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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: agh2o on March 18, 2014, 04:17:00 PM
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I have decided to add my story to this forum and join my quit group today. I guess it is better late than never. I found this site 10 days ago and the stories and information have really helped me deal with my recent issues. I was scared to share my story before, but I didn't figure it was fair to use the information on this site without contributing something. After all, I have related to so many of your stories and experiences and they have helped me in many ways. Maybe someone can relate to my story.
I have been chewing since I was 16 and I am almost 30 now. Anything from Skoal to Copenhagen, no preference really just anything I could get my hands on. I also smoked, but only when I drank. I thought it was just a nasty habit that I could quit anytime that I wanted. I was incredibly naive to the toll it was taking on my mind and body. I would always reason that I wasn't addicted because I would only have 2-3 dips a day and I only smoked when drinking.
I quit chewing and smoking on 2/11/2014. I was simply just tired of hiding it from my wife and son - tired of living a lie - tired of having this nasty "habit". I knew it wasn't good for me and that I finally needed to stop something that I had been doing for 14 years. I thought it would be easy, I had no idea what I was in for.
I was having issues soon after I quit. I didn't attribute any of these to nicotine withdrawal until I found this site. I was very naive and wish I would have found the site before I quit.
Panic attacks after the first week and still some issues to this day - although I am much better at controlling these now. I saw a doctor for this issue in week 4 to get checked out and everything is fine with me physically except for being a little overweight. The Fog hit me hard from weeks 3 to 5, but has lifted now - again, I didn't know there was a thing called the fog until I found this site. Hot flashes were a bitch for a while. Now I am having a hard time sleeping without waking up in the middle of the night and it is hard to get motivated some days.
My life has also greatly improved since I quit. I feel better physically and I even sweat less. I exercise more. I don't have to worry about my gums receding any further. Don't have to worry about how to sneak in dips when my wife was around - go for a drive, mow the lawn, take out the trash. I even came clean to my wife about my chewing addiction and she has been incredibly supportive - our relationship has gotten closer since I quit. I let my son stay up later because I don't have to have a dip after putting him to bed. I think of all the time that nicotine has stolen from me, time I could have been spending with my family instead I was dipping. I was a slave to nicotine, but no longer. I am done with the nic bitch!
I wish I would have wrote this sooner and would have found this site before I quit. But I am here now and can only promise to be quit one day a time and contribute to this site.
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GREAT CHOICE, Agh2o!!! You've been at it by yourself for over a month?!!! You are a bad-ass quitter. Welcome to the KTC!!!
The rules are simple...post roll keep your word. You've taken the first step. We've got your back the rest of the way. Click on the Welcome Center link about and read everything you can. Learn how and why we post roll. Then do it.
YOU GOT THIS, BROTHER!!!
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agh, that is some great stuff. It's hard to go through the "suck" and it has to be harder going through it alone. All things mentioned are experiences that hit close to home with most of. The time away from family, the guilt, the I didn't even realize how bad I was addicted feelings, but here we are. We will suport you throughout your quit. As you see, one day at a time. The price of admission to be on this site is to post roll. Everyday you post your name, number of days quit and a promise to us and yourself that you will not use nicotine that day on roll call. Your HOF group will be May.
Great work on the journey thus far. Proud to have you in here. I quit with you today.
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congrats on taking your freedom back. Welcome to KTC. This is the right place.
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I have decided to add my story to this forum and join my quit group today. I guess it is better late than never. I found this site 10 days ago and the stories and information have really helped me deal with my recent issues. I was scared to share my story before, but I didn't figure it was fair to use the information on this site without contributing something. After all, I have related to so many of your stories and experiences and they have helped me in many ways. Maybe someone can relate to my story.
I have been chewing since I was 16 and I am almost 30 now. Anything from Skoal to Copenhagen, no preference really just anything I could get my hands on. I also smoked, but only when I drank. I thought it was just a nasty habit that I could quit anytime that I wanted. I was incredibly naive to the toll it was taking on my mind and body. I would always reason that I wasn't addicted because I would only have 2-3 dips a day and I only smoked when drinking.
I quit chewing and smoking on 2/11/2014. I was simply just tired of hiding it from my wife and son - tired of living a lie - tired of having this nasty "habit". I knew it wasn't good for me and that I finally needed to stop something that I had been doing for 14 years. I thought it would be easy, I had no idea what I was in for.
I was having issues soon after I quit. I didn't attribute any of these to nicotine withdrawal until I found this site. I was very naive and wish I would have found the site before I quit.
Panic attacks after the first week and still some issues to this day - although I am much better at controlling these now. I saw a doctor for this issue in week 4 to get checked out and everything is fine with me physically except for being a little overweight. The Fog hit me hard from weeks 3 to 5, but has lifted now - again, I didn't know there was a thing called the fog until I found this site. Hot flashes were a bitch for a while. Now I am having a hard time sleeping without waking up in the middle of the night and it is hard to get motivated some days.
My life has also greatly improved since I quit. I feel better physically and I even sweat less. I exercise more. I don't have to worry about my gums receding any further. Don't have to worry about how to sneak in dips when my wife was around - go for a drive, mow the lawn, take out the trash. I even came clean to my wife about my chewing addiction and she has been incredibly supportive - our relationship has gotten closer since I quit. I let my son stay up later because I don't have to have a dip after putting him to bed. I think of all the time that nicotine has stolen from me, time I could have been spending with my family instead I was dipping. I was a slave to nicotine, but no longer. I am done with the nic bitch!
I wish I would have wrote this sooner and would have found this site before I quit. But I am here now and can only promise to be quit one day a time and contribute to this site.
Good to have you on the quit side. You will still have funks, fogs and anxiety. No one can take that away. However the best thing for me...and I didn't understand ther real meaning of quit only for today until about 30 days into my quit.
Only worry and battle today. Don't mentally try to conserve in prep for tomorrow. You really don't know how you will feel tomorrow. Just embrace today and love the good feelings or embrace the suck. The good keeps getting better and the bad keeps getting less frequent.
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Awesome man! You're in the right place, I assure you of that! We're all in this together, so we all got your back. If you need anything man, you can get a hold of me.
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Welcome. Keep up the fight. It will get easier. Remember no nicotine at all, post roll and keep your word.
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Proud to have you with us. Quit one day at a time. Anyone can do anything for one day. Then, do it again tomorrow.
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Welcome and you have a great quit going! I'm not sure I could have done it without KTC. ODAAT and post roll everyday.
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Thanks for all of the kind words. The support from others that are quit means so much. I really didn't expect to see so many replies of support. Thanks again. Another day quit!
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Day 43 - starting week seven being quit! Five weeks ago I never though I would be here, but here I am. And I am looking forward to keep adding up the +1 - one day at a time.
So glad I found this place and started posting roll, it has really helped strengthen my quit and reading and learning from others that have gone through the same experiences has really helped.
I still have some anxiety and sleep issues, but because of all of the knowledge and wisdom on ktc I am learning to embrace this suck. What really helps is not being fearful of my anxiety or sleep problems. Instead of worrying about worrying, I say FU nic bitch - you crazy bitch - bring it on - whatever you throw at me I know I can move on and enjoy life without you and your deceiving ways! I know there will be more hard times ahead, but I never want to go back to day 1. I never want to go through those first weeks again where I thought I was going crazy, where I thought I might lose my job because I couldn't do anything productive, where I couldn't get motivated to do anything. F that noise.
Was at a party this weekend with all of my friends that use nicotine. I told them I quit and they respected it. Told them if they ever wanted to quit to let me know and I can send them to the right place. I noticed how much nicotine still has control over them - chew, cigs, even e-cigs. This is something I would have never noticed before. Being there with the nicotine slaves really made me happy that I decided to quit and take my life back.
Anyway - thanks to everyone that contributes to this site. I believe it is one of the reasons that has helped me stay quit. I wanted to write all of this down so that I have a record of some of my thoughts that I can file away and look back at sometime.
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Day 43 - starting week seven being quit! Five weeks ago I never though I would be here, but here I am. And I am looking forward to keep adding up the +1 - one day at a time.
So glad I found this place and started posting roll, it has really helped strengthen my quit and reading and learning from others that have gone through the same experiences has really helped.
I still have some anxiety and sleep issues, but because of all of the knowledge and wisdom on ktc I am learning to embrace this suck. What really helps is not being fearful of my anxiety or sleep problems. Instead of worrying about worrying, I say FU nic bitch - you crazy bitch - bring it on - whatever you throw at me I know I can move on and enjoy life without you and your deceiving ways! I know there will be more hard times ahead, but I never want to go back to day 1. I never want to go through those first weeks again where I thought I was going crazy, where I thought I might lose my job because I couldn't do anything productive, where I couldn't get motivated to do anything. F that noise.
Was at a party this weekend with all of my friends that use nicotine. I told them I quit and they respected it. Told them if they ever wanted to quit to let me know and I can send them to the right place. I noticed how much nicotine still has control over them - chew, cigs, even e-cigs. This is something I would have never noticed before. Being there with the nicotine slaves really made me happy that I decided to quit and take my life back.
Anyway - thanks to everyone that contributes to this site. I believe it is one of the reasons that has helped me stay quit. I wanted to write all of this down so that I have a record of some of my thoughts that I can file away and look back at sometime.
Way to go, Ho!
You deserve to feel good about not being a slave to the bitch like your friends.
You have 43 days under your belt. Keep doing what you are and you will win. Reading posts like yours helps strengthen my quit.
Thanks for sharing.
Quit with you.
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Day 43 - starting week seven being quit! Five weeks ago I never though I would be here, but here I am. And I am looking forward to keep adding up the +1 - one day at a time.
So glad I found this place and started posting roll, it has really helped strengthen my quit and reading and learning from others that have gone through the same experiences has really helped.Â
I still have some anxiety and sleep issues, but because of all of the knowledge and wisdom on ktc I am learning to embrace this suck. What really helps is not being fearful of my anxiety or sleep problems. Instead of worrying about worrying, I say FU nic bitch - you crazy bitch - bring it on - whatever you throw at me I know I can move on and enjoy life without you and your deceiving ways! I know there will be more hard times ahead, but I never want to go back to day 1. I never want to go through those first weeks again where I thought I was going crazy, where I thought I might lose my job because I couldn't do anything productive, where I couldn't get motivated to do anything. F that noise.
Was at a party this weekend with all of my friends that use nicotine. I told them I quit and they respected it. Told them if they ever wanted to quit to let me know and I can send them to the right place. I noticed how much nicotine still has control over them - chew, cigs, even e-cigs. This is something I would have never noticed before. Being there with the nicotine slaves really made me happy that I decided to quit and take my life back.Â
Anyway - thanks to everyone that contributes to this site. I believe it is one of the reasons that has helped me stay quit. I wanted to write all of this down so that I have a record of some of my thoughts that I can file away and look back at sometime.
Way to go, Ho!
You deserve to feel good about not being a slave to the bitch like your friends.
You have 43 days under your belt. Keep doing what you are and you will win. Reading posts like yours helps strengthen my quit.
Thanks for sharing.
Quit with you.
Well done! 43 days of quit is outstanding. You should be proud
I like your attitude ... Embrace the Suck. Remember this suck and never, ever forget it. That is key. You never want to do it again!
Keep at it ODAAT. You are winning the battle over the Nic B today!
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Happy Birthday!! 'Sing and Drink'
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Well done indeed. PM if you need anything. You've got this.
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Thanks! Day 50 and my 30th Bday today. Nice to not be nic's bitch anymore.
Taking it one day at a time and adding up those +1s.
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Thanks! Day 50 and my 30th Bday today. Nice to not be nic's bitch anymore.
Taking it one day at a time and adding up those +1s.
bingo! well done
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Thanks! Day 50 and my 30th Bday today. Nice to not be nic's bitch anymore.
Taking it one day at a time and adding up those +1s.
bingo! well done
200! OUTFUCKINGSTANDING!!!!
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Thanks! Day 50 and my 30th Bday today. Nice to not be nic's bitch anymore.
Taking it one day at a time and adding up those +1s.
bingo! well done
200! OUTFUCKINGSTANDING!!!!
Holy crap. Thanks for dusting off this one slug.
Thanks to everyone for keeping me quit. Another +1 today!
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Congrats on 300! 'oh yeah'
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Congrats on 300! 'oh yeah'
'I'm with stupid' 'worship' 'worship'