My addiction does affect others . I struggle each day and its not easy to say the least. I have only one choice, I QUIT today,
and when i wake GOD willing, Im QUITTING again tomorrow.
You got this Drock. I know you can't tell "tone" on the web, but I have this whole "jedi" feel about you. I know you got this. I know you're going to be an angry young vet when the time comes. But I also know you'll be here tomorrow, taking it one day at a time.
I'll be proud to be quit with you every day that you're quit, Drock - and that will last until we're both in the grave.
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today was a tough one, i knew i could do it, but it was really tough. I just got home and decided to read the Kern story again. Ive read it a number of times already. I decided this time to click the caringbridge link. A gorgeous family, having to live without their father. My addiction does affect others . I struggle each day and its not easy to say the least. I have only one choice, I QUIT today,
and when i wake GOD willing, Im QUITTING again tomorrow.
Drock, congrats on your quit! I quit back in January and I can tell you the quit past 100 days is sweet and you'll be here before you know it. Read your thread here tonight and I have two thoughts for you:
1. The worst craves only last three minutes. Most are much shorter. You can stand anything for less than three minutes!
2. How sweet was it to "live in the moment" with your kids fishing? Not thinking about dip, just truly enjoying the experience.
I hope these help or at least give you some food for thought. I quit with you today!
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today was another tough one, the evenings as the sun goes down really hit me hard. Ive got to quit thinking about this crap. I want to quit and move on... This reminds me of a divorced couple with children. You never really get rid of the spouse , you just dont have to see them all day everday. I think Srans has giving me good advice... I somehow have to figure out how to hate the thing i loved. The more i think about the pain and torture im enduring the more im losing that love and feeling. This evening was a grind not to cave, im so grateful that ive calmed down and back in control.
As a side note , my coworker dippped all around me today, offered me one and i said just let me smell it. It smelled good and my mouth watered but i didnt cave. I admitted to him i was an addict and really woud like one but I choose to QUIT. So my goal going into this third week is to learn to hate what i loved. I need to hate it,want to hate it, shall hate it, pray to hate it.
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today was another tough one, the evenings as the sun goes down really hit me hard. Ive got to quit thinking about this crap. I want to quit and move on... This reminds me of a divorced couple with children. You never really get rid of the spouse , you just dont have to see them all day everday. I think Srans has giving me good advice... I somehow have to figure out how to hate the thing i loved. The more i think about the pain and torture im enduring the more im losing that love and feeling. This evening was a grind not to cave, im so grateful that ive calmed down and back in control.
As a side note , my coworker dippped all around me today, offered me one and i said just let me smell it. It smelled good and my mouth watered but i didnt cave. I admitted to him i was an addict and really woud like one but I choose to QUIT. So my goal going into this third week is to learn to hate what i loved. I need to hate it,want to hate it, shall hate it, pray to hate it.
Wow. Your post brings me back...... to me. I think I should share this with you. You just made my quit stronger. Yes, you should hate the nic bitch. She is evil....
Here is what I wrote once upon a day...
3 weeks into my quit I joined KTC. Remember how pissed you were? When I posted roll you knew this was a game changer. I was playing to win. I now had access to knowledge. I had access to a plan. I had access to support. I was greeted immediately by Ready, Greg, Mike A, and Banner. Oh, I remember. You threw a big fit. You gave me rage, cravings, fatigue, the fog, stupors, headaches and sore throats.
As time passed I began to realize you were the devil. I realized that something that makes you feel so bad when you refrain from using it canÂ’t be all that good. I began to hate you. I mean really really hate you. No more reminiscing of the old times. No nostalgia. So, of course, you threw a big fit. You gave me depression, the blahs and the blues.
This meant war. Game on. I now had a purpose. I was not satisfied just to dump you. I wanted to wreck every other relationship you had. Every relationship. I would wait for new quitters on the boards. I took great pride in pointing out your lies. I enjoyed destroying your grip on others. That is how I met folks like Corn, Miles, Peace, Rocket, Dante, LLCope, Tazz, Luby and Poker just to name a few.
I am here for ya. Yes, hate the bitch. She stole your soul.
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today was another tough one, the evenings as the sun goes down really hit me hard. Ive got to quit thinking about this crap. I want to quit and move on... This reminds me of a divorced couple with children. You never really get rid of the spouse , you just dont have to see them all day everday. I think Srans has giving me good advice... I somehow have to figure out how to hate the thing i loved. The more i think about the pain and torture im enduring the more im losing that love and feeling. This evening was a grind not to cave, im so grateful that ive calmed down and back in control.
As a side note , my coworker dippped all around me today, offered me one and i said just let me smell it. It smelled good and my mouth watered but i didnt cave. I admitted to him i was an addict and really woud like one but I choose to QUIT. So my goal going into this third week is to learn to hate what i loved. I need to hate it,want to hate it, shall hate it, pray to hate it.
Wow. Your post brings me back...... to me. I think I should share this with you. You just made my quit stronger. Yes, you should hate the nic bitch. She is evil....
Here is what I wrote once upon a day...
3 weeks into my quit I joined KTC. Remember how pissed you were? When I posted roll you knew this was a game changer. I was playing to win. I now had access to knowledge. I had access to a plan. I had access to support. I was greeted immediately by Ready, Greg, Mike A, and Banner. Oh, I remember. You threw a big fit. You gave me rage, cravings, fatigue, the fog, stupors, headaches and sore throats.
As time passed I began to realize you were the devil. I realized that something that makes you feel so bad when you refrain from using it canÂ’t be all that good. I began to hate you. I mean really really hate you. No more reminiscing of the old times. No nostalgia. So, of course, you threw a big fit. You gave me depression, the blahs and the blues.
This meant war. Game on. I now had a purpose. I was not satisfied just to dump you. I wanted to wreck every other relationship you had. Every relationship. I would wait for new quitters on the boards. I took great pride in pointing out your lies. I enjoyed destroying your grip on others. That is how I met folks like Corn, Miles, Peace, Rocket, Dante, LLCope, Tazz, Luby and Poker just to name a few.
I am here for ya. Yes, hate the bitch. She stole your soul.
Good job drock.. Just know man that the days will get easier. I know it's one thing to say you hate the poison but it's another to reeeeaally hate it. It takes time!! You just have to keep thinking of the reasons your quit. Think of the way life is suppose to be and how different it is with the the poison. As the brain starts to realize all the lies the hate will come forth.
I have to get on to you a little brother. Don't smell the crap,, especially now. You need to keep yourself as far away as possible. The smell is death. Think of a dog when it gets a smell it likes. It follows the smell all the way to it's location. That's what the smell wants from you. It want's to lead you to destruction. NAFAR,, the smell, taste, appearance. Anything about the poison. I don't want to smell it, look at it. I hate to even mention, taste. It puts a tear in my eye every time. Taste means cave. Taste means i'm bound tied and gagged again.
By the way, I to took a smell early in my quit. So I know why you did. I quit with you today.
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Why didnt you post you were here? If you are struggling with your own way come back and get to posting roll and getting active again.
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Why didnt you post you were here? If you are struggling with your own way come back and get to posting roll and getting active again.
Did Drock post somewhere here today? I was talking with him via text earlier today. Was hoping he would post up....
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Why didnt you post you were here? If you are struggling with your own way come back and get to posting roll and getting active again.
Did Drock post somewhere here today? I was talking with him via text earlier today. Was hoping he would post up....
I cant find it. he was here dont know why he didnt post?