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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: nebraskadad58 on May 06, 2013, 05:57:00 PM
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I've had it with myself. Just pitched a full can of griz on way home from work. I've been dipping since a divorce in 2000, was off and on more on than off. Marriage repaired but trust isn't.. I am sick of living to myself, my wife, my kids.. Sick of feeling fear about getting busted by spouse or worse getting jaw or mouth cancer.
On way home i had a dip in, and drove by a trash can at the local ball park and threw it all away.
Now i am here. i want in the worst way to be done, but i know me.. My best plan for setting a date has always been passed by the next friggin' quit day.
Don't know if anyone else has felt this way, i am scared i will run done to the local convenience store when the 1st craving smacks me upside the head.
I know it is a second at a time, a minute, hour, day at a time thing in my mind.
But i am sick of dying one dip at a time. I need help..
My last attempt at quitting lead 3 days of misery and i gave up.
My wife busted me with a can in the coat pocket, I am sick of the hiding and shame..
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I've had it with myself. Just pitched a full can of griz on way home from work. I've been dipping since a divorce in 2000, was off and on more on than off. Marriage repaired but trust isn't.. I am sick of living to myself, my wife, my kids.. Sick of feeling fear about getting busted by spouse or worse getting jaw or mouth cancer.
On way home i had a dip in, and drove by a trash can at the local ball park and threw it all away.
Now i am here. i want in the worst way to be done, but i know me.. My best plan for setting a date has always been passed by the next friggin' quit day.
Don't know if anyone else has felt this way, i am scared i will run done to the local convenience store when the 1st craving smacks me upside the head.
I know it is a second at a time, a minute, hour, day at a time thing in my mind.
But i am sick of dying one dip at a time. I need help..
My last attempt at quitting lead 3 days of misery and i gave up.
My wife busted me with a can in the coat pocket, I am sick of the hiding and shame..
read the welcome center (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13) then post roll. The rules are easy, post roll, honor your word, repeat. Quitting is not easy, time to act like a man and push through something that is going to suck. It gets better and the support here is second to none.
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Thanks Mich. i think i got in the correct roll call thing.. Not sure. Need to go out and mow the lawn..
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Great choice, Nebraska!!! It will get worse before it gets better. But that's the thing about freedom...you gotta earn it.
Post roll, read all you can, exercise, water, seeds, fake stuff, jerk off...whatever you have to do.
YOU CAN DO THIS, BROTHER!!!
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Bean, thanks. I just went out and mowed the lawn. Brain is racing. worried about the discussion with wife when she gets home tomorrow night from out of town visit.. I know that is tomorrow and can't do anything about it now.
We went through separation in 2000 for my lying bullsh*t. I am playing out the whole nine yards in my head. Don't know if any other ninja chewer has ever felt the same but that is kicking my ass right now.
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Bean, thanks. I just went out and mowed the lawn. Brain is racing. worried about the discussion with wife when she gets home tomorrow night from out of town visit.. I know that is tomorrow and can't do anything about it now.
We went through separation in 2000 for my lying bullsh*t. I am playing out the whole nine yards in my head. Don't know if any other ninja chewer has ever felt the same but that is kicking my ass right now.
Good work! Just make through the fog/suck and I promise it gets easier. Buy some jerky gum if you find yourself in the gas station. For me jerky was a good sub for the first few days. I'm happy to be quitting with you Nebraskadad
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Did the ninja chewing for years... Every time I got caught I would promise to stop then a day or two later new can of the crap.
Finally had to man up tell her I was still doing it - she knew all along, I wasn't really hiding anything from her.
181 days later, I know I am honest with her and she supports me.
Your wife will do the same just honest and ask for her support in this.
You can do this... it will be tough but we are all here for one reason, to quit and we are all here to help.
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Did the ninja chewing for years... Every time I got caught I would promise to stop then a day or two later new can of the crap.
Finally had to man up tell her I was still doing it - she knew all along, I wasn't really hiding anything from her.
181 days later, I know I am honest with her and she supports me.
Your wife will do the same just honest and ask for her support in this.
You can do this... it will be tough but we are all here for one reason, to quit and we are all here to help.
ladog,
Thanks.. I did admit it sheepishly when busted. Man i feel like shit more about that than anything. Promising myself stop days several times over the last ten years.. I've been good at hiding the can, there are times i knew she knew and she'd ask and i'd lie bold face over the years. I am sick of the dishonesty crap. i can't stand myself right now..
She left for out of town to teach a class at a small college and she spends the night with her mom.. I usually will do stuff around the house. (including a perpetual pinch..)
Mowed the lawn, and just trying to get the lying crap out of my head, i know she will call later i won't know what to say except "i'm am sorry" for the thousandth time..
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Man let me tell you people hear what you say, people know what they see you do. She will most likely think you are full of crap again, I would, but you have to tell her and in a manly way not sheepish. You are a bad ass if you quit. You are going to show her and us that you are a bad ass not a sheep. Man up go thru the pain and on the other side you look back at sheep until you look in the mirror and get scared for a second cause you almost don't recognize the bad ass standing there looking at you. Most awesome feeling in the world. Biggest key don't quit because your afraid of her quit because you are a bad ass man!
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Man let me tell you people hear what you say, people know what they see you do. She will most likely think you are full of crap again, I would, but you have to tell her and in a manly way not sheepish. You are a bad ass if you quit. You are going to show her and us that you are a bad ass not a sheep. Man up go thru the pain and on the other side you look back at sheep until you look in the mirror and get scared for a second cause you almost don't recognize the bad ass standing there looking at you. Most awesome feeling in the world. Biggest key don't quit because your afraid of her quit because you are a bad ass man!
russell,
I quit drinking before i met her. We've been married for going on 23 yrs. This monkey is incidious..
I mowed the lawn came in did the dishes and a craving smacked me. didn't run to the store. :-)
Small victories for now, i just feel so shitty about disappointing her. I am kind of fearful of her reaction. how often she has asked and how often i've said no.. She knew. I just didn't want to admit it.
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Your a man. A F-ing man!, you got this brother I know you do.
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Oh I love the word invidious. But you got this man. You've been together a long time. She is going to be pissed until she sees you are truly done. Show her this site and even your post. She will get it.
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Your a man. A F-ing man!, you got this brother I know you do.
I agree with erussell. I'm going to word things a little different. Time to grow some balls.
Nebrask,, a lot of your worrying right now is probably due to the fact your in the suck. Your brain is not going to work right for 3 or 4 days. This is the reason why you take this one day at a time. Slow down and take some deep breaths.
Do you really think your wife didn't know. I bet she did. You probably didn't know she new. That would be the deception that nicotine causes. By small chance she didn't there is no way you keep quitting from her. To many changes coming.
See what nicotine has done to you. You've now begun to
Take your life back. One day at a time bro. Don't worry about day three until you get there. Don't worry about tomorrow until it gets here. I quit with you today.
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Oh I love the word invidious. But you got this man. You've been together a long time. She is going to be pissed until she sees you are truly done. Show her this site and even your post. She will get it.
incidious. just have a "suck" as you guys call it. Finished mowing, and started dishwasher drinking H20, and breathing, through it know but damn, eddie i was hitting dial to call you..
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Anytime you call dude if I don't answer you call back!
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Dude you are pinging u need to take it down a bit...u r in the suck and to quote Bean learn to embrace the suck embrace your withdrawal symptoms. Withdrawal symptoms mean you are getting your life back from the bitch. Have your wife read the spouse section. Actions speak louder than words show your roll posts show her you are owning your addiction. U did it you own it don't deflect what's really going on to her. Like SRANS said time to nut up and grow a pair. Own it post roll tomorrow n I quit w u brother
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Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.
I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.
She reminded me my college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)
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Stay strong Ndad! It only gets better I promise! Find a substitute like gum or jerky, drink lots of h2o ( I'm a new cranberry juice addict myself), and get some exercise!! You know this shit is no good so just say "Fuck it" and quit one day at a time.
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I've had it with myself. Just pitched a full can of griz on way home from work. I've been dipping since a divorce in 2000, was off and on more on than off. Marriage repaired but trust isn't.. I am sick of living to myself, my wife, my kids.. Sick of feeling fear about getting busted by spouse or worse getting jaw or mouth cancer.
On way home i had a dip in, and drove by a trash can at the local ball park and threw it all away.
Now i am here. i want in the worst way to be done, but i know me.. My best plan for setting a date has always been passed by the next friggin' quit day.
Don't know if anyone else has felt this way, i am scared i will run done to the local convenience store when the 1st craving smacks me upside the head.
I know it is a second at a time, a minute, hour, day at a time thing in my mind.
But i am sick of dying one dip at a time. I need help..
My last attempt at quitting lead 3 days of misery and i gave up.
My wife busted me with a can in the coat pocket, I am sick of the hiding and shame..
Welcome! So happy to see you here! This is an awesome place, if you haven't figured it out yet. IF YOU WANT TO QUIT FOR GOOD, THIS SITE WILL BE AWESOME FOR YOU. Ultimately it's on you, but all of us here on this site will do everything possible to help you reach your goal.
I too was a Ninja. Ninja dipping was my favorite technique. Isn't it crazy that we would rather continue to feed ourselves poison and flat out lie about it to the first person in the world that we should be completely honest with? Absolute insanity...a true addiction. A bad nasty addiction. People have thrown away marriages, kids, their lives, over tobacco. That's pretty fucked up. Me for one, I'm not going to do it!!! Fuck that. Fuck that bitch.
I quit with you today brother. You can do this! We all can.
Now go drink some water.
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I meant by pinging n take it down was you gotta relax and breath. The suck is worse if you are crazy freaking out. Best example when someone through a blanket over you when u were a kid the more u struggled to get free the worse it felt it got hot felt like there was no air but if you just relaxed whoever was doing it would let you go because it was no fun anymore. Same way w the bitch relax n u can deal w the bitch head on w as clear as a head can be when you are in the suck. Hang in there brother you are not alone it is us against The nic bitch. Today is a new day post roll n I quit w you today. Get numbers pm if u need mine
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Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.
I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.
She reminded me my college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)
Neb,
I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.
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Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.
I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.
She reminded me my college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)
Neb,
I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.
Ndad -
like others have said, welcome aboard, you have made the decision that is gonna impact your life for the best. But as Magnet is trying to say, I believe, is that this is not a quick fix, and after all those years that you had poisoned your body, it will take time to heal and re-program, so give it that chance. And knowing that it is hard, but try to keep a level head.
Yes the first couple of days will be the worst as the nicotene leaves your system and you get the physical withdraws, Most of this time you will be jittery and angry. Make sure you drink enough water, exercise, keep busy to help flush out your system.
As for the support, yes you will get tons here, and you will find that some you will take and internalize and other info that might not be you and you can let go. But another part of that support can be from your home. Let your wife read the spousal support page. Let her read a HOF speech that is by someone else that you look and see alot in common with. My wife had no concept of anything with addiction so she would not know how to help. She read a few things and understood what I was going through.
You can do this, You ARE doing this. I am quit with you today +1. Give me a yell if you need anything
SirDerek
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Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.
I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.
She reminded me my college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)
Neb,
I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.
was able to get a decent night sleep last night., Up this morning and at work needless to say computer screen looks like Farsi or Greek, the suck is coming in waves Trying to get some work done.
Better get back to it.
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Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.
I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.
She reminded me my college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)
Neb,
I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.
was able to get a decent night sleep last night., Up this morning and at work needless to say computer screen looks like Farsi or Greek, the suck is coming in waves Trying to get some work done.
Better get back to it.
Remember this feeling nebrask. Remembering this suck will keep you from caving. Take a good look at what nicotine has done to you. I found out a lot of things about myself during the first couple weeks.
Tobacco has done nothing good for you. Your going to begin seeing all the lies that the nic bitch has been telling you. As things become clear you will be amazed at how different you feel. You will see things the way they were intended. You will want to kick yourself in the ass for letting nicotine run your life for umpteen years. I quit with today my friend.
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Magnet, guess i don't get the "pinging" and "take it down" a bit.
I am breathing through the waves of suck. Just got off phone with wife, she doesn't give a rip that i was chewing as much as hiding it from her like a little fucking kid. going to wait for the wave to subside then head to be.
She reminded me my college aged daughter would come absolutely uncorked if she found out.
(one more reason to stay stopped)
Neb,
I snuck around dipping behind the wife's back for years and then one day just realized the futility and dipped in the open for a long time. Whatever, we all have similar stories with slight variations. My suggestion is to concentrate on getting through the initial 3-5 days of physical withdrawal any way you can. It's very tough but you just need to take things one hour at a time. You can worry about patching things up with the wife later but right now I wouldn't worry about whether she's upset with you. Trust me, she'll be happier with you dip free in the long run.
was able to get a decent night sleep last night., Up this morning and at work needless to say computer screen looks like Farsi or Greek, the suck is coming in waves Trying to get some work done.
Better get back to it.
Remember this feeling nebrask. Remembering this suck will keep you from caving. Take a good look at what nicotine has done to you. I found out a lot of things about myself during the first couple weeks.
Tobacco has done nothing good for you. Your going to begin seeing all the lies that the nic bitch has been telling you. As things become clear you will be amazed at how different you feel. You will see things the way they were intended. You will want to kick yourself in the ass for letting nicotine run your life for umpteen years. I quit with today my friend.
You got this brother...baby steps, one day at a time...sometimes 1 minute at a time...fuck the craves, that's just the addiction talking...stay busy, exercise, drink water like a fish and piss like a bitch! ONE damn day at a time and your sorry ass will "be quit"....I did it, so I know that YOU CAN TOO!!!! It gets wwwwaaaaayyyyyy better, I promise YOU!
'zombie'
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PM me for digits if its easier for you to text than get to a pc. I have a meeting right now but I will be back. Hang in there drink lots of fluids I cant remember who said drink cranberry juice but that seemed to work the best to get me through the beast of the suck. stay hydrated especially if you have your face stuffed with seeds. hang in there my brother you can kick the sucks ass.
T
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PM me for digits if its easier for you to text than get to a pc. I have a meeting right now but I will be back. Hang in there drink lots of fluids I cant remember who said drink cranberry juice but that seemed to work the best to get me through the beast of the suck. stay hydrated especially if you have your face stuffed with seeds. hang in there my brother you can kick the sucks ass.
T
found the fake stuff "smokey mountain" to help with the orals.
doesn't help much use of the sucks..
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Good, you do not want this to be easy. Remember this breathe it, feel it, soak it in, so that when a crave hits later in your quit you can say NOT TODAY, NOT ON MY WATCH.
You can do this, you are the same as us. We are here for you.
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Great conversation with you last night Nebraskadad. I am glad you called. I am glad to see you alive this am lol. All jokes aside I know how it feels. Lot of good advice for you with all these quiters reaching out to you. Remember what I told you last night you may also have some paranoia, I did, and this will make you worry too much about your wife. Focus on your quit, no one else, this is all about u dude!
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Also don't forget to go post roll in August quiters.
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erussell and oflyer thanks for the PM's and ##..
Just on the down side of a big freaking suck, the paranoia about wifey was kicking my ass.
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Its your quit protect it at all costs. When she gets home she might be upset with you this is not an excuse to cave. I am telling you this because this last weekend I had some tough issues come up, in the past I would have been thats it fuck it I cant hang I need my NIC BITCH. Not now with the site with the people and what I have learned the tools I have caving wasnt an option. I grabbed my sac of seeds went at sat on my end gate and reflected on everything I have learned here and got through the tough time without her.
YOU CAN DO THIS we all have
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Nebraska, sorry I missed all this yesterday. I had become a ninja with my wife before I found this place. We've been together 20 years, and she knew I dipped and chewed. Problem was that she thought I quit in early 2010, but I just became a ninja. So, when I finally actually quit in September of that year, things got rough. My rage was unpredictable, and of course she noticed that because my wife and I have always been very close. I think she thought I was having an affair or something. I didn't find KTC for the first 50+ days of quit, so the bottom line was that I was quitting alone. Nicotine was absolutely destroying my life. I remember the day I hit the wall. There was some drama at work, and I was just about to walk over to the c-store for a can. Instead, I hit the internet and wound up here. My whole mindset changed. I eventually came clean with my wife and brought her to KTC, where she did a lot of reading. That was the turning point for me. She became my biggest supporter and has helped me in more ways than I can list here. The problem is that our spouses don't realize this is an actual addiction.
If you haven't already, get your wife to read The spouse's section (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spouse.asp) and let her know what's going on. Help her to understand that you are suffering through a legitimate withdrawal, so that she can help you.
PM me if I can help, sir.
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just got back from lunch and "got the call"
trust is blown out the friggin' window..
'bangin'
I know someone can tell me it comes back but right now i feel like playing handball against the curb.
She said to tell her if I use, I guess that's fair. I don't want to have to tell her that.
Was sucking major when she called sounded like 10 yr old boy busted with smokes. Sick SICK SICK
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do what Radman said get her to the spouses section. That is a huge difference this time is that I have involved my fiance...she is onboard she has helped me daily. she sends me texts saying you are doing great I am proud of you. she knows what day I am on better then I do. Point being get her dont let her give you that statement "She said to tell her if I use, " that is an opening slam the door hate the NIC Bitch
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just got back from lunch and "got the call"
trust is blown out the friggin' window..
'bangin'
I know someone can tell me it comes back but right now i feel like playing handball against the curb.
She said to tell her if I use, I guess that's fair. I don't want to have to tell her that.
Was sucking major when she called sounded like 10 yr old boy busted with smokes. Sick SICK SICK
An addict is an addict. No matter if it's a 10-year old with smokes or a 40-year-old with a dip. Same shit, different dude.
Hang in there bro, hopefully your wife will come to realize that your addiction was lying to her, instead of thinking you were doing it voluntarily. We were all lying addicts. We can fix that.
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just got back from lunch and "got the call"
trust is blown out the friggin' window..
'bangin'
I know someone can tell me it comes back but right now i feel like playing handball against the curb.
She said to tell her if I use, I guess that's fair. I don't want to have to tell her that.
Was sucking major when she called sounded like 10 yr old boy busted with smokes. Sick SICK SICK
An addict is an addict. No matter if it's a 10-year old with smokes or a 40-year-old with a dip. Same shit, different dude.
Hang in there bro, hopefully your wife will come to realize that your addiction was lying to her, instead of thinking you were doing it voluntarily. We were all lying addicts. We can fix that.
I know it sounds strange but congrats. Tear it down so you can build it back stronger than ever. You're closing the door to this addiction that has held you hostage for YEARS. Take your life back and do it with your wife by your side. Damn proud if you brother.
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been in meeting for a couple hours. Just hit the 24 hour period were she busted my ass. another 2hours and will be at the 24 hour time.
Anyone experience stiff neck? is it part of suck or something else.
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been in meeting for a couple hours. Just hit the 24 hour period were she busted my ass. another 2hours and will be at the 24 hour time.
Anyone experience stiff neck? is it part of suck or something else.
Big time stiff neck and stiff sore jaw, definitely full blown suck. Don't ever forget this.
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water and exercise in heavy doses - wash out the toxins - sweat out the rage
Go find the spousal support - link is on the killthecan.org page - print it out ~ then sit down with your wife and ask for her help.
Wake up and post roll
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On the bottom end of the afternoon suck.
I've have made it 23hours, and wish i could close off the world and sleep through the suckiness.
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On the bottom end of the afternoon suck.
I've have made it 23hours, and wish i could close off the world and sleep through the suckiness.
Go for an hour walk. Hour by hour bro......you got this.....
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been in meeting for a couple hours. Just hit the 24 hour period were she busted my ass. another 2hours and will be at the 24 hour time.
Anyone experience stiff neck? is it part of suck or something else.
Big time stiff neck and stiff sore jaw, definitely full blown suck. Don't ever forget this.
I had neck stiffness so severe and long lasting that I eventually had an MRI done to make sure I didn't have a cancerous tumor. It's hilarious to me now. That's why guys say to remember the suck. There is NO WAY I'm ever going through that again. But all I need to know, is that I'm not dipping today. Can't. I gave all you guys me word at roll this morning. It's just that simple.
You can get through this. You will get through this. You know how I know? Because I see you signed your name to roll today.
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24+2 and sucking like hell.
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24+2 and sucking like hell.
You know what 24+2 stands for?? Let me tell you what I believe it stands for.
26 hours of you taking you life back. 26 Hours of you telling the nic bitch no more! It tells me that for at least one day you haven't went down to the store and threw away your hard earned money on something that is killing you, causing you to lie, and taking you dignity. It stands for 26 hours of freedom. It stands for you having enough balls to say, enough is enough. If I was you I would go outside and shout to the world that you've had enough. F--k the nic bitch!!
Start getting your mind right. You don't need it and never did. It is a sick addiction that has done nothing for you, but take, take, take.
You are one day into making your life so much better than it was. Take a good look at yourself,, something that is making you feel like this can't be good for you.
I quit with you today! I say we wake up tomorrow and do the same.
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Question??
How long does suck last?
Got pukey after supper, ok now
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Question??
How long does suck last?
Got pukey after supper, ok now
It lasts however long it lasts. Totally different for everyone. For most people, things start to turn around after a few days. Your episodes will become less frequent, and you will have developed tools to handle it better.
Two things that helped me were unsweetened cranberry juice and sugar free gum. The juice is great for killing craves (so sour) and it helps detox your system. Gum gives your mouth something to do. Just don't overdue it or you'll give yourself tmj. I also basically lived in the chatroom for the first few weeks.
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24+2 and sucking like hell.
You know what 24+2 stands for?? Let me tell you what I believe it stands for.
26 hours of you taking you life back. 26 Hours of you telling the nic bitch no more! It tells me that for at least one day you haven't went down to the store and threw away your hard earned money on something that is killing you, causing you to lie, and taking you dignity. It stands for 26 hours of freedom. It stands for you having enough balls to say, enough is enough. If I was you I would go outside and shout to the world that you've had enough. F--k the nic bitch!!
Start getting your mind right. You don't need it and never did. It is a sick addiction that has done nothing for you, but take, take, take.
You are one day into making your life so much better than it was. Take a good look at yourself,, something that is making you feel like this can't be good for you.
I quit with you today! I say we wake up tomorrow and do the same.
Nothing I can possibly add, this is so well said. So I will just say I second this perfect reply. I quit with you today.
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Question??
How long does suck last?
Got pukey after supper, ok now
It lasts however long it lasts. Totally different for everyone. For most people, things start to turn around after a few days. Your episodes will become less frequent, and you will have developed tools to handle it better.
Two things that helped me were unsweetened cranberry juice and sugar free gum. The juice is great for killing craves (so sour) and it helps detox your system. Gum gives your mouth something to do. Just don't overdue it or you'll give yourself tmj. I also basically lived in the chatroom for the first few weeks.
Here is the deal - the SUCK is your foundation.....embrace it, love it, own it....man the fuck up....you got this....the nic will be physically out of your system in 72 hours....you are 1/3 the way there.....after that, its a fucking head game. Personally, for me, my brain didnt really re-wire until well past 200 days.....but the shit will be gone in 48 hours......you can do anything for 48 hours, can't you? just post roll everyday and be a mean mother fucker.....change your voice.....the bitch isnt your voice anymore....YOU ARE THE VOICE.....repeat after me and respond with....
NOW I AM THE VOICE!!!!!!!
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Going to bed to sleep down the suck
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Going to bed to sleep down the suck
And just like that, you made it to home base. Bed is safe. And before you ask, yes - insomnia is part of it. I hardly slept for over a week.
Welcome to the next day, every day is better than the last. Before you read another word, go post roll. First thing, every damn day, no compromise, period.
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Going to bed to sleep down the suck
And just like that, you made it to home base. Bed is safe. And before you ask, yes - insomnia is part of it. I hardly slept for over a week.
Welcome to the next day, every day is better than the last. Before you read another word, go post roll. First thing, every damn day, no compromise, period.
From the way things went yesterday, id say you've been through some shit. Not going to lie. Today probably isn't going to be much better. Ask yourself How bad do I want freedom. How bad do I want my life back. I can't answer for you, but I'll leave some room for you to fill in.
Today is very important. There is no doubt in my mind you can do this. You know what to expect. Post roll and keep your word. It is as simple as that. Everything will start improving quicker then you think. The first few seem like weeks but they are just another day. Glad to quit with you today...
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1. you no what keeps me quit? i still rememember that first week. i aint gonna ever do it agin.
2. atomick fire balls. good for the orel fixashun and leeves your breth cinaminny fresh.
3. do like these guys say and get your wife on here. have her reed the spouses sectshun. then let her reed what ever she wants. your gonna be a reel dick for a week or so. she needs to no it aint you and it aint her. we all went thru it.
4. did you reed jenny and tom kerns story. reed it. then reed it agin with your wife.
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Nebraskadad. You got my number. If today gets tough call me or one if the guys before you can cave. Keep your promise, it's just for today.
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Nebraskadad, hold your head high today, you have a quit going and you're a man of your word. It will build over time as will the trust from your wife. She'll also be very proud as you transform into a badass quitter.
Quick story you might relate to. 704 days ago a woman I had just started dating saw a can of Kodiak in my car. She was pretty disappointed and I knew that 26 years of dipping was enough. I also knew I only had one opportunity to do this the right way. So far I've kept my promise to myself and stayed quit one day at a time.
I know you can too. We all know this about you even though you might not know it yourself yet. Why? Because we've been exactly where you are.
We'll believe in you and carry your load until you're strong enough to believe in yourself.
BTW, I married that woman last July. She still asks about my quit and your wife will too.
I'm quit with you today, Pirate style.
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NEB Dad
today is new day we were all here with you yesterday we are here again. post your roll give us your promise. I quit with you today
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Present and accounted for. Suck is still happening.
Got to try and get some work done.
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Proud of you. Keep plugging away. I will be available today, call if you need to.
It does get easier, I promise.
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Proud of you. Keep plugging away. I will be available today, call if you need to.
It does get easier, I promise.
thx OF.
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Proud of you. Keep plugging away. I will be available today, call if you need to.
It does get easier, I promise.
thx OF.
He's right. Man, EVERYTHING gets better as your quit goes on. You and your wife will both see that. I'm the best man I've been since the late 80s. Life is good bro. Fight through these first days and you'll love it.
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Ex Ninja dipper here as well.
Hang in there it does get better with time. I can tell you it does feel great to be able to spend time with the wife without thinking of ways to sneak off for a dip. I wish I could have all the stolen time back. I remember sneaking away from Christmas dinners and holidays to get a dip in. What honey, we need a bag of ice...Sure I will go get it, and take the long way back...
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Ex Ninja dipper here as well.
Hang in there it does get better with time. I can tell you it does feel great to be able to spend time with the wife without thinking of ways to sneak off for a dip. I wish I could have all the stolen time back. I remember sneaking away from Christmas dinners and holidays to get a dip in. What honey, we need a bag of ice...Sure I will go get it, and take the long way back...
LOL you have my number.. the bag of ice you been around my house man? LOL
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Ex Ninja dipper here as well.Â
Hang in there it does get better with time. I can tell you it does feel great to be able to spend time with the wife without thinking of ways to sneak off for a dip. I wish I could have all the stolen time back. I remember sneaking away from Christmas dinners and holidays to get a dip in. What honey, we need a bag of ice...Sure I will go get it, and take the long way back...
LOL you have my number.. the bag of ice you been around my house man? LOL
I used to dread family vacations because I could not dip. I would sneak off during vacations, buy a can, take two dips and throw it away before going back to hotel. One time I transferred a can into a ziplock bag so I could sneak it on a cruise ship. Once on the ship I hid my baggy in a planter....I don't miss that lifestyle
I read all 4 pages of your introduction. Hang in there buddy. I quit with you today.
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Ex Ninja dipper here as well.Â
Hang in there it does get better with time. I can tell you it does feel great to be able to spend time with the wife without thinking of ways to sneak off for a dip. I wish I could have all the stolen time back. I remember sneaking away from Christmas dinners and holidays to get a dip in. What honey, we need a bag of ice...Sure I will go get it, and take the long way back...
LOL you have my number.. the bag of ice you been around my house man? LOL
I used to dread family vacations because I could not dip. I would sneak off during vacations, buy a can, take two dips and throw it away before going back to hotel. One time I transferred a can into a ziplock bag so I could sneak it on a cruise ship. Once on the ship I hid my baggy in a planter....I don't miss that lifestyle
I read all 4 pages of your introduction. Hang in there buddy. I quit with you today.
I would use the Oliver Twist pluglets for Vacation. small can fit stealth mode perfect. put in a plug it would last all afternoon. I have given up my right to those as well.
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Ex Ninja dipper here as well.Â
Hang in there it does get better with time. I can tell you it does feel great to be able to spend time with the wife without thinking of ways to sneak off for a dip. I wish I could have all the stolen time back. I remember sneaking away from Christmas dinners and holidays to get a dip in. What honey, we need a bag of ice...Sure I will go get it, and take the long way back...
LOL you have my number.. the bag of ice you been around my house man? LOL
I used to dread family vacations because I could not dip. I would sneak off during vacations, buy a can, take two dips and throw it away before going back to hotel. One time I transferred a can into a ziplock bag so I could sneak it on a cruise ship. Once on the ship I hid my baggy in a planter....I don't miss that lifestyle
I read all 4 pages of your introduction. Hang in there buddy. I quit with you today.
I found the Oliver Twist pluglets for Vacation. small can fit stealth mode perfect. put in a plug it would last all afternoon.
on my first 24 hours...hang in there...i have quit before for a few months only to fall back to it, however, i didn't have as much support from people that knew exactly what i was going through like we do here. Lean on these guys...i have a ton of confidence in myself now that i have talked to a few people on here...cheers!
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Nebraskadad, how you holding up man? It's tough just keep going dude. I quit with you!
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Nebraskadad, how you holding up man? It's tough just keep going dude. I quit with you!
erussell,
moving on along. 47 hours into it. one hour left at work, then home..
thought about getting a can of the fake stuff on way home. Gum sucks.
Had kind of a rush at the kwiktrip on way back from lunch, asked if they had the "fake stuff" smokey mountain, he was pushing me toward the nicotine smokeless cigs.
took the gum and boogied.
to get the fake stuff you got to face the devil himself at the tobacconist.
armed with knowledge doesn't do it. belief that i'd let my wife down, let you guys down, let myself down, and let my higher power down, is guiding me right now.
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Nebraskadad, how you holding up man? It's tough just keep going dude. I quit with you!
erussell,
moving on along. 47 hours into it. one hour left at work, then home..
thought about getting a can of the fake stuff on way home. Gum sucks.
Had kind of a rush at the kwiktrip on way back from lunch, asked if they had the "fake stuff" smokey mountain, he was pushing me toward the nicotine smokeless cigs.
took the gum and boogied.
to get the fake stuff you got to face the devil himself at the tobacconist.
armed with knowledge doesn't do it. belief that i'd let my wife down, let you guys down, let myself down, and let my higher power down, is guiding me right now.
Here is my thought on the fake stuff....if it works for you then by all means do it till you drop...as for myself...even if i fake it with the "fake stuff" i know i am giving myself permission to put something in my mouth that emulates the very thing i'm trying to quit. BEAR DOWN!!!
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Yea I didn't use the fake stuff, just seemed like to much effort to get ahold of for not as much benefit. I love seeds and the fake stuff I don't think would trick my brain enough so best to get my brain to forget by keeping it busy on seeds rather than what would most likely be a feeble attempt to deceive my addiction. Just my plan everyone is different. You have in ere man. Lot of post on your subject! You got a lot of folks pulling for you. I quit with you this evening!
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Nebraskadad, how you holding up man? It's tough just keep going dude. I quit with you!
erussell,
moving on along. 47 hours into it. one hour left at work, then home..
thought about getting a can of the fake stuff on way home. Gum sucks.
Had kind of a rush at the kwiktrip on way back from lunch, asked if they had the "fake stuff" smokey mountain, he was pushing me toward the nicotine smokeless cigs.
took the gum and boogied.
to get the fake stuff you got to face the devil himself at the tobacconist.
armed with knowledge doesn't do it. belief that i'd let my wife down, let you guys down, let myself down, and let my higher power down, is guiding me right now.
Here is my thought on the fake stuff....if it works for you then by all means do it till you drop...as for myself...even if i fake it with the "fake stuff" i know i am giving myself permission to put something in my mouth that emulates the very thing i'm trying to quit. BEAR DOWN!!!
I agree with Jayd41 on both points...if the fake stuff helps, use it. But, I really like the second point...BEAR DOWN! You can do this!
Embrace the suck. When a trigger or a cave comes along, don't duck, hide or substitute something else...take it head-the-fuck-on!!! Tell the Nic Bitch that she's gonna have to do better than that because you shut her shit down down for today when you posted roll and gave your word. It abso-fucking-lutely ain't gonna happen today. Done.
Most craves only last a few minutes. Of course, at first they are very frequent, but only last a few minutes. So, take a walk, push-ups, water, exercise, whatever non-nicotine activity you want. I kept a can of the fake stuff in my golf bag and one in the truck just in case. Then after a couple of months, I trashed them, too...and wish I had done it sooner.
YOU CAN DO THIS, BROTHER!!!
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Nebraskadad, how you holding up man? It's tough just keep going dude. I quit with you!
erussell,
moving on along. 47 hours into it. one hour left at work, then home..
thought about getting a can of the fake stuff on way home. Gum sucks.
Had kind of a rush at the kwiktrip on way back from lunch, asked if they had the "fake stuff" smokey mountain, he was pushing me toward the nicotine smokeless cigs.
took the gum and boogied.
to get the fake stuff you got to face the devil himself at the tobacconist.
armed with knowledge doesn't do it. belief that i'd let my wife down, let you guys down, let myself down, and let my higher power down, is guiding me right now.
Here is my thought on the fake stuff....if it works for you then by all means do it till you drop...as for myself...even if i fake it with the "fake stuff" i know i am giving myself permission to put something in my mouth that emulates the very thing i'm trying to quit. BEAR DOWN!!!
I agree with Jayd41 on both points...if the fake stuff helps, use it. But, I really like the second point...BEAR DOWN! You can do this!
Embrace the suck. When a trigger or a cave comes along, don't duck, hide or substitute something else...take it head-the-fuck-on!!! Tell the Nic Bitch that she's gonna have to do better than that because you shut her shit down down for today when you posted roll and gave your word. It abso-fucking-lutely ain't gonna happen today. Done.
Most craves only last a few minutes. Of course, at first they are very frequent, but only last a few minutes. So, take a walk, push-ups, water, exercise, whatever non-nicotine activity you want. I kept a can of the fake stuff in my golf bag and one in the truck just in case. Then after a couple of months, I trashed them, too...and wish I had done it sooner.
YOU CAN DO THIS, BROTHER!!!
NBAdad,, your over 48 hours,, that's bad ass. Not getting ahead,, but two more days of this and the physical part is over. Then the real healing begins. All the damage you've done over the years will now be repaired. You have started to reclaim your life. Your life no longer belongs to the nic bitch.
For 48 hours you've been taking your life, freedom, health and dignity back. I'll bet that's two can's of shit you haven't spent your hard earned money on. Your now beginning to own this quit,, how do I know?? I haven't read much from you today,, this tells me your taking care of business.
One day at a time my friend. I promise,, as each day goes by, things get so much easier.
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THANKS!! ktc.. still kicking. went to supper with wife.
watching tv and winding down for the night.
Some waves of suck but shit happens. Getting bout bedtime for this old man.
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Since you went to bed I hope you don't read this until time to post, I hope you sleep a full night. Okay go post roll and get you game face on again today. We are August. We practice winning everyday. You only have to promise for today. And once you make that promise we will not break it. I am happy to quit with u today!
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taking day off run errands and get through some of the foggy stuff
Sleep was OK. until 430, the dog starting whining and had to go out and take a dump from the trash can he had dumped and ate last night. :angry: didn't really get back to sleep.
65 hours in. I will check back in later after some errands.
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taking day off run errands and get through some of the foggy stuff
Sleep was OK. until 430, the dog starting whining and had to go out and take a dump from the trash can he had dumped and ate last night. :angry: didn't really get back to sleep.
65 hours in. I will check back in later after some errands.
Well done!!! But 65 hours, 65 days, 65 years...none of that matters. The ONLY thing that matters is today, right now. You're living free. Don't look back, don't look ahead. Just focus on today.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
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taking day off run errands and get through some of the foggy stuff
Sleep was OK. until 430, the dog starting whining and had to go out and take a dump from the trash can he had dumped and ate last night. :angry: didn't really get back to sleep.
65 hours in. I will check back in later after some errands.
Well done!!! But 65 hours, 65 days, 65 years...none of that matters. The ONLY thing that matters is today, right now. You're living free. Don't look back, don't look ahead. Just focus on today.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
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taking day off run errands and get through some of the foggy stuff
Sleep was OK. until 430, the dog starting whining and had to go out and take a dump from the trash can he had dumped and ate last night. :angry: didn't really get back to sleep.
65 hours in. I will check back in later after some errands.
Well done!!! But 65 hours, 65 days, 65 years...none of that matters. The ONLY thing that matters is today, right now. You're living free. Don't look back, don't look ahead. Just focus on today.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Listen to Mr. Bean. He's a badass quitter!!! Always speaks the truth!! 'bang head'
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nebraskadad, Hope your day went well, i took a few days off work mysef when I first quit. It is so hard to focus. Hope your day is going well. BTW how is it going with the wife, if its not too personal to ask?
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Nebraskadad
Just a quick note to say "stay solid." You are going to get a lot of advise on this site. One of the things that almost tripped me up was people telling me that the physical part of it was over after a week. I want you to know that I have not found that to be true -- I'm on day 86 and I still get physical symptoms -- imagined or otherwise. I would get very angry early on in my quit because my quit didn't fit the mold and for a time paranoia set in and I was convinced people were just telling me shit to keep me quit for the day. I've come to realize evry quit is different, but the benefits are bitchin!
I want you to know that even though it's a tough road, it's a great road. Like all things worthwhile, there is a price to be paid and the greater the reward the greater the price. The price will be great, but there is no substitue for freedom! If necessary, I will deal with the cravings and the occasional crazy spells because I have tasted freedom and nothing is worth going back to Nicotine State Penitentiary!
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72 hours.
some ups and downs, edrussell, chukar. I appreciate the heads up. I am not looking past today.
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72 hours.
some ups and downs, edrussell, chukar. I appreciate the heads up. I am not looking past today.
72 you know what that means? Go outside and take a good look around. I mean a good look! You are now looking at the world without nicotine clouding your mind. No more nicotine running through your blood. Now you are seeying the world the way it was intended. The first time I realized that i shed a tear.
Quit on my friend. Glad to be quit with you.
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72 hours.
some ups and downs, edrussell, chukar. I appreciate the heads up. I am not looking past today.
72 you know what that means? Go outside and take a good look around. I mean a good look! You are now looking at the world without nicotine clouding your mind. No more nicotine running through your blood. Now you are seeying the world the way it was intended. The first time I realized that i shed a tear.
Quit on my friend. Glad to be quit with you.
That's right Srans. The most amazing part for me so far was to realize how things are so different without the nic in my system. Nebraskadad keep keeping your daily promise you are getting there man. And so many of us are truly hopping to see you make it it would crush the world if you cave. More than your atmosphere depends on your quit. I quit with you today brother.
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72 hours.
some ups and downs, edrussell, chukar. I appreciate the heads up. I am not looking past today.
72 you know what that means? Go outside and take a good look around. I mean a good look! You are now looking at the world without nicotine clouding your mind. No more nicotine running through your blood. Now you are seeying the world the way it was intended. The first time I realized that i shed a tear.
Quit on my friend. Glad to be quit with you.
That's right Srans. The most amazing part for me so far was to realize how things are so different without the nic in my system. Nebraskadad keep keeping your daily promise you are getting there man. And so many of us are truly hopping to see you make it it would crush the world if you cave. More than your atmosphere depends on your quit. I quit with you today brother.
Wife said she was optimistically pessimistic last night.
I am still getting a periodic mother of a SUCK will abate with something oral.
need to get to work but figured i'd check in with you all.
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nebraskadad58, continue being optimistically persistant in your Quit and show her you mean business this time. My wife continued to roll her eyes during my early Quit based on my previous Quits. We have finally reached a point where she actually listens when I relate mine and others Quit stories!
It is definitely worth the effort to get beyond the addiction symptoms and finally live without the slavery of the can. You can do this this one day at a time!
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Has she read the spouse page ? Try to get her on the site and navigate thru the stories. Either way, you are quit for yourself. I stand proudly with you.
Weekend is here, have a plan for any craves. Have your #'s close by just in case.
Stay strong.
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Get on it this weekend! Take the wife out on a date...have some chicken, maybe some sex...you know, see what happens. :lol: No really, i quit with you today and all weekend!
Boiler up!
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72 hours.
some ups and downs, edrussell, chukar. I appreciate the heads up. I am not looking past today.
72 you know what that means? Go outside and take a good look around. I mean a good look! You are now looking at the world without nicotine clouding your mind. No more nicotine running through your blood. Now you are seeying the world the way it was intended. The first time I realized that i shed a tear.
Quit on my friend. Glad to be quit with you.
That's right Srans. The most amazing part for me so far was to realize how things are so different without the nic in my system. Nebraskadad keep keeping your daily promise you are getting there man. And so many of us are truly hopping to see you make it it would crush the world if you cave. More than your atmosphere depends on your quit. I quit with you today brother.
Wife said she was optimistically pessimistic last night.
I am still getting a periodic mother of a SUCK will abate with something oral.
need to get to work but figured i'd check in with you all.
Rock it ND! You are doing great. Keep up the good work through the weekend. Just think of how proud you are when you wake up in the morning and another day of quit is behind you.
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Nebraska hope you have a good weekend. You have my number. The site can get a little slow on the weekend so if you hit a wall and not enough to keep you busy here you callme. Erussell is quit with you man.
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ER, hope you are having a good weekend as well. I am having a bit of a sucky wave right now. Gotta to run out of town for a graduation thing, and feeling my old triggers hittting me.
i know it will pass, but is sucking a bit right now and just needed to admit it to someone.
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Neb dad grab yourself a bag full of seeds and cup n reach for them when u feel a crave u r rewiring retrain yourself crave =seeds. Or gum. Nic is gone just the head game now quit w u today brother
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Actually I too have craved symptomaticly today. Missing the seeds but the tip of my tounge is so raw from the alt I guess, that I need a day off lmao. Trau you and neb hang in there brothers.
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made it back to town..no cave.. did gum but got friggin annoying..
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Very proud of you and er, good support of each other. Stay strong, as was said already head games now. You are getting stronger each minute, hour and day.
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Fake chew, ginger, atomic fireballs, rabbit droppings.....whatever it takes. And keep posting first thing in the morning....nothing better than reaching for the (nonexistent) can in your pocket/hide hole, then realizing that it's simply NOT AN OPTION today, because you're word is good, and you've already posted roll. Great job guys. Glad to be quit with you.
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thanks all,
finally weekend over. my major trigger was driving by myself to visit out state family.. some craving, no caving..
did get the fake stuff, it did seem to help with the head games i was playing with myself.
i
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thanks all,
finally weekend over. my major trigger was driving by myself to visit out state family.. some craving, no caving..
did get the fake stuff, it did seem to help with the head games i was playing with myself.
i
Whatever it takes Brother to "not" put the poison in our mouths! If it means singing mary had a little lamb while we scratch our balls, then so be it. 'Crazy'
NAFAR ODAAT
Cheers! 'bang head'
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thanks all,
finally weekend over. my major trigger was driving by myself to visit out state family.. some craving, no caving..
did get the fake stuff, it did seem to help with the head games i was playing with myself.
i
Whatever it takes Brother to "not" put the poison in our mouths! If it means singing mary had a little lamb while we scratch our balls, then so be it. 'Crazy'
NAFAR ODAAT
Cheers! 'bang head'
Hey NB -
if you can just picture 30 scratching his balls and singing, I think that alone would kill any cravings you may have (and get sick....LOL 'Crazy' )
Anyway well done on the weekend victory, remember what you did as there are many more ahead, but that will also bring many more good times.
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thanks all,
finally weekend over. my major trigger was driving by myself to visit out state family.. some craving, no caving..
did get the fake stuff, it did seem to help with the head games i was playing with myself.
i
Whatever it takes Brother to "not" put the poison in our mouths! If it means singing mary had a little lamb while we scratch our balls, then so be it. 'Crazy'
NAFAR ODAAT
Cheers! 'bang head'
Hey NB -
if you can just picture 30 scratching his balls and singing, I think that alone would kill any cravings you may have (and get sick....LOL 'Crazy' )
Anyway well done on the weekend victory, remember what you did as there are many more ahead, but that will also bring many more good times.
I am a little slow on the uptake.
Each day gets a little bit better.
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thanks all,
finally weekend over. my major trigger was driving by myself to visit out state family.. some craving, no caving..
did get the fake stuff, it did seem to help with the head games i was playing with myself.
i
Whatever it takes Brother to "not" put the poison in our mouths! If it means singing mary had a little lamb while we scratch our balls, then so be it. 'Crazy'
NAFAR ODAAT
Cheers! 'bang head'
Hey NB -
if you can just picture 30 scratching his balls and singing, I think that alone would kill any cravings you may have (and get sick....LOL 'Crazy' )
Anyway well done on the weekend victory, remember what you did as there are many more ahead, but that will also bring many more good times.
I am a little slow on the uptake.
Each day gets a little bit better.
:rolleyes:
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thanks all,
finally weekend over. my major trigger was driving by myself to visit out state family.. some craving, no caving..
did get the fake stuff, it did seem to help with the head games i was playing with myself.
i
Whatever it takes Brother to "not" put the poison in our mouths! If it means singing mary had a little lamb while we scratch our balls, then so be it. 'Crazy'
NAFAR ODAAT
Cheers! 'bang head'
Hey NB -
if you can just picture 30 scratching his balls and singing, I think that alone would kill any cravings you may have (and get sick....LOL 'Crazy' )
Anyway well done on the weekend victory, remember what you did as there are many more ahead, but that will also bring many more good times.
I am a little slow on the uptake.
Each day gets a little bit better.
:rolleyes:
tackle each trigger one at a time! You will soon find out that things in your world that you associated having a dip with function just fine without a load your pie-hole! Keep up good work!!!
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In a bit of a fog this morning, sorry for not posting earlier.
Get to work and hit the ground running.
I am hoping the fog lifts soon, seems the worst of the crazy cravings have abated. I seem able to swim through those with out too much problem.. I need my brain back from the fog.
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In a bit of a fog this morning, sorry for not posting earlier.
Get to work and hit the ground running.
I am hoping the fog lifts soon, seems the worst of the crazy cravings have abated. I seem able to swim through those with out too much problem.. I need my brain back from the fog.
I am with you Nebraskadad. I am 15 days in and still missing my freaking brain. I miss my brain way more than I miss the copenhagen, seriously I miss being able to process thoughts. Hell I miss being able to have thoughts LMAO. We will get it back, and when we do we will never ever ever ever never, for any reason ever. put that shit into our bodies again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We know how long this bullshit takes us to get over. However long it takes we only have to quit today, and I quit with you today Bro.
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Oh yeah!!!! It gets a lot better when you are off this stuff. Quit one day at a time!!!!
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Didnt see you post roll today you Ok?
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Didnt see you post roll today you Ok?
Ed, I did notice my Roll Call post got lost today..
Posted: May 22, 2013, 7:59 am
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QUOTE (Romandog @ May 22, 2013, 7:46 am)
BAD ASS AUGUST QUITTERS
If your quit dat e is between 4/24/2013 and 5/24/2013, this is your quit group.
1. Be sure to visit the WELCOME CENTER for what you need to know to get started
2. Stop by Introductions and tell us something about yourself
3 Know what to expect when you quit is found here and here
4 Print this contract Contract to give ,up... , put it in your wallet and commit to signing it before you can take another dip.
5. Read about Tom and Jenny Kern , It will be a tough read-but do it, start from the bottom.
6. Now you are ready, Post ROLL CALL Follow directions below or how to post roll
7. For inspiration stop by Words of Wisdom and HOF Speeches
You can do this! We are all here to support your quit!
The KTC community.
Wise Man Once Said "Keep on Keeping on!" ODAAT
TODAY is Wednesday, May 22nd 2013
...Tell us about yourself's; after all, you have now found your brothers from other mothers'
New Kick ASS Quitters (post below)
Killin'It21, 5/21/13, Wasted money for the last six years of my life, Time to quit and start Livin' with no regrets. (up here, home skillet)
Crg031- day 14- two weeks! I quit today with Eric and mike.
Shyronnie - day 4 - Will be free today (fixed)
Jday6591 - Day 2 - Look forward to today not tomorrow
Matt F - D-4. Your humble quitter
mtommasi- Day 3- I quit today
Highcotton- Day 16- On the phone again, keep quittin fellas.
nebraskadad58 Day 16 Still Quit
jlud007 - Day 2 Quit today embracing the suck
BigRed - Day 8 - I am quit!
michaelw - 2 weeks today. proud to be quit another day with this group
Jake Frawley- day 4. Gonna be a good day. Even if its bad, its good because we are quit.
Chaddy08 - Day 8 - I am quit today with the rest of August!
Shooter1414- I am quit today!
dgreak - day 14 - 2 weeks (bumped)
Hambone007- day 11 today I quit with August
KC_Guy day 3. Last night was really rough. I didnt sleep much.
kevvbob12- day 14, 2 weeks here ! quit with phil mark ron and the rest of august
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In a bit of a fog this morning, sorry for not posting earlier.
Get to work and hit the ground running.
I am hoping the fog lifts soon, seems the worst of the crazy cravings have abated. I seem able to swim through those with out too much problem.. I need my brain back from the fog.
I am with you Nebraskadad. I am 15 days in and still missing my freaking brain. I miss my brain way more than I miss the copenhagen, seriously I miss being able to process thoughts. Hell I miss being able to have thoughts LMAO. We will get it back, and when we do we will never ever ever ever never, for any reason ever. put that shit into our bodies again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We know how long this bullshit takes us to get over. However long it takes we only have to quit today, and I quit with you today Bro.
I still seem to get into the haze too, day 16 here. I've found staying busy helps alot, down time is a killer. We're wide open baling hay, and keeping equipment going hasn't left much idle time. Bouts of fog seem to be getting further apart and not quite as severe.
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Ed, I did notice my Roll Call post got lost today..
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QUOTE (Romandog @ May 22, 2013, 7:46 am)
BAD ASS AUGUST QUITTERS
If your quit dat e is between 4/24/2013 and 5/24/2013, this is your quit group.
1. Be sure to visit the WELCOME CENTER for what you need to know to get started
2. Stop by Introductions and tell us something about yourself
3 Know what to expect when you quit is found here and here
4 Print this contract Contract to give ,up... , put it in your wallet and commit to signing it before you can take another dip.
5. Read about Tom and Jenny Kern , It will be a tough read-but do it, start from the bottom.
6. Now you are ready, Post ROLL CALL Follow directions below or how to post roll
7. For inspiration stop by Words of Wisdom and HOF Speeches
You can do this! We are all here to support your quit!
The KTCÂ community.
Wise Man Once Said "Keep on Keeping on!" ODAAT
TODAY is Wednesday, May 22nd 2013
...Tell us about yourself's; after all, you have now found your brothers from other mothers'
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New Kick ASS Quitters (post below)
Killin'It21, 5/21/13, Wasted money for the last six years of my life, Time to quit and start Livin' with no regrets. (up here, home skillet)
Crg031- day 14- two weeks! I quit today with Eric and mike.
Shyronnie - day 4 - Will be free today (fixed)
Jday6591 - Day 2 - Look forward to today not tomorrow
Matt F - D-4. Your humble quitter
mtommasi- Day 3- I quit today
Highcotton- Day 16- On the phone again, keep quittin fellas.
nebraskadad58 Day 16 Still Quit
jlud007 - Day 2Â Quit today embracing the suck
BigRed - Day 8 - I am quit!
michaelw - 2 weeks today. proud to be quit another day with this group
Jake Frawley- day 4. Gonna be a good day. Even if its bad, its good because we are quit.
Chaddy08 - Day 8 - I am quit today with the rest of August!
Shooter1414- I am quit today!
dgreak - day 14 - 2 weeks (bumped)
Hambone007- day 11 today I quit with August
KC_Guy day 3. Last night was really rough. I didnt sleep much.
kevvbob12- day 14, 2 weeks here ! quit with phil mark ron and the rest of august
You are back on the roll. You got bumped right after you posted this morning.
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Awesome just looking out for a brother. Yea I'm in the twenties and have foggy moments. Hang in there getting better. I quit with you.
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains. 'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains. 'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
It's Funny because The NIC Bitch knows you are strong in your quit with chew. So she try's to subconsciously lure you back through an old vice you had..... that's not chew. So maybe that will be ok this time. She thinks she is slick! But you know her trick already! I don't need to tell you to be strong. Your there already
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains. 'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
It's Funny because The NIC Bitch knows you are strong in your quit with chew. So she try's to subconsciously lure you back through an old vice you had..... that's not chew. So maybe that will be ok this time. She thinks she is slick! But you know her trick already! I don't need to tell you to be strong. Your there already
Mine are cig dreams now, and I never smoked!
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Nebdad,
I bet you will take a nic dream anyday over your first days here. I am proud of ya you pulled through it...aches and pains are nothing compared to the venom of the nic bitch...quit with you today...I been having cigar dreams I havent smoked one in years...
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains. 'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
YES. It is normal for quitters to have that shit. You are NOT ALONE. Hell I'm 4 days from a year and still get some anxiety. I'll take it over cancer and being controlled by the nic bitch any day of the week. I does get better though, I'm not trying to scare you by any means. Just being honest.
Keep on fighting. And keep everything in ONE intro. It's cooler to look back on ALL this shit one day when it's under one roof, sort of speak. (I also did this when I first quit, had like 4 intros going).
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains. 'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
YES. It is normal for quitters to have that shit. You are NOT ALONE. Hell I'm 4 days from a year and still get some anxiety. I'll take it over cancer and being controlled by the nic bitch any day of the week. I does get better though, I'm not trying to scare you by any means. Just being honest.
Keep on fighting. And keep everything in ONE intro. It's cooler to look back on ALL this shit one day when it's under one roof, sort of speak. (I also did this when I first quit, had like 4 intros going).
yea.,
I didn't think about the Intro thing.
Just needed to vent the fucking anxiety. mild ear ache in my head is morphed into jaw cancer probably just the fucking pollen and normal spring sinus infection.. any one else play that head game?
Feeling a little paranoid crazy right now about it .. Not about the quit but the result of my usage.
My normal dental appt is 3 month away. I have always been religious about it. and things have been good on that..
I can handle the nic dreams. just want the fear and anxiety (and minor aches to disappear)
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains.  'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
YES. It is normal for quitters to have that shit. You are NOT ALONE. Hell I'm 4 days from a year and still get some anxiety. I'll take it over cancer and being controlled by the nic bitch any day of the week. I does get better though, I'm not trying to scare you by any means. Just being honest.
Keep on fighting. And keep everything in ONE intro. It's cooler to look back on ALL this shit one day when it's under one roof, sort of speak. (I also did this when I first quit, had like 4 intros going).
yea.,
I didn't think about the Intro thing.
Just needed to vent the fucking anxiety. mild ear ache in my head is morphed into jaw cancer probably just the fucking pollen and normal spring sinus infection.. any one else play that head game?
Feeling a little paranoid crazy right now about it .. Not about the quit but the result of my usage.
My normal dental appt is 3 month away. I have always been religious about it. and things have been good on that..
I can handle the nic dreams. just want the fear and anxiety (and minor aches to disappear)
Yes. I can. I did the same shit. Everytime I'd have a stomach ache, a cold, the flu, bit my tongue, had a canker sore, etc...every day normal shit, I blamed it on my quit and thought I was dieing, which caused me mass quantities of anxiety.
Dont do the same. Its a fucking waste and will cause you useless anxiety that will only make things worse.
I'm no doctor but i can almost guarantee you are fine. Make an appointment to get a physical, push up your dental appointment date for piece of mind if you wish.
I know from experience this is WAAAAAY easier said than done, but don't let the nic bitch play head games with you.
Hang tough bro. Youre in a fucking war. Keep battling.
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains.  'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
YES. It is normal for quitters to have that shit. You are NOT ALONE. Hell I'm 4 days from a year and still get some anxiety. I'll take it over cancer and being controlled by the nic bitch any day of the week. I does get better though, I'm not trying to scare you by any means. Just being honest.
Keep on fighting. And keep everything in ONE intro. It's cooler to look back on ALL this shit one day when it's under one roof, sort of speak. (I also did this when I first quit, had like 4 intros going).
yea.,
I didn't think about the Intro thing.
Just needed to vent the fucking anxiety. mild ear ache in my head is morphed into jaw cancer probably just the fucking pollen and normal spring sinus infection.. any one else play that head game?
Feeling a little paranoid crazy right now about it .. Not about the quit but the result of my usage.
My normal dental appt is 3 month away. I have always been religious about it. and things have been good on that..
I can handle the nic dreams. just want the fear and anxiety (and minor aches to disappear)
Yes. I can. I did the same shit. Everytime I'd have a stomach ache, a cold, the flu, bit my tongue, had a canker sore, etc...every day normal shit, I blamed it on my quit and thought I was dieing, which caused me mass quantities of anxiety.
Dont do the same. Its a fucking waste and will cause you useless anxiety that will only make things worse.
I'm no doctor but i can almost guarantee you are fine. Make an appointment to get a physical, push up your dental appointment date for piece of mind if you wish.
I know from experience this is WAAAAAY easier said than done, but don't let the nic bitch play head games with you.
Hang tough bro. Youre in a fucking war. Keep battling.
Since I quit, I see everything as cancer. My doc told me to stop looking online at cancer symptoms. If I didn't have health insurance, Id be broke with how much I have bothered her in the last 6 weeks. I took her advice and for the last few weeks I worry a lot less. Funny that you talk about the ear ache. I had the same thought cross my mind the other day. But I'm betting cancer makes your ear REALLY ache. My theory now a days is that I'm not gonna worry. If I get cancer I will KNOW something is wrong. Of course that doesn't mean to avoid doc checkups....
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Diesel is right. Dip dreams, anxiety, paranoia...all normal and expected. Here's what to do...TURN the TABLES on the Nic Bitch and EMBRACE her bullshit! See these antics for what they are...signs you are winning!!!
In the very early days, minutes are indistiguishable. The Fog runs together in a caucophony of suck. But after a couple of weeks or months, it is difficult to measure the progress...Day 17 or 39 or whatever...all starts to sorta feels the same.
So, thankfully, the Nic Bitch sends little reminders of the cell she used to keep you in. Learn to laugh at her feeble attempts to lure you back. Just say the following out loud, "Nice try, Bitch...but you'll have to do better than that!!! I'm never going back. I'll be here all day kicking the shit out of you."
Stay strong, stay quit. You got this, brothers!!!
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains.  'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
YES. It is normal for quitters to have that shit. You are NOT ALONE. Hell I'm 4 days from a year and still get some anxiety. I'll take it over cancer and being controlled by the nic bitch any day of the week. I does get better though, I'm not trying to scare you by any means. Just being honest.
Keep on fighting. And keep everything in ONE intro. It's cooler to look back on ALL this shit one day when it's under one roof, sort of speak. (I also did this when I first quit, had like 4 intros going).
yea.,
I didn't think about the Intro thing.
Just needed to vent the fucking anxiety. mild ear ache in my head is morphed into jaw cancer probably just the fucking pollen and normal spring sinus infection.. any one else play that head game?
Feeling a little paranoid crazy right now about it .. Not about the quit but the result of my usage.
My normal dental appt is 3 month away. I have always been religious about it. and things have been good on that..
I can handle the nic dreams. just want the fear and anxiety (and minor aches to disappear)
Yes. I can. I did the same shit. Everytime I'd have a stomach ache, a cold, the flu, bit my tongue, had a canker sore, etc...every day normal shit, I blamed it on my quit and thought I was dieing, which caused me mass quantities of anxiety.
Dont do the same. Its a fucking waste and will cause you useless anxiety that will only make things worse.
I'm no doctor but i can almost guarantee you are fine. Make an appointment to get a physical, push up your dental appointment date for piece of mind if you wish.
I know from experience this is WAAAAAY easier said than done, but don't let the nic bitch play head games with you.
Hang tough bro. Youre in a fucking war. Keep battling.
Thanks All!!
the fucking game, I will see my doc as planned anyway b4 vacation and dentist /hygenist at 6 months when the phucking insurance will pay again.
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I'm on day 298 and last week I had 3 dip dreams in one night. I've had dreams with dip, cigs, and cigars in them. So yes, dip dreams are very normal. I like them in a strange way now, especially this far into my quit, because they vividly take me right back to day one and give me a glimpse of all the guilt that a cave would bring.
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I'm on day 298 and last week I had 3 dip dreams in one night. I've had dreams with dip, cigs, and cigars in them. So yes, dip dreams are very normal. I like them in a strange way now, especially this far into my quit, because they vividly take me right back to day one and give me a glimpse of all the guilt that a cave would bring.
CD,
I know the dreaming is a pretty normal part of it all I quit boozing and drugging 27 yrs ago, and still have using dreams. One recently when Colorado legalized weed was so vivid, i woke up sweating and crying.
the waking anxiety bullshit is what has been kicking me in the nuts. I know prayer and time are the only fixes to these. but damn i want my serenity back.
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I'm on day 298 and last week I had 3 dip dreams in one night. I've had dreams with dip, cigs, and cigars in them. So yes, dip dreams are very normal. I like them in a strange way now, especially this far into my quit, because they vividly take me right back to day one and give me a glimpse of all the guilt that a cave would bring.
CD,
I know the dreaming is a pretty normal part of it all I quit boozing and drugging 27 yrs ago, and still have using dreams. One recently when Colorado legalized weed was so vivid, i woke up sweating and crying.
the waking anxiety bullshit is what has been kicking me in the nuts. I know prayer and time are the only fixes to these. but damn i want my serenity back.
I feel you bud! It is just the Nic Bitch taking shots at you when you are asleep. We poisoned ourselves for a long time. It is going to take time to unwrap all of that damage. Its normal and even though they suck, it is a sign of healing!! 221 days into my quit and i have them all of the time. The anxiety will lower the further you are removed from actually using. I do not even wake up from them much anymore. You are winning my man!!
Quit with you!!
J
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man its been a wile sinse i had a dip dream but they still happin at times. prolly the most remememberabul one was bout a month afore i got my comma. i rememember it cuz me and irenman07 were gonna be at a race and in my drieam i showed up with a full lipper. man i was pissed in my dream. i was pissed when i woke up. but you no what? i love the dip dreams makin me pissed cuz it makes my rezolve that much stronger. bitch. is. losin.
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I'm on day 298 and last week I had 3 dip dreams in one night. I've had dreams with dip, cigs, and cigars in them. So yes, dip dreams are very normal. I like them in a strange way now, especially this far into my quit, because they vividly take me right back to day one and give me a glimpse of all the guilt that a cave would bring.
CD,
I know the dreaming is a pretty normal part of it all I quit boozing and drugging 27 yrs ago, and still have using dreams. One recently when Colorado legalized weed was so vivid, i woke up sweating and crying.
the waking anxiety bullshit is what has been kicking me in the nuts. I know prayer and time are the only fixes to these. but damn i want my serenity back.
The serenity will come, as I'm sure you've been told ad naseum already. I increased my caffeine intake a lot for the first 6 or 7 months of quitting, to substitute the stimulant. About six weeks ago, I took a month long break, and I have to say I started having dip dreams from the caffeine withdrawal. I hadn't had any cave dreams in a while before that. So it could be the conscious stress that is causing the dreams, not the other way around. Anyways, it gets a lot better. Hang in there dude!
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My better 1/2 has requested i give up the smokey mountain as well. guess i will respect that request since i lied my sorry ass off for the last 10 years about the nicotine crap. it's the least i can do to try and earn some respect back.
29 days and health anxiety causing me neck pains.
Went to chiropractor yesterday, fucking full of knots.
Went to GP today, he gave me a muscle relaxant and Zoloft for anxiety.
He wants me on Zoloft for 6 months to see if the anxiety abates.
I've been posting in roll, but been busy as hell and needed to vent the anxiety a bit again.
Fuck this nic bitch, i don't remember quitting booze, weed, cocaine or cigs being anything like this crap.
Embrace the SUCK.. I NEVER WANT THIS CRAP BACK!!
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains. 'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
Hell I just had a nic dream last night about Timberwolf peach. Never in my past life would I have touched that stuff and in my dream I was ninja dipping it like it was going out of style.
I've had several nic dreams in my 37 days of freedom and I have come to one conclusion: My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me.
Stay strong. Everything is gonna be just fine.
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains. 'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
Hell I just had a nic dream last night about Timberwolf peach. Never in my past life would I have touched that stuff and in my dream I was ninja dipping it like it was going out of style.
I've had several nic dreams in my 37 days of freedom and I have come to one conclusion: My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me.
Stay strong. Everything is gonna be just fine.
This made me literally lol.
"My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me."
That's good stuff!
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24 days quit on,
and had 1st nic dream, wasn't dip, it was a Salem Light, (my preferred stick before i quit in 1989)..
Fucking mind is playing games, lot of anxiety, every little ache and pain is a symptom of somthing bigger. at 54 going on 55 there are a lot of little aches and pains.  'bang head'
Guessing it's normal for a Quitter to have that shit?
Hell I just had a nic dream last night about Timberwolf peach. Never in my past life would I have touched that stuff and in my dream I was ninja dipping it like it was going out of style.
I've had several nic dreams in my 37 days of freedom and I have come to one conclusion: My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me.
Stay strong. Everything is gonna be just fine.
This made me literally lol.
"My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me."
That's good stuff!
I never had one cave dream until I was 500 days quit. Then, one nearly knocked me on my ass.
Last week, I had 3 consecutive nights of them.
They suck, but they aren't real.
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I've had several nic dreams in my 37 days of freedom and I have come to one conclusion: My dream persona is a (excuse my language) pussy ass bitch who doesn't have the balls to be quit like me.
This one is going on my wall.
I'm quit with you today nebraskadad, wastepanel, Lion Heart, and Mollies Master (whoever Mollie is...I'm intrigued...although it might be your dog)
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Had a stogie dream this morning, big phat blunt stub in my mouth and a good billow of smoke around my face and someone comes in and busts me with it. Wake up in a cold fucking sweat.
Oh the fucking joy of it all. it's only a dream, whew.. back to sleep.
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Had a stogie dream this morning, big phat blunt stub in my mouth and a good billow of smoke around my face and someone comes in and busts me with it. Wake up in a cold fucking sweat.
Oh the fucking joy of it all. it's only a dream, whew.. back to sleep.
You have some crazy dreams nba. lmao
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Had a stogie dream this morning, big phat blunt stub in my mouth and a good billow of smoke around my face and someone comes in and busts me with it. Wake up in a cold fucking sweat.
Oh the fucking joy of it all. it's only a dream, whew.. back to sleep.
You have some crazy dreams nba. lmao
gotta luv those dreams, i think it my brains way of telling me i am healing from the self inflicted injuries of the past.
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Day 36, went to chiropractor 2nd time for "stress shoulders" been wearing the fucking stress since pitching the dip. Finally feeling some of the tension leave.
feeling freer than i've felt in a decade.
thanks Ed, OF, jayd, Roman for helping in this venture.
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Day 36, went to chiropractor 2nd time for "stress shoulders" been wearing the fucking stress since pitching the dip. Finally feeling some of the tension leave.
feeling freer than i've felt in a decade.
thanks Ed, OF, jayd, Roman for helping in this venture.
you got it big dog
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Day 36, went to chiropractor 2nd time for "stress shoulders" been wearing the fucking stress since pitching the dip. Finally feeling some of the tension leave.
feeling freer than i've felt in a decade.
thanks Ed, OF, jayd, Roman for helping in this venture.
you got it big dog
Way to 'be quit' nebraskadad58! 'bang head'
it gets better and better and better....Cheers to You! 'bang head'
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Keep it up. you're quit and thanks for the support. I quit with you today.
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Day 52 and Sanity is slowly returning. Man o' fucking man the anxiety the last couple days has dropped down 10 fold. Could be the Decaf, Could be the walking, or could be the Zoloft, not sure which or combination there of.
Thanks all for the help to this point.
EdR, thanks for the texts,
Noobs checking in for the 1st time, and either lurking or wondering if you can do this. Don't think about it, just throw the can in a remote dumpster so you don't dig it out and don't look back.
Get Sunflower Seeds, Fake Dip, or hard candy. Drink H20 by the gallon, and drop your caffeine intake. If you need to see a doc or a dentist do so. DO NOT I repeat DO NOT use Nicotine in ANY form. Gum NO. Cigs, NO. Fake Cigs with NIC NO, On ad naseum, all are lies.
if you want to quit you have to commit.
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Day 52 and Sanity is slowly returning. Man o' fucking man the anxiety the last couple days has dropped down 10 fold. Could be the Decaf, Could be the walking, or could be the Zoloft, not sure which or combination there of.
Thanks all for the help to this point.
EdR, thanks for the texts,
Noobs checking in for the 1st time, and either lurking or wondering if you can do this. Don't think about it, just throw the can in a remote dumpster so you don't dig it out and don't look back.
Get Sunflower Seeds, Fake Dip, or hard candy. Drink H20 by the gallon, and drop your caffeine intake. If you need to see a doc or a dentist do so. DO NOT I repeat DO NOT use Nicotine in ANY form. Gum NO. Cigs, NO. Fake Cigs with NIC NO, On ad naseum, all are lies.
if you want to quit you have to commit.
Your welcome for the texts and hey thank you for being there when I reach out. Damn there's that brotherhood thing again lol! Hey you've come long way. This is probably the calmest post I've seen from you yet! I quit with you.
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Day 52 and Sanity is slowly returning. Man o' fucking man the anxiety the last couple days has dropped down 10 fold. Could be the Decaf, Could be the walking, or could be the Zoloft, not sure which or combination there of.
Thanks all for the help to this point.
EdR, thanks for the texts,
Noobs checking in for the 1st time, and either lurking or wondering if you can do this. Don't think about it, just throw the can in a remote dumpster so you don't dig it out and don't look back.
Get Sunflower Seeds, Fake Dip, or hard candy. Drink H20 by the gallon, and drop your caffeine intake. If you need to see a doc or a dentist do so. DO NOT I repeat DO NOT use Nicotine in ANY form. Gum NO. Cigs, NO. Fake Cigs with NIC NO, On ad naseum, all are lies.
if you want to quit you have to commit.
Your welcome for the texts and hey thank you for being there when I reach out. Damn there's that brotherhood thing again lol! Hey you've come long way. This is probably the calmest post I've seen from you yet! I quit with you.
Much calmer than Eruss on a patch...lol No really Eruss is on to something you seem to be owning this mother fucker Neb Dad...proud of you.
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Day 52 and Sanity is slowly returning. Man o' fucking man the anxiety the last couple days has dropped down 10 fold. Could be the Decaf, Could be the walking, or could be the Zoloft, not sure which or combination there of.
Thanks all for the help to this point.
EdR, thanks for the texts,
Noobs checking in for the 1st time, and either lurking or wondering if you can do this. Don't think about it, just throw the can in a remote dumpster so you don't dig it out and don't look back.
Get Sunflower Seeds, Fake Dip, or hard candy. Drink H20 by the gallon, and drop your caffeine intake. If you need to see a doc or a dentist do so. DO NOT I repeat DO NOT use Nicotine in ANY form. Gum NO. Cigs, NO. Fake Cigs with NIC NO, On ad naseum, all are lies.
if you want to quit you have to commit.
Your welcome for the texts and hey thank you for being there when I reach out. Damn there's that brotherhood thing again lol! Hey you've come long way. This is probably the calmest post I've seen from you yet! I quit with you.
Much calmer than Eruss on a patch...lol No really Eruss is on to something you seem to be owning this mother fucker Neb Dad...proud of you.
Living and owning it today,
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Day 52 and Sanity is slowly returning. Man o' fucking man the anxiety the last couple days has dropped down 10 fold. Could be the Decaf, Could be the walking, or could be the Zoloft, not sure which or combination there of.
Thanks all for the help to this point.
EdR, thanks for the texts,
Noobs checking in for the 1st time, and either lurking or wondering if you can do this. Don't think about it, just throw the can in a remote dumpster so you don't dig it out and don't look back.
Get Sunflower Seeds, Fake Dip, or hard candy. Drink H20 by the gallon, and drop your caffeine intake. If you need to see a doc or a dentist do so. DO NOT I repeat DO NOT use Nicotine in ANY form. Gum NO. Cigs, NO. Fake Cigs with NIC NO, On ad naseum, all are lies.
if you want to quit you have to commit.
Your welcome for the texts and hey thank you for being there when I reach out. Damn there's that brotherhood thing again lol! Hey you've come long way. This is probably the calmest post I've seen from you yet! I quit with you.
Much calmer than Eruss on a patch...lol No really Eruss is on to something you seem to be owning this mother fucker Neb Dad...proud of you.
Living and owning it today,
NEdad, Eruss is right you have come a long way. I am extremely proud of you and the effort you have put forth. I am so happy that my prayers for you were answered. Have a great week-end.
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NBA, you have come a long ways. If you haven't done so, read back through your intro. You went from a person that wanted to quit, but didn't know what, when, where, and wtf. You were bound and determined to make it happen though.
You found this sight, listened, payed attention and absorbed what people told you. You began to take ahold of this quit and now you are a quitting machine. That's the ktc way brother. You are now an inspiration to a lot of quitters. You help other quitters and you are taking it one day at a time with complete control.
Now you know what, when, where and wtf is going on. Stay the course, keep adding them 1's. I'm glad to be quit with you brother.
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BUMP! Because nebraskadad is a fucking inspiration...
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BUMP! Because nebraskadad is a fucking inspiration...
Thanks Wade, I am a fucking addict keeping the dip from the lip one day at a time for 72 days now.
heading on vacation with the wife tomorrow, 1st time in ten years without a plug of Oliver Twist (my favored Stealth Mechanism) whilst on vacation.
will be texting a couple people on KTC while gone daily to keep my ass current in Roll Call.. sketchy phone coverage and no wifi..
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Tomorrow is a big day for you. Man look how far we've came and how amazing this brotherhood is, your seat is warm and I've got you pot of coffee brewing since your also no longer a slave to alcohol. I quit with you.
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Tomorrow is a big day for you. Man look how far we've came and how amazing this brotherhood is, your seat is warm and I've got you pot of coffee brewing since your also no longer a slave to alcohol. I quit with you.
Nicely done. See you tomorrow on the quit trail.
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Congrats on HOF bro. Well done see back in the am! Quit with you.
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Congrats on HOF bro. Well done see back in the am! Quit with you.
Proud of you nba... Never doubted you for a second. It was clear from your first day. You came to QLF. I'll be glad to quit with you for another 100,, see you tomorrow brother.
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Awesome! Great job nebraskadad.