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Today is day 7 for me. I actually found this site at around day 3 or 4 can't really remember. I have been doing lots of reading and have already found my place in the Feb 17 quit group
Anyways I haven't really told my story so I figured I would write few brief words. I have been dipping for 24 years at around a can or more a day for the last 15 years or so. It started out as just a hobby ....I would only dip if I went fishing or hunting, other than that it wasn't even a concern. I never had to sneak to the bathroom in high school or cut classes just to run and get my quick fix or anything...I would just wait until school was out. Occasionally I would hit the library or student council office during study hall bc k knew nobody were ever at either place and if somebody showed up then I would know them and I wording have to worry about getting ratted out
Funny story from high school....I played golf for 3 years and made all region twice and all state my senior year and had a chance to go to lots of big schools to play golf, I didn't go, but anyways If anybody needs help with their gold game, I'm still a scratch golfer so just ask. Anyhow we would go to the range at least twice a week during practice and I got to chunking the ball pretty bad mid season. All my teammates knew I dipped and so did the coach, he a,ways just ask me to keep it hid bc if another school or player seen me dipping he could get me DQed according to High School rules....well I was hitting ball after ball chunky and chunky and chunky and coach walked down to where I was at and told me to quit dippin.....he said that ,that was my problem and I needed to quit. Well of course he was referring to me dipping my lead shoulder during my swing. Thus making me hit it chunky and fat, but me along with my buddies were acting like he was talking about dip as in skoal dip LOL. Long story short....I REALLY wish I would a listened to ol coach back then and I coulda saved over 20 years from being Dr Nics patient
I quit once for almost 9 months....I know people here say that I didn't quit because I started back but sorry I quit that shit cold turkey for 8 months and 22 days...it was only after a brief stop at a gas station on the way to the hunting club when I went in to grab a drink and saw the Skoal guy inside stocking the shelves and he gave me a free roll. I told him that I quit and he said ok just give it to somebody else you know. I took the bait and went on back to the truck and headed on down to the hunting land. I got everything ready and loaded up to head in the woods and thought " hell i wonder what it would even feel like to dip now that I been quit for so long" I thought it would be nasty as hell...or that maybe I would like it. At any rate I was thinking " what could 1 little dip hurt for old time sakes" I felt like I was way past the hooked part but one dip was all it took for my mind to completely reprogram itself into the constant lies and deception and before you know it I was back to being one of Dr NIcs best patients again
This is getting to long plus I don't like typing on iPad bc it appears that's I'm illiterate and don't know proper English. Anyways here's the reasons that I quit
I have a 4 year old a 2 year old and another on the way in January I'm already tired of having to make up and hide stuff from my 4 year old and it's only gonna get worse with the next ones
Honestly I'm just plain sick and tired of it. It really is some nasty shit...always having to lug around a water bottle and a spit bottle with you everywhere you go....and God forbid if you ever were to get somewhere without your dip....I mean I got to the point to where I was PATHETIC!!! I had become the very person that I would make fun of. The one who nobody could ever help because they refused to first try and help themselves. I would put In a dip and then spit most of it out through the normal process and then put another in right on top of it. Hell I could dip half a can without letting up.
Once I got to thinking and realizing that there wasn't ever a time during the day , unless I was eating of course, that you could ever find me without a dip in. Then I knew I was over the edge and needed to do something ASAP
Along with the normal heartburn and acid reflux caused by this shit , I also just started to be increasing more fearful of the dreaded C word or any other kinds of health issues that may be related to the years if abuse I put my body through. And I don't know about you guys but I REFUSE to live my life on pins and needles or walking on eggshells not ever knowing for sure when and if some thing is going to be wrong with you. . I've got to be here for my kids....my wife...my family....
Lastly my business and everything that I've worked so hard for my entire life....I own a huge business that I built from the ground up ....I mean I had nothing and I cam from nothing but I also never went without. My parents split when I was like 6 and it was always just me, my brother, and my mom. She always put food on the able and we never went without and man looming back ,that speaks volumes. I grew up in like a 60s model 2 bedroom trailer where me and my brother shared a bedroom that was so small you had to go outside just to change your mind....it was just big enough for a bed, in which we shared and that's it. I say all that to say this, I started and built my business with no help and hardly any money and I worked my fingers to the bone 7 days a week, year after year, taking my lumps until I finally MADE My own luck!! I don't believe in luck, I do believe it's when preparation meets opportunity however, anyways I worked and worked and finally got the little crack that I was needing to sneak through the proverbial door and then I never looked back.....I'm not bragging at all bc that's not me or the way I am but I'm retired today, at age 40 ,and my company is valued at over 10 million and all I had when I started was a small pickup truck and about $400...I say all that to say this...all I needed was a little crack to sneak through in order to put my determination to work to build that business and I never looked back....and all I needed was to find the right little reason or crack to sneak through to quit the dipshit and never look back again....I'm not saying I'm quitting because of my business either but I just retired this year and I want to be able to be around for many many many years on down the road to reAlly get to enjoy everything that I built along with my family and children
This has gotten way to long but as I head into day 8 tomorrow don't even sweat me bc I know that there ain't nothing in the whole world that would ever make me visit Dr Nic again.....some people say what they mean, I mean what I say!
Stay strong peeps....I've never liked the word quitter either.....that always just kinda makes me think of a loser...I've got a few words in mind but they just won't come to the end of my tongue right now.. Thanks for listening and thanks for all the support and if I sound stupid, ignorant or arrogant please tell me bc those are the least of my intentions.
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Awesome. Day 7 is huge. I remember day 7, the day i knew i could really stay quit. Keep it up. Stay connected.
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Welcome to Kill the Can Bill
This place is the real deal and will help you quit and stay quit if you embrace the philosophies here. Do what I did, I was skeptical at 1st, but I thought what do I have to lose, everything I've tried in the past to quit has failed, so I'm gonna to give this 110%.
Post roll every day and early in the day. WUPP (Wake Up Piss Post) is our motto. It's a promise to the group and yourself that youÂ’re not going to use nicotine, not a report on how you did at the end of the day. The idea is that as you go through the day and have an urge to dip youÂ’ll remember that you made a promise to your brothers that you wouldnÂ’t dip today. But there's more to it than just posting roll. Get to know your fellow Quitters and some of the vets. If you do you'll get to the point where you don't want to let them down on those days your addict brain is telling you you've had enough of the quitting stuff!
I saw in some of your posts you mentioned having trouble posting. It can be a bit of a challenge at 1st but after a while it'll be a breeze.
Click on the following link for a video on posting roll. It helped me out. PC How to post roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/#new)
You can do this! Proud to Quit with you today.
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Today is day 7 for me. I actually found this site at around day 3 or 4 can't really remember. I have been doing lots of reading and have already found my place in the Feb 17 quit group
Anyways I haven't really told my story so I figured I would write few brief words. I have been dipping for 24 years at around a can or more a day for the last 15 years or so. It started out as just a hobby ....I would only dip if I went fishing or hunting, other than that it wasn't even a concern. I never had to sneak to the bathroom in high school or cut classes just to run and get my quick fix or anything...I would just wait until school was out. Occasionally I would hit the library or student council office during study hall bc k knew nobody were ever at either place and if somebody showed up then I would know them and I wording have to worry about getting ratted out
Funny story from high school....I played golf for 3 years and made all region twice and all state my senior year and had a chance to go to lots of big schools to play golf, I didn't go, but anyways If anybody needs help with their gold game, I'm still a scratch golfer so just ask. Anyhow we would go to the range at least twice a week during practice and I got to chunking the ball pretty bad mid season. All my teammates knew I dipped and so did the coach, he a,ways just ask me to keep it hid bc if another school or player seen me dipping he could get me DQed according to High School rules....well I was hitting ball after ball chunky and chunky and chunky and coach walked down to where I was at and told me to quit dippin.....he said that ,that was my problem and I needed to quit. Well of course he was referring to me dipping my lead shoulder during my swing. Thus making me hit it chunky and fat, but me along with my buddies were acting like he was talking about dip as in skoal dip LOL. Long story short....I REALLY wish I would a listened to ol coach back then and I coulda saved over 20 years from being Dr Nics patient
I quit once for almost 9 months....I know people here say that I didn't quit because I started back but sorry I quit that shit cold turkey for 8 months and 22 days...it was only after a brief stop at a gas station on the way to the hunting club when I went in to grab a drink and saw the Skoal guy inside stocking the shelves and he gave me a free roll. I told him that I quit and he said ok just give it to somebody else you know. I took the bait and went on back to the truck and headed on down to the hunting land. I got everything ready and loaded up to head in the woods and thought " hell i wonder what it would even feel like to dip now that I been quit for so long" I thought it would be nasty as hell...or that maybe I would like it. At any rate I was thinking " what could 1 little dip hurt for old time sakes" I felt like I was way past the hooked part but one dip was all it took for my mind to completely reprogram itself into the constant lies and deception and before you know it I was back to being one of Dr NIcs best patients again
This is getting to long plus I don't like typing on iPad bc it appears that's I'm illiterate and don't know proper English. Anyways here's the reasons that I quit
I have a 4 year old a 2 year old and another on the way in January I'm already tired of having to make up and hide stuff from my 4 year old and it's only gonna get worse with the next ones
Honestly I'm just plain sick and tired of it. It really is some nasty shit...always having to lug around a water bottle and a spit bottle with you everywhere you go....and God forbid if you ever were to get somewhere without your dip....I mean I got to the point to where I was PATHETIC!!! I had become the very person that I would make fun of. The one who nobody could ever help because they refused to first try and help themselves. I would put In a dip and then spit most of it out through the normal process and then put another in right on top of it. Hell I could dip half a can without letting up.
Once I got to thinking and realizing that there wasn't ever a time during the day , unless I was eating of course, that you could ever find me without a dip in. Then I knew I was over the edge and needed to do something ASAP
Along with the normal heartburn and acid reflux caused by this shit , I also just started to be increasing more fearful of the dreaded C word or any other kinds of health issues that may be related to the years if abuse I put my body through. And I don't know about you guys but I REFUSE to live my life on pins and needles or walking on eggshells not ever knowing for sure when and if some thing is going to be wrong with you. . I've got to be here for my kids....my wife...my family....
Lastly my business and everything that I've worked so hard for my entire life....I own a huge business that I built from the ground up ....I mean I had nothing and I cam from nothing but I also never went without. My parents split when I was like 6 and it was always just me, my brother, and my mom. She always put food on the able and we never went without and man looming back ,that speaks volumes. I grew up in like a 60s model 2 bedroom trailer where me and my brother shared a bedroom that was so small you had to go outside just to change your mind....it was just big enough for a bed, in which we shared and that's it. I say all that to say this, I started and built my business with no help and hardly any money and I worked my fingers to the bone 7 days a week, year after year, taking my lumps until I finally MADE My own luck!! I don't believe in luck, I do believe it's when preparation meets opportunity however, anyways I worked and worked and finally got the little crack that I was needing to sneak through the proverbial door and then I never looked back.....I'm not bragging at all bc that's not me or the way I am but I'm retired today, at age 40 ,and my company is valued at over 10 million and all I had when I started was a small pickup truck and about $400...I say all that to say this...all I needed was a little crack to sneak through in order to put my determination to work to build that business and I never looked back....and all I needed was to find the right little reason or crack to sneak through to quit the dipshit and never look back again....I'm not saying I'm quitting because of my business either but I just retired this year and I want to be able to be around for many many many years on down the road to reAlly get to enjoy everything that I built along with my family and children
This has gotten way to long but as I head into day 8 tomorrow don't even sweat me bc I know that there ain't nothing in the whole world that would ever make me visit Dr Nic again.....some people say what they mean, I mean what I say!
Stay strong peeps....I've never liked the word quitter either.....that always just kinda makes me think of a loser...I've got a few words in mind but they just won't come to the end of my tongue right now.. Thanks for listening and thanks for all the support and if I sound stupid, ignorant or arrogant please tell me bc those are the least of my intentions.
Let me say some things.
1. This is the place will make being a quitter a damn good thing. Trust me as long as you stick around, and by God you better, you will understand what I mean.
2. You stopped for 8 months brother. You will understand that as well.
3. You are successful in the business world (CONGRATS) now use that with your QUIT and quit group.
4. Do you need help posting roll or have you already done this?
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Today is day 7 for me. I actually found this site at around day 3 or 4 can't really remember. I have been doing lots of reading and have already found my place in the Feb 17 quit group
Anyways I haven't really told my story so I figured I would write few brief words. I have been dipping for 24 years at around a can or more a day for the last 15 years or so. It started out as just a hobby ....I would only dip if I went fishing or hunting, other than that it wasn't even a concern. I never had to sneak to the bathroom in high school or cut classes just to run and get my quick fix or anything...I would just wait until school was out. Occasionally I would hit the library or student council office during study hall bc k knew nobody were ever at either place and if somebody showed up then I would know them and I wording have to worry about getting ratted out
Funny story from high school....I played golf for 3 years and made all region twice and all state my senior year and had a chance to go to lots of big schools to play golf, I didn't go, but anyways If anybody needs help with their gold game, I'm still a scratch golfer so just ask. Anyhow we would go to the range at least twice a week during practice and I got to chunking the ball pretty bad mid season. All my teammates knew I dipped and so did the coach, he a,ways just ask me to keep it hid bc if another school or player seen me dipping he could get me DQed according to High School rules....well I was hitting ball after ball chunky and chunky and chunky and coach walked down to where I was at and told me to quit dippin.....he said that ,that was my problem and I needed to quit. Well of course he was referring to me dipping my lead shoulder during my swing. Thus making me hit it chunky and fat, but me along with my buddies were acting like he was talking about dip as in skoal dip LOL. Long story short....I REALLY wish I would a listened to ol coach back then and I coulda saved over 20 years from being Dr Nics patient
I quit once for almost 9 months....I know people here say that I didn't quit because I started back but sorry I quit that shit cold turkey for 8 months and 22 days...it was only after a brief stop at a gas station on the way to the hunting club when I went in to grab a drink and saw the Skoal guy inside stocking the shelves and he gave me a free roll. I told him that I quit and he said ok just give it to somebody else you know. I took the bait and went on back to the truck and headed on down to the hunting land. I got everything ready and loaded up to head in the woods and thought " hell i wonder what it would even feel like to dip now that I been quit for so long" I thought it would be nasty as hell...or that maybe I would like it. At any rate I was thinking " what could 1 little dip hurt for old time sakes" I felt like I was way past the hooked part but one dip was all it took for my mind to completely reprogram itself into the constant lies and deception and before you know it I was back to being one of Dr NIcs best patients again
This is getting to long plus I don't like typing on iPad bc it appears that's I'm illiterate and don't know proper English. Anyways here's the reasons that I quit
I have a 4 year old a 2 year old and another on the way in January I'm already tired of having to make up and hide stuff from my 4 year old and it's only gonna get worse with the next ones
Honestly I'm just plain sick and tired of it. It really is some nasty shit...always having to lug around a water bottle and a spit bottle with you everywhere you go....and God forbid if you ever were to get somewhere without your dip....I mean I got to the point to where I was PATHETIC!!! I had become the very person that I would make fun of. The one who nobody could ever help because they refused to first try and help themselves. I would put In a dip and then spit most of it out through the normal process and then put another in right on top of it. Hell I could dip half a can without letting up.
Once I got to thinking and realizing that there wasn't ever a time during the day , unless I was eating of course, that you could ever find me without a dip in. Then I knew I was over the edge and needed to do something ASAP
Along with the normal heartburn and acid reflux caused by this shit , I also just started to be increasing more fearful of the dreaded C word or any other kinds of health issues that may be related to the years if abuse I put my body through. And I don't know about you guys but I REFUSE to live my life on pins and needles or walking on eggshells not ever knowing for sure when and if some thing is going to be wrong with you. . I've got to be here for my kids....my wife...my family....
Lastly my business and everything that I've worked so hard for my entire life....I own a huge business that I built from the ground up ....I mean I had nothing and I cam from nothing but I also never went without. My parents split when I was like 6 and it was always just me, my brother, and my mom. She always put food on the able and we never went without and man looming back ,that speaks volumes. I grew up in like a 60s model 2 bedroom trailer where me and my brother shared a bedroom that was so small you had to go outside just to change your mind....it was just big enough for a bed, in which we shared and that's it. I say all that to say this, I started and built my business with no help and hardly any money and I worked my fingers to the bone 7 days a week, year after year, taking my lumps until I finally MADE My own luck!! I don't believe in luck, I do believe it's when preparation meets opportunity however, anyways I worked and worked and finally got the little crack that I was needing to sneak through the proverbial door and then I never looked back.....I'm not bragging at all bc that's not me or the way I am but I'm retired today, at age 40 ,and my company is valued at over 10 million and all I had when I started was a small pickup truck and about $400...I say all that to say this...all I needed was a little crack to sneak through in order to put my determination to work to build that business and I never looked back....and all I needed was to find the right little reason or crack to sneak through to quit the dipshit and never look back again....I'm not saying I'm quitting because of my business either but I just retired this year and I want to be able to be around for many many many years on down the road to reAlly get to enjoy everything that I built along with my family and children
This has gotten way to long but as I head into day 8 tomorrow don't even sweat me bc I know that there ain't nothing in the whole world that would ever make me visit Dr Nic again.....some people say what they mean, I mean what I say!
Stay strong peeps....I've never liked the word quitter either.....that always just kinda makes me think of a loser...I've got a few words in mind but they just won't come to the end of my tongue right now.. Thanks for listening and thanks for all the support and if I sound stupid, ignorant or arrogant please tell me bc those are the least of my intentions.
Let me say some things.
1. This is the place will make being a quitter a damn good thing. Trust me as long as you stick around, and by God you better, you will understand what I mean.
2. You stopped for 8 months brother. You will understand that as well.
3. You are successful in the business world (CONGRATS) now use that with your QUIT and quit group.
4. Do you need help posting roll or have you already done this?
I have posted roll since like day 5 I think....anyways I finally figured out how to properly do it, this morning as a matter of fact!.....or at least I think I did
Today is day 8 for me and man that damn Dr Nic has been blowing my head up all day today for some reason. I swear I have told myself every reason in the book to just stop in and grab a quick dip for the road....hell I bet I have told myself all those reasons twice! But im too smart and come to far in the short week to be deceived or even consider going back to the dark side. My grandpa always told me that if you don't have your word, then what do you have? and ive already gave my word to myself that if I made it a week then I would NEVER go back! plus I posted roll with all my boys that I wouldn't dip today as well!
Be strong, stay strong, and rock on!!
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Today is day 7 for me. I actually found this site at around day 3 or 4 can't really remember. I have been doing lots of reading and have already found my place in the Feb 17 quit group
Anyways I haven't really told my story so I figured I would write few brief words. I have been dipping for 24 years at around a can or more a day for the last 15 years or so. It started out as just a hobby ....I would only dip if I went fishing or hunting, other than that it wasn't even a concern. I never had to sneak to the bathroom in high school or cut classes just to run and get my quick fix or anything...I would just wait until school was out. Occasionally I would hit the library or student council office during study hall bc k knew nobody were ever at either place and if somebody showed up then I would know them and I wording have to worry about getting ratted out
Funny story from high school....I played golf for 3 years and made all region twice and all state my senior year and had a chance to go to lots of big schools to play golf, I didn't go, but anyways If anybody needs help with their gold game, I'm still a scratch golfer so just ask. Anyhow we would go to the range at least twice a week during practice and I got to chunking the ball pretty bad mid season. All my teammates knew I dipped and so did the coach, he a,ways just ask me to keep it hid bc if another school or player seen me dipping he could get me DQed according to High School rules....well I was hitting ball after ball chunky and chunky and chunky and coach walked down to where I was at and told me to quit dippin.....he said that ,that was my problem and I needed to quit. Well of course he was referring to me dipping my lead shoulder during my swing. Thus making me hit it chunky and fat, but me along with my buddies were acting like he was talking about dip as in skoal dip LOL. Long story short....I REALLY wish I would a listened to ol coach back then and I coulda saved over 20 years from being Dr Nics patient
I quit once for almost 9 months....I know people here say that I didn't quit because I started back but sorry I quit that shit cold turkey for 8 months and 22 days...it was only after a brief stop at a gas station on the way to the hunting club when I went in to grab a drink and saw the Skoal guy inside stocking the shelves and he gave me a free roll. I told him that I quit and he said ok just give it to somebody else you know. I took the bait and went on back to the truck and headed on down to the hunting land. I got everything ready and loaded up to head in the woods and thought " hell i wonder what it would even feel like to dip now that I been quit for so long" I thought it would be nasty as hell...or that maybe I would like it. At any rate I was thinking " what could 1 little dip hurt for old time sakes" I felt like I was way past the hooked part but one dip was all it took for my mind to completely reprogram itself into the constant lies and deception and before you know it I was back to being one of Dr NIcs best patients again
This is getting to long plus I don't like typing on iPad bc it appears that's I'm illiterate and don't know proper English. Anyways here's the reasons that I quit
I have a 4 year old a 2 year old and another on the way in January I'm already tired of having to make up and hide stuff from my 4 year old and it's only gonna get worse with the next ones
Honestly I'm just plain sick and tired of it. It really is some nasty shit...always having to lug around a water bottle and a spit bottle with you everywhere you go....and God forbid if you ever were to get somewhere without your dip....I mean I got to the point to where I was PATHETIC!!! I had become the very person that I would make fun of. The one who nobody could ever help because they refused to first try and help themselves. I would put In a dip and then spit most of it out through the normal process and then put another in right on top of it. Hell I could dip half a can without letting up.
Once I got to thinking and realizing that there wasn't ever a time during the day , unless I was eating of course, that you could ever find me without a dip in. Then I knew I was over the edge and needed to do something ASAP
Along with the normal heartburn and acid reflux caused by this shit , I also just started to be increasing more fearful of the dreaded C word or any other kinds of health issues that may be related to the years if abuse I put my body through. And I don't know about you guys but I REFUSE to live my life on pins and needles or walking on eggshells not ever knowing for sure when and if some thing is going to be wrong with you. . I've got to be here for my kids....my wife...my family....
Lastly my business and everything that I've worked so hard for my entire life....I own a huge business that I built from the ground up ....I mean I had nothing and I cam from nothing but I also never went without. My parents split when I was like 6 and it was always just me, my brother, and my mom. She always put food on the able and we never went without and man looming back ,that speaks volumes. I grew up in like a 60s model 2 bedroom trailer where me and my brother shared a bedroom that was so small you had to go outside just to change your mind....it was just big enough for a bed, in which we shared and that's it. I say all that to say this, I started and built my business with no help and hardly any money and I worked my fingers to the bone 7 days a week, year after year, taking my lumps until I finally MADE My own luck!! I don't believe in luck, I do believe it's when preparation meets opportunity however, anyways I worked and worked and finally got the little crack that I was needing to sneak through the proverbial door and then I never looked back.....I'm not bragging at all bc that's not me or the way I am but I'm retired today, at age 40 ,and my company is valued at over 10 million and all I had when I started was a small pickup truck and about $400...I say all that to say this...all I needed was a little crack to sneak through in order to put my determination to work to build that business and I never looked back....and all I needed was to find the right little reason or crack to sneak through to quit the dipshit and never look back again....I'm not saying I'm quitting because of my business either but I just retired this year and I want to be able to be around for many many many years on down the road to reAlly get to enjoy everything that I built along with my family and children
This has gotten way to long but as I head into day 8 tomorrow don't even sweat me bc I know that there ain't nothing in the whole world that would ever make me visit Dr Nic again.....some people say what they mean, I mean what I say!
Stay strong peeps....I've never liked the word quitter either.....that always just kinda makes me think of a loser...I've got a few words in mind but they just won't come to the end of my tongue right now.. Thanks for listening and thanks for all the support and if I sound stupid, ignorant or arrogant please tell me bc those are the least of my intentions.
Let me say some things.
1. This is the place will make being a quitter a damn good thing. Trust me as long as you stick around, and by God you better, you will understand what I mean.
2. You stopped for 8 months brother. You will understand that as well.
3. You are successful in the business world (CONGRATS) now use that with your QUIT and quit group.
4. Do you need help posting roll or have you already done this?
I have posted roll since like day 5 I think....anyways I finally figured out how to properly do it, this morning as a matter of fact!.....or at least I think I did
Today is day 8 for me and man that damn Dr Nic has been blowing my head up all day today for some reason. I swear I have told myself every reason in the book to just stop in and grab a quick dip for the road....hell I bet I have told myself all those reasons twice! But im too smart and come to far in the short week to be deceived or even consider going back to the dark side. My grandpa always told me that if you don't have your word, then what do you have? and ive already gave my word to myself that if I made it a week then I would NEVER go back! plus I posted roll with all my boys that I wouldn't dip today as well!
Be strong, stay strong, and rock on!!
Bill is in my quit group. I believe he will stay strong today and we will see him tomorrow to renew our commitments.
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Today is day 7 for me. I actually found this site at around day 3 or 4 can't really remember. I have been doing lots of reading and have already found my place in the Feb 17 quit group
Anyways I haven't really told my story so I figured I would write few brief words. I have been dipping for 24 years at around a can or more a day for the last 15 years or so. It started out as just a hobby ....I would only dip if I went fishing or hunting, other than that it wasn't even a concern. I never had to sneak to the bathroom in high school or cut classes just to run and get my quick fix or anything...I would just wait until school was out. Occasionally I would hit the library or student council office during study hall bc k knew nobody were ever at either place and if somebody showed up then I would know them and I wording have to worry about getting ratted out
Funny story from high school....I played golf for 3 years and made all region twice and all state my senior year and had a chance to go to lots of big schools to play golf, I didn't go, but anyways If anybody needs help with their gold game, I'm still a scratch golfer so just ask. Anyhow we would go to the range at least twice a week during practice and I got to chunking the ball pretty bad mid season. All my teammates knew I dipped and so did the coach, he a,ways just ask me to keep it hid bc if another school or player seen me dipping he could get me DQed according to High School rules....well I was hitting ball after ball chunky and chunky and chunky and coach walked down to where I was at and told me to quit dippin.....he said that ,that was my problem and I needed to quit. Well of course he was referring to me dipping my lead shoulder during my swing. Thus making me hit it chunky and fat, but me along with my buddies were acting like he was talking about dip as in skoal dip LOL. Long story short....I REALLY wish I would a listened to ol coach back then and I coulda saved over 20 years from being Dr Nics patient
I quit once for almost 9 months....I know people here say that I didn't quit because I started back but sorry I quit that shit cold turkey for 8 months and 22 days...it was only after a brief stop at a gas station on the way to the hunting club when I went in to grab a drink and saw the Skoal guy inside stocking the shelves and he gave me a free roll. I told him that I quit and he said ok just give it to somebody else you know. I took the bait and went on back to the truck and headed on down to the hunting land. I got everything ready and loaded up to head in the woods and thought " hell i wonder what it would even feel like to dip now that I been quit for so long" I thought it would be nasty as hell...or that maybe I would like it. At any rate I was thinking " what could 1 little dip hurt for old time sakes" I felt like I was way past the hooked part but one dip was all it took for my mind to completely reprogram itself into the constant lies and deception and before you know it I was back to being one of Dr NIcs best patients again
This is getting to long plus I don't like typing on iPad bc it appears that's I'm illiterate and don't know proper English. Anyways here's the reasons that I quit
I have a 4 year old a 2 year old and another on the way in January I'm already tired of having to make up and hide stuff from my 4 year old and it's only gonna get worse with the next ones
Honestly I'm just plain sick and tired of it. It really is some nasty shit...always having to lug around a water bottle and a spit bottle with you everywhere you go....and God forbid if you ever were to get somewhere without your dip....I mean I got to the point to where I was PATHETIC!!! I had become the very person that I would make fun of. The one who nobody could ever help because they refused to first try and help themselves. I would put In a dip and then spit most of it out through the normal process and then put another in right on top of it. Hell I could dip half a can without letting up.
Once I got to thinking and realizing that there wasn't ever a time during the day , unless I was eating of course, that you could ever find me without a dip in. Then I knew I was over the edge and needed to do something ASAP
Along with the normal heartburn and acid reflux caused by this shit , I also just started to be increasing more fearful of the dreaded C word or any other kinds of health issues that may be related to the years if abuse I put my body through. And I don't know about you guys but I REFUSE to live my life on pins and needles or walking on eggshells not ever knowing for sure when and if some thing is going to be wrong with you. . I've got to be here for my kids....my wife...my family....
Lastly my business and everything that I've worked so hard for my entire life....I own a huge business that I built from the ground up ....I mean I had nothing and I cam from nothing but I also never went without. My parents split when I was like 6 and it was always just me, my brother, and my mom. She always put food on the able and we never went without and man looming back ,that speaks volumes. I grew up in like a 60s model 2 bedroom trailer where me and my brother shared a bedroom that was so small you had to go outside just to change your mind....it was just big enough for a bed, in which we shared and that's it. I say all that to say this, I started and built my business with no help and hardly any money and I worked my fingers to the bone 7 days a week, year after year, taking my lumps until I finally MADE My own luck!! I don't believe in luck, I do believe it's when preparation meets opportunity however, anyways I worked and worked and finally got the little crack that I was needing to sneak through the proverbial door and then I never looked back.....I'm not bragging at all bc that's not me or the way I am but I'm retired today, at age 40 ,and my company is valued at over 10 million and all I had when I started was a small pickup truck and about $400...I say all that to say this...all I needed was a little crack to sneak through in order to put my determination to work to build that business and I never looked back....and all I needed was to find the right little reason or crack to sneak through to quit the dipshit and never look back again....I'm not saying I'm quitting because of my business either but I just retired this year and I want to be able to be around for many many many years on down the road to reAlly get to enjoy everything that I built along with my family and children
This has gotten way to long but as I head into day 8 tomorrow don't even sweat me bc I know that there ain't nothing in the whole world that would ever make me visit Dr Nic again.....some people say what they mean, I mean what I say!
Stay strong peeps....I've never liked the word quitter either.....that always just kinda makes me think of a loser...I've got a few words in mind but they just won't come to the end of my tongue right now.. Thanks for listening and thanks for all the support and if I sound stupid, ignorant or arrogant please tell me bc those are the least of my intentions.
Let me say some things.
1. This is the place will make being a quitter a damn good thing. Trust me as long as you stick around, and by God you better, you will understand what I mean.
2. You stopped for 8 months brother. You will understand that as well.
3. You are successful in the business world (CONGRATS) now use that with your QUIT and quit group.
4. Do you need help posting roll or have you already done this?
I have posted roll since like day 5 I think....anyways I finally figured out how to properly do it, this morning as a matter of fact!.....or at least I think I did
Today is day 8 for me and man that damn Dr Nic has been blowing my head up all day today for some reason. I swear I have told myself every reason in the book to just stop in and grab a quick dip for the road....hell I bet I have told myself all those reasons twice! But im too smart and come to far in the short week to be deceived or even consider going back to the dark side. My grandpa always told me that if you don't have your word, then what do you have? and ive already gave my word to myself that if I made it a week then I would NEVER go back! plus I posted roll with all my boys that I wouldn't dip today as well!
Be strong, stay strong, and rock on!!
Bill is in my quit group. I believe he will stay strong today and we will see him tomorrow to renew our commitments.
Keep it going strong BillDance! keep logging in your experiences here, and posting roll. The challenges do come, and sometimes they hit hard. Othertimes, it's kind of a more persistent, test your patience thing. Whatever happens, you can beat it with the methods here. Your daily post is the foundation. Build your network of fellow quitters. Keep building your knowledge of what you are fighting. Each day you can have victories by beating cravings or learning new tricks that the addiction might try to send your way. You got this if you work it hard though!
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Proud to see you in here and busting tail on your quit. Proud to quit with you.
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Proud to see you in here and busting tail on your quit. Proud to quit with you.
Today is day 10..... Finally hit double digits! It's been a struggle but worth it. Stress level is ultra high today bc of a lot of stuff going on at work that I have to be the one to handle....Also my pops called me this morning really early....I immediately knew something was wrong. They found his youngest sister, my aunt, face down in the floor of her boyfriends home this morning at around 2 am, dead as a door bell. A million things ran through my mind all at once from wondering how my pops was feeling, to feeling sorry for my cousins for losing their mama, to a million other things. Then a small voice whispered softly in my ear...." This is going to be one of the longest days that you've had in a long time....it's gonna be hard to just make it through the day period, especially make it through without some dip. Why not just run on up to the store and buy one little can. Surely you deserve one little dip, after all today has been 10 days since you quit and I can help ease the stress of this painful day. I know you can quit, you know you can quit, what's the big deal over a day if "reward" seeing as how your family is in shambles. Then after the day is over, just toss the can and what's left in it and pick right back up in your quit where you left off"
I stopped dead in my tracks and thought for a second and then spoke to myself....( I do that a lot when I'm stressed out during is quit) and I said , well that's the dumbest shit I've ever heard in my life! I asked myself then if I was that damn weak or dumb to even let those thoughts enter my head. Then I cracked a few jokes as I made fun of myself and shook it off. But it just goes to show you that if you give Dr Nic even the smallest of holes or tiniest of opportunities then he Will be right there waiting to book that next appt with you.
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Proud to see you in here and busting tail on your quit. Proud to quit with you.
Today is day 10..... Finally hit double digits! It's been a struggle but worth it. Stress level is ultra high today bc of a lot of stuff going on at work that I have to be the one to handle....Also my pops called me this morning really early....I immediately knew something was wrong. They found his youngest sister, my aunt, face down in the floor of her boyfriends home this morning at around 2 am, dead as a door bell. A million things ran through my mind all at once from wondering how my pops was feeling, to feeling sorry for my cousins for losing their mama, to a million other things. Then a small voice whispered softly in my ear...." This is going to be one of the longest days that you've had in a long time....it's gonna be hard to just make it through the day period, especially make it through without some dip. Why not just run on up to the store and buy one little can. Surely you deserve one little dip, after all today has been 10 days since you quit and I can help ease the stress of this painful day. I know you can quit, you know you can quit, what's the big deal over a day if "reward" seeing as how your family is in shambles. Then after the day is over, just toss the can and what's left in it and pick right back up in your quit where you left off"
I stopped dead in my tracks and thought for a second and then spoke to myself....( I do that a lot when I'm stressed out during is quit) and I said , well that's the dumbest shit I've ever heard in my life! I asked myself then if I was that damn weak or dumb to even let those thoughts enter my head. Then I cracked a few jokes as I made fun of myself and shook it off. But it just goes to show you that if you give Dr Nic even the smallest of holes or tiniest of opportunities then he Will be right there waiting to book that next appt with you.
First off, so very sorry to hear about your aunt. That is very sad. My condolences.
Congrats on double digits. I have loved reading your posts and am thankful to be in the same group as you.
I don't know if something this awful will happen to me this early, but this post inspired me. reading how you thought about it and defeated it gives us a blueprint to do the same. I can't imagine this was easy to share, but it probably will have saved my life at some point so thank you
Proud to quit with you
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Day 13 for me and it's a Saturday in the South which means on,y a few things...Football, beer, more football, food, more football, and use to mean at least 2 cans of cat shit per day.
Honestly can't believe how good it's gotten so soon. I been on cruise control for last few days and actually already starting to crave it less and less and already starting to use less and less of smokey mountain.
Believe it or not I am really starting to actually enjoy this quitting!
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Day 13 for me and it's a Saturday in the South which means on,y a few things...Football, beer, more football, food, more football, and use to mean at least 2 cans of cat shit per day.
Honestly can't believe how good it's gotten so soon. I been on cruise control for last few days and actually already starting to crave it less and less and already starting to use less and less of smokey mountain.
Believe it or not I am really starting to actually enjoy this quitting!
Quitting IS fun Bill if you have the right attitude. It sounds like you do. Keep quitting bro.
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Day 13 for me and it's a Saturday in the South which means on,y a few things...Football, beer, more football, food, more football, and use to mean at least 2 cans of cat shit per day.
Honestly can't believe how good it's gotten so soon. I been on cruise control for last few days and actually already starting to crave it less and less and already starting to use less and less of smokey mountain.
Believe it or not I am really starting to actually enjoy this quitting!
Quitting IS fun Bill if you have the right attitude. It sounds like you do. Keep quitting bro.
Im glad to hear that Bill.
Next thing you know you wont be using Smokey nomore, and you just be kicking back watching your football team winning (Unless your a bears fan 'arse' )
Stay Quit bud
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Days 16/17 been very hard with lots of intense cravings....kinda weird how it comes and goes. Hadn't had a craving in 5 days until the 16th day. They only last a minute but they come hard and often. Just gotta keep fighting through and remembering how awful the first 3 days were. Never ever wanna go back through that again
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Days 16/17 been very hard with lots of intense cravings....kinda weird how it comes and goes. Hadn't had a craving in 5 days until the 16th day. They only last a minute but they come hard and often. Just gotta keep fighting through and remembering how awful the first 3 days were. Never ever wanna go back through that again
Oh boy how I agree with you. I experienced so much during the beginning of my quit as you said I myself never want to go through that again. I honestly don't think I could. It's bittersweet the further you advance. 473 here and trust me, it still sneaks up on me, of course nothing like before and like you said it doesn't last long. It happens out of the blue. Not often let me say. Trust me, it passes as soon as it hits. I'm proud to see you are staying true to this. Quit on.
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Days 16/17 been very hard with lots of intense cravings....kinda weird how it comes and goes. Hadn't had a craving in 5 days until the 16th day. They only last a minute but they come hard and often. Just gotta keep fighting through and remembering how awful the first 3 days were. Never ever wanna go back through that again
Oh boy how I agree with you. I experienced so much during the beginning of my quit as you said I myself never want to go through that again. I honestly don't think I could. It's bittersweet the further you advance. 473 here and trust me, it still sneaks up on me, of course nothing like before and like you said it doesn't last long. It happens out of the blue. Not often let me say. Trust me, it passes as soon as it hits. I'm proud to see you are staying true to this. Quit on.
Wow bill! Keep eyehatecope in your back pocket and you can't fail! Doing great, just remember what you're going through is completely normal. Damn proud of you and proud to be quit with you!
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Well today is day 24 and I can honestly say that it's been the best day in a while now. The fog rolled back in yesterday pretty bad but I overcame and kept my head down. I started out this quit by straight up killing some smokey mountain chew but after the first couple weeks it kinda started losing its whatever you wanna call it. Now I may be at 1/2 can a day and am still losing interest in it quick like.
For some reason my main two new fixations during my quit has been the jumbo bags of pistachio nuts from Sams Club and FN charms blow pops. Don't ask me why bc it's weird as hell but I've went through almost 2 boxes ( 200) blow pops in 24 days and almost 2 bags of pistachios.
I'm gonna need new teeth from all the sugar when all is said and done but hey whatever keeps me off the worm dirt, is OK for now.
Anytime I think about caving all I have to do is think about those first 3 days....because they were so damn bad, I honestly don't think I would have the strength to ever go back through that again so I know if I cave, then I am probably lost forever and that's just not an option.
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Well today is day 24 and I can honestly say that it's been the best day in a while now. The fog rolled back in yesterday pretty bad but I overcame and kept my head down. I started out this quit by straight up killing some smokey mountain chew but after the first couple weeks it kinda started losing its whatever you wanna call it. Now I may be at 1/2 can a day and am still losing interest in it quick like.
For some reason my main two new fixations during my quit has been the jumbo bags of pistachio nuts from Sams Club and FN charms blow pops. Don't ask me why bc it's weird as hell but I've went through almost 2 boxes ( 200) blow pops in 24 days and almost 2 bags of pistachios.
I'm gonna need new teeth from all the sugar when all is said and done but hey whatever keeps me off the worm dirt, is OK for now.
Anytime I think about caving all I have to do is think about those first 3 days....because they were so damn bad, I honestly don't think I would have the strength to ever go back through that again so I know if I cave, then I am probably lost forever and that's just not an option.
You have a nice quit going Bill. I promise that as you keep going it will only get better. I never used fake dip but I was all over sunflower seeds, beef jerky, and sugarless gum for several weeks. Eventually the need for the substitutes went away. Keep pushing forward - 24 days is really bad ass!
I quit with you today!
Stranger999 - day 452
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Well tomorrow will be the bid 3-0!! Hard to believe that I've been Nic free for a month already. It's kinda weird because it's been the longest month of my life and yet the shortest month of my life, all at the same time. It's been the most trying time in my life. Yet most rewarding.
My first 3 days were so bad that if I ever we're to cave then I'd prolly be stuck a nicotine addict for life bc I don't think I could ever go back through those days again. Amazingly after about a week it got way better. The whole second week was a breeze and gave me a false sense of security but also gave me the confidence that I needed to let myself know that I COULD beat this thing once and for all. The fog rolled in pretty hard in spurts over the past few weeks but while I'm still killing pistachios and freakin blow pops my urges to dip are getting fewer and farther between. It's like I walk around lost half of the day. I don't really wanna dip but it's like I got nothing to do....it's like I'm missing something or some one. It's hard to explain and really weird feeling. I'm sure it too will pass
Well just wanted to give a quick update on my quit as I go full steam ahead with 1 month come tomorrow
Be strong , Stay strong, and rock on!!!
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Well tomorrow will be the bid 3-0!! Hard to believe that I've been Nic free for a month already. It's kinda weird because it's been the longest month of my life and yet the shortest month of my life, all at the same time. It's been the most trying time in my life. Yet most rewarding.
My first 3 days were so bad that if I ever we're to cave then I'd prolly be stuck a nicotine addict for life bc I don't think I could ever go back through those days again. Amazingly after about a week it got way better. The whole second week was a breeze and gave me a false sense of security but also gave me the confidence that I needed to let myself know that I COULD beat this thing once and for all. The fog rolled in pretty hard in spurts over the past few weeks but while I'm still killing pistachios and freakin blow pops my urges to dip are getting fewer and farther between. It's like I walk around lost half of the day. I don't really wanna dip but it's like I got nothing to do....it's like I'm missing something or some one. It's hard to explain and really weird feeling. I'm sure it too will pass
Well just wanted to give a quick update on my quit as I go full steam ahead with 1 month come tomorrow
Be strong , Stay strong, and rock on!!!
Congrats and keep it up! keeping this log of your quit will make a good record of just what you never want to go through again, too. Like you, i'm not so sure i could ever get through it all again. That helps me stay quit-- this is my one chance, and i really really don't want to blow it. Keep building your quit... knowledge, connections for support an accountability. Things keep getting better, but you will still have some good challenges to smack down. Keep doing it right and it'll all work out fine-- you're doing great!
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Well tomorrow will be the bid 3-0!! Hard to believe that I've been Nic free for a month already. It's kinda weird because it's been the longest month of my life and yet the shortest month of my life, all at the same time. It's been the most trying time in my life. Yet most rewarding.
My first 3 days were so bad that if I ever we're to cave then I'd prolly be stuck a nicotine addict for life bc I don't think I could ever go back through those days again. Amazingly after about a week it got way better. The whole second week was a breeze and gave me a false sense of security but also gave me the confidence that I needed to let myself know that I COULD beat this thing once and for all. The fog rolled in pretty hard in spurts over the past few weeks but while I'm still killing pistachios and freakin blow pops my urges to dip are getting fewer and farther between. It's like I walk around lost half of the day. I don't really wanna dip but it's like I got nothing to do....it's like I'm missing something or some one. It's hard to explain and really weird feeling. I'm sure it too will pass
Well just wanted to give a quick update on my quit as I go full steam ahead with 1 month come tomorrow
Be strong , Stay strong, and rock on!!!
Congrats and keep it up! keeping this log of your quit will make a good record of just what you never want to go through again, too. Like you, i'm not so sure i could ever get through it all again. That helps me stay quit-- this is my one chance, and i really really don't want to blow it. Keep building your quit... knowledge, connections for support an accountability. Things keep getting better, but you will still have some good challenges to smack down. Keep doing it right and it'll all work out fine-- you're doing great!
Thanks brother! It's all the support from other quitters on the site like yourself that make this all doable
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Well tomorrow will be the bid 3-0!! Hard to believe that I've been Nic free for a month already. It's kinda weird because it's been the longest month of my life and yet the shortest month of my life, all at the same time. It's been the most trying time in my life. Yet most rewarding.
My first 3 days were so bad that if I ever we're to cave then I'd prolly be stuck a nicotine addict for life bc I don't think I could ever go back through those days again. Amazingly after about a week it got way better. The whole second week was a breeze and gave me a false sense of security but also gave me the confidence that I needed to let myself know that I COULD beat this thing once and for all. The fog rolled in pretty hard in spurts over the past few weeks but while I'm still killing pistachios and freakin blow pops my urges to dip are getting fewer and farther between. It's like I walk around lost half of the day. I don't really wanna dip but it's like I got nothing to do....it's like I'm missing something or some one. It's hard to explain and really weird feeling. I'm sure it too will pass
Well just wanted to give a quick update on my quit as I go full steam ahead with 1 month come tomorrow
Be strong , Stay strong, and rock on!!!
Congrats and keep it up! keeping this log of your quit will make a good record of just what you never want to go through again, too. Like you, i'm not so sure i could ever get through it all again. That helps me stay quit-- this is my one chance, and i really really don't want to blow it. Keep building your quit... knowledge, connections for support an accountability. Things keep getting better, but you will still have some good challenges to smack down. Keep doing it right and it'll all work out fine-- you're doing great!
Thanks brother! It's all the support from other quitters on the site like yourself that make this all doable
Quit is strong in here!
Smells good.....real good.
Nuts and pops....
Way better than cancer and tubes.
Dance on Bill!
It gets better.....every.....day!
Rawls 749
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Well tomorrow will be the bid 3-0!! Hard to believe that I've been Nic free for a month already. It's kinda weird because it's been the longest month of my life and yet the shortest month of my life, all at the same time. It's been the most trying time in my life. Yet most rewarding.
My first 3 days were so bad that if I ever we're to cave then I'd prolly be stuck a nicotine addict for life bc I don't think I could ever go back through those days again. Amazingly after about a week it got way better. The whole second week was a breeze and gave me a false sense of security but also gave me the confidence that I needed to let myself know that I COULD beat this thing once and for all. The fog rolled in pretty hard in spurts over the past few weeks but while I'm still killing pistachios and freakin blow pops my urges to dip are getting fewer and farther between. It's like I walk around lost half of the day. I don't really wanna dip but it's like I got nothing to do....it's like I'm missing something or some one. It's hard to explain and really weird feeling. I'm sure it too will pass
Well just wanted to give a quick update on my quit as I go full steam ahead with 1 month come tomorrow
Be strong , Stay strong, and rock on!!!
Congrats and keep it up! keeping this log of your quit will make a good record of just what you never want to go through again, too. Like you, i'm not so sure i could ever get through it all again. That helps me stay quit-- this is my one chance, and i really really don't want to blow it. Keep building your quit... knowledge, connections for support an accountability. Things keep getting better, but you will still have some good challenges to smack down. Keep doing it right and it'll all work out fine-- you're doing great!
Thanks brother! It's all the support from other quitters on the site like yourself that make this all doable
Isn't this the truth? Quitting seems damn near impossible on your own.
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Well I'm about to lay day 40 to rest....can't believe that come Christmas I will be done hung a half a hundo on Ole Dr Nic! I feel like I have went through so many changes in just 40 short days but man what a roller coaster it's been
I don't really even want to dip anymore , unless I get around any of my buddies with a big fattie in. The first thing I do though is pronounce my quit and my number of days quit and then it's like instead if me being jealous of them suckin on a fat lip, they become jealous of me for finally having the balls to put that shit down and walk away. ....weird.
My biggest hurdle and its in my face like every single day for last 2 weeks or so is BOREDOM! It's like I really don't wanna dip but damn I need something to help keep me busy. I just wonder if that sounds as stupid to other people as it does to me? So I just sit around , pounding the pistachios and scarfing down blow pops like I own stock in them. Then I will throw in the occasional smokey mtn if for no other reason than not wanting to become diabetic from all the sugar ,junk food, and blow pops I eat now. I mean I think I can finally understand how all those gigantic fat people that you see on all them tv shows got that fat now. They say food was their comfort and food is my cure for boredom....I mean I eat like a mofo and ain't even hungry but it's like I gotta have something to do all day long so I'm always snacking on some kinda crap.
I've put on around 13lbs since my quit 40 days ago. While I can hold it, I sure do t wanna hang on to it for long because it seems like it all went to my face and my gut. I'm 6'-5" tall and usually weigh around 235 so is not like I'm gonna head off the deep end or nothing but I also don't want all this extra weight dragging me down and bringing my energy levels down with it.
I think I'm gonna go join the local gym just to get up out the house and get a little excercise on the treadmill or something but sooner or later I have to get past this boredom stage and take back control of my eating/ snacking habits. I told myself going in that the first 30 days I could eat whatever I wanted ,as much as I wanted, be as lazy as I wanted, etc... As long as I put all my effort into this quit and stayed quit then I would worry about everyone else later, well later is now and I gotta start making some more lifestyle changes
At any rate and whatever I gotta do, I'm gonna keep my head down and quit on. It's not really that hard for me to stay quit at this point. It's more of a challenge for me to concentrate and fill the space that dip always took so much of
Til next time!
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Just wanted to check in real quick....tomorrow will be day 80! Man its hard to believe, for someone like me that's been an addict and slave to Dr Nic for almost 24 years. I feel like I have all the tools in place now to go full steam ahead and knock this quit out of the park. I was in full cruise control mode and haven't even thought about dip or dipping in almost 3 weeks and then along came day 68 and man oh man the cravings came back with a vengeance! Pretty much the last 10 days or so have been pretty rough as far as fighting the craves because they are so strong. Good thing is they don't last long but they do seem to come one after the other. Im glad that I now know how to fight and combat all the lies that go through your head about this and that and know that I wont fall victim to those again. ...especially the "just have one to celebrate" or "just one little dip for old times sakes wont hurt, you can spit it out after only 5 minutes"....etc .etc... I know that those all are straight up lies and nothing but mind games being played on you
Well I went from getting played to not and from being a victim of Nic to being the boss of it
It also helps to have an awesome quit group to be associated with. Even though some of the guys in my group still deserve zero respect for not following rules and I wish they would just leave....there are plenty of others who have been right there beside me each and every day posting roll early and helping to hold the rest of the group accountable.
Will return in 21 days when its time for my HOF speech!! 'oh yeah'
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Today is day #114 for me....all I can say is wow! I don't think that there will ever be a time in an addicts life where he's able to sit back and give himself a pat on the back and feel all comfy and cozy.....That's just not the way it works
I really need to make it a point to sit down and collect my thoughts and write my HOF speech, I've just been so busy lately with a new little one (baby #3) and then a 2 year old and 4 year old to go along with it, whew! That doesn't leave much time for anything else. but I feel that I owe it to myself and to all the BAQs in my group and also anyone else who may read this site looking for encouragement to break the stranglehold of Dr Nic.
I will get it done ASAP, until then. Peece Owt!
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Great HOF speech, Bill! (Better late than never!)
'party' Congratulations on hitting the 2-0-0!!! 'party'
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Thanks man. I'd love to know how to pin it to my posts but I'm pretty computer illiterate.
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Thanks man. I'd love to know how to pin it to my posts but I'm pretty computer illiterate.
Congrats brother..
Copy and paste "HOV" below into your signature line.
HOF (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30250586/)
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well as I sit here exactly one year later I am really at a loss for words....its cliché as hell but there wasn't a bigger addict out there than myself and if I can do it then you can do. Anybody out there that may be reading this, looking for encouragement just know that it is 95% mental and 5% everything else. I went from over a can a day for 24 years to walking away cold turkey and never looking back! Don't ever glorify the very thing that is trying to take your life from you. I always told people that my quit wasn't a matter of life and death, it was more important than that.
If you ever decide to get serious about quitting and make your mind up and set your mind to it, you WILL be successful. Its no picnic or walk in the park but its not near as hard as you make it out to be in your own mind at the beginning. The reward is freedom like I haven't experienced in 24 long years that I was a slave to the can. Thanks to everyone in my quit group (feb 17 cult of quit) because I owe a little bit of my quit to each and every member who hung in there and road this thing out with me. Its far from over but it just keeps getting easier with every passing day!
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well as I sit here exactly one year later I am really at a loss for words....its cliché as hell but there wasn't a bigger addict out there than myself and if I can do it then you can do. Anybody out there that may be reading this, looking for encouragement just know that it is 95% mental and 5% everything else. I went from over a can a day for 24 years to walking away cold turkey and never looking back! Don't ever glorify the very thing that is trying to take your life from you. I always told people that my quit wasn't a matter of life and death, it was more important than that.
If you ever decide to get serious about quitting and make your mind up and set your mind to it, you WILL be successful. Its no picnic or walk in the park but its not near as hard as you make it out to be in your own mind at the beginning. The reward is freedom like I haven't experienced in 24 long years that I was a slave to the can. Thanks to everyone in my quit group (feb 17 cult of quit) because I owe a little bit of my quit to each and every member who hung in there and road this thing out with me. Its far from over but it just keeps getting easier with every passing day!
Congrats on the 1 year quit BillDance!